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[13 May 2004|02:08am] I used to be in the palm of your hand Feeding off of everything you said, But I'm so tired of dealing with this shit, I love you, I hate it. I need to tell you, I'm trying to forget the past. Things as amazing as what we had... Were never meant to last. comments? 3 comments|post comment

[13 May 2004|06:42am] [ mood | blank ] [ music | Built To Spill ] It was in the march of the winter I turned seventeen That I bought those things I thought I would need And I wrote a letter to my family Said it's not your fault And you've been good to me It's just lately I've been feeling Like I don't belong Like the ground's not mine to walk upon And I've heard that music Echo through the house Where my grandmother drank By herself And I sat watching a flower As it was withering I was embarrassed by its honesty So I'd prefer to be remembered as a smiling face Not this fucking wreck That's taken its place So please forgive what I have done No you can't stay mad at the setting sun Cause we all get tired, I mean eventually There is nothing left to do but sleep But spring came bearing sunlight Those persuasive rays So I gave myself a few more days My salvation it came, quite suddenly When Justin spoke very plainly He said "Of course it's your decision, But just so you know, If you decide to leave, Soon I will follow" I wrote this for a baby Who has yet to be born My brother's first child I hope that womb's not too warm Cause it's cold out here And it'll be quite a shock To breathe this air To discover loss So I'd like to make some changes Before you arive So when your new eyes meet mine They won't see no lies Just love. Just love. I will be pure No, no, I know I will be pure Like snow, like gold Like snow, like gold Like snow, like snow Like gold, like gold, like gold 1 comment|post comment

[13 May 2004|07:10am] And you're so guilty it's disgusting 3 comments|post comment

[13 May 2004|08:53am] I am Lea, I'm new I love this community... you are welcomed to read my journal if you'd like, add me.. ill add you back :) -lea 1 comment|post comment

[13 May 2004|09:17am] [ mood | nauseated ] [ music | Wester : Flatlines and Failsafes ] but I still love to wash in your old bathwater love to think that you couldn't love another 2 comments|post comment

Wester : Again I've Written a Tragedy [13 May 2004|09:25am] [ mood | stressed ] [ music | Vendetta Red : Opiate Summer ] they say you see a light shine right before you die i see that light everytime i look into your eyes post comment

study hall... [13 May 2004|09:56am] [ mood | stressed ] when you've gone about things all wrong bury them here with a lifetime you would never forget in savoring sleep, what do you mean i toss and turn every where? i'll miss you when you're gone in pretending that you meant the world to me with that you'll call me a liar and in the making mistakes you'll rest incomplete (i'll be home) in graver mistakes, dear mom and dad i write you in the letter that states (i'll be moving on) when the new day's begun forget your son when he's out on your own when the hand reads 7:30 and your night begins to sink in the short but faster fall anxious but calm retort to a mirror that frames your face, baring the finest swell when the day begins to break, like the tears that run across your cheek stand straight and imagine you then in the things and the way they could have been when the thoughts they race across your chin here, in the neverend (i'll be home) in graver mistakes, dear mom and dad i write you in the letter that states (i'll be moving on) when the new day's begun forget your son when he's out on your own point your gun in another direction now that you've cried yourself to sleep point your gun in another direction now that you've cried yourself to sleep (before you walk home) peace and figuring will he be home again? (signal loss and stereo) with wide open windows, will she be waiting for? (the sounds surround the overpass) with severed arm placement, when the day's dark, old and dead (a dead man against you) we'll write her a letter with long time passing i'll be home to say i'll love you and i'll be moving on and i'll be bigger and i'll be bigger ~coheed and cambria. neverender post comment

[13 May 2004|11:01am] You said, "Tonight is a wonderful night to die." I asked you, "How you could tell?" You told me to look at the sky.. "Look at all those stars Look at how goddamn ugly the stars are.." Well, This is my temporary goodbye. I'm off to America again. For 2 weeks. -waves- See you guys around, take care. Kim 8 comments|post comment

[13 May 2004|12:02pm] does anyone know the url of the official bright eyes site please? 1 comment|post comment

what if? [13 May 2004|01:03pm] [ mood | fuck'd up ] [ music | smashing pum, ADORE ] if it wasn't for the tree's if it wasn't for the sand well if it wasn't for love then it was for the man. post comment

