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If you're kind and have the time... [08 Aug 2004|04:42pm] [ mood | curious ] Tell me, teach me, mold me... How do you know eveninghawk? What do you want her to know? What do you want her to sing for you? What do you think she should read? Turn her into something else... what is it? Translate (翻译) 3 comments|post comment

a mess [08 Aug 2004|01:53pm] [ mood | pissed off ] You want to know how i am? Go take a look. post comment

What am I listening to [20 Jul 2004|11:38am] [ mood | busy ] My playlist on my MP3 player this week is too good, so I'm sharing my playlist with you. Holiday in Spain ~Counting Crows Little Girl Blue ~Janis Joplin May Day ~拥抱 Train ~Meet Virginia Summer of 67 ~Loneliness of a Long Distance Runner One ~U2 Seven Nation Army ~White Stripes Waterfall ~TLC Stuck ~Stacie Orrico She Hates Me ~Puddle of Mudd Reggae Jazz Trip-Hop Dub ~Jazzanova Swing ~All American Rejects King of pain ~Police 预言 ~Stanley 分开旅行 ~Stanley & Renee Mathilda ~李泉 Baby ~Bebel Gilberto Simplesmente ~Bebel Gilberto K歌之王 ~Eason Chan Crazy for love ~Beyonce Frozen ~Madonna Strong enough ~Sheryl Crowe 不该爱的人 ~Faye Wong Who makes you feel ~dido 40 miles ~Bush What good can drinking do ~Janis Joplin Chemicals between us ~Bush Do you have a little time ~Dido Sand in my shoes ~Dido White flag ~Dido Poor leno ~Royksopp But right now I'm listening to the radio, it's a friend's online station so if you want to check it out, it's Wicked Cherry Radio，Maybe, after I get back to the US, I'll be a DJ! Translate (翻译) 1 comment|post comment

Let's talk about spirituality [17 Jul 2004|11:09am] [ mood | accomplished ] I would love to use something like the tikiwiki on my site to do cross-religious education. Religion serves as a cultural framework and also as a system for spiritual development and a forum for (some) ethical discussion. There has been an idea for folks to have what they call "interfaith" discussions, a sort of friendly exchange. The problem is that it's normally just different sects of christianity getting together to talk. The other problem with this kind of forum is that if people aren't sensitive to the needs and beliefs of others, it is very easy to try to convert people, to turn it into a missionary event. I don't like that. I don't want to mess with other people's religion. I want to make people stop and think, but that's all. I also think that we are all better equipped to deal with each other and the world by learning about each other and where we're coming from. Religion and spirituality is a huge part of that because, for lots of folks, it's the basis of many values. For example, I think that there is a ton for me to learn from Judaism, and that's only from my limited experience, but I'm not exactly well equipped to go suggest things to myself. I can give lots of pointers on Catholicism, and some more general Christian spirituality, as well as some ideas on Buddhism as it is in China (as opposed to Japan and the US, which are very different). Another example... I have a friend who is Ba'hai, which is also very interesting, but I have next to no understanding of what he believes even though we share many of the same morals. My friend Andre is another huge theological resource. He has amazing amounts of information, and lots of research that actually is very Christian yet challenges many things that Christians today blindly follow. All of this is to say that I would like to create a "safe" community to talk about all this kind of stuff because it's interesting, there's lots to learn, I should be in solidarity with other spiritual folks... but that solidarity usually needs a good basis of understanding before it's really heartfelt (but I don't want me, or folks I talk with, to run around trying to convert each other... that's not very respectful). Translate (翻译) post comment

This week [11 Jul 2004|03:24pm] [ mood | blah ] This week went by fast but wasn't much to talk about. I was busy at work, and aside from work read, watched some tv, was online, but it was all rather blah. I don't think I'm in a particularly good mood, but it's not terrible, I'm not sad, nothing bad is going on. The problem is that I just don't really seem to feel about much of anything. This morning I got the relaxer (read straightener) in my hair, so now it's easy to comb out. I've already been waiting two weeks to do this, I should have done it sooner. That way my hair would be mcuh less annoying. It's been a while since I've really written anything. Actually, of late I have a little essay that I'm in the middle of translating, and some of the terms in there are unfamiliar to me. Give me some time and I'll slowly get there. Translate (翻译) 1 comment|post comment

