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Saturday, May 17th, 2003
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12:57 pm - FAKE FAKE FAKE
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people can be so fake at times. right well even friends...look at that i thought that mavero jecca chino piki zatan dany zorro caballo and all these people werent like that maybe they arent with themselves but to me it shows that they are really fucked up people in the head at least at this moment in time...they all told me a week ago yes am going to your house on sat to celebrate your frist communion and crap and what happen today they all all of them tell me am not going so yep am stuck here not alone because see carmen is a good friend so shes going to spend it with me. my first communion wasnt that bad. i liked my dress to a weird form. it looked pretty. today is francos bday thats out of the topic. carmen went to my communion she was laughing the whole time. because i was wearing white and i had to wear a crown. it looked funny but that was a once in a life time thing until i get married i guess. dresses arent bad i just dont like how they look on me...so moving on this is the 3rd time he does this to me. hes being an liar now. hes like am going to go we made a bet and i won and this was what i got out of it he was going to come and guess what he isnt coming now because he doesnt want to. see this is why i dislike and dont trust people anymore. well am going to keep cleaning bye
current mood:  disappointed
current music: los pojitos dicen
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| Thursday, May 15th, 2003
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7:33 pm
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first communion this weekend invited a whole mess of friends
mavero and her boyfriend jecca and luis zorro and vicky dany and manuel joshua and diana zatan and his girlfriend chino piki caballo and a whole mess of other people plus carmen
maybe it wont be that bad...daniela is being weird but its kool am starting to talk...things are getting better but i got anemia and i feel like shit
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| Tuesday, May 6th, 2003
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7:33 pm - topic of the day
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"Man prefers to believe what he prefers to be true."
i can not agree more with that qoute...if theres one thing in life that am sure of is that people act stupid most of the time and that they dont like to see things any other way than there way. most kids see that there parents do that a lot but truth be told we do that a times as well...wait, we do that all the time. at this age if we dont get what we want we really make everyone elses day suck. l mean like yesterday i was talking to a guy friend of mine and i tell him am going to the prom with javi and this person got really mad at me because one he thinks i like javi and another because i didnt tell him. see it wasnt going thru my mind if i was going t tell him or not but when i told him he got mad and wouldnt talk to me. see he didnt get his way with me and the prom so he made the rest of our conversation shitty because i was going to the prom with some other guy that wasnt him. this happens all the time not just with him i do it as well if my mother doesnt let me go out i get mad as hell and make sure that her day goes like shit or that i make it cristle clear for her to see that am really mad at her...
~~~~today wasnt that bad. the second day of the dance team try outs. truth be told it isnt that bad. they are pretty good. so far i think ashley(mannys and eddie's ex girlfriend)marylin, liliana, lohena, the twins, tammy, elisabeth and a few other ones that dont pop into my mind might make it. ms.cabanillas was laughing because they were all cheerleaders and she felt that they were all leaving her. today zorro went to my school but thank god he didnt see me not that he wa looking for me. why would he be right 80)...hes still cute even tho nothing is there, alex told di that i put candy on my cheast so that eddie could eat and lick it off. what the heck is wrong with them. first i would never let a guy lick me at least not know thats icky(yes i sound childsih but w,e) and i would never let eddie get that close. sorry but i wouldnt. wilfredo is freaking kooll dude we have been talking for an hour now. well i want to take a shower because i do to dance bye
current mood:  jubilant
current music: moBSCENE
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| Sunday, May 4th, 2003
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1:16 am
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once again i have lost total trust and hope for the male portion of the human race. what can i say...we shouldnt trust them they are all the same. am to make things worst we are the ones that fall for that shit. why dont we learn....dude its our fucking fault. people dont fall in love its never what is seems. yea movies and tv make it out to be the best thing is the world but the truth is if you like to hurt and feel like shit love is for you. see but for people like me who arent into that it isnt ment to be. all my relationships are the same. the guy cheats on me. see i think its my fualt. but i say this every time and it never changes....so am not going to blame them am going to blame me. people good night am in no mood and if you read this you believe me and i wont bother bye....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@men
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| Saturday, May 3rd, 2003
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10:47 am
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today i have practice for first communion i dont want to go. last night i had fun i went to maveros house with ana, jecca, mavero, maria, zatan, eddie, tubby, jose, y zorro. we had fun i was quite the whole time...they got worried supposly
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| Tuesday, April 29th, 2003
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5:00 pm
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alex and i are in a fight becuase she just found out i messed around for two months with zorro and shes in love with me.........
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| Sunday, April 27th, 2003
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9:47 am
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i cut last night for the first time in a long time. its about 14 cuts. i got so low last night i guess i didnt know what way is up. no one cares and am alright with that
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| Sunday, April 20th, 2003
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3:01 pm - NumBers And MatH
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Giving More Than 100%!
Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than
100%? We have all been to those meetings where someone wants over 100%. How about achieving 103%? Here's a little math that might prove helpful. What makes life 100%?
If:
A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
is represented as:
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.
Then:
H A R D W O R K =
8 1 18 4 23 15 18 11 = 98%
K N O W L E D G E =>
11 14 15 23 12 5 4 7 5 = 96%
But,
A T T I T U D E =
1 20 20 9 20 21 4 5 = 100%
And,
B U L L S H I T =
2 21 12 12 19 8 9 20 = 103%
So, it stands to reason that hard work and knowledge will get you close, attitude will get you there, and bullshit will put you over the top.
But, look how far ass kissing will take you.
A S S K I S S I N G =
1 19 19 11 9 19 19 9 14 7 = 118%
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3:00 pm - information
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What Does '420' Mean?
And What Is the Origin?
It was reported years ago that the term 420(pronounced four twenty, not four hundred and twenty), was police code for smoking marijuana in a feature on pager codes that teenagers use to "talk" to each other. I began researching the number again and it seems they were wrong.
Known Myths
Police dispatch code for smoking pot is 420.
The number 420 is not police radio code for anything, anywhere. Checks of criminal codes suggest that the origin is neither Californian nor federal. For instance, California Penal Code 420 defines as a misdemeanor the hindrance of use of public lands.
There are approximately 420 active chemicals in marijuana.
Actually, there are approximately 315 active chemicals in marijuana. This number goes up and down depending on which plant is used.
April 20th is National Pot Smokers Day.
Well, it is now; but that wasn't the origin.
April 20th is Hitler's birthday.
Yes, it is his birthday. But, as 420 started out as a time, not a date, his birthday had nothing to do with it.
4:20 is tea time for pot-smokers in Holland.
Tea time in Holland is at 5:30 pm, or is it 2:30 pm? Seems no one is quite sure when the wonderful people of Holland drink their tea.
The Origin RevealedAccording to Steven Hager, editor of High Times, the term 420 originated at San Rafael High School, in 1971, among a group of about a dozen pot-smoking wiseacres who called themselves the Waldos, who are now pushing 50. The term was shorthand for the time of day the group would meet, at the campus statue of Louis Pasteur, to smoke pot. Intent on developing their own discreet language, they made 420 code for a time to get high, and its use spread among members of an entire generation.
A quote from one of the Waldos in the High Times article states, "We did discover we could talk about getting high in front of our parents without them knowing by using the phrase 420." Fortunately, your teenagers will not have that same option.
Whatever!
Simply put, 420 is a symbol of cannabis and its culture. Today, April 20th events are international, and 4:20 pm has become sort of a world wide "burn time".
current mood:  crushed
current music: the art of loosing
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| Saturday, April 19th, 2003
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9:44 pm - deep shit
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really deep shit....by the way alex vicky and zorro broke up. i'll tell you later why tho. the point is vicky is pissed off at very female being in the world. hey one thing alex not a good idea if you mess with victor now. he may not be taken but vicky is still mad.
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| Monday, April 14th, 2003
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7:55 pm
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men suck.....dude all they do in life is lie!!!! then they cheat and then they lie about that. i cant say i hate anything more that a liar i mean i dont like to lie and i barely do but some people lie way to much. i can handle the truth i can handle it much better than a fucking lie. all men should die :@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@
fuck you zorro
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| Sunday, April 13th, 2003
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9:48 pm - alex
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i got to talk to alex today that was cool. i missed her a lot but shes being weird.
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10:27 am - its hurts
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my hand and wrist still hurt and allllllllllot. carlos is mean. hahaha last night i gave him my sweater becuase he really liked it. am glad i did because that one has way tooooo many bad memorys.....joshua got the point that i dont want anything with him last night. he got sad and logged off and then chino asked me what happen to josh because he got sad. i felt bad because it was my fault. bianca and zatan make the best couple ever. they have so much trust it is so great i mean i would never dreamed of two people to be so close.....i hope they dont break up they would really last. yesterday was sort of fun!!! first ana, brittany and myself went to the youth leadership confrence and we had fun. i keep on taking classes about drugs and hacking, that was cooooooool.... then after that when i went home my aunt called me to go over to work on vale's project. i stayed there until 5:30 and then i went to cove. this time i wasnt with mavero i just stayed withvictor, carlos, emmanuel, chino, joshua, brian, mauricio and then daniela, mavero, ana, vicky came by. they came and left like 5 times. alex was acting weird last night. my battery was almost dead so it hun up on her and she calls back tellling me if i was revenging. i dont know whats shes talking about i'll call her today and see whats wrong. franco is being weird hes bitching at me because i "bitched at laura" i didnt i just told her to stop after her and her friend called 5 times. hello victor and vicky were together and he couldnt get the phone and i told her to stop and she crused me out and i didnt do shit. not fair i dont want to get to know laura and am ok with that. i wish franco would leave me alone with that!!!!!!!! carmen is coming to pick up my dad to go on the boat but i cant go becuase of ccd.......i want to see these people make an ass of themself skateboarding i want i want....
