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Wednesday, October 1st, 2003
7:21 pm
lalallalalala hello people how are you


today was alright..nothing important happen at school. next week is fcat for 10th grade thats alright i guess. today was adri's birthday and joel who likes her didnt remember. i wish that she could like jose. he really likes her and he is sweet and he isnt cocky like joel. i really think someone needs to hurt him. he thinks he all that just because he is fucking hot. ms.cohen is so stupid and if mr. x tells me that am a bad girl again am going to hurt the shit out of him. today christopher called 4 times and we had fun. elvis asked me if i wanted to go eat with his this friday i dont know i dont like him and i dont want to give him the wrong impression. i really need to get over victor. its almost been 8 months. ahy dios wat am going to do. i invited maria and ana to go with me to cav crash next week becuase they want to go to my school. i wish mavero would try to go to my school but w.e i want her happy. jeca might go as well becuase she said she wants to go there as wel.. cav crash is going to kick ass. last year it was the best. firas is going to dance with cristy i want to see it so badly. maria is also going to be in it......up coming events

cav crash
homecoming game
homecoming dance
antas
hispanic heri.


yeah thats all i think so far. my schools alright i guess.

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Saturday, September 13th, 2003
5:35 pm - sad
toughCk9: what doing
WaStEdDeViLb0y: arguin w/ my x
WaStEdDeViLb0y: damn it
toughCk9: with witch on
toughCk9: e
WaStEdDeViLb0y: joana
WaStEdDeViLb0y: zhe iz zuch a bitch
toughCk9: i hope you dont ever say that about me
toughCk9: what is she doing now
WaStEdDeViLb0y: nah yea rite i wouldnt zay dat about u
WaStEdDeViLb0y: i only zay thingz like dat about her
WaStEdDeViLb0y: no one elze....cuz zhe iz though
toughCk9: what is she doing
WaStEdDeViLb0y: zhe iz dumb
WaStEdDeViLb0y: zhe iz tellin me dat im fucked up
toughCk9: so what if you are
toughCk9: that isnt her porblem
toughCk9: problem
toughCk9: *
WaStEdDeViLb0y: n dat i dizrezpected her n i lozt zumone really zpecial n dat i would never find zumone like her ever again
WaStEdDeViLb0y: i knoe...datz y zhe iz zuch a bitch
toughCk9: shes right
toughCk9: you wont find anyone like her and thats a good thing you need someone better and than her and better than me
WaStEdDeViLb0y: yup
WaStEdDeViLb0y: but not better than u
toughCk9: better than me?
toughCk9: yeah you will
WaStEdDeViLb0y: y would u zay daT?
toughCk9: i bet kim is better than me
toughCk9: your with her and shes making you happy right?
WaStEdDeViLb0y: well....yea but ztill
WaStEdDeViLb0y: u made me zmile 2
toughCk9: doesnt matter
WaStEdDeViLb0y: n i dunno.....itz really hard 4 people 2 make me zmile
WaStEdDeViLb0y: in relation zhipz
toughCk9: you know something stupid
WaStEdDeViLb0y: wat?
toughCk9: your making me cry
WaStEdDeViLb0y: =-O
WaStEdDeViLb0y: im zorry
WaStEdDeViLb0y: ill zhut up
toughCk9: no dont
toughCk9: its ok
toughCk9: dont shut up
toughCk9: keep tlaking
WaStEdDeViLb0y: ok
toughCk9: atleast i have that
WaStEdDeViLb0y: :-)
WaStEdDeViLb0y: u knoe i mizz ur zmile
WaStEdDeViLb0y: :-(
toughCk9: you know i miss your dimples :'(
toughCk9: i miss your lips your hands your touch i miss you
WaStEdDeViLb0y: i mizz dat from u 2
WaStEdDeViLb0y: :-(
toughCk9: i even miss your ass
WaStEdDeViLb0y: lol
WaStEdDeViLb0y: i mizz urz 3
toughCk9: hahaha
toughCk9: i even miss you being jealous when i talk to victor and tell him to kiss me cheek
toughCk9: i miss your 9 pircings
WaStEdDeViLb0y: hehe
WaStEdDeViLb0y: i mizz ur long hair n ur zexxxy hipz n ztomach
toughCk9: i have sexxy hips?
toughCk9: really t
WaStEdDeViLb0y: yup
toughCk9: thanks
WaStEdDeViLb0y: welkomez
toughCk9: i miss just being in your arms not doing anything
toughCk9: and you biting my neck and me not wanting to let you go
toughCk9: :'(
WaStEdDeViLb0y: :-(awww
toughCk9: i miss you way to much wilfredo
toughCk9: i want you back
WaStEdDeViLb0y: i want u 2
WaStEdDeViLb0y: damn
toughCk9: i want to go back two weeks
WaStEdDeViLb0y: y?
toughCk9: becuase that way we wouldnt have broken up
WaStEdDeViLb0y: :-(
toughCk9: :'( we would still eb together and we would be making a month together in a week
WaStEdDeViLb0y: yea
WaStEdDeViLb0y: u zuck

current mood: sad

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Tuesday, August 19th, 2003
12:15 am
i lost two friends on friday jecca and mavero becuase they found out that i like the same guy as jecca and that he likes me too. that is really sad but what can i do. i will always think of them as my friends. people sa i have cahnged but everyone changes. i cant wait until enxt week school starts. i cant wait :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D my bestfriend comes back home tomorrow. am going to buy her something tomorrow in the morning. yaya i get my favorite lokita back.

