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[04 Jul 2008|12:06am] |
"So everything we believe about happiness is wrong," I said.
He nodded.
"Everything?" I asked, when what I meant was, Everything? Including you? Including me?
And Marcus, being Marcus, knew what i really wanted to know, and answered my silent, more significant question. He held up his hand to shield the rays and looked me in the eyes.
"Almost."
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[04 Jul 2008|12:06am] |
i'm in a building that has two thousand floors,
and when they all fall down
i think you know it's you they're falling for.
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[04 Jul 2008|12:14am] |
i would just like to express how excited i am that today is THE FREAKING 4TH OF JULY!!!!!!!
HELL YEAH!!!
okay. i'm done.
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[04 Jul 2008|12:21am] |
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we'd all be lucky to have a love like that in a lifetime.
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[04 Jul 2008|12:23am] |
"Did you know that the average American spends six months of his or her life waiting for red lights to turn green?"
"What?"
"Six months wasted, waiting for permission to move on," he said.
"Uh-huh."
"Think of all the other stuff you could do with that time."
I was totally confused. "In the car?"
"In your life," he said.
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[04 Jul 2008|12:26am] |
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and i said "I've gotta be honest I've been waiting for you all my life." for so long I thought I was asylum bound, but just seeing you makes me think twice. and being with you here makes me sane, I fear I'll go crazy if you leave my side
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[04 Jul 2008|12:26am] |
some say
maybe this one
maybe that one
never sure of the one they depend on
i say you're the right one
baby, come carry me away
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[04 Jul 2008|12:28am] |
I couldn't sleep again last night
You're always running through my mind
It's driving me crazy.
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[04 Jul 2008|12:31am] |
i can't handle all this pain.
all we ever do is fight anyway.
why we even tried i haven't a clue.
w/ hearts involved there's way too much to lose.
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[04 Jul 2008|12:33am] |
DO YOU KNOW THAT SENDSPACE IS INFINITELY GAY.
I MEAN, JUST SAYIN'!
>=(
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[04 Jul 2008|12:34am] |
Cause I've seen love die
Way too many times
When it deserved to be alive
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[04 Jul 2008|12:41am] |
I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away
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[04 Jul 2008|12:51am] |
SOMEONE SHOULD HELP ME.
OR BUY ME A BODY GUARD.
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[04 Jul 2008|01:09am] |
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cause i'm proud of my life, and the things that i have done. proud of myself and the loner i've become. you're free to whine, it will not get your far. i'll do just fine with my car and my guitar.
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[04 Jul 2008|01:13am] |
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I officially hate people.
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[04 Jul 2008|01:14am] |
even if your hands are shakin'
and your faith is broken
even as the eyes are closin'
do it with a heart wide open
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[04 Jul 2008|01:21am] |
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you have to learn when to give up, when to walk away. even if it hurts, especially if it hurts.
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[04 Jul 2008|01:29am] |
i'm drunk
the end!~
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[04 Jul 2008|01:32am] |
Is it really true?
Could you save yourself for someone who loves you for you?
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[04 Jul 2008|01:33am] |
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My self esteem, it's been low. Go ahead and count, it's been lower than low. I know the feeling of it stealing life out from under me.
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[04 Jul 2008|01:34am] |
I want to learn how you save yourself for someone who loves you for you.
So many times we just give it away to someone who couldn't even remember your name.
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[04 Jul 2008|01:36am] |
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And if she runs away, she fears she won't be followed.
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[04 Jul 2008|01:40am] |
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btw my dog is adorable
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[04 Jul 2008|01:50am] |
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we weren't crazy.
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[04 Jul 2008|01:52am] |
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i pull off your jeans, and you spill jack and coke in my collar. i melt like a witch and scream, "i'm so sorry for everything!"
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[04 Jul 2008|02:00am] |
Never forget what a man says to you when he's angry.
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[04 Jul 2008|02:22am] |
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i can't sleep
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[04 Jul 2008|02:37am] |
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i want a bagel
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[04 Jul 2008|02:37am] |
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and some sex
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[04 Jul 2008|02:41am] |
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melissa i just now saw your braceless pics and you are ~beautiful
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[04 Jul 2008|02:42am] |
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mel p - aim please
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[04 Jul 2008|03:18am] |
finally posting el awards: good idea/bad idea
will it stir up unwanted drama that we finally got rid of? etc.
