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Wednesday, October 21st, 2009
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7:21a - um
Sad because I'm bored. Bored because I'm alone. Need to break the circle :(
Curl up and sleep it away. That's all you can do at this point.
No one to reach out to....:( So numb. Want to cry and let the tears drop in a puddle. No tears come, because they've all been cried. None left!
Just scream inside and try to feel pain. Try, because you are incapable of feeling anymore.
:(
current mood:  blank
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8:54a - crestfallen
Can't think of the words to describe the emotional blankness I feel. Oxymoronic isn't it? If I cannot feel, how do I know that I feel blank? I just do. Those of you who have experienced it before will know. But I hope that no one has to feel the way I do. Unless they deserved it. I don't know what I did to deserve this desertion...um...maybe I was a loan shark in my past life and did bad things to people.
I just feel alone. Sunken down. Sometimes I just imagine myself melting into the sidewalk unnoticed. No one cared to notice. Want to scream and destroy things. But it won't solve anything. Feel the sand slip between the fingers with no way to stop the flow. Draining of blood away, never to be recovered. Just a stone. A sorrowful stone.
current mood:  sad
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