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Friday, August 8th, 2003
10:36 pm
today was fun fun fun....heheh am hyper as shit dude. i spent the whole day with ym family. randy was going to spend the day with me but there was a change of plans. well i went shopping with mom tia luis alberto and valeria. and then after that we went shooppping for me. i know thats weird becuase i hate doing girly crap but w.e then i got a new skirt it kicks asss and then i got 4 new pants and i love them all. i wanted to get this blak skirt but mommy thought i looked like a hoe. hehehehe i swear am not tho am getting that stupid skirt. heheheeeeee. well then after that i went to my aunts house. and there cesar and i got into the car and went to publix dude he drives fast as fuck. and there we called cata mari pablo satan y sergio(that guy is hot hot hot) we watched part of a movie at his house and then i came home. tomorrrow is going to be fun...yep jecca comes over and at night were going to mallllll. whats new about that. i miss carmen...

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Friday, August 1st, 2003
1:38 pm - bored
o. First name: SOfia
o. Middle name: CRistina
o. Last name: ...
o. Nickname(s): sofy.flaka..jellybeans..kris...dork...gordita...wify
o. Age: 14
o. Birthday: APril 9th
o. Height: 5’ 6
o. Hair color: on the points its a semi brown color with red and on top its getting to dark borwn or black
o. Eye color: they used to be BLUE, but now green with a blue ring around them.
o. Glasses: no
o. Contacts: No
o. Braces: getting them off
o. Hair short or long: Fairly long
o. Where you were born: Venezuela
o. Where you now live: miami florida
o. Astrology sign: Ari.
o. Chinese zodiac sign: not a clue i think snake
o. Nationality: venezuelan spanish italian and something there
o. Bad habits: crack my neck and fingers alot. i bite not eat my nails i hold up a lot of shit from people. i get depressed alot and i dont find many ways out of my depressions.
o. Piercings: Ears 4 in total i want to get toung tho
o. Tattoos: i want a spider on my upper sholder right one.

FAMILY, ETC.
o. Mother's name: TInita
o. Father's name: LUis Ricardo
o. Brother's name(s): LUis ALberto
o. Sister's name(s): None…but fake ones are CArmen and ALex
o. Favorite aunt: i guess mi tia jasmine
o. Favorite uncle: all my godfathers(3)
o. Favorite grandparent: they are all special to me
o. Worst relative: my brother
o. Best relative: all??
o. Best family memory: all the partys at madris house the best
o. Do you get along with your parents: not most of the time
o. Do your parents understand you: i highly doubt it
o. Does anyone in your family understand you: carmen
o. Are you still in school: high school
o. Current grade: 9th (arg)
o. Favorite grade: none
o. Worst grade: all middle school
o. Favorite teacher: bailey and calvie
o. Worst teacher: mr.a
o. Favorite subject: media and science
o. Worst subject: History and Science
o. Buy or bring lunch: dont eat it
o. School sports: dance
o. High school: Coral Gables high (ib program)
o. School activities: ibnjhs, ib swat, ib french njhs and something else there .
o. Popular or what: ikeep to myself everyone knows me for my past the bad part of it
o. Favorite memory: theres a few
o. Worst memory: my life


FAVORITE
o. Number: 9
o. Clothing brand: roxys and i dont know
o. Shoes: they are shoes they go on your feet who cares :s
o. Saying: ....
o. TV show: imx, blues cluess
o. Sport: dance
o. Vegetable: brocalie or w.e
o. Fruit: watermelon, strawberry, star fruit peaches
o. Movie: girl inerupted center stage the haunting
o. Actress:dont know
o. Actor: dont know
o. Candy: jellybeans lolypos!!!!
o. Gum: jucyfruit
o. Scent: flowers
o. Candy bar: babyruth
o. Ice cream: alllll
o. Color: black red yellow and orange
o. Season: winter i get plae
o. Holiday: easter i get to see the bunny
o. Band: the juliana theory, metallica, evanescence
o. Music: Rap, most forms of rock
o. Fast song: running on empty
o. Slow song: calling all angels and iris
o. Thing in your room: awards and computer crap
o. Place to be: In the rain.maveros house or my room
o. Radio station: party
o. TV channel: vhi fuse
o. Junk food: ice cream
o. Fast food place: rarely eat
o. Restaurant: i dont have
o. Shape: star
o. Time of day: Late night, early morning.
o. Country:spain
o. State: florida
o. Boy's name: damien victor christopher joshua ephram andrew
o. Girl's name: emilia juliana tinita alexandra
o. Mall: sunset
o. Video game: Vice City, Mario
o. Shampoo: alberto v 05
o. Computer game: SIMS, rollercoaster tycoon
o. Car: Thunderbird, Mustang, Lexus, Jeep fous
o. Music video: headstrong, all metallica videos, the best of me and boys of the summer
o. Swear word:fuck off
o. Month: may or january
o. Cartoon: jetsons and blues clues
o. Song: enter sandman the closest thing my immortal
o. Scary movie: phsyco
o. Team: i dont know



WORD ASSOCIATION
o. Eminem: Hot Rapper
o. Hot: opposite of cold
o. Britney Spears: cant stand
o. NSync: Old
o. Real world: stupid its fake
o. Orange: carlos favorite color
o. Fuck: when
o. Bisexual: whatever floats your boat.
o. Black: the best cd ever
o. Insane clown: movie
o. Linkin Park: ok
o. Jack: off jill
o. Rainbow: this kid thats name stands for the colors roy g. vib
o. Cherry: jummy
o. Cucumber: this soap
o. Shark: Jaws
o. Bat: Batman
o. Leather: Tight
o. Whip: Kinky
o. America: United
o. Water: Fun
o. Volcano: HOT

