I TRY TO FIND A RYME
To describe the time
I spend with you on my mind,
Some kinda verse
For my heart to rehearse
In hope of expression
For my loving obsession,
Residing inside my mind These rymes
Are never easily comprimised,
All this feeling,
From a past experiance peeling,
The only word to decribe
How you effect the inside,
And eveything that you do,
I know you can see,
As everyone else can see you and me,
And the way that we are,
I never have to go far
To feel heavens best,
Will always fail the test
When you fell in,
Again and agian,
You let me stay,
Now, I do
Know eveything I have to choose,
I've already healed,
Im better off here,
Theres nowhere so near,
This love you send,
Nobody else can comprehend,
I can't try
To see what I see when I look in your eyes,
Never a comprimise,
And in ths desgn
Of our love yours and mine
We can find
Everything we need to leave this world behind,
And in my mind,
Upon a trail no longer leading to a warm bed
Where all of our hungers have always been fed,
But still instead,
On a half lived year,
Where you and me were safe,
And you see,
I can never find words to describe all the glee,
Words from another world,
Words that are'nt you,
Words that are'nt me,
Words and expressions that are never actually here but only inside,
These words that I speak are not, nor will they ever be,
Worthy of such a love as you and me,
Because the only words to describe how we feel
Are not the words that can never be real,
Nor are they the words that will never be,
These words are not words that any can see...
These words are not saught but felt and let be,
These words are you,
These words are me,
These come from no other than a place we will never be free,
These words are reality.
IT'S OUR ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY TODAY! TODAY LAST YEAR WAS THE FIRST TIME WE EVER KISSED8*) AND ALL I HAVE TO SAY IS, BILLY I LOVE YOU MORE NOW THAN I EVER HAVE, WE'LL MAKE IT THROUGH JUST FINE, I PROMISE. I LOVE YOU BILLY........MORE THAN ANYTHING.
A BRIGHT FLICKER OF COLOR OUT OF THE CORNER OF MY EYE,
CAN MAKE MY STOMACH TICKLE AND PROVOKE MY HEART TO FLY.
OUT OF THE GARDEN OF PROTECTION INTO THE JUNGLES OF THE HEART,
THE GLIMMERING SUN SHINES UPON MY FACE AND I FEEL THE MAGIK START.
BRUSHING PAST MY HIPS, THROUGH MY VEINS AND ON MY LIPS,
TWINKLING STARS THAT ARE UNSEEN BEHIND TE YELLOW SUN,
SCATTER THROUGH MY BLOOD BEFORE REALIZING WHAT THEY'VE DONE.
AN UNEXPECTED BLACKNESS SHINES FROM MY HEAD DOWN TO MY FEET,
SEEING THAT I SIZZLE FROM THE SUN'S SO BLISSFUL HEAT.
AS THE RIBBONS ARE UNRAVLED AND THE FUTURE WRAPPED UP TIGHT,
THE SUN WILL LAY AMONG THE STARS THROUGH OUT THE BEAUTIFUL DAY,
INTO THE SILVER STRIKEN NIGHT.
HI GUYS, IM SO XCITED!, WOW, TOBY, KARISSA, U GUYS ARE GREAT, IT MAKES VERY HAPPY THAT KARISSA IS HAPPY, I LOVE HER SOOO MUCH, I'D TAKE HER MYSELF(REALLY), BUT I LOVE BILLY. AS FOR LAST NIGHT, I ALWAYS HAVE A GOOD TIME WITH JOEY, U KNOW DONT GET ME WRONG I HAD ALOT OF FUN, BUT..... I WAS THERE DANCING, AND ALL I COULD THIK ABOUT WAS BILLY, I HAD FUN, TOWARDS THE END I TRIED TO JUST CONCENTRATE ON JOEY. BUT MOST F THE NIGHT I WAS THINKING BOUT BILLY. NOT LIKE "OHH, I MISS HIM", NO, MORE LIKE, "WOW, WOULDN'T IT BE AMAZING IF HE WAS HERE, AND "MMMM, BABY, I WANNA FUCK HIM" HEHEHE, YEAH I KNOW, BUT IM SERIOUS, I HAVE ALREADY MADEUP MY MIND AND I AM 100% SURE. ANYWAYS, I LOVE HIM, AND IM SCARED, ITS REALLY IRONIC, HOW I CANT LET HIM GO EVEN THOUGH IM GOING TO HAVE TO IN A FEW MONTHS. ITS LIKE JUMPING OFF A CLIFF BECAUSE U LOVE THE RUSH OF THE FALL; KNOWING YOUR GOING TO DIE, BUT STILL, NEVER SAVING YOUR SELF. SO I GUESS, ITS WORTH IT, A BROKEN HEART FOR WHO KOWS HOW LONG, JUST SO I CAN SPEND FIVE MORE MONTHS WITH THE PERSON WHO GAVE ME SO MANY FIRSTS, INLUDING "FIRST LOVE". AWW, WELL THEN, I THINK THAT THE HOLE IDEA IS VERY NUMB, ITS LIKE AN PLAN, THAT HASN'T BEEN PERSUED. I STILL CANT FEEL IT, SO IM GUESSING THE HITS GANNA BE PRETTY HARD. BUT IM LUCKY, I HAVE GREAT FRIENDS, AND WHO KNOWS, MABEY THERE ARE OTHER "FISH" IN THE SEA, (HEHEHE) ILL JUST HAVE TO REEL ME ONE IN AND MAKE SURE HE IS A GOOD CATCH(DOUBTFULL). HEHEHE, HA! WELL, NE WAYS, LAST NIGHT.... OWWWWW, KARISSA WAS BEAUTIFUL, BUT SHE ALWAYS IS, TOBEY LOOKED GOOD, AND JOEY, WELL HES ADORABLE, HIM AND HIS HUGE SIUT, ALL I CAN SAY I, ITS JOEY. I HAD FUN, BUT I HAVE CONCLUDED THAT THE ONLY PERSON WHO CAN TAKE BILLY COMPLETELY OFF MY MIND IS KARISSA, I WISH JOEY COULD DO IT TOO BUT U KNOW, HE DOESN'T TURN ME LIKE SHE DOES.HEHEHEHE!(ITS A JOKE TOBY, ITS A JOKE)WELL, THEN I THINK THAT, THERE WILL SOON BE NO MORE ROOM, SO, JR. PROM, IT WAS FUN. CANT WAT TILL, SR. PROM. LATER!!!!!