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Stop me if you think that you've heard this one before.. [13 Jan 2004|07:02pm] [ mood | lazy ] [ music | Starstruck.. (is for rockers) ] Highlights of the Week What Kelly stole um, BORROWED for Nicole. "Someone had sex with him! *holds up 5 fingers* FOUR TIMES!" Jessica has been missing some classic moments with her absences.. Jess, remind me to share the "Random Erica Moment" of the week, and what we have to add to our book. Nathaniel Hawthorne essay? I don't know what you speak of.. Everything has been so repetitive lately. Boo.. routine can be good, but who doesn't like a little spontaneous randomness once in a while? Mlle McDonnell told me I should take another language on top of French 4 next year. That would mean starting ALL over again at Spanish 1 or German 1. Not that that sounds like a bad idea, I really like language. But basically, I was like "Listen lady, I have no lunch next year.. ask me to take another class a year from now.. mmmmmbye." So a random kid by my locker talked to me the other day.. I didn't even know his locker was by mine?.. I mean, he's a freshman.. so I can understand why I wouldn't see him that much.. he's only been here for half a year. But you'd think I'd at least acknowledge the kid's prescence.. seems he likes some of the music I do. Snazzy. I love people who love music. I also saw this kid for the FIRST time ever whose locker is next to mine. He was there for a moment, seemed all flustered, threw some books in his bag, and jetted outta there. So I asked the girl 2 down from mine if she's ever seen the kid next to her before.. and she confirmed my thoughts that he MAY be crazy. She said he comes like once a day.. and always seems in a hurry. Hm. jalsjdkla Il fait tres froid! My cat has taken to sleeping in my dresser drawers since they're open and not in my room right now.. I kind of feel bad emptying them out and throwing them away.. mos def. [2 Words that Everybody's Hangin On] I Folded, I Told

With lightbulbs in our pockets.. We light the darkened forest. [07 Jan 2004|06:35pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Sea King ] I think my family has finally gotten used to the fact that I need to sing all of the time. I do it without thinking. I obnoxiously belt out songs without realizing it, and they've finally learned to accept that. My room is looking grand. I love mes parents. My walls are done, the cieling's repainted, the floor is going to be done probably by this weekend. Heading to IKEA on Saturday to get some cabinets and whatnot. THAT will be hellacious.. IKEA ON A SATURDAY. USE YOUR ELBOWS! DIVIDE AND CONQUER! You know what's funny, is people who put up away messages about EVERYTHING. I mean, yes, maybe if you're away, put up what you're doing. Why you're gone. But seriously, "BRB, I THINK I'M HAVING A HEART ATTACK SO I CALLED 911. BE HOME IN A FEW DAYS, HOPEFULLY. LEAVE ME SOME MESSAGES ABOUT HOW MUCH YOU VALUE MY LIFE IN CASE I LOSE IT." Ok, so that's an extreme example, but how do you find time to put up an away message when your house is on fire or something.. boggles my mind.. So far I have 5 weighted classes next year.. can I get a "WHAT THE HECK!?" "Mhm..mhm..mhm.. you're OBVIOUSLY WRONG." -Mr. Spitler, who just happens to be as sarcastic as Jessica and I, therefore, is our best friend. booooo [4 Words that Everybody's Hangin On] I Folded, I Told

[04 Jan 2004|02:56pm] [ mood | accomplished ] ( Oh What Marvelous Things ) But they are giving me the creeps. [1 Words that Everybody's Hangin On] I Folded, I Told

And all the perfect words, they seem so wrong. [03 Jan 2004|02:17pm] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | AAR_One More Sad Song ] I had to wake up early to get paint and things for my room and spent the vast majority of my day working in there.. it's empty and echoes and it really creeps me out to be in there. But I think later I will put on music really loud in there just to hear it echo. In the car I heard all of my favorite oldies on the radio and sing along loudly and obnoxiously. Nothing is better than that. I Folded, I Told

I would go out tonight, but I haven't got a stitch to wear.. [02 Jan 2004|06:25pm] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | This Charming Man ] Nothing exciting has been going on.. I feel sad for not updating. I have fallen up the stairs 5 times in the past two days, along with walking into the table, this shelf twice, and kicking the vaccuum.. causing it to fall on me. Of all the luck. [1 Words that Everybody's Hangin On] I Folded, I Told

