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[05 Dec 2007|12:01am] |
and I bet you ain't got nothing left to learn
it's better that way cause you never get burned.
and you try not to think about what might have been
cause you know this town is just sink or swim.
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[05 Dec 2007|12:03am] |
did they show previews for next weeks tila?
they didn't show it on mtv.com
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[05 Dec 2007|12:03am] |
Me and you with the lights
down low.. With nothing on
but the radio.
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[05 Dec 2007|12:07am] |
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what's worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should've healed years ago, but never did? maybe our old wounds teach us something, they remind us where we've been and what we've overcome. they teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. that's what we like to think but that's not the way it is, is it? some things we just have to learn over and over and over again.
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[05 Dec 2007|12:10am] |
lately i feel so small,
maybe it's just that my bed has grown
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[05 Dec 2007|12:21am] |
go and run yourself a million miles
hoping that the colors run out
and you go off like that
get off of my stack
leave a little window
get off of my stack
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[05 Dec 2007|12:46am] |
New aim.
Changingskies
Lets make a chat?
Unless there is one.
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[05 Dec 2007|12:46am] |
men boys suck.
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[05 Dec 2007|01:20am] |
if you knew i was dying, would it change you?
if you knew i was dying, would it change anything?
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[05 Dec 2007|01:50am] |
i could listen to my therapist
pretend you don't exist
and not have to dream of
what i dream of
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[05 Dec 2007|02:00am] |
you are a splendid butterfly
it is your wings that make you beautiful
and i could make you fly away
but i could never make you stay
not for all the tea in china,
not if i could sing like a bird,
not for all north carolina,
not for all my little words
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[05 Dec 2007|02:04am] |
eligible, not too stupid,
intelligible, and cute as cupid
knowledgable, but not always right,
salvageable, and free for the night
well, my heart's running 'round like a chicken with its head cut off
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[05 Dec 2007|02:06am] |
we don't have to be stars exploding in the night
or electric eels under the covers
we don't have to be anything quite so unreal,
let's just be lovers
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[05 Dec 2007|02:19am] |
you. it was always you for me.
nothing could change it.
me. was there ever me for you?
it's always changing.
some we're holding up too high.
so you're sorry now.
so you need me now.
as if i ever loved you.
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[05 Dec 2007|02:19am] |
if you knew
how i longed
for you now that you're gone
you'd grow wings
and fly home to me
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[05 Dec 2007|02:22am] |
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i think i'm everything you hate
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[05 Dec 2007|02:48am] |
hello ?
anyone up.
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[05 Dec 2007|02:55am] |
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your
moments of weakness. For once I'm
at peace with myself I've been
burdened with blame,
trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on.
I've lived in this place and I know
all the faces. Each one is different
but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's
time that I face it. They'll never
allow me to change.
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[05 Dec 2007|03:06am] |
She gave you everything she had
But she was young and dumb
She'd just turned twenty-one
She didn't care to hang around
So when the shit came down
Why she was nowhere to be found
This life can turn a good girl bad
She was the sweetest thing
That you had ever seen
You're such a delicate boy
In the hysterical realm
Of an emotional landslide
In physical terms
With your cherry lips and golden curls
You could make grown men gasp
When you'd go walking past them
In your hot pants and high heels
They could not believe
That such a body was for real.
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[05 Dec 2007|03:11am] |
Walk on by. You don't know I'm
alive. Maybe one day you'll find
You should open your eyes
You don't know me. You're the one
who looked right through me.
Now you're saying that you knew me.
When I was invisible
And you're the one who walked
right through me. Now you're
saying that you knew me
When I was invisible. little things adding up
Try so hard not to rush. giving in, letting go of.
the world we know
They won't see you
Force it down. Lose the taste.
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[05 Dec 2007|03:18am] |
I see your face on the television,
almost everyday in magazines and
on the big screen. close yet far away
I wonder why you choose those others
and you never come to call on me
when I'm teh one whos waiting for you
I really need you-please pick me!
Spaceman, oh spaceman!
come rescue me from this!
calling all aliens! come rescue me!
Remember that night at my window
when i waved at you?
I must have been only five, or so,
but i never forgot you.
