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[07 Jul 2008|12:12am] |
love always wins.
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[07 Jul 2008|12:13am] |
i've got nostalgic pavements, i've got familar faces, i've got mixed-up memories, and i've got favourite places
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[07 Jul 2008|01:09am] |
does anyone know what this is supposed to be? because i don't and would really like to know
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[07 Jul 2008|01:58am] |
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i don't want to be in slytherin :[
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[07 Jul 2008|03:27am] |
Fascinating new thing
You delight me
And I know you're speaking of me
Fascinating new thing
Get beside me,
I want you to love me
I'm surprised that you've never been told before
That you're lovely and you're perfect
And that somebody wants you
Fascinating new thing
The scene-makin'
Want a temporary savior
Fascinating new thing
Don't betray them
By becoming familiar
I'm surprised that you've never been told before
That you're lovely and you're perfect
And that somebody wants you
I'm surprised that you've never been told before
That you're priceless and you're precious
Even when you are not new.
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[07 Jul 2008|07:18am] |
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breathe out, so i can breathe you in
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[07 Jul 2008|09:40am] |
If I could sleep forever, I could forget about everything
Going to Europe today, guysss. wish me luck ;D
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[07 Jul 2008|10:05am] |
Oh man. The second I woke up I just had a huge dream about him wanting my best friend. I dont wanna think or dream about him and as soon as I get online he has some babygirl thing in his info after ALL the crap thats been happening. I hate things like dreams where you cant control what you see. :(
I thought I saw something in you,
something good, but I was very wrong.
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[07 Jul 2008|10:14am] |
we found a new kinda dance in a magazine
try it on, it's like nothin' you've ever seen
you sweet talk like a cop, and you know it
you bought a new bag of pot
so let's make a new start
and that's the way to my heart
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[07 Jul 2008|10:21am] |
i remember when we kissed. your lips were red at the edges, and i helped you undress. i wanted to tell you, i wanted to say, there's nobody else that i want to stay in bed all day.
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[07 Jul 2008|10:24am] |
we've got all night just to make it all right. would you take a walk with me? i'll give you all i've got, just spare me your time, and i promise you won't want to leave.
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[07 Jul 2008|10:26am] |
and when you're holding me, we make a pair of parentheses. there's plenty space to encase whatever weird way my mind goes. i know i'll be safe in these arms.
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[07 Jul 2008|10:33am] |
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god knows that i'd do anything for a part two.
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[07 Jul 2008|10:36am] |
ooh, it's goin' down in this bitch
like a boxer in the first round in this bitch
1-800 i will dick you down in this bitch
uptown in this bitch
don't make a sound in this bitch
now let me whisper in your ear
every single word your little ear wanna hear
flip your body over, have no fear
can i put my tongue here until you tear?
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[07 Jul 2008|10:46am] |
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i take three L's to the head: love, live, life, then i'm dead.
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[07 Jul 2008|10:54am] |
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idk but someone else should post, thx.
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[07 Jul 2008|11:01am] |
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i told my girl, "when you fuck me, better fuck me good. cause if another girl could, she gon' fuck me good." no sittin' at the table if you bringin' nothin' to it.
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[07 Jul 2008|11:02am] |
if i cared about anything,
i might worry, i might try,
i might hurry, i might cry.
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[07 Jul 2008|11:04am] |
but nothing is living that isn't already dead.
fold your hands and hold your head.
listen closely to whats been said
about the change in your heart.
you knew it would come,
you knew one day.
now rest your body
and pray for it to stay.
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[07 Jul 2008|11:05am] |
you tell me that you need me
then you go and cut me down
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[07 Jul 2008|11:07am] |
now that your world is frozen,
we'll cut yourself, cut your ties,
free yourself from a world of lies.
your town has become a cage where
nothing can live, nothing can breathe,
so burn your homes,
now its time to leave.
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[07 Jul 2008|11:09am] |
and if you wish to find us someday, its not so hard. we're just a breath away. we gather in warmth, and youre welcome to stay.
only the sun knows where we are.
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[07 Jul 2008|11:15am] |
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don't ever fix your lips unless you 'bout to suck my dick.
