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gee i really love thursday. [22 Apr 2003|10:46pm] What Thursday Song Are You? brought to you by Quizilla post comment

thursday is my favorite band. [22 Apr 2003|08:30pm] [ mood | thankful ] [ music | american idol ] you're thursday! a hardcore form of emo, you let the anger flow and convey your emotion through the always effective method of screaming. you tend to scare those with delicate ears, but that's what you're here for. What Emo Band Are You? brought to you by Quizilla post comment

[22 Apr 2003|06:17pm] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | haligh haligh a lie haligh ] ANGER--- 1. Who did you last get angry with? my brother 2. What is your weapon of choice? gun...oh yeah, and my brain. 3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? no 4.How about of the same sex? not unless they tried to hit me first. i'm not an immature little girl. 5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? my mom 6. What is your pet peeve? people who fight. grow up. 7.Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? i usually hold grudges against idiots who have a problem with me for no reason. ahem. SLOTH-- 1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time? taken a crap!! haha. i never poop. 2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? 5:30 PM i think. 3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't: Melia 4. What is the last lame excuse you made? "i didn't see it! it just jumped out at me..." after i ran a stop sign. 5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones...)? i've watched many infomercials all the way through...my favorite is the alexis vogel make up one. 6.When was the last time you got a good workout? it's been a while. last summer i was obsessed with working out. i got so burnt out on it; i haven't worked out since. 7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? i hit it once. GLUTTONY-- 1.What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? diet coke is the only drink i really like. it's good. yum. 2. Meat eaters: dark meat or light meat? light meat. i like chicken. 3.What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event?: i've only drank about 4 or 5 times in my life and decided it wasn't for me. i don't wanna talk about it. 4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? Nope. 5. Do you have an issue with your weight? i would like to lose about 5 or 10 pounds. a lot of people say i'm built really well though. 6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? usually salty. 7.Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, "LUNCH!"? never. LUST--- 1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? i'd say about 10. 2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family?) counting female friends, probably about 8. 3.Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? yeah..but only if they have HUGE boobs or funny looking ones!! haha. i am easily amused. 4. Have you "done it?" oh lord. this isn't first grade. just ask me if i've had sex ya loser. 5.What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? i don't have a favorite part. i just don't like guys to be too skinny or fat. 6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? no 7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? no GREED--- 1. How many credit cards do you own? i have a visa buxx...haha go me. i need it for ebay, duh. 2. What's your guilty pleasure store? wal-mart! hahaha. 3.If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? go to the bank, get it in all ones, buy a cheap above ground pool, fill up the pool, and go swimming <3 4. Would you rather be rich or famous? this question is dumb. if you're famous, you're most likely going to be rich. dumbies. 5.Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? duh. of course. 6. Have you ever stolen anything? one time i got a shirt stuck on so i had to take it..haha. bad excuse. 7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? 756. <3 to the cable connection. PRIDE 1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of? gotten my life back on track. 2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? my grades & getting my life back on track. 3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life? i want to be very, very happy. 4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? i don't usually race or compete. 