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Blurty for Samm.
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| Saturday, December 4th, 2004 |
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| Thursday, September 16th, 2004 |
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I love him I love him for being him I love him for loving me being me I love him for making me a better person when I'm around I love him for reassuring me that its ok to cry as long as the smiles follow. I love him for proving to me that love still exists. I love him for his hugs, his laugh, his overflowing heart. I love him for the way he makes me feel. I love him because only he makes it all go away. I love him for being here unconditionally, always. I love him for climbing three flights of stairs to give goodnight hugs. I love him for knowing when to treat me like his own and when not to. I love him for welcoming me, at all times. I love him for his silly little phone messages. I love him for being silly. I love him for our inside jokes. I love him for drumming in elevators. I love him for understanding me, and me understanding him. I love him for his guitar, and his voice. I love him for his love for speakers. I love him for his big brown eyes. I love him for his even bigger heart. I love him for food fights. I love him for just plain fights. I love him for helping me make new friends. I love him for being my own friend...my BEST friend. I love him for his passions, movies and music...and life. I love him because I LOVE his friends. I love him for his laundry. I love him for the endless nights of meaningful conversation. I love him even more for the endless nights of meaningless conversation. I love him for all the reasons in the world. I love him for loving me being me. I love him being him. I love him . ...to be continued. |
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I love him I love him for being him I love him for loving me being me I love him for making me a better person when I'm around I love him for reassuring me that its ok to cry as long as the smiles follow. I love him for proving to me that love still exists. I love him for his hugs, his laugh, his overflowing heart. I love him for the way he makes me feel. I love him because only he makes it all go away. I love him for being here unconditionally, always. I love him for climbing three flights of stairs to give goodnight hugs. I love him for knowing when to treat me like his own and when not to. I love him for welcoming me, at all times. I love him for his silly little phone messages. I love him for being silly. I love him for our inside jokes. I love him for drumming in elevators. I love him for understanding me, and me understanding him. I love him for his guitar, and his voice. I love him for his love for speakers. I love him for his big brown eyes. I love him for his even bigger heart. I love him for food fights. I love him for just plain fights. I love him for helping me make new friends. I love him for being my own friend...my BEST friend. I love him for his passions, movies and music...and life. I love him because I LOVE his friends. I love him for his laundry. I love him for the endless nights of meaningful conversation. I love him even more for the endless nights of meaningless conversation. I love him for all the reasons in the world. I love him for loving me being me. I love him being him. I love him . ...to be continued. |
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| Wednesday, August 25th, 2004 |
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but oh, those summer nights... Crapola- this entry is more than necessary. I am so sorry that its taken me this long. But at least it will be very long, and adventuresome. For it has been one adventurous summer. Well, Hanson shows. AMAZING. Boston show 7 22 was the Best night of my life. I realized that night that I have the BEST friends in the world Chloe, Sue, and Kim… and that they really are for life. I don’t know what it is we have, but its something special, more than special, something so close to magic you cant really explain it. Hanson truly amazes me in every way, their passion for their music and their fans and our passion for their passion. I will honestly I couldn’t be prouder to be a Hanson fan because they are the most amazing band out there, and whether you believe it or not, they are so much more than MMMBop, they are life. They touch me, they sing to me, they know what I’ve been through, they bring me to tears, remind me of the bad times but how I was strong enough to get through them and at the same time remind me of the good times I have now and I how happy I am in my life. I will be a Hanson fan until the day I die, put the Hanson symbol on my grave stone, and that is a demand. What was supposed to be a summer of strengthening friendships so theyd last forever turned out to be more of a summer of me ridding so many people of prescence in my life, but I cant say I regert it at all, I don’t. people weren’t here for me and when you spend a whole summer away from me, a valuable, changing, important summer, its not gonna be the same no matter how hard we both try, so I am sorry Lisa Zappala, Lisa Collias, Bryan Connor, and hell a whole lot more people than that, but it will just never be the same. At least in the process, I grew to value the few true friends I do have a whole lot more. i have amazing friends and I know that it is quality and not quantity. I wont lie, a good portion of my summer was dedicated to loving the one and only Charlie ferguson, but hes too big of a task for even a girl like me to take on. The harbor cruise killed me, I wont lie, he flirts too much and leads too many girls on and was so close to shattering my heart into small pieces again, but I didn’t let that happen. Ive cut him off completely, I don’t agree with the stupid decisions hes making and the girls hes falling back into and I frankly think my life would be better if I just never talk to him again, we were never really friends anyways, I was a friend by association, through Sue, and I never meant an iota to him of what he meant to me, I basically was just a ride to him, and that is one thing I cannot change. I suppose that since I cant have him in my life the way I want him to be then I just wont have him in my life at all, call it greedy, call it selfish, call it whatever you want, I suppose I just call it self preservation. Dispatch was one of the most insane times ever. Tons of friends, old and new. Met up with Justin, how could the day ever be bad when hes around. I know its horrible but the fact that in two months time ive fallen head over heels for this kid has got to mean something. Sue will tell ya theres sparks, but well, only time will tell. The show was incredible, a little tension but then again I think I bring tension everywhere I go. Celebrated birthdays, sang, danced, talked, I had an amazing time, I adore Dispatch, broken up or not. Some of my best nights have been those nights spent doing absolutely nothing. Driving around Tufts looking for guys, slurpee runs to 7-11, slim jims, taco bell, getting pulled over in cemeteries. BBQing, watching movies, walking through Arlington while eating ice cream. I can successfully say I have spent time with every person that I care about this summer and have at least one amazing memory with each and every one of them. Chloe. Kim. Sue. Katie. Ginny. Steve . Matt. Danny. Michelle. Johnny. Sinead. Lia YOU GUYS ARE MY BEST FRIENDS FOR LIFE AND NOTHING WILL EVER CHANGE THAT. I know there is so much more I can say. My new nickname is Sammy Setlist because for some reason, I always can get whatever I want at concerts, usually setlists. Im two for two so far, Gavin Degraw and Hanson. and both were so worth dangling on barricades. Im not gonna lie, the fact that I leave for college in five days, has finally hit me. Its brought on the tears, on the laughs and smiles, sadness, fear, excitement, basically every possible emotion a teenage girl can feel. I woke up Monday morning and the only thought running through my head was the sole fact that in seven days I would be leaving my home for the first time in my life and starting over, alone and on my own. I am leaving everything I have come to know and love and the place where I found myself behind. I will be leaving my family, my friends, my childhood, my memories, my youth, my church, my life up until now behind. And doing it new, and the right way this time, my way. Sad as it may be that I must leave all this behind me, it means I can finally live life the right way, being myself from the beginning and being loved just for that, and believe me, I deserve that. I deserve that more than anyone. Im sure ill think of more to post later, id like to write up here one last time before my true farewell occurs. You guys are always in my hearts. Love you all. ...and the summer died quick |
