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okay so this is all the emotions i had over one person within 3 hours of a night plus many more...
My heart is on the floor, why don't you step on it? xxcrushmebabyxx
I'd give my life for just one kiss; I'd live for your smile and die for your kiss
I believe that when your heart skips a beat its a warning sign,
your hearts trying to warn you that its not going to pull through.
But we choose to ignore it and put it through hell.
For you id bleed myself dry
We're growing up by falling down
[my head in my hands and this is your cue, if three words could heal me you'd only speak two, my eyelids grow heavy and this your my cue, if three words could heal me you'd only speak two.]
To know that you feel the same as I do is a Three-fold utopian dream
Why do your eyes paralyze me
“My feelings are on the floor, they are there for you to keep”
When a smile is a close call and my words are caught in my throat, I’m an inch away from dying and I’m lucky if I choke
But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
it's taking everything in me
just to forget your sweater so far
And he can’t understand how everyone goes on breathing when true love ends
Tonight the stars in her eyes outshine the stars in the sky
I’ll be waiting in line just to see if you care…
Creating something out of nothing, only to destroy me
Oh, did you want me to change? Well I'd change for good and I want you to know that you'll always get your way
On a more positive note, I think I hate you.
What do I do when you get close? If I kissed your neck, would you slit my throat?
And are you thinking of me when you're putting on your makeup, darling...and dying your hair like you do.
Well you're wasting time if you're trying to impress me. I waste all my time just thinking of you.
And I'm not imagining how you give me the shivers Standing up to your waste in your river.
"I’ll be going through withdrawal of you for this one night we have spent.">/font>
Don't gaze into his eyes; you'll never get out alive.
I die trying just to keep myself from kissing you
**Why do I like someone who hates me so much?**Why do I almost faint when ever we touch?**
I can't get you off the tip of my tongue. Bring on the razor. Bleed out this song.
Tell me what I haven't got because I’d kill to get it, tell me what I haven't got, don't tell me, she's got it
So take this razor, sign your name across my wrists, so everyone will know who left me like this
>>..::this_will_never_end::..<<
With hearts carved straight across my chest letting the carpet soak up all that's left to give
If I could do one thing, and one thing only to you
I’d rip your heart out and shove it into my own chest
just so you could know exactly what you do to me.
And this is what matters most, can I watch you bleed?
Will you watch me bleed?
Some say love is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed
I might consider suicide by drowning in your eyes
******You don't recover from a night like this******
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thirdeyeblind-godofwine
this is an amazing song, and there are many more on their first cd.
Every thought that I repent
There’s another chip you haven’t spent
And you’re cashing them all in
Where do we begin to get clean again
Can we get clean again
I walk home alone with you
And the mood you’re born into
Sometimes you let me in
And I take it on the chin
I can’t get clean again
I want to know can we get clean again
The God of wine comes crashing through
The head lights of a car that took you farther
Than you thought you’d ever want to go
We can’t get back again
We can’t get back again
She takes a drink and then she waits
The alcohol it permeates
And soon the cells give way, and cancels out the day
I can’t keep it all together
I know I know I know... I can’t keep it all together
And the siren’s song that is your madness
Holds a truth I can’t erase
All alone on your face
Every glamorous sunrise
Throws the planets out of line
A star sign out of whack, a fraudulent zodiac
And the God of wine is crouched down in my room
You let me down, I said it, now I’m going down
And you’re not even around
And I said no no no...
I can’t keep it all together
I know I know I know...
I can’t keep it all together
And there’s a memory of a window
Looking through I see you
Searching for something I could never give you
And there’s someone who understands
You more than I do
A sadness I can’t erase
All alone on your face
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[21 Dec 2003|01:42am] |
She holds the world in her fingertips
All the joy and all the pain
She only has to close her eyes
And open them again
To find out what is good
And what is true
And what remains
When she cries, I swear that
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[21 Dec 2003|01:46am] |
Mineral x Sadder Star
She holds the world in her fingertips
All the joy and all the pain
She only has to close her eyes
And open them again
To find out what is good
And what is true
And what remains
When she cries, I swear that
She holds a promise in her beating heart
And I will never understand
How her mother and her father
Could bring her into this world
And give her life
And refuse to let her hold it
In her hands
When she cries, I swear that
And it can’t feel good,
Not to trust the one you love the most
And she can’t feel good,
Knowing she’s not trusted
By the one who loves her most
When she cries, I swear that
P.S I NEED HELP! PLEASE LEAVE A COMMENT IF YOU KNOW HOW TO CUSTOMIZE YOUR JOURNAL'S COMMENTS. OF HAVING IT SAY "POST COMMENT" HAVE IT SAY WHATEVER YOU WANT IT TOO. IT'D BE MOST APPRECIATED!