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[04 Jul 2008|03:20am] |
From the sky, you looked small,
But I loved you the same.
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[04 Jul 2008|03:20am] |
To add to the chat:
I'm gonna get beat up. Woo! =]
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[04 Jul 2008|03:21am] |
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And if strength is born from heartbreak, many mountains I could move. And if walls could speak, I'd pray that they would tell me what to do.
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[04 Jul 2008|03:22am] |
BECAUSE OKAY.
Reason number one: I have been kinda sorta hanging out with this one kid a lot, and his ex girlfriend who he may/may not be getting back together with found out or something, and now she's added me on facebook.
THEN!
I met this kid at my friend's graduation party and I was like OMG because it was one of those times where you just click with a person, idk. Not like I want to date him or anything like that but just someone to hang out with and have fun with right? So we start texting a lot and he's inviting me all these places and we're flirting and all that good stuff. SO THEN THIS RANDOM GIRL ADDS ME ON MYSPACE RIGHT? And I add her to see her profile cause it was private and I do that, and it's his girlfriend I guess? And I'm like oic this was a great detail for him to leave out.
GIRLS DO NOT ADD OTHER GIRLS RANDOMLY LIKE THAT UNLESS THEY KNOW SOMETHING. 0.0
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[04 Jul 2008|03:24am] |
Ahhh fuck you Melissa. =[
Jk jk commenting now!
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[04 Jul 2008|03:27am] |
You don't even know what it feels like to need one person this much,
because you're always running from them.
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[04 Jul 2008|03:28am] |
Lmfao thank you Kate. :D
NO IDK OKAY I DO NOT WANT TO STEAL ANYONE'S MAN! =[ And I am like one of those people who if another person starts to bitch me out half the time I'm like YEAH YEAH WELL...YOUR MOM or something stupid idkidk.
da;lskjdasd Stupid girls. AND STUPID BOYS WHO DON'T LET OTHER GIRLS KNOW ABOUT THEIR STUPID GIRLS.
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[04 Jul 2008|03:29am] |
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ALSO KATE IF YOU ARE STAYING UP THEN I HAVE ANOTHER STORY FOR YOU AND EL BUT MOSTLY YOU CAUSE I THINK YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE UP. =]
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[04 Jul 2008|03:31am] |
Just keep coughing, smoke another cigarette.
Dream another big dream, just live and regret.
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[04 Jul 2008|03:48am] |
Lmfao everyone who I've told that to has laughed so it's okay. =[ If it weren't me being scarred by my BROTHER WHO I STILL REMEMBER IN DIAPERS AHHH doing some girl then I would laugh too haha.
Oh lordy it was an interesting day lmao.
PS: JENNA YOU SHOULD READ MY STORY IT WILL CHEER YOU UP I SWEARRR. =]
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[04 Jul 2008|03:51am] |
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Lose our clothes in the summertime, lose ourselves to lose our minds.
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[04 Jul 2008|03:52am] |
Well everything's another excuse
To keep from doing what I want to.
Like, I would really love to kiss you,
But I guess I'm in no condition.
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[04 Jul 2008|03:53am] |
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The coffee's never strong enough.
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[04 Jul 2008|03:54am] |
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The two drunk kids, trying to figure out which way was home, they got lost as they were taking off each other's clothes.
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[04 Jul 2008|03:58am] |
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omg @ the fucked up day story ahaha i am so so sorry hahaha
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[04 Jul 2008|03:58am] |
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The only people you need in your life are the ones who prove they need you in theirs.
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[04 Jul 2008|04:05am] |
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My baby is a rock 'n roller.
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[04 Jul 2008|04:09am] |
There's not a lot for you to give if you're giving in, and there's not a lot for you to feel if you're not feeling it.
You bring it up and bring it in and we'll get you fixed up in no time.
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[04 Jul 2008|09:46am] |
happy 4th of july!!!!!!
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[04 Jul 2008|09:49am] |
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to be completely honest, you're not like all the rest.
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[04 Jul 2008|10:15am] |
WHY am i up this early
during the summer - and on a HOLIDAY
because my parents are the only crazies on the planet who start their bbq at like 10:30 am
fuck my lifeeeee
happy 4th everyone :]
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[04 Jul 2008|10:24am] |
She has done so many things it's so surreal
She has seen so many things it's so unreal
She has been almost everywhere and tasted everything
She has been a dream since birth who could conquer everything
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[04 Jul 2008|10:31am] |
You are a war
Worth dying for
Tonight
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[04 Jul 2008|10:32am] |
Pass me another bottle, honey
The Jaeger's so sweet
But if it keeps you around, then I'm down
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[04 Jul 2008|10:38am] |
Those three words are said too much,
they're not enough.