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| Wednesday, July 21st, 2004 |
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Hanson:Love Song:Lyrics The wind it blows through the trees Claiming those innocent leaves And the thunder rolls these crashing seas Like a tender kiss holds this heart in me In this life long love song You can love right you can love wrong In this love song you can love long But if you love wrong it doesn't mean love's gone Mary was a young girl with a young girl's heart Well all I can remember is I loved her from the start I was hers forever she was mine too But something's wrong 'cause now she's gone Tell what should I do In this life long love song You can love right you can love wrong In this love song you can love long But if you love wrong it doesn't mean love's gone Whoa And it doesn't mean love's wrong Just because you're feeling' low And it doesn't mean loves gone 'Cause you feel that you want to let go Well no one wrote in this book of love that you'd always know I wish someone would of told me before We talked about love a million times it seems The words come out our lips like we forgot what it means We said we'd be together 'til death do us part But we said those words with only half our hearts In this life long love song You can love right you can love wrong In this love song you can love long And if you love wrong it doesn't mean love's gone I wish someone would've told me before (I wish someone would've told me before) I wish someone would've told me before (I wish someone would've told me before) I wish someone would've told me before (I wish someone would've told me before) |
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| Friday, July 9th, 2004 |
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Tonight was just not a good night. Emotionally charged I guess would be proper terms. I havent had one of these nights in so long but for some reason, tonight I just wanted to curl up and cry all night. Everything with Lisa is driving me insane. I want her back in my life so badly and I dont know how to get that because I feel like she is so distant and does not care if shes with me at all this summer. Lisa was honestly one of the last people I would ever expect this from and its killing me cause last summer, probli the best summer of my life, i spent so much time with her, and this year she cant make any time for us at all. THIS should be the best summer of my life but I feel like there just one big rain cloud over it, and i guess its my own fault too cause I dont think im gonna be fully happy until Im back at BU. I need to be there and I need to be happy. Justin drives me crazy, but hes the best. We talk alot and he can always cheer me up but and I still have the hugest thing everrrrr for him, but I just have that feeling that were just gonna be the "BFF!", as he put it. I'm scared of being alone. I'm scared that I'm always going to be someone's best friend, or sister, or confidant, and never somebody's everything. I mean I am happy that I already found this amazing guy who I know I am gonna be friends with for at least forever, and probli even longer, cuz we just make sense out of each other, but he was saying this whole thing about what friends were tonight and I just wanted to be with him. He really is incredible and I can't wait for the next four years, they'll be splendid. Blah, I'm gonna stop talking about him. Driving me crazy is the fact that I have seen Jimmy lately way more than wanted. Truth to be told, I miss him alot. Granted, I dont love him the way I used to, but theres always gonna be that small part of me that goes pitter patter when I see him, some people always do that to you, I almost wish he wasnt one of them. But thats the way it goes. I wish we talked still cause he was so important to me for so long and I honestly forgive him for all of that, its all water under the bridge, but its apparent that all his words were only false promises and that I was never important enough to him to stay friends. Some day, I will learn. Its just hard cause for so long he was that thing that made me smile, and more importantly, who made me smile when I thought Id forgotten how, and thats all lost now. All of it. As much as i hate to say it, I miss Bryan to death. Im gonna talk to him soon about what happened cause i know things mite be a lil better if he was around, hes just another one full of false promises, i cant believe i actually thot we were really best friends, and that wed really keep in touch, and he actually cared about me. I guess the reocurring theme of the night is Sam is a fool. Im just gonna stop caring about people, or at least keep the people I care about to a bare minimum. I need like ten people to get by in life I guess and I guess im lucky to have that many. Well, im gonna go and watch some dawsons creek season three, and live vicariously through their lives. Night, tears on the pillows tonite. *I'm tired of being alone so hurry up and get here* LINDA COMES HOME TOOOODAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! |
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Tonight was just not a good night. Emotionally charged I guess would be proper terms. I havent had one of these nights in so long but for some reason, tonight I just wanted to curl up and cry all night. Everything with Lisa is driving me insane. I want her back in my life so badly and I dont know how to get that because I feel like she is so distant and does not care if shes with me at all this summer. Lisa was honestly one of the last people I would ever expect this from and its killing me cause last summer, probli the best summer of my life, i spent so much time with her, and this year she cant make any time for us at all. THIS should be the best summer of my life but I feel like there just one big rain cloud over it, and i guess its my own fault too cause I dont think im gonna be fully happy until Im back at BU. I need to be there and I need to be happy. Justin drives me crazy, but hes the best. We talk alot and he can always cheer me up but and I still have the hugest thing everrrrr for him, but I just have that feeling that were just gonna be the "BFF!", as he put it. I'm scared of being alone. I'm scared that I'm always going to be someone's best friend, or sister, or confidant, and never somebody's everything. I mean I am happy that I already found this amazing guy who I know I am gonna be friends with for at least forever, and probli even longer, cuz we just make sense out of each other, but he was saying this whole thing about what friends were tonight and I just wanted to be with him. He really is incredible and I can't wait for the next four years, they'll be splendid. Blah, I'm gonna stop talking about him. Driving me crazy is the fact that I have seen Jimmy lately way more than wanted. Truth to be told, I miss him alot. Granted, I dont love him the way I used to, but theres always gonna be that small part of me that goes pitter patter when I see him, some people always do that to you, I almost wish he wasnt one of them. But thats the way it goes. I wish we talked still cause he was so important to me for so long and I honestly forgive him for