[04 Jan 2004|12:05am] [ mood | confused ] [ music | coheed and cambria - a favor house atlantic ] "sometimes you love someone so much you have to numb yourself to it, otherwise it might kill you..." does anyone know what that quote is from? i don't know if it's from a song or a movie or what but i heard it somewhere a long time ago and it's been in my profile forever because i love it. so if you know please tell me cause i've been wondering about it for awhile now. thnx. 4 comments|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|12:18am] written by prince. performed by sinead o'connor. covered by me first and the gimme gimmes emo? maybe not. but great song and great lyrics none the less. it's been seven hours and fifteen days since you took your love away i go out every night and sleep all day since you took your love away since you been gone i can do whatever i want i can see whomever i choose i can eat my dinner in a fancy restaurant but nothing nothing can take away these blues cause nothing compares nothing compares to you it's been so lonely without you here like a bird without a song nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling tell me baby where did i go wrong i could put my arms around every boy i see but they'd only remind me, remind me of you i went to the doctor n'guess what he told me guess what he told me he said boy you better try to have fun no matter what you do but he's a fool cause nothing compares nothing compares to you all the flowers that you planted, mama in the back yard all died when you went away i know that living with you baby was sometimes hard but i'm willing to give it another try nothing compares nothing compares to you 1 comment|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|12:20am] sorry, that wasn't all supposed to be bold =/ post comment

[04 Jan 2004|12:23am] [ music | Brand New ] Yeeha! my new icon I made is the shit! anyway here is a song for ye fellars. i am heaven sent, dont you dare forget. i am all you've ever wanted, what all the other boys all promised. sorry i told. i just needed you to know. i think in decimals and dollars. i am the cause to all your problems, shelter from cold. we are never alone. coordinate brain and mouth. then ask me whats it like to have myself so figured out. i wish i knew.. i hope this song starts a craze. the kind of song that ignites the airwaves. the kind of song that makes people glad to be where they are, with whoever they're there with. this is war. every line is about, who i dont wanna write about anymore. hope you come down with something they cant diagnose, dont have the cure for. holding on to your grudge. oh its so hard to have someone to love. and keeping quiet is hard. cuz you cant keep a secret if it never was a secret to start. at least pretend you didnt wanna get caught.. we're concentrated on falling apart. we were contenders, we're throwing the fight i was just wanna believe, i just wanna believe, i just wanna believe, in us. Oh, we're so c-c-c-c-c-controversial. we are entirely smooth. we admit to the truth, we are the best at what we do. and these are the words you wish you wrote down. this is the way you wish your voice sounds, hansome and smart. oh my tongue's the only muscles on my body that works harder than my heart. and its all from watching tv, and from speeding up my breathing. wouldnt stop if i could. oh it hurts to be this good. your holding on to your grudge. oh it hurts to always have to be honest with the one that you love. oh, so let it go.. we're concentrated on falling apart. we were contenders, we're throwing the fight i was just wanna believe, i just wanna believe, i just wanna believe. we're concentrated on falling apart. we were contenders, we're throwing the fight i was just wanna believe, i just wanna believe, i just wanna believe, in us. this is the grace that only we can bestow. this is the price you pay for loss of control. this is the break in the bend, this is the closest of calls. this is the reason your alone, this is the rise and the fall. we're concentrated on falling apart. we were contenders, we're throwing the fight i was just wanna believe, i just wanna believe, i just wanna believe. we're concentrated on falling apart. we were contenders, we're throwing the fight i was just wanna believe, i just wanna believe, i just wanna believe, in us. 1 comment|post comment

My lil poem [04 Jan 2004|12:23am] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | Akaline Trio- Radio ] well heres something i wrote...it sucks major ass but yeah Try to sit still Try not to go insane Try not to pick up a blade Try to think good thoughts Try not to think of him Try not to think of how he dumped you 3 days before your birthday Try to believe he cared Try not to think of how your not perfect Try not to think of how ugly you are Try not to think of who he dumped you for Try to believe he loved you at once Try not to think of what the truth is post comment

Cause now that I can see you, I don't think you're worth a second chance [04 Jan 2004|12:24am] [ mood | curious ] [ music | "Mixtape"-Brand New ] Yeah..I'm sorry, I have a request. Here's the situation: We'd been together once before, but then we broke up due to reasons that were pretty retarded, but then we got back together, I told him "You hurt me once, please don't do it again", his response was "i wouldn't ever" so silly me, I believed him. We're together for like...6 or 7 months and then recently he starts getting weird and always busy, and I'm always the one who offers to leave so he can deal with his stuff, so it goes on for a week or two, and then finally we break up. It sucked. I dont need lyrics that spell out that situation PERFECTLY, or even ones that have to do with all of it, I'd just like some lyrics that when you think of the situation above your eyes pop out and you're like "HEY THAT WORKS!" any would be nice really, and all will be appreciated. Thanks very much :) Pump Up The Jams. 6 comments|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|12:27am] This Hurts:by me A cruse, that was left on my lips, to forever hurt. Razor blades pushing into my spine, trying to make me perfect this time. My spine bleeds crimson-rust. I'm no longer able to trust. I've lost all i had when you went away. I wish someone would come and save me some day. Just want to feel so not alone. To have someone to talk to on the phone. Feeling like every step, brings me closer to death. Every breath, shorter than the rest. For you i'd give the best. Why is it, i can't let the past be the past? An just make the future last. Boys will be the death of me, put me out of my misery. Your face will be burned behind my eyes. To hanut me for the rest of my lives. An everytime you walk by my grave, my body will bleed...away. post comment

[04 Jan 2004|12:49am] Your my saturday I want you in the worst way. Your what I look forward to, Theres only one thing I want to do. I love you more than words can say, Your my saturday. 4 comments|post comment

Excuse me, while I fall apart. [04 Jan 2004|12:56am] [ mood | awake ] [ music | Straylight Run ] Playing For Keeps - Matchbook Romance It's so simple and complicated. The way you can crush me. No matter how much this hurts, this is through. I get as far as your door before i get caught. I make up excuses just to touch you and I can't stop, I can't stop. So are we playing for keeps. The days begin and they don't end for weeks. Leave me left out of anything to do with you. Excuse me while I fall apart. Don't flatter yourself sweetheart. Let me take the wheel and I'll crash this car. Why do you have to make this so hard? You're so good at pretending everything is alright. You're as welcome as cancer, but my door is always unlocked. So are we playing for keeps. The days begin and they don't end for weeks. Leave me left out of anything to do with you. Excuse me while I fall apart. Don't flatter yourself sweetheart. Let me take the wheel and I'll crash this car. Why do you have to make this so hard? You're so good at pretending everything is alright. I could use some friends... 15 comments|post comment

[Up here alone] [04 Jan 2004|01:13am] [ mood | bored ] This is a song I wrote. Leave comments on what you think please! Good or bad. Kissing Goodbye We say our last goodbye's Underneath this lonely sky Wondering what went wrong Where our love has gone As I stare into your eyes I ask for one last kiss You stare at your feet and reply "I don't think I should do this" I raise my hand and place it upon your cheek You place your hands on my hips Leaning closer towards me Our lips softly pressed together This is our kiss goodbye Kissing goodbye to the love for eachother Your lips peel away from mine Then you kiss my cheek one last night We said our last goodbye's Underneath the lonely, starry sky We both wondered where it went wrong Where the love has gone This was our kiss goodbye post comment

[Up here alone] [04 Jan 2004|01:13am] [ mood | bored ] This is a song I wrote. Leave comments on what you think please! Good or bad. Kissing Goodbye We say our last goodbye's Underneath this lonely sky Wondering what went wrong Where our love has gone As I stare into your eyes I ask for one last kiss You stare at your feet and reply "I don't think I should do this" I raise my hand and place it upon your cheek You place your hands on my hips Leaning closer towards me Our lips softly pressed together This is our kiss goodbye Kissing goodbye to the love for eachother Your lips peel away from mine Then you kiss my cheek one last time We said our last goodbye's Underneath the lonely, starry sky We both wondered where it went wrong Where the love has gone This was our kiss goodbye 2 comments|post comment

For You To Notice... [04 Jan 2004|02:00am] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | The Ataris- In This Diaru ] I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head where I would impress you with every single word I said. Would come out insightful or brave or smooth or charming and you'd want to call me And I would be there every time you'd need me I'd be there every time... But for now I'll look so longingly waiting... For you to want me, for you need me, for you to notice me 2 comments|post comment

nostalgia fades [04 Jan 2004|02:04am] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | saosin - seven years ] new in the crew Taking on seven years the holy ghost had left alone Test my arms, kick like crazy And Ive been trying way to long only if he could push his way off to fight you im sorry, im sorry, im not sure Getting off my chest the story ends I would find a way without you (tell him his eyes see too clear) That mistake was gold I know that without you its something that I could never do that was why staple the eyes and seven dates for me to sell machines and tear on seven years you assured me that Id be fine if I complied only push the way off to fight you Im sorry Im sorry im not sure getting my chest the story now ends I would find a way without you (tell him his eyes see too clear) Dont treat me Im to blame Dont treat me like I ever accused you post comment