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[04 Jul 2008|10:43am] |
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blah i'm bored =(
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[04 Jul 2008|11:16am] |
Aw, damn my 4th is gonna suck. :(
Still little protective 'bout the people that I let inside.
Still little defensive thinkin' 'bout me tryin' to run my life.
Still little depressed inside, I fake a smile and deal with the side effects.
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[04 Jul 2008|11:33am] |
this could possibly be the worse day ever
my family is having like a 4th bash~ thing but none of my friends are in town soo i'm all alone there. HOWEVER my mom did invite my LATIN TEACHER who is completely insane bc they are "friends." what the heck! so i shall just sit there for like 10 hours being miserable and alone with my fricking crazy teacher.
:( i am depressed
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[04 Jul 2008|12:02pm] |
hangovers are lame ok
especially when you have to get up with your bb @ like 5:30am and you did not go to bed until like 4 ok
FAYLE
Happy 4th to everyone, though :)
idkidk it is cloudy and crappy and humid/a little rainy outside today which depresses me a little
i hope everyone has a decent day though!!
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[04 Jul 2008|12:09pm] |
When our time is up
When our lives are done
Will we say we've had our fun?
Will we make a mark this time?
Will we always say we tried?
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out.
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your heart out.
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[04 Jul 2008|12:30pm] |
i see your lipstick on your glass
and i think you're drunk,
i start to laugh
and i find the note
the letters ran
and it said, "i loved you"
"yeah i loved you"
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[04 Jul 2008|12:34pm] |
her eyes, that’s where hope lies.
that’s where blue skies
meet the sunrise.
her eyes, that’s where i go,
when i go home.
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[04 Jul 2008|12:38pm] |
If you'll only, if you'll only say yes
Whether you will's anybody's guess
God, only God knows I'm trying my best
But I'm so tired of this loneliness
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[04 Jul 2008|12:42pm] |
run, baby, run
don’t ever look back
they’ll tear us apart if you give them the chance
don’t sell your heart
don’t say we’re not meant to be
run, baby, run
forever we’ll be
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[04 Jul 2008|12:42pm] |
Let me embrace you with this kiss
And together we'll float like angels
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[04 Jul 2008|01:54pm] |
it's funny how things work out.
the ones we need don't know we're there.
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[04 Jul 2008|01:56pm] |
ok i know some of you listen to country ok but in general, i do not.
i do at times and it is not bad ok but there are some songs out there that are just bad.
try waking up to the crappy bass lines on repeat like fifteen times.
happy fucking fourth =[
also, you'd think the guests of my neighbors party could be law-abiding right?
no, they park in the middle of the street rather than walking a block or so.
now you cant get down that side of the street. >=[
/ rant
confession: i am irritable bc i am stuck home alone and that kind of sounds like it would be a fun party ok
BUT I AM TWENTY ONE NOW. =] I JUST REMEMBERED.
SO I CAN GO GET DRUNK ON SAKE. yesssssss
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[04 Jul 2008|01:57pm] |
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i'm thinking of you and i don't want to give up but i'm a quitter thanks to you, do you think it's fair?
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[04 Jul 2008|02:01pm] |
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because i'm right here, to retrieve all you stole. every tear, and everything you own.
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[04 Jul 2008|02:02pm] |
i wish you hours of madness, years of dysfunction, the deepest embitterment. no will to trust anyone.... this is how i lived. this is how you left me blue and i'd crawl back to you.
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[04 Jul 2008|02:09pm] |
i hope i'm not
the only one.
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[04 Jul 2008|02:13pm] |
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i do not deny, i know in my mind i would leave you now if i had the strength to.
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[04 Jul 2008|02:20pm] |
"why do relationships have to be so hard?"
because the only thing harder is being alone.
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[04 Jul 2008|02:22pm] |
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The moon rose and stripped the earth to its bones.
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[04 Jul 2008|02:30pm] |
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i would like to thank you for showing me a part of myself that i have never seen. we were young and dumb, but it still was fun and i guess these things just tend to fall apart.