all of that, its all water under the bridge, but its apparent that all his words were only false promises and that I was never important enough to him to stay friends. Some day, I will learn. Its just hard cause for so long he was that thing that made me smile, and more importantly, who made me smile when I thought Id forgotten how, and thats all lost now. All of it. As much as i hate to say it, I miss Bryan to death. Im gonna talk to him soon about what happened cause i know things mite be a lil better if he was around, hes just another one full of false promises, i cant believe i actually thot we were really best friends, and that wed really keep in touch, and he actually cared about me. I guess the reocurring theme of the night is Sam is a fool. Im just gonna stop caring about people, or at least keep the people I care about to a bare minimum. I need like ten people to get by in life I guess and I guess im lucky to have that many. Well, im gonna go and watch some dawsons creek season three, and live vicariously through their lives. Night, tears on the pillows tonite. *I'm tired of being alone so hurry up and get here* LINDA COMES HOME TOOOODAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! |
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Tonight was just not a good night. Emotionally charged I guess would be proper terms. I havent had one of these nights in so long but for some reason, tonight I just wanted to curl up and cry all night. Everything with Lisa is driving me insane. I want her back in my life so badly and I dont know how to get that because I feel like she is so distant and does not care if shes with me at all this summer. Lisa was honestly one of the last people I would ever expect this from and its killing me cause last summer, probli the best summer of my life, i spent so much time with her, and this year she cant make any time for us at all. THIS should be the best summer of my life but I feel like there just one big rain cloud over it, and i guess its my own fault too cause I dont think im gonna be fully happy until Im back at BU. I need to be there and I need to be happy. Justin drives me crazy, but hes the best. We talk alot and he can always cheer me up but and I still have the hugest thing everrrrr for him, but I just have that feeling that were just gonna be the "BFF!", as he put it. I'm scared of being alone. I'm scared that I'm always going to be someone's best friend, or sister, or confidant, and never somebody's everything. I mean I am happy that I already found this amazing guy who I know I am gonna be friends with for at least forever, and probli even longer, cuz we just make sense out of each other, but he was saying this whole thing about what friends were tonight and I just wanted to be with him. He really is incredible and I can't wait for the next four years, they'll be splendid. Blah, I'm gonna stop talking about him. Driving me crazy is the fact that I have seen Jimmy lately way more than wanted. Truth to be told, I miss him alot. Granted, I dont love him the way I used to, but theres always gonna be that small part of me that goes pitter patter when I see him, some people always do that to you, I almost wish he wasnt one of them. But thats the way it goes. I wish we talked still cause he was so important to me for so long and I honestly forgive him for all of that, its all water under the bridge, but its apparent that all his words were only false promises and that I was never important enough to him to stay friends. Some day, I will learn. Its just hard cause for so long he was that thing that made me smile, and more importantly, who made me smile when I thought Id forgotten how, and thats all lost now. All of it. As much as i hate to say it, I miss Bryan to death. Im gonna talk to him soon about what happened cause i know things mite be a lil better if he was around, hes just another one full of false promises, i cant believe i actually thot we were really best friends, and that wed really keep in touch, and he actually cared about me. I guess the reocurring theme of the night is Sam is a fool. Im just gonna stop caring about people, or at least keep the people I care about to a bare minimum. I need like ten people to get by in life I guess and I guess im lucky to have that many. Well, im gonna go and watch some dawsons creek season three, and live vicariously through their lives. Night, tears on the pillows tonite. *I'm tired of being alone so hurry up and get here* LINDA COMES HOME TOOOODAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! |
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Tonight was just not a good night. Emotionally charged I guess would be proper terms. I havent had one of these nights in so long but for some reason, tonight I just wanted to curl up and cry all night. Everything with Lisa is driving me insane. I want her back in my life so badly and I dont know how to get that because I feel like she is so distant and does not care if shes with me at all this summer. Lisa was honestly one of the last people I would ever expect this from and its killing me cause last summer, probli the best summer of my life, i spent so much time with her, and this year she cant make any time for us at all. THIS should be the best summer of my life but I feel like there just one big rain cloud over it, and i guess its my own fault too cause I dont think im gonna be fully happy until Im back at BU. I need to be there and I need to be happy. Justin drives me crazy, but hes the best. We talk alot and he can always cheer me up but and I still have the hugest thing everrrrr for him, but I just have that feeling that were just gonna be the "BFF!", as he put it. I'm scared of being alone. I'm scared that I'm always going to be someone's best friend, or sister, or confidant, and never somebody's everything. I mean I am happy that I already found this amazing guy who I know I am gonna be friends with for at least forever, and probli even longer, cuz we just make sense out of each other, but he was saying this whole thing about what friends were tonight and I just wanted to be with him. He really is incredible and I can't wait for the next four years, they'll be splendid. Blah, I'm gonna stop talking about him. Driving me crazy is the fact that I have seen Jimmy lately way more than wanted. Truth to be told, I miss him alot. Granted, I dont love him the way I used to, but theres always gonna be that small part of me that goes pitter patter when I see him, some people always do that to you, I almost wish he wasnt one of them. But thats the way it goes. I wish we talked still cause he was so important to me for so long and I honestly forgive him for all of that, its all water under the bridge, but its apparent that all his words were only false promises and that I was never important enough to him to stay friends. Some day, I will learn. Its just hard cause for so long he was that thing that made me smile, and more importantly, who made me smile when I thought Id forgotten how, and thats all lost now. All of it. As much as i hate to say it, I miss Bryan to death. Im gonna talk to him soon about what happened cause i know things mite be a lil better if he was around, hes just another one full of false promises, i cant believe i actually thot we were really best friends, and that wed really keep in touch, and he actually cared about me. I guess the reocurring theme of the night is Sam is a fool. Im just gonna stop caring about people, or at least keep the people I care about to a bare minimum. I need like ten people to get by in life I guess and I guess im lucky to have that many. Well, im gonna go and watch some dawsons creek season three, and live vicariously through their lives. Night, tears on the pillows tonite. *I'm tired of being alone so hurry up and get here* LINDA COMES HOME TOOOODAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! |
