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[01 Nov 2004|12:02am]
I won't let you let me down again.
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[01 Nov 2004|12:02am]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | Once upon my nightstand [x] Finch ]

I'm sleeping to give my head a rest
I am so sick of these arguments
Alone, once again I'm on my own
Just need some time to myself or I'll explode

I know that this is all my fault
And one day I will get it right
But for now I sit here and remind myself
That everything will be okay

Your letter written on a napkin
Sits on my nightstand
And it reads:
This is...
This is the last time
That I will write to you
This is goodbye

I know that this is all my fault
And one day I will get it right
But for now I sit here and remind myself
That everything will be okay

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[01 Nov 2004|12:29am]
I'm a failure by design.
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behh.. im bored with life. [01 Nov 2004|01:31am]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | straylight run- dignity and money ]

and i swear, if i could take this knife out of my back, i would- but between the loss of blood and the loss of my trust in you, i dont think it'd do any good.
IF LOVE EXISTED WE WOULDN"T BE SO SOFT AND EASY TO RUIN

bno.

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[01 Nov 2004|05:45am]
This is where I say

I've had enough


And no one should ever feel the way that I feel now.
A walking open wound, a trophy display of bruises
And I don't believe that I'm getting any better.
Any better.
Waiting here with hopes the phone will ring
And I'm thinking awful things

I'm pretty sure that few would notice.
And this apartment is starving for an argument.
Anything at all to

break the silence.


Wandering this house like I've never wanted out
And this is about as social as I get now.
And I'm throwing away the letters that I am writing you
Cause they would never do, I would never do.
Never
Waiting here with hopes the phone will ring

And I'm thinking awful things



I'm pretty sure that few would notice.
And this apartment is starving for an argument.
Anything at all to break the silence


. Dashboard
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[01 Nov 2004|06:12am]
[ mood | crushed ]

I died in my dreams
What's that supposed to mean?
Got lost in the fire.

I died in my dreams,
Reaching out for your hand....
My Fatal Desire.

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[01 Nov 2004|07:05am]
[ mood | hungrey sluts ]
[ music | Graystar//Tragedy of 03' ]

Waiting for you to come back down,
back down from these clouds
ill be waiting for you
to come back down now.

* I love you guys *

www.purevolume.com/graystar

^ Check that shit . kevins crazy on guitar

! im going to see them with bowling for soup in 2 days !

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[01 Nov 2004|07:15am]
i'm making a mix for my friend who's trying to move on from a really serious breakup.. but with songs that'll make her happy instead of remembering and being upset, any suggestions?.. 8)
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I want someone [01 Nov 2004|07:18am]
when will the girl get the guy?
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[01 Nov 2004|08:35am]
[ mood | excited ]
[ music | Tsunami Bomb-Dawn on a Funeral Day ]

"To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real.

To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a 3-fold utopian dream..."
---Incubus-I Miss You

I get to spend the night with my boyfriend tonight :)

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[01 Nov 2004|09:22am]
i'm not your star.. isn't that what you said..?


yet another halloween ruined. how lame is this.. the boy invites me over.. we hang out then other people come over and we're all lovey and stuff..and then this other girl comes over.. he ditches me and somehow ends up in his basement with her on a bed in the dark..? how about i'm sick of this shit. so i left.. and then he kept asking for me and why i left.. Well.. maybe.. it's because i'm sick of getting walked on. WILL I EVER learn..?
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[01 Nov 2004|09:22am]
i'm not your star.. isn't that what you said..?


yet another halloween ruined. how lame is this.. the boy invites me over.. we hang out then other people come over and we're all lovey and stuff..and then this other girl comes over.. he ditches me and somehow ends up in his basement with her on a bed in the dark..? how about i'm sick of this shit. so i left.. and then he kept asking for me and why i left.. Well.. maybe.. it's because i'm sick of getting walked on. WILL I EVER learn..?
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[01 Nov 2004|09:31am]
i'm not your star.. isn't that what you said..?


yet another halloween ruined. how lame is this.. the boy invites me over.. we hang out then other people come over and we're all lovey and stuff..and then this other girl comes over.. he ditches me and somehow ends up in his basement with her on a bed in the dark..? how about i'm sick of this shit. so i left.. and then he kept asking for me and why i left.. Well.. maybe.. it's because i'm sick of getting walked on. WILL I EVER learn..?
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[01 Nov 2004|10:21am]
YOU RIPPED MY HEART OUT, YOU TORE MY EYES OUT, NOW YOU'RE GUNNA PAY


I'LL STAB YOU ONE TIME

I'LL EAT YOUR HEART OUT SO YOU FEEL MY PAIN

DON'T YOU KNOW THAT I ALWAYS SEE YOU IN ALL OF MY DREAMS?

I WANNA KILL YOU

I WANNA KILL YOU

NOW IM INSANE.
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[01 Nov 2004|10:23am]
[ mood | content ]
[ music | plain white t's--what if ]

i was leaving for washington DC, and my best guy friend, (the kid i like alot) called me and we were talking for a while before i had to leave..then i had to leave, and he said "i love you and i'll miss you" and i said "thanks i'll miss you too.." b/c i didn't hear him say i love you..and then he told me he said it and i felt so bad for not saying it back and wish i could have.. any lyrics?

it's so simple and complicated the way you can crush me..
no matter how much this hurts, this is through..