current mood: cheerful
current music: my mothers voice its loud
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| Friday, April 11th, 2003
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10:14 pm
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Joshua asked me out tonight again....this time in person. i said no, last week when he asked me out i didnt answer anything but this time i said no. he was trying to find out different reasons to get around the fact that i said no. i told him no because i dont want to go out with alexandras ex boytoy(alex dont get mad but its true pooor kid) and tinas exboyfriend. he came up with what about if they said it was alright to go out with me. i said no it doesnt make it any better. plus the fact is i dont want to get involved with anyone i dont want to get hurt i dont want to have a boyfriend.....plus i still have hope even if its a little that he will break up with his girlfriend and pay real attention to me...but not like it was going to happen any time soon... well joshua and i kissed today well we kissed alot. i thought he was going to be bad but he isnt bad but hes not great either his tounge is hard thats his only problem. he would be the perfect boyfriend and kissing partner if he wasnt hard tounge...alex would laugh is she heard me saying this....she is laughing at this time or if not pretty soon. i fell down from a skateboard today. i was having a conversation with carlos when i get on his skateboard and i wasnt moving but he was tell i was scared to death about if i was going to fall then he moves to much and the skateboard leaves my feet and he goes one way and i fly off another way. it was so freaking funny i almost dislocated my thum again my ass hurts and so does my leg but it was funny to see my fly thru the air. i finally saw victor today. him and i hadnt see each other for about 2 weeks. it was really nice to see him...for the past 2 days i had been at a workshop about leadership and crap. well today was alot of fun we learnd about party drugs he even gave out a few to see but we werent allowed to keep them :( jose was like shit i want to go and get high.....i was almost about to smak him in the head but them i rememberd hes older and can kick my ass in less that i can get up from a chair.....victor sad with me i dont know why.....guys are weird what can i say
current mood: crushed
current music: the im sound
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| Wednesday, April 2nd, 2003
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10:13 am - ~*~FiNaLlY~*~
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i went to maveros house. i hadnt seen either jecca, mavero, vicky, victor, josh, eddie, allan, little jose, big jose and the rest of these people in two days. but really the only people i was with was mavero jecca and alan. alan was mean yesterday with mavero he hit her and he was trying to kill all of us. he attacked me with 3 knifes and he attacked all of us with his dog. i really mean it that kid acts more high when hes not high than when he is high.....well either way we had fun. we looked so stupid looking for money around the house. it was kool tho we found $2.75 not bad right. we went to publix then the dollar store and then to the gas station until we found something that was cheap and everyone liked. mavero, jecca and i looked like the perfect freaks on earth. we were yelling at the top of our lungs up and down up and down in the middle up and down up and down in the middle macho macho man who wants to be a macho man macho macho man who wants to be a macho los pogitos dicen piopiopio quando tiene ambre quando tiene frio la mama les busca el mais y el trigo y le pega abrigo pio pio pio dragon tale grangon tales its all most time for dragon tales come along come with to anoth land ........ and on and on and on it was so freaking funny about 4 cars pulled up and asked us if we wanted a ride. we started laughing but managed to say no thank you. am going to miss everyone. Lets see am going to miss
1. Carmen
2. Alex
3. Franco
4. Mavero
5. Jecca
6. Zorro
7. Vicky
8. Allan
9. Jose
10. Little Jose
11. Joshua
12. Daniela
13. julio
14. carlos
15. randy
16. eddie
17. gabi
18. chino
and alot more people its sad when people have to go away for a while......its sad when i have to go take a shower because am gone for a while.....
current mood:  weird
current music: drangon tales
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| Sunday, March 30th, 2003
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11:12 pm - 1 2 FrEdDy'S cOmInG fOr YoU 3 4 lOcK yOuR dOoRs......