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[21 Dec 2003|11:29am] |
see all those people on the ground
--wasting time
i try to hold it all inside
--but just for tonight
the top of the world
--sitting here wishing
the things i`ve become
--that something is missing
maybe i...
--but what do I know
and now it seems that i have found
--nothing at all
i want to hear your voice out loud
--slow it down
without it all
--i`m choking on nothing
it's clear in my head
--and i`m screaming for something
knowing nothing is better than knowing at all
--on my own
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| the district sleeps alone tonight - the postal service .. ((lyrics)) |
[21 Dec 2003|11:42am] |
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i just saw this music video on FUSE last night and i love the postal service and i was watching it with my boyfriend and yea.. its coot..
x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x
smeared black ink: your palms are sweaty
and I'm barely listening to last demands
I'm staring at the asphalt wondering what's buried underneath where I am
I'll wear my badge:
a vinyl sticker with big block letters adherent to my chest
that tells your new friends I am a visitor here:
I am not permanent
and the only thing keeping me dry is where I am
you seem so out of context in this gaudy apartment complex
a stranger with your door key explaining that I am just visiting
and I am finally seeing why I was the one worth leaving
d.c. sleeps alone tonight
you seem so out of context in this gaudy apartment complex
a stranger with your door key explaining that I am just visiting
and I finally seeing why I was the one worth leaving
the district sleeps alone tonight after the bars turn out their lights
and send the autos swerving into the loneliest evening
and I am finally seeing why I was the one worth leaving
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hey im new here!! <3
my name is courtney!
does anyone have songs about some one youve been in love with for years and now they are totally different and acting like an ass? thanx
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This is one I wrote. I wrote as it came to mind and haven't done anything to it to make it better. Its not my best work, but it came directly from the heart and I figured some people could relate to it.
I broke out an old cd today
one we use to listen to all the time
I couldn't help but be reminded of what we use to be
Lately my dreams are haunted by what we were
Sometimes I just want to talk to you
But then fear starts to overcome me
Fear of what you will say
Fear of what I will say
Fear of more realization that what we had is completely gone
I've been told many times to just move on
but my heart can't let you go
I tried to tell myself I was over you
But the only truth is I will never be
I can't find anything to take your place
Only because it's you I'm searching for
I'm willing to wait a lifetime
won't move from where I'm standing if it means you'll come back
In the weeks passed many things have escaped my mouth
But it is all said out of hurt and anger
I needed someway to make you feel what I was feeling
But I never wanted to hurt you
and I'm sorry if I have
But I can't help wondering
Does the fact I'm gone do anything to you?
I just thought I'd share this cause like I said I thought alot of people might be able to relate to it. :)
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[21 Dec 2003|12:22pm] |
im dying inside
im crying and suffering and lieing and only humoring myself and i cant stop and i dont know what to do anymore im spinning out of control
i hate you for loving me
yesterday seemed so innocent
controling anxious crushing stares
no cared when they cried
tears flow free away from me
escape from heartache
in that form
im dying inside
im crying and suffering and lieing and only humoring myself and i cant stop and i dont know what to do anymore im spinning out of control
its all mainstream anyway
mad at my dad
anger to my family
upset with myself
fake smiles and plastic faces
materialism is a waste of time
maybe tommorow will be better
im dying inside
im crying and suffering and lieing and only humoring myself and i cant stop and i dont know what to do anymore im spinning out of control
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| click click bang bang kiss the siamese gun .. |
[21 Dec 2003|12:38pm] |
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separate the sparkle from the stars and put them both on trial.