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[04 Jul 2008|02:35pm] |
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You can't blame a girl for stickin to what she knows.
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[04 Jul 2008|02:41pm] |
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when it's good, it's so, so good. when it's gone, it's gone. they say time will kill the pain, i say pain is gonna kill my time.
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[04 Jul 2008|02:51pm] |
This cannot be real, looking out into the rain
This window holds a view of you and I and how things change.
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[04 Jul 2008|02:52pm] |
As me so sweetly:
What do I do?
Who do I sing for?
Well honey, I sing about you.
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[04 Jul 2008|02:56pm] |
so, i am about to leave and whatnot bc woohoo happy 4th
BUT! i have a point to prove so here it is
ILY MEL.
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[04 Jul 2008|02:57pm] |
Love is a walk down Main Street,
Love is an apple that's so sweet,
Love is something that can't be beat.
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[04 Jul 2008|02:59pm] |
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There's just something about his smile, he looks so nice. I wish I had friends like that; they'd always be there for me, I wouldn't look bad, they wouldn't talk behind my back.
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[04 Jul 2008|04:07pm] |
Anyone who tried to deny you must be out of their mind
'Cause I came here with a load
And it feels so much lighter since I met you
Honey you should know
That I could never go on without you
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[04 Jul 2008|04:33pm] |
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'Cause your words hit like a train and I can't ignore it
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[04 Jul 2008|04:37pm] |
And if I never thought I'd fall like the rain
I do now, I do now
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[04 Jul 2008|04:54pm] |
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Happy 4th, everyone. =]
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[04 Jul 2008|05:06pm] |
( Read more... )
Okay, yesterday/today has been the most miserable days of my life.
Yesterday I got into the shower and when I got out, my dog was barking.
I was all like, "Stfu, what are you barking about?"
So I go in and get dressed and he continues to bark.
I start to go down the stairs and he comes flying up them and he knocks me off my feet and I fall down two flights of stairs and no one was home.
When I regained myself, I got up but I couldn't move my left arm cause of the pain.
First thought was, "Oh, I broke it."
I still can't move my left arm today, but it's bruised so bad that you'd think I bursted a pen on it.
I have bruises all over me and one on my neck.
My mom said it was amazing that I didn't break my neck.
NOW, I have to go to my grandparents and eat and I've been to sick from the pain to eat.
Sorry for the rant.
/rant
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[04 Jul 2008|06:01pm] |
Just because I'm hurting
doesn't mean I'm hurt,
doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserve.
No better and no worse.
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[04 Jul 2008|06:57pm] |
i know this lady with eyes as blue as the sea
now she would sit and stare directly through me
and that laugh would take me to the future
throughout the past, there was nothing left for me
but i've been working for days on full time
i've got no money but everything is going fine
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[04 Jul 2008|06:59pm] |
love me faster than the devil
run me straight into the ground
drowning deep inside your water
drown in love and memories
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[04 Jul 2008|07:00pm] |
i heard the world up, late night
holding my breath tight,
trying to keep my head on right
there's a chill in the air, nobody could care
how you're caught up in the fight of your life
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[04 Jul 2008|07:33pm] |
when a crime breaks out all the cute girls should get the good looking guy. when theres a crime out there he's gonna comb his hair cause he's the good looking guy
i miss boy meets world =[
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[04 Jul 2008|07:36pm] |
if i could be your first real heartache,
i would do it all over again
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[04 Jul 2008|08:23pm] |
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But you steal every breath of air that comes out of my lungs. But I can't keep, keep my hands off you.
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[04 Jul 2008|08:28pm] |
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Well, honestly, your honesty, it has emerged unscathed. And I hope you're doing fine, because me, I'm doing fucking great. And I wouldn't want to waste another second of your time.
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[04 Jul 2008|08:47pm] |
i saw the post ab bras and this excites me ok bc i just bought like 4 today and i am happy bc they actually had my size and they actually fit well
that is all.
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[04 Jul 2008|08:47pm] |
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he's got pictures on his walls of all the girls he's loved before
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[04 Jul 2008|08:49pm] |
some hearts,
they just get all the right breaks.
some hearts,
have the stars on their side.
some hearts,
they just have it so easy.
some hearts,
just get lucky sometimes.
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[04 Jul 2008|08:51pm] |
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I need you so bad.