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Tonight was just not a good night. Emotionally charged I guess would be proper terms. I havent had one of these nights in so long but for some reason, tonight I just wanted to curl up and cry all night. Everything with Lisa is driving me insane. I want her back in my life so badly and I dont know how to get that because I feel like she is so distant and does not care if shes with me at all this summer. Lisa was honestly one of the last people I would ever expect this from and its killing me cause last summer, probli the best summer of my life, i spent so much time with her, and this year she cant make any time for us at all. THIS should be the best summer of my life but I feel like there just one big rain cloud over it, and i guess its my own fault too cause I dont think im gonna be fully happy until Im back at BU. I need to be there and I need to be happy. Justin drives me crazy, but hes the best. We talk alot and he can always cheer me up but and I still have the hugest thing everrrrr for him, but I just have that feeling that were just gonna be the "BFF!", as he put it. I'm scared of being alone. I'm scared that I'm always going to be someone's best friend, or sister, or confidant, and never somebody's everything. I mean I am happy that I already found this amazing guy who I know I am gonna be friends with for at least forever, and probli even longer, cuz we just make sense out of each other, but he was saying this whole thing about what friends were tonight and I just wanted to be with him. He really is incredible and I can't wait for the next four years, they'll be splendid. Blah, I'm gonna stop talking about him. Driving me crazy is the fact that I have seen Jimmy lately way more than wanted. Truth to be told, I miss him alot. Granted, I dont love him the way I used to, but theres always gonna be that small part of me that goes pitter patter when I see him, some people always do that to you, I almost wish he wasnt one of them. But thats the way it goes. I wish we talked still cause he was so important to me for so long and I honestly forgive him for all of that, its all water under the bridge, but its apparent that all his words were only false promises and that I was never important enough to him to stay friends. Some day, I will learn. Its just hard cause for so long he was that thing that made me smile, and more importantly, who made me smile when I thought Id forgotten how, and thats all lost now. All of it. As much as i hate to say it, I miss Bryan to death. Im gonna talk to him soon about what happened cause i know things mite be a lil better if he was around, hes just another one full of false promises, i cant believe i actually thot we were really best friends, and that wed really keep in touch, and he actually cared about me. I guess the reocurring theme of the night is Sam is a fool. Im just gonna stop caring about people, or at least keep the people I care about to a bare minimum. I need like ten people to get by in life I guess and I guess im lucky to have that many. Well, im gonna go and watch some dawsons creek season three, and live vicariously through their lives. Night, tears on the pillows tonite. *I'm tired of being alone so hurry up and get here* LINDA COMES HOME TOOOODAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! |
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Story of the Year: Anthem of Our Dying Day The stars will cry the blackest tears tonight And this is the moment that I live for I can smell the ocean air Here I am pouring my heart onto these rooftops Just a ghost to the world Thats exactly, Exactly what I need... From up here the city lights burn Like a thousand miles of fire And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day... For a second I wish the tide will swallow every inch of the city As you gasp for air tonight I'd scream this song right in your face if you were here I swear I wont miss a beat cause I never, Never have before... From up here the city lights burn Like a thousand miles of fire And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day... Of our dying day Of our dying day Of our dying... For a second I wish the tide would swallow every inch of this city As you gasped for air tonight... From up here the city lights burn Like a thousand miles of fire And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day... (3x) Our dying day Of our dying... |
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| Monday, July 5th, 2004 |
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WOW! I am so sorry it has taken me this long to update. Man, oh Man, alot has happened. To start, BU orientation was AMAZING in every possible way. I am so excited to start over and begin my new life without the excess baggage of my past and all that goes along with it, I have even made some really good friends already. Justin, hes precious, the male version of myself, its frightening, I really hope I get around to visiting him in New York because hes already done sooo much for me, its really weird having hope in stupid silly little things like love again so soon after your hearts been broken. Hes amazing, simply put, thats all i can really say about him. Then theres Heather, which is great, cause its hard for me to find girls i really click with, but we did, i think it was the whole Boston accent thing lol. I got my housing and i got COM floor which is soo exciting and now i just hope that i get into FYSOP which is moving in a week early and doing community service throughout Boston with 450 freshman. BU will not come soon enough, and I could not be happier to go there, finally a place where i KNOW i belong. Moving on, everything with me and sue is finally patched over and as good as new. I missed her insanely, a part of me was kinda missing when she wasnt around cause no one quite gets me the way she does. but its all the same, if not better than before, we knew we were too important to be missing from each others lives. HEH, ive gone thru boys like whoa lol. Me and kev didnt last too long, it wasnt meant to be. then i had my little crush phase on Mauro, that was a joke, i hate to say it, but he has no idea how to treat girls and that bothers me and he is so afraid of committment its insane. its ok, i dont care that he didnt like me, i dont care about guys AT ALL this summer, cuz im going to BU in two months and im gonna meet SEVENTEEN THOUSAND people. if one of them isnt mister right, then who knows whats ahead of me. This whole summer has been Lisaless and its killing me. She never has time to hang out with us and its eating me away inside cause she doesnt care at all. She says shes hanging out with the people she didnt get to hang out with in high school, but that doesnt mean she should forget the people she did get to hang out with. Its just lonely without her, and it doesnt phase her at all that were not seeing each other. Were losing each other and its killing me. i broke down at Kims party cause I feel like her and jenna petrigno dont even know me anymore and vice versa. i guess some people arent meant to fit in your lives no matter how much you want them to, i just wish this wasnt the case. and then ARRRRRRRRRR theres charlie. this kid is driving me insane and he has no idea why. thursday nite me him and sue hung out and for some reason he felt like he had to be a total jerk to me the whoooole nite and then when i got mad about it, cuz im sorry, i was that girl who was made fun of and who had everyone mean to her MY WHOLE LIFE and im not that girl anymore and he doesnt seem to know or think that he did anything wrong and i just dont understand where any of it came from cause i have been nothing less than awesome to him but whatever thats the price i pay. bryan called me. i miss him but i cant say i can forgive him, he abandoned me at a time i needed him the most without reason and that hurts so bad cause he knew i would defend him until my dying day, and the second i needed someone he was quick to turn to the other side. some people just arent who you wish they were, i need to stop thinking that people are better than they really are, it sets them up for failure, its just hard cause i thought for