THIS OR THAT
o. Rock or rap: rock
o. Pop or rap: nither
o. Rap or R&B: niether.
o. Rock or metal: both.
o. Linkin Park or Limp Bizkit: none
o. Tool or Korn: both
o. Winter or summer: winter.
o. Spring or fall: fall
o. Shakira or Britney: none
o. ICP or Eminem: Eminem
o. Marilyn Manson or Rob Zombie: both
o. Kittie or Garbage: kittie
o. MTV or VH1: Both Both
o. Buffy or Angel: NEITHER
o. Dawsons Creek Or Gilmore Girls: dawsons
o. Football or basketball: both rock
o. Summer olympics or winter olympics: winter
o. Skiing or snowboarding:snowboarding
o. Rollerblading or skateboarding: skateboarding


PRIVATE LIFE
o. Boyfriend/girlfriend: No
o. Crush: Kind of
o. Do you love anyone right now: yeah
o. Have you ever been in love: yes
o. Ever had sex: no
o. How many hearts have you broken: 1.
o. How many people broke your heart: 2.
o. So what's your significant other like: Nop, no one yet.
o. Do you go more by looks or personality: both
o. Ever kiss a friend: yah
o. Are you still friends: yah
o. Do you smoke: No
o. How about weed: nope
o. Acid: no
o. How about a little ecstasy: nop again
o. Crack, heroin, anything else: NO DAMN IT!
o. Are you a sissy who drinks Mike's Hard Lemonade and wine coolers: no
o. Prefer beer or liquor: both
o. Last time you got some: Never.


WOULD YOU EVER
o. Bungee jump: Hell yes! Total adrenaline rush!
o. Skydive: Sure, why not?
o. Swim with dolphins: I would love to!
o. Scuba dive: already did
o. Go rock climbing: YES.
o. Change your religion: No.
o. Turn your back on your friends for personal gain: Hell no, not for anything
o. Steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: lol..yes..if he was wasy wasy super hot and awesome personality
o. Crossdress: Good Halloween Idea! lol
o. Lie to the police: yeah
o. Run from the police: yeah
o. Speed away from the police: yeah
o. Walk up to a total stranger and kiss them: Sure, why not?
o. Be an exotic dancer: Sure I would.
o. Walk out of a restaurant without paying: if I didnt ave enouhg money...or poor...yes
o. Streak: haha....probaly, if their was money involved


FRIENDS
o. Best friend(s): carmen
o. Known longest: javi
o. Wish you talked to more than you do: mavero
o. How many friends do you think you have: Too many to count
o. How many do you actually hang out with: The majority of them.
o. Who drives you insane: The majority of them
o. Ever lose a good friend because you took it to the next level: yeah
o. Craziest: mavero and jecca
o. Loudest: victor
o. Shyest: me
o. Best hair: victor
o. Can always make you laugh: All of them
o. Best eyes: me
o. Most athletic: the guys skateboard
o. Shortest: mavero
o. Tallest: joshua and eddie
o. Best singing voice: raissa
o. Skinniest: ana
o. Nicest: maria and carmen
o. Best personality: most but carmen
o. Biggest drug user: wilfredo
o. Alcoholic: no one...that i know of yet..

HAVE YOU EVER
o. Flashed someone: Yes
o. Told the person you liked how you felt: Yes
o. Gotten really REALLY wasted : yea
o. Gone to jail/juvenile detention: Not that I recall
o. Skateboarded: i did one push and rolled like 5 cenm.
o. Skinny dipped: yah
o. Stolen anything from a store: yeah
o. Kissed someone of the same sex: No,
o. Been to a concert: Yes
o. Been to another country: yeah
o. Talked back to an adult: yup, always
o. Given money to some homeless person: whenever I can
o. Tried to kill yourself: yeah
o. Cried to get out of trouble: Yes.
o. Kissed a friend's brother: yes..lol

THE LAST THING
o. You ate: sushi
o. You drank: beer
o. The last place you went: maveros House
o. Last thing you bought: my strawberry sunday
o. Last person you saw: my mom
o. Last person you talked to: pablo
o. Last song you heard: running on empty

YES OR NO
o. Do you like cows: yes.l
o. Do the voices talk only to you: Yes,
o. Are you straight: Yes
o. Are you short: No
o. Do you own a hot pink shirt: Yes
o. Do you like Marilyn Manson: yes
o. Did you ever touch someone else's no-no spot: yes
o. Do you shop at Hot Topic: Yes
o. Do you remember your dreams: no
o. Can people read you like a book: mhmm..not really.
o. Do you talk a lot: kind of i guess.
o. Are you afraid of clowns: no
o. Can you drive: yes, but dont have lisence
o. You an only child: nop.

current mood: crappy
current music: will i ever fall in love

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Thursday, July 31st, 2003
10:30 pm - life..
ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their
conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all
you want.

FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it.

FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.

SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dreams.. People who don't have dreams
don't have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the
only way to live life completely.

TEN. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to
answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve
great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for
others; and Responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate
steps to correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in
your voice.

TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.


