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[03 Jan 2004|12:22am] [ mood | confused ] she’s a fool because she has this longing for him, but she’s scared to tell him and find out what he’ll say.. ..he has a rule that he can never seem too interested because he’s scared that she might not feel the same way. and she wishes he loved her, when there’s no other he’d prefer. for felix : stolen from the start 2 comments|post comment

youre going to die, and im going to watch [03 Jan 2004|12:33am] i want to post, but im not sure what about. ive been feeling really empty, and brand news sic transit gloria- glory fades was stuck in my head, and i was thinking about some lines Keep the noise low she doesnt want to blow it i can relate, like change the she to a he, and at this moment in my life i feel like this guy is controlling me. like not in a bad way. just i feel like im listening to everything hes saying just because im in love with him. i realized that ive changed myself for him, like i shouldnt have, he should like me for me, which he does, but i realized i tried to change little things that were annoying him. seriously, he can kiss my ass. but idk, i love him...so much tell me, is that what it feels like to be in love? lost, empty, unsure of everything except that u want him. ??? i dont kno, like i just want him, and once i have him i feel like ill be complete...ugh i hate this 3 comments|post comment

"Smile"-Unsung Zeros [03 Jan 2004|12:34am] Regrets are my bedfellows I'm feeling so alone I've messed up my life pallette Now it's colored up with woes Just two simple words Have changed me to no end Just two simple words Have changed me to no end Just two simple words To quote you Only friends I miss your smile When I'm sleeping all alone I'm in our house And your not ever home Changed residence Stopped paying out the rent And girl I miss your smile When I drive by your house It makes me want to cry Each time I see your face It makes me want to die So why do I sit back And look at picture books of you I guess I'm just messed up And that's all I can do. 3 comments|post comment

"Sell My Old Clothes, I'm Off To Heaven"-Saves the Day [03 Jan 2004|12:40am] There's a beautiful sky tonight and if you were by my side then we could share it but you are gone. So come at me with your moon and burn me in the stars cause nothing matters anymore. If I could only see you now for about an hour maybe just a minute just to ask What has he got that I don't have? Is it his brown eyes? I know blue eyes get boring but I'll wear dark glasses all the time and hey if you want me to, I'll take a knife to my own bright eyes. If I could only see you now for about an hour maybe just a minute just to ask what has he got that I don't have? Is it his brown eyes? Well, I'll give you a thousand reasons that tonight you should grant me this one wish. Like the one year of my life that I gave to you and now you put me through hell. You break me up. I should hate you, but I can't replace you in my heart. Why am I so pathetic? I don't get it why you won't return my calls. Can't you look at me once? And please if you got a minute, enjoy this lonely sky with me. It'll swallow us whole if we only let it. If I could only see you now for about an hour maybe just a minute just to ask what has he got that I don't have? Is it his brown eyes? Well, I'll give a thousand reasons that tonight you should grant me this one wish. Like the one year of my life that I gave to you and now you put me through hell. You break me up. If this sky's going to eat us then I'd like to be digested into a million pieces with you. I'd love to be scattered to hell with you. To hell with you. 3 comments|post comment

[03 Jan 2004|12:49am] [ mood | calm ] we both want the world, but we both know that this gets old. if i could open up my chest and maybe I could find a way to give you just a little piece of my heart. sometimes I'd rather cut your lips right off your face then kiss them goodnight. but then sometimes, you make the room feel perfect when you try. because a mouth full of lies will leave a sour taste that cuts just like a knife as it slide down your throat. you give up the world and fall to your knees to show me that you care we could believe in windows but behind the broken glass are fairy tales in her bedroom i am throwing pieces of what i wish i could be knowing that someday in her bedroom she will know. here we go if i could find your eyes from across the room we have to try not to throw away this happiness if air explodes between us then this is more than just a feeling today i woke up mising you another day goes by alone we could believe in windows but behind the broken glass are fairy tales in her bedroom I am throwing pieces of what I wish I could be knowing that someday in her bedroom bedroom she will know. not every movie has a happy ending but frame by frame i learn to love you when i see flowers bloom in your footsteps. i learn to love you i learn to love you frame by frame we both want the world but we both know that this gets old if i could open up my chest then maybe i could find a way to give you just a little piece of my heart sometimes i would rather cut your lips right off your face than kiss them goodnight but then sometimes you can make a room feel perfect when you try because a mouth full of lies will leave a sour taste that cuts just like a knife as it slides down your throat you give up the world and fall to your knees to show me that you care we could believe in windows but behind the broken glass are fairy tales in her bedroom i am throwing pieces of what i wish i could be knowing that someday in her bedroom she will know. here we go if i could find your eyes from across the room we have to try not to throw away this happiness if air explodes between us then this is more than just a feeling today i woke up mising you another day goes by alone we could believe in windows but behind the broken glass are fairy tales not every movie has a happy ending but frame by frame i learn to love you when i see flowers bloom in your footsteps. i learn to love you i learn to love you frame by frame ..:: In Her Bedroom ::.. Story Of the Year ..:: post comment

I have A Fire Inside [03 Jan 2004|01:33am] [ mood | mellow ] [ music | Built To Spill ] AFI~Miseria Cantare (The Beginning) Love your hate, your faith lost You are now one of us Love your hate, your faith lost You are now one of us Nothing from nowhere, I'm no one at all Radiate, recognize one silent call As we all form one dark flame... Incinerate Nothing from nowhere, I'm no one at all Radiate, recognize one silent call As we all form one dark flame As we all form one dark flame As we all... Love your hate, your faith lost You are now one of us Love your hate, your faith lost You are now one, one of us 3 comments|post comment

[03 Jan 2004|01:36am] A single tear drops down her face Broken shattered and misplaced She cries for you, until she is done She cries for you, her only one just something i thought of one day comments if ya wanna 2 comments|post comment

[03 Jan 2004|02:43am] [ mood | bored ] I love this song. HIM :: Join Me In Death Baby join me in death We are so young our lives have just begun but already we're considering escape from this world and we've waited for so long for this moment to come was so anxious to be together together in death Won't you die tonight for love Baby join me in death This world is a cruel place and we're here only to lose so before life tears us apart let death bless me with you Won't you die tonight for love Baby join me in death this live ain't worth living 2 comments|post comment

but most of the time, there's nothing we can do [03 Jan 2004|03:11am] [ mood | drained ] [ music | 44 caliber love letter by alexisonfire ] as some, i've been watching this community closely for a while...and it is so deck...if i knew how to italicize so, i would... 'everything is beautiful when you don't look down' by glasseater our world is a strange place escape this mental prison encompassed by bright lights "fast life" giant like buildings leaving their shadows to cover up the true way life. beyond the brainwashed right past the walking dead underneath the nice view there are lies should i pretend that i'm blind oblivious to the hardships going on in this life not anymore everything's beautiful when you don't look down awareness brings wholeness undress this world's outer skin i'll wake up to reality and see this world in disbelief reality in the eyes of the unblind its life through true observance let's wake up to reality and see this world through me there is so much out there to see when you read between thin lines but most of the time there's nothing we can do 2 comments|post comment

i fell in love with these lyrics... [03 Jan 2004|03:25am] [ mood | thoughtful ] [ music | memphis will be laid to waste by norma jean ] 'all these things' by benton falls i promise that i won't fall down i promise that i won't skin my knee like you promised you'd always be around to take good care of me and i remember you standing behind that white picket fence with a white peaked face trying hard to embrace my youth before it escapes before it's too late clutching the fence she said "how have i hurt you what have i done did i desert you or spite with my tongue was i too eager or love you too much" i love you too much and now that i'm all grown i'm feeling so alone why have you brought me here you say all these things i say but it's not the same i'm feeling so alone today alone and numb i'll ice my thoughts i'll ice my mind for now it's not your fault you did what you could do for this i will love you for always you hold my heart and my tiny hand thank you for all these things post comment

