||boy sets fire
Well, I haven't updated in here for a while. I have alot to say to some people. Here I go.
First of all, everything is cool now with everything, I'm pretty sure. I probably already wrote this, but I'll do it again.
First of all, I've been going to counseling. Well, my mom took me. 2 times so far. And it's kind of lame but whatever. It actually felt good to talk to someone knowing that no matter what I said no one else could find out, which means, no' mo' drama. But whatever. After talking to this guy, he came to the conclusion that I have bipolar mix, which is the 3rd level or something. And all in all what he said and what that means is that I'm depressed and have rapid mood swings and an attention disorder. Like ADHD. Which is true. But depressed?? I don't think I am. Yeah, I'm not fully up to par or anything, but I don't think I'm depressed. We'll see though. So anyways, I moved in with Jill for a few days. 4 days actually. It was pretty cool, but got boring after a while. I might be going back Monday though so actually stay. I don't know what's going on with that, but I guess I'll figure it out. So anyways, like everyone knows, I'm out of school. I can drop out next year if I want to, but I haven't made up my mind yet. But now today the school called about tutoring. I don't feel like getting tutored. Because they want me to pass classes and be a freshman/sophomore next year. That's pretty lame. They think that I just don't feel like doing work. Which isn't the case. It's the fact that people in highschool are lame dramatic assholes and I can't stand them. So. That's all for that. And monday I have to go to my family doctors for a check up. And they have to watch what medicine they give me also because of my anemia. I haven't been taking my iron pills so my blood level might be worse. I don't know. I'm gonna frigin die with all this crap, haha.
But yeah I don't know. So yeah, I'm back home now. Everything was cool earlier but my asshole brother had to ruin that by punching me a million times. He's such a fucking asshole. I seriously honestly hate him. My bruises were just going away too. But hey, that's all a big joke to my mom and dad!!
Well, I'm looking forward to this weekend. Later tonight, since it's almost 2:30 in the morning now, I'm hanging out with Shane Kelly, Dan Bowen, and all their friends down in Woodbury around Shane's house. So that is going to be loads of fun. And then on Saturday I'm going to Boy Sets Fire with Larn and Jay. Jakki might be busing with Bangs, I'm not sure. But Dan and Shane are gonna be there so that's cool. They were there last time too and it was tons of fun. =D So I'm really looking forward to this weekend.
And now, I have to vent.
Alright alright. Well, me and Dan Weeks, old time best buddies, are no longer friends .It's a long story, so I don't feel like getting into it or I might have to kill someone. But anyways. Today, I here that Dan is walking around school saying "I've been so much better without Sarah. Oh man, I'm in such a good mood. Maybe it's because I haven't been talking to Sarah. Sarah brings people down with her".
Alright. Well look Dan. I'm not going to be an immature asshole like you. I'm not going to lie, I do miss you. And I do miss talking to you. But how are you going to sit there and do that? Remember, you're the one who fucked me over. And if I do recall, you're the one who wants me to talk to Stephanie and tell her that you still think she's the hottest girl in the world and ask her stuff for you. Not to mention, you're going out with Jakki. So don't even sit there and be a total asshole to me. I didn't do anything to you except try to be your friend. And I'm sorry for the times I was a dick to you, you know I'm not exactly straight right now. But at least I have the guts to apologize to you. But why would you apologize? You're punk rock. Oh wait, nevermind. That was last years trend. So once again, if we're not friends, then drop everything. Okay? thanks doll.
Kenny. Well there's nothing wrong with Kenny here. I just miss talking to him. He hasn't been online alot lately cause he's been talking to his new girlfriend Kara, but that's totally understandable cause she's really cool. And he's happy so that's all that matters. <3
And there's no one else to really point out to. There's nothing wrong with everyone else. Just I miss my kennah and I hate Dan now. But grrrr. I don't hate him. I'm just really mad at him. I'll forgive him if he apologizes and just be cool with him, but he doesn't have to sit there and spread around school that I'm some maniac who wants everyone to be sad. That's not what I'm out to do. But I'm not in school anymore so I guess it doesn't matter.
Well, I don't know. I feel really stupid right now. I hate writing stuff like this, but sometimes I really have to.
Whatever. haha I'm done complaining.