Such An Amazing Song [04 Jan 2004|02:10am] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | Yule Shoot your Eye Out- fall Out Boy ] I love this song so much! Seven years- By Saosin Taking on seven years the holy ghost had left alone Test my arms, kick like crazy And Ive been trying way to long only if he could push his way off to fight you im sorry, im sorry, im not sure Getting off my chest the story ends I would find a way without you (tell him his eyes see too clear) That mistake was gold I know that without you its something that I could never do that was why staple the eyes and seven dates for me to sell machines and tear on seven years you assured me that Id be fine if I complied only push the way off to fight you Im sorry Im sorry im not sure getting my chest the story now ends I would find a way without you (tell him his eyes see too clear) Dont treat me Im to blame Dont treat me like I ever accused you <3 Meg post comment

[04 Jan 2004|02:30am] hey everyone just wanted to let you all know i changed my username from heroesfail to brightside later days : de post comment

-This song holds sentimental value. . . [04 Jan 2004|02:48am] [ mood | touched ] [ music | "Back 2 Good" -Matchbox 20 ] "Back 2 Good" -Matchbox 20 It's nothing, it's so normal you Just stand there I could say so much But I don't go there cuz I don't want to I was thinking if you were lonely Maybe we could leave here and no one would know At least not to the point that we would think so Everyone here, knows everyone here is thinking about Somebody else It's best if we all keep it under our heads I couldn't tell, if anyone here was feeling the way I do But I'm lonely now, and I don't know how To get it back to good This don't mean that, you own me This ain't no good, in fact it's phony as hell But things worked out just like you wanted too If you see me out you don't know me Try to turn your head, try to give me some room To figure out just what I'm going to do And everyone here, hates everyone here for doing just like They do It's best if we all keep this quiet instead And I couldn't tell, why everyone here was doing me like They do But I'm sorry now, and I don't know how To get it back to good Everyone here, is wondering what it's like to be with Somebody else Everyone here's to blame, everyone here Gets caught up in the pleasure of the pain, everyone hides Shades of shame, but looking inside we're the same, we're The same And we're all grown now, but we don't know how To get it back to good Everyone here, knows everyone here is thinking 'bout Somebody else It's best if we all keep this under our heads I couldn't tell, if anyone here was feeling the way I do But it's over now, and I don't know how, it's over now There's no getting back to good post comment

[04 Jan 2004|02:57am] Drowning in your happiness:by me Haven't seen the stars shine, the way they did when you were mine. Sitting outside listening to our song, singing along. As little white puffs escaped passed my lips. Into the black abyss. I knew then you were something special, something beautiful. Every smile was real. You make me feel... love. The kind you can only dream of. One day, you broke that heart. You ripped it apart. Laying on the ground sobbing trying to mend, a heart that was never meant to be broken. I wanted help, i made my plea. You turned away from me. Months later I heard your heart shatter, I asked "what's the matter?" you replied "she broke my heart will you please help, i don't think we were meant to be" I heard you plea, and just like you did me... i walked away, it doesn't matter....you recoverd quickly anyway. Now i'm stuck with the lonlieness, while your drowning in your happiness. post comment

[04 Jan 2004|03:03am] [ mood | discontent ] [ music | the cure--friday, i'm in love ] hey--im new. here's something i wrote...please comment/criticize, whatever. the true way to see someone can't be like this the spherical stain wipes away the mistake leaving an even bigger mark the blemish of the heart is impossible to find but can't you feel it? i always could. love is a crazy lie suck you in, throw you out but we return each time. it's not enough anymore to say that i hate you. 2 comments|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|04:10am] Were hiding what we don’t feel is this what we want, or what works for us right now your lips excite me, but novelty wears off and the emptiness in my chest lingers on is this what you tell yourself “she’s good enough for now” I’m sorry to be your last option but id rather be alone this half-ass feeling doesn’t satisfy me I don’t know how to make this right we had our first kiss, and it will have to be our last just because you could settle for a girl like me doesn’t mean I’ll settle for a boy like you I’m so convenient I should have known better blame it on my bad luck, broken heart. i wrote that in what seems like a heartbeat. please comment or criticize, it would mean a lot to me. thank you. post comment

[04 Jan 2004|04:11am] carve another notch in your bedpost, whore. lay back and tally up the score. count the number of hearts you've ripped from chests. then put your pretty eyes to rest. they've had a long day of looking for love in all the wrong places. putting to much stock in pretty faces. when will you learn there is a difference between lust and love? 4 comments|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|06:14am] my friends like to go through my journal during school and they enjoy this so i thought id see what you all say. its not really a song or a poem; just a short composition of.. feelings i guess. just to let you all know, its definitely not the best thing in the world sitting in your car, you look like an angel in the moonlight. but i know theres a wolf under that sheepskin, waiting to tear my heart from my chest. your hand slides over and touches mine. tell me what you're thinking.. no, just tell me what i want to hear. promise me the sun, the moon, the stars in the sky. promise me endless nights and tell me every lie of forever. i'm just going to sit here and look at you; i'm going to buy every word you say. keep talking, i need to remember you when you're gone. if i could, i'd drive this car into the ocean so i could say that i loved you last, that you never broke my heart. let me stay here with you one last time. we knew it would end like this.. love is wasted on the hopeless 3 comments|post comment

constellation [04 Jan 2004|07:31am] some things can never be explained why every sky still looks the same and i wonder how my world would look without you some things can never be explained like how our scars remain the same and i wonder how the sky would look without my star sleep seems a dream away and a year too late words that can't be spoken stream off my face i want to be selfish you are my everything some things can never be explained why does your love remain unchanged cause i know it wouldn't be the same without you sleep seems a dream away and a year too late words that can't be spoken stream off your face please don't forget my name and take me with you when you leave i've got a lot to lose i've got to let it go please don't forget my name. The Juliana Theory-Constellation post comment

Autumns Monologue [04 Jan 2004|07:31am] Oh why cant I be what you need a new improved version of me but i'm nothing so good no i'm nothing just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs of violence of love and of sorrow i beg for just one more tomorrow where you hold me down fold me in deep deep deep in the heart of your sins I break in two over you I break in two And each piece of me dies And only you can give the breath of life But you dont see me, you dont... here i'm in between darkness and light bleached and blinded by these nights where im tossing and tortured til dawn by you, visions of you then youre gone the shock lifts the red from my face when i hear someone's taking my place how could love be so thoughtless, so cruel when all, all that i did was for you i break in two over you i break in two and each piece of me dies and only you can give the breath of life but you dont see me you dont.. i break in two over you i break in two and each piece of me dies and only you can give the breath of life but you dont see me you don't... i break in two over you i break in two over you, over you i break in two i would break in two for you now you see me now you don't now you need me now you don't From Autumn to Ashes-Autumns Monologue aim-isassayi 3 comments|post comment

..letting go of fear...livings overrated [04 Jan 2004|09:41am] [ mood | okay ] [ music | straylight run-a slow descent ] So great lyrics that couldn't relate anymore to my situation. Enjoy and comment please it starts with you because you say you're so easy to talk to and if you want me then i'll run with every word, and i'll race anything for you. one plus one equals two buckets of rain pouring through the holes, and draining me again. still waiting to hear from you. still wanting to be with you. speak, the rhythm flows, breathe to keep me warm. kissing me, with intentions for kissing you. as i close my eyes and swim, i can feel the sun burning through crystal clear. it's almost been one year. elementary steps can lead us to peace within the core of our hearts. we met on a poor night, you entangled me into your soft-spoken lines, responding with a stare. i found no reason, tell me the reason for pushing you away. three hours far behind. champion summer. see you again, when fire lights the charcoal sky ---->elememtary---->rocking horse winner 1 comment|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|10:53am] [ music | *Hand Grenade* ] *Hand Grenade* - The Movielife And you don't talk to anyone, and you won't look at anyone but her And I don't think she's listening, I doubt she remembers your name And you say, when will she notice me? And you feel like you're gonna break And you say, when will she notice me? And it feels like a hand grenade Man I'll never understand, everyone's living in the past Instead of forgetting her, you're always kissing her ass And you say, when will she notice me? And you feel like you're gonna break And you say, when will she notice me? And it feels like a hand grenade I know that there's not much to say, so I'll look stupid anyway And you don't talk to anyone, and you won't look at anyone but her And I don't think she's listening, but you still play that game But I think the best way of moving on is to attack 'Cause she's just a hand grenade So pull out the bit and throw it back And you say, when will she notice me? And you feel like you're gonna break And you say, when will she notice me? And it feels like a hand grenade Like a hand grenade I know that there's not much to say, so I'll look stupid anyway Like a hand grenade Like a hand grenade, a hand grenade 2 comments|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|11:16am] Your Song//Jamisonparker Tonight I'd rather be in love rather it was you flowing through my blood scraping through my veins my everything and you cling to every thread that clings to me I live in notes and photographs and everything I'm holding back but you're the words that weren't enough you remind me of a song I used to love I couldn't call you if I wanted my fingers couldn't work if they tried they're so sore from keeping crossed and tracing over cuts on my worthless arms if I said "I hated the feeling" it would be a lie I live in notes and photographs and everything I'm holding back but you're the words that weren't enough you remind me of a song I used to love I live in notes and photographs and everything I'm holding back but you're the words that weren't enough you remind me of a song I used to love you remind me of a song I used to love - another song i love :) 3 comments|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|11:18am] blah the whole centering thing got messed up in my last post. sorry about that folks. post comment