[03 Jan 2004|03:49am] penning the penultimate by the velvet teen (this i know you guys will appreciate) i know a lot more than they think and with the radio on i try to go back to sleep when all the world's posers blow smoke in my face i think of the love that i can make but i struggle so hard for each breath that i take. i get so sick that i can hardly speak but with my head full of pills i try to go back to sleep 'cause when you're sad but you force up a grin anyway it's hard not to feel fake but i struggle so hard for each breath that i take. maybe some day i'll be at the top and with my head in my hands i'll try to make it all stop, just stop 'cause every time i find love i choke so hard that for weeks my body aches but i struggle so hard for each breath that i take i struggle so hard for each breath that i take and i struggle so hard for each breath... be what you are don't be what you are when the world throws you down at its feet at least you can know you've got it straight we all struggle so hard for each breath that we take. we all struggle so hard for each breath that we take. and i struggle so hard for each breath that i take post comment

onelinedrawing - your letter [03 Jan 2004|03:50am] There's your letter there's you on my floor there's you in the corner there's me, wondering what this is for Have you finally met her? Is it to say you wish for me only the best? I hope you never get her I hope it's saying how you know now there's nothing left I read your letter I read it five times now but I still don't get it All this shit about memories and you and me and the way it used to be and how you half-regret it and how it feels so good to get it off your chest I wish I never read it Makes me wish i was the one who left Oh, I need a letter oh, i need a letter i need a letter but not that kind I don't need a letter to help me remember what is not (what was never) mine Oh, I need a letter but not that kind 3 comments|post comment

[03 Jan 2004|03:59am] this is me pretending this is all i need post comment

[03 Jan 2004|05:11am] ATTENTION: I hate to waste a post on this but The user SADDESTEMOSTAR is now EYESBURNBRIGHT That's me! :) 2 comments|post comment

random [03 Jan 2004|06:38am] I left you for someone else. Everyone thinks I only did it because I love to watch you cry. I still pretend that I don't care. comment post comment

[03 Jan 2004|09:48am] well i watched American Wedding last night (very very funny, definitely recommend) and i, am always the one who notices the songs that are played. and last night, during that movie..some very kick ass songs were played. so i figured i'd post one ;-) <3 enjoy dudes. ps: last night made me also miss my baby so much, new years was so amazing, and now i have to wait until tomorrow night to see him, if only for a few hours *sigh* :( but anyways, good song for a good relationship =) *kisses* <3court Blue October - "Calling You" There's something that I can't quite explain I'm so in love with you You'll never take that away And if I've said a hundred times before Expect a thousand more You'll never take that away Well expect me to be Calling you to see If you're okay when I'm not around, Asking if you love me I love the way you make it sound Calling you to see Do I try too hard to make you smile, To make us smile...? I will keep calling you to see If you're sleeping or you're dreaming If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me? I can't believe you actually picked me I thought that the world had lost its sway (It's so hard sometimes) Then I fell in love with you (Then came you) And you took that away (It's not so difficult, the world is not so difficult) You take away the old, show me the new And I feel like I can fly when I stand next to you So while I'm on this phone A hundred miles from home I'll take the words you gave And send them back to you I only want to see If you're okay when I'm not around, Asking if you love me I love the way you make it sound Calling you to see Do I try too hard to make you smile, To make us smile...? I will keep calling you to see If you're sleeping or you're dreaming If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me? I can't believe you actually picked me 1 comment|post comment

.:: this is the grace that only we can bestow, this is the price you pay for loss of control::. [03 Jan 2004|11:35am] [ mood | blank ] [ music | Moneen- This year I've had enough ] My Chemical Romance- Demolition Lovers Hand in mine, into your icy blues And then I'd say to you we could take to the highway With this trunk of ammunition too I'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets I'm trying, I'm trying To let you know just how much you mean to me And after all the the things we put each other through and I would drive on to the end with you A liquor store or two keeps the gas tank full And I feel like there's nothing left to do But prove myself to you and we'll keep it running But this time, I mean it I'll let you know just how much you mean to me As snow falls on desert sky Until the end of everything I'm trying, I'm trying To let you know how much you mean As days fade, and nights grow And we go cold Until the end, until this blood Until this, I mean this, I mean this Until the end of... I'm trying, I'm trying To let you know how much you mean As days fade, and nights grow And we go cold But this time, we'll show them We'll show them all how much we mean As snow falls on desert sky Until the end of every... All we are, all we are Is bullets I mean this As lead rains, will pass on through our phantoms Forever, forever Like scarecrows that fuel this flame we're burning Forever, and ever Know how much I want to show you you're the only one Like a bed of roses there's a dozen reasons in this gun And as we're falling down, and in this pool of blood And as we're touching hands, and as we're falling down And in this pool of blood, and as we're falling down I'll see your eyes, and in this pool of blood I'll meet your eyes, I mean this forever 1 comment|post comment

sometimes i miss you when i sing to myslef [03 Jan 2004|11:48am] [ music | Boy meets world on t/v ] Mixtapes and Memories: The lyndsay diaries. I promise, this won't be another song, about being alone but all I feel is regret and I can't find the nerve to pick up the telephone. I was thinking about how it drives me crazy just to feel your hand in mine, and how simple that is and I've thought about saying no to hope but I have this funny habit of putting pictures up on the wall of you and me. And I know that priorities never understand reality and time never lends itself to those who are waiting on love. But it's overdue that we should share this night and grace, your smile is the only thing that keeps me breathing. and I've thought about saying no to hope but I have this funny habit of putting pictures up on the wall of you and me, and you The hours pass by like minutes when I'm with you. The hours pass like minutes in the rain. So lets stand here in the rain, forever. Stories: Trapt. I found a lie, and then it grew. I found myself, still thinking of you I felt so empty,and now I'm fine.But still it's burning When will you be mine? Too much of the same stories in our lives I think it's time for change, Don't you? Too much of the same stories in our lives I think it's time for us to walk away from here Now look at me, still in your mind Our memories, so intertwined Well you broke through, and found your way And so did I;No need to stay In the same old picture tried and true We've been through that, Let's look for something new Too much of the same stories in our lives I think it's time for change, don't you? Too much of the same stories in our lives I think it's time for us to walk away from here... Do you remember lying on the beach so late at night Do you remember running through the sprinklers that night Do you remember all the songs that I have wrote for you All the songs that I have wrote for you. I remember.. the way you made me feel when I was with you I remember.. the smile that always brought me back to you That look in your eyes ... I never thought that this could be untrue That look in your eyes ... I never thought that this could be untrue Untrue 1 comment|post comment

a mark a mission a brand a scar [03 Jan 2004|11:51am] ok ive had a mark amission a brand a scar since it came out, i listened to it once then put it away for a while, well my boyfriend and his friend decide to do a dashboard song for the talent show and they borrow it, now i told them to do an older song and if hands down they must do it acustic. but it is just me or does the new dashboard cd kinda blow? like alot? 6 comments|post comment

i love this song [03 Jan 2004|12:02pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | "57"--biffy clyro. ] The sun shone in, the glint in your eye Your beautiful face, your beautiful face I held her tight, close to my heart I didn't know it would break, I didn't know it would break I don't believe there's love anymore, it's all inside We always said it's forever in this beautiful life And I’ll try not to feel this music’s for you and over, and over, and over And I’ll try not to feel this music’s for you and over, and over, and over... I held her tight, close to my heart I didn't know it would break, I didn't know it would break I don't believe there's love anymore, it's all inside We always said it's forever in this beautiful life And I’ll try not to feel this music’s for you and over, and over, and over And I’ll try not to feel this music’s for you and over, and over, and over... And over, and over, and over, and over, and over, and over, and over, and over, and over, and over, and over, and over, and over, and over, and over... It's alright, it's alright, it's alright, it's alright ! post comment