A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your
heart

current mood: chipper
current music: my immortal

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Wednesday, July 30th, 2003
1:41 pm
I was asked what I wanted in my perfect guy by a friend tonight and this is what I wrote

my perfect guy I want him to be sweet smart nice caring. I want him to be playful to know the difference between right and wrong and friendship and love. I want a guy who isn’t afraid of saying guys is sorry but I can’t go out today because am spending the day with my girlfriend. He can forget all the bad things that are happening around the world because he is with me. That just his smile can make all my problems go away for that moment. That loves me and that he is able to make even the things that I hate about myself and body the most beautiful things he has ever seen. Watch my silly movies just because he wants to spend time with me and wants to make me happy. Will go out to buy clothing with me just so that I don’t go alone or go with my girl friends. Respects me and my friends (most importantly Carmen) don’t yell at me or insults me. Or puts me down. Treats me like am the best things that has ever happened to him. Would never think of making me cry. Would risk spending a whole weekend with my family just so that they can approve him and he can find out more about me. Calls me at any time of the day just to tell me he misses me or that he loves me. Sends me emails for no reason. Spends all his sleeping time with me on the phone when I can’t sleep. Comes to my rescue when I feel so alone and at my lowest moments. Doesn’t care if the world finds out that he cares for me better yet he would yell it to the whole world because that’s how he feels. Would come over on a raining day or the world’s prettiest day just to take care of me because is sick with a cold and I can’t get up. Never cancels on me and if he does he calls ahead of time and tries to make it up later. Holds me hand when were walking anyplace just as a token of his affections. Hugs me out of the blue. Doesn’t kiss me on the lips when were around parents any persons parents or family members…kisses me on the cheek. Would organize a day just for the two of us without me knowing it but have everyone in the family in on it. Would stop by my house just for the heck of it. With a box of pop corn soda and movies. Would give me a single flower every month. Would literally sit with me to watch 12 of Disney movies just because I find them romantic. Isn’t afraid of seeing girl movies with me. Respects me for who I am. Won’t try to control me. Knows that I won’t change for anyone. Would never cheat on me. Would always tell me the truth even if it hurt. Would always be honest. Would call me just to tell me where he was. He has to spontaneous he can take initiative. Someone that has earned my trust and that I trust. That our friendship can over come anything. Doesn’t care what people say because what he thinks and knows about me is what is important. Doesn’t care about my past only my future. Would come to my rescue when anything bad happens. Isn’t jealous of stupid things. And if he breaks up with me that he only takes the good in our relationship and forgets all the bad.

current mood: disappointed
current music: boys of summer

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12:58 pm
cheat



There's a 51 - 75% Chance You'll Cheat!


Sound about right?

Chances are greater than not that you've cheated...

Although, probably not all that often.

If you haven't cheated yet, then you've probably been tempted.

Even if that temptation was "just" a drunken kiss.

Bring your sweetie around more often, and you won't have to get flirty with others.



Sound completely wrong?

Congratulate yourself for keeping it together...



Are You Likely to Cheat?

More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva

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Monday, July 28th, 2003
4:59 pm
it hurts so much...i can barely get up. this have gone from bad to worse in such a little moment. i want out of life.

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Saturday, July 26th, 2003
10:37 am
last night at 3:01am zorro and i started going out. dude this sucks i cant sleep i stayed up until 6am talking to carlos by text thru the phone and i still havent gone to sleep and its 10:30am

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Thursday, July 24th, 2003
10:28 pm
god lord victor is agrravating me...last night he told me that he was going to ask me out but now he tells me he loves me and shit but he treats me a little fucked up. today the little boy was drunk and he is sooo stupid i smean it screw him. hola mavero como estas mi lokita yo c q tu quiere irte a venezuela pero derepente te vas no te pongas molesta por esa cosa. ponte feliz pq tu papa viene el 5 de este mes...ah lokita q vamos hacer on tigo 80)

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10:24 pm - old memories
You know memories really suck at times. This morning Franco woke me up and then I went back to sleep and then khristian called from school and he woke me up he told me to take a shower and for some reason I did as he said. After that I layed on my bed with nothing but my towel and just starting to remember everything and think. I couldn’t help it. I felt so sad. I started to remember Zorro. I know I shouldn’t be missing him because of many reason but I just miss him. I miss him being rude and harsh and thinking that he’s the best. A normal person doesn’t really like those types of attitude but I guess he grew on me. I miss the way thing were between us. We really never had a real relationship and if one day we were to have one am not so sure it would really work. Jecca made me think yesterday about him. She’s like:: I really don’t know why but I think you and Zorro have something a feeling for each other I know you and him aren’t messing around anymore but it’s like if you people never stopped caring for each other and I can feel that. She made me want to leave the room and want to call him but I did call him though he didn’t pick up the phone. I also remembered khristian this morning. Over the past few days he’s showed that he cares for me. We never really had a chance. It was cut by him and it’s just left a great what if in me. When we were together about two weeks ago everything was alright we had our little disagreements but hey who doesn’t have those. At least he’s happy with merylin and that’s alright with me. A lot of memories came back from middle school. Being best friends with Nat and Sasha and then being betrayed by Nat by her and randy making out when randy and I were together. The day I found out about it in school. Meting randy for the first time. The day I became captain of the dance team. The summer dance camps. All my problems this year. Growing up fast and not being able to join many things but I know that’s my own fault. But really what 14 year old kid do you know that would take it upon her self to organize an annual youth fest for Doral by her self with the supervision of Juan casamiros. Not many people would do that. Give up all there free time to do volunteer hours or be too busy taking picture good pictures for the prom and not enjoy it. I really do think that what Carmen’s mom said about me was right that all 3 years in middle school I felt out casted I felt not wanted by many people and that’s the reason why I act the way I do. Giving up everything to volunteer or not enjoying things that are given out or made for us. Memories hurt. Well at least most of my memories. But the worst thing is I don’t feel bad for myself and I don’t need anyone else to feel bad either. I did those things and I could have changed. Its to late to wish other wise.