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[05 Dec 2007|03:26am] |
We laughed, we cried And all the
while we felt so alive It was you
and me You grabbed my hand
and you made me see what it
could feel like And what it might
be like You wrote my name in
the sand In this endless summer
We will be together
And i dont want this feeling to ever end
Looking back in november
Feel the sun and remember
That when our time has finally come to pass
Somethings last. Somethings always last.
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[05 Dec 2007|03:29am] |
Every time that I sell myself to you
I feel a little bit cheaper than I need to
I will tear the petals off of you
Rose red I will make you tell the truth
Was she asking for it?
Was she asking nice?
Yea she was asking you for it
Did she ask you twice?
Every time that I stare into the sun
Angel dust and my dress just comes undone
Every time that I stare into the sun
Be a model or just look like one
Wild eye rot gut do me in
Do you think you can make me do it again?
Was she asking for it?
Was she asking nice?
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[05 Dec 2007|03:30am] |
Crash and burn All the stars
explode tonight How'd you
get so desperate How'd you
stay alive Help me please
Burn the sorrow from your eyes
Oh, come on be alive again
Dont lay down and die
Hey, hey You know what to do
Oh, baby, drive away to malibu
Get well soon Please dont go
any higher How are you so
burnt when Youre barely on fire
Cry to the angels Im gonna rescue you
Im gonna set you free tonight, baby.
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[05 Dec 2007|03:35am] |
What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another
one of your plays You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?
In time our soul untold
I'm just another soul for sale.. oh, well
The page is out of print
We are not permanent
We're temporary, temporary
Same old story
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[05 Dec 2007|03:51am] |
there's a shield around us
it's invisible and soundless
and we drink too much and fuck too soon
smoke cigarettes in rented rooms
we quit our jobs and shoot the moon
and cut our wrists and sleep til noon
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[05 Dec 2007|03:57am] |
Nobody believes me when I tell them that
you're out of your mind! Nobody believes
me when I tell them that there's so much
you hide. You treat me like a queen when
we go out, wanna show everyone what our
love's about. All wrapped up in me whenever
there is a crowd. But when no ones around
Theres no kindness in your eyes
The way you look at me, it's just not right
I can tell whats going on this time
Theres a stranger in my life
You're not the person that I once knew
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do
Then they would see a stranger too
Did I ever do anything that was this cruel to you?
Did I ever make you wonder who was standing in the room?
You made yourself look perfect in everyway
So when this goes down, I'm the one that will be blamed
Your plan is working so you can just walk away
Baby your secret's safe. Theres no kindness in your eyes
The way you look at me, it's just not right
I can tell whats going on this time.
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[05 Dec 2007|05:25am] |
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12 hours in the library. going home in a half hour. holla
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[05 Dec 2007|06:15am] |
i went to sleep at 7 last night
wuttt
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[05 Dec 2007|06:26am] |
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gooood morning.
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[05 Dec 2007|06:43am] |
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let's all agree that school sucks y/y
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[05 Dec 2007|06:47am] |
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LOL WALENCIA.
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[05 Dec 2007|07:24am] |
If I could wake up in a different place, at a different time, could I wake up as a different person?
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[05 Dec 2007|08:16am] |
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i've been thinking about you in the middle of the night,
how could something so wrong go so right?
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[05 Dec 2007|08:35am] |
ALRIGHT WE HAVE TWO REQUESTED LISTS IF ANYONE WANTS TO DO THEM.
Seasons/Months
Chuck Palahniuk quotes.
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[05 Dec 2007|09:21am] |
Ever since I was young,
your word is the word that always won.
Worry and wake the ones you love.
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[05 Dec 2007|09:24am] |
If I could, I would shrink myself
and sink through your skin to your blood cells,
Remove whatever makes you hurt,
but I am too weak to be your cure.
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[05 Dec 2007|09:29am] |
do you believe you're missing out?
that everything good is happening somewhere else?
with nobody in your bed,
the night's hard to get through...
:/
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[05 Dec 2007|09:32am] |
We were doomed from the start
As lovers are.
Why am I doing this?
Digging my own grave,
though it's shallow
I would lie in it.