Beautiful-HIM [03 Jan 2004|12:02pm] Just one look into your eyes One look and I'm crying 'Cause you're so beautiful Just one kiss and I'm alive One kiss and I'm ready to die 'Cause you're so beautiful Just one touch and I'm on fire One touch and I'm crying 'Cause you're so beautiful Just one smile and I'm wild One smile and I'm ready to die 'Cause you're so beautiful Oh and you're so beautiful My darling Oh you're so beautiful You're so beautiful Oh my baby You're so beautiful And you're so beautiful Oh my darling Oh my baby And you're so beautiful 1 comment|post comment

[03 Jan 2004|12:24pm] [ mood | loved ] [ music | walls of jericho - angel ] walls of jericho aren't emo, but i'm seeing them tonight so i thought i'd post something by them. in this song, candace actually sings (as oposed to her screaming). you can read my interview with her at http://www.worldwidemetal.com their new cd comes out in a few weeks. I stare as my weak knees wilt longing trying to touch the embrace that has left me and I had you and your kindness was there now pieces of you hate me I am not a portrait on your heart no more but I still kiss the feelings that emerge from my pulse and memories seep from my eyes knowing that love has gone further than my soft hand can reach the utmost apology is what I can lay on your face but will you still swallow me whole? nothing can compare and you continue to dance in me and I continue to bleed but nothing can compare I have killed the one thing that exceeds my existence 2 comments|post comment

[03 Jan 2004|12:42pm] why do your eyes paralyze me? what makes me feel this way? just carry me away with silence and heartbeats as rapid thinking about your embrace and how it makes me feel i just want to feel this way forever i sleep on portraits painted as perfect as you why have i been given the chance to fly? when im not with you i feel lesser alone i remember your face imprinted on angels your voice as beautiful as the sounds of waves crashing against my heart time slows down when you look at me im infatuated with this, infatuated with you its so hard for me to understand why i hadn't found you before dont dull away.. hold my hand 3 comments|post comment

tulips are better-atreyu [03 Jan 2004|12:56pm] [ music | red hot chile peppers ] Crystal clear I see the rose is frail, the thorns hid easily in its beauty, as I go to grasp it in my hand My heart is torn beating from my chest Let me be captivated, by your beauty Then let me fall from your grace, unto my broken knees Close my eyes so tightly, the tears are welling up You aren't worth the waste, of the salt or the water Fuck all your false beauty, it was transparent just like your smile - liar Your thorns caress my flesh, crimson drops on a snowy field - liar I have watched you retrogress, I have seen what you've become - liar Please take your eyes off of me, it's funny how fast blue eyes fade gray - liar And you are deceit Watching the sun play in your hair I couldn't really care, care any less about you Just wither away real beauty is forever in you Just wither away post comment

[03 Jan 2004|12:57pm] but its you i fell into post comment

[03 Jan 2004|12:58pm] i have a request. can anyone think of any lyrics that have to do with someone forgetting about you now that they're supposedly "cool". like they dont give a shit about the person who cared about them first.. when they were nothing? thanks guys :o) 5 comments|post comment

-><- to a bastard -> [03 Jan 2004|01:03pm] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | [brand new|the no seatbelt song] ] [beckajo|to a bastard] i try but i can't be anything but literal with you we glared and struggled and the antipathy is so physical but eternally muddled by niceness and smiles fake, as your utmost concern passive-aggression and silence i'll take but you'd think by now i'd learn to disregard all your judgements and keep guarded my indiscretions which, though fun, don't turn me on like vengeance can... so save it for something bigger than my as-now paltry sins for something more personal more brutal, something meaner in the secret confines of my darkness i'm not loyal to you either xoxo beckajo [one heart forever will beat for yours...] post comment

Howdy [03 Jan 2004|01:16pm] [ mood | cold ] [ music | Q And Not U - Nine Things Everybody Knows ] good mournin everyone.......i know blink 182 is not emo at all but there new cd is more melow and theres this on song i fell in love with i love the lyrics after the guy i am like totally iin love with broke my heart This is the first (thing I remember) Now it's the last (thing left on my mind) Afraid of the dark (do you hear me whisper) An empty heart (replaced with paranoia) Where do we go (life's temporary) After we're gone (like new years resolutions) Why is this hard (do you recognize me) I know I'm wrong (but I can't help believing) I'm so lost I'm barely here I wish I could explain myself But words escape me It's too late To save me You're too late You're too late You're cold with disappointment While I'm drowning in the next room The last contagious victim of this plague between us I'm sick with apprehension I'm crippled from exhaustion And I dread the moment when you finally come to kill me This is the first (thing I remember) Now it's the last (thing left on my mind) Afraid of the dark (do you hear me whisper) An empty heart (replaced with paranoia) Where do we go (life's temporary) After we're gone (like new years resolutions) Why is this hard (do you recognize me) I know I'm wrong (but I can't help believing) XOXO post comment

[03 Jan 2004|01:20pm] "The First Time It Shouldn't Taste Like Blood" by Boys Night Out If you were to ask me how long I've been running for I don't even think that I could answer I just don't know anymore I'm a sucker for weakness and the blood covering my floor It's all that I have left to remind me of the girls I've loved before Believe me when I say that I love you angel, because I do But accidents will happen and they do Courtesy came calling with her best friend common sense Unaware that malice and manipulation had taken up residence Caring came to the crime scene, but bloodlust beat them back So apathy could laugh with his compadres and anger could attack Hey honey hold my hand and hope for heaven Because I just can't help myself Even angels end up burned and buried in my backyard and you You're just like everyone else post comment

[03 Jan 2004|01:23pm] Light A Match For I Deserve To Burn... post comment

[03 Jan 2004|01:24pm] [ music | Copeland-Brightest ] Copeland-Brightest If you find yourself here on my side of town I'd pray that you'd come to my door Talk to me like you don't know what we ever fought about Cause I don't remember anymore I just know that she warms my heart And knows what all my imperfections are And she said that I was the brightest little firefly in her jar And I just know that she warms my heart And knows what all my imperfections are And she says that I am the brightest little firefly in her jar 4 comments|post comment

[03 Jan 2004|01:30pm] i walked away. i heard them say "poison hearts will never change" walk away again. turned away in disgrace, felt the chill upon my face cooling from within. post comment

[03 Jan 2004|01:30pm] i walked away. i heard them say "poison hearts will never change" walk away again. turned away in disgrace, felt the chill upon my face cooling from within. 4 comments|post comment

[03 Jan 2004|01:36pm] [ music | mae-goodbye, goodnight ] The nights are getting colder. The red light's on, it's over. To give up now doesn't make much sense. So this is my goodbye. Surprised, because I thought I could walk you home tonight, but you're leaving me here on the defense. Goodbye, I'm not going to waste this time, this light that burns will keep on fading. Goodnight, I'm not getting up off of this ride, I'm holding tight until I can feel alive. I've written you this letter, got it back return to sender. But I just can't remember you being quite like that. Misunderstand, we're holding hands, we're at the beach, we're throwing sand. As the lights just go up all around us, I can't believe it's over. I'm sitting under falling stars. Do you miss me where you are? I'm making plans to be with you. But have they come unglued? What am I do to without you? The nights are getting warm again. They've let you go, I let you in. Everything you're saying sounds right tonight. The waves are crashing on and on. We're running even if we're wrong. This force is driving me to test the speed of light. mae-goodbye, goodnight 3 comments|post comment