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Wednesday, July 2nd, 2003
9:44 am - once again
guess what everyone i got dumped again...am so frekaing stupid i havent been with anyone in such a long time and when i finally am he hurts me. like carlitos always says i always choose the wrong people to let in. i should have listen to zorro but i didnt so now am stuck here all alone again and a part of my heart yanked out and without carmen here to help me. she left me yesterday i was almost crying in the airport. i miss her already dude. i glad tho that she is in her vacation becuase she needs it. he broke up with me by msn. he wanted to do it in person but i rather thru here this way i can remain normal and not hurt him at all. not that i was going to do so.

i had the worst dream in my life today. i was at gables it was the first day of school and i was giddy because i waned to be there and out of no where carmen shows up and says i couldnt leave you alone here so am going to school here now. i was so happy so we went to get a waterbottle and then we went to homeroom something weird happen there because we got lost or something and then she ended up in the middle of a fight and got killed. i started crying so badly both in the dream and in bed. (then i woke up becuase i left like i was dying and took off my shirt and pants went downstiars to put the air on and went back to sleep crying.) then i had another dream i was in this park with my family when an angel comes down and says to my dad its your time now. so my dad gets whiter and whiter and starts to talk crazy and walk around with no where to go. then we go to a lake/other man made water holes. and there on the other said was in the dream my little 5 yearold sister that had diead a while ago and another gost. my dad walked into the water and the other two gost come towards us and a little ray of light hits my dad in the head taking him to god and i start to cry badly out of all the people in the world my dad is the one i maybe care for the most i love him to death not just becuase hes my dad but because the way he is with me. well back to the bad dream. ok then they did so again with my little sister but the ray of like stoped and a voice said no its not your time again and she was caried up into the air and made into a baby again and she wwas put onto my hands and she became my daughter. the dream ended there i lost my dad but got a daughter.

i feel like shit i couldnt sleep all night i dont want to be here anymore. i need someone that loves me or that i love dearly to hold me in there arms and tell me everything will be alright even if its a lie.

current mood: indifferent
current music: cuando me miras asi

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Thursday, June 19th, 2003
1:15 am
It is time to elect a new world leader, and only your vote counts.
Here are the facts about the three leading candidates.

Candidate A -Associates with crooked politicians, and consults with astrologists. He's had two Mistresses. He also chain smokes and drinks 8 to 10 martinis a day.

Candidate B -
He was kicked out of office twice, sleeps until noon, used opium in college and drinks a quart of whiskey every evening.

Candidate C -
He is a decorated war hero. He's a vegetarian, doesn't smoke, drinks an occasional beer and never cheated on his wife.


Which of these candidates would be your choice?
Decide first, no peeking, then scroll down for the answer.

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Candidate A is Franklin D. Roosevelt.
Candidate B is Winston Churchill.
Candidate C is Adolph Hitler.

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Wednesday, June 18th, 2003
3:37 am - bored at 3:37 am
____BASiCS
+ 001. name ; Sofia
+ 002. nicknames ; sofy, soapy, flaka, tina, rizitoz de oro
+ 003. sex ; female
+ 004. birthday ; april 9, 1989
+ 005. age ; 14
+ 006. star sign ; the ram thing
+ 007. place of birth ; venezuela
+ 008. current residence ; miami
+ 009. hair color ; brown
+ 010. eye color ; green
+ 011. height ; 5'5”
+ 013. writing hand ; both

____BODY iLLS + SKiLLS
+ 014. do you bite your nails ; at times
+ 015. can you roll your tongue ; yes
+ 016. can you raise one eyebrown at a time ; yes
+ 017. can you blow smoke rings ; never tried
+ 018. can you blow spit bubbles ; YESS!
+ 019. can you cross your eyes ; YES!
+ 020. can you flip your eyelids out ; no,
+ 021. tattoos and where ; no but I would like
+ 022. piercings; ears,
+ 023. do you make your bed daily ; every morning

____CLOTHES
+ 024. whut goes on first, bra or underwear ; underwear
+ 025. which shoe goes on first ; left
+ 036. speaking of shoes, have you thrown one at someone ; yes
+ 037. how much money is usually in your wallet ; about $10
+ 038. whut jewelry do you wear 24/7 ; earrings
+ 039. whuts sexiest on a guy ; eyes
+ 040. whuts sexiest on a gurl ;don’t care for it
+ 041. would you rather be on time and look ok or late and look great ; on time

____FOOD
+ 042. do you twirl your spagetti or cut it ; I twirl it.
+ 043. how many cereals are in your cabinet ; i think maybe 2
+ 044. whut utensils do you use eating pizza ; hands.
+ 045. do you cook ; yes

____GROOMiNG
+ 046. how often do you brush your teeth ; 2 or 3 times a day
+ 047. how often do you shower/bathe ; every day
+ 048. how long do these showers last ; 10-15mins
+ 049. hair drying method ; let it air dry!!!
+ 050. do you paint your nails ; no

____MANNERS
+ 051. do you swear ; way too much!!!
+ 052. do you spit or swallow ; no
+ 053. do you spit in public ; no
+ 054. do you pee in the shower ;no

____iN + AROUND
+ 055. the cd player ; mix
+ 056. person you talk most on the fone with ; still zorro
+ 057. whut color is your bedroom ; red
+ 058. do you use an alarm clock ; yes
+ 059. name one thing your obsessed with ; my phone
+ 060. have you ever skinny dipped with the opposite sex ; yes
+ 061. ever sunbathed in the nude ; yes
+ 062. window seat or aisle ; window seat Carmen doesn’t like that seat so I take it
+ 063. whuts your sleeping position ; on my tummy
+ 064. whut kind of bed do you like ;I have a queen
+ 065. in hot weather do you use a blanket ;yes
+ 066. do you snore ; no
+ 067. do you sleepwalk ; no
+ 068. do you talk in your sleep ; no
+ 069. do you sleep with a stuffed animal ; no they go on the floor or under the bed
+ 070. how about the light on ; no but the door has to be closed the closet door open and the window open
+ 071. do you fall asleep with the tv or radio on ; no