We're down in the basement
in the dark
After we crash your car,
Hoping fast that the arrow hits the mark
so you know who we are.<
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[05 Dec 2007|09:37am] |
Once said, always said
I will hold the past over your head
I'll speak my mind whenever I feel slighted
I am hellbent on extracting all of my revenge
So take heart, sweetheart,
Or I will take it from you.
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[05 Dec 2007|09:39am] |
Sweet Jesus, I swear that I love you,
no matter what the chariot says.
I'm biased,
and by this I'll judge you on weakness
wrapped up in my own innocence,
and I think that's fine.
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[05 Dec 2007|09:47am] |
They call holidays an option for a reason
I heard you're coming back to life just for the fourth
I’ve been catching all your ghosts for every season
I pray to god you won't come back here anymore
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[05 Dec 2007|10:44am] |
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Brave men tell the truth, a wise man's tools are analogies and puzzles. A woman holds her tongue, knowing silence will speak for her. So now I'll never know, as you will only sleep beside me. And everywhere I go, there's always something to remind me of another place and time, where love that travelled far had found me. We stayed outside til two, waiting for the light to come back. But hid in talk I knew, until you asked what I was thinking.
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[05 Dec 2007|12:30pm] |
why do you build me up?
buttercup baby just to let me down
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[05 Dec 2007|12:30pm] |
i don't care what they say,
i'm in love with you.
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[05 Dec 2007|12:33pm] |
fuck, what are some ways to make
quick money?!
(no hooking or selling drugs)
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[05 Dec 2007|12:58pm] |
do my journal.
i'm bored and wants lots of things to read and/or answer like everyone else.
lulz.
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[05 Dec 2007|01:21pm] |
Let's hear it for letting
someone totally ruin your life.
Let's hear it for love.
Let's hope it's everything
you hoped it would be.
Let's hear it for jealousy.
Let's hear it for hate.
Let's hear it for an apology
before it's too late.
Let's hear it for cigarettes.
Baby, you were great.
Let's hear it for love.
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[05 Dec 2007|01:23pm] |
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hope is all i really need to wash my selfishness and greed, but theres no hope to be found. no, i've looked all around. and if this life that i've lead only leads to tears in bed, then i won't hang around, no i won't hang around. and now i've come to conclusions that i'm empty, and i thought i still had everything in me.
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[05 Dec 2007|01:26pm] |
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People like me don't have best friends. You can't trust me, and I won't let you. I won't get close to you because I'm afraid of losing you. I'll protect you from me and protect me from myself by avoiding confrontation, which will lead us to a falling out, inevitably. I will keep secrets from you and tell your secrets to people you hate in order to push you away. I'll do anything to keep myself from getting attached to you because I've been there before and I don't want to go back to being dependent on anyone.
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[05 Dec 2007|01:34pm] |
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do my journal! pleeeeease :]
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[05 Dec 2007|01:45pm] |
i am not an angry girl
but it seems like i've got everyone fooled
every time i say something they find
hard to hear, they chalk it up to my anger
and never to their own fear
imagine you're a girl
just trying to finally come clean
knowing for well they'd prefer
you were dirty and smiling
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[05 Dec 2007|01:49pm] |
love is just a lyric in a children's rhyme
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[05 Dec 2007|01:50pm] |
do what you like, you don't have to be nice.
just pour yourself a cup of coffee.
leave anytime, you don't have to be right.
you've gotta live the best you know how.
and if you love well that should be enough,
instead it turns your joy into sorrow.
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[05 Dec 2007|01:58pm] |
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"I'm the kind of green in the neon signs off the express way. the exit signs. people pass me by, without a second thought. unless of course, they need to get off at my exit, or stop in for dinner. but i'm just a rest stop for people and their problems. people come to me when they've got no one else to turn to. and as soon as someone else appears, they turn off my exit and onto another highway. or they pull out of the parking lot saying "wow. next time im in this part of town, i may just come here again". but im sick of people treating me like this. you just.. you wouldn't understand"
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[05 Dec 2007|02:09pm] |
i truly do believe that being over analytic is one of the worst qualities to have as a person. it means you get attached to everyone and everything in your life. even if you don't like something, you have strong feelings about it.. feelings of hate. and when people who overanalyze think, they think too much and make the situations in their life even worse. but you know what the most terrible thing about it all is? they can't do anything about it. they can't shut this characteristic off. they can't, for just once in their fucking lives not feel anything when they really wish they could. we feel everything, we hurt for things that aren't even immediate parts of our lives and sometimes i just wish i wasn't this way. sure it makes me a more understanding person for other people, but it fucks with my head.. it makes me hurt more than i should when things go wrong and it scares me away from the happiness that approaches cause i always ask myself the doubting questions of whether it will last and what's keeping me from enjoying it? overanalyzing is what's keeping me from it. that's why the most simple things in life are the ones we adore most. like a smile, like a beautiful landscape, a portrait or a song. for once i wish i could exist completely of simplicity. it's so much easier when things are simple.