5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? nope. 6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? yep! 7. What did you do today that you're proud of? i drove good :D ENVY 1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? i have everything materialistic that i want. 2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? i've never seen the show...couldn't tell ya. 3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? no one. i'm happy with being me. 4. Have you ever been cheated on? yes. 5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? yeah, but not too often. 6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? a reaaaaaly fast metabolism 7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey? this is not original. 8. Finally, what is your favourite deadly sin? i don't like to sin. The Seven Heavenly Virtues FAITH 1. What religion do you follow? i don't know. i believe in God, Jesus, & most of The Bible. 2. What religion were you raised as? Pentacostal 3. Do you believe that forgiveness is a religious property, or a human property? both. 4. Do you believe in magic? yes. 5. What was the last promise you broke? no clue. 6. Have you ever said the words to a prayer and not meant it? when i was younger. 7. Do you believe that anyone could be perfect? no one but Jesus is perfect. HOPE 1. Did you get everything you wanted over the last holiday season? i didn't really even want anything. 2. Regarding your future, what is the best thing you could hope for? to be happy & successful. 3. Do you let yourself get your hopes up for something even if you know that there is a large chance of failure? sometimes. 5. Have you ever bought a lottery ticket? nope. 6. Do you gamble? nope. 7. Have you ever had something called off on account of bad weather, but then gone ahead and done it anyway? uh. no... CHARITY 1. What causes do you support? whatever presents itself to me usually. 2. What causes have you given money or time to? the bums that wait outside the reds games. 3. Have you ever worked in a soup kitchen or done another kind of outreach for the homeless? nope. 4. Would you ever consider joining the Peace Corps, Amnesty International, or another travel?i don't know enough about it. 5. Do you give money to the homeless on the street? sometimes 6. Have you ever helped out a friend with basic needs, like rent or food? i guess so. 7. What's the greatest extent you've gone to help a friend in need? money is all i have to offer...haha. and i'll listen. FORTITUDE 1. What are you most afraid of? death. 2. What did you do today that was really brave? i don't know. 3. Who is your favourite superhero, and why? superman because the story is intriguing. 4. Would you put your life in danger to rescue someone? yeah, i would...it would be hard, though. 5. If you were to face the Wizard, would you want more courage, more brains, or more heart? more brains i guess..i'm very smart, but it would be fun to be a genius. 6. Have you ever gotten stage fright? yep. in the 7th grade play..haha. 7. Do you consider yourself to be a leader or a follower? i am a leader. JUSTICE 1. Have you ever been summoned for jury duty? no, i'm too young. 2. If they reinstituted the draft (for both genders), would you go, or would find some way out of it? i'd go 3. Do you support capital punishment (the death penalty)? yes. 4. Which should be guaranteed legal? huh?? 5. Do you believe that Dubya is rightfully President of the USA? yes. 6. What was your favourite media circus trial? bill cliton 7. Have you ever written a letter to a politician? negatory. TEMPERANCE 1. What do you have the hardest time moderating yourself on? peole who lie. 2. Do you collect anything? diet coke cans..hah. 3. Are you addicted to anything? i'm addicted to loveeeeeeeee 4. Have you ever put anything on layaway or used an instalment plan? never. 5. What's your preferred method of paying for things? cash 6. Tell us one thing you wish you hadn't let yourself do? meet ray. 7. Do you feel that you obsess over things? yes...particularly my car. PRUDENCE 1. Who is the wisest person you know? my dad 2. Have you ever participated in a vigil? nope 4. What area are you wisest in? getting lives back on track and doing the right thing. 5. Do you drive defensively? sure do! 6. Have you ever had unprotected sex outside of marriage? yeah. big mistake. 7. What did you learn today? i can be a good phony. 8. And of course, what is your favourite heavenly virtue? justice. on other people of course post comment

