| 06:01pm 01/10/2003 | |||
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| (1 Gorgeous Person Craves Attention from Dom | You want to take my love slave, don't you?) |
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| I knew it. | |||
| 03:37pm 27/09/2003 | |||
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| (4 Gorgeous Persons Craves Attention from Dom | You want to take my love slave, don't you?) |
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| 06:14pm 17/09/2003 | |||
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You guys are going to want to go to... www.full-bloom.net Right now. Go. |
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| (5 Gorgeous Persons Craves Attention from Dom | You want to take my love slave, don't you?) |
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| "So, if I were to give up everything now..." | |||
| 05:00pm 02/09/2003 | |||
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There's this guy. [I'm in the library] His head is totally bobbing. I want to reach over there and grab his headphones. And scream at him for having headphones in a library, with music that talks about stuff only construction workers know!! But of course I'm having too much fun giggling over his bobbyhead. *watches head bobble* Oh, good stuff. Anyway. Hi guys. *waves* ToPersonFollowingInMyFootsteps (otherwise known as TPFIMFoo): Please stop. For me, please. Just look to the Lord and forget all of the wants. I know it's hard, I know it's tempting, but please stop it. None of it is worth it - not any inch of it. ToGiverOfMyPrettyPrettyB-dayCakeroo : Mucho Lo Siento-s for leaving so abruptly! I said I'd BRB, but I was forced to LEAVE!!! I enjoyed cake alot, alot. Yes, yes I did. I realize I'm sounding weird. Just ignoro me. PersonWhoUsedToSitInTheChairIEnjoyedKick DUDEY! I so didn't get to talk to you like I wanted to. I was like, Mugs, where did she gooo?!. Cause, duder, you were totally gone. Not that I would have had a moment to talk to you alone. I wanted to do that with everybody, and in 30 minutes that's downright impossible. Sorry, again. It was good to see you staring at me though. Yep. BestestestDudeyInTheWholeBigUniVerse: Hi Kellums!! Thinking of you! You know why! So, okay then! *** On a me note. I'VE MADE A FRIEND! HER NAME IS SARA!! She's like the coolest person ever. And, she's, like, a Junior. And, like. *twirls hair* Ugh. I disgust myself. Having to join a club. Anybody got any ideals? |
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| (2 Gorgeous Persons Craves Attention from Dom | You want to take my love slave, don't you?) |
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| 07:53pm 26/08/2003 | |||
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Everybody has faults. I happen to love mine. *hugs faults* Except for my teeth. I dislike them. They distort my face and..um...snogging...abilities. Heh. Yes, I'm sure you all want to hear this. But this is a journal after all. I hold NOTHING back!!! *acts like a star wars person* Anyway. Totally want to snog this guy who sits next to me at lunch. Pretty sure he wants to snog me, too - or rather, suckle my boobs. Whatever reason, I'm ready to roll!!! (Not all the way, you perverts. I'm a new woman :)) Here's the thing: If he asks me out...which is more romantic? Smiling and snogging him senseless? or Smiling and waiting until we get to the backseat of a car? I'm so sad. DUDIES!! LOVE YOU ALL!! |
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| (4 Gorgeous Persons Craves Attention from Dom | You want to take my love slave, don't you?) |
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| 05:55pm 20/08/2003 | |||
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Today was the first day of school. I didn't cry once. Be proud. I prayed last night for strength and courage. ...My favorite poem is Footsteps...you all know the one...*blushes* This is stupid, but I asked him to hold my hand. In the past, I've had really, really bad new school experiences. And I've always ended up with this crowd that takes everything away from me - what I was, what I want to be, my dreams, my hopes...God....But I've always had good friends - best friends. Yet for some reason that I didn't figure out until recently, I was never as happy anywhere as I was when I was at Stroud. And it just hit me. When I was up there with you all...all of you...You surrounded me with the presence of God. Everyday I was enveloped in his spirit through you all. It was so entrancing and I curse myself now for not realizing it at the time. And by the way...To those of you who came up to me - and tried to get me to go down front - I'm sorry I didn't. I regret not...But seeing how much each and every one of you cared was so touching. Jeebus, I've turned soft. *cleans mouth out with iron* Anyway, back to school. Today was the first