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[05 Dec 2007|02:13pm] |
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who the fuck eats meat loaf. yuck.
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[05 Dec 2007|02:17pm] |
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rofl no one believes me when i tell them that there is a song for me. i fail. :[
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[05 Dec 2007|02:21pm] |
and now it all seems so familiar
like pages turned on calendars
we get the same twelve months to
fuck things up year after year
and i can't believe how down i am
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[05 Dec 2007|02:24pm] |
so orgasm girl got off, and my mom walked in the room.
lolololol
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[05 Dec 2007|02:33pm] |
I’ll leave my window open,
‘Cause I’m too tired at night to call your name.
Just know I’m right here hopin’,
That you’ll come in with the rain.
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[05 Dec 2007|02:35pm] |
Just a small town boy and girl
livin' in a crazy world.
Tryin' to figure out what is and isn't true.
And I don't try to hide my tears.
The secrets are my deepest fears.
Through it all nobody gets me like you do.
And you know everything about me.
You say you can't live without me.
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[05 Dec 2007|02:39pm] |
You're tied together with a smile
But you're coming undone
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[05 Dec 2007|02:41pm] |
I might bite my nails
so I can't scratch my face.
But I'd still cut my hair
if you asked the right way.
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[05 Dec 2007|02:45pm] |
you never would have thought in the end
how amazing it feels just to live again
it's a feeling that you cannot miss
it burns a hole through everyone that feels it
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[05 Dec 2007|02:46pm] |
It starts in my toes
and I crinkle my nose
where ever it goes I always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go
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[05 Dec 2007|02:50pm] |
look in my eyes
I'm jaded now whatever that means
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[05 Dec 2007|02:53pm] |
When you figure out love is all that matters, after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small
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[05 Dec 2007|03:00pm] |
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!!! just sent in my app to spent the summer in Tokyo!
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[05 Dec 2007|03:20pm] |
but I know, know you, you're waiting
to hear someone say "you can get there, too"
be patient, they will see you
someday when you are different
you give a shit for someone else
and stand for something more, well then you can.
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[05 Dec 2007|03:21pm] |
we get so caught up in all of it,
business and relationships,
100 mile an hour lives.
and it's this time of year,
and everybody's here,
it seems the last thing on your mind.
you'd see that today holds something special,
something holy and not superficial.
yuck, i have to go to the dentist.
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[05 Dec 2007|04:12pm] |
"Don't worry about drawing within the lines or coloring outside the lines. I say color outside the lines. Color right off he page. Don't box me in. We're in motion to the ocean. We are not landlocked, I'll tell ya that."
-The Waking Life
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[05 Dec 2007|04:28pm] |
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"she didnt feel frightened. now that she'd found a way out, even the thought of dying didn't scare her. she just wanted to end it before other people she loved were hurt as badly as she was."
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[05 Dec 2007|04:30pm] |
if this box is empty, we'll have to find another one.
with a prettier design, a greater depth inside.
and a lid to keep it all from spilling out.
and you can fill it up with letters back when things were better.
and both of you had blinders on, read story books together.
and you pretend it outweighs the bad things.
and now she disconnects her phone, after the second ring.
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[05 Dec 2007|04:38pm] |
When you're alone and life is
making you lonely, You can
always go downtown. When
you've got worries, All the
noise and the hurry seems to
help, I know, downtown just listen
to the music of the traffic in the city
Linger on the sidewalk where the
neon signs are pretty How can you lose?
