01:38am 02/05/2009
  im so tired of my life right now
i keep saying im sick of crying and sick of being so depressed, but honestly there is nothing i can do about it
its not like i just sit around feeling sorry for myself, but sometimes it just hits me so hard and i cant even help it

there are so many things i wish i could say to him right now, that i wish that he could know
like the 5 days he visited me in italy were 5 of the best days of my life and they were truly perfect
and everytime i see a gold ford focus i want to kick it and throw things at it, the ohio plates definitely help the urge
and i cant listen to half the songs on my ipod bc they are either too sad or remind me of him
or that for a good 2 weeks after we broke up i still slept with the bear he got me for valentines day 2 years ago bc i really really like it and its really soft and even brought it to italy with me
or that i even washed his stupid swim trunks he left in my room when i was doing laundry
or that everytime i walk by my fricken lounge i remember us eating the dinner we made together in there
and that basically everytime i do something or want to do something i remember the last time i did that or went to that place i went there with him
and that i think about him a million times a day and everything reminds me of him and every time i have a dream at night or during a nap it is about him

and that ive cried more about him than anything ever, and this hurts me so much and he said that in a few days i would be fine
fine...
and that i dont even want to talk to him at all right now
because it took me so long to trust him, to trust anyone and love anyone
and he lied to me and told me he would never do this to me and he did
 
     

(kiss me hArD)

 
getting tired of screaming   
12:43am 29/04/2009
  i have come to the realization that maybe this whole being on my own thing was for the best.
i still think the ending was VERY VERY SUCKY and mean and wrong
but i have learned a lot these last few weeks... i have put more trust in the right people, i have learned to explore myself and pick myself up

i was so good at being single before i started dating jason, and then it took me forever to be good at being in a relationship. last year everybody else was single and it was hard for me to change my ways to be a better person for a relationship. and now im not in a relationship and it seems like everyone else is... funny how timing works

anyways despite the excessive drinking, tossing and turning and bad grades of a few weeks ago i am now doing more relaxing, more tv watching and more hw! wooo haha

im really really hoping i get this internship too! i hear by the end of the week and im really nervous:(

and my aunt went back to the hospital today for a few days and apparently she is really not doing well, says both of my parents. i feel really bad bc ive been so caught up in my own drama for the past few weeks, past 2 years that i really havent been following the status of these things as much as i should have
i hate cancer so much
 
     

(kiss me hArD)

 
shut up and let me go!   
12:05am 23/04/2009
  sooo today the best thing in the whole world happened.
my horoscope said something unexpected would happen not according to my plan so i was like oh great another shiity thing, but alas it was greatness
every wednesday i hate hate hate going to stats, mostly bc i dont understand and its long
but tonight we got out after an hour basically and we only have one more topic to learn! so next we will get out early too and the next week :)
so then i got to enjoy OTH and the hills that i missed on my super busy monday mmm mmm

my sisters and my aunt cathy came last weekend to visit, it was very nice. and we saw 17 again and zac efron was suchhh a hottie
and i bought all these vintage gold necklaces from einsteins attic that i am in love with
and a cute new dress!! which i cant wait to wear at college fest saturday when its 80 degrees

i am very much dreading relay this weekend tho. i will b there allll night saturday night til sunday morning :( not fun

also i got an email back from buckle, one of the stores that i was going to possibly going to do my internship at this summer. well i got a call back from them after the career fair, went to an info session and got denied to the buffalo one! so i called and i failed the fricken assessment apparently! which was opinion based questions about myself! so idk how i could fail, i answered them all pretty well
whatever i dont need them anyways
so basically i still need an internship or else i cant graduate!


besides that i just cant wait for tomorrow night
 
     

(kiss me hArD)

 
its a turnaround   
05:15pm 16/04/2009
  due to many recent events in my life i decided that my blurty would be a good idea

in the past 3 weeks i was on a "break," got dumped, got begged back for 2 hours after i got dumped, cried a lot, skipped my fashion awards ceremony, my computer's motherboard crashed, my computer's internet stopped working, i got my first ever D on my stats test, went home for easter dinner for the 1st time in 4 years and still still haven't found an internship yet! wonderful

emotionally it has been exhausting. i have learned more in the last 2 or 3 weeks than ever...
more and more bad things keep happening to me and i just keep rolling. its like after 20 years of good luck and everything going fine for me (getting into college, getting accepted for jobs, going to italy, etc), all of a sudden life has been kicking me from all corners

and not to mention i am quite unsure of how i will ever be able to be in a trusting relationship again. it took me sooo long to trust and really fall in love with him who must not be named. and after i finally do... i get heartbroken.
and i still don't know what i did...
i feel so much better now than last week, more free, more independent, more social etc etc
but still i have so many questions and truely wonder... everything we did meant so much to me! how could it not mean that much to the other person? and why did it take a year and 8 months to figure that out

basically, i am looking for someone who is not a jerk! bc the one i thought was not, definitely was!!