a while that he really was my best friend, i told him everything, but that didnt last forever. steve and chloe are amazing, some of my best moments this summer have spent with the three of us going to get ice cream and just walking the streets of arlington until its gone, you know you have found ur best friends wen the best of times are filled with meaningless conversation, what will i ever do without u guys. I MISS NIKKI!!! fourth of july was AMAZING i went in with a lot of ppl i woodnt normally hang with and had the time of my life, mine and shainas humors are unmatched and i saw dave who i miss desperately and lucia and sinead with cutie patootie gabe lol, i met him legit like 4 hours ago heh im sad, but hes young and im ending those days right about .....NOW! fireworks are incredible, they empower me for some reason, but make me so lonely at the same time but i came home and talked to justin, he always seems to make it at least a little bit better, even though well never end up being anything more than friends, ive found this sort of safety in him. I HAVE THE BEST FRIENDS IN THE WORLD, THEY AMAZE ME. and sadly enough on an ending note, this week has been horrible, two of my best friends in the world's mothers have died in this week, both from cancer. i love u mike and paul, you two are stronger than i ever cood be and are true heros in my eyes. i love u both. the whole cancer thing scares me, makes my dad being sick so much more real, granted im lucky and hes gonna live, but still, cancer is just so horrible, it has to be ended. and finally LINDA COMES HOME FRIDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!! i miss this girl MORE THAN LIFE. linda has this spirit about her that can light up a room and having her around again will instantly make my life even happier than it already is. shes amazing and no one cood ever convince me otherwise. HANSON in...17 DAYS BEN JELEN ROCKS MY SOX :) im ending this now, even though i could write forever... I'm scared that I'm going to end up alone. I'm scared that I'm always going to be somebody's friend, or sister, or confidant, never quite somebody's everything. ...i want to be your everything... REST IN PEACE JULIA MCLAUGHLIN PAULINE REILLY *HEAVENS NEWEST ANGELS* |
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WOW! I am so sorry it has taken me this long to update. Man, oh Man, alot has happened. To start, BU orientation was AMAZING in every possible way. I am so excited to start over and begin my new life without the excess baggage of my past and all that goes along with it, I have even made some really good friends already. Justin, hes precious, the male version of myself, its frightening, I really hope I get around to visiting him in New York because hes already done sooo much for me, its really weird having hope in stupid silly little things like love again so soon after your hearts been broken. Hes amazing, simply put, thats all i can really say about him. Then theres Heather, which is great, cause its hard for me to find girls i really click with, but we did, i think it was the whole Boston accent thing lol. I got my housing and i got COM floor which is soo exciting and now i just hope that i get into FYSOP which is moving in a week early and doing community service throughout Boston with 450 freshman. BU will not come soon enough, and I could not be happier to go there, finally a place where i KNOW i belong. Moving on, everything with me and sue is finally patched over and as good as new. I missed her insanely, a part of me was kinda missing when she wasnt around cause no one quite gets me the way she does. but its all the same, if not better than before, we knew we were too important to be missing from each others lives. HEH, ive gone thru boys like whoa lol. Me and kev didnt last too long, it wasnt meant to be. then i had my little crush phase on Mauro, that was a joke, i hate to say it, but he has no idea how to treat girls and that bothers me and he is so afraid of committment its insane. its ok, i dont care that he didnt like me, i dont care about guys AT ALL this summer, cuz im going to BU in two months and im gonna meet SEVENTEEN THOUSAND people. if one of them isnt mister right, then who knows whats ahead of me. This whole summer has been Lisaless and its killing me. She never has time to hang out with us and its eating me away inside cause she doesnt care at all. She says shes hanging out with the people she didnt get to hang out with in high school, but that doesnt mean she should forget the people she did get to hang out with. Its just lonely without her, and it doesnt phase her at all that were not seeing each other. Were losing each other and its killing me. i broke down at Kims party cause I feel like her and jenna petrigno dont even know me anymore and vice versa. i guess some people arent meant to fit in your lives no matter how much you want them to, i just wish this wasnt the case. and then ARRRRRRRRRR theres charlie. this kid is driving me insane and he has no idea why. thursday nite me him and sue hung out and for some reason he felt like he had to be a total jerk to me the whoooole nite and then when i got mad about it, cuz im sorry, i was that girl who was made fun of and who had everyone mean to her MY WHOLE LIFE and im not that girl anymore and he doesnt seem to know or think that he did anything wrong and i just dont understand where any of it came from cause i have been nothing less than awesome to him but whatever thats the price i pay. bryan called me. i miss him but i cant say i can forgive him, he abandoned me at a time i needed him the most without reason and that hurts so bad cause he knew i would defend him until my dying day, and the second i needed someone he was quick to turn to the other side. some people just arent who you wish they were, i need to stop thinking that people are better than they really are, it sets them up for failure, its just hard cause i thought for a while that he really was my best friend, i told him everything, but that didnt last forever. steve and chloe are amazing, some of my best moments this summer have spent with the three of us going to get ice cream and just walking the streets of arlington until its gone, you know you have found ur best friends wen the best of times are filled with meaningless conversation, what will i ever do without u guys. I MISS NIKKI!!! fourth of july was AMAZING i went in with a lot of ppl i woodnt normally hang with and had the time of my life, mine and shainas humors are unmatched and i saw dave who i miss desperately and lucia and sinead with cutie patootie gabe lol, i met him legit like 4 hours ago heh im sad, but hes young and im ending those days right about .....NOW! fireworks are incredible, they empower me for some reason, but make me so lonely at the same time but i came home and talked to justin, he always seems to make it at least a little bit better, even though well never end up being anything more than friends, ive found this sort of safety in him. I HAVE THE BEST FRIENDS IN THE WORLD, THEY AMAZE ME. and sadly enough on an ending note, this week has been horrible, two of my best friends in the world's mothers have died in this week, both from cancer. i love u mike and paul, you two are stronger than i ever cood be and are true heros in my eyes. i love u both. the whole cancer thing scares me, makes my dad being sick so much more real, granted im lucky and hes gonna live, but still, cancer is just so horrible, it has to be ended. and finally LINDA COMES HOME FRIDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!! i miss this girl MORE THAN LIFE. linda has this spirit about her that can light up a room and having her around again will instantly make my life even happier than it already is. shes amazing and no one cood ever convince me otherwise. HANSON in...17 DAYS BEN JELEN ROCKS MY SOX :) im ending this now, even though i could write forever... I'm scared that I'm going to end up alone. I'm scared that I'm always going to be somebody's friend, or sister, or confidant, never quite somebody's everything. ...i want to be your everything... REST IN PEACE JULIA MCLAUGHLIN PAULINE REILLY *HEAVENS NEWEST ANGELS* |