"order in the court!", the judge pukes up a putrid smile.
tear the tingle from the touch
and lock them both in a windowless cell.
the D.A. fingers the jury like the snail fucks the shell.
click click bang bang
kiss the siamese gun
click click bang bang bang.
exhibit A: the trail of the womb tears the blinking genitalia.
exhibit B: a death leather towel to mop the blood and saliva.
every smile is evidence,
and lifting a proud tentacle his honor howls your sentence
"death to the accused the scum the human menace."
exhibit C: your journal sewn with pony hair and claws.
exhibit D: your cancerous smiles our equations can't solve,
those teeth can't be tamed they can't be proven,
load the siamese gun shoot shoot shoot it!
sterilize the black widow of it's web silk,
drain piano island of it's pineapple milk.
pave the sea, divorce the fish from the fin.
the gavel pounds...the audience hisses for skin.
order yeah! order yeah! order in the court!
let the extermination begin...
the executioner's thighs widen like a grin let the execution begin.
and in a flash every face twists electric octopus,
hungry, anxious for pain.
click click bang bang kiss
the siamese gun...
exhibit E: you're on your knees.
choking on the barrel of the siamese gun!
Siamese Gun ¤ The Blood Brothers
<333333333
lizzzzzzzzzzzz
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[21 Dec 2003|01:00pm] |
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"Buried myself alive" - The Used
you almost always pick the best times
to drop the worst lines
you almost made me cry again this time
another false alarm
red flashing lights
well this time I'm not going to watch myself die
I think I made it a game to play your game
and let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
so I could shut you out
and let you go away for a long time
I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that
I think the chain broke away
and I felt it the day that I had my own time
I took advantage of myself and felt fine
but it was worth the night
I caught an early flight and I made it home
with my foot on your neck
I finally have you
right where I want you
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[21 Dec 2003|01:44pm] |
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Yellowcard.:.Way Away
I think I'm breaking out
I'm gonna leave you now
There's nothing for me here it's all the same
And even though I know
That everything might go
Go downhill from here I'm not afraid
Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe
Anything
You can't stop me now
You can't hold me down
You can't keep me here I'm on my way
I made it this far now
And I'm not burning out
No matter what you say I'm not afraid
Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe
Anything
Letting out the noise inside of me
Every window pane is shattering
Cutting up my words before I speak
This is how it feels to not believe
Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe
Anything
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ahhhh im a coheed addict...!
Your eyes tell the stories of a day you wish you could
Recall the moments that once have
Retract the footsteps that brought us to this favor
I wouldn't ask this of you
Good eye, sniper
I shoot, you run
The words you scribbled on the walls
With the loss of friends you didn't have
I called you when the time is right
Are you in or are you out?
For them all to know the end of us all
Run quick, they're behind us
Didn't think we'd ever make it
This close to safety in one piece
Now you wanna kill me in the act of what could maybe
Save us from sleep and what we are
Good eye, sniper
Now I shoot, you run
The words you scribbled on the walls
With the loss of friends you didn't have
I called you when the time is right
Are you in or are you out?
For them all to know the end of us all
Bye bye beautiful
Don't bother to write
Disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars
Face step, let down.
Face step, step down.
The words you scribbled on the walls
With the loss of friends you didn't have
I called you when the time is right
Are you in or are you out?
For them all to know
Bye bye beautiful
Don't bother to write
Disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars
Face step, let down.
Face step, step down.
Bye bye beautiful
Don't bother to write
Disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars
Face step, let down.
Face step, step down.
Bye bye beautiful
Don't bother to write
Disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars
Face step, let down.
Face step, step down.
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a favor house atlantic- coheed and cambria.
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| Fall Out Boy- Yule Shoot Your Eye Out |
[21 Dec 2003|02:28pm] |
these are your good years
don't take my advice
you never wanted the nice boys anyway
and i'm of good cheer
cause i've been checking my list
the gifts you're receiving from me
will be
one awkward silence
and two hopes you cry yourself to sleep
staying up, waiting by the phone
and all i want this year is for you to dedicate your last breathe to me
before you bury yourself alive
don't come home for christmas
you're the last thing i wanna see
underneath the tree
merry christmas, i could care less
happy new years baby
you owe me
the best gift i will ever ask for
don't call me up, when the snow comes down
it's the only thing i want this year
one awkward silence
and two hopes you cry yourself to sleep
staying up, waiting by the phone
all i want this year is for you to dedicate your last breathe to me
before you bury yourself alive
don't come home for christmas
you're the last thing i wanna see
underneath the tree
merry christmas, i could care less
don't come home for christmas
you're the last thing I wanna see
underneath the tree (don't come home for christmas)
merry christmas, i could care less
don't come home for christmas
you're the last thing i wanna see
underneath the tree (don't come home for christmas)
merry christmas, i could care less
...not the happiest christmas song ever, but this song is amazing.