day. I awoke and every inch of my body was shaking. I put on my Kurt Cobain shirt. (KELLY! I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU DON'T KNOW WHO KURT IS!!) A pair of jeans that believe it or not actually half-way don't look so bad on me and my new Reebok shoes. *shines with pride* I brushed my newly died RED hair, threw on my normal look-at-me-and-burst-into-flames eyeliner and then I went through every single photo that I took from Falls Creek. And KT, I know how much you hate to be photographed. I know. And I'm sorry for taking those ones of you. But you have no idea how helpful it was to see you in those pictures. And to see Moo and Kellums and Gz and Shay and Rachel and Steph and EVERYBODY. I realized that I felt a connection with you all there - that somehow I was touched just by your being there - all of you. And then a complete blanket of sadness surrounded me when I thought about Sonia and Haley's absense. It amazes me how people can go through life and never feel so protected and enveloped with his love. It's sickening and so sad. Some people live and die and never go to Falls Creek. God, look at what they're missing. So since I probably won't be on for awhile - I've already got Geometry homework. *twitches*.... Amber - Kid, you are the craziest moli (Mother Licker. Ha.) ever to walk this planet. I love every inch of you. You're self absorbed and you spend all night staring at the ceiling and telling me about the boys who've hurt you, and who you've done and all kinds of crap. And I listened. Even if you never read this, I want you to know that I listened to every word. And I absorbed it all. I was so jealous of you. I thought you had everything. Now I know that I was wrong. You didn't have everything. ...You didn't have God. Rachel - Jeebus, girl. You were my friend back when Sonia was your best friend AND my best friend. Even when I was so jealous and I screamed and yelled at you that she was MY best friend and that YOU couldn't have her. You are so faithful and so full of spirit and beauty. I envy you also - I envy your dedication. Sonia - My first amiga! *groans at stupidity* You are one great person. So kind and generous and loving and accepting. You laugh at everything. I've only see you cry once and that's a record among my friends - save for KT. When I told you I was moving and never coming back ( In 4th grade.) And you hugged me and we cried together. I've never forgotten that moment. It was the first time I realized that somebody cared about me other than my parents. Monumental jazz. Thanks. KellIE - Oooh. *is tempted to hug you* I'm sorry I left you. I'm sorry I got mad at you right after we became friends. I'm sorry we weren't friends earlier. I'm sorry what you had to go through and I'm sorry that I didn't push you to tell someone earlier. I'm so glad that you're better now. Seeing you sad tore at my heart. I was left with shreds until the end. And just seeing you happier made it all better. You're such a great person and friend - so loyal and eager and willing to do anything to make anyone happy. I honestly don't know what I would have done without you - and you know what I'm talking about. I want to apologize for talking about myself those two nights you stayed the night. I guess Amber rubbed off on me a bit. :D Okay guys. Will do the rest of you later. I've got so much to say and not alot of time. Bye dudeys. Love and God Bless - Shorty |
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| (6 Gorgeous Persons Craves Attention from Dom | You want to take my love slave, don't you?) |
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| 12:47pm 19/08/2003 | |||
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I am hereby giving up this journal. To Kellums. But only for a few minutes. *smile* Add those who wanna be. Take those off who hate me or whatever. I have no time. Oooh. And pretty icon, no? Forever Together. *scoff* What ever. |
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| (5 Gorgeous Persons Craves Attention from Dom | You want to take my love slave, don't you?) |
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| 02:18pm 18/08/2003 | |||
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KURT SHIRTS!! EVERYBODY NEEDS ONE!! [small]Thanks, guys.[/small] |
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| (1 Gorgeous Person Craves Attention from Dom | You want to take my love slave, don't you?) |
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| 06:23pm 15/08/2003 | |||