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Thursday [01 Nov 2004|11:35am]
In the circuit the frequency's breaking up
The speakers can barely move
(This is not a test
Tune to the broadcast)
Witness the jetlag
Look in the mirror
Adjust the v-hold
Shatter the lens (lens)
Pull out the shards (shards)
Choke on her words (words)
Caught in your throat
How long can the wheels maintain a spin at this velocity?
On every block a reminder:
You can't stop this intersection
At every turn:
Dead forests of tenements rise like antennas
The miles are adding up and the days are counting down
Cut the jet black from my hair
Before we're bathed in the dawn of new year's day
I will change back to myself in the flame (flame)
We burn like the paper hearts of dead presidents
But we're too lost to lose hope
Maybe the night seems so dark
Becuase the day is much to bright
(For us to see)
We are cured, we are cured)
(Shatter the lens, pull out the shards)
We are cured, we are cured
(Choke on her words)
Caught in your throat
That's the sound of music from another room
The piano player hangs up from piano wire
But the player piano carries on
(Sit back and tune to the broadcast)
Witness the jet lag
Shatter the lens (lens)
Pull out the shards (shards)
Choke on her words (words)
Caught in your throat
This is not a test
This is not a test
Shatter the lens (lens)
Pull out the shards (shards)
Choke on her words (words)
Caught in your throat
As the language dissolves and the sentence lifts
A slow alphabet of rain is whispering:
"Aabettipachdefg.."
Since i replace the 'i' in 'live' with an 'o'
I can't remember who you are
But tomorrow I'll be you
Just pick up the phone
I'm calling from your house, in your room, in your name
Lying in your bed, folllowing your dreams
Ii listen to your voice get caught in my throat as i sing:
"This is just a dream"
On New Year's Day
We will change back to ourselves in the flame
We are cured, we are cured, we are cured

IThursday!
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[01 Nov 2004|11:42am]
LOVE*SUCKS
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[01 Nov 2004|11:57am]
[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | something corporate ]

I hate myself
Postcards from hell
Seattle sucked and I hate the rain
Vancouver didn't want to play my game
Raindrops falling down
And I grab a beer
Sentimentality
Dysfunctionals escape
Isn't it so much fun
When you don't fit in?


--american heartbreak.
does anyone know where this is really from..
i think its nice..
dont mind me ..
hope you had a happy hallowe'en

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[01 Nov 2004|12:08pm]
Pacey : You know I can't believe this. After years of gratuitous self-examination, you finally did it, you acted. I mean, I thought you and Joey were going to draw out this 'will they-won't they' drama for at least another couple of years. Sam and Diane didn't get together for at least 4 seasons and Mulder and Scully...they haven't even kissed! If you and Joey can get across this romantic checkmate thing you've been in for GOD knows how many years...anything is possible!
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[01 Nov 2004|12:13pm]
nothing hurts like your mouth.

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[01 Nov 2004|12:20pm]
[ mood | blah ]
[ music | Alkaline Trio-Trouble Breathing ]

*since you've been gone it's not the same*

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Trouble Breathing [01 Nov 2004|12:27pm]
You told me that you want to die
I said I've been there myself more than a few times
And I go back every once in a while
You called me lucky, you.. you called me lucky

You said tonight is a wonderful night to die
I asked you how you could tell
You told me to look at the sky
Look at all those stars
Look at how goddamn ugly the stars are

It's one or another
Between a rope and a bottle
I can tell you're having trouble breathing

'Cause you'll never be okay
You'll never be okay

(You'll always be in pain)
You'll always feel this way
'Cause things they never work out right
(the wrong way the lonely way)
You'll always be in pain



You told me that the daylight burned you
and that the sunrise was enough to kill you
I said maybe you're a vampire
You said it's quite possible I feel truly dead inside

'Cause you'll never be okay
You'll never be okay

(You'll always be in pain)
You'll always feel this way
'Cause things they never work out right
(the wrong way the lonely way)
You'll always be in pain



Don't forget to let your life rot you inside out
Don't forget to let your life rot you inside out
Don't forget to let your life rot you inside out


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[01 Nov 2004|12:28pm]
Make me a mixtape,
Something old and something new.
Something I said or that we did
That reminds me of you.
Make me a mixtape that makes me yours.
Don't leave out Husker Du.
Put something on it that The Cars did in 1982.
It makes me yours
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Rawr ~ [01 Nov 2004|12:35pm]
I live on a small street with very small shoes,
but in a big house with a big wardrobe.
I've got the whole world in my hands,
it's a small world after all...

And theres not much to say on 5 bucks a day,
and theres no other way
so we're just hangin around for the weekend to come.
We're all hungry and dumb for Friday...

So yeah, I feel electric pink in the cheeks.
We look like animals 7 days a week.
I feel electric pink in the cheeks.
Im too polite and maybe you're too brief.

Please don't press that we dress,
high heels and loud shoes are a mess.
Step out with quiet feet,
and now i'm pleased to meet,
meeting is so hard to do when you're dead.

So yeah, I feel electric pink in the cheeks.
We look like animals 7 days a week.
I feel electric pink in the cheeks.
I'm too polite and maybe you're too brief.

Between the weak and eloquent , yeah, are conversations.
Complications go on and on it
ah, I pretend I understand my hands
and the rest are only a test to be paid to be pressed
when we end we will be softly kissed.

So yeah, I feel electric pink in the cheeks.
We look like animals 7 days a week.
I feel electric pink in the cheeks.
I'm too polite and maybe you're too brief.

I feel electric pink in the cheeks.
We look like animals 7 days a week.
Yeah what did you think I would be feeling? Electric pink.
yeah yeah yeah
What did you think I would be feeling? Electric pink.
yeah yeah yeah
Now what did you think I would be feeling? Electric pink.
Electric pink.