____WHEN WAS THE LAST TiME YOU
+ 072. had sex ; never
+ 073. kissed someone ; Friday khristian
+ 074. watched bambi ; like six years ago
+ 075. cried ; when randy and I broke up
+ 076. talked on the fone ; around midnight when khristian called
+ 077. read a book ; last night
+ 078. punched someone ; zorro about a week ago

____THE FUTURE
+ 079. where do you see yourself in 10 years ; maybe alive
+ 080. who are you gonna be married to and where ; no clue....
+ 081. how many kids do you want to have ; 3!!
+ 082. your profession ; doctor
+ 083. future skewl ; gables and then who knows

current mood: bouncy
current music: the computer

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Sunday, June 1st, 2003
8:08 pm
WOULD YOU?

Would you catch me if I fall?
lull me to sleep?
Protect me when they come?
would you be that person?
hello, good bye,
dreams come and go
but broken hearts stays.
in parts I stand before the judging eye,
as whole I leave.
the truth drives me,
the wind blows, the clouds rain.
but the question remains,
shall I stay or shall I leave?
bind me into reality
save me from my fears
hold back these tears I shed
don’t turn away
show your face
I lie between the sky and hell
in search of a reflection
A whisper in the water
the lie in the blood
the truth in a stare
movement of an unknown judgments
the world needs repair
just leave the fears be hide
don’t let them linger here
break the chains of past dreams
the streets are still cold
the doorways frozen
no where to be found
so the secret dies
the children scream of fright
for you to stand there alone
your not gone
still very present
a crow thru the air
death is close by
run, run far away and don’t look be hide
when your not looking
I’ll yell it out
open your eyes
you can never really know
cant escape
wont escape
stuck in my own little world
twisted in words
without a breath
I push but there’s nothing there
am blind but with the eyes of a child
I can still remember those summer nights
but hells not like that
dark hallways, with no life
just to wake up to my ordinary
as the doorways close
I wish to say goodbye
am dead inside, trying to break out
I feel no more
the thin black line emerge
words lost there meaning
midnight games of joy to be killed
the fire burns within you
to breathe your last breath
the breath turns bitter
to walk across the last night light
haven’t you seen
am not breathing
they have killed the last of me
what to do when dreams take over…
give up everything just to be happy
if I smiled would you believe me
just close your eyes
it all disappears
lets build the nightmare
of the few to come
but please mister…
don’t end it now
I risked way to much to let her win it all
so would you play? would you risk it?
would you catch me?



written by me

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8:07 pm
Spanish fox



midnight magic
midnight hate
cut thru the skin
break thru the pain
shed the tears
walk thru it all
wont look be hind
not anymore
once ok
twice no more
three times, fuck you
your out the door
have better things to do
than waste my time on you
no tears
just shame
I fell into your stupid game


written by: sofia c.

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8:06 pm
Lie

a foot forward
that foot out the door
running away from the past
the doorways are open
no ones there
don’t try to fix it
you broke it enough
round and round I go
aimlessly thru the hole
dark with no end
the clouds still rain
rain blood, rain fire
am the breathing, living lie that makes you
no tears just the truth
kill the lie so am not breathing
so you cant hide…

written by: sofia c.

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Sunday, May 25th, 2003
3:54 pm - 269 questions
HAVE YOU EVER:
1. KISSED YOUR COUSIN: no
2. RAN AWAY: yes once
3. PICTURED YOUR CRUSH NAKED: no shit
4. ACTUALLY SEEN YOUR CRUSH NAKED: yes
5. BROKEN SOMEONE'S HEART: yes
6. BEEN IN LOVE: once but maybe again
7. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: yes
8. WANTED SOMEONE YOU KNEW YOU COULDN'T HAVE: yes
9. BROKEN A BONE: yes
10. DRANK ALCOHOL: yes
11. LIED: yes
12. CRIED IN SCHOOL: yes

WHICH IS BETTER:
13. COKE OR PEPSI: neither
14. SPRITE OR 7UP: neither
15. GIRLS OR GUYS: guys
16. FLOWERS OR CANDY: both!
18. QUIET OR LOUD: depends
19. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES: either
20. BITCHY OR SLUTTY: neither
21. TALL OR SHORT: I like my guys tall but I would rather be short lol
22. PANTS OR SHORTS: pants

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX:
23. WHAT DO YOU NOTICE FIRST: eyes
24. PERSONALITY OR LOOKS: personality
25. WORST THING TO DO: lie about cheating, lie to my face. insult my bestfriend.

