These are some key facts about me that I accumulated to share with you:
I am a shop-a-holic girl who particularly likes dangly earrings but I’m always spending money I haven’t got. I also have far too many clothes for my drawers and wardrobe. I am the oldest child in my family, a family, which I love very much. I love to dance and I don’t think I could live without music. I use to work out to and I absolutely love to sing. Sometimes I wish I’d learnt to play the drums at some point in my life. Or the guitar. I can get obsessed with the computer but I get really annoyed when it hangs about and I despise pop-ups. They do my nut! I can get annoyed quite easily and can become stressed, other times I can cry for no reason, but I can control my emotions. Depending on the mood I’m in on a specific day I will dress according to that emotion. But I’m usually a happy person. I wish I’d done photography at school because I love taking pictures. I’ve only broken one bone before and that was the right forearm in 1996 when I fell off the top of a slide. I think I can be a bit too nice for my liking as there isn’t anyone I can say that I hate. I do shed a few tears when I become aware of people or animals getting abused. I can’t stand one bad word said or done against people, which can be hypocritical in accordance to my attitude to others. When I think about the future I get really excited. Eventually I’d like to have kids but I really want to achieve the career I’m aiming for. I find I am addicted to apple juice, this I believe being the source of my brain power. Until my diet I used to enjoy Maltesers but now I make do with crunchy salad. Talking romance, I like to be kissed on the forehead. My first kiss was pretty dumb although I didn’t think so at the time. I know in my heart I’ve fallen in love I don’t like girls sometimes, finding I’m better friends with males. I don’t like fake girls and those who talk about one another all the time. I love my bed, because it’s very old and very comfortable. I like the cold side of the pillow too. I love Christmas, this holiday being my most favourite of the year. Every Sunday that I am home with no other tasks to complete I give my room the once over and tidy most of my belongings away, I love the colour pink and own many things in pink and purple. I would like to go to France on a motorbike to ride round the deserted countryside with Mark. I would like a bath made of strawberries and champagne. I like simple things in life like my comfiest sweatpants when I come home from college or work. I love different smells in my nose. My favourites are the smell of rain, the smell of cut grass, the smell of coconut and the smell of D&B for men. Altogether, I find myself still conflicting between being a child and an adult as I can be partial to an alcoholic drink or two but at time I find I can act like an excited child. Rarely I can be a perfectionist in some aspects of life
May i also remind you that i have recently devised my own webpage. Whenever you see a link entitled 'Tasty Bean' don't hesitate to click on it and be transported further into my personal dimensions...
Current mood: artistic.
Starting this journal will enable me to deliver my opinions and thoughts as i make my way through my exams, this coming summer (which may i add is gonne be fantastic), my Gap Year and then my journey to University!
It is a Monday, which is always a good start. Monday is a sterotypical day upon which many resolution begin. Dieting, quitting smoking, quitting drinking, going to the gym are all well-known choices. (Bear in mind, i am being universal when discussing those topics.) But what about other things. The emotional resolutions are just as important as the physical ones. You have to believe inside you before you can give a believable performance in relevance to your chosen resolution. Stanislavski for example, a Russian theatre practitioner had a technique that actors used before performances called Truth and Belief. Basically, no convincing external performances are possible without internal stimulation of the mind and soul.
Therefore i will be using this technique when beginning my new resolution from today. In my eyes i have one year from noe until i embark on a new page of my life. University. In most recent chapters i feel there are pages that have become stuck together though. Muddled and confused, I feel this one year that I have I must use to correct these pages and attempt to regain some sensibility of my life and some knowledge of society etc.
I am already beginning this by planning excursions, vacations and other trips involving cultural ethics and educational levels that will enable me to have something to say about myself. To have done something worthwhile. To have helped others. To have experienced life in the way i should have before. It's a start...
Current mood: productive.