I live on a small street steppin out with quiet feet...
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[01 Nov 2004|12:36pm]
*I'd really hate to say it but I told you so
So shut your mouh before I shoot you down ole boy
Welcome to the club and give me some blood
I'm the resident leader of the lost and found
*

It's comedy
And tragedy
It's St. Jimmy
And that's my name
And don't wear it out
*
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[01 Nov 2004|12:40pm]
we spend most of our lives relying on promising goodbyes
when morning comes, you'll know exactly what comes next
silence
if you beg for wings you'll only get shot down

if i resided in clouds, would you come live with me?
float high above all the cares in the world
when it rains you close your eyes
take a bite from the sun
burns your heart nearly as bad as your tears

so watch me drive
together in our finest moments, forever apart
home with my eyes closed

live this dream one last time
what is life with hope of tomorrow?
live this dream one last time
what is life with no hope?

if angels landed and took me with them
show me the heavens just to drop me to hell
we made it, and maybe it's better you never open your eyes

live this dream one last time
what is life with hope of tomorrow?
live this dream one last time
i died from every hope

.fear before the march of flames/ what happens in vegas, stays in vegas.
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[01 Nov 2004|12:41pm]
Yours is the first face that I saw
I think I was blind before I met you
I don't know where I am
I don't know where I've been
But I know where I want to go
So I thought I'd let you know
These things take forever, I especially am slow
But I realized how I need you
And I wondered if I could come home
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*Unwritten*Law* [01 Nov 2004|12:55pm]
I'm seein red
Don't think you'll have to see my face again
Don't have much time for sympathy
Cause it never happened to me
You're feelin blue now
I think you bit off more than you could chew
And now it's time to make a choice
And all I wanna hear is your...

So follow the leader down
And swallow your pride and drown
When there's no place left to go
Maybe thats when you will know
Follow the leader now
And swallow your pride and drown
When there's no place left to go
Maybe that's when you will know

And foolish lies
Well can't you see I tried to compromise
Cause what you say ain't always true
And I can see the tears in your eyes
And what you said now
Can't stop the words from running through my head
And what I do to get through to you
But you'd only do it again

So follow the leader down
And swallow your pride and drown
When there's no place left to go
Maybe that's when you will know
Follow the leader down
And swallow your pride and drown
When there's no place left to go
Maybe that's when you will know

Well I confess, I don't know what to make from all this mess
Don't have much time for sympathy
But it never happened to me, you're feelin down now
I don't know where I'll be when you come around
And now it's time to make a choice
And all I wanna hear is your voice...
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YEAH!!!!!!! [01 Nov 2004|01:23pm]
[ mood | chipper ]
[ music | duh duh duh ]

Being grown up isn't half as fun growing up
These are the best days of our lives


<3333

x-amanda

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Broken [01 Nov 2004|01:51pm]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | Taking Back Sunday ]

"Now I'm lying on the table
with everything you said
keep that in mind the way that it felt
when the most I could do was to just blame myself..."

This is the worst feeling in the world, when there is nobody else to blame but yourself...
does anybody agree with me?

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Broken [01 Nov 2004|01:51pm]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | Taking Back Sunday ]

"Now I'm lying on the table
with everything you said
keep that in mind the way that it felt
when the most I could do was to just blame myself..."

This is the worst feeling in the world, when there is nobody else to blame but yourself...
does anybody agree with me?

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[01 Nov 2004|02:52pm]
[ mood | emo ]

trust? its just like 'love' another excuse to get hurt.

i read a book with real good .. words/one liners/ 3 liners lol idk what to call it
the book is called breathe, by anne sophie brasme

here they are:
'Today I have two identities and I recognize neither.'
'My childhood tears, the taste of salt as they rolled down over my cheeks to die on my lips'
'Our conversations never ranged beyond our neat little lives in our posh little school. I was simply playing a rold, and I hated the character I'd chosen.'
'I hate myself so much that I feel like spitting on the mirror and then smashing it'
'I was fascinated by the idea of a transparent body deprived of breath and movement'
'To love too much, to love so much that your love becomes hatred, is to sacrifice your honor, to lose your liberty, to damage yourself'
'Obsession' 'It is cunning and manipulative, it passes itsself off as your friend but never fails to betray you. Sufferingis merely a side-effect. When you go mad you don't notice because it doesn't hurt. The most painful part is when the madness is over.'
'I was certain that he could be happy without me'
'You can't escape your madness by making yourself act like a normal person. Your madness will always resurface.'
'You can't imagine how much I wish I didn't love you, how I hate myself for being so powerless.'


just some things i could relate to ..
xox

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[01 Nov 2004|02:59pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]
[ music | New Found Glory - Winter of 95 ]

I can't remember the time or place,
or what you were wearing,
it's unclear about how we met,
all I know it was the BEST conversation that I've ever had,
to this day I never found someone,
with eyes as w i d e as yours,
I've been searching up and down this coast,
overlooking what I need the most

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[01 Nov 2004|03:04pm]
Just Say goodbye,and close the door
turn out the light, and pick up the pieces,
if you need them.This world is Cold
but just know you're Not Alone
No you're Not alone

[Chorus]

I know what you're thinking
I know how you're feeling
Belive me
You're Not Alone
I know what you're thinking
I know how you're feeling
Belive me
You're Not Alone Woah oh oh ohh

I've been there before,
Just where you are
And not quite so sure
That I've done the right thing
Belive me
And this world is cold
So I'll make sure you're Not Alone
No you're Not Alone

[Chorus]

Why don't you stay with me tonight
'Cause I know everything is not alright
Why don't you stay with me tonight
'Cause I know everything is not alright
that's not alright

[Chorus]

No you're Not Alone


**************
BLAH! i want him to want me back so bad.... if he would just call me.. !
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[01 Nov 2004|03:17pm]
I've watched you change
Into a fly
I looked away
You were on fire
I watched a change
In you
It's like you never
Had wings
Now you feel
So Alive
I've watched you change
I took you home
Set you on the glass
I pulled off your wings
Then I laughed
I watched a change
In you
It's like you never
Had wings
Now you feel
So alive
I've watched you change
It's like you never
Had wings ahhh ahh ahhh
I look at the cross
Then I look away
Give you the gun
Blow me away
I've watched a change
In you
It's like you never
Had wings
Now you feel
So Alive
I've watched you change.
Now you feel Alive
You Feel Alive
I've watched you change
It's like you never
Had wings ahhh ahh ahhh
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[01 Nov 2004|03:19pm]
i dont think that i have got the stomach to call you today
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[01 Nov 2004|03:28pm]
You promised me starry night skies
They just remind me of your shining bright eyes
Im missing your voice at night time
This sepa-separation seem-seems a sad crime