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[07 Jul 2008|11:18am] |
i'm making an "i like you" cd for the boy i'm dating, but i need some help with songs. i'm trying not to make it too emo (hah) because he doesn't rly like that kind of music. he likes pretty much everything else, though. so far i have:
foo fighters - everlong
spoon - the way we get by
the postal service - such great heights
incubus - dig
the beatles - i wanna hold your hand
hootie and the blowfish - only wanna be with you
help pleaseeee :)
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[07 Jul 2008|11:24am] |
i can't shake this little feeling
i'll never get anything right
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[07 Jul 2008|11:28am] |
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i've lost all my friends, but you're the one i miss the most.
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[07 Jul 2008|11:32am] |
we stopped for some alcohol
you stayed in the car
the bars had gotten out
that line was so long
and i saw you on the pay phone
so i was thinking, who do you ever call at 1am?
yeah, i wonder who that was
jealousy. i am not yours.
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[07 Jul 2008|11:44am] |
don't you know you're beautiful.
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[07 Jul 2008|11:45am] |
maybe today, you could put the past away.
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[07 Jul 2008|11:45am] |
i thought you'd never come this far
i thought your words meant something more
said my two cents now
it's your turn, so stand up and scream
are you ready?
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[07 Jul 2008|11:47am] |
i put on an argyle sweater and put on a smile
i don't know how to do this
i'm so sorry for everything
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[07 Jul 2008|11:49am] |
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everything i love gets lost in drawers
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[07 Jul 2008|11:50am] |
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you could drive a car through my head in five minutes, from one side of it to the other.
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[07 Jul 2008|11:51am] |
we only ever made out, you never kissed me.
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[07 Jul 2008|11:52am] |
can you feel your heartbeat racing?
can you taste the fear in her sweat?
you've done this wrong
its too far gone
these sheets tell of regret
i admit that i'm just a fool for you
i am just a fool for you
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[07 Jul 2008|11:55am] |
cause you are the brightest star
and i'm in love with who you are
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[07 Jul 2008|11:57am] |
do you know, that everytime you're near
everybody else seems far away
so can you come and make them disappear
make them disappear and we can stay
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[07 Jul 2008|12:00pm] |
and i've waited here for hours, hoping that you'd call
and my dialing finger's tired, and your machine is full
and i've taken 18 showers just to pass the time
and that fucking phone just rang, but it wasn't you on the line.
and you don't seem to mind
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[07 Jul 2008|12:06pm] |
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omg so hungry >:(
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[07 Jul 2008|12:32pm] |
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favorite jack johnson songs? go!
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[07 Jul 2008|01:04pm] |
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Hello
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[07 Jul 2008|01:11pm] |
someone come to the beach and/or pool with me and the kids
i do not feel like going alone and would like an actual adult to talk to :( lmao
EDIT: my friends Dan and Sam said they would go with meee lol
so I am off ladies. I hope you all have a good day! :) ilyy
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[07 Jul 2008|01:22pm] |
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i need to stop waking up at 1
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[07 Jul 2008|02:05pm] |
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lol @ my 60 year old calc III professor and me doing a cd exchange. and his new fav band being The Dresden Dolls. strange ok
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[07 Jul 2008|02:30pm] |
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i'm going to the hospital to see what's going on :(
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[07 Jul 2008|03:33pm] |
MAAAAN .
imisshimm .
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[07 Jul 2008|03:38pm] |
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the thought of you still makes me crazy
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[07 Jul 2008|03:41pm] |
and sometimes it's hard to breathe,
but you'll get through it.
one day you'll get a broken heart
and when you do, you'll think of me
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[07 Jul 2008|03:45pm] |
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN I SHOULD,
so much more than is good for me
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[07 Jul 2008|03:46pm] |
Before you speak think about what you're trying to say.
Who else is there to blame for miscommunication?
You're getting caught up in the excitement.
You making promises you can’t keep.
You need to leave all your options open.
Too much momentum.
This room feels like it's going to explode.
Too many angles.
Too many factors to cover.
Waiting for signal.
You're searching for network.
You have to fight to stay in control of the situation.
Anxiety, Anxiety you give me no mercy.
Grind my teeth smooth and flat in my sleep.
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[07 Jul 2008|03:58pm] |
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AHHH
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[07 Jul 2008|04:05pm] |
double this drink up into the, tallest glass you got.
you know i aint used to sleeping all, alone.
gonna make it to the moon tonight on a oneway kamikaze flight.
if i could get so high i'll leave behind my problems,
take em out with the empty bottles.