The lights are much brighter there
You can forget all your troubles,
forget all your cares and go downtown.
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[05 Dec 2007|04:42pm] |
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"The problem with me was that as soon as I started thinking about getting it together, I got this mad craving desire to fuck it up."
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[05 Dec 2007|04:48pm] |
it's not my weight
that makes me faint
or the sugar in my blood.
but the way these strangers stand so close.
they say my name like a guessing game,
"is that really you?"
no, i don't think it ever was
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[05 Dec 2007|04:50pm] |
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"i love you," chris mouthed, already past coherence. emily turned her face away. "don't," she answered.
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[05 Dec 2007|04:56pm] |
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"It wasn’t the “we’re better as friends” that let me down the most; it’s the fact that you promised never to say that. I was the one to be hesitant in the beginning, you told me not to be. I trusted you. I trusted you with all I had. Then I get let down. I saw it from the beginning, why didn’t I listen to my heart? Instead I listened to you. Maybe it was because for that short time I thought you were my heart. You made it possible for me not to stop thinking of the past so much and to think of the future more. I appreciate it. Now it’s back. You were my security from it. You were my reason for everything. I was actually excited to go to school, because at school I could see you. Now I dread it. I’m beginning to hate the fact that I have to wake up in the morning and go to school, because you are at school, and I can’t stand the fact of seeing you without me by your side. I hate those little sympathetic looks you give me. As if it was my fault. You do realize it isn’t my fault right? I was yours, completely. Just without the title. Things change. People change. I’ll get over this; I’ll get over you. Everything takes time. “You’re very impatient,” you told me time and time again. Let’s see how patient I can be. I will patiently wait for you to come back to me, so I can show you this letter and make you feel shitty. That’s all I want right now, for you to feel like shit. Selfish? Maybe. I don’t care. You didn’t break my heart; I wouldn’t ever give that title to you. Instead I’ll saw you were the one that is missing out. You were the one that I never got a chance with. So just so you know, when I’m content, when I’m in love, and when it’s not with you, I won’t think of you. Instead, I’ll forget you. I’ll forget all of these “sweet nothings” you whispered to me while we cuddled under the stars… or the way you kissed me for the first time. “Forget me it’s that simple” you stole from your favorite song. Well, don’t worry. I’ll forget you… I just don’t know how simple it will be."
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[05 Dec 2007|05:08pm] |
My windows look into your living room
Where I spend the afternoon on top of you
I wonder what it is
That I did to make you move in
Across away from me
I hope I never figure out
Who broke your heart
And if I do, if I do
I'd spend all night losing sleep
I'd spend the night and I'd lose my mind
Well I'd spend the night and I'd lose my mind
My windows look into your bathroom
Where I spend the evening watching
You get yourself clean
And I wonder why it is
That they left this bathroom so unclean
So unlike me.
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[05 Dec 2007|05:09pm] |
Don't think I'll confess
Don't think I'll confess that I
Don't think I'll deny
Don't think I'll deny that I
Don't be so hard on yourself
You won't get better till you get worse
Yeah you send a little smile my way
And don't be so hard on yourself
You won't get better til you get worse
Yeah you send a little love my way
Every second I spend waiting
Drags me closer to this grave
I'm not alone
No, I'm just on my own
And I, it's a little cold outside.
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[05 Dec 2007|05:10pm] |
There's a war inside of me
Do I cause new heartbreak to write
a new broken song. Do I push it
down or let it run me right into the ground
I feel like I wouldn't like me if I met me
Well I can't stop talking for fear of listening
to unwelcome sound And you haven't called
me in weeks and honestly it's bringing me down
I feel like I wouldn't like me if I met me
I feel like you wouldn't like me if you met me
And don't you worry there's still time
There's nothing to live for when I'm sleeping alone
And I wash the windows outside in hopes that
the glare will bring you around Sunshine is days
away I won't be saved I know all the words
I can't say that I'll love you forever
I won't say that I'll love you forever.