but on the brightside i have cried to just about everyone, something i have never done and feel closer to my family and friends than ever before

and my sisters are coming this weekend!!
 
     

(kiss me hArD)

 
another sunny day   
06:16pm 20/09/2008
  oh em geeee, about a million things have happened since i last wrote!
let seee, our 2nd weekend me jamie carolyn jenna and amber took the train to cinque terre! which is like 5 little towns on mountians near the sea, and we hiked 6 hours from each town, which is uphill, windy paths, endless stairs, soooo hot, and omg very very hard
i work out a couple times a week and this was intense! the path was slightly larger than my body, winding around cliffs, when u tried to pass someone, it was a near death experience

we stayed at monterosso which was the first city so the hike was hardest for us the 1st 2 hours and by the end of the day it was more of a easier hike, if you will
it was very very pretty and we spend saturday hiking and then sunday at the beach, prettiest beach ever!! and jamie and i got pina coladas toooo<3
so we mastered our first european train experience!!!

2 weeks ago was our trip to London!! we flew ryanair so we could only bring a little tiny suitcase, which actually wasnt as horrible as i thought it would be. i knew it was colder and rainier in london but oh em geee it was freezing and it rained every single day!! i was used to 90 degrees in florence and then got used to mid 50s and rain in london:(

anways we first had tea, well coffee for me, and cucumber and cream cheese sandwiches and scones with clotted cream and jam and cake!! at the orangery at kensington palace. then we took a tour of the palace, which i thought was really cool. then we went to a little pub for dinner and a bunch of girls had fish n chips for dinner, which was actually really yummy and i should have got it :( but i feel in love with cider beer instead
thurs we took a bus tour of the city. we also got to see a changing of the guards parade, the men in the suits and funny hats... and saw buckingham palace. then we went to the victoria and albert museum, and went to see WICKED at night!! which was really cool... the theatre was so different from the us, u could eat and drink in it lol
then we went to a london clubbb, which played like very very old american music! interesting

friday a few of us went to st pauls cathedral, where princess di got married of coarse, and it was sooo sooo beatiful! then we climbed all the way to the top and could see the whole city
alsooo we walked alll over that day, saw all the sights and then met with zandra rhodes' head designer ben, who showed us all of her fabrics and how she was inspired for each etc etc
he let us try on her stuff!! and he even showed us the one top from the episode of sex and the city where carrie first meets the russian!! then zandra was leaving and we got to meet her!! soo that was really cool

saturday we went to the portobello market, which was amazinggg, i finally got a jacket cuz i was freezing and i found my love, a pair of vintage leather boots!!! then we went to harrod's which was seriously the coolest store in the world, reminded me of a department store in a christmas movie, where everything is perfect
except there were people protesting against fur outside

later we met with prudence, from prudence millinery, who makes couture hats for the covers of vogue and diff designers for their shows and things. she even made hats for the sex and the city movie!! oh and she does a bunch of vivienne westwood tooo

sat night we went out for mexican and there was a hugeeee wait so we got a pitcher of margs and lots of chips and salsa!! then we went to waxy o conners, an irish pub, which used to be a church and was like 4 levels and the interior was reallly cool. me and jamie met these guys from ireland that were there for a sort of bachelor party trip, lol

sunday we went to windsor, the queen's 2nd home, which was also really coool. and had yummy fooods.

after london we had a ton of hw and stupid crap to do!
september 11th was jamie's bday and me and sara bought pastries and pink wine and we had a little celebration then went out for mexican and margs for dinner! then we went on a pub crawl with a bunch of girls, went to 3 bars and a club, and the 1st bar had unlimited sangria and beer

was for sure an interesting night!!

right now i am sickly and thats why i am finding the extra time, that i should be spending at the bar with everyone right now, writing instead:(

friday we went to luca, which our one teacher has a friend who owns apartments and things there and has this huge kitched section and we had this cooking class sort of thing. we made sooo many things, including tiramisu!! and like 4 appetizers and our own gnocchi... it was very delciious but all greasy and cheesy and stuff

wednesday is paris and then in 9 days my mommy comes!!!
 