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[07 Jul 2008|04:09pm] |
guyssss ,
do my journal ! pls and ty <3
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[07 Jul 2008|04:12pm] |
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if anyone saw me right now, they'd think i was a mad woman because i have not stopped laughing in atleast 5 minutes because seinfeld is hilarious and this is the best episode ever and i probably have a six pack by now because my stomach really hurts
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[07 Jul 2008|04:26pm] |
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the phone has not rung for an order in 2 1/2 hours. wtf kill me plz
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[07 Jul 2008|04:55pm] |
and it hurts all the time when you don't return my calls, and you haven't got the time to remember how it was.
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[07 Jul 2008|04:57pm] |
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Tough girls come from New York. Sweet girls, they're from Georgia. But us Virginia girls, we have fire and ice in our blood. We can ride horses, be a debutante, throw left hooks, and drink with the boys - all while making sweet tea, darlin'. And if we have an opinion, you know you're gonna hear it.
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[07 Jul 2008|05:07pm] |
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Man, I got summer hating on me cause I'm hotter than the sun. Spring hated on me cause I ain't never sprung. Winter hating on me cause I'm colder than y'all. And I would never, I would never, I would never fall.
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[07 Jul 2008|05:25pm] |
Maybe its a dream and if I scream
It will burst at the seams
This whole place will fall to pieces
And then they'd say...
Well how could we have known?
I'll tell them it's not so hard to tell
If you keep on adding stones
Soon the water will be lost in the well
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[07 Jul 2008|05:37pm] |
please me make me not so crazy,
make me fall apart,
make me think beautiful unexpected thoughts.
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[07 Jul 2008|05:38pm] |
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memories fade away but we'll be the same
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[07 Jul 2008|05:45pm] |
Scenes of passion
Never lasted
Your mistakes are too much to put behind
I am tired
With no desire
To put together things that just fall apart
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[07 Jul 2008|05:48pm] |
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i miss you el. how is everyone?
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[07 Jul 2008|05:57pm] |
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This town is full of dumb reminders. Having a good time can't you tell? Hang up the phone and then I come back down, miss you I hope you're doing well.
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[07 Jul 2008|06:10pm] |
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that's what you get when you let your heart win
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[07 Jul 2008|06:45pm] |
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nic..are you here?
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[07 Jul 2008|07:15pm] |
but the beauty lies in how we will revive me soon..
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[07 Jul 2008|07:30pm] |
askdfjak shf
i hate being moody.
i hate fighting with him.
i hate, hate, hate, hate, hate not being able to stop being pissy when we've stopped fighting.
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[07 Jul 2008|07:45pm] |
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i'm just a teenage dirt bag baby
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[07 Jul 2008|07:47pm] |
i was waiting for you
i was standing around
i was getting older
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[07 Jul 2008|07:52pm] |
your ex-lover is not dead
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[07 Jul 2008|08:05pm] |
there are all these posts from english people on st andrews freshers group thingie and they say silly things like "provisional chaps" and "old eton college" and how they are a "keen range shot" and how they will play cricket and football and i am loling
that is all~
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[07 Jul 2008|08:09pm] |
if that field nearby
was still there to be used
would you ever have known?
those words were for you
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[07 Jul 2008|08:12pm] |
i've got a lot to say, if you will let me
it's always hard, when you're around
but here right now, there's interest in your eyes
so hear me out, and hear this the first time
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[07 Jul 2008|08:12pm] |
i won't let how i sincerely feel here stand in my way 'cause there's no love lost that i can't find again, my dear friend
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[07 Jul 2008|08:14pm] |
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love me, love me, say that you love me.
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[07 Jul 2008|08:15pm] |
i've really had it with the rain of the tears
the predictable storm that has come every year
and it sneaks in from shore with a bat in its hand
i'm trying i'm trying i'm trying i'm trying
i can't
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[07 Jul 2008|08:15pm] |
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what site does everyone go to for downloading ringtones?
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[07 Jul 2008|08:15pm] |
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"Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very Dark, but there were stars--points of light and reason...And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizen, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything."
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[07 Jul 2008|08:31pm] |
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a bed that's warm with memories can heal us temporarily.
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[07 Jul 2008|08:34pm] |
I want a place to hang out where record players play out
and there's a thousand movies rented
for a thousand nights with him.