[13 May 2004|01:51pm] A really awesome emo band..PennyLane the role you care So save yourself sign off and act like your not there By the way don't force yourself to play That role of you care Does it make you cringe to see my name as it turns up on your screen? Still I wonder why it's such a shame that you'd rather go unseen CHORUS: You'd rather be, still I don't get it, should, I forget it? Should I press delete? Or maybe escape? But I can't escape the fact that still remains You waited for me Waited for me to leave You waited for me Waited for me to Now that we're all done and it's all through I can't believe my eyes that I ever made such a big mistake and waste up all my time So long, farewell let's say good-bye It's becoming a recurring theme Is there something there that you'd wanna hide? (CHORUS) All the messages and all the fake words typed online Did it mean a thing or were you leading me on? [repeat 1x] On and on, on and on, on and on [repeat 1x] post comment

[13 May 2004|01:56pm] Hey...does anyone on here have Limewire? I deleted Kazaa and started using this thing...but everytime I download a song, it doesn't go to my 'library' it just...disappears. Anyone know what I can do? Also, can you guys suggest any other program that you download music from? 5 comments|post comment

[13 May 2004|02:51pm] [ music | punchline - a sore back and a broken heart ] so i waited till i was alone and i called you on the phone, about to tell you that i love you so but you said you had to go. said you'd call me back at ten. i guess i'll never be yours 'cause i waited up till two. you never called me back, now that's a big fuck you. i said i'm sorry i've been acting weird. you just wanted to get me off the line. i said that i get nervous, but i guess that you don't want to be mine, so i camped out on my basement floor. didn't sleep in my bed so my back is sore, telephone right by my side. once said you liked me, but i guess you lied like you did when you said you'd call me back. i was so tired but i couldn't hit the sack. i guess you got more important things to do than talk to someone who is in love with you. 6 comments|post comment

[13 May 2004|03:11pm] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | Blood Brothers - Fuckings Greatest Hits ] you were the switch on the wall in the dark of the hall that im still fumbling for post comment

[13 May 2004|03:13pm] "...words that can't be spoken stream off my face..." post comment

[13 May 2004|03:56pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | ryan adams--wonderwall ] It’s not just the stage lights that make you sweat I’ve stopped obsessing over you, and now I only obsess over the last month without you in it. You, somehow, played a starring role in the movie of my misery. There was your famous “I forgot to call” speech, which you relayed brilliantly. You’re a better actor than I thought, I saw genuine shock in your eyes when I confronted you. It was kind of odd, though, because your absence stuck out like a sore thumb. The scenes keep getting repeated, and I think your eyes are lying, but I don’t know you well enough to know anymore. Maybe I’m the one lying, because I pretend like you have no effect on me, when all you really do is affect me tremendously. Now I’m going to stop my obsession and wish for a conclusion. With or without you, I just want the end credits to roll. Be careful of what you’re saying, you don’t want scathing reviews. You already have enough just from me. Break a leg – or maybe both. 3 comments|post comment

love's divine [13 May 2004|03:57pm] then the rainstorm came, over me and i felt my spirit _break i had lost all of my, belief you see and realized my mistake but time through a prayer, to me and all around me became still post comment

[13 May 2004|04:06pm] Today is just like all the others I'm not alright, I've cried my last tears I'm bleeding out my pain as you scream at me (tell me why?) You've got me waiting by myself I've never wanted more than this What will it take to get the truth? I'm on my knees Another page of I'm sorry's adressed to me Another story for the collection of memories Folded neatly, and I will never make the same mistake (But)You've got me waiting by myself I've never wanted more than this What will it take to get the truth? I'm on my knees You've got me waiting by myself I've never wanted more than this What will it take to get the truth? I'm on my knees and I will never make the same mistake and I will never make the same mistake and I will never make the same mistake and I will never make the same mistake You've got me waiting by myself I've never wanted more than this What will it take to get the truth? I'm on my knees You've got me waiting by myself I've never wanted more than this What will it take to get the truth? I'm on my knees 3 comments|post comment

