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† crucify the ego.† ₪before we hide away.₪
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[ website | evanescing glass. ]
fragile - doesnt see her beauty.
i won't let you - fall apart.

[14 Oct 2003|08:08pm]
Radiohead - fake plastic trees

ﻉI know I haven't updated this in very long, so..

....Cool events coming up recently:

. October 18th - Going up to Binghamton to visit my brother. W00t.
. November 15th - King Crimson with my love, John.
. November 25th - Primus with the coolest teacher ever, Mr. Bates.

And a recap on a few things:
. September 21st - Went with Annie to Danny Carey's/Carl Palmer's drum clinic. Amazing stuff. I met them both, and I'm still in awe from that night.
. October 10-13 - Spent time with my love, John. Hes so wonderful.

Yeah, thats really all of it for now. Woop woop.

פ2 souls. ‡‡come together.פ

[06 Sep 2003|10:52am]

ﻉI love John.. I miss him so so so much.

פ2 souls. ‡‡come together.פ

[26 Aug 2003|03:33pm]



פ5 souls. ‡‡come together.פ

[25 Aug 2003|05:45pm]

ﻉHi. I didn't update in a while.
life sucks. school starts soon. i hate .

come together.פ

[11 Aug 2003|09:35pm]
± ﻉ
פ4 souls. ‡‡come together.פ

[11 Aug 2003|12:03pm]
APC - Lullaby/Pet

ﻉI haven't updated this in a while.

Oh well.

come together.פ

[03 Aug 2003|12:06pm]
± ﻉI can tell you right off the bat that the good days i've had so far of summer were: 1. Lollapalooza. Everything else was just a waste.
The days i've been out with my friends is something I can probably count, its so small. Every day was spent at home wishing I was somewhere else.
Can someone please save me from this shithole? Please?
פ2 souls. ‡‡come together.פ

[31 Jul 2003|12:16am]
± ﻉNeedless to say the moment I come home my day is once again poop. But nothing can ruin today.

So, I got to lollapalooza this morning around 1, and me and my brother go in and my moms outside selling tickets. We're walking around, just checking everything out. My brother freestyled at the turntables at the truth thing, and got a hat. He was pretty good. we went and looked around at the shops, and stuff. So we go inside the arena and the distillers were playing. Ugh, jesus. Their sound system was HORRIBLE. All you could hear was a bunch of noise and Brody screaming her head off.. im sure they'd be a little better if they just turned the distortion down a bit, because it just sounded like a bunch of noise. So we left after ..a half of a song, and walked around some more. Billy Talent was on the second stage, and might I add... yuck. So blah blah, we watched some drumming people. I made a few hippie friends, they're so awesome.
So lets fast forward the day a bit.
The first act I saw on the main stage was Jurrasic 5. It was fun. They were really awesome, especially the two DJs. VERY talented. The bass made my body shake every 2.3 seconds though. its okay. It felt nice. Mmm.. vibrations.
I went to see Queens Of The Stone Age. Eh. I was so dissapointed in them, to be honest. They're A LOT harder live, and everything sounded so.. messy. Like the distillers. It just sucked. I was so so so upset. Especially since I really do like that band.

So after, I was outside waiting for golden buddha to start playing, and I could only hear one song, they were pretty good, and one of the people was talking to me because I had a tool shirt.. so me and him were walking over to the arena and just talking, he was a cool guy. He had to go somewhere else though so he gave me a hug and I went back to see Incubus.
Amazing. I was so suprised. They're still the band I've ALWAYS loved. The new bassist is awesome, he added in a few touches to the songs and it sounded great. I am so pleased with them. I sang every word so passionatley.
Then.. Audioslave. Aohgoghg. Ahghghg. Ohhh. Oh my god. They were so awesome. I couldn't stop smiling and head banging and just jamming to everything. Tom Morello is the fucking shit. Chris Cornell is so awesome. I had such a good time.
THEY FUCKING PLAYED 7 NATION ARMY BY THE WHITE STRIPES. I couldn't stop smiling. I had so much fun. I love them so, so much. Even my mom loved them.
So after them, I walked around a bit and I met up with this buddhist guy, and he gave me his CD for his band, and a buddhist book called "Easy Journey To Other Planets" and a really awesome sticker with the om symbol on it that says "next step ahead". He said I looked like a really intelligent person. It made me happy.
So I go back to my seat and I look around, and behind and diagnol from me is an exact Maynard lookalike.. so being as dumb as I am I start freaking out, im like "ohmgygy. aosidjaosmymggig.. oh MY GOD" and I told my brother. And the guy caught both me and him looking at him.. I felt so bad. So when he looked at me I just smiled at him a little and he just gave me a cold stare.. his personality for maynard was dead on.. during every band he just stood up and folded his hands..-.- I was like "Mike.. I just want to.. run up and give him a hug.. because.. he looks like maynard." Then he hit me. So I hit him back. Lol. It was funny. But I think he got mad at me.
So then Janes Addiction came on.. oh man, they were so cool.. well, at least from the 5 songs I heard. I really love the lead singer. Dispite how weird and wacko he is, and the fact that he sounds like a 10 year old boy, I fucking love that dude, he's so awesome. And the guitarist is awesome too, cuz I heard his solo stuff. Very cool.
So we left early to avoid all that fucking traffic thats crazy, and we got home in an hour. Good stuff. My day was the best day of my summer so far. I smiled the entire day. I smiled so much. I love today.
פ1 soul. ‡‡come together.פ