B-b-b-but dont dont dont think think think i forgot you you you
Are are are oh so sweet i i i - i know

If only you were here
Things would be more magical

If i were there
Right now would be more radical

Youre so not near
Im wishing i could place a call

And feel closer to you ooo-ooo

The miles of air and road and land
That separate me from all my plans
Were havin' havin' havin' havin' fun
But something something tells me i miss someone

B-but i hope hope hope you didn't forget me i couldn't
Forget you the whole time i always knew i knew

Say that youre into me just let me know how it will be
If you dont know dont say so
Ill wait till the perfect time think of all the perfect lines
Ill make sure if i let you know

Weve got movies on our list to see
Things to do just you and me
Calls to make from here to there and back
Weve got fun to have and days to spend
Stars to see or just pretend
At least for now just keep things right on track


hellogoodbye-callnreturn
gooood_song.
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[01 Nov 2004|03:29pm]
never thought you'd make me perspire
never thought i'd do you the same
never thought i'd fill with desire
..never thought i'd feel so ashamed..

me and the dragon can chase all the pain away
so before i end my day, remember
my sweet prince..you are the one

never thought i'd have to retire
never thought i'd have to abstain
never thought all this could back fire
..close up the hole in my vain..

me and my valuable friend
can fix all the pain away
so before I end my day, remember
my sweet prince
you are the one

never thought I'd get any higher
never thought you'd -fuck- with my brain
never thought all this could expire
..never thought you'd go break the chain..

me and you baby
still flush all the pain away
so before I end my day, remember
my sweet prince
you are the one
you are the one
you are the one

.you are the one.

this song leaves me speechless..the feeling comes across so well it amazes me.
beeeeautiful
anyone like?
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Sunday*Drive [01 Nov 2004|03:29pm]
And we wait above a road.
We're turning to go home.
And the silence from the side of the car
tells me everything and how we are.
'Cause there's no more trying to make this so right,
There's no more trying tonight.

{Chorus}
And you know it's not so easy when you're all alone.
And I wonder if I'm alone in your head.

I know something is wrong, I just dont know what to do.
You say it's only me and that I'm so perfect for you.
I don't want to try no more, I dont want to make this right.
I just want you to be true to me, one time.

{Chorus}
And you know it's not so easy when you're all alone.
And I wonder if I'm alone in your head.

Twelve weeks gone by since I have saw you last.
I'll give this one more try, I'll give it all my best.
And I'll ask "What could you be doing that is so much fun
without me by your side, without me by your side?"
And I'll take a step back, and I'll let you ahead.
And I will take a step away and see if you come back.
Because there's no more trying to make this so right,
there's no more trying, there's no more trying tonight.
We will never be the same.
We will never be the same until you're done.
*

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[01 Nov 2004|03:51pm]
JOEY: You break my heart into a thousand pieces and you say it's because I deserve better? How dare you?
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[01 Nov 2004|03:52pm]
but it's okay to come around

when nights like this are never ending

i tried to make this perfect,

you and i somehow,

we can't see eye to eye together

we always knew that you worked better
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[01 Nov 2004|03:57pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Did you know the depper you cut the darker shade of red the blood gets?
All i know is that my wrists are numb and my arms are covered in black

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[01 Nov 2004|04:00pm]
[ mood | cold ]
[ music | Madonna ]

PLEASE!!!

* lyrics about this:

Í love a boy and he said he loved me :-)
but now he doesn't talk to me anymore(msn)
and there's a big distancebetween us... But I still try talk to him and i'm happy when he talks to me
but any lyrics about: keep on running after that guy but wanna quit that and go on with my life.

sorry confusion...


I <3 you guys.

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[01 Nov 2004|04:03pm]
Staring into the intersection;
she thinks that she can fly and she might.
Holding on in a new direction; she's gonna try it tonight.
The closer I get to feeling, the f ur th er that
I'm feeling from alright.
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[01 Nov 2004|04:04pm]
Taking on seven years the holy ghost had left alone
Test my arms, kick like crazy
And Ive been trying way to long
only if he could push his way off to fight you
im sorry, im sorry, im not sure
Getting off my chest
the story ends
I would find a way without you
(tell him his eyes see too clear)
That mistake was gold
I know that without you
its something that I could never do
that was why staple the eyes and
seven dates for me to sell machines
and tear on
seven years you assured me
that Id be fine if I complied
only push the way off to fight you
Im sorry Im sorry im not sure
getting my chest the story now ends
I would find a way without you
(tell him his eyes see too clear)

Dont treat me Im to blame
Dont treat me like I ever accused you

i love saosin!
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[01 Nov 2004|04:05pm]
Escape Artists Never Die
The red poison of your lips
The red poison of your eyes
Is where I kissed the blood from,
Just that corner of your mouth where I can see the white of your smile.
Up to my neck
When I'm breathing without you, without you
Up to my eyes
And I'm seeing without you, without you

We'll start a fire,
And burn some bridges
And make it out of here tonight
We'll start a fire,
And burn some bridges
And make it out of here tonight

We need some leverage
We can't seem to open up
The locks are far too tight
And the chains are far too strong, far too strong.
Up to my eyes
And I'm seeing without you, without you
Up to my heart
When I'm bleeding without you, without you.