Meaningful. . . [03 Jan 2004|01:45pm] [ mood | blank ] "Luve Is Death, Mourning To Awake" -M.Richardson post comment

Blah I am Bored [03 Jan 2004|01:47pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | Mars Volta!! ] The Mars Volta-Televators (this is an extremely good song and an extremly great band!! If have never listened to them go and buy some of there music or download some of it!!!) Just as he hit The ground They lowered a tow that Stuck in his neck to the gills Fragments of sobiquets riddle me this three half eaten corneas who hit the area Stalk the ground Stalk the ground You should have seen The curse that flew right by you Page of concrete Stained walks crutch in hobbled sway Autodafe A capulary hint of red Only this manupod Crescent in shape has escaped The house half the way Fell empty with teeth That split both his lips Mark these words One day this chalk outline will circle this city Was he robbed of the asphalt that cushioned his face A room colored charlatan Hid in a safe Stalk the ground Stalk the ground You should have seen The curse that flew right by you Page of concrete Stain walks crutch in hobbled sway Autodafe A capulary hint of red Only this manupod Crescent in shape Has escaped Pull the pins Save your grace Mark these words On his grave You should have seen The curse that flew right by you Page of concrete Stain walks crutch in hobbled sway Autodafe A capulary hint of red Everyone knows the last toes are Always the coldest to go 2 comments|post comment

Here's A Little Something [03 Jan 2004|01:52pm] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | the doors- light my fire ] i inhale water. i sink for a few days. i'm still waiting, i'm not moving. i'm gonna push until theres nothing left to lose give me regret, yeah break me now. i'm still waiting, i'm believing. you put your faith and left me here to die! help make things clear, just bring me back. i'm still waiting, i'm still waiting, i'm still waiting! put these thoughts to rest, i'm standing my ground. i'm still breathing. i'm not moving. i'm gonna cut, gonna change, and i'll never try! help make things clear, help bring me back. i still can't decide. if i'm dead or just not alive. i want to keep breathing. just not in my own skin. i'm still waiting, i'm not moving. i'm gonna push until theres nothing left to lose i'm still waiting, i'm not moving. i'm gonna cut, gonna change, and i'll never try! help make things clear, help bring me back. i inhale water. i sink for a few days. i inhale water. won't find me for days. i still can't decide. if i'm dead or just not alive. i want to keep breathing. just not in my own skin. i'll stab myself to death. i'll tie you up and make you watch it. RECOVER-Inhale Water. post comment

[03 Jan 2004|02:09pm] [ mood | awake ] stars are out tonight and you're the brightest one shining in my sky. it's like every wish I ever made came true. the day I woke up lying next to you. will you be my best friend if I offer you my heart? 'cause it's already yours. we could hang out every night and watch the sun go down. as long as we could watch it rise again. gave me a valentine. it's these little things that stand the test of time. I've saved the tickets from the shows that we've been to. and a thousand other memories of you. gave you this i.o.u. today. it said good for one galaxy. once I build my rocket to the stars. we'll fly away just you and me. the ataris : i.o.u. one galaxy 1 comment|post comment

[03 Jan 2004|02:20pm] And we wait above a road. We're turning to go home. And the silence from the side of the car, Tells me everything and how we are. Cause there's no more trying to make this so right. Theres no more trying tonight. And you know it's not so easy when you're all alone, And I wonder if, I'm alone in your head. I know something is wrong, I just don't know what to do. You say it's only me, and, that I'm so perfect for you. I don't want to try no more, I don't want to make this right. I just want you to be true to me one time. And you know it's not so easy when you're all alone, And I wonder if I'm alone in your head. Twelve days gone by, since I have saw you last, I'll give this one more try, I'll give it all my best, and, I'll ask What could you be doing that is so much fun? Without me by your side, Without me by your side. And, I will take a step back, and, I'll let you ahead, And, I will take a step away, and, see if you come back, Because there's no more trying to make this so right, Theres no more trying, Theres no more trying tonight. We'll never be the same, We will never be the same, We will never be the same, We will never be the same, Until you're done. the early november, sunday drive post comment

[03 Jan 2004|02:22pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | American Nightmare- Postmark My Compass ] i took a shot at the world and i missed traded my bow for a new year's kiss broken arrows and loveless wrists tell “j.c.“ i'm dying in mass and if it wasn't so cold i'd swear that this was hell 2 comments|post comment

[03 Jan 2004|02:26pm] I need help! Who sings this song. . . "I've got sunshine, on a cloudy day. And when It's cold outside. . .I've got the month of May. I'd guess, you'd say. . what would make me feel this way? My girl {My girl} Talking about, my girl . . MY GIRL!" -I know who sings it, but then I forget. . please clue me in. Thank you! 5 comments|post comment

[03 Jan 2004|02:36pm] [ mood | uncomfortable ] Im just trying to refind my heart It was there just hard to see in the dark....you werent even looking post comment

[03 Jan 2004|03:03pm] Mestizos Love Song by Melee Theres no denying Truth can leave you crying When you've never loved before. I hope you're never leaving Because wishes are deceiving And crying only hurts us more. So fall asleep I'll always be in love with you. And forever know You're always in my dreams. You never loved me like you said you did. Night fades into day My dreams are where you stay Can we ever really get it right? I'm not going to say it Because I don't want to hear How it's never really worth the fight. Remaining fairly happy Patiently away the moment that you realize Call it superstition Call it intuition But I know where our future lies So fall asleep I'll always be in love with you. And forever know You're always in my dreams. You never loved me like you said you did. Sing to sleep I'll always be in love with you. And forever know You're always in my dreams. 1 comment|post comment

Eligy... [03 Jan 2004|03:54pm] [ mood | distressed ] [ music | snapcase-zombie prescription. ] In the spirit of death,on the ride to lonelyness, you have finally killed me for your arms to hold me, soon to disapear, make-believe beauty is my own worthless memories, burning thoughts, enclosed words of my home i miss you darlin', cold and only you can save me i wont die again, i wont live again, i will be only a memory of what you could be Meaningless beauty - im a terrible writer xoxo 2 comments|post comment

I'll Keep My Screams to Myself if You'll Never Whisper "I love you" again. [03 Jan 2004|04:09pm] [ mood | quixotic ] [ music | "Stay Tonight" - Matchbook Romance ] "The Quiet Things that No One Ever Knows" - Brand New We saw the Western coast. I saw the hospital. Nurse the shoreline like a wound. We paint a lover's tryst. We're neither clear nor descript. We kept it safe and slow. The quiet things that no one ever knows. Keep the blood in your head And keep your feet on the ground. Today's the day it gets tired. Today's the day we drop down. Give up my body in bed. All for an empty hotel. Wasting words on lowercases and capitals. I contemplate the day we wed. Your friends are boring me to death. Your veil is ruined in the rain. By then you like to do without. There's nothing new to talk about. And though our kids are blessed, The parents let them shoulder all the blame. Keep the blood in your head And keep your feet on the ground. Today's the day it gets tired. Today's the day we drop down. Give up my body in bed. All for an empty hotel. Wasting words on lowercases and Capitals. I lie for only you. And I lie well. Halleluh. Keep the blood in your head And keep your feet on the ground. Today's the day it gets tired. Today's the day we drop down. Give up my body in bed. All for an empty hotel. Wasting words on lowercases and Capitals. ~I guess the way she decided to show her heart was still in her chest and not in my hands was far from a quiet thing. She screamed it at the top of her lungs without saying a word. A bat of her eyelashes threw my soul into the incinerator as she walked away triumphant from my lifeless body.~ 5 comments|post comment