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[04 Jul 2008|08:54pm] |
But then they say it’s better to bury your sadness
in a graveyard or garden that waits for the spring to awake from its sleep
and burst into green.
And I’ve cried
and you would think I would better for it,
but the sadness just sleeps and it stays in your spine
for the rest of your life.
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[04 Jul 2008|08:57pm] |
idk ilya. =)
if i believed Independence day deserved to be celebrated, I'd wish you all one. =)
f this country ok lmfao. Either way, I HOPE YOU ALL HAVE AN AWESOME TIME
LIGHTING THINGS ON FIRE & DRINKING OK.
and if you are not doing either of those things,
i strong suggest anoning my journal. lmfao.
JAYKAY. unless you want to.
idk, i am excited about my new life ok lol.
yay for being 21 and having nothing else interesting to say!
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[04 Jul 2008|08:59pm] |
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take what you need and be on your way
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[04 Jul 2008|09:01pm] |
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wtf, lmfao. i guess i had the habit of telling everyone my birthday was in 7 months.. 3 months ago. so ever since then when someone asks me when i turn 19 i said 7 months. lmfao, when really it's only 4 months from now :) yay then i can go to the bars!
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[04 Jul 2008|09:07pm] |
Dancing through the night
has never been
so rock n' roll.
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[04 Jul 2008|09:14pm] |
And no,
I'm not afraid,
at least not to die.
I'm afraid to live
and not remember why
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[04 Jul 2008|09:59pm] |
And I thought it would be funny to leave you hanging in suspense
Then I'd run over to your house and I'd scale the chainlink fence
That borders your back yard and then I'd climb through your window
And I'd whisper that I love you as you fall out of your clothes
And we'd lay there in the darkness like this dream of you I had
Where we captured all the fireflies and knew what time we had
Could be counted on our fingertips and that almost made you cry
But you let me hold you tightly as we said all our goodbyes
May I say I loved you more
And it must of been and hour that I clutched you in my arms
And I must have said the right things because you instantly felt warm
And you heard my heart stop beating but you wanted not to cry
As your sympathetic whispers told a tale of bad goodbyes
You swore you heard me laughing and I swore I saw you smile
As the time we've spent together was meant to last us quite a while
As I take this piece of you with me I'll carry to my grave
And knowing that for someone you're an angel sent to save
Keep Breathing my angel, if you go down I go with you
May I say I loved you more
So let's drink to memories we shared
Down one for all the hopes and cares
Here's two for being unaware that you're gone
Because before too long you'll be a memory.
idk this makes me cry a lot :(
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[04 Jul 2008|11:00pm] |
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i'm only a woman of flesh and bone. and i wept much, we all do, i thought i might die alone. but i had never met you, so baby, be good to me. i've got nothing to give you, you see, except everything, all the good and the bad. 'cause i've been bad; i've lied, cheated, stolen, and been ungrateful for what i had. and i'm afraid habits rule my waking life, i'm scared, and i'm running in my sleep, for you. but all of the oceans and rivers and showers will wash it all away and make me clean for you. 'cause i had never met you. so let's take a loan out, put it down on a house in a place we've never lived; in a place that exists in the pages of scripts and the songs that they sing. and all of the beautiful things that make you weep, but don't have to make you weak. 'cause i never loved somebody the way that i love you.
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[04 Jul 2008|11:06pm] |
ermm
maybe im really out of the loop of the world
but..what does ftw mean?
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[04 Jul 2008|11:10pm] |
Now I rest my head from
Such an endless dreary time
A time of hopes and happiness
That had you on my mind
Those days are gone and now it seems
As if I'll get some rest
But now and then I'll see you again
And it puts my heart to the test
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[04 Jul 2008|11:15pm] |
I always waste my time just wondering
What the next man thinks of me
I'll never do exactly what I want
And I'll sculpt my life for your acceptance
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[04 Jul 2008|11:38pm] |
i guess it's ok i puked the day away.
i guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way.
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[04 Jul 2008|11:45pm] |
that's
what
you
get
for
falling
again,
you can never get him out of your head.
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[04 Jul 2008|11:46pm] |
new songs for me to DL.
plz&ty :)
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[04 Jul 2008|11:56pm] |
and i can't see the point of patient love
when everyone just wants to get fucked
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[04 Jul 2008|11:56pm] |
people say that your dreams are the only things that save you. come on baby, in our dreams, we can live our misbehavior
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