We'll start a fire,
And burn some bridges
And make it out of here tonight
We'll start a fire,
And burn some bridges
And make it out of here tonight

Please someone help me
I'm dying here in front of you
Please someone help me
I'm dying here in front of you.
With a hundred thousands lights
Timing as everything will
With a hundred thousand lights
Timing, timing is everything to me
Please someone help me
I'm dying here in front of you
Please someone help me
I'm dying here in front of you.
It's everything
It's everything
Timing is everything. It's everything.
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[01 Nov 2004|04:15pm]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | from first to last. ]

NOTE TO SELF:
i miss you terribly.
this is what we call a tragedy.
come back to me, come back to me.

from first to last is the shit.

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[01 Nov 2004|04:15pm]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | from first to last. ]

NOTE TO SELF:
i miss you terribly.
this is what we call a tragedy.
come back to me, come back to me.

from first to last is the shit.

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New Found Glory [01 Nov 2004|04:24pm]
[ mood | confused ]

"In the bright of day it might seem like the stars are gone,
they never leave they come back when the sun moves on"

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[01 Nov 2004|04:24pm]
Here's to the nights we felt alive.
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry.
Here's to goodbye, tomorrow's gonna come to soon.
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[01 Nov 2004|04:27pm]
i'm making a mix for my friend who's trying to move on from a really serious breakup.. but with songs that'll make her happy instead of remembering and being upset, any suggestions?.. 8)
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[01 Nov 2004|04:31pm]
*Blue in the face*
Its about time
That I came clean with you
No longer fine
I?m no longer running smooth
I thought that i
Found myself on to something new
Just one more line
I repeat over and over again till I?m blue in the face
With a choking regret
Cuz I talked in circles around you on my bed
Can?t say I blame you one bit when you kept it all inside
When you left that night

Its about time
That you got sick of me
No longer fun
And so far from interesting
I thought that i
Found me a cure for feeling old
Just one more line
To keep me sleeping loudly and cold
In disgrace with a shameful regret
As I talk in tongues to myself in my bed
Can?t say I blame you one bit when you kept it all inside
When you left that night

And all that followed fell
Like mercury to hell
So now we lost our heads for the last time
And all that followed fell
Like mercury to hell
So now we lost our heads for the last time

And I don?t dream
Since I quit sleeping
And I havent slept
Since I met you
And you can?t breathe
Without coughing in daytime
Neither can i
So what do you say?
Your coffin or mine?


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[01 Nov 2004|04:35pm]
[ music | daphne loves derby ]

forgive me but i can't be everything you deserve

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[01 Nov 2004|04:36pm]
[ mood | i'm not so sure ]
[ music | green day (they were orgasmic thursday) ]

you ruined all

my favorite

songs.

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[01 Nov 2004|04:40pm]
The day you showed me your heart
<3
was the day I found my purpose.
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[01 Nov 2004|04:43pm]
i dont post in emolyrics to hear politics.

so stop posting those gay eminem lyrics - hes a fucking whore who beats women.

one person's opinion may not be the same as anothers.
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[01 Nov 2004|04:44pm]

could you see i want you by the way I push you away?

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The best brand new song ever! [01 Nov 2004|04:45pm]
I am heaven sent
Don't you dare forget
I am all you've ever wanted
What all the other boys all promised
Sorry I told
I just needed you to know
I think in decimals and dollars
I am the cause to all your problems
Shelter from cold
We are never alone
Coordinate brain and mouth
Then ask me what it's like to have myself so figured out
I wish I knew
I hope this song starts a craze.
The kind of song that ignites the airwaves
The kind of song that makes people glad to be where they are
with whoever they're there with
This is war
Every line is about who I don't wanna write about anymore.
I hope you come down with something
they can't diagnose, don't have the cure for
Holding on to your grudge
Oh it's so hard to have someone to love
And keeping quiet is hard
Cause you can't keep a secret
if it never was a secret to start
(at least pretend you didn't want to get caught)
We're consentrated on falling apart
We were contenders, now throwing the fights
I just want to believe...I just want to believe..I just want to believe.. in us
Oh, we're so controversial
We are [I am] entirely smooth
We admit to the truth
We are [I am] the best at what we do
And these are the words you wish you wrote down
This is the way you wish your voice sounds Handsome and smart
Ooh, my tongue's the only muscle on my body
that works harder than my heart
And it's all from watching t.v.
And from speeding up my breathing
Would'nt stop if I could
Oh, it hurts to be this good

You're holding on to your grudge
Oh, it hurts to always have to be honest with the one that you love
Oh, so let it go
This is the grace only we can bestow
This is the price you pay for loss of control
This is the break in the bend
This is the closest of calls
This is the reason you're alone
This is the rise and fall

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[01 Nov 2004|04:51pm]
And I can't see the point of patient love

When everyone just wants to get fucked
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[01 Nov 2004|04:57pm]
You'd be so perfect with me
But you just can't see
You turn every head but you don't see me



mmm aqualung is so orgasmic
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qive me novacaine.. [01 Nov 2004|05:04pm]
havinq u close nd thinkin how my answers mite make u distant is too much for me to handle. i can never think of the right way to say any of this. while we`re toqether every scenario i imaqine mite scare u off. i hope u understand i`m doinq this so we can keep wut we have.
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[01 Nov 2004|05:04pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

I'm not okay....


yes! MCR! Anyone like them? I am going to see them in concert next wednesday...V.I.P hopefully. Im so excited

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Butch Walker [01 Nov 2004|05:04pm]
[ mood | content ]
[ music | Butch Walker - "My Way" ]

You say hello, inside I'm screaming I love you
You say goodnight, in my mind
I'm sleeping next to you
You drive away from my car crash of a heart
And I don't know

But you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than that
About me and you

You talk to him, and it burns me like the sun
You talk to her, and you say that you feel like he's the one
I talk to me, but you can't hear the pain I feel
You don't know

Cause you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I only wish there was more than that
About me and you

Oh, don't turn around and say bye again
Yeah it crushes my head when you call me
Your friend and I'm not the same person
From back in the day in the back of the class
that you thought was gay
No I can't find the words cause I lost them
The minute they fell out of my mouth
And it's love and I'm in it, so give me your lips
And just let me kiss 'em
and let's get messed up and listen to possibly...