THE LAST TIME:
26. SHOWERED: this morning
27. HAD SEX: not yet
28. HAD A GREAT TIME WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX: last night

WHAT IS:
29. YOUR GOOD LUCK CHARM: carmen
30. PERSON YOU HATE MOST: i dont hate i just dislike
31. THE BEST THING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO YOU TODAY: him calling me

FAVORITES:
32. COLOR: red, orange and yello
33. MOVIE: the haunting, girl interupted
34. BOOK: pilots wife, fortunes rock, a thin red line, my sisters bone, cut
35. SUBJECT IN SCHOOL: media and science(teacher is weird he tells me i smell like pasta)
36. JUICE: mango or oj
37. CARS: I'm not picky, as long as it looks nice =)
38. ICE CREAM: dulce de leche
39. HOLIDAY: easter
40. SEASON: fall
41. BREAKFAST FOOD: granola bar
42. PLACE TO GO WITH YOUR HONEY: anywhere as long as we can have fun together

WHO:
43. MAKES YOU LAUGH THE MOST: carmen,franco, chris, jecca, maria, randy, eddie, joshua, zorro, miguel, alex....
44. MAKES YOU SMILE: its fake always
45. GIVES YOU A FUNNY FEELING WHEN YOU SEE THEM: randy
47. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON: someone
48. CAN MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER NO MATTER WHAT: carmen and chris
49. HAS IT EASIER GUYS OR GIRLS: girls

DO YOU EVER:
50. SIT BY THE PHONE WAITING FOR A PHONE CALL ALL NIGHT: no
51. SAVE AOL CONVERSATIONS: not anymore, my computer automatically logs them =P
52. SAVE E-MAILS: yup
53. WISH YOU WERE SOMEONE ELSE: no am happy with myself
54. WISH YOU WERE A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX: no I'm fine being female, thanks
55. CRIED BECAUSE OF SOMEONE'S MEAN WORDS: no words dont affect me

BEST:
56. COLOGNE: randy's and eddie's
57. PERFUME: carmens
58. KISS: zorro's
59. ROMANTIC MEMORY: walking by the lake and him turning me around looking at me and kissing me then me running away because i was late
60. MOST RECENT ADVICE GIVEN TO YOU: dont loose hope things could happen i know him

HAVE YOU:
61. Fallen for your best friend?: yes have for the past 7 years
64. Been in love?: 2 times and i could be now
65. Been in lust?: yes
66. Used someone?: no
67. Been used?: yes
69. Been cheated on?: yes by all my boyfriends(x's)
70. Been kissed?: yea
71. Done something you regret?: yes

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON:
72. You touched?: alex when we hugged to say bye
73: You talked to: zorro
74. You hugged?: alex
75. You instant messaged?: zorro
76. You kissed?: zorro
77. You had sex with?: nobody
78. You yelled at?: miguel
79. You laughed with?: carmen
80. Who broke your heart?: zorro
81. Who told you they loved you?: franco
82. Color your hair?: no
83. Have tattoos?: no
84. Have piercings?: no
85. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both?: no
86. Own a webcam?: yes
87. Own a thong?: yes
88. Ever get off the computer?: duh
89. Sprechen sie deutsche?: no
90. Habla espanol?: claro q si bobo
91. Quack?: pio pio

HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU:
92. Stolen anything?: have
93. Smoke?: have
94. Schizophrenic?: no
95. Obsessive?: once
97. Obsessive compulsive?: not anymore
98. Panic?: way to much i have been diagnos!been hospital for it
99. Anxiety?: way to much been in the hospital for it
100. Depressed?: hospital
101. Suicidal?: I used to be, but now I've got it under control for the most part
102. Obsessed with hate?: definitely not
103. Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore?: yes
104. Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them?: no shit
105. If you could be anywhere, where would you be?: with chris laying on the sofa will ice cream watching our fav. movies for hours
106. Can you do anything freakish with your body?: yes
107. What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others? eyes
108. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president?: I would vote for the candidate who I agreed with on issues, if that was a woman, then yes
109. Would you marry for money?: no,
110. Have you had braces?: yes
111. Do you pluck your eyebrows?: yes
112. Do you like hairy backs?: no
113. When was the last time you had a hickey?: a while ago
114. Could you live without a computer?: probably not
115. Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc...?: AIM, MSN
116. If so, how many people are on your list/s?: many
117. If you could live in any past time period, which would it be?: i wouldnt
118. Do you drink enough water?: I would guess...no
119. Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: off
120. What is your favorite fruit?: mangos and apples
121. Do you eat wheat bread or white?: wheat
122. What is your favorite place to visit?: away
123. What is the last movie you saw?: anger mg.
124. Do you kiss on the first date?: no
125. Are you photogenic?: not usually
126. Do you dream in color or black and white?: black and white
127. Are you wearing fingernail polish?: no
128. Is it chipped or fresh?: neither
129. Do you have any dimples?: no
130. Do you remember being born?:yes
131. Why do you take surveys?: because I get bored
132. Do you drink alcohol? If so, what is your favorite drink?: too many
133. Did you like or do you like high school?: i guess i will
134. What is the best accent? english!
135. Who do you want to kiss? he knows
136. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?: sunrises
137. Do you want to live to be 100?: could be
138. Is a flat stomach important to you?: yeah, pero no tengo
139. Do you or have you played with a ouija board?: yes
140. Are you loyal?: yessum
141. Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs?: yes
142. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?: off
143. Do you have nightmares frequently?: no
144. Do you like your nose?: not really
145. Do you think you can draw well?: no
146. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real?: 6
147. How many pairs of shoes are in your closet?: 4
148. Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday or do you like a variety?: usually the same
149. Do you write poetry?: yeah sometimes
150. Do you snore?: no
151. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides?:back
152. Dog/Cat? dog
153. Do you lick stamps?: when I'm mailing letters...
154. Do you use an electric can opener?: nope
155. Have you ridden in a hotair balloon?: no
156. Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?: emotional i dont feel physical pain anymore..
157. Favorite TV show?: blues clues
158. Do you know anyone who is clinically depressed?: me
159. Do you prefer a piano or a violin?: piano
160. Are you a sex addict?: I definitely don't think you can be if you're a virgin
161. Do you know someone who has cancer?: yes
162. Do you like to argue?: zorro can answer that one
163. Do you hunt?: no
164. Do you like fast food joints, or expensive restaurants?: both
165. Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?: zoo
166. Do you have a middle name? What is it?: cristina
167. Are you basically a happy person?: no
168. Are you tired?: not really
169. Did you drink anything with caffeine in it today?: yes
170. Have you ever met anyone off the internet?: no
171. How many phones do you have in your house?: 3 cell phones and 6 normal phones
172. How long is your hair?: 6 inches uner my shoulders
173. Do you get along with your parents?: no i see then 3 times a day when i wake up when they pick me up adn when i eat
174. What color of eyes do you prefer?: green
175. Full name: sofia cristina casado
176. Were you named after anyone?: no
177. Do you wish on stars?: sometimes
178. Which finger is your favorite?:
179. When did you last cry?: a year ago or something
180. If you were making a movie about yourself, what would the title be?: truth: be told
181. Do you like your handwriting?: no
182. Who do you admire & Why?: no one
183. What is the #1 priority in your life?: not to get hurt
184. What is your favorite lunchmeat?: ham
185. Any bad habits?: I bite my nails sorta
186. What is your most embarrassing CD?: i wont tell
187. If you were another person, would you be friends with yourself? no
188. Are you a daredevil?: depends
189. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell?: maybe
190. Have you ever stolen anything?: yes
191. Do looks matter?: not to me
192. Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid?: probably
193. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: could be
194. Do fish have feelings? of course
195. Are you trendy?: god only knows
196. How do you release anger?: ha you dont want to know
197. Where is your second home? carmens house
198. Do you trust others easily?: no
199. What was your favorite toy as a child?: no
200. What class in school do you think is totally useless?: math
201. Do you like sappy love songs?: some
202. Have you ever been on radio or television?: yes
203. Do you have a journal?: think that one over
204. Do you use sarcasm a lot?: yes
205. Have you ever been in another country?: yes
206. What do you look for in a guy?: personality, l
207. What is/are your nickname/s?: sofy, bebe, spunky, chesterfield, big red primis manita rizitos de oro
208. Would you bungee jump?: yes
209. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?: no
210. What are you worried about right now?: her and him
212. Do you think you are strong?: no
215. What's your least favorite thing in the world?: me
216. How many wisdom teeth do you have?: none
217. Do you have anything pierced?: yes
218. Do you have any tattoos?: nope
219. What would you change about yourself?: appearance and parts of my personality
21. Who are the people you care most about?: friends
223. I need: love
224. I find: obstacles
225. I want: for her to leave
226. I have: to become a better person
227. I wish: things weren't always so difficult for me
228. I love: him
229. I hate: life it self
230. I miss: chris
231. I fear: loosing my mind
232. I feel: helpless
233. I hear: metallica
234. I smell: my prefume
235. I wonder: what will happen
236. I regret: loosing you