[04 Jan 2004|11:56am] i had a real rough night last night and i know guys hate requests but i have 2... 1. i need songs on one of ur best friends going behind your back and hookin up with ur ex boyfriend. 2. i need songs about how much youve liked someone for the longest time, they have a girlfriend, but they call u everynight n they seroiusly mean when they say they wish they were with you and dont know what to do. yea i mainly need songs for the second one. thanks alot guys. i appreciate it. 4 comments|post comment

g'mournin [04 Jan 2004|12:04pm] [ mood | groggy ] [ music | Thursday - Cross Out The Eyes ] I'm so sick of this cold weather Autumn has gone away from me the rain falls cold like the air everything is so cold here - if you live in connecticut, let alone East Hartford you know what i mean by it so god damn rainy, i hate it, and theres not even a person to keep me warm..... [ And you used to sing me to sleep and always stood behind me you saw me off when I had to go My first true love was my first stereo Everyone wants, everyone needs, everyone hurts sometimes like me it never rejects me, always accepts me nothing can compete with my first stereo] |FM static| XOXO 2 comments|post comment

blastermen......... [04 Jan 2004|12:10pm] OH! Be Still My Beating Heart... post comment

[04 Jan 2004|12:10pm] "Ghost Man On Third" -Taking Back Sunday- Jinx me something crazy Thinking if it's three Then I'm as smooth as the skin Rolls across the small of your back It's too bad it's not my style If you need me I'm out and on the parkway Patient and waiting for headlights Dressed in a fashion that's fitting to the Inconsistencies of my moods It's times like these where silence means everything And no on is to know about this It's times like these where silence means everything And no one is to know about this It's a campaign of distraction And revisionist history It's a shame I don't think that they'll notice (it's a shame I don't think that they'll notice) It's a shame I doubt that they even care (it's a shame I doubt that they even care) No one is to know about this It's a shame I don't think that they'll notice (it's a shame I don't think that they'll notice) It's a shame I doubt that they even care (it's a shame I doubt that they even care) Don't let me down But whatever I have getting myself into Maybe has been slicing inches from my waist It's my fist vs. the bottle (and thank God you weren't there...) And that's how bad could this hurt Or against I won't feel a thing (and thank God you weren't there...) I tell you all about it It's just not working out (...to watch me hit the bottle) not working out It's a campaign of distraction And revisionist history It's a shame I don't think that they'll notice (it's a shame I don't think that they'll notice) It's a shame I doubt that they even care (it's a shame I doubt that they even care) No one is to know about this It's a shame I don't think that they'll notice (it's a shame I don't think that they'll notice) It's a shame I doubt that they even care (it's a shame I doubt that they even care) Don't let me down This is why we were taught so much better than this This is why we were taught so much better than this This is what living like this does This is what living like this does This is what living like this does This is what living like this does This is what living like this does This is what living like this does This is what living like this does This is what living like this does This is what living like this does post comment

[04 Jan 2004|12:28pm] He lies in bed and paints her ceiling. Half asleep but barely dreaming. Beside him she sleeps. spitalfield. in the same lifetime. post comment

coheed and cambria....fuck yes [04 Jan 2004|12:40pm] [ mood | crazy ] "Three Evils (Embodied In Love And Shadow)" Across the floor in the hand of where we drove the drill a cautious ear to the mouth of your confession think of all the things we put him through in the face of his god would he tell the truth? still recorded were the words that dribbled out his kiss when eyes go blind in this man of what could once become sever the limbs off his torso in sleep and burn what remains so the world may now see no longer...will we wait for your answers back to the hell where you've come from think of all the times you've once had write them in a letter that says goodbye you'll listen to reason while you're face down in the dirt you'll stomach the hurt and break for him here just how much he's worth slowly discarded were the remains of his lonely youth among the alley where the dwellers scare to notice picture a young boy in pieces and streets with leveled malfunctions no name to be called redeemer We'll fix him restore him...with the love is no other think of all the things you did before write them in a letter that says reborn you'll listen to reason while you're face down in the dirt you'll stomach the hurt and break for him here just how much he's worth following you across the interstate walking away... I'll fire on following you across the interstate walking away... I'll fire on following you across the interstate walking away... I'll fire on on the wrong way out on the causeway to neverwhere on the wrong way out on the causeway to neverwhere on the wrong way out on the causeway to neverwhere dear my friends in the time we've spent forever after beyond this when will our nightmare ever end? dear my friends in the time we've spent forever after beyond this when will our nightmare ever end? pull the trigger and the nightmare stops... pull the trigger and the nightmare stops... pull the trigger and the nightmare stops...forever you will learn post comment

ok I know i posted this before, but im still wondering others opinons [04 Jan 2004|12:49pm] ok ive had a mark amission a brand a scar since it came out, i listened to it once then put it away for a while, well my boyfriend and his friend decide to do a dashboard song for the talent show and they borrow it, now i told them to do an older song and if hands down they must do it acustic. but it is just me or does the new dashboard cd kinda blow? like alot? 2 comments|post comment

tell him his eye see to clear [04 Jan 2004|12:50pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | alexisonfire-the philosphical signifigance ] I’m growing out my hair like it was when I was single it was longer than I’d know you I had no money then I had no worries then at all but with such a high standard of living I just feel like I’m dying I would start an argument but you can barely even talk but there is always good reason for your silence you have to take care of some business so I fix your plate and I stay out of the way and you will stay like that forever right in front of your computer you’ll look up one day but you won’t recognize me so now you want to change you read a letter from a lawyer want to take me out to dinner want to bury me under a mound of shopping bags like it would really make a difference or make up for your disinterest I’m a bill you pay I’m a contract you can’t break and it is like I’m under water or on an endless escalator I just go up and up but I don’t ever reach the top and it reads just like the bible twenty centuries of scandal, I guess it all depends on how you interpret it the word is love the word is loss the words are damaged goods that I what I am a lifetime gets chalked up to an experience coincidence we are chained to the events thats it post comment

[04 Jan 2004|12:50pm] Hey everyone. Hate requesting but I need a song/some songs Anyone got a good one about feeling happy for the first time in a long time? Thanks in advance if you can think of anything emo love to all 2 comments|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|12:50pm] Hey everyone. Hate requesting but I need a song/some songs Anyone got a good one about feeling happy for the first time in a long time? Thanks in advance if you can think of anything emo love to all 5 comments|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|12:52pm] sry im a tard. Posted it twice :( post comment

-><- my computer's on crack -> [04 Jan 2004|01:15pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | [smile empty soul|with this knife] ] let's admire the broken hearts burning they burn so beautifully there's a flame for every shattered dream every dream of you and me let's collect the blood dripping from me and smear it across the wall for every moment of happiness in my life there's an everlasting fall let's find some broken glasses and fill them with our tears and when they're all finally full we'll make a toast to all our fears let's paint a picture of tainted love a picture of my life and when the mnasterpiece is done i'll shred it with a knife in the embers of a fallen star's end i revealed a wound that nothing can ever mend and in the glow of the burning heart's fire i gazed into your eyes, into my desire let's shatter some beautiful church windows just to hear a sound other than the death filled screams as the bodies hit the ground let's scatter the ashes of our burned hearts all across the sky so people yet to come won't ever have to question why in the embers of a fallen star's end i revealed a wound that nothing can ever mend and in the glow of the burning heart's fire i gazed into your eyes, into my desire pardon me while i throw my computer out the window... xoxobeckajo [there's nothing wrong with what you've done they just wanna pick you up and throw you down and make you stop when all you wanna do is run...] 1 comment|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|01:19pm] you read my eyes just like a diary...oh remember, PLEASE remember post comment

[04 Jan 2004|01:20pm] What should I do I'm about to crack And there's a force That comes over me It's almost as if I'm tied to the tracks And I'm waiting for him To rescue me The funny thing is He's not going to come He's not going to find me This is a matter of fact The desire you lack This is the way I guess it has to be... post comment

i'm not good with eye contact [04 Jan 2004|01:36pm] [ mood | loved ] [ music | odd project - a hero's trial ] odd project are simply amazing. they're screamo/post hardcore i guess but just read these lyrics. i have them in my info for my girlfriend and she thought it was sweet. i've been a fan of theirs since they were unsigned. go buy both of their demos, they're wonderful. their full length debut will be out on indianola records sometime in 2004. i'll part the sea. for you i'd break the sky. the heavens aren’t worthy. so why am i? you're a fucking masterpiece. a perfect played ensemble. i lose myself in your eyes. let me take you home. lying in serenity you're the image of an angel. your face so radiant, even in the darkest hours. i want you to need me the way i need you. i want you to be... obsessed with me. roses never smelt as sweet as you do. you leave me breathless. your touch washes all my worries away. how do you do it? i want you to need me the way i need you. i want you to be... obsessed with me. 1 comment|post comment