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I know that I have no right to ask for help right now. I know this - so don't kill me. The fact that two of my closest and most beloved friends are in the middle (still? was? is?) of a heartbreaking...whatever...*wince at lack of better word* and me and my precious memories as the 4 of us laughing out loud in English: My awe at my friends' intelligence...My admiration for the three people who had such a connection together that I couldn't comprehend...The lump in my throat that instantly disappeared as I stepped the classroom door and saw Gigi, KT, and Moo laughing and joking away, and the knowledge that for that one hour, I wouldn't have to feel left out. Because there between you guys, I wasn't ... left out ... Ever. Those moments I can never get back. As much as that hurts, I'm glad I have them in my past and my permanent memory. Nothing can ever take them from me. And I hope that you two come (have come?) past this time because what you have together is so strong...and so...impressively huge...that to let a boy destroy it almost brings me to tears. Almost. *smiles* But that's not my deal. I just had to butt in - I always do :D I feel small and incomplete without sticking my weird nose in other people's personal lives. So here's what I came onto here to ask. If you can remember during last year when I always seemed...I dunno...down...and probably only one of you can...I need you to know, that as I come closer and closer to losing you all forever - as you become nothing more but memories I long to touch again - I dig deeper and deeper into myself and I do nothing but feel an overwhelming weight of exhaustion. Some of you know that I have a problem - I don't really want to say it...someone could read this that I don't want to - Most of you know, most of you were disgusted, some of you looked on with understanding eyes but said nothing... But it's starting again. The burning in my fingertips and the blood rush...and the razors. I can't make it stop. I don't want to make it stop. But I know it's wrong. Please pray for me. Yeah, big thing for me to ask...but, please. If you can find the time within your day and lives...I just ask that you spare a moment with God for me. Maybe if I get enough positive vibes my way...*shakes head* In no way do I want any of you to worry. No worrying. Just God and a little prayer. Love and God Bless - Shorty |
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| (5 Gorgeous Persons Craves Attention from Dom | You want to take my love slave, don't you?) |
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| 02:21pm 30/07/2003 | |||
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BTW, Take a look at my new blurty!style. It's not as confusing as my old one. Go one, click my name... that's it... ....good dawg... |
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| 01:40pm 30/07/2003 | |||
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*laughs hysterically in a quiet little library, of course getting myself kicked in the anus with a big, fat librarian stick and told to quiet myself or leave!!* I'm lying about the stick thing...but anywho... Look!! IT'S ME!! I'M NOT SUSPENDED FROM BLURTY!! THANKS KELLUMS!! *sighs and tries not to laugh* It sucks here. I have my own room and it sucks here. I haven't washed clothes in forever, so I was forced to wear the only remaining clean black shirt -- a really, really, tight low-cut black shirt -- you guys remember it, right? Now I've got a huge, horny teenager standing over my shoulder telling me that he likes...get this...my bracelet. *Thanks Missy, for the ~bracelet~ you gave me at FC, btw.* Wow, Hornydudey has hornyfriends!! Yah!! *gives them look of disgust and purposely pulls up shirt* *cackles hysterically* I love this shirt. |
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| (1 Gorgeous Person Craves Attention from Dom | You want to take my love slave, don't you?) |
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| NO! NEVER! *hides tacks behind back* | ||||
| 04:23pm 12/07/2003 | ||||
 You will swallow some tacks. You are a little weird, maybe not so much in a good way. Buy a yellow tie and wear it on your head. What horrible Edward Gorey Death will you die? brought to you by Quizilla |
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http://pic2.picturetrail.com/VOL5/1246687/2364874/28712509.jpg brace yourself. It's me. |
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| (3 Gorgeous Persons Craves Attention from Dom | You want to take my love slave, don't you?) |
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| 03:43pm 03/07/2003 | |||
| (1 Gorgeous Person Craves Attention from Dom | You want to take my love slave, don't you?) |
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| 07:22pm 01/07/2003 | |||