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WOW! I am so sorry it has taken me this long to update. Man, oh Man, alot has happened. To start, BU orientation was AMAZING in every possible way. I am so excited to start over and begin my new life without the excess baggage of my past and all that goes along with it, I have even made some really good friends already. Justin, hes precious, the male version of myself, its frightening, I really hope I get around to visiting him in New York because hes already done sooo much for me, its really weird having hope in stupid silly little things like love again so soon after your hearts been broken. Hes amazing, simply put, thats all i can really say about him. Then theres Heather, which is great, cause its hard for me to find girls i really click with, but we did, i think it was the whole Boston accent thing lol. I got my housing and i got COM floor which is soo exciting and now i just hope that i get into FYSOP which is moving in a week early and doing community service throughout Boston with 450 freshman. BU will not come soon enough, and I could not be happier to go there, finally a place where i KNOW i belong. Moving on, everything with me and sue is finally patched over and as good as new. I missed her insanely, a part of me was kinda missing when she wasnt around cause no one quite gets me the way she does. but its all the same, if not better than before, we knew we were too important to be missing from each others lives. HEH, ive gone thru boys like whoa lol. Me and kev didnt last too long, it wasnt meant to be. then i had my little crush phase on Mauro, that was a joke, i hate to say it, but he has no idea how to treat girls and that bothers me and he is so afraid of committment its insane. its ok, i dont care that he didnt like me, i dont care about guys AT ALL this summer, cuz im going to BU in two months and im gonna meet SEVENTEEN THOUSAND people. if one of them isnt mister right, then who knows whats ahead of me. This whole summer has been Lisaless and its killing me. She never has time to hang out with us and its eating me away inside cause she doesnt care at all. She says shes hanging out with the people she didnt get to hang out with in high school, but that doesnt mean she should forget the people she did get to hang out with. Its just lonely without her, and it doesnt phase her at all that were not seeing each other. Were losing each other and its killing me. i broke down at Kims party cause I feel like her and jenna petrigno dont even know me anymore and vice versa. i guess some people arent meant to fit in your lives no matter how much you want them to, i just wish this wasnt the case. and then ARRRRRRRRRR theres charlie. this kid is driving me insane and he has no idea why. thursday nite me him and sue hung out and for some reason he felt like he had to be a total jerk to me the whoooole nite and then when i got mad about it, cuz im sorry, i was that girl who was made fun of and who had everyone mean to her MY WHOLE LIFE and im not that girl anymore and he doesnt seem to know or think that he did anything wrong and i just dont understand where any of it came from cause i have been nothing less than awesome to him but whatever thats the price i pay. bryan called me. i miss him but i cant say i can forgive him, he abandoned me at a time i needed him the most without reason and that hurts so bad cause he knew i would defend him until my dying day, and the second i needed someone he was quick to turn to the other side. some people just arent who you wish they were, i need to stop thinking that people are better than they really are, it sets them up for failure, its just hard cause i thought for a while that he really was my best friend, i told him everything, but that didnt last forever. steve and chloe are amazing, some of my best moments this summer have spent with the three of us going to get ice cream and just walking the streets of arlington until its gone, you know you have found ur best friends wen the best of times are filled with meaningless conversation, what will i ever do without u guys. I MISS NIKKI!!! fourth of july was AMAZING i went in with a lot of ppl i woodnt normally hang with and had the time of my life, mine and shainas humors are unmatched and i saw dave who i miss desperately and lucia and sinead with cutie patootie gabe lol, i met him legit like 4 hours ago heh im sad, but hes young and im ending those days right about .....NOW! fireworks are incredible, they empower me for some reason, but make me so lonely at the same time but i came home and talked to justin, he always seems to make it at least a little bit better, even though well never end up being anything more than friends, ive found this sort of safety in him. I HAVE THE BEST FRIENDS IN THE WORLD, THEY AMAZE ME. and sadly enough on an ending note, this week has been horrible, two of my best friends in the world's mothers have died in this week, both from cancer. i love u mike and paul, you two are stronger than i ever cood be and are true heros in my eyes. i love u both. the whole cancer thing scares me, makes my dad being sick so much more real, granted im lucky and hes gonna live, but still, cancer is just so horrible, it has to be ended. and finally LINDA COMES HOME FRIDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!! i miss this girl MORE THAN LIFE. linda has this spirit about her that can light up a room and having her around again will instantly make my life even happier than it already is. shes amazing and no one cood ever convince me otherwise. HANSON in...17 DAYS BEN JELEN ROCKS MY SOX :) im ending this now, even though i could write forever... I'm scared that I'm going to end up alone. I'm scared that I'm always going to be somebody's friend, or sister, or confidant, never quite somebody's everything. ...i want to be your everything... REST IN PEACE JULIA MCLAUGHLIN PAULINE REILLY *HEAVENS NEWEST ANGELS* |
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WOW! I am so sorry it has taken me this long to update. Man, oh Man, alot has happened. To start, BU orientation was AMAZING in every possible way. I am so excited to start over and begin my new life without the excess baggage of my past and all that goes along with it, I have even made some really good friends already. Justin, hes precious, the male version of myself, its frightening, I really hope I get around to visiting him in New York because hes already done sooo much for me, its really weird having hope in stupid silly little things like love again so soon after your hearts been broken. Hes amazing, simply put, thats all i can really say about him. Then theres Heather, which is great, cause its hard for me to find girls i really click with, but we did, i think it was the whole Boston accent thing lol. I got my housing and i got COM floor which is soo exciting and now i just hope that i get into FYSOP which is moving in a week early and doing community service throughout Boston with 450 freshman. BU will not come soon enough, and I could not be happier to go there, finally a place where i KNOW i belong. Moving on, everything with me and sue is finally patched over and as good as new. I missed her insanely, a part of me was kinda missing when she wasnt around cause no one quite gets me the way she does. but its all the same, if not better than before, we knew we were too important to be missing from each others lives. HEH, ive gone thru boys like whoa lol. Me and kev didnt last too long, it wasnt meant to be. then i had my little crush phase on Mauro, that was a joke, i hate to say it, but he has no idea how to treat girls and that bothers me and he is so afraid of committment its insane. its ok, i dont care that he didnt like me, i dont care about guys AT ALL this summer, cuz im going to BU in two months and im gonna meet SEVENTEEN THOUSAND people. if one of them isnt mister right, then who knows whats ahead of