[03 Jan 2004|04:23pm] BOYS NIGHT OUT "Where We Breathe" If every day was the same I would have died years ago My calendar is marked with blood red X's for every 24 hours ive suffered through Today has been cluttered with.. broken teeth and filthy stitches and a conscience that won't shut up I understand that your worst is beating the hell out of my best but I can take it (I can take it) The one thing that I'll never get is how you turned out like all the rest but I can take it (but I can take it) It says a lot about the difference..between me and you But if you're all that I've got I'll have nothing left After what I'm about to do Let's begin this autumn drive One jerk of the wheel we'll see how cold this November water really is I understand that your worst is beating the hell out of my best But I can take it (I can take it) The one thing that I'll never get is how you turned out like all the rest but I can take it (but I can take it) And I'll watch your blood run thin through infected wounds and softened scars again I'll watch your blood run thin through infected wounds and softened scars It's my favorite kind of day filled with the things we fear will find us where we sleep, and fuck us where we breathe (that wont just fade away) The way I let you fade away I let you fade away.. The way I.. let you fade away Today was my favorite kind of day Whoa whoa, whoa whoa Today was my favorite kind of day Whoa whoa, whoa whoa Today was my favorite kind of day Whoa whoa, whoa whoa Today was my favorite kind of day 2 comments|post comment

[03 Jan 2004|04:34pm] [ mood | content ] You're graceful, your grace falls, down around me in my eyes. You're lovely, your love leaves, So easily in my eyes. Another day left waiting, alone in my room with no calls from you. So I call you up, but you let me down, falling down around everyone except yourself. I thought that this would never end, things were so clear but they fell through. High hopes of problems never failed, thinking of the best. You're graceful, your grace falls, down around me in my eyes. You're lovely, your love leaves, So easily in my eyes. Another day left crying, with you in my room with nothing left to do. You say that it's not right, you said its over now. Stand still annoyed with no one around. I thought that this would never end, things were so clear but they fell through. High hopes of problems never failed, thinking of the best. You're graceful, your grace falls, down around me in my eyes. You're lovely, your love leaves, So easily in my eyes. You're graceful, your grace falls, down around me in my eyes. You're lovely, your love leaves, So easily in my eyes. rufio : in my eyes 2 comments|post comment

I <3 Fall Out Boy. [03 Jan 2004|04:49pm] [ mood | disappointed ] [ music | Fall out boy ] I'm holding out and I'm holding on to every letter and every grudge. I pulled myself out of the day we ever had to meet. Are you through with me? When it all goes to hell, will you be able to tell me sorry with a straight face? I'm all ears and I'm all scars to hear you tell me "Boy's like you try too hard to look not quite as desperate". I'm hanging on but I still know the way to make your makeup run. Take this to your grave and I'll take it to mine. 2 comments|post comment

i guess im the reason ur with stupid... [03 Jan 2004|05:09pm] [ mood | gloomy ] [ music | stare at the sun -thrice ] ruthless -something corporate Ruthless" This is the only lonely picture waiting on my floor littering my shore this is the last true burning letter given to a girl written by a boy living in a world created to destroy but if i built you a city, would you let me would you tear it down? but there you go for the last time i finally know now what i should have known then that i could still be ruthless if you let me but there you go and i'm not done you're waving goodbye, well atleast youre having fun the rising tide will not let you forget me forget me this is your ghost that kneels before me razers on her tongue, a body full of oxygen it wont be the last time she'll ignore me the thinning of my skin, without the strength to go the winter's setting in, to cover you in snow but if i built you a city, would you let me would you tear it down? but there you go for the last time i finally know now what i should have known then that i could still be ruthless if you let me but there you go and i'm not done you're waving goodbye, well atleast youre having fun the rising tide will not let you forget me forget me forget me forget me, yeah ill raise towers and climb them rivers and walk them oceans to drown in you won't make a sound in but there you go for the last time i finally know now what i should have known then that i could still be ruthless if you'll let me but there you go and i'm not done you're waving goodbye, but atleast youre having fun the rising tide will not let you forget me ...forget me 2 comments|post comment

The Cure- Burn [03 Jan 2004|05:25pm] [ mood | exhausted ] *I love this song* "Don't look don't look" the shadows breathe Whispering me away from you "Don't wake at night to watch her sleep You know that you will always lose This trembling Adored Tousled bird mad girl... " But every night I burn But every night I call your name Every night I burn Every night I fall again "Oh don't talk of love" the shadows purr Murmuring me away from you "Don't talk of worlds that never were The end is all that's ever true There's nothing you can ever say Nothing you can ever do... " Still every night I burn Every night I scream your name Every night I burn Every night the dream's the same Every night I burn Waiting for my only friend Every night I burn Waiting for the world to end "Just paint your face" the shadows smile Slipping me away from you "Oh it doesn't matter how you hide Find you if we're wanting to So slide back down and close your eyes Sleep a while You must be tired... " But every night I burn Every night I call your name Every night I burn Every night I fall again Every night I burn Scream the animal scream Every night I burn Dream the crow black dream Dream the crow black dream... *Enjoy....Im going to bed now* 1 comment|post comment

lonelyness. [03 Jan 2004|05:46pm] [ mood | content ] and you don't wanna be here in the future so you say the present's just a pleasent interruption to the past and you don't wanna look much closer cuz your afraid to find out all this hope you had sent into the sky by now had crashed and it did because of me -blah 1 comment|post comment

Ben Rocks.. [03 Jan 2004|06:36pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | Ben Folds Five-Song for the Dumped ] Ben Folds//Still Fighting It Good morning, son. I am a bird Wearing a brown polyester shirt You want a coke? Maybe some fries? The roast beef combo's only $9.95 It's okay, you don't have to pay I've got all the change Everybody knows It hurts to grow up And everybody does It's so weird to be back here Let me tell you what The years go on and We're still fighting it, we're still fighting it And you're so much like me I'm sorry Good morning, son In twenty years from now Maybe we'll both sit down and have a few beers And I can tell you 'bout today And how I picked you up and everything changed It was pain Sunny days and rain I knew you'd feel the same things Everybody knows It sucks to grow up And everybody does It's so weird to be back here. Let me tell you what The years go on and We're still fighting it, we're still fighting it You'll try and try and one day you'll fly Away from me Good morning, son I am a bird It was pain Sunny days and rain I knew you'd feel the same things Everybody knows Tt hurts to grow up And everybody does It's so weird to be back here. Let me tell you what The years go on and We're still fighting it, we're still fighting it Oh, we're still fighting it, we're still fighting it And you're so much like me I'm sorry ------------------------------- ------------------------------- Ben Folds//The Luckiest I don't get many things right the first time In fact, I am told that a lot Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls Brought me here And where was I before the day That I first saw your lovely face? Now I see it everyday And I know That I am I am I am The luckiest What if I'd been born fifty years before you In a house on a street where you lived? Maybe I'd be outside as you passed on your bike Would I know? And in a white sea of eyes I see one pair that I recognize And I know That I am I am I am The luckiest I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you Next door there's an old man who lived to his nineties And one day passed away in his sleep And his wife; she stayed for a couple of days And passed away I'm sorry, I know that's a strange way to tell you that I know we belong That I know That I am I am I am The luckiest ------------------------ just one more, i promise ---------------------------- Ben Folds Five//Brick 6 am day after Christmas I throw some clothes on in the dark The smell of cold Car seat is freezing The world is sleeping I am numb Up the stairs to the apartment She is balled up on the couch Her mom and dad went down to Charlotte They're not home to find us out And we drive Now that I have found someone I'm feeling more alone Than I ever have before She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly Off the coast and I'm headed nowhere She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly They call her name at 7:30 I pace around the parking lot Then I walk down to buy her flowers And sell some gifts that I got Can't you see It's not me you're dying for Now she's feeling more alone Than she ever has before She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly Off the coast and I'm headed nowhere She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly As weeks went by It showed that she was not fine They told me son, it's time to tell the truth She broke down, and I broke down Cause I was tired of lying Driving back to her apartment For the moment we're alone Yeah she's alone I'm alone Now I know it She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly Off the coast and I'm headed nowhere She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly ------------------------------- Sorry, Long Post. I've been listening to these songs alot lately, and I thought they were all worth posting. Hope you enjoyed ;) <3 always, Zoey 1 comment|post comment