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[21 Dec 2003|03:15pm] |
Let's go to my apartment
We'll pull the sheets up over our heads
Forget all reasons to go outside
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[21 Dec 2003|03:44pm] |
I wanna watch you dream somemore..
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[21 Dec 2003|03:55pm] |
simply. brilliant.
The early november - sunday drive
and we wait
above a road
were turning to go home
and the silence from the side of the car
tells me everything and how we are
and theres no more trying to make this alright
theres no more trying tonight
[Chorus:]
and you know its not so easy
when ur all alone
and i wonder if im alone
in your head
to do something is wrong
i just dont know what to do
you say its only me
and that im so perfect for you
i dont want to try no more
i dont want to make this right
i just you to be true to me one time
[Chorus:]
and you know its not so easy
when ur all alone
and i wonder if im alone
in your head
twelve weeks have gone by
since ive saw you last
ill give it one more try
ill give it all my best and now
what can u be doing thats so much fun
without me by your side, without me by your side and i take a step back and ill let u ahead
and ill take a step away and see if you come back because its no more trying to make this alright no more trying
no more trying tonight
we will never be the same [x4]
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[21 Dec 2003|04:14pm] |
oh great.
here i go again im stuck in this rut.
not sure how to let you know.
oh should i tell you everthing? oh.
calling your phone, letting it ring for hours.
pretending to hear your voice.
why does my heart always beat before yours does?
after awhile you can make yourself believe in almost
anything, im making myself believe in you.
does anyone know what song that is? or who its by?
im thinking something like saves the day. i've known this
song for years, but i forget who sings it. any comments
would help.
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[21 Dec 2003|04:38pm] |
I was just a stupid kid back then..
I take back every word that I said...
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hey, im working on adding in my own parts to other songs, lol, even tho i kno i wont do it nemore, this is what i have so far from tbs
I love the way u roll
excuses off the tip of ur tongue
as I slowly fall apart
cuz everything u say
is the truth even if ur lying
yea, u kno im urs
but
the truth is
u could slit my throat
And with my one last gasping breath
I'd apologize for bleeding on ur shirt
cuz everything u do
is correct even if ur wrong
but
im a wishful thinker with the worst intentions...
just testing, tell me if it sucks or is getting somewhere
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| le first entry. |
[21 Dec 2003|05:59pm] |
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i think michelle branch is secrectly godly. every song of hers hits me, hard.
GOODBYE TO YOU-Michelle Branch.
"of all the things i've believed in, i just want to get this over with.
tears form behind my eyes, but i do not cry
counting the days that pass me by.
i've been searching deep down in my soul,
words that i'm hearing, are starting to get old
feels like i'm starting all over again, the last 3 years were just pretend.
and i said goodbye to you. Goodbye to everything that i knew.
you weren't the one i'd hoped, the one thing that i tried to hold on to.
and i still get lost in your eyes- and it seems that i can't live a day without you.
closing my eyes, and you'll chase my thoughts away
to a place where i'm blinded by the light-but it's not right.
goodbye to you. Goodbye to everything that i knew.
you weren't the one i'd hoped, the one thing that i tried to hold on to
and it hurts to want everything- and nothing at the same time.
i want what's yours. and i want what's mine.
i want you but i'm not giving in this time.
goodbye to you. Goodbye to everything that i knew.
you weren't the one i'd hoped, the one thing that i tried to hold on to
goodbye to you. Goodbye to everything that i knew.
you weren't the one i'd hoped, the one thing that i tried to hold on to
and when the stars fall i will lye awake.
you are my shooting star."
another time//xox
amanda
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[21 Dec 2003|07:32pm] |
right now i'm finding it hard to even remember how to breathe.
inhale and exhale only comes easy when you're here with me.
i remember how we used to laugh and talk about our future together
every second went so fast but we didnt mind because we thought we'd last forever.
and i miss the times we used to lie and listen to our hearts talking.
they whispered quietly to each other, answering in skipped beats
did you notice we never questioned the fact we'd be together?
we assumed that our hearts would always beat in the same time.
but now you're gone and mines lost its rhythm.
i cant seem to breathe without you.
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| "Sic Transit Gloria...Glory Fades" Brand New |
[21 Dec 2003|08:24pm] |
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ok i love this song so much.. i listen to it allll the time.. oh yeah and if anyone has anymore songs about like sex and junk... leave me a comment.. i would really appriciate it!!! thanks soo much.
Keep the noise low.
She doesn't wanna blow it.