30 miles outside Chicago, kids know what's really going on.. [27 Dec 2003|06:30pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | LBC- Broken ] Show was snazzy. I heart Starstruck. I got a shirt that says Starstruck Is For Rockers! :-D It makes me giggle. hypergal404: erica update your blurty! hypergal404: yours is the only one i can count on these days. hypergal404: it's always so.. fulfilling. hypergal404: and always updated. Sic Transit Ery: roar. i don't know what to put.. hypergal404: WHO CARES? hypergal404: it will come out insightful hypergal404: or brave hypergal404: or smooth hypergal404: or charminggg hypergal404: heck, i'll wanna call you. So this is me, updating, for Jessica. Alex is coming over in a few minutes to help me make clothes.. I've been reading about how to make all these crazy purses and skirts out of old shirts and sweatshirts and random things like ribbon. We have tons of random things in my house.. so this should be fun. As long as I can sew in a straight line, which is doubtful. Miss Jessica is coming sometime too (?) because frankly.. we're having a chocolate fondue party. I'm sorry that I have nothing insightful to say Jessica. Nothing truly exciting and fulfilling has been going on. Uh New Year's? What's goin on? Anyone have a clue? My house? No? Somewhere else? adsjkljdkla I really like the House of Blues.. but I think the Metro is my true love. I think we could use a foot or so of snow right before school is supposed to let back in.. yes.. a snow day would be grand. LAMEentryXcore. [4 Words that Everybody's Hangin On] I Folded, I Told

Happy Holidays to you all. [24 Dec 2003|10:16am] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | Jude Law ] The Hanson christmas CD is the only one that has been making it really feel like Christmas. Because Hanson is amazing, obviously. And it feels like you don't care anymore. I feel like everything is changing. Is it just me? The only things I feel secure with right now are the few people that I know I can always trust. The ones who I know will be brutally honest with me, and slap some sense into my head when it's needed. Have a good Christmas girls, I love you! I have taken to thinking about random things a lot lately. Often I find myself just sitting there, thinking, and it takes me a while to realize that I was zoning out. Dear Mike Marsh, Let's make babies. Love, Erica. + about the holidays... getting to dress up a bit. I've decided that I need to go to Turnabout this year. Not that I have any clues on who to ask, or anything like that.. but hey.. I was just reading some magazines and saw some really cute dresses. And I must have one. I am realizing more each day how fortunate I am to have what I have. I was reading this article about women who are raped and sexually abused and have such hard times dealing with it that they live in shelter type environments, have get therapy and things. The article requested people to donate things, like shampoo, and soap, just little basic things like that to provide for the women. There's places like this in Kenya and some other country that I forgot, but I've decided that any more money I get for Christmas is going to go towards that. I already have tons of stuff I can send.. but I'd like to do more. If I can help one person, it will make me feel that much better. The kids had their Christmas party the other day at the Resource Center. This little girl Jackie has become like my little sister. She is so much like me, she's sarcastic!.. and we just joke around all the time. She'll say something and then go "HAHAHAH .. NO!" I can't explain it, it's really sarcastic.. it's just so funny. I have been listening to Mister Pine on repeat lately.. I am in love with it. Is that what you call a getaway? Tell me what you got away with. Cause I've seen more spine in jellyfish. I've seen more guts in 11 year old kids. Have another drink and drive yourself home. I hope there's ice on all the roads, and you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt and again when your head goes through the windsheild. Is that what you call tact? You're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back. So let's end this call, and end this conversation. And is that what you call a getaway? Tell me what you got away with. Cause you left the frays from the ties you severed, when you say best friends means friends forever. Everyone's caught on to everything you do... LBC show Friday. I told my sister I would go because I was told Allister would be there.. but it's not up on their website :( NO ALLISTER?! I don't know what to do with myself. I got my Holiday EP.. thoughts: 1) The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot (acoustic).. I really like it. Granted, on Deja it sounds like the song is played with an acoustic guitar.. there are drums and I believe bass in the song.. it makes the song a lot more calm when it's just Jesse and his geetar. Or Vinnie. I don't know which one was playing. Maybe both. But anyway, I dig it, I think it is a very good song in general, and hearing it acoustic allows for people to take in the voice and the lyrics more. 2) Logan To Government Center (demo).. OH MAN. This is so cool. You can tell how young they are.. even in comparison to how it sounds on YFW. I really liked it though! It was a bit different, and it honestly sounds very thrown together, like hey guess what guys, we're recording a song.. it's so awesome. 3) The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows (acoustic).. Hmm, it's nice to hear the difference in the regular version and the acoustic.. but I like it how it is. Acoustic is just too slow for this song, and it sounded like Jesse was struggling to get out the chorus. Cause instead of fully singing it... it was more like 'keep the blood in your head, feet on the ground, day it gets tired is the day we dropped out, body and bed, all for an empty hotel, wasting words, lower cases and capitals.' I just think it sounds better when you can fully hear the words, and all the sentences are formed, it's just so more put together and polished on the album.. even live it sounds really polished. 4) Good To Know That If I Ever Needed Attention All I Have To Do Is Die (demo).. Wow. It's very different. It's so odd to hear it in comparison to how it is on Deja. Some of the word choices are kind of akward on the demo. And it's funny, because little things I wonder about.. like how in the demo, they say 'the only thing that makes it possible is the conversation. we're comatose but audible. i liked it the farther i got out.' as opposed to 'you constantly make it impossible to make conversation. keep us comatose but audible. and i like it the farther i get out.' Something as simple as changing the tense of the chorus makes the song sound very different. It's so cool to hear how it eventually evolved into what is one of my favorite songs on Deja Entendu. 5) Oh Holy Night.. Well, originally I didn't like the song very much. It seemed like there wasn't much effort put into it. But what can I say, it grew on me. It has a very 'Bright Eyes' kinda vibe to it. So, I cave, and now dig the song.. boredness. ( Megan thinks I'm an Emo Princess. ) [3 Words that Everybody's Hangin On] I Folded, I Told