[13 May 2004|04:21pm] request: whats your favorite, 'forever' lyrics examples: you have me, forever and after and Lets make this last forever, forever and ever.. - both by blink 182. it would be much apperiated :) 13 comments|post comment

nfg - this disaster [13 May 2004|04:39pm] are you aware of how much you complicate me? and are you aware your words suffocate me and don’t deny you’re talking behind my back to your friends and don’t deny one day you’ll need me need me all my life I’ve been looking for the answers to the questions u never asked and we never planned on this disaster when will I let it go so incomplete your stare is cold unlike anything I’ve ever seen so incomplete your body is tired and falling apart at the seams I won’t deny I took the part in never wanting you back I don’t deny one day you’ll need me need me post comment

[13 May 2004|05:07pm] I see a sense of wonder deep inside your eyes As we’re sparkling and twirling in the twilight And after three long years, I think that we both need this So we seal the deal in the parking lot with a kiss And in case you And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me You’re all kinds of beautiful as you end my day and you sweetly retire as stars chase you away I’d collapse to the grass, with your notes ringing in my head Let the rain fill my mouth, and in a couple hours I’ll be dead But all the while my lips are whistling our tune But the beauty lies in how you will revive me soon And in case you, and in case you And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me You’re all kinds of beautiful as you end my day and you sweetly retire as the stars chase you away And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me You’re all kinds of beautiful as you end my day and you sweetly retire as the stars chase you away And in case you were wondering, you are like a hurricane to me Your violence is beautiful, and your center sweet Now tell me this, do you know how we’d meet? And in case you were wondering, you are everything to me Sunsets and Car Crashes // The Spill Canvas 2 comments|post comment

[13 May 2004|05:23pm] [ mood | used ] [ music | Thursday- "The Dream" ] if someone asks you 'what's your definition of "leading someone on,"' just tell them to look at me. 2 comments|post comment

[13 May 2004|05:33pm] when you said forever i thought you meant forever, i guess its another book in the drop in. i guess its another lost note. i guess its only for, i guess its never going to be forever again. post comment

[13 May 2004|05:54pm] faded, away like the colour in a blue sky at the end of the day night falls, and the search begins for something something better today scream or cry the truth or lie i'm not sure they will save us this time i dont wanna be around when it all comes down to watch something beautiful die you say the only way is to run away your sick of me so you just cant stick around to hear me pleadin i'm pleadin since yo, i'm pathetic i know just cant stand here watch you go i'm runin after you, i'm runin after you helpless as my hands are tied i was pinned back so they opened wide in a theater all alone in the front row to watch something beautiful die scream or cry the truth or lie i'm not sure they will save us this time i dont wanna be around when it all comes down to watch something beautiful die you say the only way is to run away sick of me so you just cant stick around to hear me pleadin i'm pleadin since yo, i'm pathetic i know just cant stand here watch you go i'm runin after you i'm runin after you what happened to the things that we used to do you said its all the same and that you needed a change you left without good-bye and now i'm wonderin why... i dont think i wanna know... all the things he does better how the past just doesnt matter left me once this time will be the last time you say the only way is to run away sick of me so you just cant stick aournd to hear me pleadin i'm pleadin since yo, i'm pathetic i know just cant stand here watch you go i'm runin after you i'm runin after you look for the feeling that we lost where'd you have it last maybe if we retrace our steps but we cant find the path that led us here to where we stand faced up faced up watch it spin around now something beautifuls' dead something beautiful - cauterize 2 comments|post comment

[13 May 2004|06:02pm] i used to make the light shine for you the sun has left my shy velvet walls surround my sorrows ive sacraficed my pride youre giving up on me (giving up on me) ive laid, myself to sleep i know, you've played out everything in your mind and now youll throw it all away a shattered memory that you would stay through think and thin with me and when you feel the pain, im wishing i could stay how an i say i love you back? you never made me happy youve laid yourself to sleep (i never said this wouldnt hurt) you gave up everything (i never said id give it back) i know youll never change (i wont be good enough for you) i know youll make it through (ill never be around to see) and now you throw it all away a shattered memory that you would stay through think and thin with me your giving up on me (your giving up on me) your giving up on me silverstien :x: giving up 3 comments|post comment