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[07 Jul 2008|08:37pm] |
everything was wrong
so we sang sentimental songs
"oh, how seldom we belong,
but how elegant our kiss"
we painted crooked lines
but we danced in perfect time
to a love so much refined
we know not what it is
until like a dullen wine
we pour into a grief we'd know before
but never quite like this
all i know now is regret
it follows like a silhouette
along the cobblestone behind me
but has nothing much to say
except to innocently ask
its voice delicate as glass
"do you see me when we pass?"
but i continue on my way
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[07 Jul 2008|08:43pm] |
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"I'm arguing with him in my mind. I'm mad and lonely and remembering every hurtful thing he ever said or did to me. Plus, I can't stop thinking about all our happiness together, the thrilling delirium when times were good. It's all I can do not to jump out of this bed and call him from India in the middle of the night and just - I don't know what - just hang up on him, probably. Or beg him to love me again. Or read him such a ferocious indictment on all his character flaws."
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[07 Jul 2008|08:46pm] |
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"He says he's never watched anybody fight so hard against herself."
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[07 Jul 2008|08:49pm] |
"With all your heart, forgive him, forgive yourself, and let him go.
Let your intention be freedom from useless suffering. Then, let go.
Watch the heat of day pass into the cool night. Let go.
When the karma of a relationship is done, only love remains. It's safe. Let go.
When the past has passed from you at last, let go. Then climb down and begin the rest of your life. With great joy."
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[07 Jul 2008|08:51pm] |
can someone send me
better as a memory - kenny chesney
also, i have an ultrasound 7am in the morning.
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[07 Jul 2008|08:54pm] |
it's so embarrassing
to need someone like i do you
how can i explain -
i need you here
and not here, too
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[07 Jul 2008|08:55pm] |
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idk ty EL for making me not pissy anymore ok. =)
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[07 Jul 2008|08:55pm] |
at least i author my own disaster
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[07 Jul 2008|09:00pm] |
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"In desperate love, we always invent the characters of our partners, demanding that they be what we need of them, and then feeling devastated when they refuse to perform the role we created in the first place."
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[07 Jul 2008|09:01pm] |
ok so he just got home from coffee with his friend ok
and he was rinsing out a wine bottle and when i walked into the kitchen he was like
"YOU CAN'T COME IN HERE YET" LOL
then he brought it into the living room with tiger lilies in it. =)
they're one of my favorite flowers & i love when he picks them himself.
idk i am so happy with him. even though i get pissy. =) lol
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[07 Jul 2008|09:05pm] |
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"Imagine his surprise to discover that the happiest, most confident woman he'd ever known was actually - when you got her alone - a murky hole of bottomless grief. Once again, I could not stop crying. This is when he started to retreat, and that's when I saw the other side of my passionate romantic hero - the one who was solitary as a castaway, cool to the touch, in need of more personal space than a herd of American bison."
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[07 Jul 2008|09:08pm] |
oooh guis
tell me songs to make into ringtones ok lol.
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[07 Jul 2008|09:10pm] |
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"His withdrawal only made me more needy and my neediness only advanced his withdrawals, until soon he was retreating under fire of my weeping pleas of, 'Where are you going? What happened to us?'"
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[07 Jul 2008|09:11pm] |
madness? have you looked at this scan carefully, doctor? at his face? it's love, in point of fact.
something a good deal more dangerous
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[07 Jul 2008|09:12pm] |
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"Soon you start craving that intense attention, with the hungry obsession of any junkie. When the drug is withheld, you promptly turn sick, crazy and depleted (not to mention resentful of the dealer who encouraged this addiction in the first place but who now refuses to pony up the good stuff anymore - despite the fact that you know he has it hidden somewhere, goddamn it, because he used to give it to you for free). Next stage finds you skinny and shaking in a corner, certain only that you would sell your soul or rob your neighbors just to have that thing even one more time. Meanwhile, the object of your adoration has now become repulsed by you. He looks at you like you're someone he's never met before, much less someone he once loved with high passion. The irony is, you can hardly blame him. I mean, check yourself out. You're a pathetic mess, unrecognizable even to your own eyes. So, that's it. You have now reached infatuation's final destination - the complete and merciless devaluation of self."
