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Wednesday, July 8th, 2009
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9:24a - one
Back to square one. This vicious circle. I'm just sad. Yeah, just sad. To the point where there is not passion anymore, no nothing. Just an empty space where my heart used to be. Forced back together so many times in order to have hope, only to be destroyed mercilessly. I've already seen the day when I woke up with no feeling. Emotions just left me. There's none left. Only sadness and blank emptiness. No one mourns for my loss. It's not theirs to suffer. Many times I think that I am cursed. But in these cursed times, I try so hard to have faith, because that's all I have. In my mind, in my heart, my heart that isn't mine anymore, a heart that I don't have anymore. I gave it to the one I thought would cherish it, wish he would, but he wasn't mine to have and he didn't care enough to give it back. Instead he kept it to toy with it. Why? Who knows...to give him pleasure in my pain? Maybe. He knows I am broken. About him and no one else...who will save me...no one.
current mood:  sad
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