Nothing's ever hurt so much for me than to let you go... [13 May 2004|06:21pm] [ music | Promise-Matchbook Romance ] "So What's another day when I can't bear these nights of thoughts of going on without you " -Dashboard Love is such an uncertainty. But I look into your big brown eyes, Seeing everything I want to be. Maybe you've fallen for someone else, Lost yourself again. But I promise you, I'll stick around. And when you fall down, Another broken heart, You know I'll be there, However much it tears me apart. Seeing you with anyone but me, It just can't be right. I guess I was the only one, For this, willing to fight. And this last touch of hope Is all that's kept me, From letting go of the rope. I now it's not much to hold on to, But it's all that I have. Since you left me with an empty hand, All that can replace you, A life-taking knife. Breaking me up inside, I only hope you could notice. See what you're doiing to me, See how great, Us two could be. Stop pretending you can't see me. Loss of breath without you, Asking me what's wrong. As if you didn't know, Life ended when I had to say goodbye. Acting as if you never, Stole my heart, then tore it apart. So fragile today, Now that you've broken away. Maybe you should finish what you start, Before you break a brand new heart... Well, I just want you to be happy. ...Well, I just want me to be dead. "you keep on pretending you have no clue. I'd kill for you and eat the flesh. Give you the heart and burn the rest." -Alkaline Trio 2 comments|post comment

[13 May 2004|06:43pm] [ music | Saves The Day - "Sell My Old Clothes, I'm Off To Heaven" ] There's a beautiful sky tonight and if you were by my side then we could share this but you are gone. So come at me with your moon and burn me in the stars 'cause nothing matters anymore. If I could only see you now for about an hour, maybe just a minute, just to ask what has he got that I don't have? Is it his brown eyes? I know blue eyes get boring but I'll wear dark glasses all the time. And hey, if you want me to, I'll take a knife to my own bright eyes. If I could only see you now for about an hour, maybe just a minute, just to ask what has he got that I don't have? Is it his brown eyes? Well I'll give you a thousand reasons that, tonight, you should grant me this one wish. Like the one year of my life that I gave to you and now you put me through hell. You break me up, yeah. Whoa I should hate you, but I can't replace you in my heart. Why am I so pathetic? I don't get it why you won't return my calls. Can't you look at me once? And please, if you've got a minute, enjoy this lonely sky with me. It'll swallow us whole if we only let it. If I could only see you now for about an hour, maybe just a minute, just to ask what has he got that I don't have? Is it his brown eyes? Well I'll give you a thousand reasons that, tonight, you should grant me this one wish. Like the one year of my life that I gave to you, yeah. Now you put me through hell. You break me up, yeah. If this sky's going to eat us, then I'd like to be digested into a million pieces with you. I'd love to be scattered to hell with you. To hell with you. To hell with you. 2 comments|post comment

[13 May 2004|06:53pm] [ mood | contemplative ] All Hail the Heartbreaker xx The Spill Canvas I had a notion that you'd make me change my ways My bad habits would be gone in a matter of days I had the feeling you'd open up my eyes To a whole new world that has since been in disguise But that day will most likely never come for me And it's just my luck to get stuck to everything you are So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures And over analyze your words The truth is that I've never fallen so hard It's taking everything in me just to forget your sweater so far I had the notion that you'd make me forget the world But your undecisive mind tells me that you are just another girl I had a feeling that those looks you gave me were real Well what if I ripped your heart apart at the seams? Maybe then you'd know how I feel But that day with most likely never come for me And it's just my luck getting stuck to everything you are So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures And over analyze your words The truth is that I've never fallen so hard It's taking everything in me just to forget your sweater so far I can honestly say that I've never ever ever felt this way Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin These are the parts of your body that cause my comatose to begin I can honestly say that I've never ever ever felt this way Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin These are the parts of your body that cause my comatose to begin I will sleep another day I don't really need to anyway What's the point when my dreams are infected with words you used to say? I will breathe in a moment As long as I keep my distance I wouldn't want to go messing anything up So don't go worrying about me It's not like I think about you constantly So maybe I do... But that shouldn't affect your life anymore I knew it the moment you walked into the door So don't go worrying about me It's not like I think about this constantly So maybe I do... But that shouldn't affect your life anymore I knew it the moment you walked into the door And I'll let you get the best of me 'Cause there's nothing else that I do well And I'll let you get the best of me 'Cause there's nothing else that I do well I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker I guess that's the way this one's gonna go I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker You've got me down on my knees And I proclaim "All hail the heartbreaker" post comment