moody music [01 Jul 2004|05:17pm] [ mood | crazy ] I want sadpuppyeyes to feel good. Just... you know, smile and crap like that. Hell, I think you should all smile. So... in light of my desire that you are all out there feeling as much as you can, I want to share some of my moody music... music that fits a certain mood. If you want to respond, please tell me the same: 1. a happy song 2. a sad song 3. a song for a mood of your choosing. Without further adue, here are my choices. happy song Everybody Wants to Rule the World ~tears for fears ( lyrics ) What can I say? I love this song, it makes me bouncy and happy. I will be sure to go listen and get it on my mp3 player. Did you ever see Real Genius? That is seriously one of my favorite silly 80s movies, and this song is in the end, and it's a momentous smart people triumph with popcorn. I love geeky smart people AND popcorn, so I can't help but love the song that accompanies it. sad song Dies irae ~Mozart (from Requiem) ( lyrics ) Requiem, and especially this piece of requiem, makes me feel like someone has grabbed my heart and is ripping it out. Ouch. And yet I listen again and again and again. For folks who don't know, Requiem is a funeral mass, so imagine a genius at that time poor and dying composer, composing a funeral Mass. He had to be a little freaked out and introspective. ...and now for mood number three. sexy! Volcano ~Damien Rice ( lyrics ) This song is great, wonderfully layered in sound, and sexy in a melancholy way. Yum. Damien Rice is an excellent musician from Ireland. The best piece of advice I've ever heard was "Without even thinking about it, go get a Damien Rice album." 4 comments|post comment

from an lj friend [30 Jun 2004|10:09am] [ mood | bored ] [ music | Beatles: I Want You ] Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan Your name is... Your kiss is... delicious Your hugs are... gentle Your eyes... sparkle like the stars Your touch is... irresistable Your smell is... exotic Your smile is... hypnotising Your love is... eternal Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen! Translate (翻译) post comment

thinking... my brain hurts [27 Jun 2004|05:20pm] [ mood | hungry ] I can't remember if it was Thursday or Friday that I hit my head. This should be a clear indication that I hit it too hard. I have actually had a hard time sleeping because of the pressure on the bruise.　Even though my head hurts, I've still found time to do a little writing. I am taking it easy though, because too much thinking does hurt. I recently read an article on smoking. I didn't think it was done well enough, it wasn't specific enough, so I wrote some additional cultural insights. Don't be scared, go take a look. Not much else. I looked at some lj communities and signed up for a few: YangJieJie, Zhongguoagogo, and Zhongwen. If you're interested, take a look. Translate (翻译) 1 comment|post comment

what else has alana been writing? [26 Jun 2004|12:32pm] [ mood | mischievous ] [ music | Kings of Convenience: misread ] I feel stupid. I forgot to pay the phone bill, so I can't get online from home. As a consequence I am spending my morning in an internet bar. While convenient in the sense that you don't need anything other than some money to get online, the environment leaves much to be desired because the keyboards are terrible. Most customers come to internet bars for the networked gaming environment. As a consequence, the ASDWIO keys are rubbed bare on most keyboards, and in many cases the spacebar doesn't work. I find it a little trying on the patience since I come here to respond to emails and journal/comment. It's a little difficult to do that if I can't use the spacebar. Also, the mouse usually leaves much to be desired. Last time I was here I couldn't log in, so I didn't bother to mention stuff I'd been working on. Today, I can bring you up to speed. My thoughts on the arts, all of them. Peace, Love, and Identity You'll pardon my introspective philosophical tendencies. It's been that kind of week. On the lighter side of things, here is what I have to offer: Ozy and Millie cuteness Hunting Unicorns Webcartoonist Choice Awards Eastern Standard Tribe Translate (翻译) 1 comment|post comment

who would've thunk [23 Jun 2004|09:15am] [ mood | calm ] Who would've thunk that, as mystical creatures go, I'm slightly evil! ( Read more... ) Translate (翻译) 2 comments|post comment

Not feeling great [22 Jun 2004|08:17am] [ mood | cranky ] Today I don't feel great, I got up too early。 That's not to say 6AM, it means 4AM. Not being able to sleep at that early an hour irritates me. Am I not tired? No, it's just too hot and too uncomfortable and then at 10AM I'll want to sleep. This is not only inconvenient but also non-productive, and by night I feel like I've gotten nothing done and I just swear at myself. That's extremely useless. Best to take advantage of what time I have and do something. I wrote more than a little this morning about the books I've read recently, a comic, andthe worst kiss in my life。 Actually, that's not too bad, I should be happy. Even though I didn't sleep well, I can still go back to sleep. It's not a big problem, just annoying. translate (翻译) post comment

The Worst Kiss [22 Jun 2004|06:41am] [ mood | amused ] Let’s see, I think it was back in high school at some point. All I can say is: I should never agree to be set up by people I consider family, it is not for the best. Regardless, I believe it was Thanksgiving of senior year that I was set up with this guy. He was tall, really cute, and it seemed like a good idea, after all I had never dated anyone taller than me. Well, there turned out to be one problem. He’s a little dense. Not romantic is something I don’t mind, since I’m not very romantic or mushy myself, but dense is a little hard to deal with when I can’t stand people being stupid. I have dated people I consider a little under par in the brains department before, and it can be fun so long as there is something fulfilling in the relationship, and that was my hope in this situation. Wrong. He was nice, and polite. Too polite. Polite to the point where I was going insane. He kissed me whenever I drove him home, and the first time we went out and I drove him home, he asked if he could. Quirky but cute, and a lousy kiss, but still added to quirky and cute all seemed nice in the world. The issue was that this was not a cute one time start to the romance, but rather the standard. It is really annoying to be asked all the time if you can be kissed, and for me any passion died sometime around the third time he asked. The relationship did a nosedive from there. My frustration built over time but I didn’t want to say anything because he was being such a nice guy. Folks I knew who were friends of his had never seen him that nice. I imagine he didn’t quite know what to do with me, and resorted to the safest mode of interaction. The only problem is I’m too down to earth from that, and not at all angelic enough to find it endearing. I was probably more mean than I needed to be when I broke up with him, but was having major headaches, taking crazy medications for it and fed up with 4 months of horrendous dreaded kisses. I remember mom and I used to fight over who was going to drive him home. When you fight with your mom over who is going to drive your boyfriend home, you know there’s a problem. For me, the issue was avoiding that daily kiss. Ugh! 1 comment|post comment

