||Ani Difranco // Amazing Grace
Sermon 3: Heartlessness.
Okay. So this isn't really a sermon. It's more like...a confession. I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I've been feeling very lonely. Maybe it's the humidity. Maybe it's pms. Maybe it's hormones. Whatever it is, it's tough. And I don't believe I've ever felt this alone. I really need to get out some more...
Anyone that knows me, knows that I can be a real bitch. I don't care what people think. I don't give sympathy. I don't tolerate idiocy. I'm very sarcastic and outspoken, and my friends find my brutal honesty fun. But there's another side to me that most people don't know.
Underneath all those layers of cold, uncaring bitterness, there's a soft spot...deep, deep, DEEP down. It's like I'm a Snickers bar. Yes, that's right, a Snickers bar. I have a top layer of hard chocolate, sure. But underneath all that toughness, is a gooey, chewy, soft caramel center. That's a Snickers bar, right? Or is it a Milky Way...
Anyway, here's my point. I'm a little rough around the edges, but bring me a chick flick, a tissue box, and hot, buttered popcorn, and you've got Hanh, the mushy sap.
My "anger" and cynicism is just a way of weeding out the phonies. People that think they want to be my friend get a taste of my snippy bitterness and flee. But those that are genuine and really there for me, they stick around and they get the pleasure of hanging out with the friendly, wholesome Hanh. Yep. It might be hard to believe, but I am a nice girl...deep, deep down.
So, there. For those of you that care enough about me to read my ever-so-interesting journal, here's a little insight to a seemingly heartless bitch. :]
Random: I probably won't be writing for another after a month or so. Talk 'n Jot has abruptly decided to CHARGE people. So yeah. I'll find another journal community. Don't you worry. Like you care...