"there'd be no distance that could hold us back..." [04 Jan 2004|01:45pm] "The New Year"~Death Cab for Cutie so this is the new year. and i don't feel any different. the clanking of crystal explosions off in the distance (in the distance). so this is the new year and I have no resolutions for selfl assigned penance for problems with easy solutions so everybody put your best suit or dress on let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn as thirty dialogues bleed into one i wish the world was flat like the old days then i could travel just by folding a map no more airplanes, or speedtrains, or freeways there'd be no distance that can hold us back. there'd be no distance that could hold us back (x2) so this is the new year (x4) "Title and Registration"~Death Cab for Cutie the glove compartment isn't accurately named and everybody knows it. so i'm proposing a swift orderly change. cause behind its door there's nothing to keep my fingers warm and all i find are souvenirs from better times before the gleam of your taillights fading east to find yourself a better life. i was searching for some legal document as the rain beat down on the hood when i stumbled upon pictures i tried to forget and that's how this idea was drilled into my head cause it's too important to stay the way it's been there's no blame for how our love did slowly fade and now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all and here i rest where disappointment and regret collide lying awake at night there's no blame for how our love did slowly fade and now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all and here i rest where disappointment and regret collide lying awake at night (up all night) when i'm lying awake at night. post comment

[04 Jan 2004|01:56pm] i'm so good at forgetting i quit every game i play but forgive me love i can't turn and walk away 1 comment|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|02:02pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | silence ] hmmm.... sorry for the request. but does any one have any lyrics about being majorly led on? by majorly i mean for months. and now that i put the pieces together im in one of those hateful kind of moods towards him. anything will help.. thank you 3 comments|post comment

and i know that you dont care... [04 Jan 2004|02:13pm] [ mood | indifferent ] [ music | 92.3 ] awesome song by an awesome band on an awesome cd :) I could be mean I could be angry You know I could be just like you I could be fake I could be stupid You know I could be just like you You thought you were standing beside me You were only in my way You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you You thought you were there to guide me You were only in my way You're wrong if you think that I'll be Just like you I could be cold I could be ruthless You know I could be just like you I could be weak I could be senseless You know I could be just like you You thought you were standing beside me You were only in my way You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you You thought you were there to guide me You were only in my way You're wrong if you think that I'll be Just like you On my own, cause I can't take livin' with you I'm alone, so I won't turn out like You want me to 3 days grace--just like you 3 comments|post comment

Song of the hour [04 Jan 2004|02:15pm] [ music | "Tears Of Pearls" -Savage Garden ] "Tears of Pearls" -Savage Garden And we stare each other down like vicitms in the grind Probing all the weakness and hurt still left behind and we cry The tears of pearls We do it. Oh we do it. Is love really the tragedy the way you might describe? Or would a thousand lovers still leave you cold inside? Make you cry... These tears of pearls [chorus: ] All these mixed emotions we keep locked away like stolen pearls Stolen pearl devotions we keep locked away from all the world Your kisses are like pearls, so different and so rare But anger stole the jewels away and love has left you bare, Made you cry... These tears of pearls Well I could be the tired joker pour my heart to get you in Sacrifice my happiness just so I could win Maybe cry... These tears of pearls [chorus] All these mixed emotions we keep locked away like stolen pearls Stolen pearl devotions we keep locked away from all the world We twist and turn where angels burn Like fallen soldiers we will learn That once forgotten, twice removed Love will be the death... The death of you [repeat chorus] All these mixed emotions we keep locked away like stolen pearls Stolen pearl devotions we keep locked away from all the world 1 comment|post comment

And you thought i didnt care? [04 Jan 2004|02:29pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | everything sucks (when your gone) -mxpx ] Have another drink and drive yourself home I hope there's ice on all the roads And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt and again when your head goes through the windshield 3 comments|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|02:32pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | karma police -radiohead ] Im here for you to use, broken and bruised, Do you understand? It's only you, beautiful, or I don't want anyone, If I can choose, it's only you, But how could I miscalculate, Perfect eyes will have perfect hate, If I can choose, its only you, post comment

And u ThouGht i didnt care? [04 Jan 2004|02:35pm] And will you tell all your friends you've got your gun to my head This all was only wishful thinkin, this all was only wishful thinkin Full Lyrics: Your lipstick, his collar.. don't bother Angel I know exactly what goes on When everything you'll get is everything that you've wanted, princess (well which would you prefer) My finger on the trigger, or (me face down, down across your floor) Me face down, down across your floor (me face down, down across your floor) Well just so long as this thing's loaded And will you tell all your friends you've got your gun to my head This all was only wishful thinkin, this all was only wishful thinkin And will you tell all your friends you've got your gun to my head This all was only wishful thinkin, this all was only wishful thinkin let's go... Don't bother trying to explain Angel I know exactly what goes on when you're on and How about I'm outside of your window (how about I'm outside of your window) Watchin him keep the details covered You're such a sucker (you're such a sucker) for a sweet talker, yeah And will you tell all your friends you've got your gun to my head This all was only wishful thinkin, this all was only wishful thinkin (the only thing that I regret is that I, I never let you hold me back) And will you tell all your friends you've got your gun to my head This all was only wishful thinkin, this all was only wishful thinkin Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins I wil never ask if you don't ever tell me I know you well enough to know you never loved me Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins I will never ask if you don't ever tell me I know you well enough to know you never loved me Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins I will never ask if you don't ever tell me I know you well enough to know... Why can't I feel anything from anyone other than you? Why can't I feel anything from anyone other than you? And all of this was all your fault And all of this (I stay jealous) I stay wrecked and jealous for this, for this simple reason I just need to keep you in mind as something larger than life (she'll destroy us all before she's through and find a way to blame somebody else) I stay wrecked and jealous for this, for this simple reason I just need to keep you in mind as something larger than life (she'll destroy us all before she's through and find a way to blame somebody else) I stay wrecked and jealous for this, for this simple reason I just need to keep you in mind as something larger than life! GreAt soNg! 1 comment|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|02:49pm] [ music | cursive ] Four wall blackmail by Dead Poetic. My Favorite song right now <3<3<3 These four walls have seen the worst of me. They're bleeding confession, but they'll never speak. These four walls have seen the life I truly lead. They're crying depression. They're weak in the knees. Right on the floor. Please walls, stay quiet Reputation is on the line. Please God, stay quiet. Don't let them know you're watching me die. Falling down. The waves are crashing in on me again. Falling down. The walls are closing in on me again. Falling down. The waves are crashing in on me again. Falling down. I feel the weight, I feel the weight again. And If you open up your heart you'll see I'm only human. Let me be me. And if you could open up your heart you'll see This wasn't my intent. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Right on the floor. Please walls, stay quiet Reputation is on the line. Please God, stay quiet. Don't let them know you're watching me die. Falling down. The waves are crashing over me again. Falling down. The walls are closing in on me again. Falling down. The waves are crashing in on me again. Falling down. I feel the weight, I feel the weight again. Right on the floor. post comment

hm.. some beatles for the new year [04 Jan 2004|02:52pm] Wednesday morning at five o'clock as the day begins Silently closing her bedroom door Leaving the note that she hoped would say more She goes downstairs to the kitchen clutching her hankerchief Quietly turing the backdoor key Stepping outside she is free. She (We gave her most of our lives) is leaving (Sacraficed most of our lives) home (We gave her everything money could buy) She's leaving home after living alone For so many years. Bye, bye Father snores as his wife gets into her dressing gown Picks up the letter that's lying there Standing alone at the top of the stairs She breaks down and cries to her husband Daddy our baby's gone. Why would she treat us so thoughtlessly How could she do this to me. She (We never though of ourselves) Is leaving (Never a thought for ourselves) home (We struggled hard all our lives to get by) She's leaving home after living alone For so many years. Bye, bye Friday morning at nine o'clock she is far away Waiting to keep the appointment she made Meeting a man from the motor trade. She (What did we do that was wrong) Is having (We didn't know it was wrong) Fun (Fun is the one thing that money can't buy) Something inside that was always denied For so many years. Bye, Bye She's leaving home bye bye i wish i culd be like the girl in the song and just run away from it all.. xoxo beth post comment