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU:
237. Smiled?: when you asked me out
238. Laughed?: when alex picked me up
239. Cried?: when you broke up with me
240. Bought something?: last night
241. Danced?: right now
242. Were sarcastic?: today
243. Kissed someone?: a week ago
244. Talked to an ex?: this morning
245. Watched your favorite movie?: a month ago
246. Do you own any plaid clothing?: yes
247. Do you own Converse shoes?: yes
248. Do you own Saucony shoes?: no, don't think so...maybe...
249. Do you own old school Nikes?: no
250. Do you wear tight pants?: yes, sometimes
251. Is there more than one zipper in your pants? yes

HAVE YOU (IN THE LAST DAY):
252. Worn a skirt: no
253. Been mean: don't think so
254. Been sarcastic: yes
255. Met someone new: yes
256. Talked to someone you have a crush on: yes
257. Missed someone: yes
258. Hugged someone: yes
259. Fought with your parents: they arent here
260. Wished upon a star: no
261. Laughed until you cried: no
262. Played Truth or Dare: no
263. Watched a sunrise/sunset: yes
264. Went to the beach at night: no
265. Spent quality time alone: yes
266. Read a book for fun: nope
267. Are you lonely: yes
268. Are you wearing your pajamas: no
269. Are you talking to someone online: yes 10 people

current mood: confused
current music: the middle

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Tuesday, May 20th, 2003
9:59 pm - diana se paso
horita estava hablando con diana y mira lo q paso


!!«·´`·.(*·.¸(`·.¸D?aN!T?¸.·´)¸.·*).·´`·»!!:
dude!! ajaja yo no sabia que te avias dado los beos con joshua y que el te avia pedido el empate y le dijiste que no
Empty !nside...These Tears I Bleed...You SaId iTs OveR, so I guEss It IS:
2 times
!!«·´`·.(*·.¸(`·.¸D?aN!T?¸.·´)¸.·*).·´`·»!!:
dude perdoname que te diga esto pero!!... tu as pasado por todos!! eso me da pesar!! con razon nadie te quiere!! ya me doy cuenta!! tu misma te haces la fama!! que tienes!! bueno yo te dejo!! y mira no lo tomes amal solo tomalo como un consejo!: deja de ser asi!! solo que das como una mas de las perras!! chao me tengo que ir bye

se paso de pana...yo no soy perra esta tipa esta loco de bolas...victor esta actuando raro pero eso no es mi peo. estoy enferma q ladilla pero q c puede hazer nada como siempre....joshua y diana casi terminaron anoche pero un peo c tuvieron por chino...ahy chino lindo metiste la pata y bien feo...pues yo me voy pq me siento mal y ya no puedo mas...buenas noches a todos los quiero muchisimo creo..

current mood: sick

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