     

(kiss me hArD)

 
greetings from italy   
11:30am 25/08/2008
  ciao! i am finally in italy, have been here about a week
i left sunday the 17th for the airport with my mommy and daddy and jason and it was very sad and i cried:( quite a bit. then i flew to newark all by myself for a 6 hour layover there!! finally the kent people came and we left at 530ish for rome!! the plane was cool bc we each had our own tvs and it had 330 movies and like 150 tv shows. and me and sara got to sit together and had a seat b/w us

so we got into rome at like 745 there and then started on our 4 hour bus ride to florence, on which i just slept the wholeee time. after we arrived in florence we got in cabs with our roomies and drove away.
me and jamie lived together by ourselves til later last week when sara moved in too

anyways we had no watches or alarm clocks or cell phones or anything but we found an alarm clock in the room and set it so we could get up the next day. the realtors gave us a little package with spaghetti, sauce, water etc to get us settled. so jamie and i went out to buy breakfast stuff and came back to cook the spaghetti only to realize our stove was gas and we needed something to light it
sooo we had to go back out to the store to get a lighter and made the food and jamie went back into the fridge to get the sauce and she dropped the jar on the floor and the glass and sauce splatter all over!!
and i bought a bottle of wine and we had the crappiest corkscrew and it got stuck in the bottle:(

so finally we just went to bed and i could not fall asleep til forever, my 1st 2 days were just miserable, i barely ate and i was so homesick. also my computer has been having viruses so that made me just even more mad.

so we woke up at "830" to get ready for 10am orientation, had breakfast etc etc got to class and everyone was all there and on their computers... except internet set up wasnt until 12-230... when me and jamie find out we got to school at 1230 not 10am like we had thought!! so we missed the whole 1st part of orientation and it just made getting adjusted to the time that more difficult.

from there on everything got better. tuesday and friday nights we went to the fish pub at night and that was really fun. friday night we met these girls from california and this guy they knew ended up buying us all bottles of champagne!!

we went on a tour one morning and it turns out the tour was over 6 miles of walking!! so we have definitely been getting our exercise in.

one night jamie and i went for gelato by school and there was a little concert there, 2 singers that i think were american. it was really nice except these 3 guys came over and were sitting and talking to us and wouldnt leave us alone
all of the guys here are ridiculous!! at the bars or on the streets, they always try to talk to us, shout at us, they are just so rude and annoying

sooo sara moved in later in the week so me and jamie changed rooms and now sara and i share the double. our apartment is really big though, we even have 2 bathrooms.

saturday all the girls at school took a bus to verona for the day. it was really fun, we went to see the balcony that romeo and juliet was inspired by. also i ate out for my first night and had yummy pizza!! and gelato
and we went to the opera in the arena which was built and modeled after the colluseum in rome. the opera was good but very hard to understand considering it was in italian.

ok well thats all for now!! ciao
 
     

(kiss me hArD)

 
is it over now   
03:26pm 14/05/2008
  i hateeeeeee being home.
i miss kent so much. its much more fun and im not treated like im 5 years old there

express is being so dumb and when i called for my on call tonight they didnt take it and cut my shift tomorrow. ive been home for a week and havent worked a single day yet!!! and they were over on hours and are interviewing and hiring more people.

i wish i were going to italy now instead of august
this sucks, im going to go insane before august 17th
 
     

(kiss me hArD)