and an lj to boot [21 Jun 2004|12:54pm] [ mood | sleepy ] I know a lot of people on lj. Enough that it's inconvenient not to have one. Problem: I don't like useless journals, because I don't like abandoning them. So I came up with a theme to keep me "up" over there... i need a journal to work on my chinese and translation skills. Score, though boring if you know no chinese I suppose. Regardless, if you hang out over there at all, please feel free to drop me a comment and remind me to friend you: eveninghawk's lj post comment

happiness... a beginning [17 Jun 2004|08:05pm] [ mood | content ] So, while delaying and delaying, today I decided to bite the bullet. It's my birthday so I should be reflective, dammit. Read what I had to say about happiness. 3 comments|post comment

if I were a greek god... [17 Jun 2004|10:27am] [ mood | amused ] Hecate ?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ?? brought to you by Quizilla 1 comment|post comment

make an eveninghawk [15 Jun 2004|11:13am] [ mood | amused ] picked this up from sadpuppyeyes... amusing in an almost accurate kind of way. How to make a eveninghawk Ingredients: 5 parts competetiveness 1 part arrogance 1 part empathy Method: Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Serve with a slice of wisdom and a pinch of salt. Yum! Username: Personality cocktail From Go-Quiz.com post comment

thoughts [14 Jun 2004|10:21am] [ mood | lethargic ] [ music | Sundays: Wild Horses ] Well, I've spent my morning catching up on online reading. I've found that evenings in China have a major bandwith lag, so I can't browse anything without trying to pull my hair out. So I'm staying away in the evenings in interest of my sanity. Pretty much everything I've found worth checking out has been posted in Links for June 13. Probably sometime this evening you can expect a post from me on happiness in general, inspired in part by conversations here and on NL. We'll see if I can collect my thoughts enough for it. Of special note, there's a very cute comic I like to read, and Adrian Ramos has made a most poignant comic for June 11. I don't normally like comics that scroll sideways, but he's done it to drive the point home here, and he's done it very well. Go read Count Your Sheep. The only other thing I can think i will be posting will be related to gender stuff, but on the links side of things, since I've come into some other interesting online resources pondering (or laughing about) some of those issues. So... more verbiage from me soon. 1 comment|post comment

unrelated sunday thoughts [13 Jun 2004|06:29pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | jazz rendition of "body" from Hair ] I am still thinking about friends and gender issues, though I had a little more to say about it on a forum I'm on.... I remember, back when I was a dancer person, hanging with the guys at Don's house, and avoiding all the really annoying girlfriends (because... they only spoke about things I found rather stupid and couldn't tell a joke). The guys had a squat competition, in guylike fashion, to see who could do the most. I had never thought of myself as intimidating. Don asked me to take a shot, since I wasn't over with the girls, and since I was known for at least looking intimidating (and being more "open" than the girls, I was always one of the guys). I had them all beat, hands down, by 80 lbs. Poor things had their manliness withered before them (which confused me... I knew I was a dancer, I knew I wasn't a skinny dancer, and I knew I was a good swimmer... all the evidence said that my legs must be able to kick butt). Later, crying once about not being able to get anyone to be romantically interested in me, Keith (one of the guys present) made a very interesting comment: "Alana, you intimidate the f*** out of every guy I know. If they're not worried that you'll kick their butt, then they're worried that they can't keep up with your vocabulary." I've also had a couple of things to say over on links. Yesterday I went to the movies (as I mentioned to sadpuppyeyes), which was a very good thing, though it left me a little keyed up afterwards. I also took some time to read a little more of Dark Tower IV. I really want to finish it but don't. I'll be waiting until August to read any more of it. Still, there are other books sitting around my apartment waiting to be devoured, so I might as well get it over with. 3 comments|post comment

i'm not a sap, i swear [11 Jun 2004|07:32pm] i love my friends. i really do. go feel the love post comment

[11 Jun 2004|06:25pm] So I came on here a little while ago and noted how much I suck. Unfortunately, I have still found no way to nicely pull in feeds of my writing online, so I can't just easily show you what I've been thinking. Should you be interested, check the blog, and for my recommendations, check out my links. I am alive. I am prepping somewhat for moving back to the big bad US. I think my miraculous coping mechanisms have something to do with how radio silent I've been around here. I have also updated my gallery, and in general am doing a site overhaul that is pretty exciting to me. 3 comments|post comment

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