you'd always be there, well where are you now? [21 Apr 2003|11:22pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | "haligh, haligh, a lie, haligh" - bright eyes ] Big news !!!! I GOT A CAR !!! it's a 2003 mustang <333 it only has 150 miles on it as of now. i love it. brrrrrrrrand new <333 it's red & really pretty. i have to shake them hatas off when i drive it. today i took a nap when i got home & then i woke up. i went downstairs to go read a magazine and eat s'morez cerial & ryan stopped by. he wanted to see my mommy, but she wasn't home. so he was playing with the stuff laying around on the counter and he found this walkie talkie, so he went outside and started talking to mexicans on it. funny stuff man. meanwhile, i sat on the couch and read my magazine when he came back inside and took ugly pictures of me with the camera on my dad's cell phone. then, i tried to steal the phone from him but that didn't work. so he left and i got online. then greg & i went to go show neil & devon my car. they both liked it. my car is pimp. <33333 to my car. then i came home & watched mr. personality. not as good as i thought it would be :/ ah well. i'm tired. i kinda have a headache! oh well! new car !!!! post comment

don't wake me i plan on sleeping... [14 Apr 2003|11:25pm] [ mood | so dang happy dood! ] [ music | THE POSTAL SERVICE - "SLEEPING IN" ] well golly gee, today was a grrrreat day! i didn't want to go back to school today, but i did & it was all good. we got our prom pictures today, and me & joey's are sooo cute. aww. how 'dorable. anyway, i came home, took a power nap, and headed off to work. i reaaaaallly didn't want to go to work, but it wasn't bad at all! in fact, it was pretty cool. i'm starting to feel like there's lots of hope for me & a job. haha. i don't know i am/was so worried. anyways, it's bedtimeeeeeeee <3 later kids. YOU ARE EMO! Congratulations, you have a big, sensitive heart and you use it, abuse it, wear it, tear it, make it, break it, and everything inbetween! It all hurts and yet feels so good at the same time! Be careful though; you're sensitive and when you love, you love deeply, and as a result get hurt easily. Are you EMO? brought to you by Quizilla 1 comment|post comment

a long survey, yo! [13 Apr 2003|11:40pm] [ mood | relaxed ] [ music | The Postal Service - "district sleeps alone tonight" ] [my name is]: Alisa [in the morning i am]: wishing i could be sleeping instead of being awake [all i need is]: music, sleep, support & love from my family [love is]: something that i'm not really believing in right now...except for the love i have for my family. [im afraid of]: not meeting my own or others' expectations. [i dream about]: usually i dream of weird things that seem insignificant. -W H O- [makes you laugh the most?]: devon & julie--they're two very funny people! [makes you smile]: my daddy most of the time..when he says that i am cute or that he is proud of me. [who has a crush on you?]: a bunch of really heartless, mean boys. [easiest to talk to]: none of my friends...that's why i am very worried. -D O. Y O U .E V E R- [sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. you?]: i used to...but that was back when i used to date and whatnot. [cried because of someone saying something to you]: who hasn't? -H A V E .Y O U .E V E R- [fallen for your best friend]: nope. [been rejected]: Yes..not for a date, but after we've been date i got dissed. [done something you regret]: of course. i have done a lot of things i wsih I could take back. -W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N- [you talked to on the phone]: my dad [hugged]: my dad [you instant messaged]: erin [you laughed with]: hamm..when we were @ work. I KNOW: that i will be sooo freaking happy when i get into college. I WANT: some french fries dude! seriously, i freakin loooooooove french fries! oh, my bad! now they're called freedom fries yo! I HAVE: lots of sweaters and long sleeve shirts, but not enough short sleeved shirts. I WISH: school was out & i had my license! I HATE: being sad. I MISS: being in vegas! what a time! I FEAR: stuff i am unfamiliar with..sometimes people i don't know. I HEAR: the postal service- "such great heights" I WONDER: if bubb rubb still has the whistle tips on his car even though they were banned. I REGRET: meeting ray...that's where my life started to fuck itself up yo. I LOVE: to eat freedom fries and be happy. I ACHE: because i played too much freakin' mocap boxing!!!! I CARE: about the feelings of others...most of the time :D I ALWAYS: wear my hair down..and it's so freaking long. I AM NOT: a drunk/druggie/slut....and a big "fuck you" goes out to all the hatas, yo! I DANCE: in my room when no one is watching...or at prom...or when i actually went to club xtreme those few times...or @ winter ball this year. I SING: Thursday songs...and i think i am OH SO COOL when i do it! I CRY: when i have been rejected or not good enough. I DONT ALWAYS: listen to emo/hardcore/punk music. i was totally obsessed with that "god send me an angelllll from the heaven's abovvvve" song for a while ahhah. I WRITE: usually when i feel intelligent or upset...or if i'm at school and i have to..or if there's an assignment i'm supposed to do. I LOSE: MYSELF IN THE MUSIC THE MOMENT YOU OWN IT YOU BETTA NEVA LET IT GO! I CONFUSE: danny devito with robert deniro..i can't help it man. I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: in my room when i am not at school or work...or behind the wheel, drivin' somewhere! I SHOULD: sing infront of people. post comment