I <3 these lyrics [13 May 2004|07:06pm] This portrait of karma, crafted in accident text book seduction, minus the text in the language of ghosts and so we ran, like the wolves were biting, the inhibitions of their prey kept them from screaming "scratch my back and I will stab you in yours" so I chose to live this life alone,[without the teeth marks],but I predict, I'll have to sink my fangs in someone else's heart to heal my own. circle completes the square. post comment

[13 May 2004|07:49pm] and everytime i scratch my nails down someone elses back i hope you feel it... can you feel it? 1 comment|post comment

[13 May 2004|07:58pm] [ mood | content ] shut up and swallow my pride for me 1 comment|post comment

[13 May 2004|07:58pm] [ mood | melancholy ] [ music | AFI ] I watch the stars as they fall from the sky I held a fallen star and it wept for me, dying I feel the fallen stars encircle me now, as they cry post comment

[13 May 2004|07:59pm] [ mood | bored ] though I like your pretty eyes better blackened post comment

[13 May 2004|08:02pm] Why am I alone with no one to be found? Looks like they know what's best for me Why doesn't anybody like me, I don't understand? Guess I'll have to crawl inside and I don't know why I'm sitting by myself, when the problem isn't mine. post comment

[13 May 2004|08:03pm] [ mood | creative ] As long as your mouth is shut you'll still be fuckin beautiful. Pack your shit and leave, and take my memories of her with you. (I don't need to know) ..And take her fucking with you 2 comments|post comment

[13 May 2004|08:06pm] [ mood | full ] my chance to tell you I love you but I've waited too long post comment

Love sick [13 May 2004|08:13pm] [ mood | crushed ] Does anyone know any songs relating to liking a guy so much that you can't stop thinking about him, and you don't think he's 100% sure that you like him, but he kinda knows, and he kinda likes you too? Sorry if that's not the easiest to understand. Please help! 2 comments|post comment

the used-on my own* [13 May 2004|08:26pm] [ mood | weird ] [ music | my immortal ] see all those people on the ground wasting time i try to hold it all inside but just for tonight the top of the world sitting here wishing the things I've become that something is missing maybe I... but what do I know and now it seems that i have found nothing at all I want to hear your voice out loud slow it down without it all I'm choking on nothing it's clear in my head and I'm screaming for something knowing nothing is better than knowing at all On My Own help!!! i have a crush on this kid...but i cant seem to get him to talk to me..hes one of my friends brothers and hes a little older ( but not too old for me ) so he probably just thinks of me as one of his little sisters friends..how do i get him to change his opinion? i've pretty much done everything i can...he supposably thinks im pretty and his mom thinks we should go out lol..so what do i do?..thanks ;) 2 comments|post comment

the used-on my own* [13 May 2004|08:26pm] [ mood | weird ] [ music | my immortal ] see all those people on the ground wasting time i try to hold it all inside but just for tonight the top of the world sitting here wishing the things I've become that something is missing maybe I... but what do I know and now it seems that i have found nothing at all I want to hear your voice out loud slow it down without it all I'm choking on nothing it's clear in my head and I'm screaming for something knowing nothing is better than knowing at all On My Own help!!! i have a crush on this kid...but i cant seem to get him to talk to me..hes one of my friends brothers and hes a little older ( but not too old for me ) so he probably just thinks of me as one of his little sisters friends..how do i get him to change his opinion? i've pretty much done everything i can...he supposably thinks im pretty and his mom thinks we should go out lol..so what do i do?..thanks ;) 1 comment|post comment

[13 May 2004|08:33pm] [ mood | exhausted ] This life isn't a rehearsal.... 4 comments|post comment

[13 May 2004|08:51pm] ______: haha today when I saw you I was gonna grab you by your belt loops and pick you up over my shoulder and run you to your class so you wouldnt be late but grace was like right there and she would of been mad at me :-( It's things like that... that make me want to tell you How I feel... How I feel more for you then just a friend I don't think I can keep my silence for any longer Why didn't I say anything before... before her... 2 comments|post comment

sometimes I want to die. [13 May 2004|08:52pm] [ mood | depressed ] And everywhere I go And everyone I see Somehow Almost sets me f r e e And the space where we meet Is different from the rest And I just can't seem to forget that... And you were at the start And now you are the end And you left me with nothing to defend I need the voice of a good friend Can't stop myself from laughing No matter how sad These things can be 1 comment|post comment

Cecilia And The Silhouette Saloon [13 May 2004|08:54pm] death distills the camouflage from our dance. death inverts the red from romance. -The Blood Brothers post comment