me. This whole summer has been Lisaless and its killing me. She never has time to hang out with us and its eating me away inside cause she doesnt care at all. She says shes hanging out with the people she didnt get to hang out with in high school, but that doesnt mean she should forget the people she did get to hang out with. Its just lonely without her, and it doesnt phase her at all that were not seeing each other. Were losing each other and its killing me. i broke down at Kims party cause I feel like her and jenna petrigno dont even know me anymore and vice versa. i guess some people arent meant to fit in your lives no matter how much you want them to, i just wish this wasnt the case. and then ARRRRRRRRRR theres charlie. this kid is driving me insane and he has no idea why. thursday nite me him and sue hung out and for some reason he felt like he had to be a total jerk to me the whoooole nite and then when i got mad about it, cuz im sorry, i was that girl who was made fun of and who had everyone mean to her MY WHOLE LIFE and im not that girl anymore and he doesnt seem to know or think that he did anything wrong and i just dont understand where any of it came from cause i have been nothing less than awesome to him but whatever thats the price i pay. bryan called me. i miss him but i cant say i can forgive him, he abandoned me at a time i needed him the most without reason and that hurts so bad cause he knew i would defend him until my dying day, and the second i needed someone he was quick to turn to the other side. some people just arent who you wish they were, i need to stop thinking that people are better than they really are, it sets them up for failure, its just hard cause i thought for a while that he really was my best friend, i told him everything, but that didnt last forever. steve and chloe are amazing, some of my best moments this summer have spent with the three of us going to get ice cream and just walking the streets of arlington until its gone, you know you have found ur best friends wen the best of times are filled with meaningless conversation, what will i ever do without u guys. I MISS NIKKI!!! fourth of july was AMAZING i went in with a lot of ppl i woodnt normally hang with and had the time of my life, mine and shainas humors are unmatched and i saw dave who i miss desperately and lucia and sinead with cutie patootie gabe lol, i met him legit like 4 hours ago heh im sad, but hes young and im ending those days right about .....NOW! fireworks are incredible, they empower me for some reason, but make me so lonely at the same time but i came home and talked to justin, he always seems to make it at least a little bit better, even though well never end up being anything more than friends, ive found this sort of safety in him. I HAVE THE BEST FRIENDS IN THE WORLD, THEY AMAZE ME. and sadly enough on an ending note, this week has been horrible, two of my best friends in the world's mothers have died in this week, both from cancer. i love u mike and paul, you two are stronger than i ever cood be and are true heros in my eyes. i love u both. the whole cancer thing scares me, makes my dad being sick so much more real, granted im lucky and hes gonna live, but still, cancer is just so horrible, it has to be ended. and finally LINDA COMES HOME FRIDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!! i miss this girl MORE THAN LIFE. linda has this spirit about her that can light up a room and having her around again will instantly make my life even happier than it already is. shes amazing and no one cood ever convince me otherwise. HANSON in...17 DAYS BEN JELEN ROCKS MY SOX :) im ending this now, even though i could write forever... I'm scared that I'm going to end up alone. I'm scared that I'm always going to be somebody's friend, or sister, or confidant, never quite somebody's everything. ...i want to be your everything... REST IN PEACE JULIA MCLAUGHLIN PAULINE REILLY *HEAVENS NEWEST ANGELS* |
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WOW! I am so sorry it has taken me this long to update. Man, oh Man, alot has happened. To start, BU orientation was AMAZING in every possible way. I am so excited to start over and begin my new life without the excess baggage of my past and all that goes along with it, I have even made some really good friends already. Justin, hes precious, the male version of myself, its frightening, I really hope I get around to visiting him in New York because hes already done sooo much for me, its really weird having hope in stupid silly little things like love again so soon after your hearts been broken. Hes amazing, simply put, thats all i can really say about him. Then theres Heather, which is great, cause its hard for me to find girls i really click with, but we did, i think it was the whole Boston accent thing lol. I got my housing and i got COM floor which is soo exciting and now i just hope that i get into FYSOP which is moving in a week early and doing community service throughout Boston with 450 freshman. BU will not come soon enough, and I could not be happier to go there, finally a place where i KNOW i belong. Moving on, everything with me and sue is finally patched over and as good as new. I missed her insanely, a part of me was kinda missing when she wasnt around cause no one quite gets me the way she does. but its all the same, if not better than before, we knew we were too important to be missing from each others lives. HEH, ive gone thru boys like whoa lol. Me and kev didnt last too long, it wasnt meant to be. then i had my little crush phase on Mauro, that was a joke, i hate to say it, but he has no idea how to treat girls and that bothers me and he is so afraid of committment its insane. its ok, i dont care that he didnt like me, i dont care about guys AT ALL this summer, cuz im going to BU in two months and im gonna meet SEVENTEEN THOUSAND people. if one of them isnt mister right, then who knows whats ahead of me. This whole summer has been Lisaless and its killing me. She never has time to hang out with us and its eating me away inside cause she doesnt care at all. She says shes hanging out with the people she didnt get to hang out with in high school, but that doesnt mean she should forget the people she did get to hang out with. Its just lonely without her, and it doesnt phase her at all that were not seeing each other. Were losing each other and its killing me. i broke down at Kims party cause I feel like her and jenna petrigno dont even know me anymore and vice versa. i guess some people arent meant to fit in your lives no matter how much you want them to, i just wish this wasnt the case. and then ARRRRRRRRRR theres charlie. this kid is driving me insane and he has no idea why. thursday nite me him and sue hung out and for some reason he felt like he had to be a total jerk to me the whoooole nite and then when i got mad about it, cuz im sorry, i was that girl who was made fun of and who had everyone mean to her MY WHOLE LIFE and im not that girl anymore and he doesnt seem to know or think that he did anything wrong and i just dont understand where any of it came from cause i have been nothing less than awesome to him but whatever thats the price i pay. bryan called me. i miss him but i cant say i can forgive him, he abandoned me at a time i needed him the most without reason and that hurts so bad cause he knew i would defend him until my dying day, and the second i needed someone he was quick to turn to the other side. some people just arent who you wish they were, i need to stop thinking that people are better than they really are, it sets them up for failure, its just hard cause i thought for a while that he really was my best friend, i told him everything, but that didnt last forever. steve and chloe are amazing, some of my best moments this summer have spent with the three of us going to get ice cream and just walking the streets of arlington until its gone, you know you have found ur best friends wen the best of times are filled with meaningless conversation, what will i ever do without