all these freakin quizzes...dangit. [07 Apr 2003|06:38am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | thursday-standing on the edge of summer ] You don't belong in Hell. Sorry. ...You probably fucking lied or cheated. Fucker. Why Will You Go To Hell? brought to you by Quizilla You are blue. You are somewhat innocent, in the fact that your genius only extends to the physical world. You have a false sense of contentness. You are usually the quiet one, the genius. Everyone can count on you to help when they have problems, but you only fall short of being able to solve your own. What inner color are you? What Is Your Animal Personality? brought to you by Quizilla post comment

[23 Mar 2003|10:42pm] I'm so sick of this anger. I'm sick of the sadness and the shame. Most of all, I'm sick of the shame. I'm ashamed of the way I dress. I'm ashamed of the faces I make. I'm ashamed of the people I spend my time with. I'm ashamed of my life in general. I have no friends. Every time I try to speak to someone they show no signs of sympathy or any signs of actually caring. It's so annoying. I often feel like everyone just wants to make me look like an idiot. well fuck you you stupid fucks. post comment

i'm a loser, baby [21 Mar 2003|03:24pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | enon - natural disasters ] when you finally get me out of the house, i can be extremely outgoing and can usually have a good time....however, i'm not really in the mood to EVER go out. it's just, BLAH! everybody sucks & all my friends are fags except for a few. grr. i just want to hang out with a few people but i can't get ahold of anyone and i have to go through questioning from my dad. grr. this is gay. 1 comment|post comment

drained, maybe? [16 Mar 2003|09:31pm] [ mood | drained ] [ music | enon - natural disasters ] Lately I've been lacking so much energy and I've been feeling really sick--like i could hurl everywhere. Obviously, I'm always lacking energy, but this weekend has been aweful. I went to sleep at 9:30 on Friday night and didn't wake up til 10:30 the next morning. Then, I went to bed at 10:30 on Saturday night and woke up at 9:30 today. The odd thing is, I feel like I just got finished running a marathon. I feel so fricking weak. I'm kind of worried because all that sleep should have made me feel energized but i know i'm going to wake up tomorrow morning feeling in a really crappy, tired mood. it's going to be terrible. i don't know, i'm just worried about myself. things like these aren't good. post comment

prizzity prom [11 Mar 2003|07:07pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | somewhere i belong-linkin park ] Today was a very significant day in my life thus far. I went shopping for--and actually bought--my prom dress. Thankfully, I'll be one of the lucky kids who gets to go to prom their sophomore year, but I still have my Junior & Senior Prom. Who cares, though? This is prom! I've gotta get all decked out and look gorgeous. I'm super excited...so excited that I actaully took pictures of my dress. These pictures don't really do it justice, though. It looks so much more gorgeous up close and on. This is the front & this is the back. I'm so excited post comment