My pearls have fallen into mud and you are too late.. [23 Dec 2003|12:22pm] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | A Plain Morning ] It is yet to be determined, but the air is thick. And my hope is feeling w o r n . I'm missing home. And I'm glad you're not a part of this. There are parts of me that will be missed. And the phone is always dead to me, so I can't tell you the temperature is dropping. And it feels like it is colder than it ought to be in March. And I still have a day or two ahead of me till I'll be heading home into your arms again. And the people here are asking after you. It doesn't make it easier. It doeasn't make it easier to be away. I'd like to hire a plane. I'd see you in the morning when the day is fresh. I'm coming home again. It's w a r m e r where you're waiting. It feels more like July. Ther's pillows in their cases and one of those is mine. And you wrote the words I love you, and sprayed it with perfume. It is better than the fire is to heat this lonely room. Dear Weston DuPree, Marry me. Love, Erica. I Folded, I Told

I guess I'm not sorry in the least.. [21 Dec 2003|11:42am] [ mood | amused ] [ music | full house whuuut? ] You set yourself up for these disappointments. You set yourself up for trouble. For tears. "...it's cool to take these chances. it's cool to fake romances. and grow up fast.." So many random occurances last night. So much fun. Funny stories, lots of food, not so secret Santas. I love you guys. "cause you left the frays from the ties you severed when you say best friends means friends forever." Alex was right. It feels odd. But I'm going to get used to it. Not because I have to, but because I want to. Because situations occur, things change. I get to see 'family' today. They're not REALLY family. But Karen has been my mom's best friend for 30 years, and her family is our family. They are the funniest, most genuinely nice people ever. Even though we rarely see each other, they are so interested in my life. They ask questions about how school's going, how I've been feeling, and seriously.. the compliments pour in. They tell me how smart and cute I've gotten. I love that. I often degrade myself, so it feels good. Really good. "if you're keeping something, hold on to the ones that you love" The 'Marvelous Things' video is very intriguing. They all have their 'little kid' scenes. It kinda made me reminisce. does anybody remember back when you were very young? did you ever think that you would be this blessed? Happy Bunny pillow was the best present ever, obviously. It's going to match my new room. :-D yeah jessica. I think I'm going to have to take summer school. I have 8 classes lined up next year, none of which I'm planning on giving up. And I want a lunch. And I need a resource. I refuse to give up either of my electives... or any of the other classes I chose.. and I have no choice about ones that are required. each day just like the next. we struggle on and on. no more songs about you. after this one i am done. goodbye. you're gone. I Folded, I Told