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Today i did nothing but i mean NOTHING....nothing what so ever. nothing nothing NOTHING NOTHING NOTHIng the word BORING comes to mind yes it does. all i really did was go to chruch and ccd classes. i talked to joshua(el burjo)(papa) for about 2 hours. today was his little sisters birthday so he didnt go out either. plus his mother was mad at him because of last night. the lady didnt realize that he was at victors house with us and when she did it was around 12 so it didnt do him any good dude she yells a lot and really loud. last night was fun tho. i went everywhere. my mother friend tony was here in miami. they had been friends for over 20 years. it so freaking cool to have a friend for that long that knows everything about you and remebers everything about you. well we went to pick him up around 10:45 at the sofitel(*the hotel is names after me am so famous*) then we went to bayside and had drinks. that was fun. then we went to cocowalk and had ice cream. we were there for about 3 hours and we went to fat tuesday....but its too early to drink :( then we went to coral gables and i got to show tony where am going to school next year. the school really does look trashy but thats alright. then jecca calls me and asked me if i was going to the mall and i told her no when tony says lets go to the mall then i told mavero and jecca that i was going. well they went another way while i went with my primas. we didnt stay that long at the mall. we were bored so we went to cove but before we left we saw carlos(punk rocker) and randy. randy is still really really cute. hes way of acting is what has changes to me he is still the same on the outside. i dont know why but eddie and randy have this power over people that makes them like them. and to tell you the truth randy and eddie arent fine they look more like little monkeys but they are still attractive in there own weird funky way....well i stayed at cove for a while. mavero wanted to see alan but he wasnt at his house he was at wilfredo's house because he orders pizza. kids these days eat tooo much but they are so freaking thin. (wishes she was like that apui) well later in the night around 10:30 joshua pulls me into zorros room and i stayed there because mavero and jecca left because carlos was at the pool and i really didnt want to here them making out becuase it is really a pain i dont mind them making out or anything its just that they make a little too much noice but there cute together... well zorro and josh are a lot of fun. we were all laying on his bed playing video games then they started to put brujeria and cradle of flith. it was funny josh bite my back a few times and i had to push him off the bed. then we left at around midnight. it kicked ass tomorrow carmen is coming over. were going to work on our project and go shopping. victor got me sick hes mean well i told him that i might go to his house and take care of him and that he was going to take care of me......well good night
current mood:  excited
current music: if i told you this was killing me would you stop??
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| Thursday, March 27th, 2003
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9:27 pm - AlOt.........
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oh god a lot of things have happened today. Its so freaking fun. last night jecca invited me to mcdonalds with her becuase she wanted to be with me her prima and i said alright. then after school we met up and we started walking with jonathan, sofia r., mavero, cristina(the other one) chino, eddie, tubby and some other people. it was raining to freaking hard on the way there and i was an idiot and i wore a white shirt with a black bra. and we were soking it was so freaking funny. we were in the bathroom with the hand dryer trying to get ourself a little less wet. it was cool. then we left and went to sofias house and we played a whole mess of games and then around 6:45 we went to maveros house. we also got wet going there. zorro got freaked out when he saw me. i think thats one of the last places that he thought he was going to see me but he got used to it after 2 min. eddie, chino y bello were there. hes so cute!!!! after a while we went to look for Zatan becuase jecca wanted to see him. then we all went to the pool and like Zatan y jecca were making out mavero and i went to the hot tub and put our feet in. it was cold but someone must of put soap or something in the water becuase it was flooding with bubbles. it was super fun we were throwing it all over the place. and then we kept on dancing and yumping all over the place. at the end of the night jecca took me home :)................
that was the good part of my day but the the morning part was really bad. today was the show for this month and i was doing the jazz dance and after me 2 turns i triped over my foot and i fell face flat down. i wanted to run out of the room so badly but i kept dancing and everyone could tell by my face that i didnt want to be there at all that i wanted to run out of the room but i kept on and that made me a better person. but then when they closed the curtain i ran and started to cry so badly. i cant believe that after 10 years almost 11 years of dancing i fell. i felt so bad i couldnt believe it. i cried for 2 hours and i acted like a little kid i was so stupid. but my leg is hurting badly and my knees are black and thats bad......
current mood: hyper
current music: RoXy
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| Monday, March 24th, 2003
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7:44 pm
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I gOt InTo A fIgHt WiTh AlEx AnD fRaNcO.....it was huge i really mean it. they think that i felt them and i dont really agree becuase am there i just dont spend so much time with them. last night was weird alex and i werent being normal with each other. i think we need a break from each other. i love them both i love all my friends but just becuase i get new friends doesnt mean i think am better than they are because thats wrong. today i went to the mall around 4 and i just got back. i went shopping because i have to go to church and i never have anything to wear and i went to hot topic and bought the what are girls made of shirt its so freaking cool. i also got clothing from pac sun and urban my mother was a little glad but she wants to take me shopping once more to get preppy clothing. hey what ever makes her happy. i saw stephanie today at hot topic. i talked with her for a while. Carmen comes home today. am glad i get to see my sister finally. here is the conversation between alex and me its where the whole argument started.
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| Friday, March 21st, 2003
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7:13 pm
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I didnt get into mast all dreams are gone school sucks ass big time
TkM Mi BoBiTo!!! PiO pIo
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