[13 May 2004|09:00pm] [ mood | blank ] If it's happening, then it's happened to more than you What is it, what's haunting you? post comment

[13 May 2004|09:04pm] when i'm with you i feel like i could d i e... and that would be alright post comment

[13 May 2004|09:15pm] [ music | Billy Talent ] Lies...make it better Lies...are forever Lies...to come home to Lies...to wake up to Lies...from the alter Lies...make ya falter Lies...keep your mouth fed Lies...till your death bed...lies. Lies will come back to hunt you... bullet proof your limousine Lies will come back to hunt you... hit and run a broken dream! 1 comment|post comment

[13 May 2004|09:22pm] Matchbook Romance-->Playing For Keeps It's so simple and complicated. The way you can crush me. No matter how much this hurts, this is through. I get as far as your door before i get caught. I make up excuses just to touch you and I can't stop, I can't stop. So are we playing for keeps. The days begin and they don't end for weeks. Leave me left out of anyting to do with you. Excuse me while I fall apart. Don't flatter yourself sweetheart. Let me take the wheel and I'll crash this car. Do you have to make this so hard? You're so good at pretending everything is alright. You're as welcome as cancer, but my door is always unlocked. So are we playing for keeps. The days begin and they don't end for weeks. Leave me left out of anyting to do with you. Excuse me while I fall apart. Don't flatter yourself sweetheart. Let me take the wheel and I'll crash this car. Do you have to make this so hard? You're so good You're so good You're so good You're so good So are we playing for keeps. The days begin and they don't end for weeks. Leave me left out of anyting to do with you. Excuse me while I fall apart. Don't flatter yourself sweetheart. Let me take the wheel and I'll crash this car. Do you have to make this so hard? You're so good You're so good <3 post comment

way away [13 May 2004|09:24pm] [ mood | sleepy ] i dunno...i like this song. i think i'm breaking out i'm gonna leave you now there's nothing for me here it's all the same and even though i know that everything might go go downhill from here, i'm not afraid way away away from here i'll be way away away so you can see how it feels to be alone and not believe how it feels to be alone and not believe anything 1 comment|post comment

[13 May 2004|09:42pm] i love this song & band. northstar - the pornographers daughter i can't leave with words like these They'll break the bones that hold up my sleeves I've got to tie her so high her breath freezes before she speaks, but this bus just won't go far enough So I'll strap my face to a homemade bomb and blow the bus stop through the parking lot We'll celebrate like we were free I know a place where we can both get laced Take some time to learn about your face about bawling and bell curves about strength from inhalers and I'll take the fifth and you can just sit and I'll watch from a distance while you open it This is how I will keep her..in pieces..she's a keeper And I'll be holding my breath with the best.. my breath with the best intentions This is not for me, your perfume struggles perfectly it wraps around and screams at me, "My hero tastes like plastic, he's elastic and now he's dead" [x2] My straight faced grin is the first to leave hand in hand with the queen of tragedy Why do i hurt just on purpose? I guess I lack a purpose.. So smile like a child sitting in the sea forget about what's in the water and just focus in on me I'll be the phantom of the opera I'll be the lantern you blow out first.. And I'll be holding my breath with the best.. my breath with the best intentions This is not for me, your perfume struggles perfectly it wraps around and screams at me, "My hero tastes like plastic, he's elastic and now he's dead" [x2] And I'll be the reason you'll leave this city..(This is not for me) post comment

To think, I haven't cared that much about what I've said in years. [13 May 2004|09:48pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | "Better Late Than Never"-Counterfit ] tight. "Here Is Gone"-Goo Goo Dolls You and I've got something But it's all and then it's nothing to me. And I got my defenses When it comes to your intentions for me. And we wake up in the breakdown Of the things we never thought we could be... I'm not the one who broke you I'm not the one you should fear, What do you got to move you darling? I thought I lost you somewhere, But you were never really ever there at all. And I want to get free Talk to me I can feel you falling. And I wanted to be All you need Somehow here is gone. I have no solution To the sound of this pollution in me And I was not the answer So forget you ever thought it was me... I'm not the one who broke you I'm not the one you should fear, What do you got to move you darling? I thought I lost you somewhere But you were never really ever there at all. And I want to get free Talk to me I can feel you falling. And I wanted to be All you need Somehow here is gone. And I don't need the fallout Of all the past that's here between us And I'm not holding on And all your lies weren't enough to keep me here. And I want to get free Talk to me I can feel you falling. And I wanted to be All you need Somehow here is gone. And I want to get free Talk to me I can feel you falling I know it's out there I know it's out there I can feel you falling I know it's out there I know it's out there Somehow here is gone. I Remember Those Times I Opened My Mouth In The Hope Of Saying Something Clever. post comment