Lollapalooza. Is. The fucking. Shit. [30 Jul 2003|11:32pm]
± ﻉ's all I have to say. I love hippies. They are so sweet.
come together.פ

[28 Jul 2003|08:39pm]
± ﻉJam_Session
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Beautiful.. [26 Jul 2003|11:00am]
A Perfect Circle - Weak And Powerless (!!!MMM!!!!111)

ﻉTwiggy's bass sounds awesome. -.-

- Whatever just as long as I dont feel so desperate and ravenous. -

come together.פ

[26 Jul 2003|10:03am]
± ﻉIm having a wonderful time between my asleep/awake mode listening to birds outside when SOMEONE (I dont know who) decides to go into their yard (probably my next door neighbor) and blast the radio as loud as they can. And its all rap. And even with my windows closed I can hear the bass slamming against my window. Ughmnnaosdnosad. i hate this place. I felt some tranquility as well for a moment there.
come together.פ

[25 Jul 2003|05:30pm]
± ﻉSept 16, 2003. Good day.

:) I cannot wait.. im going to be so excited. I am right now.
come together.פ

[20 Jul 2003|11:48am]

ﻉSocial Life:
01. Best girl friend: Annie.
02. Best guy friend: John.
03. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: John.
04. If no, current dating partner: ..John?
05. Hobbies: Your face.
06. Pager: No.
07. Are you center of attention or the wallflower: Between I guess.. it depends.
08. What type automobile do you drive: Z3. *cough*
09. What type automobile do you wish you drove: Im content with what my mom has.
10. Would you rather be with friends or on a date: Date. With john. Sorry guys -.-
11. Where is the best hangout: mall I guess.
12. Do you have a job: Not yet.
13. Do you attend church: No.
14. Do you like being around people: Depends.

Who [out of your friends]:
01. Have you known the longest: John.
02. Do you argue the most with: Rebecca.
03. Do you always get along with: Annie.
04. Is the most trustworthy: Leanne.
05. Makes you laugh: John. And Leanne.
06. Has been there through all the hard times: No one.
07. Always has a man/woman: *Shrug*
09. Has the koolest parents: Devins parents are pretty awesome.
10. Has the coolest siblings: Meghan.
11. Is the most blunt: Annie.
12. Is the shyest: *Shrug*
13. Is the most outgoing: Them all.
14. Is most Rebellious: Dunno.
15. Is most conservative: Dunno.
16. Is most likely to become famous: John.
17. Is most likely to become rich: Richie rich! Richie!
18. Is most likely to wind up in jail: ME! wait no.
19. Is most likely to have a million kids: ANNIE. MWUAHAHAH.
20. Always wears a smile: Joshua.
21. Is the smartest: John.
22. Who has the biggest attitude: sammy sosa.
23. Complains The Least: soamma soso.
24. Biggest flirt: Jen.
25. Needs a good man/woman: Erik.
26. Never ever Betrayed you: Leanne.

00. Who is your role model: People I dont even know personally. *cough*justinchancellor*cough*
01. What is some of your pet peeves: You.
02. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: no.
03. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: yes.
04. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: I dont 'go after' people.
05. Have you ever lied to your best friend(s): Yes.
06. Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: No.
07. Rather be dumper or dumped: I dont know.
08. Rather have a relationship or a "hookup": Relationship.
09. Want someone you don't have right now: I have the only person I want.
10. Ever liked your best guy/girl friend: No.
11. Do you want to get married: yes.
12. Do you want kids: Just one. A boy.
13. Do you believe in psychics: *Shrug*
14. Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time: Could be possible..
15. What is your favorite part of your physical appearance: Hair, eyes..
17. Are you happy with you: ..I guess.
18. Are you happy with your life: No.
19. If you could change something in your life right now, what would it be: Physically, i'd like to be a bit thinner.. and.. I wish I could not have all these vacant spots in my life all the time.

come together.פ

[16 Jul 2003|12:25pm]
Tool - Eon Blue Apocolypse

Another night feeling all the more incomplete. I hate it so much when he goes, when he leaves, even when it is to rest-my lover, my fallen muse who I cannot mend- or at least thats how it seems to be.
If there could be one night now would be the most absolute perfect time, my lover and I could just speak of everything wasting those stupid pointless forgotten hours, nobody really cares, as we could pass by and acknowledge all of existance with a simple breeze, without care, such apathy as we discuss the world-everything in it-beyond, and simply down to emotions, our minds, how we feel (my personal favorite).
In a way it could be (and sometimes is) such a love with a byzantine feel, his few words can lift me, but as of late they do nothing but break me, for he is broken and lost-but never the less I know he's such a good person, my only love and inspiration..

What a weird post.
I felt very inspired.

פ4 souls. ‡‡come together.פ

ticking away..
- watching moments that make up a dull day. -
[ go | moodswing. ]

just let the light touch you. and let the words spill through.. ∞ ∞ ∞ . . .