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[07 Jul 2008|09:16pm] |
thunderous sparks from the dark of the stadiums, the music and medicine you needed for comforting. so make all your fat, fleshy fingers to moving and pluck all your silly strings, and bend all your notes for me. soft, silly music is meaningful, magical. the movements were beautiful all in your ovaries. all of them milking with green fleshy flowers while powerful pistons were sugary sweet machines. smelling of semen all under the garden, was all you were needing when you still believed in me
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[07 Jul 2008|09:17pm] |
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"He's polite but relentless, and he always trips me up eventually. He asks if I have any reason to be happy that I know of. He asks why I am all by myself tonight, yet again."
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[07 Jul 2008|09:20pm] |
is it still me that makes you sweat
am i who you think about in bed
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[07 Jul 2008|09:20pm] |
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"The image of my pain mirrored back at me through her visible fear for my life is still one of the scariest memories for me out of all those scary years."
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[07 Jul 2008|09:21pm] |
you said i must eat so many lemons
'cause i am so bitter.
so i am off to eat pizza and watch something dirty. =)
ilya and i hope you have great nights ok!
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[07 Jul 2008|09:23pm] |
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"There's nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger than depression and I am braver than loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me."
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[07 Jul 2008|09:27pm] |
so there you are
and here i stand
cause i remember you weren't half-bad
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[07 Jul 2008|09:32pm] |
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"I am the permeable membrane. If I love you, you can have everything. You can have my time, my devotion, my ass, my money, my family, my dog, my dog's money, my dog's time - everything. If I love you, I will carry for you all your pain, I will assume for you all your debts (in every definition of the word), I will protect you from your own insecurity, I will project upon you all sorts of good qualities that you have never actually cultivated in yourself and I will buy Christmas presents for your entire family. I will give you the sun and the rain, and if they are not available, I will give you a sun check and a rain check. I will give you all this and more, until I get so exhausted and depleted that the only way I can recover my energy is becoming infatuated with someone else."
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[07 Jul 2008|09:32pm] |
Existence, well what does it matter?
I exist on the best terms I can.
The past is now part of my future.
The present is well out of hand.
The present is well out of hand.
Heart and soul; one will burn.
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[07 Jul 2008|09:34pm] |
idk but eating 3872598235908 cookies 'n cream hershey's kisses is not my best idea ever :(
idk how is everyone tonight?
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[07 Jul 2008|09:36pm] |
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"But right now, you and me here, put together entirely of atoms, sitting on this round rock with a core of liquid iron, held down by this force that seems to trouble you, called gravity, all the while spinning around the sun at 67,000 miles an hour and whizzing through the milkyway at 600,000 miles an hour in a universe that very well may be chasing its own tail at the speed of light; And admist all this frantic activity, fully cognisant of our own eminent demise - which is our own pretty way of saying we all know we're gonna die - We reach out to one another. Sometimes for the sake of entity, sometimes for reasons you're not old enough to understand yet, but a lot of the time we just reach out and expect nothing in return. Isn't that strange? Isn't that weird? Isn't that weird enough?"
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[07 Jul 2008|09:37pm] |
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"When I get lonely these days, I think: So be lonely. Learn your way around loneliness. Make a map of it. Sit with it, for once in your life. Welcome to the human experience. But never again use another person's body or emotions as a scratching post for your own unfulfilled yearnings."
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[07 Jul 2008|09:43pm] |
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It's coming over you like it's coming over me, crashing like a tidal wave, it drags me out to sea. I want to be with you like you want to be with me. Crashing like a tidal wave, I don't want to be stranded. I miss you, I need you. Without you, I'm stronger.
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[07 Jul 2008|09:45pm] |
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"Let's be honest - it might be a generous public service for me to leave intimacy alone for a while. When I scan back on my romantic record, it doesn't look so good. It's been one catastrophe after another. How many more different types of men can I keep trying to love, and continue to fail? Think of it this way - if you'd had ten serious traffic accidents in a row, wouldn't they eventually take your driver's license away? Wouldn't you kind of want them to?"
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[07 Jul 2008|09:45pm] |
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"It's like you think you are safe or something cause you can just walk away anytime, cause you don't need her.. you don't need anyone. But the thing you didn't realize is, you're wrong."