[13 May 2004|09:49pm] [ music | _razorblade kiss ] and i die trying just to keep myself from kissing you `*. post comment

[13 May 2004|10:02pm] [ mood | confused ] "I can't take it anymore When I'm with you I feel you, I feel like I'm nothing I feel like I'm nothing That's why I flinch when you come touch me That's why I never touch you I never even think about it 'Cause when I start to, I just reminds me that I'm not good enough." 3 comments|post comment

[13 May 2004|10:10pm] and somewhere inbetween carrabba and skiba is where i'll write my songs. i'm sick of singing the ones you want. and how you rip on my friends that scream "we appreciate brand new!" out a car window speeding, past midnight, on US1. it's what we want. it's how we live. we drive to bright eyes and spitalfield and fall asleep to something corporate. and when worse comes to worse let morrissey and the cure get us through. and may buddy holly always be our definition of rock n' roll. and if we must cry, let it be to the tunes of matchbook and postal... 4 comments|post comment

Fallout Boy [13 May 2004|10:12pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | No Doubt : Don't Speak ] drink down that gin and kerosene and come spit on bridges with me just to keep us warm post comment

[13 May 2004|10:15pm] [ music | someday - the strokes ] Let me draw the blinds for you You can watch the sunset from the bed In your hospital room Until you're sleeping And I'm sure that I don't understand How I found a love so pure Soley Dedicated To Dana <3 : *Copeland - Take Care* post comment

and so it seems, i wasnt so special [13 May 2004|10:22pm] 1 comment|post comment

lets make this moment a crime - the format [13 May 2004|10:34pm] [ mood | sad ] we've just got to take our time it's like nothing really matters, so lets make this moment a crime i know, i know you're left behind but ill do my best to feel broke down its been a minute, a second, ill wait for you to make a sound but i know, i know youre taking time (pre-chorus) maybe its just too late, i got to get away everything feels the same, ive got to get away tell me its not too late (chorus) on and on and on you wait and oh the days they fade away and all the nights they've never felt the same if i was wrong then i was wrong and on and on and on and on the things we do are never going to change well you havent got a lot to say but you never want to stop you always want to feel this way i know i know youre taking time (pre chorus) (chorus) we wait forever, if ever and youre too hip to saying never ill never get it, oh i shouldnt sweat it not like it matters, its over, yeah at least till you come over so much for shutters, we're living under covers explains my situation w/my group of friends, being torn apart. it completely sucks and its so depressing. i guess me and my some of my girl friends started drifting from them and hanging out w/other people, now things are different, and i miss them so much. * well now that i've updated you on things u dont care about... post comment

[13 May 2004|10:42pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | penny lanenot waving but, drowning ] Everything I thought I knew and all that's certain about you MAIN VERSE: Was it me and my mistake? Your words your touch they hesitate I reach to grab a hold of you but nothing's there Have I waited here too long? Is my grip on you too strong? Please say you'll never let me go I'm losing you CHORUS: Don't let us be another faded memory As flowers die and letters tear we've still have made it here So say something Save me from this desperate plea I can't do it all alone I need you here with me Why do you act like I'm not here? What is it exactly that you fear? (MAIN VERSE) (CHORUS) Was it me and my mistake? Your words your touch they hesitate I reach to grab a hold of you but nothing's there Have I waited here too long? Is my grip on you too strong? Please say you'll never let me go (repeat 7x) 4 comments|post comment