[04 Jan 2004|02:53pm] Sweet like candy to my soul Sweet you rock and sweet you roll Lost for you I'm so lost for you post comment

fear before the march of flames ||| Go Wash Your Mouth, I Don't Know Where It's Been [04 Jan 2004|03:00pm] Today I watched the sunset in the East Turns out it was the sunrise (And I walked a path as I told a story) (I watched you through your window) I watched the sky as the moon was left reflecting on the day I scared you away, so If I can't have you I'll just close my eyes And pretend she is you.. Pretend you are mine I can see the world through your window And I sing to you every night from here Today I prayed my plane would crash You'd hear the news And you'd think of me as much as I thought of you And if you repeat my words You said them before, and I remember the sound I keep the lights off I know you're right here No matter what, you can't say no to me in my dreams Your routine is so divine. I have it memorized As you walk to your window with your light on inside I know you'll never find me here As you admire the view Do you know how pretty you look with your hair down? I walk to the window admiring the view 1 comment|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|03:01pm] where do yall get your icons from? theyre all very awesome and i have no clue where to get them from i especially like the animated band ones or animated lyrics.. adn the stick ppl ones. please comment with where to get 'em from if you are so kind as to. 5 comments|post comment

.:sigh:. [04 Jan 2004|03:25pm] [ mood | distressed ] Finch- "Letters To You" Can't you see that I wanna be there with open arms It's empty tonight and I'm all alone Get me through this one Do you notice I'm gone? Where do you run to so far away? I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so I'm writing again these letters to you aren't much, I know But I'm not sleeping and you're not here The thought stops my heart Do you notice I'm gone? Where do you run to so far away? I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so No more looking I've found home I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so I'm gone away I'm gone away 3 comments|post comment

I was wondering, since you're done stepping all over my heart, can I have it back? [04 Jan 2004|03:27pm] [ mood | quixotic ] [ music | "I Believe You, but My Tommy Gun Don't" - Brand New ] Who's really 'better off' in the end when you forget about me? "The Shower Scene" - Brand New It's funny how your Worst enemies always seem to Turn out to be all of your Best friend's best friends But I folded I told These aren't things I've saved to sing you But I folded I told So draw or throw and I will explode It's time for you to choose the bullet or the chopstick Or you are far too cute Or whatever he said Every time I hear it I am wishing I was great I wished her Past tense my best friend But then I folded and I told These aren't things I say to save me But I folded I told I hope she's caught in the explosion It's time for you to choose The bullet or the chopstick Or you are far too cute Or whatever he said It's time for you to choose The bullet or the chopstick This is me in his room Red Gold I told We don't play fair Red Gold I told We never stand too close So I update this almost every single day for you I begin to hate you for your face and not just the things you do So go tell him why my wrist is sore From pulling out your insides all night Nothing that you do is new to anything or anyone but You. ~I'm the reason you stopped calling, You're the reason I stopped falling in love. I guess your safety net only has a seat for one And when I hang up, I guess we're done. Tomorrow brings another day, But I choke when I try to say I want my heart back.~ post comment

matchbook romance "tiger lilly" [04 Jan 2004|03:41pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | "i would do anything for love" meatloaf ] ok now i need some help.. i'm with someone i really care for.. but the problem is that on new years this older kid was hitting on me at a party that my boyfriend wasnt at, so i have crush on an older person, and he has interest in me also. any songs like that? thanks sooo much! we drive tonight, and you are by my side. we're talking about our lives, like we've known each other forever. the time flies by, with the sound of your voice. its close to paradise, with the end surely near. if i could only stop the car and hold onto you, and never let go... i'll never let go. as we round the corner to your house you turned to me and said, "i'll be going through withdrawl of you for this one night we have spent." and, i want to speak these words but i guess i'll just bite my tongue, and accept "someday, somehow" as the words that we'll hang from. and i... don't want to speak these words. cause i, don't want to make things anyworse. why does tonite, have to end? why don't we hit restart, and pause it at our favorite parts. we'll skip the goodbyes. if i had it my way, i'd turn the car around and runaway, just you and i. and i... don't want to speak these words. cause i, don't want to make things anyworse post comment

freedom wear your scars of desire [04 Jan 2004|03:49pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | just enough to love you by bayside ] 'a dagger through the heart of st angeles' by alexisonfire plaid skirts that hide scars walk in single file ties that restrict blood to the brain passing notes in math class freedom wear your scars of desire it's a coming of age story, conflicting impulses cuts seem to bend the sky i've read this book before anxious eyes stare out of warped glass waiting for the three o'clock bell i'm trying hard to forget that cold october day when love challenged freedom to a fist fight freedom looked victorious but no one was prepared for what would happen on that baseball diamond when love reached beneath her plaid jumper pulled out a switch blade and drove it directly through the heart of st angeles any notion of self government was left bleeding on the pitcher's mound post comment

Just realize that I know how you feel now [04 Jan 2004|03:50pm] [ music | armor for sleep- being your walls ] Pull your arms up around your knees And hide out inside your room Pretend you can't feel at all Just realize that I know how you feel now If all I am is distraction for you then I can't complain that you can't feel something for me Take all you can, find in me Can you think back to when things worked When dreams were the days you lived When you never cried alone Just realize that I know how you feel now If all I am is just distraction for you then I can't complain that you can't feel something for me Take all you can, find in me I know how (know how) You feel now (you feel now) If all I am is just distraction for you, then I can't complain that you can't feel something for me Take all you can, find in me 1 comment|post comment

for once... a song with a message [04 Jan 2004|03:55pm] [ mood | restless ] [ music | northstar ] this is one of my favorite songs from my favorite band of all time. i've been a fan since the first album and they're up to 12 now! check out any of them... you'll be happy. "Fist vs. Tact" -MxPx- I've dwelt long on the past and I just can't take it anymore I struggle in vain at last, I've managed to board Up the windows and lock the door Persist to resist, fight back Not with a fist, with tact Ideas in action, with passion Passion commitment, dedication When all is said and done, our time is spent And we've had our fun Have you taken the time to think about your life And what it means to know eternity I've dwelt long on the past and I just can't take it anymore I struggle in vain at last, I've managed to board Up the windows and lock the door it's good to hear music with a message, isn't it? -nichole- post comment

[04 Jan 2004|03:59pm] slowly dying painful trying oh, how i long to be perfect for u... post comment

[04 Jan 2004|04:22pm] [ music | Another morning stoner- The Trail Of dead... ] does anybody know what this is from...?::: Well,I guess we missed our start But my fingers still catch a spark At the thought of touching you 1 comment|post comment

.i know there not emo but the words in the song are. [04 Jan 2004|04:24pm] [ mood | awake ] [ music | {Atreyu} A Letter To Someone Like You ] .atreyu. A Letter To Someone Like You Lie! Sometimes this beauty is choking me but at least its your hands at my throat Your lashes brush against my cheek coupled with your breath on my neck The world around you falls away and I will still be there I know my words are like daggers but they cut me too And I am sorry for all the fucked up things I say I didn't mean it And I never realized that I can be what I hate Lets be happy with what we have, enjoy the beauty in these days Sometimes we'll laugh sometimes we'll scream no one said caring was easy I know there was a time when emotions felt like pulling teeth Sometimes I felt so souless I couldn't even look at me It's pathetic to hate who you are and it feels like hell to change But I'll be damned if I push you away I remember when my dreams were dying and I damned the sun, I damned the sun to pieces I carved hateful thoughts into my chest then you took my hand and nothing, no nothing has ever felt the same post comment

[04 Jan 2004|04:27pm] stories been boarded up again. old sins forgotten, for new sins. your habits get old. your habits get old. i wanted to say, how i wanted to say... miss the valentine, how sometimes good times compunded on good times. whats come over you since? whats come over you since? i wanted to say...how i wanted to say.... losing you. i would know. i feel partially responsible. i'm confused. and all i can do is quietly grin and resent you. phone calls made with such urgency. speaking half truths. she doesnt know, what she doesnt know. i wanted to say...how i wanted to say... losing you. i would know. i feel partially responsible. i'm confused. and all i can do is quietly grin and resent you... i love this song...its a really pretty acoustic by the enw amsterdams. and its called losing you. get it! xXx 1 comment|post comment

My Own. . . [04 Jan 2004|04:29pm] [ mood | Depressed ] Listen closely. . .you will hear, The sorrow of the hearts. . . Broken into pieces, left to be heard. Watch and you'll see, The saddness burn through The eyes of happiness. Ashes kept with you, Not swept away. Feel the scars of hate, Among you. There to remind you of the pain you felt. Taste as the words, Die on your lips and. . . Never fade. . .away. post comment

