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Wednesday, October 1st, 2008

Time:12:53 pm.
Music:ray lamontagne. within you..
i see the extraordinary in you...





and

i want to let it out.
Comments: appease my failing soul.

Sunday, September 28th, 2008

Subject:you once knew.
Time:7:41 pm.
Music:portishead. silence..
it begins.
where you left me.

so far away.

and it ends.
where we meet again.

or so i would like to think.



the future holds promise.

and when it does unfold...



i'm sure a wall will be present

around the heart and soul you once knew.
Comments: appease my failing soul.

Tuesday, September 23rd, 2008

Subject:where you left me.
Time:10:33 pm.
Music:portishead. roads..
i thought about you today.

and our last days together.



the warmth, holding of hands...

your touch. and your face.

your broad, thick shoulders.

you sat there. with your head down.

i couldn't see your eyes.


i knew you would miss us.

but not nearly as much as me.



it has been more than 3 years.

shit. how time flies.


and people change.



and i am no where near where i want to be.

(yet so much farther from where you left me.)
Comments: 2 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Monday, September 15th, 2008

Time:9:18 am.
i promise to look you in the eyes more.
Comments: 2 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Thursday, September 11th, 2008

Subject:all that it should.
Time:12:43 pm.
it has been awhile
since i have felt pain.

(and when i say pain, i mean
real, fucking hurt, pain.)



i am allergic to advil.

i never take tylenol.


i walk through life watching others limp.


_____________

i don't know how much longer
i can self medicate
my mind
so it forgets to feel.

all that it should.
Comments: appease my failing soul.

Monday, September 1st, 2008

Time:3:02 pm.
so busy.

i lost myself.

among a stack of papers.

_____________________

-long pants that drag at the bottom and hang loose around hips
-eyes with depth
-flat shoes
-black ink tattoos
-simple but beautiful music
-a good conversation
-fashion
-the 1940's
-hats, costume or just to rock
-wings!
-secret gardens
-the size of the ocean
-feeling small
-the color green
-love, braveheart style
-leaves on trees and the light that falls through
-holding hands
-dark movies
-real life
-poetry and literature
-fantasy novels and dragons
-god induced miracles
-nuns walking together in a row
-watching cougars
-dancing, wildly in a huge group of people
-blue jeans that are worn in
-NPR
-itunes
-magazine cut out collages

-wisdom
-the power of prayer
-music from the 90's
-fresh cut roses
-someone who understands

_____________________

so alone.

i found myself.


a mere shadow of who i use to be.
Comments: 3 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Tuesday, August 26th, 2008

Subject:all i need.
Time:1:11 pm.
radiohead just rocked the fuck out of my life.
Comments: 2 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Sunday, August 10th, 2008

Time:8:01 pm.
i watched the moonset in the distance,
moving slowly like growing old

and looking just as lonely as me.
Comments: 1 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Friday, August 8th, 2008

Subject:cracked to constant
Time:11:04 pm.
i forgot about the sky today,
pale blue white
and covered in haze.

looked down to us each day
as if to say,

i will be here always
to protect and rain.
kiss you goodnight,
give stars to entertain.

i will never leave you
though cracks cover black,
what were once holes.


i will never forget you,
your heart nor your soul.

i will always love you,
pale blue white
and covered in haze.


i will never leave you,
like the sky

here always to stay.
Comments: appease my failing soul.

Wednesday, August 6th, 2008

Time:4:22 pm.
the hum of the city
with a trumpet on the side.

a zoom here.
a slow stroll there.

anything goes,
when you are in the city.

anything goes.

and everyone knows.

but only when in the city.

---------------------------------


i need to get out more.

to the city. maybe.


or out of my shell.

maybe.
Comments: appease my failing soul.

Thursday, July 31st, 2008

Time:9:37 pm.
chars of bright.
-----------------

i ran over his shadow
and crushed him to his knees.

handed me his broken heart.
begged me to mend it, please.

told me i was beautiful,
in the morning light.

cut and paste me collages,
long lasting chars of bright.

chars of bright
in my once darkly broken night.


-----------------------------------------

i totally acted uninterested.

i dont know why. i just did.

i guess i wanted to know how he would act.

childish.

i know. but i did it.

and now i feel like ending the game.

but i am afraid.

cause you seem so real.


and quite frankly,

you make me nervous.

no butterflies.

just nervous.

i lose all confidence,

all ability to express who i really am.

through conversations.

through actions.

i lose all ability to simply be myself.

it use to be so easy.

being myself, that is.




fuck.
Comments: appease my failing soul.

Thursday, July 17th, 2008

Time:6:15 pm.
we walked towards a grandiose mountain,

laying on the floor like a huge lion with golden grains of fur and shadows.



and all i know is...i got to hold your hand.
Comments: 3 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Monday, July 7th, 2008

Subject:another night.
Time:12:03 am.
i let the fire die as i cried.

dark blue, crescent
with sparkles in your eyes.

read me well.

and not in bad light.


teach me to live,
live through with you

another night.
Comments: appease my failing soul.

Friday, July 4th, 2008

Time:2:27 pm.
Music:ray lamontagne. lessons learned..
my blood has been thus polluted
with no time to focus on all that should matter.





art and charity.

i shall make more time for you.
Comments: appease my failing soul.

Sunday, June 8th, 2008

Time:8:38 pm.
Music:damien rice. elephant.
i heard a leaf fall when i died,
silent till landing, shocked surprised.

crisp and stiff,
and ready to break.

cracked and remolded,
years of heartache.

alive while standing.

wanting nothing more.


i turned and bore relief
as the little leaf hit the floor.
Comments: 2 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Friday, June 6th, 2008

Time:6:35 pm.
you sang without words
as you looked into my eyes.
and saw a grand future
pass in the blink of an eye.

eyelashes falling down cheeks,
so pink.

i left you without a thought to think.
Comments: appease my failing soul.

Wednesday, June 4th, 2008

Time:12:39 am.
Music:ray lamontagne. hold you in my arms..
we are just two people
stuck in this skin.

peeling the layers
and scratching the scabs,
fabric stretched so thin.




we are just two people...

trying to get out.
Comments: appease my failing soul.

Thursday, May 29th, 2008

Subject:better in my head. (and i am okay with that.)
Time:4:27 pm.
(i wrote you a song.)


came looking for nothing,
as you gently touched my arm.
sang you a 'lil something,
as i smoothly brushed your heart.

i want to paint the sky
a graceful shade of blue
and tell you of soft worlds longing
to be shattered and removed.


and it feels quite nice and silent
as i sit here in the dark.

and it takes awhile to realize
who you are from such afar.

and it leaves me left
saying nothing but exactly what i mean.

and it makes another day
end so beautifully.

so beautifully, ended though it seems.
Comments: 1 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Tuesday, May 27th, 2008

Time:12:05 am.
Music:a 70's mix..
i want to be beautiful like the people in magazines.


full of multiple one-sided relationships
with people who know all but nothing about me.



(im being serious.)
Comments: 2 tried to - appease my failing soul.

Wednesday, May 21st, 2008

Time:10:13 pm.
i just fell in love with the black keys.
Comments: 1 tried to - appease my failing soul.

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