 
funnn   
09:52pm 23/03/2008
  x = yes
o = no
? = long story


Have you ever:
(o) smoked a cigarette
(o) smoked a cigar
(x) made out with a member of the same sex
(o)crashed a friend's car
(o) stolen a car
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(o) shoplifted
(o) been fired
(o)been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out of my parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
(o) been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
(x) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school
(o) slept with a co-worker
(o) seen someone die
(o) had a crush on one of your internet friends
(x) been to Canada
(o) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
(o) thrown up in a bar
(o) purposely set a part of myself on fire
(o) eaten Sushi
(o) been snowboarding
(x) met someone in person from the internet
(x) been moshing at a concert
(o) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel
(x) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(o)gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
(o) used a fake id
(x) watched the sun set
(o) felt an earthquake
(o) touched a snake
(o) slept beneath the stars
(x) been tickled
(o) been robbed
(x) been misunderstood
(o) pet a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
(x) run a red light
(o) been suspended from school
(x?) been in a car accident
(x) had braces
(o) felt like an outcast
(o) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(o) danced in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look
(o) witnessed a crime
(o) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes
(o) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(o) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(o) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(o) danced in the rain
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
(o) been kissed under a mistletoe
(o) watched the sun set with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
(o) made a bonfire on the beach
(x) crashed a party
(x) gone rollerskating/rollerblading
(x) had a wish come true
(x) worn pearls
(o) jumped off a bridge
(o) screamed penis in class
(o) ate dog/cat food
(o) told a complete stranger you loved them
(o) kissed a mirror
(x) sang in the shower
(x) had a dream that you married someone
(o) glued your hand to something
(o) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
(o) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
(o) been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
(o) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
(o) didn't take a shower for a week
(x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(o) climbed a tree
(o) had a tree house
(o) is scared to watch scary movies alone
(?) believe in ghosts
(o) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
(o) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
(o) gone streaking
(x) played ding-dong-ditch
(o) played chicken
(o) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
(o) broken a bone
(o) been easily amused
(o) caught a fish then ate it
(o) made porn
(o) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so much you laughed
(o) mooned/flashed someone
(o) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(xxxx) have a Britney Spears CD
(x) forgotten someone's name
(x) slept naked
(o) french braided someones hair
(x) gone skinny dippin in a pool
(o) been kicked out of your house
 
     

(kiss me hArD)

 
procrastinating at its finest   
09:18pm 23/02/2008
  Never-Been-Asked-Before Survey

1. Do you sleep with socks on or off:
Off

2. Do you flip your pillow to the cold side:?
mmm no

3. Do you like to hold or be held?
be held

4. Do you want a small or big wedding:
i want all of my family and friends to be there!

5. What type of guys/girls do you usually go for:
hott girlsss

6. Would you rather be rich and unhappy or poor and happy:
poor and happy

7. What are 3 things you want to do before you die?
travel, move to ny, have babies

8. Have you ever churned butter?
No

9. Are you trusting to new people?
not that much

where is 10

11. If you were the opposite sex for a day, what would be the first thing you do?
touch myself

12. What is your favorite body part of the opposite sex?
musclesss

13. If your dream was to be a model and a big opportunity came up but you had to be nude, would you take it?
probably not, i wouldnt want to be seen that way to the world

15. What is the most money you would spend on a pair of shoes?
when i get my first real job i am going to buy myself a really nice pair, a couple hundred dollars...

16. If you found out a loved one had cancer and had 5 days to live, what would be the first thing you would do?
just be with them

17. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Explain:
pink, its light and pretty and soft and the best.

18. If you could choose to star in ANY play or movie you wanted, what would it be?
how to lose a guy in 10 days! orrr the notebook orrrr eurotrip

19. Do you have more friends or more acquaintances?
acquantainces

20. If you could win a couple front row tickets to a game, any sport any team, what sport and team would it be?
the lakers to make jason the happiest

21. Would you rather help someone out or be helped out?
help someone out

22. If you had to choose to be a different religion than what you are now, which would you choose & why?
i'm not sure, i'd have to really research them and pick one i share the most beliefs with

23. If you found out you couldn't have kids, would you adopt?
yea, i would be sooo sad though:(
 
     

(kiss me hArD)

 
not studying   
01:04pm 29/01/2008
  1. What's the relationship between you and the last person you texted?
* lover!!

2. What is wrong with you right now?
* sleepy

3. Do you miss your first love?
* no

4. When did you last cry?
* last week

5. Who do you hate?
* lots of people

6. What do you want in your life right now?
* babies

7. Are you happy?
* yes

9. What do you smell like?
* very sexy from victorias secret

10. Drinking?
* cranberry raspberry fuze

11. What’s your favorite thing to have on your bed?
* jason

13. What do you wear to bed?
* a tank top and shorts or pants if its cold

14. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
* mhmmm : )

15. What are you doing/did today?
* product development, apparel analysis, eating and doing nothing maybe a nap, italiano, on the phone with jason, consumer behavior, dinner with sarah, gabes with sarah, relaxing, phone with jason again and sleeping