The best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was more than that
About me and you

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[01 Nov 2004|05:10pm]
loves a game we all must play
so dry your eyes and be on your way
as for me..i'll be okay..
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[01 Nov 2004|05:10pm]
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[01 Nov 2004|05:11pm]
[ music | mae ]


Forget everything I'm about to say.
It's important you appear startled.
I didn't survive the crash.
This is nothing personal.
I just had to stop shaking.




question. could somebody be so kind to send me the lj cut, and if u have the one where u can put what u want to say instead of like read more . that would be alsome .. thanks
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[01 Nov 2004|05:13pm]
Die young and save yourself.
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Good to Know That If I Ever Need Attention All I Have to Do is Die [01 Nov 2004|05:17pm]
[ mood | calm ]
[ music | Marvelous 3 - "Every Monday" ]

Am I correct to defend the fist that holds this pen?
It's ink that lies,
the pen, the page, the paper.
I live, I learn.
You will always take what I have earned.
So aid my end while I believe I'm winning.

Our friends speak out in our defense.
Pay ten deaf ears for two months rent.
We burn the gallows they erect,
and cut the nooses they tie for our necks.

You constantly make it impossible to make conversation.
We're comatose but audible.
And I like it the farther i get out.
We passed it off but it's all on us.
Only common conversation,
it took everything i got.
And I like it the farther i get out.

Once said, always said.
I will hold the past over your head.
I'll speak my mind whenever i feel slighted.
I am hellbent on extracting all of my revenge.
Take heart, sweetheart, or I will take it from you.

We slip concealed back to the keep.
Concede to do the work for free.
We prey as wolves among the sheep
and slit the necks of soldiers while they sleep.

You constantly make it impossible to make conversation.
We're comatose but audible.
And I like it the farther I get out.
We passed it off but it's all on us.
Only common conversation,
it took everything I got.
And I like it the farther I get out.

You constantly make it impossible to make conversation.
We're comatose but audible.
And I like it the farther I get out.
We passed it off but it's all on us.
Only common conversation,
it took everything I got.
And I like it the farther I get out.

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[01 Nov 2004|05:19pm]
[ mood | lost and confused ]
[ music | seether.. broken ]

Excuse me while i fall apart.
Don't flatter yourself, sweetheart.
Let me take the wheel, and I'll crash this car.
Do you have to make this so hard?

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When you think of voting [01 Nov 2004|05:19pm]
[ mood | cynical ]
[ music | Eminem//MOSH ]

-ahem- Before you "18 ^.~" year olds go to vote, think about your choice. make the right decision. think about what you may or may not know...read over these lyrics...they tell you everything

EMINEM LYRICS

"Mosh"

I pledge allegiance to the flag of the United States of America
And to the Republic for which it stands
One nation under God
Indivisible...
It feels so good to be back..

I scrutinize every word, memorize every line
I spit it once, refuel and re-energize and rewind
I give sight to the blind, my insight through the mind
I exercise my right to express when I feel it's time
It's just all in your mind, what you interpret it as
I say to fight, you take it as I'mma whip someone's ass
If you don't understand, don't even bother to ask
A father who has grown up with a fatherless past
Who has blown up now to rap phenomenon that has
Or at least shows no difficulty multi-task
And in juggling both perhaps mastered his craft
Slash entrepreneur who has held onto few more rap acts
Who's had a few obstacles thrown his way through the last half
Of his career typical manure moving past that
Mr. kisses ass crack, he's a class act
Rubber band man, yea he just snaps back

[Chorus:]
Come along follow me as I lead through the darkness
As I provide just enough spark that we need to proceed
Carry on, give me hope, give me strength
Come with me and I won't steer you wrong
Put your faith and your trust as I guide us through the fog
To the light at the end of the tunnel
We gonna fight, we gonna charge, we gonna stomp, we gonna march
Through the swamp, we gonna mosh through the marsh
Take us right through the doors (c'mon)

All the people up top on the side and the middle
Come together lets all bomb and swamp just a little
Just let it gradually build from the front to the back
All you can see is a sea of people some white and some black
Don't matter what color, all that matters we gathered together
To celebrate for the same cause don't matter the weather
If it rains let it rain, yea the wetter the better
They ain't gonna stop us they can't, we stronger now more than ever
They tell us no we say yea, they tell us stop we say go
Rebel with a rebel yell, raise hell we gonna let em know
Stomp, push, shove, mush, Fuck Bush, until they bring our troops home (c'mon)

[Chorus]

Imagine it pouring, it's raining down on us
Mosh pits outside the oval office
Someone's tryina tell us something,
Maybe this is god just sayin' we're responsible
For this monster, this coward,
That we have empowered
This is Bin Laden, look at his head noddin'
How could we allow something like this without pumping our fists
Now this is our final hour
Let me be the voice in your strength and your choice
Let me simplify the rhyme just to amplify the noise
Try to amplify the times it, and multiply by six...
Teen million people, Are equal at this high pitch
Maybe we can reach alqueda through my speech
Let the president answer a higher anarchy
Strap him with an Ak-47, let him go, fight his own war
Let him impress daddy that way
No more blood for oil, we got our own battles to fight on our own soil
No more psychological warfare, to trick us to thinking that we ain't loyal
If we don't serve our own country, we're patronizing a hero
Look in his eyes its all lies
The stars and stripes, they've been swiped, washed out and wiped
And replaced with his own face, Mosh now or die
If I get sniped tonight you know why,
Cause I told you to fight.