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I really miss you guys. *pouts* Every time one of my muscles move (*snort* Muscles, yeah) I think of some activity that I could be doing with my friends and I really, really, really want to be with you guys. I miss every single one of you. Even that person that I couldn't stand for awhile because I thought they couldn't stand me but I went to a camp thing and get closer to them than I ever thought...and eh.... Had such a good time at Falls Creek. Admitted a few things. To Jebbus and my friends... Made memories! Gz has a tree and who knew God gave inspiration through stars and tears? [My own little Prayer Garden on Friday memory. Hehe.] Every day was a wonderful and new experience. Even that freaking little tick that I managed to start. *Sigh* Always have to cause some kind of trouble or my life isn't complete, I guess. I said alot of things I regret. Okay, no I don't. Whatever I said came completely from my selfish little blue heart and I meant every word. I was just scared, alright? Every ounce of my fear was for myself. I guess I never really thought of it as being help. I saw it as.......I was vunerable to being 'helped' if she was. And I thought I never thought that I would be. See? Make sense? No. Ahwell. Doesn't matter anyway, I guess. Old news, huh? So my spirit is lifted. Now what? Some of you christians who've been in this for awhile want to give me some life tippers? So! I'm off! Lubs and Kizziz and some non-mushy stuff so I don't ruin my MUCHLUBBED repuTaTion. |
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| (3 Gorgeous Persons Craves Attention from Dom | You want to take my love slave, don't you?) |
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| 08:23am 30/06/2003 | |||
 You are with Dom! Dominic Monaghan is the "John Lennon" of the four hobbits, a real cool guy who likes nothing else but to be challenged by new things, surf, play pool and be comfortable. He's kind of the outcast but the hobbits like that about him, showing off his own individual sense of style. You can't get enough of his storytelling because he not only tells the tale in different voices, and gets that gleam in his eyes when he gets excited, which makes you become excited! His attitude is laid-back and his creativity keeps him going. If bored, he will occupy himself by hopping up on a chair or slouching in it, fondling his jewellery, then proceeds to tease or make jokes about something or someone to distract the interviewer. If he's becomes bored with his friends, he makes up games (*ehem* like "Cup" and "Tink"). His nervous gestures include a drifting lower jaw and sweeping his finger over his ear. He's SMART and HOT, and you know it! Which hobbit actor are you REALLY in love with? brought to you by Quizilla Let me just say: Big fat duh. |
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| 07:47am 16/06/2003 | |||
 Pink: You see the world in bright pink. The world is a happy, happy place! You love all people and things!! Life is great! You're just like a happy child. Spread the cheer. Made by Sara What color do you see the world in? brought to you by Quizilla |
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| (2 Gorgeous Persons Craves Attention from Dom | You want to take my love slave, don't you?) |
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| 11:01am 13/06/2003 | |||
 The Lost Soul What sign of the Black Zodiac are you? brought to you by Quizilla |
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| 10:42am 13/06/2003 | |||
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You may find yourself with a rather confused look on your face today, Shorty. It may be hard for you to pick one subject and stick with it. Your attention may jump from one thing to another but this is fine. There is a distinct advantage in seeing all sides of the story. You will have a greater perception and awareness of things today so take this opportunity to put yourself into other people's shoes so you better know how to deal with them in the future. Best wishes, www.astrocenter.com |
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| 10:24am 13/06/2003 | |||
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I love you all, I really do, but I'm a big girl....kinda. 14 years is still nothing to ignore ;) I promise, when my little habit becomes too much for my clenched fists to handle, I'll come right to this little journal thingy and let you all know so you can inform someone who will be forced to take some kind of action. -- But for now, I'm alright. Please don't do that until I wave a little flag of panic. Please. I'm so excited about Falls Creek!! Yeah, nobody else is....but my hands are shaking with anticipation! Even though I have absolutely no time for people who tell me that I should believe in something that has never really backed me or my family is up is quiet absurd...all my friends will be there. Every single person that I love most in the world will all be in one place at one time. *giddy* There are Three days and I'm counting down faster than zeus can take! THREE! TWO! one... Just a poll, ladies and gents, How many of you are taking sheets....and how many are toting a sleeping bag? Later dood'eez! |
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