[13 May 2004|10:48pm] Hey love, What’s it like to know I made a mistake? I don’t know how it feels for you, but for me, it sucks. I think I might have given up the best thing I’ve ever had. I’d do anything for you; you make me feel so fucking special. The reason I called it quits so easy because I was scared, I was scared that for once in my life I would fall in love. I was so afraid I’d fall to hard for you and you wouldn’t be there to catch me fall. But now, I realize what a mistake I’ve made. I miss you so much it hurts. All I think about is you. When I’m sleeping, all I dream about is you. You’re haunting me. I’m so stupid. I didn’t have patience. And you’ve already moved on. You said you’d wait for me. I see you in the hallways with a smile upon your face, flirting; each time with a different girl. I can say how I’m over you, and I can pretend I don’t care, but I do. And that’s what makes it so hard. I care so damn much, you have no idea. When you’re around, I laugh a little louder so you’ll glance at me; the slightest look in my direction makes my heart jump. Why did I do this to myself? I was the one who thought it wouldn’t work, and look where I am now. I see you with her, like I’ve seen her with him, and it seems like she makes you happy. Oh Dear Lord how I wishes she doesn’t make you happy. I want to be the one who makes you happy. I want to be the one you want; the only one you want. Please come back to me. I need you. Terribly. post comment

why don't we hit 'restart'.. [13 May 2004|11:00pm] [ mood | nostalgic ] [ music | Tiger Lilly - Matchbook Romance ] Why does tonight have to end..? Why don't we hit 'restart' and pause it at our favourite parts? We'll skip the goodbyes.. 1 comment|post comment

there are no drugs to escape from feeling numb.. [13 May 2004|11:04pm] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | The End With You - Box Car Racer ] I've been up all night long Counting days that all went wrong I open my bedroom window I wish this pain was gone There are no useful drugs To escape from feeling numb I remember an amazing birthday.. I remember when I was young 1 comment|post comment

[13 May 2004|11:12pm] im goign to a dashboard/thrice/get up kids concert tomorrow night!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaahhh im soooooo excited, has anyone ever gone to one of their shows??are they good!!!?? 9 comments|post comment

[13 May 2004|11:14pm] [ music | the movielife- kelly ] I Got Punched In The Nose For Sticking My Face In Other Peoples Business - boys night out You and me You know that we were always funny in a Car Crash sort of way Watch me bruise and bleed for you I always knew that I'd end up dead today.. today So I'm going to tear down the sky and all the dull stars tonight So I can stay hidden and live in the black. I hate being famous for my hits and never for my misses Bloody kisses from poison lips, leave lovers dead in ditches. So, pass another round around for the kids Who have nothing left to lose and for those souls old and sold out by the soles of my shoes then drag my corpse through the cities I never got to visit. Promise don't let me miss it. You and me You know that we were always funny in a Car Crash sort of way Watch me bruise and bleed for you I always knew that I'd end up dead today Baby, the blood's already been spilled and no amount of crying will wash the red from your guilty hands but, what if I promised to hold on long enough to suffer? 1 comment|post comment

rest assured, its the last lie. [13 May 2004|11:34pm] [ music | yeah for football - allendale ] Moneen No Better Way To Show Your Love Then A Set Of Broken Legs> ----- I want to break my legs just so I won't forget to be nice to you. I am not me. Think about jumping backwards into a pool of salt and knives, now that's real pain Not like your heartbreaks and tears. I can't believe that was me. I am not me. I used to say, "I can't let me be who I am" I am not me. I am alone with you. I'll stay alone with you. Let's try this theory of nothing means nothing. If nothing meant nothing, then why did it hurt you so much? I want to break my legs just so I won't forget to be nice to you. There's so much left to say, the hardest thing to say is that I'm sorry - - - > don't say you're sorry 'cause sorry means something it wrong - moneen 2 comments|post comment

[13 May 2004|11:44pm] [ mood | creative ] [ music | rooney ] It’s not just the stage lights that make you sweat I’ve stopped obsessing over you, and now I only obsess over the last month without you in it. You, somehow, played a starring role in the movie of my misery. There was your famous “I forgot to call” speech, which you relayed brilliantly. You’re a better actor than I thought, I saw genuine shock in your eyes when I confronted you. It was kind of odd, though, because your absence stuck out like a sore thumb. The scenes keep getting repeated, and I think your eyes are lying, but I don’t know you well enough to know anymore. Maybe I’m the one lying, because I pretend like you have no effect on me, when all you really do is affect me tremendously. Now I’m going to stop my obsession and wish for a conclusion. With or without you, I just want the end credits to roll. Be careful of what you’re saying, you don’t want scathing reviews. You already have enough just from me. Break a leg – or maybe both. 9 comments|post comment

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