Shaking head to toe
while your left hand does "the show me around."
Quickens your heartbeat.
It beats me straight into the ground.
You don't recover from a night like this.
A victim, still lying in bed, completely motionless.
A hand moves in the dark to a zipper.
Hear a boy bracing tight against sheets
barely whisper, "This is so messed up."
Upon arrival the guests had all stared.
Dripping wet and clearly depressed,
he'd headed straight for the stairs.
No longer cool, but a boy in a stitch,
unprepared for a life full of lies and failing relationships.
(Up the stairs: the station where
the act becomes the art of growing up.)
He keeps his hands low.
He doesn't wanna blow it.
He's wet from head to toe and
his eyes give her the up and the down.
His stomach turns and he thinks of throwing up.
But the body on the bed beckons forward
and he starts growing up.
The fever, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe
you weren't too hard to sell.
Die young and save yourself.
The tickle, the taste of...
It used to be the reason I breathed
but now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.
She hits the lights.
This doesn't seem quite fair.
Despite everything he learned from his friends,
he doesn't feel so prepared.
She's breathing quiet and smooth.
He's gasping for air.
"This is the first and last time," he says.
She fakes a smile and presses her hips into his.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides.
He's holding back from telling her
exactly what it really feels like.
He is the lamb, she is the slaughter.
She's moving way too fast and all he wanted was to hold her.
Nothing that he tells her is really having an effect.
He whispers that he loves her,
but she's probably only looking for...
(Up the stairs: the station where
the act becomes the art of growing up.)
So much more than he could ever give.
A life free of lies and a meaningful relationship.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides.
He waits for it to end
and for the aching in his guts to subside.
The fever, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe
you weren't too hard to sell.
Die young and save yourself.
The tickle, the taste of...
It used to be the reason I breathed
but now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.
Up the stairs: the station where
the act becomes the art of growing up.
The fever, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe
you weren't too hard to sell.
Die young and save yourself.
The tickle, the taste of...
It used to be the reason I breathed
but now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.
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[21 Dec 2003|08:34pm] |
Everything is turning grey, but I won't hold my breath today
Cause' I'm not scared and to tell the truth I just don't care.
Are you looking for an answer? When you still don't know the question.
It's like lighting candles in the rain-
Sometimes life can be a pain,
But don't give up without a fight.
Sometimes when you feel afraid, don't give up and run away.
Cause' two wrongs don't make a right.
What's the point in crying when you've don nothing wrong.
It was right there all along.
The world's nothing but a lie and everyone is going to die
But what can I say? Just help me make it through today.
You don't need a destination just to go somewhere in life.
It's like throwing feathers at the wind-
They come right back to you again.
So why not give it one more try?
Just cause' things aren't what they seem
It doesn't mean you shouldn't dream
Just don't get your hopes to high.
Cause' when things don't turn out right
You world comes crashing down.
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[21 Dec 2003|08:42pm] |
I Wonder
and i wonder if you ever think about me anymore
and i wonder if you ever think about me when your bored
and I wonder if you ever think about me when your're hangin' in New York
and i wonder if you still think Bono writes his songs for you
and i wonder if the reasons why you left me were untrue
and i wonder if you give him more excuses than the ones i got from you
because...
girl you mean
so much to me
i wish that we..
could start it over, start it over
i don't need your sympathy or apologies
still i'm staring in my coffe cup at six am
and i cannot give.. up
and i wonder if you're happy or just glad to see me scarred
took my drunken self-confession sober up your bleeding heart
I am bending over backwards to get close to you but still i feel so far
because...
girl you mean
so much to me
i wish that we..
could start it over, start it over
i don't need your sympathy or apologies
still i'm staring in my coffe cup at six am
and i cannot give.. up
girl you mean
so much to me
i wish that we could start it over
i dont need your sympathy or apologies
....anymore
girl you mean
so much to me
i wish that we..