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[05 Dec 2007|05:12pm] |
I don't want to be part of the problem
I try so hard to get roughed up
Fists on up, it looks that easy
It looks that way to me
It looks that way to you
But then there's you telling me I can
Then there's you screaming say something
I want the ocean right now
I want the ocean right now
I get so jealous that I can't even work
There I am in the morning
I don't like what I see
I don't know how it's become such a problem
Keep you up all night if I try to remain calm
How can they ask why I feel so angry
Do you see my problem if I never explain it
But then there's you asking me how long
Say something, it's taken me so long.
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[05 Dec 2007|05:13pm] |
I wake up exhausted it's not morning
It's back to sleep to re-dream me
We're alone and we're happy
But there you are, angry with me
Are you alright I can stand up straight
Are you alright can you get me off your mind
I hated this city before you came here
So let go and move on
We're strangers, we're not friends
I hate this and I hate them
This city's exhausted and it's wound up
Soon to be a place that's just filled up
And I found out that you're angry
And you're sorry you ever met me
Are you alright I can stand up straight
Are you alright can you get me off your mind
I am alright I can stand up straight
Are you alright can you get me off your mind.
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[05 Dec 2007|05:13pm] |
I'm taken, I am yours I'm up and doing
circles. I collapse. I might stay out longer
than I left the light on for you
Then if you show, you show
If you show, you show
When I feel like this. When I get so in
To myself. I lose track of where I'm
going and lose track of how to get going again
I feel myself slowing down. Feel myself
turning around Is this taken?
When I feel like this
When I get so sick of myself
Where are you going now without me.
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[05 Dec 2007|05:18pm] |
I'm having me a party
Uh,uh, this ain't just any kind of party
Uh, oh, no It's gonna be really, really hot
I'm gonna put you on the spot
Yeah, there'll be lots of one on one
Come on and join the fun
I'll tell you that it..
It doesn't matter what you wear
'Cause it's only gonna be
you and me there.
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[05 Dec 2007|05:20pm] |
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where can i watch last weeks gossip girl :(
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[05 Dec 2007|05:24pm] |
journal time :)
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[05 Dec 2007|05:35pm] |
They say that time
Heals a broken heart
But time has stood still
Since we've been apart.
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[05 Dec 2007|05:39pm] |
i guess the winter makes you laugh a little slower,
makes you talk a little lower
about the things you could not show
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[05 Dec 2007|05:45pm] |
These nights I get high just from breathing.
When I lie here with you I'm sure that I'm real,
like that firework over the freeway.
I could stay here all day but that's not how you feel.
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[05 Dec 2007|05:46pm] |
we had a heart to heart about life
but neither him or me could decide for ourselves
if we wanted to outlive that night
like two children on the playground of the unconfessed souls
abandoned by our mothers and our lovers and our foes
if only we were brave enough to live the lives we stole
what a wonderful world this could be
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[05 Dec 2007|05:51pm] |
"It wasn't about you."
"Are you sure?"
"I look down, and the answer is right there in my chest and it's resounding, 'Yes. I have bigger problems than you.'"
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[05 Dec 2007|05:52pm] |
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"I'm asking for simplicity, for purity and ease of choice and no pressure. I'm asking for something that no politics is going to provide, something that probably you only get in preschool. I'm asking for preschool."
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[05 Dec 2007|05:54pm] |
it used to be the reason i breathed
now its choking me up
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[05 Dec 2007|05:54pm] |
"Any way I can get yours and Johnny's phone numbers to talk to you after you leave?"
Johnny starts to say something, but Bobby leans in and stops him: "It's not a good idea, Craig."
"What? Why?"
He sighs. "I've been in and out of this place a lot, right?"
"Yeah."
"There are good things about this place; I mean, the food is the best around, there are good people here...but it's still not a place to meet people."
"Why not? I met you guys and you're really cool!"
"Yeah, well, all the worse, then, when you try to call me or Johnny up and find out that we've OD'ed, or been shot, or come back here even worse, or just disappeared."
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[05 Dec 2007|05:55pm] |
i wanted to come visit you
waiting in the springtime
when the leaves change
the ground outside is begging for that
newness that surrounds us
as we dance back through the screen door
in the sunlight of mid-April
but its glow won't stop the smiles
that are spreading on our faces
as we fall down on the kitchen floor
and she is laughing about something that she had heard earlier
and i can't help noticing that she is sitting closer to me
than she ever has before
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[05 Dec 2007|05:57pm] |
The ambulance is singing
As cops push back the crowd
I start to take my last breath,
As blood pours out my mouth.