a longgggggg survey [08 Mar 2003|11:11pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | sr71-non toxic ] 1.First Name: Alisa 2.Middle Name: Nunya. 3.Last Name: Biznass. 4.Nicknames: Hoppy, H-Pop, Hops, Hop, Hopster, Hoppers 5.Birthday: November 29, 1986 6.How old would that make you? 16 7.Star Sign: Sagitarius. however you spell it. More Intimate (Just some more basic questions…only in detail) 8.Righty or Lefty? righty 9.Hair Color: red..it's natural. 10.Preferred Hair Color: black or red 11.Eye Color: dark blue 12.Preferred Eye Color: light blue 13.What would you be wearing right now? a tank top and undies 14.What jewelry are you wearing, if any? earrings This or That (Everybody just LOVES this section…don’t you?) 15.Coke or Pepsi: coke (diet) 16.Cake or Pie: cake 17.Popcorn or Chips: popcorn 18.Theatre or Home: home theater...ahhh the joys of being rich. no...don't take that seriously. 19.Pants or Shorts: pants. my legs are pale and splotchy. 20.Phone or AIM/AOL: aim but only because i hate talking on the phone...unless it's to a really cute boy. 21.Sneakers or Boots: LMAO. sneakers is such an 80's term. haha. loser. 22.Pudding or Jell-O: pudding. vanilla :D mmmm 23.Winter or Summer: summer. 24.Ski or Board: ski 25.Chocolate Milk or White Milk: neither. ewwww 26.Silver or Gold: platinum. i'm straight gangsta. 27.Cows or Pigs: i don't like to eat either. gross....but pigs are so much cuter. Favorites (Is this your favorite section? It’s mine.) 28.Color: i have many favorite colors. red, pink, black, and blue 29.Number: 8 30.Time of the day: on school days, i like it to be around 3 and on the weekends when i just wake up or at night when i'm hanging out. 31.Day of the week: Friday 32.Month of the year: June 33.Scent: Love Spell from Victoria's Secret 34.Taste: vanilla pudding 35.Flavor of pudding: omg. that was weird. vanilla. 36.Flavor of Jell-O: jell-o is kinda nasty, but cherry. 37.Flavor of Ice Cream: vanilla. 38.Kind of Cake: white 39.Kind of Pie: i don't eat pie. 40.Beverage: diet coke 41.T-Shirt: anything that's lying around Relationships (Friends...and more) 42.Do you have friends? Yeah, i've got some. 43.I would sure hope so. How many? not too many. i have LOTS of aquantances, but not that many friends. 44.Who's the one you secretly hate? i don't secretly hate anyone. if i don't like them, i don't associate with them..therefor they aren't my friend. you're dumb. 45.Who's the one you would die without? that makes no sense. 46.Who's gonne be pissed you sent them this? i'm not sending anyone this. 47.Who won't give a rats bum? me. 48.Have a crush? Who? yeah, i've got a few. there's this hot guy that goes to my school, but he has a girlfriend. then there's this really cute boy who's all into webdesign and he listens to good music. he makes me melt. like whoa. 49.Have you ever had a bf/gf before? yes i have... 50.Were they good in bed? Only kidding. Were they good bf/gf material? no 51.How many gf/bf's have you had? i honestly don't really know..i mean probably 4 or 5 i guess. 52.Who was the best one? none of them. i don't like to pick the best of the worst, chief. 53.Do you have a bf/gf now? nope. thank god. 54.Tell me their name: derrrr. 55.What is your current view on the relationship? omg you're dumb. 56.What needs work? blarg. 57.What's perfect? blizzity blarg. 58.Tell me...oh I don't know, 5 nice things about your gf/bf: jafkjdfkjas! Guys Section (Fill it out. It isn't limited to just guys) 59.Tall or Short? doesn't matter. 60.Brunette or Blonde? (by the way, blondes are becoming extinct...) blondes are usually fucking hideous. i like redheads or chicks with black hair. 61.Long or short hair? usually short. 62.Make-up? yes. lots. 63.Short or long nails? short...i don't like getting stabbed. 64.Jewelry or no? limited jewelry. 65.Tan or fair? fair. i hate tan chicks.ewww 66.Freckles? freckles are cute. esp. on the shoulders. 67.Inside chick or outdoor chick? inside. the outdoors can kiss my ass. unless i'm at the beach or something cool. ky sucks though. 68.Shy or outgoing? outgoing but not too loud..that's a turn off. 69. Ok guys, you think this number is funny. Don't you? You sick little pervert. i'm a girl but whatever. i didn't notice it. 70.Innocent girl or Naughty girl? naught. innocense is not hot. 71.Do you like taking lead in the relationship? no 72.Do you prefer to make the first move at all tmes? no..sometimes it's nice. Girls Section (Fill it out. Not limited just to girls.) 73.Boxer or Briefs? briefs...or none at all. i mean, if a guy wears tight pants his undie lines are gonna show. 74.Short or long hair? i love boys who have their hair all in their eyes. that's just hot. raaaaaar. 75.Tall or short? atleast 5'7 or 5'8 76.Muscles or Regular guy? regular guy...muscles are kinda gross. 77.Naughty or Nice guy? nice. i'm tired of assholes. 78.Do you want a Romantic Guy? yep :D i sure do. 79.Are hats ok? cowboy hats are. 80.Piercings? oh yeah, baby. lips, nose, whatever else. 81.Do you like Dimples? yes. they're cute. 82.How about Freckles? on boys? nah. 83.Cutie or macho man? um. right. 84.Dark or Light eyes? bright eyes :DDDD like connor oberst's yum. 85.Tan or Fair? fair. eww at tan guys. EWW. there is nothing more disgusting than a tan guy. 86.Jewelry or none? nothing that blings. 87.Indoor guy or outdoor guy? indoor. 88.Shy or outgoing? outgoing. 89.Do you like to take lead in the relationship? no 90.Do you like to make the first move? sometimes. The Random Section (Just trying to add more questions) 91.What's the stupidest thing you have ever done? i've done a lot of stupid things. 1) participating in new year's 2003 2) dating jeremy murray 92.What's the most embarassing thing you have ever done? i don't know 93.What's the nicest thing you have ever done? i do little things. 94.How do you get to school? the cheese... 95.What do you eat for breakfast? nothing really. maybe pop tarts or a piece of bread. 96.What do you sleep in? panties. .... i hate that word. 97.What color are your bedroom walls? white. 98.How about your sheets? white with flowers. 99.How many people have been with you inbetween those sheets? har har hardy har! you made a funny. 100.Wasn't this a fun survey? it wasn't fun. it just occupied some time 4 comments|post comment