[Chorus]

And as we proceed,
To Mosh through this desert storm,
In these closing statements, if they should argue
Let us beg to differ
As we set aside our differences
And assemble our own army
To disarm this Weapon of Mass Destruction
That we call our President, for the present
And Mosh for the future of our next generation
To speak and be heard
Mr. President, Mr. Senator
Do you guy's hear us...hear us...[laughing] (Hailie)

**PROUD-2-BE**

^*ANTI-BUSH*^

~*MANDI*~

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[01 Nov 2004|05:23pm]
i hate her eyes....
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I can hear it in your voice, that those words only have half the meaning. [01 Nov 2004|05:28pm]
[ mood | discontent ]
[ music | the number 12 looks like you ]

Wouldn't it be great if you said "I love you" and meant it?
It would, it would.
Imagine yourself speaking, and actually telling the truth.
And think of the buckets of tears you'd keep me from crying
if you just said it like it was.
Picture my heart in your hands.
Wouldn't it be great if we kept it that way? No one likes to get torn apart.
No one likes to clean up the missing parts of a lonely girls heart.
How about you pick up the pieces, sew them up just as you summed up your lies.
Just as you finished your sentence with your meaningless goodbyes.
Is this what I mean to you now?
Make up your fucking mind, baby.
I'm tired of these mind games of endless insults.
Getting shot back through these telephone wires.
Maybe you could hear the tears roll down my cheeks,
because I swear you heard the echo's of my heart being shattered.

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[01 Nov 2004|05:30pm]
[ mood | creative ]

Late night,
Brakes lock,
Hear the tires squeal...
Red light,
Cant stop,
So I spin the wheel...
My world goes black
before I feel an angel lift me up
And I open bloodshot eyes
into fluorescent white
Flip the sirens,
Hit the lights,
Close the doors
and I am gone...

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not emo at all but still a good song [01 Nov 2004|05:35pm]
Today it rained in L.A.
Smog's been beaten down for awhile
Drove up a hill where I could feel the ocean...
And see for miles
Feels like the top of the world
Right here the world's all mine
Here i lie watching the cars on the highway
You're one of those lights that's driving away
I'm standing in the dark wondering where you are
I'm leaving my heart here in Echo Park.
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[01 Nov 2004|05:37pm]
even the b e s t::

F
A
L
L

d o w n :: s.o.m.e.t.i.m.e.s
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[01 Nov 2004|05:41pm]

You shouldn't let him make you mad

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[01 Nov 2004|05:41pm]
i met this guy at a party the other night and we really clicked and i'm starting to like him alot. any songs about that feeling when you first start falling for someone? i know you all know what that feels like :o)

come down and waste away with me.
slow, how you wanted it to be.
breathe out so i can breathe you in,
hold you in..
and now i know you've always been out of your head,
out of my head i sang
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[01 Nov 2004|05:42pm]
Blind to the answers, find yourself,
Walk for the moment, find the reason in yourself,
Theres a reason for you and I,
Take this time to find a meaning,
A reason to sit back and measure the worst six years of my life,
Waiting for your legs to close on my best friends,
Last night I saw your life flash before my eyes,
Why did I laugh so hard baby?
(you won't be back and i'm still laughing)
I never meant to hurt you (but I did)
I'm sorry that you cried so hard darling,
I'll never hurt you again,
Take this time to find your tounge,
A sorry excuse to stop your lies,
The best 30 seconds of my life,
My angel take your pills,
My angel I sold your ring,
And now I can't stop laughing,
I didn't want it this way,
I hope you're happy where you are
And i'm glad to say I put you there,
Who's the one that's laughing now,
I'm the one who's laughing now
(now theres nothing left to say I hope you're feeling my embrace, and I can't sleep)
You should have left me sleeping
You should have let me sleep....


I'm in need of blurty friends. =x
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[01 Nov 2004|05:46pm]
[ music | odd project ]

BOY: i SAW HER TODAY
GiRL: i SAW HiM TODAY
-BOY: iT SEEMS LiKE iT`S BEEN FOREVER
GiRL: i WONDER iF HE STiLL CARES
-BOY: SHE LOOKS BETTER THEN BEFORE
GiRL: i COULDN`T STOP STARiNG AT HiM



-BOY: i ASKED HER HOW THiNGS WERE GOiNG
GiRL: i ASKED ABOUT HiS NEW GiRLFRiEND
-BOY: i`D CHOOSE HER OVER ANY GiRL i`M WiTH
GiRL: HE`S PROBABLY REALLY HAPPY RiGHT NOW
-BOY: i COULDN`T LOOK AT HER WiTHOUT STARTiNG TO CRY


GiRL: HE COULDN`T EVEN LOOK AT ME
-BOY: i TOLD HER i MiSS HER
GiRL: HE DOSEN`T MEAN iT
BOY: i MEANT iT


GiRL: HE DiDN`T MEAN iT
-BOY: i LOVE HER
GiRL: HE LOVES HiS NEW GiRLFRiEND
-BOY: i HELD HER FOR THE LAST TiME
GiRL: HE GAVE ME A FRiENDLY HUG

-BOY: THEN i WENT HOME AND CRiED
GiRL: THEN i WENT HOME AND CRiED
-BOY: i LOST HER
GiRL: i LOVE HIM
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[01 Nov 2004|05:47pm]
Can't you see that I wanna be there with open arms
It's empty tonight and I'm all alone

Get me through this one

Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?


I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so

I'm writing again these letters to you aren't much, I know
But I'm not sleeping and you're not here

The thought stops my heart

Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?


