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Saturday, May 11th, 2013

Subject:...howl.
Time:3:21 pm.
Music:primitive radio gods. standing outside a broken phonebooth.
i met a man, last night.

he asked for 45 seconds of my time.
we ended up sharing hours.


in the middle of it all,
he stopped me mid sentence
and said,


"at first, i thought you were a cat.
but now, i understand...

you are a wolf."



















done.
Comments: 1 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Saturday, May 4th, 2013

Time:1:48 pm.
I go to bars.

I go to bars with friends.

I go to bars with semi strangers.





And.

Always end up.

Escaping outside.

To watch my smoke drift up to the clouds.




And wonder where you are.

Under them, somewhere.
Comments: 4 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Friday, May 3rd, 2013

Time:1:32 pm.
And i let the fringe dangle,
dangle on the floor.

I didnt care.

I didnt know, really.



I let it drag.
as i watched light travel.


Light travels.






And.

Just yesterday,

I forgot to care
all about the wear and tear
it caused.


Not only on the fringe.
Comments: appease my failing soul.

Wednesday, April 24th, 2013

Time:10:02 pm.
There is a stillness down inside of me
that i've barely yet to know.

It yells and it screams at me
as soft as wind can blow.
Comments: appease my failing soul.

Time:9:56 pm.
Wait.

Wait, i said.
And wait, he did.

He waited.

And waited and waited.

He waited in the sun.
and he waited in the shade.

He waited while i didnt know,
I was waiting on another.

Such an unhealthy wait.
such an unhealthy love.

and now.

I can only hope
we wait no more


In this lowely state of

Waiting.
Comments: 4 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Sunday, April 14th, 2013

Time:4:16 pm.
Music:...my morning jacket. i will be there when you die..
Two minutes from death,
i decided not to die.


My soul, so small.
and my will, weak.


I decided not to die.
Comments: 3 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Friday, April 12th, 2013

Time:1:36 pm.
I talked with an old stoic man.
homeless? I'll never know.

He wore an old stoic sign around his neck,
tied with dirty purple shoelace.

It simply stated...love.



He told me, his granddaughter
made it...
two days before she passed.



And in that moment,
i fell in love with him and his old stoic sadness.

And the way he hung his head.
Comments: 4 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Saturday, April 6th, 2013

Time:2:10 pm.
Music:...rem. man on the moon..
There once was this penny.
who fell in love with another penny.

And they sat in a jar for years.

Once spent,
they ended up in different pockets.

Being passed around.
place to place.

And lived their days, eternity
wishing they were back in the jar.
Comments: 2 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Thursday, April 4th, 2013

Time:1:29 pm.
A sailing ship,
to ruins.

Two anchors,
at the bottom.

Of a vast ocean,
a hidden world.

Tinted in silent blue.

And full of lonely love.

Sailing the bottom of the ocean.
Comments: 2 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Wednesday, April 3rd, 2013

Time:9:13 pm.
Music:...mv and vee, too far to see..
I sat on the ledge of an open window
and looked not outside,

But in.











Its what i needed to do.

Its what i did.

Its what i am still doing.

Even at this moment.
Comments: 2 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Thursday, March 21st, 2013

Time:1:11 pm.
Music:...daughter. youth..
i write alone.
while the world sleeps.

of places, filled.
and lungs, full.


i write alone,
while the world wakes.


and get it all out,
empty.



so i can sleep,

sound.
Comments: 1 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Thursday, March 14th, 2013

Time:12:39 pm.
Music:...fuckpony. burning inside.
this was the face i was given.
these are the hands that i own.

and when i choose to climb fruit trees,
i'll see more than ever known.



build a home on the branches
and give my song to the breeze.



never a fear of falling.

for the leaves that fell the time before,
put my mind at ease.
Comments: 3 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Wednesday, March 6th, 2013

Time:2:28 pm.
im haunted.


haunted by the only hours
we ever spent alone.


and how high i was.

and how drunk you were.



neither being who we were.

who we are.




playing a game.

with no limits on lives.




which in the end,
truly makes us all disposable.
Comments: 2 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Tuesday, March 5th, 2013

Time:5:44 pm.
the torching of my lips.



the torching of my lips.
the passing of a ghost.

the lack luster spark,
lingeringly lodged
at the bottom of my throat.



the blood that makes it
hurt.

the blood that makes it
real.


the blood that makes me
not a ghost

with an ability to feel.



********

oh, the feeling of flatlands beneath my toes.
Comments: appease my failing soul.

Wednesday, February 27th, 2013

Time:6:26 pm.
Music:...chelsea wolfe, flatlands.
swim'n in the shallow end,
no longer fills my depths.


so to the deep end,

i go.
Comments: 1 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Friday, February 22nd, 2013

Time:3:59 pm.
And it's all over.

Yes, ready to start anew.



It's all over.

Gone are the days
Of wondering where my birds did fly.

It's all over.

Gone are the nights
Of wandering in thought.


Not knowing where it ended,
Just knowing

It's all over.





********

A new view
Can sometimes skew
All that you thought life
Should be.

And that new view
Also can skew
All that you make life
To be.

But that new view
Can muttle and spew
Into something you never thought it
Could be.



Never the more,
A skewed new view...

Is better than what I saw before.
Comments: 1 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Thursday, February 21st, 2013

Time:11:44 pm.
...and when i think
of all that we arent and should be.



No gentle kisses, no tender moments.
No hands to hold.

No nudge of passion.
No edge to walk to, no witness to love so bold.

No coffee wought mornings.
No small rooms, filled.

No lungs to want air.
No heart to beat, willed.



Just emptiness.

Just emptiness.

Just emptiness, abound.


And thoughts consumed
on thoughts quite
loomed.


Of all thay we arent and should be.
Comments: appease my failing soul.

Tuesday, January 29th, 2013

Time:12:41 am.
in discussions of power animals,
i'm always silent.

no one ever labels me.

i do not label other people.



yet once,
not in a discussion of power animals,
some hamster called me an elf.

a tall elf.



quite the compliment.


********


when i was young,
i was a mouse.

and when i started to grow,
i was a giraffe.

but as i grew to know my center,
i realized i was more of an elephant
than anything.


********


you are a lion.

and i am not.




you rip and shear and slash and shread.

and i just sit and watch and wait and wonder.




it makes you happy.

and it makes me wish.



you were not a lion.
Comments: 6 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Wednesday, January 9th, 2013

Time:9:50 pm.
My life used to be a series of sparks.

And now
It's nothing but a slow burn
Of light
Through a crack in the door.

That I am too afraid to open.
Comments: 4 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Wednesday, December 12th, 2012

Time:4:15 pm.
Music:...wife. shards.
My thin hands.




These slender bones,
Are mine.

Washed and clean,
They felt new.



And now.

My thin hands,
Are not mine.
Comments: 2 tried to - appease my failing soul.

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