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[Friday
07/04/08 at 3:19am] |
finally posting el awards: good idea/bad idea
will it stir up unwanted drama that we finally got rid of? etc.
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[Saturday
07/04/09 at 12:50am] |
leaving never hurts as much as being left behind.
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[Friday
07/03/09 at 11:29pm] |
"human beings are designed for many things. loneliness isn't one of them."
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[Thursday
07/03/08 at 10:43pm] |
CRYSTAL.
I’m crystal. My birthday is June 3. I do have a boyfriend. His name is Jayke. I truly believe that a single person can impact some one to make them want to be better, and want to achieve more because they have the potential to do so. I love nature, and little kids, and old people, and all the cute and incredibly beautiful things this world has to offer. I’d much rather be busy working or playing a game with friends than using my time poorly. I’m a very active person. I use the word wicked way too much. I’ve been told I’m a little OCD when it comes to things. I try not to be though! Oh, I hate when people use to and too wrong and their there, they’re, and theirs wrong. It’s so simple! I have a hard time being mean to people.. and it sometimes gets me into trouble. Hmm, lucky me. I swear I have multiple personalities; one time I’m happy and hyper and the next I’m all blah. Music and food are truly amazing and I’m not lying! I’m the biggest geek you’ll ever meet; I love learning. Oh, and I have an obsession with shopping. It makes me happy. I don’t like giving people second chances but I do; it’s incredibly hard for me to regain trust in people and it’s something I struggle with everyday. I’m a HUGE advocator in keeping trust. I think lots of people take things that they have for granted and I try not to do that. THE PIC TO THE LEFT:you're probably wondering why i'm holding a saber and am surrounded by 4 (ones cut off) guys. Well, a HUGE part of my life is rotc. The friends I met there consists of A LOT of guys. The two on my shoulders though, mean a lot to me and they've been there for me through a lot. And yes, I do plan on going into the air force when i'm older to [hopefully] be a nurse. [=
"All your life you are told the things you cannot do. All your life they will say you're not good enough or strong enough or talented enough; they will say you're the wrong height or the wrong weight or the wrong type to play this or be this or achieve this. THEY WILL TELL YOU NO, a thousand times no, until all the no's become meaningless. All your life they will tell you no, quite firmly and very quickly. AND YOU WILL TELL THEM YES."
Overall you could say i'm a realllyyy big wishful thinker.
Alas, this is me.
be the change
you wish to see in the world.
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[Thursday
07/03/08 at 10:19pm] |
"i'll never fall in love," he swears,
as he runs his fingers through his hair,<.small>
i'm laughing,
cause i hope he's wrong.
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[Thursday
07/03/08 at 7:42pm] |
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nevermind
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[Friday
07/03/09 at 5:42pm] |
so i hope this postcard finds you lonely.
i hope you're as lost as i was when you left me.
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[Thursday
07/03/08 at 4:12pm] |
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"my heart didn't break into a thousand pieces after he left. instead, i realized all the things he didn't do. he didn't want to hear my stories. he didn't ask me questions. he didn't smile when i was talking to him. he didn't hug me out of the blue to make me feel good. his hugs were always a preamble to something else and after he was gone, i wondered if he ever knew me at all..
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[Thursday
07/03/08 at 4:08pm] |
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"mama says boys tell you they love you sometimes because their bodies are confused."
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[Thursday
07/03/08 at 3:53pm] |
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*i've always admitted that i'm ruled by my passions*
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[Thursday
07/03/08 at 2:13pm] |
I've always admitted that
I'm ruled by my passions.
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[Thursday
07/03/08 at 9:23am] |
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Alright... idk really who reads these, or if you can if we aren't friends... but i'm nikki, i'm new. i've looked at blurty for like 3 years now and i had made an account like last year but forgot the password and never really knew what to do about joining in communities or anything... but i decided to give it a try.
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[Thursday
07/03/08 at 4:35am] |
Dear Todd,
you're my "father" if you can even call yourself that.
Most of the time, you disgust me. You treat me, mom and Tyla terribly.
But you treat me the worst. You still act like I'm 8 years old.
News flash! I'm 18. You have no right reading my mail.
No right calling the phone company to read my text messages,
No right going through the things in my room and reading my personal journals.
I have my own life.
I'm a good kid, and i deserve so much better than you not trusting me,
especially when I've never given you a reason not to.
You like to control me, I know this.
You try to control who I'm friends with, and who I talk to
& when I don't take your "advice" you threaten me.
YOU ALWAYS THREATEN ME
...and I've never ever been good enough for you.
I've tried my hardest, but it's getting old.
I can't do it anymore.
You don't respect me, so how do you expect me to respect you???
and p.s. I love the smack you talk on me behind my back to mom and Tyla
trying to get them to hate me, just like you.
Not going to happen.
& p.s.s.I hate how your doing everything in your power to make sure
that I will never talk//see this person again. ITS MY LIFE
I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING!!!
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[Thursday
07/03/08 at 4:30am] |
I don't know what to do, how lame!
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[Thursday
07/03/08 at 12:29am] |
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I was meant for this world.
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[Thursday
07/03/08 at 12:28am] |
I took your hand while you decided what to do
The only kiss, I ever miss, I shared with you
The other cities hold a memory still of a place
But, when I dream of London, I can only see your face
I want you
Or no one
No one else will do
You, or no one
No one is the only one
To fill the empty space I hold for you
don't you know i miss it,
and i wonder if you miss it too .
never thought it would end til it did,
now i'm here and i can't stop thinking about you .
i think about you in the summertime,
and all the good times we had, baby,
been a few years and i can't deny,
the thought of you still makes me crazy.
i think about you in the summertime,
i'm sitting here in the sun with you on my mind,
you're my summertime.
So, I will head out alone and hope for the best
And we can hang our heads down
As we skip the goodbyes
And you can tell the world what you want them to hear
I've got nothing left to lose, my dear
So, I'm up for the little white lies
But you and I know the reason why
I'm gone, and you're still there
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[Wednesday
07/02/08 at 10:24pm] |
17
Seventeen.
That's all it is but i still don't think i'll make it but i don't have a choice, i have to even if i can't breathe.
There is no choice.
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[Wednesday
07/02/08 at 6:01pm] |
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ketamine has been on my mind for the past 3 weeks and all i have is lucy and molly. well i'm minus one lucy.
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[Wednesday
07/02/08 at 2:57pm] |
I love the way babies smell. I love how I feel when I hold my niece. It's like I'm suddenly the strongest person in the world...I know she can feel the love I have for her, and I think it calms her. I love the way her little muscles just completely relax when she falls asleep in my arm, as if she's trusting me to protect her fragile little body while she sleeps.
It's so amazing how that small body is so innocent, that she has not yet been contaminated by the bad things around us in the world.
It's indescribable, the amount of love I had for a tiny, wrinkled red being that I had only just met.
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[Wednesday
07/02/08 at 11:55am] |
Ok. So I'm going to the bathroom a lot, it hurts to pee, and sometimes I bleed.
Either I'm pregnant or I have an infection. Fuuuck.
Whats wrong with me, pleasethanks.
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