that's when i saw the glimmerman. [08 Mar 2003|12:01am] [ mood | scared ] i'm through. i just don't know what to do anymore. i walked inside and my dad was looking out the window with his binoculars. i don't like chris like i should. he says all the things to me that i want to hear. he tells me that i make him laugh & that i'm beautiful. he makes me feel super important. and then i walk him out to his car when i saw tyler's truck across the street at andy's. and then i called my brother to try to get some sort of a conclusion & he hangs up on me. and tyler is having a blast over at andy's while i am sitting here thinking about how i would have rather been with him tonight instead of chris but i can't even come up with a reason why. and i don't know what to do because the materialistic things aren't making me happy. and maybe it isn't tyler. becuase i don't even know if i would have rather been with him. i'm afraid of getting hurt. i'm afraid of seeing tyler or anything that has to do with him because i associate tyler with hurt & rejection. and chris is amazing. i love hanging out with him. it truly was very fun. i just can't get hurt again. how many times does it take for one to learn? i thought i had learned. i have learned. i can't go down the path of really liking someone because it leads to the pain which i see as destructive. i don't know what to do, but i keep myself away from him because i can't be hurt. maybe this is how tyler felt about me. either way, it's over between he and i. it felt natural around chris. i like him. he's fun. he's sweet. what more could i ask for? not too much. i can't let myself get hurt again. 1 comment|post comment

i need a brand new glow [06 Mar 2003|11:57pm] [ mood | gotta pee! ] [ music | the start - "glimmerman" ] ahh. today was a nice day at school. did i just say that? yes, yes. i did. i actualy felt like i was learning well in algebra III for once. it was pure insanity how my brain chose to function with such power today. i was in shock. so i gave my speech about digital cameras today in english & i did quite swell. i was shaking terribly, but i played it off like i had "command of my audience" and i was also "funny"...all according to my teacher. whatever she says. she's the one who grades the speech. then she saw my picture and she was like, "you should be a model!" then i laughed conceitedly, like always. it was nice. i've really got to take a leak. damnit. i don't feel like walking to the bathroom nor do i feel like getting off my ass. my body is aching everywhere. blah. it sucks man. seriously. ah well. i guess i will sleep & feel better tomorrow. hopefully! post comment