[20 Dec 2003|09:49am] Oh yes I did. [7 Words that Everybody's Hangin On] I Folded, I Told

[19 Dec 2003|03:50pm] GETCHO BREAK ON! MyDreamSoMorbid: I was so ready to hump you at the show it was sooo cute MyDreamSoMorbid: you're like "I wanna see THEJADE." MyDreamSoMorbid: I was like awwwwwwwww how can you not love the jade [1 Words that Everybody's Hangin On] I Folded, I Told

I glimpsed a bat with butterfly wings. Oh what marvelous things. [18 Dec 2003|05:46pm] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | MAR-VE-LOUS THINGS ] I'm getting a 79.2% in cat... who knew.. Mine and Hana's candy canes weren't much of a success. More like peppermint flavored purple colored blobs. We need some snow here, maybe a foot.. kapeesh? We're forcing Spitler to let us party 2nd period tomorrow. Come check it out, good times, good food.. and where can you go wrong when you've got Jess, Adam, Tricia and I all together on one side of the room.. O.o This is me, procrastinating. English paper, Observation journal, Math test, French quiz.. I Folded, I Told

Sea king, I know things, and without love you won't get very far.. [17 Dec 2003|04:19pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | Eisley- Sea King ] Let me just say, that the girl next to me in US History is amazingly hilarious. "I feel so bad for his children! I bet they listen to angry rock music.. *angrily screaming* I HATE MY DADD! ROOOOARR! MY DAD! I HATE MY DAD!" Priceless I tell you. Well kids, looks like my house may be home base for New Year's, if we don't find anything else to do. Then again, I don't even know who I'm supposed to be hanging out with, or for all I know, I could already have plans and not realize it.. I really screwed up my arms. The basic story is, I have 2 stairways in my house; one leading from the basement to the 1st floor that's tile, and another from the 1st to 2nd floor that's carpet. So I woke up really early yesterday morning, like 5, and wanted a glass of orange juice. So I made it down the carpet stairs okay, and started to slip and fall on the tile ones. I didn't want to wipe out cause I knew that with my luck I'd break a bone or crack my head open.. so I held onto the railing with one arm, and the wall with the other.. only... think of all those laws of motion they drill into our heads.. 'an object in motion will stay in motion until acted upon by an opposing force' or whatnot.. well my body kept going forward. So since I was still gripping onto things and the rest of me was falling.. it hurt. And it hurts worse today, I feel like I can't make big movements, like when I tried to pick up my bag, I was positive my arms would just pop out. ANNNDD I just want it to be break so I can go places. Mine and Jess' movie par-tay is gonna be so hXc.. Oh yeah, I realize that parties normally have guests.. Maybe we'll have some. Secret Santa woooo! Too bad I already know who everyone has. Oh well. My daddy got hit so he couldn't come pick me up, and Gen had to. So I was looking for her car and waiting for her, and Brett came and told me some jokes. So high fives to Brett for that. I think the best part about Christmas is candy canes. They should be in abundance all year long.. It's really sad, english paper due Friday, math test Friday, US test Thursday.. come on guys, it's almost XMas! (X cause it's hXc).. I was reading over some things I wrote, mainly during 8th grade. It's hilarious because they're so.. basic? I can't think of a good word, I need a thesaurus. What I mean is, I can read it, and immediately connect it to the event I was writing about. There was no creativity to it whatsoever. Not that I think I'm a creative person now, but it was so bland. I might as well just have written a poem entitled "This is a poem about the time that I liked this guy and he didn't like me back and it was sad.." Because after the first line, it's like 13 year old emo. It was pretty interesting though, to see how I've changed over a short period of time, and how I'm still the same. I think I was way more concerned with having an 'image' or a reputation preceding me. I suppose that's pretty natural, one never completely understands life and it's ways, let alone in 8th grade. Winter is.. I think.. my second favorite season. Naturally my number one is summer because it's completely carefree and whatnot.. but.. winter is so beautiful. Waking up is hard to do, but when I get up and look out my window and see a blanket of white, it's tempting me to go out there. A lonely leafless tree looks pretty boring, but when the snow falls on it, and there's sun peeking out and reflecting off of the crystals.. you start to appreciate the beauty of little things. Something I like to do a lot. I really enjoy just thinking about the little things that make me smile. It's like, you could sit here and tell me things; compliment me or something... and whether it is sincere or not, I think listening to my favorite cd and starting to sing the next song before it even starts would make me happy. Putting on a new hoody. Opening a present; no matter what it is.. opening it is the best part. Watching the people around you.. not in a scary way.. but in a way that makes you think about the way you carry yourself. Knowing someone so well that you can be sure of what their thinking just by their expression. Knowing someone so well that when they say something to them and you can't hear or see them, like they say it to you online, or someone tells you the story about them, and still you can imagine their voice and facial expressions when they said it. Seeing your favorite band live.. I don't think that will ever get old. Getting mail that is addressed to YOU and is unexpected rather than a letter postmarked to 'Current Resident.' Unexpected hugs. Someone new saying hi to you. Random compliments. you are the smell before rain, you are the blood in my veins I Folded, I Told