The medics walk in my way
I think this could be it.
I hear them start to say,
The time of death is half past six.
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[05 Dec 2007|05:57pm] |
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My life may be little and boring, but at least its mine - not some assembly line, secondhanded,hand-me-down life.
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[05 Dec 2007|05:59pm] |
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This is why I loved the support groups so much. If people thought you were dying, they gave you their full attention. If this might be the last time they saw you, they really saw you… People listened instead of just waiting for their turn to speak. And when they spoke, they weren’t telling you a story. When the two of you talked, you were building something, and afterward you were both different than before.
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[05 Dec 2007|05:59pm] |
pretend you are god and grow, and it's your day to wed
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[05 Dec 2007|06:01pm] |
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"I jolt up and I have a momentary seizure that it was all a dream, all of it, but then I wonder...where would the dream start? If it were a nightmare, it would have to have started somewhere before I got bad; it would be like a yearlong dream. You don't have those. And if it were a good dream, that would mean I was still back where it started, leaning over my parents' toilet or lying in bed, listening to my heart.I didn't need that."
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[05 Dec 2007|06:03pm] |
limousine
bangkok
not the sun
archers
no seatbelt song
the shower scene
sowing season
millstone
jesus
degausser
you won't know
luca
sic transit gloria
tommy gun
play crack the sky
car
tautou
... if i get a setlist HALF as good as this i will cry
car?
CAR
WHAT
AH.
!!!!!!
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[05 Dec 2007|06:12pm] |
Maybe I could have loved you better.
Maybe you should have loved me more.
Maybe our hearts were just next in line.
Maybe everything breaks sometime.
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[05 Dec 2007|06:16pm] |
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I am free.
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[05 Dec 2007|06:17pm] |
i am heaven sent,
don't you dare forget.
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[05 Dec 2007|06:18pm] |
then ask me whats it like to have
myself so figured out.
i wish i knew..
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[05 Dec 2007|06:19pm] |
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I've never backed down from anything but for some reason, standing on that old porch as the sun faded behind the weathered barn, I froze. I can't do this. 'Snap out of it, be strong,' I told myself. But this wasn't about being strong, it was about being weak; vulnerable. It was about that night at the lake, long walks, sunshine and butterflies; it was about dancing in the rain and that swing in the tree by the old fence. The porch light flickered on and the door creaked open. My heart pounded like quick rain on a tin roof. "Hey, Meg." "I uh..I came to..I wanted to.." He brushed my hair from my face and looked into my eyes. "I love you too, Meg." I didn't even need to say it, he knew without me saying it. And that's what it was about.
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[05 Dec 2007|06:20pm] |
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every line is about who i don't wanna write about anymore.
hope you come down with something they can't diagnose,
don't have the cure for.
holding on to your grudge, oh,
its so hard to have someone to love.
and keeping quiet is hard cause you can't keep
a secret if it never was a secret to start.
at least pretend you didn't wanna get caught..
we're concentrated on falling apart.
we were contenders, we're throwing the fight
but i just wanna believe, i just wanna believe,
i just wanna believe in us.
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[05 Dec 2007|06:22pm] |
it hurts to always have to be honest with
the one that you love.
oh, so let it go..
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[05 Dec 2007|06:25pm] |
it's hard to be the better man
when you forget you're trying
it's hard to be the better man
when you're still lying
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[05 Dec 2007|06:25pm] |
someone's got the answers
but i'd rather think there's nothing to be found
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[05 Dec 2007|06:26pm] |
i'd drive my car off of the bridge
if i knew that you weren't inside
put the petal to the floor,
who could ask for more?
a fantastic way to kill some time...
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[05 Dec 2007|06:27pm] |
i hope the ring you gave to her, turns her finger green.
i hope when you're in bed with her, you think of me.
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[05 Dec 2007|06:30pm] |
you call me on the phone, and you don't even want to talk. you're staring at me from across the room then turn your back when i walk up. we got inches away, and i never even got close. so leave your lipstick at home. don't pick up the phone. don't bother to look in my direction.
i should have seen it all along.