Dead poetic-Bliss tearing eyes [03 Jan 2004|06:40pm] This is my favorite band. Enjoy <3<3 'Cause you bleed all the time. The pieces of a broken heart are wasted time. And I can't forgive myself for all the things I've done. But you, you do. Bleed one more time for me. 'Cause my heart is filled with loneliness. And this world is filled with loneliness. Bleed one more time for me. 'Cause the struggles of this world are blistering. Blistering. Your cells run through my veins. The times you lifted a dead man. That's me again. And I can't forgive myself for all the things I've done. But you, you do. Bleed one more time for me. 'Cause my heart is filled with loneliness. And this world is filled with loneliness. Bleed one more time for me. 'Cause the struggles of this world are blistering. Bleed one more time for me. 'Cause the struggles of this world are blistering. Blistering. post comment

Meaningful. . . [03 Jan 2004|07:13pm] [ mood | Sorrow ] "Where You Want To Be" -Darren Hayes Hey there stranger Do you remember? You were a part of my life Early December Think I remember? Sentiment cuts like a knife The seasons are changing Life's rearranging Full of good times Would a have beens Its all your fault And whereve you been And how time goes And though I dont even know How to fill in the spaces of the love youve erased in my life Are you where you wanted to be? Did you get there easily? Did I make you sacrifice? Did you make a sharp left When you should have turned right? Are you whereyou wanted to be? Did you sell off all your gold Did you trade it in? Did you wait for love Or settle for someone to hold? And barely symphonic But strangely ironic Moments contained in one glance Oh how i adored you But now im ignored by you Nowhere a tint of romance And now its vaguely familiar i think i remember sharing every single intimacy It doesnt seem so strange to me that we barely entertained Even the politest of phrases But sometimes at night I conjure you up in my mind Are you where you wanted to be? Did you get there easily? Did i make a sharp left When you should have turned right? Are you whereyou wanted to be? Did you sell off all your gold Did you trade it in? Did you wait for love Or settle for someone to hold? While I was busy Perfecting the art Of deflecting compliments I took it too far And i let a ripple run right through my heart Of battle stations we're building You and i just grew apart We grew apart While i decided To make everyone else happy i just put aside My foolish pride I guess I denied My own desire I was too busy pleasing To ever be pleased I forgot how to breathe Or question anything Or ask why? Am I? Am I where I wanted to be? Did i get here easily? Did I make a sacrifice? Did I take a sharp left When i should have turned right? Am I where i wanted to be? Can i sell of all of my god? Can I trade it in? Will I wait for Love Or settle for somebody to hold I'd settle for somebody to hold now You know that ive been up and ive been down ive been picked up and spun around id do it all again if i could just have somebody to hold now I just need somebody to hold now Could somebody hold me now? I just want somebody to hold me now I'd do it all again post comment

wut is the name of this songg?! [03 Jan 2004|07:15pm] i have no idea wut the name of this song is..help pleaseeeee i spend days and nights in my bedroom. trying to write the perfect song to sing to you 3 comments|post comment

[03 Jan 2004|07:24pm] [ mood | sorrow ] "Gunning Down Romance" -Savage Garden Love and other moments are just chemical reactions in your brain In your brain And feelings of aggression are the absence of the love drug in Your veins, in your veins Love come quickly Because I feel my self-esteem is caving in It's on the brink Love come quickly Because I don't think I can keep this monster in It's in my skin Love and other socially acceptable emotions are morphine They're morphine Cleverly concealing primal urges often felt but rarely seen Rarely seen Love I beg you Lift me up into that privileged point of view The world of two Love don't leave me Because I console myself that HallmarkT cards are true I really do I'm gunning down romance It never did a thing for me But heartache and misery Ain't nothing but a tragedy Love don't leave me Take these broken wings I'm going to take these broken wings And learn to fly And learn to fly away And learn to fly away I'm gunning down romance post comment

[03 Jan 2004|07:30pm] [ mood | creative ] here it goes, and this wont take long just let me dedicate a song to a girl boy who turned this boy girl to stone and you know who you are heres a hint, she he doesnt have a car or the time to be in love with me the starting line. post comment

i bleed [03 Jan 2004|07:37pm] [ mood | wasting away ] [ music | pixies ] PIXIES "Bleed" as loud as hell a ringing bell behind my smile it shakes my teeth and all the while as vampires feed i bleed prithee, my dear, why are we here nobody knows we go to sleep as breathing flows my mind secedes i bleed there's a place in the buried west in a cave with a house in it in the clay the holes of hands you can place a hand in hand in bleed post comment

...This cant be the end... [03 Jan 2004|08:23pm] [ mood | gloomy ] [ music | Down- Blink 182 ] Hey...I'm new here, go me right. Yeah...life is kind of sucking right now...everythings going wrong...oh well. Here's some songs. Hello there, the angel from my nightmare The shadow in the background of the morgue The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley We can live like Jack and Sally if we want Where you can always find me We'll have Halloween on Christmas And in the night we'll wish this never ends We'll wish this never ends (I miss you I miss you) (I miss you I miss you) Where are you and I'm so sorry I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight I need somebody and always This sick strange darkness Comes creeping on so haunting every time And as I stared I counted Webs from all the spiders Catching things and eating their insides Like indecision to call you and hear your voice of treason Will you come home and stop this pain tonight Stop this pain tonight Don't waste your time on me you're already The voice inside my head (miss you miss you) Don't waste your time on me you're already The voice inside my head (miss you miss you) Don't waste your time on me you're already The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you) Don't waste your time on me you're already The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you) .......................... The drops of rain they fall all over This awkward silence makes me crazy The glow inside burns light upon her I'll try to kiss you if you let me (this can't be the end) Tidal waves they rip right through me Tears from eyes worn cold and sad Pick me up now, I need you so bad Down down down down [x4] It gets me so Down down down down [x4] It gets me so Your vows of silence fall all over The look in your eyes makes me crazy I feel the darkness break upon her I'll take you over if you let me (You did this) Tidal waves they rip right through me Tears from eyes worn cold and sad Pick me up now, I need you so bad. Down down down down [x4] It gets me so Down down down down [x4] It gets me so ............................... I swear that I can go on forever again Please let me know that my one bad day will end I will go down as your lover, your friend Give me your lips and with one kiss we begin Are you afraid of being alone Cause I am, I'm lost without you Are you afraid of leaving tonight Cause I am, I'm lost without you I'll leave my room open till sunrise for you I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you Where are you now I can hear footsteps I'm dreaming And if you will, keep me from waking to believe this Are you afraid of being alone Cause I am, I'm lost without you Are you afraid of leaving tonight Cause I am, I'm lost without you Are you afraid of being alone Cause I am, I'm lost without you Are you afraid of leaving tonight Cause I am, I'm lost without you Are you afraid of being alone Cause I am, I'm lost without you Are you afraid of leaving tonight Cause I am, I'm lost without you I'm lost without you I'm lost without you ................................... i'm just so tired wont you sing me to sleep and fly through my dreams so i can hitch a ride with you tonight and get away from this place have a new name and face i just aint the same without you in my life late night drives, all alone in my car i can't help but start singing lines from all our favorite songs and melodies in the air singin life just aint fair sometimes i still just can't believe you're gone and im sure the view from heaven beats the hell out of mine here and if we all believe in heaven, maybe we'll make it through one more year down here feel your fire, when its cold in my heart and things sorta start remindin' me of my last night with you i only need one more day just one more chance to say i wish that i had gone up with you too and i'm sure the view from heaven beats the hell out of mine here and if we all believe in heaven maybe we'll make it through one more year down here you wont be comin' back and i didn't get to say goodbye i really wish i got to say goodbye and im sure the view from heaven beats the hell out of mine here and if we all believe in heaven maybe we'll make it through one more year i hope that all is well in heaven cuz its all shot to hell down here i hope that i find you in heaven cuz i'm so... lost without you down here you wont be coming back and i didn't get to say goodbye i really wish i got to say gooooodbye ................................... Yeah...I'll post some stuff i wrote later or something... 4 comments|post comment