Oh, lying in the sun. Every day feeling all of the magic in life and the wonder.. [15 Dec 2003|04:04pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | Marvelous Things ] What a stressful day. One of those just.. ick days. Jess and I are having a movie party this weekend. You're all invited. Wait, no you're not. Well, maybe if you're nice to us.. Didn't do my chem lab, or study for the test. It was brutal. I didn't even get answers to like 4 questions. And then CAT, well, I just never like CAT. But I got home and got my signed BN poster, that was kinda neeeeeat. Once again I spent lunch doing homework. How many days am I going to do this! I did homework in the morning, homework in resource, homework at lunch.. errrm. I learned something today in driver's ed *gasp* who thought that would happen. Anyway, mentally, your body prepares itself for sleep at 12 AM, and it wants to sleep from 12-6 AM and again at 2 PM. Maybe that's why I'm doing so poorly in CAT.. it's interfering with nap time.. I have this mentality where I compete with myself. Most people compete with others, but I have this part of me that always says "I can't do this!" and this other part of me wants to prove me wrong. I'm never good enough for myself, I rarely feel secure with who I am. And that's terrible. I shouldn't feel this way. No I'm not manic depressive or anything, by any means. God I love being a teenage girl... Movie list Jess? -Freaky Friday -Finding Nemo -Office Space -Muppet's Christmas Carol ...this is gonna be so hXc. My whole life is a huge mass of irony. I spoke to someone briefly about this principle, I think it was Jessica. But seriously, everything that happens to me, I always think 'how ironic!' Like how on the ONE day I decide not to do my math or something, she checks it. Or how I'll always drive 3rd in driver's ed, so I'll wear volatiles one day, and end up having to drive and get yelled at. Or the one time I decide to talk about someone, I'll be talking to their best friend about them. Something akward. Anyway, get lots of sleep kiddies, and remember.. break is only 4 days away.. "I think music is God's best idea ever. He must have been in an extra good mood the day he created it.. probably drank a Mountain Dew or Cream Soda or something." [2 Words that Everybody's Hangin On] I Folded, I Told

And sleep tight my baby. [12 Dec 2003|05:09pm] [ mood | melancholy ] [ music | Eisley- Marvelous Things ] The Marvelous Things EP is bee-you-tee-ful... "but her life is so beautiful as memories count on you to grow into beautiful things that spring from these roads. with their musical names and musical sounds... and i'm always wondering where you are." it needs to snow a lot or warm up. choose now. thanks. [5 Words that Everybody's Hangin On] I Folded, I Told

[10 Dec 2003|05:31pm] you'd like to think that you were invincible. well weren't we all once before we felt lost for the first time? i made myself some peppermint hot chocolate today and i think while i was drinking it, i was the happiest i've been in a long time. I Folded, I Told