[04 Jan 2004|04:39pm] will i ever get to where u r ill wait for u but i dont think ur comin back u told me u didnt wanna lose me sealed that with a kiss then walked away, left me standing in the streetlight displaying me to the world of cynics post comment

i pray for death [04 Jan 2004|04:40pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | you can't turn off the blood brothers ] 'turn the other way' by avenged sevenfold slit my wrists, take away the pain slit my throat, everyone's to blame lost in the fields of confusion restless nights, they're not far away i came here for something and i'm not turning back a calm piece of mind, but you still hold my keys keeping my fate deep within your threshold petty inconvenience but it means the world to me you have the power to set me free caught in your grasp, how? just let me be give me control out, out of these depths a fiery hell i pray for death i've been the wrong one time and time again now i'm on my knees, forgive me please tore out my heart and handed to me on a silver platter sew up the hole, emptiness in the place of compassion you made me this way i am the product of your creation look the other way now you've turned your back on me you've turned away from me the future's much too far away to see i hope you learn the truth not the way things were meant to be with me and you post comment

boinky [04 Jan 2004|04:47pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | guernica-brand new ] "always"-blink 182 i've been here before a few times and i'm quite aware we're dying and your hands they shake with goodbyes and i'll take you back if you'd have me so here i am, i'm trying so here i am, are you ready? come on let me hold you touch you, feel you always kiss you, taste you all night always and i'll miss your laugh, your smile i'll admit i'm wrong if you'd tell me i'm so sick of fights, i hate them lets start this again for real so here i am i'm trying so here i am are you ready? so here i am i'm trying so here i am are you ready? come on let me hold you touch you, feel you always kiss you, taste you all night always i've been here before a rew times and i'm quite aware we're dying come on let me hold you touch you, feel you always kiss you, taste you all night always 1 comment|post comment

hey here's another original ... (used to be heroesfail ... now i'm brightside) [04 Jan 2004|04:53pm] as the music surrounded us filled up our minds and meant the most those songs shall be the anthem of our night spent together one look at me was all it took and suddenly all over again i was hooked it felt so right when you held me in your arms i hadn't seen you since november everyone disappeared and it was just you and i and the sound of us dancing i believe that was the first time that i actually smiled in months at the end of the song i realized that i had been holding my breath the entire time and you can believe that i could finally breathe once the night was done i would stop time for you and not care what happens to anyone else as long as there's a you and me i can go on living in silence forever just sing me one more song and take my breath away once more and when i'm with you i don't believe in never this is me wishing on a star that's just out of my reach out of everyone i've encountered you're the most important to me and i vow on our one night spent together that i'll make sure you're the last person i ever see comment ... critisize ... compliment. thanx. later days : deanna 1 comment|post comment

i will find a way without you [04 Jan 2004|05:03pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | the get up kids - valentine ] Katherine, Please Hey, wait. Before you walk out for the last time, would you do me this favor? Hey, wait. Before you walk out for the last time, would you do me this favor? And take, take this paring knife, and thrust it deep, so deep into my side. And be sure, when you draw it from my skin, that my eyes, they meet yours, and you grin. [Chorus] Because while seeing is believing, sometimes looks can be deceiving. So when I tell you I'm through with you, don't be fooled. I'll be six feet under when I'm over you. Let's toast. Pour one last drink to us. Make mine one part tonic, two parts poison. And be sure, when the glass falls from my lips, that my eyes, they meet yours, and you grin. [Chorus] Already ripped my heart out of my chest. I watched you watch me bleed. Just what do you have planned for what is left? Take whatever you need. Hey, wait. Before you walk out for the last time, would you do me this favor? I'm over you. [3x] You. 7 comments|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|05:10pm] [ mood | disappointed ] Amazing lyrics.... Give me time, let me put on this facade. Let me annex these tripwire eyelashes with something more cohesive than semen stains on your satin face, because this will never sit well amongst a jury of our peers. This could never tuck the shadows back through the seams and without a shadow I am without an alibi. The stitching came splitting, severing want from won't, cradling trite canopy hair with persperating fingers. It was always a matter of mismanufacture when the silhouettes began to seep through. I knew they would never remain devoid of dissection; the hooded and cloaked court of kith would hold a light or lighter to this convoluted catch-22; they put my heart in a white room and watched it dance, repeating, "he was three years younger than his devotion to her." 2 comments|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|05:15pm] yellowcard- "empy apartment" Call me out You stayed inside One you love Is where you hide Shot me down as I flew by Crash and burn I think sometimes you forget where the heart is Answer no to these questions Let her go, learn a lesson It's not me, you're not listening now Can't you see something's missing? You forget where the heart is Take you away from that empty apartment You stay and forget where the heart is Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay Waking up from this nightmare How's your life, what's it like there? Is it all what you want it to be? Does it hurt when you think about me? And how broken my heart is Take you away from that empty apartment You stay and forget where the heart is Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay It's okay to be angry and never let go It only gets harder the more that you know When you get lonely if no one's around You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down We came together but you left alone And I know how it feels to walk out on your own Maybe someday I will see you again And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend Take you away from that empty apartment You stay and forget where the heart is Someday if ever you love me you'd say its okay It's okay It's okay post comment

Alonely by JoshKirby [04 Jan 2004|05:20pm] I have no idea where to begin like frozen time for a while. Somedays are like balloon filtered square pushpin finger ratchets to even hold a grip on them. So it should be like noose fur. Long like the rope burn. Somebody please hold on to what it is that really fucking matters. Like a dead car or a fucking lonely house. It’s all there the holes and enough vacancies to fill a fucking slut motel. Some things matter like a fist in a knife fight. Down where a camel caned crossway was kicking the shit out of an outback theater. Windows and door locks, windows and door locks. Look out the lattice I am down here in a car warm seats and my school jacket to warm you. Be careful of your pink dress we want to keep everything under control. Be quiet love you do not want to wake your parents. It’s open for you. Get in. We’ll drive to a heaven filled of iceberg eyes and snowflake lips like a burn that you can’t truly get a feel for someone should really give me tickets to the drive in, cause that is where were head. Heaven. In a dusty hole of a junction the world tilts on nothing but a turtles back. How precarious is that? We should have fabricated a better universe to dwell in. Like a parallel love hooked lip. Let go. Freshen I am on the bed freshen to come lay with a lover. Cloud blanketed eyelids like lip pushing down barriers. We held on for so long, bumps and dips and small skips in the concrete. Our wheels are perfectly pressurized now. Where are you when I am emotionally induced...though you weren’t real before it held me over. I want to see vapors at least like mist and heaven making love. Like we soft curtain fumbled blatant here we go whim whip like crocodile backs and baskets full of cotton tails picked by the most lonely rabbits. And lonesome feels like a blinking lights in your chest cavity. I just remember that last time I was doing this. The words melt like liquid the same and for you it feels the same too. Like a puffy love scene we sit in the middle of two blankets the christmas tree huge like the eyes of children we held and hold and never taste anything similar no drug is the same no taste is as sweet like honey and swimming pool romance like moonlight and it’s the last thing I knew of reality reflections and refractions of meaning and hurdles like a buzzing I don’t know how to start explaining what this has meant for me or what it will mean for me. Like happiness in a color or a kiss I am giddy wide eyed children on Christmas morning. You above the banister and me below like heaven separated by a massive divide....magnet force outside control draws a closer picture of what exactly apocolyptica would look like...something so perfect being created by wind and misty kisses. But the world is alright now gluing sticks to form houses like coming down super chime on some unsuspecting taraquil make fabricate the idea of non lonesome hold held to a case of happy in a bottle like entertainment dummy. Burlesque noise type gothic whore. Please no fetish with sound. Purity like we.water pure spring no poison or waste like the channel between heaven and paradise bring to entering the world of comfort and numbness to everything that hurts like an invisible world made on diagonals like bad axle creation of go material magazine shoot the is a pyramid in the fore head of a savior. The no giver the pandora cock cunted slut we give no happiness to lust or love alike separate twins birthed by two people connected by a frequency of static hissing like a fucking bird in the dashboard or a snake in the wheel well, just watch out for anything with the gold eyes of a knife. Mask it like halloween in a century of blood guts and trampling a trombone victory bloodshed of a painting to diagnose the difference between abstracts and visuals of a penciled nature. We sketched out problem we burned out doubt and helped push what should be what should always be am frightened this is where it picks up on you from my digress from what it is I know of now and then in a 50's love outfit like we are what should be paradigms paragons of perfection and around the milkshake belled hey, I saw you today in school. I thought you looked quite nice. I loved your poodle skirt. You want to go with me on top of the hill on Friday and I can kiss your neck while we watch our town twinkle like fireballs in a black hole. It will be lovely like you sitting wherever you are doing whatever your doing and those fine enough to be seeing you at this exact moment don’t know what they have been blessed with. Something a kid so far away swallows time and reality for. I wish and hope and wish and hope that studying my face late at night when no one is watching that I really do want to be with you. I can’t tell you that online with a bunch of black pixelations on a white screen it just fails to convey. It’s just the way I want to be...with you now where you are now, amongst the blessed. Even in a sky I don’t like where the clouds are as uncertain as we were like comments pouring like water from a faucet and comfort leaping with every heavy breath. Neck. Hands lovers bed makeshit why why not why why not now like I want. Sometimes lonely is piss drunk and he feels dead. I will explain this to you if need be...it’s just what I feel right now. I want you with me. I want you here next to me, warm bodies and dull clothes. Face to face. Mouth to mouth. Lost in each others oblivion. This kid is genius and so is his band. http://theproj.cjb.net 1 comment|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|05:42pm] where is your boy tonight? i hope he is a gentleman. and maybe he wont find out what i know: you were the last good thing about this part of town. when i wake up, im willing to take my chances on the hope you hate him more than you notice i wrote this for you. you need him. i should be him... i could be an accident but im still trying. thats more than i can say for him. where is your boy tonight? i hope he is a gentleman. and maybe he wont find out what i know: you were the last good thing about this part of town. someday ill appreciate in value, get off my ass and call you.. but for the meantime ill sport my brand new fashion of waking up with pants on at 4 in the afternoon you need him. i should be him... i could be an accident but im still trying. thats more than i can say for him. where is your boy tonight? i hope he is a gentleman. and maybe he wont find out what i know: you were the last good thing about this part of town. i heart fallout boy 3 comments|post comment