[03 Jan 2004|08:35pm] [ mood | awake ] i am bleeding through just writing songs for you if i could draw what i felt then i would draw for you i'm just a boy letting go of his heart because the days are like knives and the knives are so sharp one more kiss - so i don't forget and then i'll open my arms to embrace the regret fragile dreams - fistfight kings slowdance queens... oh pick me please sending “get well“ cards to former stars ' cause i know how it feels to have fallen so far talentless yet nothingless than hopelessy in awe of you i want nostalgia forever if we throw this life away will we ever have to live again? say “no“ and i'm all yours say “yes“ and i'll still pull tell the boys i'll see them soon your lips were the softest yet nort, east, south, and west... i gave you my very best i left my heart in yesterday (remember how it used to be) i shot myself full of memory (befor the world turned on me) i left my heart in yesterday (remember how it used to be) i shot myself full of memory (before the world turned on me) forget what you know forget that it hurts the “new days“ are coming... they're getting worse i am bleeding through writing songs for you they're all for you 4 comments|post comment

Thanks for such an awsome community [03 Jan 2004|08:41pm] [ music | Something Corporate - Me and The Moon ] Hey there. I've actually been checking out this community for a while now but I didn't have a blurty. Now that I have one I just wanted to applaud all the members for posting such great lyrics 24/7. Hopefully I can contribute to the awesome-ness of this community. Well, here is something I wrote...i'd really like some comments/constructive critisicm if possible. ta. Alphabet Tears Your name is written in my tears The middle is so hard to hear Letters smeared down my cheeks Clearly spelling your identity Your eyes are drawn In the long lines of mascara They stare at me Blink from the matted hair And lost, false hopes Groping the creases of my face "Missing you" - an understatement You leave me hating what I've created Needing just a bit of someone But I have so much less than no one Breaking at the thought of you Taking time to think this through Faking a smile as though I don't care Trying to forget that you're not there Yet, it's so hard when I can taste Your name pouring down my face 7 comments|post comment

Give Up The Ghost- Since Always [03 Jan 2004|08:43pm] [ mood | awake ] Cold cold keep shaking Sing sing keep sinking Let the cars keep swerving Let the songs keep skipping Crush crush keep kissing Shoot shoot keep missing I used to compare myself but I don't care anymore I never had it, you never had it We were young and the sun didn't shine on us Where is the life you thought you'd live? Where is the love you thought you'd give? Sipping on sympathy, feeding on tragedy This is our therapy for open heart surgery I'll never have it, you'll never have it- We were young and the rains came down on us We're humming 'Reveille' just slightly out of key (Our love is real to me) In Sunday's best singing free of things we'd like to be And left over puddles we'd run ourselves quietly This is our therapy, this is for you and me Our love is real to me post comment

[03 Jan 2004|09:00pm] sry this isnt a song lyric...but read it.... A girl asked a boy if she was pretty. He said No. She asked him if he wanted to be with her forever. He said No. She then asked him if he would cry if she walked away. He said No. She had heard too much. She needed to leave. As she walked away, he grabbed her arm and told her to stay. He said, "You're not pretty, you're BEAUTIFUL. I don't want to be with you forever, I NEED to be with you forever, and I would'nt cry if you walked away, I would DIE! 4 comments|post comment

[03 Jan 2004|09:20pm] The Starting Line [cheek to cheek] bound to say something eyes closed, its cold, and im home i feel like nothing again pretending not to care but I care, and I care dont say another word our time was worthless, but I tried we started over and over again, as we let go held each other, held hands, held standards and grudges thats when i let you know, i guess that goes to show just what ive been going through More nights of hugging my pillow. oh. Replaying memories please sing this song for me tell me how you'll never leave my side and ill meet you around 7 and i miss you already goodbye to you time was worthless, but i tried we started over and over again, as we let go held each other, held hands, held standards and grudges thats when i let you know, i guess that goes to show sing this song for me tell me how youll never leave my side and ill meet you around 7 and I miss you already goodbye to you last goodbye ill ever say to you and i tried so hard and ive done my part and not to mention most of all of yours try and feel try and listen try and think of what youre missing try to look into my eyes TRY goodbye sing this song for me tell me how youll never leave my side and ill meet you around 7 and i miss you already goodbye to you last goodbye ill ever say to you youll never leave my side 4 comments|post comment

--my hopes are so high that ur kiss mite kill me, so wont u kill me so i die happy--dashboard [03 Jan 2004|09:31pm] [ mood | flirty ] [ music | good to no that if i ever need attention... -brand new ] great song! If it makes you less sad, I will die by your hand. I hope you find out what you want. I already know what I am. And if it makes you less sad, we'll start talking again. And you can tell me how vile I already know that I am. I'll grow old and start acting my age. I'll be a brand new day in a life that you hate. A crown of gold. A heart that's harder than stone. And it hurts a whole lot, but it's missed when it's gone. Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not. I'm glad that you can forgive. I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget. If it makes you less sad, I'll move out of the state. You can keep to yourself. I'll keep out of your way. And if it makes you less sad, I'll take your pictures all down. Every picture you paint, I will paint myself out. It's cold as a tomb, and it's dark in your room, when I sneak to your bed to pour salt in your wounds. So call it quits or get a grip. Say you wanted a solution. You just wanted to be missed. Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not. I'm glad that you can forgive. I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget... You are calm and reposed. Let your beauty unfold. Pale white, like the skin stretched over your bones. Spring keeps you ever close. You are second hand smoke. You are so fragile and thin. Standing trial for your sins. Holding onto yourself the best you can. You are the smell before rain. You are the blood in my veins. Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not. I'm glad that you can forgive. I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget. 1 comment|post comment

[03 Jan 2004|09:35pm] hey pretty, whats on your mind nothing here, an e-n-d-l-e-s-s night fed up and sick, tired of me my thin voice +ruins+ everything oh sweetheart dont say such things we dont know whos listening dont talk, dont smile just silently walk on by park. 1 comment|post comment

bored [03 Jan 2004|10:16pm] [ mood | cold ] [ music | Recover - My Only Cure ] Do you think im just going to watch you walk away with her NO! so ill tie you up and you'll be mine forever and your soft lips and bright eyes will be mine once i tie up your hands next to mine. xoxo post comment

[03 Jan 2004|10:16pm] [ music | "Soundtrack For Our Movie" - Mae ] Sing me something soft, sad, and delicate.. Or sing me something loud and out of key.. Sing me anything.. .Straylight Run. post comment

[03 Jan 2004|10:40pm] everytime somebody requests lyrics, i try to help them as much as possible. now, i need your help for the following situations: 1) Changing for people, being what people want me to be. 2) Moving on, getting over ex boyfriends or atleast try too. 3) being to shy to talk to somebody. another thing i need help with, is i'm bored lol if you want to talk about music, advice, request songs, ANYTHING instant message me(AIM) XNeverURStarX *Tiffo* 3 comments|post comment