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[05 Dec 2007|06:31pm] |
to the left, to the left.
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[05 Dec 2007|06:34pm] |
you laugh at every word
trying hard to be cute
i almost feel sorry for what i'm going to do
and your hair smells of smoke
who will cast the first stone?
you can sin or spend the night all alone
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[05 Dec 2007|06:34pm] |
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90's music ?
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[05 Dec 2007|06:39pm] |
and we just want sleep
but this night is hell.
i'm sick and sunk and
i blame myself because
i make things hard
and you're just trying to help.
i got no gas, i'm winding out my gears.
this is one more day on the verge of tears.
and now my head hurts.
and my health is a joke.
now i got to stop because the headphones broke.
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[05 Dec 2007|06:39pm] |
now that you're home, won't you rescue me?
i've been trying so hard to be good again.
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[05 Dec 2007|06:39pm] |
do I have to spell it out for you
or scream it in your face?
oh, the chemistry between us could destroy this place
they played this song today at work and it made me happy =]
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[05 Dec 2007|06:40pm] |
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I'm fucking cold. I hate winter/snow.
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[05 Dec 2007|06:41pm] |
he's so funny in his bright red shirt
we were all in love
and we all got hurt
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[05 Dec 2007|06:41pm] |
and she still doesn't have what she deserves
but she wakes up smiling everyday.
she never really expected more,
that's just not the way we are raised.
and i say to her, "ya know,
there's plenty of really great men out there."
but she don't hear me,
she's looking in the mirror,
she's fixing her hair.
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[05 Dec 2007|06:41pm] |
once said always said
i will hold the past over your head
i'll speak my mind whenever I feel slighted
i am hellbent on extracting all of my revenge
so take heart, sweetheart, or I will take it from you
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[05 Dec 2007|06:42pm] |
i died for you one time,
but never again.
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[05 Dec 2007|06:43pm] |
how can i go home with nothing to say?
i know you're going to look at me that way.
you'll say, "what did you do out there, what did you decide?
you said you needed time, well, you had time.
you had time."
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[05 Dec 2007|06:43pm] |
and i saw pictures in my head
and i swear i saw you opening up, again
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[05 Dec 2007|06:45pm] |
i'll never have to buy adjacent plots of earth
we'll never have to rot together underneath dirt
i'll never have to lose my baby in the crowd
i should be laughing right now
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[05 Dec 2007|06:46pm] |
do me a favor baby,
don't reply.
cause i can dish it out,
but i can't take it.
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[05 Dec 2007|06:46pm] |
nothing better to do on a wednesday night?
do my journal!
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[05 Dec 2007|06:46pm] |
Sweet Jesus, I swear that I love you,
no matter what the chariot says.
I'm biased,
and by this I'll judge you on weakness,
wrapped up in my own innocence
and I think that's fine.
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[05 Dec 2007|06:46pm] |
you've earned yourself a place in my memory
by being the one who said no.
where are my fucking car keys,
i think I'll just go.
surprise, surprise now you miss me,
now that i'm not in your face.
surprise, surprise now you're calling me,
now that you feel safe.
do you think that I could be your prom date,
you could do us a stiff little dance
except that this isn't high school, baby
and you had your chance
you had your chance.
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[05 Dec 2007|06:49pm] |
love, or something, ignites in my veins
and i pray it never fades.
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[05 Dec 2007|06:52pm] |
and then i saw your face
you're turning skin into a dirty secret
i watched the beauties, watched the fire
and the fire burn the beauty in their eyes
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[05 Dec 2007|06:52pm] |
and just when you think you're gonna cry,
multiply that times ten.
you are distracting me,
from all other activities.
and i know the fact of your prescence
will dominate my memory of this restaurant table,
this day, and this town
cause i carry you, baby.
i carry you around.
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[05 Dec 2007|06:53pm] |
i know you're here to catch your breath
but i'm not listening for the right words anymore
i'll take what's left
you're face is like the blue sky
right before the rain comes pouring through
tell me does she look like me at all
cause they're all an awful lot like you
tell me does the world revolve the same
tell me do the people all take care of you
did you doubt the curve of the earth
and every word
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