I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so

No more looking I've found home

I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so

I'm gone away
I'm gone away
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I want to be all you want me to be [01 Nov 2004|05:50pm]
[ mood | sad ]
[ music | him-join me ]

Would you die tonight for love?

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[01 Nov 2004|06:06pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]

We've got to get better,
I said "It's all in your head"
We could live through these letters,
Or forget it all together.
See... the months, they dont matter
It's the days I cant take,
When the hours move to minutes...
...and I'm seconds away...


yeah...good days can turn to bad days really really easily.
I'm so triste.
*tear*

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[01 Nov 2004|06:24pm]
i used to make the light shine for you,
the sun has left my sky.
velvet walls surround my sorrows,
i've sacrificed my pride.

giving up on me,
you're giving up on me.
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[01 Nov 2004|06:25pm]
i can still smell you on my sheets
and now i know what it feels like to be crushed
and now i know what it feels like to be a novelty
and now i know what it feels like to be drowned
by someone you love
it's all over but im still choking on the lies
it's all over but im still choking
it's all over but im still choking on the lies
how can we go on living line after line?
i can only stitch myself up so many times
how can all this have happened in less than a day, less than a day?
then again it wouldnt have been the first time you threw us away
i've waited so long for someone like you
to fill my days with ruin
every smile is a painful reminder
of how i let you continue
all the tears in the world could never stop,
could never stop you or all the heart breaking wreckage that you did
i love that i cant get enough but i'd be lying if i said that i didn't expect it
you've past me twice and our eyes haven't met again
you turned my world into remnants of blood in my sink
will you pick up the pieces again?
or let them fall to ashes in yor pretty hands?
you walk all over me
it's all over but im still choking on the lies
you walk all over me
the pain ensues
knives can only go so deep
you have penetrated the hardest of hearts
and now i cant help but return the favour

.remembering never/ the moment you've realized you are nothing to anyone.
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[01 Nov 2004|06:26pm]
[ music | it dies today ]

An emptiness I can never fill, a loss of all my being.
Carry away my lust for your taste.
A blue rose for my soiled life.
Reliving our moments over again, consumes my every day.
No more can I keep going on with this guilt.
You've taken everything that I care about.
Eating away at my own pathetic life, the skies have turned to blood on this very night.
I will see you again, and I tremble at the thought.

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[01 Nov 2004|06:29pm]
these blossoms, my beloved, are dying. they are dying
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[01 Nov 2004|06:33pm]
[ mood | calm ]
[ music | box car racer - there is ]

~better off~

And I'll drown...

There are things that me smile,
And one of them is you.
It's like you came and cast a spell on me.

I can't think of anyone else,
I can't even think of myself.
The one wish I had I used on you...

I'm just thinkin so hard,
I wished for you when I wished on that star.
I wanna die in your arms,
'Cause you're my falling star

There are times I have to smile,
Because I think of you.
It's like you came and stole my heart.

I can't think of anyone else,
I can't even think of myself.
The one wish I had I used on you...

I'm just thinkin so hard,
I wished for you when I wished on that star.
I wanna die in your arms,
'Cause you're my falling star

And I'll drown in your eyes,
And I'll choke from your kiss.
'Cause if I'm gonna die, I wanna die like this.......

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[01 Nov 2004|06:35pm]
i'd burn alive to keep you warm when you're alone.
shiver under blankets in the basement where our secrets sleep.
you pour the liquor on the staircase, girl.
pass the flask and close your eyes.
are you grieving for what we've become?
are you running from that room?
we set the evidence on fire.
we light cigarettes and chase out old regrets.
are you grieving for tonight?
i smell the sulfur on her skin (breathe in).
yesterday will be the end of you and i.
yesterday will be the end of shoulders where we rest our head.
now we grieve for tomorrow goes on without us.
now we breathe for no one else.
everything is broken slowly sinking under waiting for tomorrow
waiting for the grave to tell me that she's lonely.
open up and hold me slowly feel my body becoming one and only.
death is just an excuse to forget you.
now we run from ourselves.
hope lies not in the mirror.
i'll burn alive for you.

the bled/ porcelain hearts and hammers for teeth.
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[01 Nov 2004|06:36pm]
this might just be a waste of time
but there's no one i'd rather waste my time with than all of my best friends
so start the car up, we'll all take turns but not for the worst
we're all "hasbeens" and "never-were's"
and we're all in the back singing "Roxanne" just watching life pass us by
pass us by
as if we cared, enough to try and catch up
enough to make up for lost time
we've been down, e've been out, we've been hanging 'round
tip our glasses to having no direction
start the van, get me out of this one horse town, waste this night
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[01 Nov 2004|06:37pm]
[ mood | pensive ]

I'm so happy 'cause today
I've found my friends,
they're in my head
I'm so ugly but that's OK
'Cause so are you

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[01 Nov 2004|06:51pm]
Well I been watching while you been coughing, I've been drinking life while you been nausous, and so I drink to health while you kill yourself


You guys I really need lyrics about not doing drugs and shit when everyone around you is, please!!
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[01 Nov 2004|06:53pm]
All this time I've been sayin I'm sorry
But why should I be sorry for all of your mistakes
Why should I be sorry
I've had enough of you
Please forget my name
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[01 Nov 2004|06:53pm]
All this time I've been sayin I'm sorry
But why should I be sorry for all of your mistakes
Why should I be sorry
I've had enough of you
Please forget my name
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[01 Nov 2004|07:01pm]
[ mood | mellow ]
[ music | juliana theory ]

... i cant keep my hands from shaking

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[01 Nov 2004|07:03pm]
planes mistaken for stars <3 "bloody but unbowed"

and you're spitting bullets as the words trip off
of my tongue, and


you're spitting bullets and
everyone is chiseled with my name.


and you'll hang me on and you'll hang me from every word
you're a killing joke clo