[The worlds not big enough for the both of us when we live in the same town] [03 Jan 2004|10:47pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Coheed and Cambria ] I <3 Coheed and Cambria. When you've gone about things all wrong Bury them here With a lifetime you would never regret In savoring sleep What do you mean i toss and turn everywhere? I'll miss you when you're gone With pretending that you weren't the world to me With that you'd call me a liar and in making mistakes You'll rest incomplete In graver mistakes (I'll be home) Dear mom and dad I'll write you in this letter that states (I'll be moving on) When the new day's begun (New day's begun) Forget your son when he's out on his own The hand reads seven-thirty And your night begins to sink in the short but faster fall Anxious but calm retort to a mirror that frames your face Baring the finest swell And the day begins to break Like the tears that run across your cheek Stand straight and imagine you then In things and the way they could have been When the thoughts they race across your chin Here in the neverend In graver mistakes (I'll be home) Dear mom and dad I'll write you in this letter that states (I'll be moving on) When the new day's begun (New day's begun) Forget your son when he's out on his own Point your gun in another direction Now that you've cried yourself to sleep Point your gun in another direction Now that you've cried yourself to sleep Here and there After the fire (Before you walk home) When he's found figuring Will he be home again? (Signal loss and stereo) With wide open windows will she be waiting for (The sounds surround the overpass) With severed arm placement when the day's dark Old and dead (A dead man against you) We'll write her a letter with long time passing by In graver mistakes (I'll be home) Dear mom and dad I'll write you in this letter that states (I'll be moving on) When the new day's begun Forget your son when he's out on his own Point your gun in another direction Now that you've cried yourself to sleep Point your gun in another direction Now that you've cried yourself to sleep Here and there After the fire After the fire I'll be home Coheed and Cambria - Neverender 4 comments|post comment

It's not that I don't trust you, I just know what you've been up to [03 Jan 2004|10:50pm] [ mood | proud ] [ music | Sunglasses At Night-Corey Hart ] How convenient. "Sudden Death In Carolina"-Brand New Last night I swallowed liquor and a lighter And this morning I threw up fire But it's nothing new, I've been piecing it together It's got something to do With every look thrown like a knife across a crowded room And every slow and quiet car ride I spent drinking in the backseat Every stupid melody to every stupid song And every stupid word that everybody's hanging on What difference does this difference in age make? I know how it ends...She'll kill me quick. Call 911, I'm already dead but Someone should be caught and held responsible For this bloody mess. Last night I fell asleep next to a liar And I woke up with a shiner And it's all that I remember from a night spent lying on my back with a view Of a stone white ceiling and the back of your head And this quiet dark bed feels like the middle of nowhere And we beat each other up just like we always do When I'm talking to myself I'd always rather be talking to you What difference does this difference in age make? I know how it ends...She'll kill me quick Call 911, I'm already dead but Someone should be caught and held responsible For this bloody mess... Call homicide, take this case to court Cause her lips taste like a loaded gun I'm her number one chalk outline on the floor They hung her from the bridge on Monday, The gathering turned to a mob out on the lawn They dropped her body in the river School and work returned to normal before long Before long....And no one will mention any of this again Call 911, I'm already dead but Someone should be caught and held responsible For this bloody mess Call homicide, take this case to court Cause her lips taste like a loaded gun I'm her number one chalk outline on the floor. Hells yeah. -Holly post comment

lets pretend tonight that ur the imperfect one for once [03 Jan 2004|10:52pm] [ mood | awake ] [ music | as i lay dying ] not emo but i like the bold parts. besides CTTS is awesome Circle Takes The Square As The Roots Undo ::Non-Objective Portrait Of Karma:: Ignorance is bliss no wise woman's failed to mention and surely some koan suggests 'neglect leads to perfection' but the more I turn my face from the crowd the more I feel my backs' increasingly compelled for the sake of escape, to turn a knife on itself, a knife of relief, from all the petty insight and finally I'll sleep, I'll sleep through the night. Bored as fuck with this street corner-cover. study of a face in a figure. surveying this language as a game surveilence of this language as the plague. the dimension of persistence condemns. This portrait of karma, crafted in accident text book seduction, minus the text in the language of ghosts and so we ran, like the wolves were biting, the inhibitions of their prey kept them from screaming "scratch my back and I will stab you in yours" so I chose to live this life alone, without the teeth marks but I predict, I'll have to sink my fangs in someone else's heart to heal my own. just a victim's split, one part for the wolves, one part for you. but I'll grow weary soon, weary of this fractal code, weary of this hallway lined with ghosts. just a scratch upon the skin, a drop of blood to let them in their words will cause the sweetest fracture from a stone's throw just a scratch upon the skin, a drop of blood to welcome them parasitic, viral critics, or lovers, like spirits mingling in the mist that we crafted, a starving jury, let them eat shit from our trembling hands. The heat for heat's sake, on this Barnard block of Congress deductively speaking, the polar of progress well maybe I put too much faith in the accident entranced, we danced toward the ripest display of escape let the starving ghosts feats, from this flesh, from these bones, let them all feast. In this chess game of language, forced to sit so I play all alone, watch the bathos drift forth like the petals from a wild crafted rose. 2 comments|post comment

[03 Jan 2004|11:13pm] i miss you.. won't you say that you miss me too? i burnt a cd through which i am pleading that you and i might hang out soon. oh i don't mean a date or anything serious i just think that we'd be good friends so if you're not busy im just a bit curious if we could hang out this weekend. hellogoodbye : oh karissa post comment

Its the bitter taste of losing everything you've held so dear [03 Jan 2004|11:18pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | Getting By With It's//Reggie and the Full Effect ] Im new. Huzzah. My names Cassandra, and i've been diagnosed as emo. Huzzah again. My AIM screen name is ScreamMeAstory. Please IM me? I love talking about music, and i love discovering new bands. "Its always pretty after an A.p.o.c.a.l.y.p.s.e" taken from: Good Day by: Smart Went Crazy 4 comments|post comment

[03 Jan 2004|11:24pm] right, so here goes a weird question. i have this painting and i want some lyrics to put as a caption type thingie... theres a person sitting smoking a cigarette under a tree, and theres this really fiery sunset in the background... hey, i told you it was a weird question. maybe you guys have ideas? see if you cant think of some lyrics with "cigarette" in em too, kinda what im going for. but with a little meaning please, my darlings. 11 comments|post comment

*There is so much love in me, even though it's hard to see* [03 Jan 2004|11:37pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | "three evils(embodied in love and shadow)"- Coheed & Cambria ] "You sat me down beside myself To show me all the reasons I was wrong for you Was this for real? It's hard to tell 'Cause it was such a beautiful mess we had got into I'm gonna overcome this paper heart and win this time And all along, I should've known that this wasn't your dream, it was mine I know you wanted me to give up this life to be Everything I was back when you had the hands my heart was in I was never good at goodbyes Can I swallow this bottle whole? So, this brain in my head Can forget your face When we were starting out, you believed in me without a doubt You were the finest thing to happen to a boy like me It's so much harder, now, I wanna try and tell you how There is so much love in me, even though it's hard to see I was never good at goodbyes Can I swallow this bottle whole? So, this brain in my head Can forget your face Can I swallow this bottle whole? 'Cause I'd rather be dead Then make more mistakes Today I couldn't stay awake Feels like i'm drowning in this firewater lake I won't be sleeping much tonight It's not the same without you lying by my side Right beside me I know you wanted me To give up my life to be Everything I am, when you're the Only thing that I can see I'm sorry, but you're not the The only one for me You left me, here, beside myself Left me with all the reasons I was wrong for you" "Firewater"- Yellowcard I love this song...Tell me what you think of it, or if it has meaning to you. 1 comment|post comment

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