meat is murder...but i just ate a burger. [05 Mar 2003|09:07pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | The Start - Hang On Me ] what decade does your personality live in? quiz brought to you by lady interference, ltd How neat! I'm a 90's child. I have to say, though, the 80's mean so much to me. I love the style, the shoes, the hair, the hideous leggings. Everything was great--even the music. Time to move on. I'm not thinking I like my new patern of sleep. I come home from school & fall asleep. Then, I awake at 8:00 to eat the fast food that my mom has brought home for me. I watch some television, get online, and go back to bed at around midnight. Repeat cycle. How boring. My life can tend to be uneventful and sometimes I like it that way. Sometimes, though, I wish I had a life. I'm so busy trying to get myself together that it's becoming super hard to live my life. If I get my mind off of my problems for too long, I'm dissapointing everyone because they all want me to make a quick decision about what to do in such a short time. Sorry, you have no clue what I'm talking about. I tend to do this very often when writing. Anyway, my neck hurts. I also feel like crap. I'm scared that I'm going to die in this war. I want fun. post comment

[01 Mar 2003|08:26pm] Ya know, white trash people are so unappreciative of what you do for them. call me a bigot. i don't really give a crap. it's the truth. white trash will always be white trash. 2 comments|post comment

i gotta trunk fulla amps muthafugggga. [23 Feb 2003|11:47pm] so last night was a time. not a good time--just a time. basically i did some stupid shit and i am now broadcasting from my kitchen on--get this--a laptop with a wireless cable connection. so not only can i take this bitch anywhere i want, but i can also have a fast internet connection. my father ripped my computer out of my room, but the reasons for that are irrelevant. in fact, i'd like to close that part of my life and PRETEND that didn't happen. blah. i'm really tired & i'm bored, but my room just doesn't feel right without the hum of my computer doing it's thang. i really need my baby <3 my baby=my computer. the end. 1 comment|post comment

grow up. [21 Feb 2003|06:22pm] seriously. please, grow up. i did so much for you. i seriously stood up for you when your little boyfriend tried to get me to go places with him. you are so unappreciative. your little boyfriend wants me. please get over it. thank you. post comment

my friends suck. [21 Feb 2003|03:32pm] fact is, most of my friends suck. actually, pretty much all of my friends suck. it sucks becuase jocelynn has turned into a stoner/drunk. nicole always was a drunk, plus her boyfriend sucks...and she knows it. i just can't believe she allows the treatment. kelsey is really busy with work & her boyfriend. devon is ALWAYS busy. julie is pretty cool. she kind of acts like a teeny bopper at times, but oh well. last night shawn alexander made me realize a lot of things. i really realized that i want to be a better person. life is such a short stage, and when death occurs, i don't want to go to hell & have all of eternity to regret the terrible ways that i showed much disrespect to God. I really want to go to church on sunday and see those people. i hate to admit it, but i am sometimes a very weak person. i can make huge mistakes and i hate doing it. how terrible. i just want to be happy and live a happy life with happy friends who don't drink and do drugs all the time. tyler wants me to go to church with him. ok. post comment

standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in. [12 Feb 2003|03:01pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | from autumn to ashes - "short stories with tragic endings" ] i'm kind of depressed. see, it's like this. the true test of my confidence level truly shines through when guys are involved. i am the type of girl who is constantly analyzing every word that a guy says. i'm afraid that i'll suddenly lose their approval or maybe i won't be good enough. i don't know why the heck i think this way, but it really bothers me. i hate it that i have to be so worried all the time :( i just want to be a happy girl and i want to not be involved with a guy if i can't handle it. i guess at some point or another, though, i need to dive on in and take that chance...and i have before. the truth is, i'm scared. yes, alisa is scared. i'm scared of getting hurt. why shouldn't i be, though? my ex boyfriend cheated on me on my birthday with his ex. how much worse can it get? here i am all depressed on my birthday because my boyfriend hasn't even called me, and a few weeks later i find out that he wasn't out of town for thanksgiving to see his friend like he said, he was screwing his ex. on my birthday. you don't know how much i cried over that. and i'll never cry over a stupid asshole again. i don't need it. so please, don't hurt me. i'm begging you. post comment

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