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[07 Jul 2008|09:47pm] |
I've got a recipe, it's for disaster
Because that's all I see in my near future
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[07 Jul 2008|09:47pm] |
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"I know in the past I've caused you pain and I'm sorry. And I'll always be sorry 'till the day I die. And I hate this pen I'm holding because I should be holding you. I hate this paper under my hand because it isn't you. I even hate this letter because it's not the whole truth. Because the whole truth is so much more than a letter can even say. If you want to hate me, go ahead. If you want to burn this letter, do it. You could burn the whole world down; you could tell me to go to hell. I'd go, if you wanted me to. And I'd send you a letter from there."
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[07 Jul 2008|09:49pm] |
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"We loved each other. That was never the question. It's just that we couldn't figure out how to stop making each other desperately, shriekingly, soul-punishably miserable."
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[07 Jul 2008|09:52pm] |
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"I told her how much I loved him, but how lonely and heartsick it made me to be with this person who was always disappearing from the room, from the bed, from the planet."
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[07 Jul 2008|09:52pm] |
She's just waiting for the summertime when the weathers fine
She could hitch a ride out of town
And so far away from that low down good for nothing mistake making fool
With excuses like "baby that was a long time ago"
But that's just a euphemism if you want the truth, he was out of control
But a short times just a long time when your mind just won't let it go
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[07 Jul 2008|09:54pm] |
Those who are dead are not dead,
they're just living in my head.
And since I fell for that spell,
I am living there as well.
Time is so short and I'm sure
there must be something more.
You thought you might be a ghost,
you thought you might be a ghost.
You didn't get to heaven
but you made it close.
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[07 Jul 2008|09:59pm] |
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"I had never imagined what she might have wanted, what she might have been missing, what she might have decided not to fight for in the larger scheme of things."
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[07 Jul 2008|10:01pm] |
I can't take it any longer,
but my will is getting stronger
and I think I know just what I have to do.
I can't waste another minute
after all that I've put in it.
I've given you my best.
Why does she get the best of you?
So the next time you find
you wanna leave her bed for mine,
why don't you stay?
I'm up off my knees.
I'm so tired of being lonely.
You can't give me what I need.
When she begs you not to go,
there is one thing you should know:
I don't have to live this way.
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[07 Jul 2008|10:04pm] |
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"It's all for the best, I know it is. I'm choosing happiness over suffering, I know I am. I'm making space for the unknown future to fill up my life with yet-to-come surprises. I know all this. But still...it's him, lost to me now."
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[07 Jul 2008|10:04pm] |
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I can't help you if you don't want me to. Cause you won't change unless you want to. But I won't stay with you like this. What's happened to my friend? Where's the one I miss? Now the drugs take over; my stay is over.
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[07 Jul 2008|10:09pm] |
It's as if you've come along too soon.
And I'm trying to fit you in
but I can't seem to find the room.
Cutie, if it all falls through
we can piece it back together,
I can learn to trust you too.
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[07 Jul 2008|10:11pm] |
but you know no matter where we are
we're always touching by underground wires
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[07 Jul 2008|10:24pm] |
This bed could use a secret and these pounding hearts could keep it.
If you could, then I could, I swear.
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[07 Jul 2008|10:27pm] |
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You don't speak words you exhale them
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[07 Jul 2008|10:36pm] |
but there's a few things that i just need you to know
the way i felt when we were close
and how the stars explode everytime you are near
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[07 Jul 2008|10:41pm] |
all she's ever felt is held back
she says, "it's kinda nice to hear myself laugh."
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[07 Jul 2008|10:45pm] |
I wanna be the surgeon that cuts you open
and fixes all of life's mistakes
I wanna be the house that you were raised in
the only place that you feel safe
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[07 Jul 2008|10:46pm] |
"I want to make something clear. I don't think I would have been better off without you. You are not what went wrong with anything. You were what saved me, and I want to thank you for that."
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[07 Jul 2008|10:49pm] |
Oh hot damn , this is my jam
Keep me partyin
to the A.M
Yall don’t understand , make me throw my hands
In the ayer , ay , ayer , ayer , ay , ayer
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[07 Jul 2008|10:55pm] |
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am i not pretty enough?
is my heart too broken?
do i cry too much?
am i too outspoken?
don't i make you laugh?
should i try it harder?
why do you see right through me?