Drove back home, slept a few days. Woke up and laughed at how stupid we used to be. [09 Dec 2003|09:19pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | BN- O Holy Night ] I wish I had something profound to say right now, but I don't. Except, I fully love Alex and Katie now.. showering me with gifts. Jessica and I had a full on party second period with all the goodies. The coupon booklet was too cute. I don't know if I'll be taking up your offer on the free song though guys, as much as I love you... <3 Nah, what a better time than this to say exactly how much I love those critters. You girls are part of me, love you to bits and pieces! Dorcas.. I think that was the best thing.. ever. One of those 'had to be there' moments.. We watched the funniest thing in 8th period. Althought it was terribly 70s and amazingly hilarious, I ended up staring at the VCR timer for the majority of the period, daydreaming about who knows what. I space out a lot, too much I think. Madameoiselle felt bad for me, she was like 'you must have had the flu you poor thing! awww.. *sympathy*' Maybe I won't have to speak up in class for a while?.. Not looking forward to our choir concert. I don't know half of the words.. and I'm more screwed after being absent. Meh. I am still mucho confused. I think it's all the Sudafed backing up.. annnnnnd end scene. I Folded, I Told

We were doomed from the start, as lovers are. Why am I doing this? Digging my own grave. [08 Dec 2003|07:13pm] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | Mistakes We Knew We Were Making ] Yadda yadda ya. I look really hideous in the picture. But it's okay. Cause it's with Carrabba. So there. So.. Here.. Aw, the beast was cute for once. alright. Field trip was randomly okay. I don't know, blahblahbl. I don't want to drive tomorrow. Presentation went okay. Everything is just.. okay? [3 Words that Everybody's Hangin On] I Folded, I Told

Call off the cavalry. Can't save a wretch like me. Clean this with kerosene. [07 Dec 2003|12:08pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | 7th heave ] Why has this winter been so odd, very little snow?! While half of the country is buried alive in pretty little white crystals, all I see are dead leaves. Chicago weather is bizzarre. Mine and Megan's theory after this weekend: No one listens to Korn. And if you do, you need to try to stop ASAP. Yes, I normally try to be open minded about music, but bottom line, I hate Korn. They were at our hotel, and I swear, kept me up all night. Damn you Korn. You hooligans. Aphee was good. Dashboard was good. 311 Korn Jane's Addiction was good. We didn't watch those 2, obviously. Instead we hung out by the doors, I found Smith for Megan, I spoke with Carrabba himself. Very nice guy. Too much to do today, but I think I'm not going to do anything until tonight. I'd rather be lazy and or go out today. <3 erica's lonely hearts club band. [1 Words that Everybody's Hangin On] I Folded, I Told

It's a long way for an answer. Is there any news? Is there any word?Was there trauma? Or a struggle? [06 Dec 2003|09:51am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | soco ] Maybe when the room is empty, Maybe when the bottle's full. Maybe when the door gets broke down love can break in. Maybe when I'm done with thinking, Maybe you can think me whole. Maybe when I'm done with endings This can begin. Maybe when your hair gets darker, Maybe when your eyes get wide, Maybe when the walls are smaller There will be more space. Maybe when I'm not so tired, Maybe you could step inside. Maybe when I look for things that I can't replace. If I could be your first real heartache, I would do it over again. I never thought you'd last, I never dreamed you would. You watch your life go past, You wonder if you should. You only burn my bridges. You just cant let it sink in. After feeling much better, went to Nick's with Jessica, and Nick's friends Matt and Jake. Good times were had, my lungs were coughed up, oh the beauty of it all. Okay, sale shopping has to be the funniest thing ever. I swear, people hate each other in stores. They eye merchandise and give looks of death, it's hilarious. Going shopping is like driving, even if you don't have a cart. It comes down to survival of the fittest: if someone with a cart hits you, you're gonna lose. There's traffic jams, and lane changes, and you just know to yield to oncoming traffic at the end of an aisle before going into a main aisle.. I got cute boots! Why do I love shoes so much.. Tonight Me + Megan = EMOXCORE PARTY. My cat has a couch. That's really upsetting. It's cold, and I have a cold. ericalovesyou. [1 Words that Everybody's Hangin On] I Folded, I Told

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