16. What was the last movie you went to?
* juno

17. Is your shirt new?
* nope

18. Do you live next to your ex boyfriend/girlfriend?
* mm noooo

19. Are you scared of bugs?
* nope

20. Are you a cuddler?
* mhmm

22. What do you think of Eminem?
* hes ok

23. Do you read?
* haha i read the paper everyday, i like magazines and im sort of kinda reading a book right now

24. Do you sleep with a teddy bear?
* my purple angel pillow

25. Last thing that made you cry?
* mmm i was sad

26. Whose house did you go to today?
* nobodys

28. Do you like anyone right now?
* mhmm

29. Are you bored?
* haha procrastinating

30. What is the last movie you watched?
* coyote ugly

31. Do you say "dawg" a lot?
* mm nooo

32. What are you excited about?
* spring break

34. Who was last to cook for you?
* who remembers

35. When you sleep do you dream about heroin addicts?
*basically

36. What’s on your mind right now?
* nothing really

37. Who was the last person to make you smile?
* probably sarah

38. Name someone whose name starts with the letter "R."
* Rick

39. Do you care what others think about you?
* i want them to think im nice

41. Do you trust people easily?
* not right away

42. Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
* hopefully

43. Will you ever kiss the last person you kissed again?
* mhmmm

44. What do you look forward to in the next 3 months?
* the weather getting warmer

45. Who was the last person you called?
* jessica

46. Who was the last missed call?
* jessica

47. What's your ring tone?
* hurricane by something corporate

48.Do you plan on moving in the next year?
* italy in the fall!

49. What were you doing at 9pm last Friday night?
* pool hot tub and sauna with sarah

50. What happened at 10:00 am today?
* i was in product development, developing our men's denim line... exciting stuff
 
     

(kiss me hArD)

 
   
01:02pm 24/01/2008
  i think i am going to italy now...  
     

(1 kiSS | kiss me hArD)

 
one two three four   
01:03pm 15/01/2008
 
mood: hopeful
music: ingrid michaelson*
so i have only been at school 2 days so far, havent even been to all of my classes yet and already this semester is crazy!!
i had my orientation last night for the trip to italy next fall and everything was going great and i was really excited til the last like 10 minutes of class when she was talking about how the dollar isnt worth a lot overseas anymore and how much it costs on top of tuition and extra costs of traveling while there.
now i had researched all this online and added it up and stuff but it didnt seem as much as she said last night and i just realized that i dont want to be in THAT MUCH DEBT for my years after college

so last night when i got back i did lots of looking up and changing and am dropping my minor too!!! because i was supposed to take this horrible personal selling and sales management class this morning and really didnt want to, and can now concentrate more on my major and my MBA for next year, which is the reason i'm going here in the 1st place anyways.
when i woke up this morning i didnt even know which class to go to!! i just went to product development because i wanted to be in it instead of my horrible class, and it is just like the class LC takes in the hills season 1 : )
it will be intense though
so then right after i had a meeting with another advisor and hopefully now i am more on track with my life...

usually i have a good instinct about what i want, like my gut feeling. when i know i want something i stick with it, like when i came to kent for my 1st tour i loved it and knew that i wanted to go here
so everything should work out according to my speculative plans


also yesterday our toilet was already plugged up and not working just like last semester so we already had to get that fixed too!!! mmm i also want to take a class at the rec this semester, there is belly dancing tonight but im not sure if that would work in my crazy tuesday/thursday schedule but there is yoga on wednesday and im thinking that might be really good if it could fit!!

so far so good, i miss jason soooo much, i just wish i was with him right now and not procrastinating reading the death of fashion for my presentations quiz tomorrow : (


THREE NAMES I GO BY:
1. emily
2. miss emily
3. em

THREE SCREEN NAMES I HAVE HAD:
1. emilyekd
2. beautyschooldrpt
3. cookiedoughxoxo

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my nose
2. my legs usually
3. mmm my eyes i guess

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. stomach
2. arms
3. my fat fingers

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. irish
2. polish
3. german

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. koala bears
2. scary birds like roosters and ostriches
3. death

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. makeup
2. water
3. cellphone i guess

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. express sweater
2. little pink dressy jumper thingy
3. express jeans of coarse!!

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. SOMETHING CORPORATE
2. JACKS MANNEQUIN
3. the starting line

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. konstantine
2. left coast envy
3. hey brittany

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. love
2. fun
3. honesty

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1. i love jason
2. i love my sisters
3. i love tunaaaaa

THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. pretty eyes
2. muscles
3. someone who can make me laugh and be happy : )

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. shopping
2. going to the gym
3. concerts

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. jason!
2. take a nap
3. not go to my classes for the rest of the day

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. nooo idea something to do with business and marketing and stuff
2. mommy
3. buyer

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. bahamas
2. italy
3. greece, paris, ireland again, new york... anywhere........

THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. i like cute little middle names with meanings, like hope or faith or something
2. elizabeth
3. .....

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. get married and have babies!!
2. explore all over europe
3. be really happy with everything

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY/GIRL:
1. i need to do my make up and make my hair look decent everyday
2. i love to go shopping and i work at express and buy too much!!
3. i like girly shows, chick flicks and girly magazines

THREE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. james lafferty
2. matthew mccaughnehey
3. chad michael murray i guesssss

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1. no
2. body
3. will
 
     

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04:03am 22/10/2007
  blahhh i just woke up cuz my leg hurts and i couldnt sleep
tomorrow and tuesday are really going to suck cuz i have a lot of class and not fun things to do
my fabrics paper is probably the dumbest thing ever and my teacher will probably hate it so it makes me all ready to want to write it!!!

this weekend was good, first weekend in awhile it was more relaxing, parties, football game and stuff. got my halloween costume!!!
last weekend was really fun though, sarah and i went home and i got to see my family and kelly and jason:)
and we went to the sabres game and haunted houses and the cheesecake factory
and it was really good

and my aunt was here the weekend before and we went to beachwood and legacy village of coarse! and sarah won tickets to lifehouse and such... its been pretty nonstop

i also added a marketing minor! so thats exciting and i really need to find out more stuff about next year, it looks like italy for sure now and probably not new york but we'll see. i've been wanting to go to newyork for school so long now so i guess i can wait even longer
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so long sweet summer   
01:01am 26/09/2007
  fully into the swing of school
4 tests this week, and im apparently "behind on my weaving project" and "need to get a move on"
and sarah has strep. but by tomorrow she wont be contagious anymore
thats basically my life right now
i sorta need a vacation and its not even midterms yet

 
     

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fun   
10:41pm 21/09/2007
  1. Who ended your last relationship?
probably me

2. When was the last time you shaved?
like an hour ago

3. Do you love or like somebody?
yea

4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
my make up

5. Are you any good at math?
nope!

6. What were you doing last night?
partying!!!

7. Are people fake or do they just put on good fronts?
fake

8. Have you ever burped in front of the opposite sex?
i dont burp!!! just like kelly said

9. Do you know the words to the song on your myspace page?
mhmmm

10. Last thing you received in the mail?
some stupid pamphlet

11. What were you doing this morning at 8am?
sleeping like an angel

12. Whats one thing you would like to change in the world?
the war

where is 13?

14. Do you draw your name in the sand?
sure

15. What's the most painful dental procedure you've had?
braces?

16. What is outside your back door?
a deck

17. Any plans for Friday night?
dinner, swimming, hot tub, room party, house party : )

18. Say something completely random.
oye with the poodles already (yayyyy im keeping kelly's)

19. Do you have a secret crush?
not so secret!

20. Do you keep in touch with your ex's?
not really

21. Do you dislike anyone right now?
yep!!

22. Something you are excited about?
tonight

23. What is your favorite flavor of JELLO?
strawberry

24. Are any of your great-grandparents still alive?
nope

25. When was the last time you spoke in front of a large crowd?
a few weeks ago for sos

28. What kind of winter coat do you have?
2 cute ones with fur and a pink northface

29. Do you have any nicknames?
mhmmm

30. Can you tie a cherry stem in a knot with your tongue?
i only wish i was that talented
 
     

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survey says...   
01:25pm 17/09/2007
  1. Ever kissed a blonde haired, blue eyed person?
yea