check out my poem a few entries below [04 Jan 2004|05:50pm] [ mood | still ... floating ] [ music | The Girl Next Door by Blink 182 ] Meeting Again For The First Time by Poison the Well Barely able to keep the lids open At times I might think I need the rest but who would want to go back there? It's already hard enough to say I need it bad memories and good times. Keep me from believing that I can still jump off No longer, no longer the same you grow accustomed to seeing the sun in a different location Standing still becomes a chore Anxious to get the pavement moving The easy solution to this and everything else is to move on It comes equipped with the last word they find ways to drag you along and dismantle what you created It's already hard enough to say I need it Bad memories and good times Keep me from believing that I can still jump off No longer, no longer the same You grow accustomed to seeing the sun in a different location Standing still becomes a chore Anxious to get the pavement moving Happiness is not having to lie on the floor dead alone post comment

lonelys for you [04 Jan 2004|06:06pm] [ mood | numb ] [ music | THURSDAY! ] when i look into your eyes i can see such a sad man in disguise dreaming, wishing, waitting,drifting from me i cant see hurts my heart to see you cry dreaming wishing, waiting drifting from me i dont know you anymore, wish i knew what's wrong cant we try to slam that door, start a brand new song i know you're lonely and you cry, wondering why i know you're lonely but if once, you could help me understand what it takes to be a man look back on what you said and the life you lead is it what you dreamed when you were young like me and now its time you took something back just for the sake of your mind. your mind. your mind. when i look into your eyes i can see. life has buried you alive, waiting, wishing, dreaming, drifting from me you can breathe. heart as big as oceans wide, waiting, wishing dreaming, drifting from me. yellowcard - drifting post comment

i hate myself [04 Jan 2004|07:06pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | homegrown ] HOME GROWN "I Hate Myself" Deep down inside me, I feel I need a change. So sick of everything, it all just seems the same. Always unhappy, I cannot find a smile. Wasting my life away, I guess you can call it suicide. My life's a waste. Nothing left for me to hate. I hate myself. I have no friends. I'm treading water, I'm struggling by the edge. I'm sitting here all alone, I just can't lose myself. My friends ignore me, they think my life's a waste. They're now my enemies, all of which I hate. Always unhappy, I got a gun pointed to my head. Will someone come help me now, before I turn out dead? ...i love it.. when you hear a song and it describes exactly what you feel but never could describe or put into words.. 3 comments|post comment

What is this from? [04 Jan 2004|07:13pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | Nothing ] Hey guys.. What song is this from!?!?!: Remember that time we kissed and it started to rain, Instead of running inside we just looked into each others eyes. Remember that time you forgot about our kiss. I remember, I marked it on my wrist. 3 comments|post comment

*which song do these lyrics belong to?! [04 Jan 2004|07:26pm] i need help with this..im tryin to find out wut song these go to- ((chorus)) i spend days and nights in my bedroom trying to write the perfect song to sing to you 1 comment|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|07:30pm] does anyone know a song that talks about " scared to get in too deep but loving the person soo much?" 1 comment|post comment

depressed [04 Jan 2004|07:53pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | 3 days grace - just like u ] its seems as though everytime i turn around someone i love is getting hurt.. another one of my friends was in a car accident.. and i was wondering if n e one knows n e good songs about needing someone now more than ever.. <3dev 1 comment|post comment

You write what I want to feel. [04 Jan 2004|07:59pm] You always seem to say the right things. Your hands exude this perfection when you write these beautiful things. Every poem, every deliberation wraps itself around my heart And squeezes out all my feelings. I can't even envision the things that you portray. I’m breathless after every sentence, angry that I don’t have the imagination you do. A penny for your thoughts Give me just one night So I may hear your wonderful words straight from your lips. post comment

[04 Jan 2004|08:03pm] [ mood | blah ] If I wrote the note would you pull the trigger? It seem to be like you have waited for this moment For so, so long I'm sick of this place I'm leaving before the 22 caliber round hits Shoots a crack for hope to leak out Spills on the floor staining the roomThe room is slowly getting smaller Spinning and blurry I see my escape hatch The hope has blocked my only way outI am stuck in this room drowning My lungs and heart swell with pain I can't speak its to late to say I never loved you The hope still quietly leaks the hope is no more. ♥ post comment

[04 Jan 2004|08:25pm] It's like your falling in love while I just fall apart. 6 comments|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|08:31pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | [taking back sunday|cute without the e (acoustic style!)] ] [box car racer|there is] this vacation's useless these white pills aren't kind i've given a lot of thought on this thirteen hour drive i miss the grinding concrete where we sat past 8 or 9 and slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights i've given a lot of thought to the nights we use to have the days have come and gone our lives when but so fast i faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor where i laid and told you but you sweared you loved me more do you care if i don't know what to say will you sleep tonight or will you think of me will i shake this off pretend its all okay that there someone out there who feels just like me there is those notes you wrote me i've kept them all i'll give a lot of thought of how to write you back this fall with every single letter in every single word there will be a hidden message about a boy that's loves a girl do you care if i don't know what to say will you sleep tonight or will you think of me will i shake this off pretend its all okay that there's someone out there who feels just like me there is do you care if i don't know what to say? will you sleep tonight or will you think of me will i shake this off pretend its all okay that there's someone out there who feels just like me do you care if i don't know what to say? will you sleep tonight or will you think of me will i shake this off pretend its all okay that there's someone out there who feels just like me there is xoxobeckajo [phasing soft words with every breath, with every breath i'll stay true...] 1 comment|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|08:33pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | the get up kids--valentine ] i wrote this in like one second....it was kind of how i was feeling. im still confused about it, but...hey..... i think we all know that this is ending. i still can't find the beginning. help me through this, one last time, and i will see that my time is spent with you. if that's what you want. i could never tell....your blue eyes are so clear i can only see beyond them. don't let this be the last time...you know it will be. just tell me what you are saying. i was never good with subtlety. 1 comment|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|08:51pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | 3 Doors Down//When i'm gone ] O.K. Does anyone know some song about be waiting for the person that was made for you??? 2 comments|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|09:04pm] [ mood | refreshed ] [ music | fall out boy--saturday ] hey all...wrote these lyrics yesterday wanted to share them with you guys see what you thought... the stars seem to shine brighter on these dull winter nights while the waves break lonely on the beaches and i sit here to keep them company i wish you would have shared this with me a kodak moment wasted on a broken heart this doesnt feel right but it feels familiar i wish that i didnt have to wish for us anymore and that this time we didnt need help from shooting stars i guess i didnt fall in love hard enough because i still had the energy to get crushed and thats what happens to me every time i guess this pain i feel isnt enough to keep me from you because ill still come back and ill throw this penny in just for us to make you realize why we need each other and how id go bankrupt just to make you smile just to see you alive... i wish that i didnt have to wish for us anymore and that this time we didnt need help from shooting stars this is the last time ill be without you when the sun rises and this is the last time ill think of you when the sun sets... <3 tara ps. comments greatly appreciated:) 10 comments|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|09:16pm] [ mood | nauseated ] [ music | sic transit gloria glory fades ] you arent sorry. youre just using me to shrug off your guilt.im not the one you should talk to about being forgiven. you have to forgive yourself. asking to be forgiven is a waste of time. its like asking the truth not to exist. dont ask me to bandage wounds that you already healed yourself a long time ago. <333! love it/// 1 comment|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|09:18pm] [ music | 99 dreams I have had...and every one a red balloon ] Something Corporate- You're Gone Taking steps back through the words I should have said to you they all got lost you went away well i feel sick and you just don't care anymore anymore I wish to be with you minutes of me and you and i can't feel this happening so tie my hands back and make me feel you coming down coming down and you don't care your face is on a billboard and your everywhere you don't care much for interviews your gone your gone your gone your gone your gone your gone your gone your gone if you don't like being hurt then please don't stay its hard to wave goodbye from aeroplanes when i just don't think that you can see I taper off and say its never worth the pain but some time it is and you don't care your face is on a billboard and your everywhere you don't care much for interviews your gone your gone your gone your gone your gone your gone your gone your gone away if you don't like being hurt then please don't stay if you don't like being hurt then please don't stay gotta wish that i could make this ride wish that there was something worth the time for her to give to me a phone call from LA is my present there is nothing left for me to give I wish I could and I know that I should but you know I know I won't and you don't care your face is on a billboard your everywhere you don't care much for interviews your gone your gone your gone your gone your gone your gone your gone your gone away if you don't like being hurt then please don't stay if you don't like being hurt then get away if you don't like being hurt then please don't stay <3 mag post comment