could start it over, start it over
i don't need your sympathy or apologies
i just want you here with me
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[21 Dec 2003|08:52pm] |
[Artist : Kci & Jo Jo
Title : All My Life]
Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby
Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby
Baby, Ooh, I'm so glad
I will never find another lover
Sweeter than you
Sweeter than you
And I will never find another lover
More precious than you
More precious than you
Girl you are
Close to me, like my mother
Close to me, like my father
Close to me, like my sister
Close to me, like my brother
You are the only one, my everything
And for you this song I sing, and
All my life
I prayed for someone like you, baby
And I thank God that I
That I finally found you
All my life
I prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you
Feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me too
I said, you're all that I'm thinking of
Baby
Said I promise to never
Fall in love with a stranger
You're all I'm thinking of
I praise the Lord above
For sending me your love
I cherish every hug
I really love you so much, baby, baby, baby
You're all that I ever know
When you smile on my face
All I see is a glow
You turn my life around
You picked me up when I was down
You're all that I ever know
When you smile my face glows
You picked me up when I was down
You're all that I ever know
When you smile my face glows
You picked me up when I was down
And I hope that you
Feel the same way too
Yes I pray that you
Do love me too
All my life
I prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I
That I finally found you
All my life
I prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too.
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[21 Dec 2003|09:10pm] |
Appleseed Cast::Fight Song
there on the stairs
standing there
arm outstretched
point and glare
watching the love, .f.a.l.l. .t.o. .o.u.r. .f.e.e.t.
into the floor to disappear
we're finding fault
you kissed her
you slept with him
or you didnt care
it all breaks
desenagrates
this is the last thing i'll take
'cause i can't face you now...
this is the end, there's nothing to keep
this is the end of you and me
as the ice comes down it's the end
as the lies come out it's the end
as the tears flow out it's the end
it's the end of you and me
and so we'll look out on the lake, and we'll see the white light
i said it was gold, it should've been gold
then maybe all the crazy things you said would have some meaning
but this thing..we have made..it can't stop, no it won't stop
'cause i can't face you now
take your troubles solo (the end of you and me)
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| 12.21.03 |
[21 Dec 2003|09:16pm] |
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So I wrote this. I know it needs some work, but tell me what you think.
"Things I should have said"
Somewhere deep inside
My fearful heart I cry
Just knowing that you’ll never know
These things I know
Brings tears to my eyes
I’ve wrote these things too
I know what you’re going through
And it’s because of me you’ll die
These things I should of said to you
It doesn’t have to be this way
You will eventually find a brighter day
Stay strong and hold on
I know you can get through this
I’ve thought these things too
I know what you’re going through
And it’s because of me you’ll die
These things I should of said to you
The pain is evident in your eyes
It goes to my heart
Like a billion stabbing knives
Seeing you this was is torture
This will all be my fault
I’ve felt these things too
I know what you’re going through
And it’s because of me you’ll die
These things I should of said to you
I’ve know these things too
I know what you’re going through
And it’s because of me you’ll die
These things I should of said to you
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| A song I wrote. |
[21 Dec 2003|09:32pm] |
tangled in piles of memories
memories of you
the days go by so slow
what is there to lose now?
every i love you lingers in my head like its just been said
every kiss is still played out in my mind
do you know i'd wait an eternity for you?
if thats what you need
i'd give up everything to give it to you,
your smile never seems to fade
if you so happen to think of me tonight
please remind yourself of how i'm crazy about you
sometimes i reach out to feel your face
but i open my hands and feel empty space
i can feel the touch of your hand
and that tingle i got when you kissed my lips
i close my eyes and play out these memories of you in my head
another lonely night in the same old bed.
what does it take to bring you back to me?
cause, if i had to, i'd die a thousand deaths for you
you have my heart..
its yours forever, and you should know that.
tell me what you think please?