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[07 Jul 2008|10:57pm] |
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i am feeling very wise ok so do my journal
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[07 Jul 2008|10:59pm] |
still have your picture in a frame
hear your footsteps down the hall
i swear i hear your voice, driving me insane
how i wish that you would call to say
i miss you
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[07 Jul 2008|11:04pm] |
we are having a ~rave at camp soon and i need good hair/makeup ideas. so far i bought a mens white tee and made it a halter dress and plan to write "Dance in My Blood" on it in hot pink, neon green, and neon yellow craft paint and maybe hot pink tights lol i'm so excited
and delilah if you are here come ok
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[07 Jul 2008|11:07pm] |
so play me something about drinkin',
one about cheatin',
a few about losin', lyin' and a-leavin'
something where somebody did somebody wrong,
and play it all night long
but don't play me no love song
don't play me no love song.
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[07 Jul 2008|11:09pm] |
i used to build forts in the backyard to hide from the daytime
missing all the beauty of the sunshine
it's my fault
but i blame the world to a small degree
i've never seen the sky cause i been too scared it would fall on me
so what? you're mad cause I don't want to talk?
but you'd be even more pissed off if i told you what i really thought
so just walk away
you're better off never caring what i say.
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[07 Jul 2008|11:10pm] |
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you said that you needed space, so why do you keep crowding me? why are you driving by my house, you know this ain't your street. i've got the phone number if you want to place an ad or two, they've got friendly operators who will gladly assist you. put it in the sunday paper, hang it on a billboard on the street, sell it on a sixty-second infomercial on tv. tell it to your dogwalker, tell to the clerk at the grocery store, put it in the sunday paper, i don't want to hear it anymore. if you've got so much time on your hands, then give it charity. go into therapy, get yourself a hobby, sing it on the opry, just stop bugging me.
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[07 Jul 2008|11:11pm] |
and i hate to wake you up but i can't sleep without your touch.
i need to hear you still could love me.
now i know i've been a fool and i would change it if i could,
but until i find a way to grow please don't go.
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[07 Jul 2008|11:13pm] |
you love the people that love you.
you hear the music they move to.
you give your ode to the fall through.
but you don't know, you don't know, you don't know
you don't know you.
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[07 Jul 2008|11:15pm] |
if time heals all wounds
why are we bleeding all over this room
it's your quick fixes
from a medicine cabinet that
leave me so empty and sore
and it's impossible to fix something
that you hope so much stays broken
i'm quite sure, i'm not quite right
when all i want is an unwinnable
battle to fight
and nowadays,
we both drink enough
for this whole damn state
let's numb ourselves up
say what we feel
we're gonna regret this like
hell in the morning
we always regret this like hell
but we never learn
oh, we never learn
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[07 Jul 2008|11:16pm] |
she was as fresh as april
and when he took her away she wore a smile
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[07 Jul 2008|11:17pm] |
found myself today
i found myself and ran away
something pulled me back
the voice of reason i forgot i had
all i know is you're not here to say
what you always used to say
but it's written in the sky tonight
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[07 Jul 2008|11:18pm] |
going, coming
thought i heard a knock
who's there, no one
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[07 Jul 2008|11:18pm] |
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"Just remember, the same as a spectacular Vogue magazine, remember that no matter how close you follow the jumps: Continued on page whatever. No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That's how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice. None of this matters. We're just warming up."
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[07 Jul 2008|11:22pm] |
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jesus and bartenders hear it all.
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[07 Jul 2008|11:22pm] |
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"I also want you to remember that you deserve, more than anyone else, to be happy. Not content; you deserve to be happy. You have earned it, as far as I can see, by simply being who you are. I beg you not to settle for second best simply because it is easier to acheive because you deserve so much more."
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[07 Jul 2008|11:23pm] |
i forgot why i came here
i just remember i needed to be somewhere
i used to think i was coming to you
but it's become apparent
that all of my penance and pleading
wasn't for your face or your hands
or godamnit your smile
all of my crying, my drinking
was for a face or a smile
and you just happened to be in the way all this while.
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[07 Jul 2008|11:23pm] |
and i don't paint myself into corners anymore,
in a brittle heart of clay.
i threw my brushes away,
the tools of the trade that chained
your memory to me are out the door.
i don't paint myself into corners anymore.
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[07 Jul 2008|11:25pm] |
you're not a memory yet,
someone i can forget.
you're still here in my heart,
not just an occasional thought in my head.
right now i'm holding on,
to something i know is gone.
wish i could lay it to rest,
but you're not a memory yet.
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