[04 Jan 2004|09:25pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | Dashboard Confessional ] Man it takes a silly girl to lie about the dreams she has. But lord, it takes a lonely one to wish that she had never dreamt at all. post comment

[04 Jan 2004|09:32pm] something else i wrote...<3 tell me what you think Someone Ugly Reminiscing, she crumbles in two Holds her breath at the thought of you So the past whispers she's said Won't drown her by the flooding Her murder, assured to be bloody She's becoming someone ugly Only wanting impossibility But love is not an option She wasn't taught correctly A way to let go easily She might leave without a fight But a masacre, her insides She knows you're hiding from her Buying some time to lure Good for you for figuring how To find the easiest route out Congrats you left without breaking a sweat "Well, you've hit the mark", she mutters And drains her heart of your love As she cuts her skin again tata 1 comment|post comment

don't think she likes me [04 Jan 2004|09:38pm] [ mood | creative ] [ music | desaparecidos ] What's New For Fall Lyrics into corduroys or jeans, chinos or capris sweater vest no sleeves, oxford underneath or whatever you think whatever is gonna make you want me c'mon and dress me I'll be your mannequin make me attractive, so sexy and thin I will stand still, pose me, in any position and when people pass by the window, I'll be adored by them I want to be one of the boys from the catalogues that you flip through you'll point and say "He's the one" (lick your finger turn the page slick gloss over images) and you waste no time deciding you grab the credit card, call, start ordering but what's new for fall by spring means nothing I want to undress you in your walk-in closet after you try on one of your new outfits I know that six months later you won't be caught dead in it but for that moment you're there with your shape hanging everywhere and it looks perfect, just perfect 2 comments|post comment

So keep the blood in your head, And keep your feet on the ground [04 Jan 2004|09:40pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows-Brand New ] Everyone...I have a request. I'd really appreciate if you guys could help me out. I need some good lyrics for the following situation: You meet someone, and things go great, you only know them for a very short time, and don't really know much about them, but what you do know you like...alot. This could be the start of something great, or the beginning of something horrible. But as of now..things are looking good, because you "clicked". The lyrics don't have to fit the situation perfectly, just something along those lines if you guys would be so kind. Anything is appreciated greatly :) thank you very much! Cause Mics Are For Singing, Not Swinging... You Know Who You Are. -Holly 4 comments|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|09:40pm] "The Best Thing" -Savage Garden Never want to fly Never want to leave Never want to say what you mean to me Never want to run Frightened to believe You're the best thing about me Sometimes I feel like this is only chemistry Stuck in a maze searching for a way to Shut down turn around feel the ground beneath me You're so close where do you end where do I begin? Always pushing and pulling Sometimes sanity takes vacation time on me I'm in a daze stumbling bewildered North of gravity head up in the stratosphere You and I roller coaster riding love You're the center of adrenaline And I'm beginning to understand Never want to fly Never want to leave Never want to say what you mean to me Never want to run Frightened to believe You're the best thing about me Walk on broken glass make my way through fire These are the things I would do for love Farewell peace of mind kiss goodbye to reason Up is down the impossible occurs each day This intoxication thrills me I only pray it doesn't kill me Never want to fly Never want to leave Never want to say what you mean to me Never want to run Frightened to believe You're the best thing about me You're the center of adrenaline And I'm beginning to understand You could be the best thing about me Never want to fly Never want to leave Never want to say what you mean to me Never want to run Frightened to believe You're the best thing about me You could be the best thing about me What if you're the best thing about me? 2 comments|post comment

and you're laughing out loud, at the thought of being alive. and i was wonderin', could i just be YOU tonight? [04 Jan 2004|10:33pm] [ mood | envious ] [ music | mb20 ----> could i just be you? ] oh shit. this song is awesome. <3 matchbox twenty * the difference. Slow dancing on the boulevard in the quiet moments while the city’s still dark Sleepwalking through the summer rain, in the tired spaces you could hear her name When she was warm and tender and you held her arms around you There was nothing but her love and affection, she was crazy for you Now she’s part of something that you lost (chorus) And for all you know This could be The difference between what you need And what you wanna be Yeah, what you wanna be Night swimming in her diamond dress making small circles move across the surface Stand watching from the steady shore, feeling wide open and waiting for Something warm and tender, now she’s moving further from you There was nothing that could make it easy on you Every step you take reminds you that she’s walking on Yeah, for all you know This could be The difference between what you need And what you want... Every word you never said Echoes down your empty hallway And everything that was your world Just came down Day breaking on the boulevard, feel the sun warming up your second-hand heart Light swimming right across your face and you think, maybe someday, yeah Maybe someday For all you know Yeah, this could be The difference between what you need And what you want... Yeah, for all you know For all you know Yeah, for all that you know This is what you wanna be Girl, what you wanna be post comment

[04 Jan 2004|11:01pm] [ mood | worthless ] [ music | emily ] "what it would be like to stab you in your beautiful neck"" post comment

[04 Jan 2004|11:04pm] Wow...this isn't emo- it's...grunge. But it's still an AWESOME song! Alice In Chains- Down In A Hole Bury me softly in this womb I give this part of me for you Sand rains down and here I sit Holding rare flowers In a tomb...in bloom Down in a hole and I don't know if I can be saved See my heart I decorate it like a grave You don't understand who they Thought I was supposed to be Look at me now a man Who won't let himself be Down in a hole, feelin' so small Down in a hole, losin' my soul I'd like to fly, But my wings have been so denied Down in a hole and they've put all The stones in their place I've eaten the sun so my tongue Has been burned of the taste I have been guilty Of kicking myself in the teeth I will speak no more of my feelings beneath Down in a hole, feelin' so small Down in a hole, losin' my soul I'd like to fly but my Wings have been so denied Bury me softly in this womb Oh I want to be inside of you I give this part of me for you Oh I want to be inside of you Sand rains down and here I sit Holding rare flowers (Oh I want to be inside of you) In a tomb...in bloom Oh I want to be inside... Down in a hole, feelin' so small Down in a hole, losin' my soul Down in a hole, feelin' so small Down in a hole, outta control I'd like to fly but my Wings have been so denied 1 comment|post comment

[04 Jan 2004|11:06pm] -I am asking for someone had asked me to ask. . . Does anyone know any good songs about someone falling in luve? 3 comments|post comment

Unwritten Law rocks! [04 Jan 2004|11:13pm] Walk along these lonely streets With these shoes upon my feet Familiar faces appear Only when I go to sleep But I don't go there And I don't know where Where I am And I'm so scared And I wanna fall asleep Cos I know thats where we'll meet But I'll sit and wonder why I'm alone again tonight Let's go there Outta sight Hey hey Jodi Won't you take me away? Away The clock ticks slowly away As the night falls on the day I haven't felt you in weeks It's like Im lost in outer space post comment

-My Own Work [04 Jan 2004|11:27pm] [ mood | Needing Someone To Luve ] I bathe my luve in your sorrow, Your lonliness is bliss. Your broken eyes are beautiful, Your tear painted lips are best to kiss. post comment

[04 Jan 2004|11:39pm] one last touch from me to you, one last time we'll sit here counting the seconds of our silence, watching the clock, knowing the day is ending one moment at a time. the places we walked and you grabbed my waist and kissed my neck. behind the stages you screamed out your heart, you made jealousy taste so perfect. i was torn up by your untruths, I wish I knew better, than to take it out on you, my insecurities, to bring this to a stop, all your stupid backups. I thought I was all you needed? Save your breath, I hope you choke, one day you'll realize you're mistakes, I don't care if you're too scared to be alone again. does it matter? When there was always someone else to take my place? so one last word from me to you. save your breath, your apologies were way overdue. its such a shame, you had to fake it. if you were half a man, we could've made it. this is the last breath we'll take together, in the moment of a dying love I can't remember. you've been fading into my eyes, becoming a moment placed in rhyme , a memory between broken hearts from me to you. 6 comments|post comment

boa ~ duvet [04 Jan 2004|11:43pm] And you don't seem to understand A shame you seemed an honest man And all the fears you hold so dear Will turn to whisper in your ear And you know what they say might hurt you And you know that it means so much And you don't even feel a thing I am falling, I am fading, I have lost it all And you don't seem the lying kind A shame that I can read your mind And all the things that I read there Candle-lit smile that we both share And you know I don't mean to hurt you But you know that it means so much And you don't even feel a thing I am falling, I am fading, I am drowning, Help me to breathe I am hurting, I have lost it all I am losing Help me to breathe post comment

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