u guys. I MISS NIKKI!!! fourth of july was AMAZING i went in with a lot of ppl i woodnt normally hang with and had the time of my life, mine and shainas humors are unmatched and i saw dave who i miss desperately and lucia and sinead with cutie patootie gabe lol, i met him legit like 4 hours ago heh im sad, but hes young and im ending those days right about .....NOW! fireworks are incredible, they empower me for some reason, but make me so lonely at the same time but i came home and talked to justin, he always seems to make it at least a little bit better, even though well never end up being anything more than friends, ive found this sort of safety in him. I HAVE THE BEST FRIENDS IN THE WORLD, THEY AMAZE ME. and sadly enough on an ending note, this week has been horrible, two of my best friends in the world's mothers have died in this week, both from cancer. i love u mike and paul, you two are stronger than i ever cood be and are true heros in my eyes. i love u both. the whole cancer thing scares me, makes my dad being sick so much more real, granted im lucky and hes gonna live, but still, cancer is just so horrible, it has to be ended. and finally LINDA COMES HOME FRIDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!! i miss this girl MORE THAN LIFE. linda has this spirit about her that can light up a room and having her around again will instantly make my life even happier than it already is. shes amazing and no one cood ever convince me otherwise. HANSON in...17 DAYS BEN JELEN ROCKS MY SOX :) im ending this now, even though i could write forever... I'm scared that I'm going to end up alone. I'm scared that I'm always going to be somebody's friend, or sister, or confidant, never quite somebody's everything. ...i want to be your everything... REST IN PEACE JULIA MCLAUGHLIN PAULINE REILLY *HEAVENS NEWEST ANGELS* |
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| i know this has nothing directly to do with me, but im gonna write about it. my poor fab four fighting. why girls WHY??? it kills me to see this cuz they were soooooo close, like role models to friendship and its falling apart. people are hurting. i wish they could take what i say to them to heart but i know so much of it wont make sense to them until they are my age. but one, boys are never EVER worth it. no boy, i dont care what his name is, how sweet or charming he is, or how much he makes you smile. in the end, there are few guys who are ever gonna equal out to what your girls mean to you. i know girls that he is an incredible person, but so are your girls, and who have been there longer and thru it all. hes a silly boy. in the end, youll realize that, so help me God, you guys will realize that. next, dont judge. best friends dont judge, i know its in the past, but i hate that it ever happened in the beginning. hmm what else. TALK IT OUT. its not gonna hurt. the only way things are ever gonna get solved is if all four of them agree that everything is done with and in the past and all four of them make genuine efforts to change things, but something tells me thats not gonna work. i hope that they all can suck it up for one nite adn talk it all out and lay it all on the table and cry if they have to, ITS OK TO CRY. I just really hope that they can get their friendhips back to the way they used to be, cause 4 girls this amazing should not be doing this to each other. i love you guys and dont forget that, and im here, but you guys should be talking to each other, more than anybody else. keep ur chins up. hugs and kisses. | ||||||||
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some people never learn... its two weeks into summer and im already this aggravated. maybe i shouldbt be, but I AM. theyre so clueless the two of them, they never know theyre hurting. today, it hurt. i wake up to see her away message saying that they were at the beach. did they invite their other best friends, of course not, they have each other. i dont know i should be happy knowing they both have this person in each other that they spend every waking moment with, but then again, ive never known that that was the definition of friendship, and when theyre together they forget they have other best friends. i really dont know that this is gonna be a good summer esp. since whenever jenna goes out with them, im not gonna go out, cuz i cant be around her, and id rather not go out at all then go out and be miserable, its not worth it to me. why cant u see that all i want is to be good enough for you guys, but im not, i never am, no matter what youll have ur inside jokes, and it will always be you two, and only you two that matter, and it stings, cuz thats not how i want it at all. at all, and thats how u make it. |
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God can’t hand you something new until you let go of what you’re holding. How effin true is that??? Well fellas, I was looking at quotes and when I find good ones I have no choice but to write. It's about time anyways since things are just so much grander now. Endings are around the corner, some have already begun. Im not gonna lie, it scares me to death that in two days I have to sit and hear my name called, and i have to walk across a stage, and accept this one piece of paper that tells me the last 13 years of my life are over. What the bag is that? Friday was the last day of school and lemme tell you signing yearbooks was not an easy task. I cried hysterically signing Sue's and JP's. And theres my other ten best friends in the world who i still havent signed cuz i know ill see them again. I cant believe its all coming to an end, I remember Kindergarten May Day like it was yesterday, oh, how the times have changed. Im just glad that if i know anything with graduation coming up, its that i have at least a solid true ten friends that i will never lose, and thats more than alot of other people can say. And I can say that I am so happy with where I am in my life, and who I have become. In even just a year, so much has changed for me, and I cant believe how much of a stronger, happier person I have become. It is true that what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger. So true. Heh, I spent Friday nite watching Peter Pan, and then I went to the Post Prom Party. I had a BLAST, and it felt awesome to know I could have a good time even when Im around people Id rather not be around. I AM AWESOME. Then theres my little Kevvo...heh, last time I wrote about him, I was too scared to talk to him. That changed fast. One week of talking and i can already see how amazing of a person he is. Hes got sucha big heart and so few people realize it. He makes me smile, and you know what, thats enough for me. HANDS DOWN :) Theres nothing I can even say because its pretty much beyond words. If you could feel the butterflies then maybe youd understand, but you cant, so i guess youll have to dream. Moving on, I love Sabrina to pieces. I had like a legit convo with her last night and I really love that I can be there for her, shes a really special girl. NaNa, Fer, and Nelly rock my sox. I love you girls to death. Wow thats two shouts in a row youve gotten in my blurty, you must be some really special girls. Ive gotten over alot of stuff lately and I really wish I could forgive her, but I still dont know that Im ready to do that. Granted I dont like him anymore and I know I wont ever again esp. based on the fact that we dont talk, i still cant get over how much she hurt me, and it sucks, cuz she was one of my best friends, and thats all gone. It all disappeared when the knife went thru my back. I think its almost pulled out though, which is always good to know. So yea, I dont know what more there is to say. Im sure I could talk forever but thats no fun for u guys. Love you all to smithereens. Its so hard to say goodbye to yesterday...June 3rd. FRIENDS:CR.SF.LZ.MD.MF.SS: FOREVER Hanson 4:Sue,Kim,Clo,Sam: 7.22 just lay entwined here undiscovered... peace and hair grease <3 Samm |
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nostalgic.
ecstatic.
energetic.
geeky.