2. Can you see a phone right now?
yea

3. What are you listening to?
nothing

4. Where is it coming from?
nowhere

5. Last thing you ate?
a cookie

6. What was the last thing you saw on TV?
sarah was watching hgtv last night

7. Who was the last person other than family you saw?
people in the hallway..

8. Are labels/stereotypes good?
nooo

9. Last alcoholic beverage you drank?
mmm bud light

10. Song that stuck in your head?
paramoreeee

11. Acoustic or Electric guitars?
either!

12. Do you dance while getting ready for whatever?
no

13. What are you wearing?
jeans and a t shirt cuz i have chem lab

14. What is the greatest number of people you've been in front of?
i dont knowww

15. Have you gone skinny dipping?
yea

16. Have you ever taken a shower while you were drunk or high?
yep

17. Do you like techno?
eh to an extent its ok

23. Have you ever sat on a roof and looked at stars?
yea and fireworks

24. Ever done that while talking on the phone to a boyfriend or girlfriend?
nope

25. Does the song Stairway To Heaven make you sad?
haha no

26. Do you have any instruments in your room?
at home yeaaa

29. Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?
yea<3

30. What scent are you wearing right now?
very sexy by victoria's secret

31. Are there any animals around you at the moment?
unless u count sarah but shes not here right now!! haha nooo

32. Drinking anything at the moment?
nope

33. Ever thought you were going to get married?
i want to so i can have a million kids

34. Last person you told you loved as in a boyfriend/girlfriend?
boyfrienddddd

35. Last person who told you they loved you who was family?
probably my daddy or my mommy

36. Favorite time of day?
night

37. Favorite video game?
your mom

38. Favorite food?
cake

39. Do you like spiders?
i dont hate them

40. Cat person or dog person?
dogs

41. Got a job?
at home i do

42. First love?
blahhh

44. You're deserted on an island, what do you have with you?
music

45. Favorite lyrics?
millions

46. Biggest regret?
i dont think i have any big regrets

47. Biggest moment in your life?
so far... probably graduating or something

48. Did you have a New Years kiss?
awww i had lots of new years kisses

49. What do you want the most right now?
my boyfriend :'(

50. Do you want children?
twelve

51. Are you a lover or a fighter?
a loverrrr
 
     

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come on sweet catastrophe   
04:02pm 28/08/2007
  right now i am procrastinating doing my fabrics hw.... because i don't wannaaaaaaa
school is really good, our room is very pretty and i love it mucho<3 maybe i will actually spend more time in it this year
so far my classes are ok, chem lab is gonna suck cuz i don't know anything and tuesdays suck cuz i have to go to fashion fabrics twice in the same day! oh and wake up at 7:45

i went out saturday night after i moved in and of coarse that was very fun as well.
life is pretty good!
 
     

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my eyes can not believe what they have seen   
12:37am 13/07/2007
  so summer is more than halfway overish... and so far so good
like 2 weeks ago i got a call from the kent state police department saying i get to keep the money i found from like december!! so thats pretty nice
work is goood, lots of money but i do spend a lot of it back in the store

and leeshy broke her leg on 7/7/7:'( stupid stupid, sliding into home at a house game too. and since she plays catcher she subs in for other travel teams too sometimes and now she cant play any softball the rest of summer and not soccer either.
its sorta sad but in the same way like we have to get everything for her cuz she cant walk or anything really so its a tad annoying. in a loving way though

and tomorrow is friday the 13th. i tend to usually hate friday the 13ths. last onw my fish died haha. and andrea moved out but that was good. but also my dad had a heart attack on friday the 13th and thats when i got in my "accident"
fun times...
 
     

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head in the clouds, toes in the sand   
12:36am 18/06/2007
 
mood: tired
music: the killers, sam's town
here is a quick update on my life:
so recently i made a job switch, i got the deal at express so i peaced out aero while my manager was on vacation so my last day was not a happy one. basically a lot of people have left/are leaving aero recently and things so its no biggy. and my last week there was a grab and run of like 80 polos so whatever... moving on
it was my 1st real real job though so sorta sad, i did like it there

express is going well, ive only worked a few days so well but im sweet so what can i say? i see a major problem with me and going overboard on clothes-spending but we'll see about that when it happens

major square-age and party-age and working out-age and a little laying out in the sun/beachage. i sleep til about 11:30/noon everyday unless i have to work or do something totally worthy of my time. i dont think ive been to bed before 2am in about 3 weeks. its all pretty sweet if u ask me but im probably gonna die so who knows

fathers day was today and was sorta sucky cuz my family is pretty messed up but its over so i really have nothing to complain about
basically life has been really confusing the last 2 weeks or so, good though
i dont even know what to think and theres still more than 2 months left of summer
 
     

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Aerodynamically the bumblebee shouldn't be able to fly...   
01:16am 05/06/2007
  summmerrrr i dont know
sometimes i hate it and am really bored and am mad at my friends for never wanting to do anything
and work
and idk

sooo i start express friday, sorta sad cuz i am bomb at aero and i know everything and starting a new job sucks majorly!!

anddddd yeaaaaa
 
     

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