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| only if he knew |
[21 Dec 2003|09:44pm] |
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*sorrow
*by:box car racer
because i need you more than you need me
because i want you more i know
because we move too fucking fast
i think i really had to wish to make this last i know
i'm sorry please forgive me, believe me if you would
because i cared way more
because i really felt that you felt so much more i know
i'm sorry please forgive me, believe me if you would
i'm sorry please forgive me, believe me if you could
i'm sorry please forgive me, believe me if you would
i'm sorry please forgive me, believe me if you could
believe me if you could
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| Don't come home for christmas.. |
[21 Dec 2003|10:07pm] |
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Yule Shoot Your Eye Out x Fall Out Boy
These are your good years
don't take my advice
you never wanted the nice boys anyway
and I'm of good cheer
cause I've been checking my list
the gifts you're receiving from me
will be
one awkward silence
and two hopes you cry yourself to sleep
staying up, waiting by the phone
and all I want this year is for you to dedicate your last breathe to me
before you bury yourself alive
don't come home for Christmas
you're the last thing I wanna see
underneath the tree
merry Christmas, I could care less
happy new years baby
you owe me
the best gift I will ever ask for
don't call me up, when the snow comes down
its the only thing I want this year
one awkward silence
and two hopes you cry yourself to sleep
staying up, waiting by the phone
all I want this year is for you to dedicate your last breathe to me
before you bury yourself alive
don't come home for Christmas
you're the last thing I wanna see
underneath the tree
merry Christmas, I could care less
don't come home for Christmas
you're the last thing I wanna see
underneath the tree (don't come home for Christmas)
merry Christmas, I could care less
don't come home for Christmas
you're the last thing I wanna see
underneath the tree (don't come home for Christmas)
merry Christmas, I could care less
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[21 Dec 2003|10:10pm] |
And if you'd open up your heart you'd see
Im only human ; Let me be me
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| guess i'll call or see you around... |
[21 Dec 2003|10:17pm] |
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blind out the answers, find yourself. walk for the moment, find the reason in yourself. there's a reason for you and I. take this time to find a meaning, a reason to sit back and measure the worst 6 years of my life, waiting for your legs to close on my best friends. last night i saw your life flash before my eyes. why did i laugh so hard baby? you won't be back and i'm still laughing. i never meant to hurt you, but i did. i'm sorry that you cried so hard darling. i'll never hurt you again. take this time to find your tongue, a sorry excuse to stop your lies...the best 30 seconds of my life. my angel, take your pills. my angel, i sold your ring, and now you're speechless...and now i can't stop laughing. why did i laugh so hard baby? you won't be back and i'm still laughing. i never meant to hurt you, but i did. i'm sorry that you cried so hard darling. i'll never hurt you again. i didnt want it this way. i hope you're happy where you are, and i'm glad to say i put you there. who's the one that's laughing now? i'm the one who's laughing now. now there's nothing left to say. i hope you're feeling my embrace...and i can't sleep. you should have left me sleeping. you should have let me sleep.
a static lullaby : lipgloss and letdown
If I gave you pretty enough words. Could you paint a picture of us that works…an emphasis on function rather than design…aren't you tired? Because I will carry you, on a broken back and blown out knees. I have been where you are for a while. Aren't you tired of being weak? Such rage that you could scream the stars right out of the sky and destroy the prettiest starry night…every evening that I die alone. I am exhumed, just a little less human, so much more bitter and cold after all these images of pain have cut right through you. I will kiss every scar, and weep. You are not alone. then I'll show you that place in my chest where my heart still tries to beat…aren't you tired of being weak? Such rage that you could scream the stars right out of the sky and destroy the prettiest starry night…every evening that I die. Live, love, burn, and die.
atreyu : lipgloss and black
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| Taking Back Sunday-Cute without the E |
[21 Dec 2003|11:05pm] |
best lines from this song.....
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens.
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me...
I know you well enough to know...
Why can't I feel anything
from anyone other than you?
And all of this was all your fault,
And all of this...
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
for this simple reason that I...
[ I just need to keep you in mind
as something larger than life.]
<3 woo party.
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| all i want is for things to slow down, no blur, but life again as we knew it |
[21 Dec 2003|11:05pm] |
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Brand New |
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Brand New.:.Secondary
And it comes down to you
Never and ever, wrecked his day
Looks and flirts and noontime in your shortest skirt
Past the point of trying, I'm a dying breed
Thank you for reminding me of all the things I've done completely wrong
Stop these looks and letters
This isn't for the better,
you've put me down
It's for the worse
You're not my girl
(can't recall, I can't recall all the times)
I can't recall all the times
that she talked down to you
Letter's come again
Stop the circulation
to my legs and break my bones
Dateless and late
I'm better by myself at home
Past the point of trying and I'm dying here
Secondary laughs at every word
I know came out completely wrong
Stop these looks and letters
This isn't for the better,
you've put me down
It's for the worse
You're not my girl
(can't recall, I can't recall all the times)
I can't recall all the times
that she talked down to you
Letter's come again
And it's my last semester
And brothers always come first
It's my last semester (it's my last semester)
At least until next winter (at least until next winter)
But I'm sure that I'll be over this by then
Better scenes... I wish you'd seen me
Better off if I just let it be
Better pretend it don't matter
Better off if I could have her
Better days since the day I met her
I'd better hope she got my letters
Better off in two year stretches
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[21 Dec 2003|11:10pm] |
join  elitexcore
first 10 are accepted.... :D
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[21 Dec 2003|11:50pm] |
I have to be me
Everyone else was already taken.
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