||Smashing Pumpkins and Finger Eleven
whoa....haven't updated in the longest.
well, to continue from where i left off, i went to Irving Plaza with Rosy to go see if we'd perhaps run into Maynard James Keenan or, one of my favorite guitarists, Billy Howerdel.
so we just ended up breathing the same air as them..lol
we went with Rosy's little brother Junior(Phil)
15 and a bit more female than I...
uses a purse?
i don't like him much anymore, he's such a little brat, and he tends to use his "panic attacks" as a dramatic effect.
we ended up meeting some guy with an orange beatles shirt, turns out he lives in Briarwood, which is past forest hills and such.
Rosy thought he liked me, and i of course didn't think so.
Junior thought so as well, but that's cause he's gay and good at stuff like that.
i'm just oblivious when it comes to knowing when guys like me.
yet i can tell when other people like someone. hmf.
he was supposed to take the train back home with us, but rosy and i concluded that he paid some security guard to let him into the APC show, after he literally meditated across the street when he needed to decide to go if the guard let him in or not.
uh huh *odd look on face*
guess that was just a little weird...just a bit. lol.
don't get any ideas....i didn't get his name or phone number.
I usually don't do things like that, especially when it's just someone i met out of nowhere, who all i knew about was that he's a big Tool fan, likes The Beatles, meditates in public, wanted to check out A Perfect Circle, and shook my hand all oddly with this weird goofy smile to his face.
now that i'm thinkin' about...he sounds kinda hmm...yeah...anyway...
I FINALLY GOT TO SEE COLD AND FINGER ELEVEN LIVE!!!!
I've missed Finger Eleven in 2001, and 3 TIMES this year!
Cold I've Missed 3 times this year as well because they were on tour with Finger Eleven.
fourth time was a charm ;)
Cold and Finger Eleven were "supporting acts" for...
yup, that's right.
Rosy and I thought that was shit, and it should've been Evanescence as the supporting act for Cold and Finger Eleven.
Finger Eleven opened the show, rosy was still being "felt up" by the female securitylol
I felt violated...so did Rosy..lol
and as soon as she was done I was like "HURRY UP!!" as soon as i heard the intro to "Above" and i ran up the stairs...
Rosy was proud...so was Steve when i told him..lol
me being all accident prone, who wouldn't be proud..haha.
they opened with "Above" one of my favorites off their 1st album "Tip"
Finger Eleven used to call themselves "the rainbow butt monkeys" hehe.
then they played Good Times, Complicated Questions, One Thing, Converstations.
I really wanted them to play Stay In Shadow, Thousand Mile Wish, and Obvious Heart.
Scott Anderson's voice is amazing live! Hearing James play guitar live, was just...wow. he's very theatrical on stage. really fun to watch along with Rick making freaky faces while playing guitar.
their set was pretty short, i was kinda grumpy about that....damn Revis.
Revis was boring, enough said, i yawned through their set..lol
Then....Dum dum dum...
well they played..hmmm...let me take out the playlist from their set since i caught it when it was thrown by one of the stage crew members...heh heh heh!
Cold played: Gone Away, Remedy, Don't Belong, No One, Cure My Tragedy, Condession, Suffocate, Sick Of Man, Stupid Girl, and Just Got Wicked.
Hearing Suffocate live was pure THERAPEUTICAL BLISS!! i dedicate that song to oh 2 people in my life.
a female who was once a friend of mine, who basically backstabbed me to date this in the closet homosexual with his rampant faggotry...lol
oh i love Caesar for that one :P
so Suffocate basically goes out those 2, they're not worth naming by their actual names or explaining the whole story and how it involves me. all i have to say in reference to them is: Karma is a more malicious bitch than i can ever be. enough of that.
Cold's set was amazing!!! i lost my voice just singing along to Finger Eleven and Cold.
i actually didn't recognize Confession when they began to play it, kinda reminds me of James...asshole.
Would have been nice to hear Broken Words live, even though that song also reminds me of James, i liked him back during freshman year. He basically fucked with my head a lot, and treated me pretty badly whenever he was drunk. Don't even remember why i liked him, or maybe i just rather not remember :/ he began to be really mean to me when i didn't let him kiss me while hanging out after school one day.
I got a really bad feeling in the pit of my stomach, and i just backed away the 3 times he tried to kiss me.
He'd tell me how much i meant to him, how much he cared about me, and then he'd be off liking other girls and he just had me as a "back up" you can say...thinking he could be with me when he wanted. he moved away, he lives in Long Island now...and while he was there he decided to comment on my Livejournal and call me a whore,slut,bitch,spic, and a "poser spic".
i think the last "Insult" really shows his level of intelligence. i hate both words with a passion.
after that i basically told him to leave me the fuck alone and a couple of months after he decided to IM me saying that he was sorry, that he missed me, that he regrets what he did to me, treating me the way he did, and that he just felt rejected when i backed away because he liked me a lot.
yeah....treat a girl really badly and that'll show her how much you like her. i talked to him for like a night, and then told him that i couldn't talk to him...what he did was too fucked up and that was the end of it. oddly enough, i can sing Broken Words really well....but i don't listen to it much, since it saddens me a bit.
according to Melissa, he asked about me.
*this is how much i care look to face* oh fucking well....he screwed with my emotions and mind. Funny that Franz, who i liked before James was friends with James and tried to have me as a "back up" as well...he gave up once i figured out what he was all about. he and i still talk, but it's the casual acquaintance talk.
Rosy made me crack about James since he was always trying to be "goth" and now he's an Abercrombie and Fitch model...LMAO!
he used say "i wanna die" a lot. rosy says "so damn die already since u wanna die so bad" to that..lol
people wonder why i like to remain without a label...unless you count my mom labeling me "abnormal".
abnormal? then what is normal? i don't believe in "normal", to me there's no such thing. everyone has their own definition of what they consider "normal" or "routine". i just live my life day by day.
back to the concert, i didn't get a guitar pick from James Black...*sniffle* but i got a picture with him!! woohoo!
i looked like shit after the concert, but oh well..lol
this blond bitch in front of me who was a "hardcore evanescence fan" caught a COLD guitar pick. grrr...should've beaten her up for it....she didn't even know who Cold was!! what kinda crap is that! what is she gunna use the pick to remove the dirt from under her fake nails?
at least i'd use it and then treasure it till i die.
enough of that....
i'm currently sick, i have a bad cold.
damn NYC temperature changes and everyone being sick at school along with my dad at home.
i stayed home from school today, i felt horrible last night and i kept on waking up and coughing.
i have pretty bad body aches...my toes were even hurting last night.
school is alright, tiring, but it's my last year at the hell that is Newtown.
they already have Prom signs up! What the fuck! it's October!!
i'm indecisive about Prom, i want to go, and then i don't.
i'd be the one most likely to arrive at her prom stay for an hour or less and be like "screw this joint, i'm out of here" lol. and just basically ditch my own prom.
but i know if i don't go i'll end up regreting it, because i'm just Kelly like that.
I think i'll go alone and just hang out with the very few close friends i have at Newtown.
it'll be decent even if it sucks, i'll have Angie being a puerto rican nut as usual and telling me "kelly you're so hot! if i was a guy i'd..." yeah..lol
Angie's gettin the dress that i designed for her made, same with Michelle and Elvan.
i think that's the only thing i'm seriously liking, my friends asking me to design their dresses.
but of course...i don't know what i'm wearing..lol
I'll probably design a dress that requires burgundy red chinese silk and some black lace...definitely!
i have no one to talk to :/
people aren't home....i think i'll call steve, i haven't talked to him in a while.
hopefully he's home and i can have some sort of company even though it's on the phone.