| this is pretty much exactly how i feel about aaron |
[12 Apr 2004|11:43am] |
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....
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[12 Apr 2004|12:41am] |
This moment in time
This moment defined
How is it I feel nothing?
Just don't say goodbye
You say to me
I'm trying to do the right thing
This moment in time
This moment defined
How is it I feel nothing?
It's alright
And we sneak a call
And we're like thieves
I love the times like these
Just don't say goodbye
Just won't you please
I'm trying to do the right thing
It's alright
All my life I was in the cold
Now I find I feel nothing more
Leave me to learn
Leave me to hurt
Now I'm not so invincible
It's just come to this you know
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| the beautiful letdown |
[11 Apr 2004|11:47pm] |
Fumbling his confidence
And wond’ring why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he’s meant for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly, fly
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we’ve been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe we’re bent and broken, broken
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
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| the beautiful letdown |
[11 Apr 2004|11:46pm] |
Fumbling his confidence
And wond’ring why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he’s meant for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly, fly
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we’ve been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe we’re bent and broken, broken
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
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[11 Apr 2004|11:17pm] |
[11 Apr 2004|11:10pm]
15 Years Ago, I:
1. was born
2. was a little sweetheart
3. loved everyone and everything
4. was oblivious to what was to become of me and my family
5. was happy
10 Years Ago, I:
1. lost my grandma
2. hated kids my age
3. wanted to be a pro wrestler
4. absolutely adored my dad
5. wanted to grow up to be just like my dad
5 Years Ago, I:
1. moved out of a shitty town
2. became anti social
3. gave up on people
4. gave up on having a father
5. forgot what happiness was
3 Years Ago, I:
1. met the most wonderful people in the world
2. became a bit more feminine
3. really began to despise females
4. faced my fears
5. finally accepted my fathers death and accepted the things that have happened and just learned from them
Last year, I:
1. fell in love with the most wonderful guy in the fucking world
2. stopped trusting people
3. let the most wonderful guy in the world turn me into something…let him mold me
4. accepted myself
5. crumbled to pieces
Yesterday, I:
1. spent the day with Sarah
2. talked to aaron
3. got a pimp shirt
4. realized I had a missing sister
5. Cried with Sarah and my mom
Today, I:
1. had a nice easter
2. Ate like a pig… usual thing
3. realized how much I truly miss aaron
4. fell in love with cigs again
5. realized how much i missed seeing Sarah all the time and how much i love her as a sister
Tomorrow, I:
1. will cover my scars like ive done since Thursday
2. will think about aaron…a lot
3. will miss sarah
4. will try to call aaron and tell him I love him
5. will try to come to terms with whats happening and start with the healing process
3 Bad Habits I Have:
1. i pretend everythings ok
2. speak my mind too often
3. care too much
Interests at the moment:
1. internet
2. getting my friends back
3. becoming danie again…finding myself
4. friends
5. eh, ive pretty much lost interest in almost everything
5 Places I've Lived:
1. Vancouver, bc
2. cobb county ga
3.cedartown ga
4. Cartersville ga
5.
My Top 5 Biggest Worries at the Moment:
1. losing aaron for good
2. what ive become
3. school
4. losing my best friend (aaron)
5. being forgotten by aaron
My Top 5 Biggest Joys at the Moment:
1. Being able to see Sarah again
2. The thought of Aaron wanting to get back with me and things working out
3. cigs
4. have a really cool new friend (Andrew)
5. marcs back to normal still
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[11 Apr 2004|11:16pm] |
[11 Apr 2004|11:10pm]
15 Years Ago, I:
1. was born
2. was a little sweetheart
3. loved everyone and everything
4. was oblivious to what was to become of me and my family
5. was happy
10 Years Ago, I:
1. lost my grandma
2. hated kids my age
3. wanted to be a pro wrestler
4. absolutely adored my dad
5. wanted to grow up to be just like my dad
5 Years Ago, I:
1. moved out of a shitty town
2. became anti social
3. gave up on people
4. gave up on having a father
5. forgot what happiness was
3 Years Ago, I:
1. met the most wonderful people in the world
2. became a bit more feminine
3. really began to despise females
4. faced my fears
5. finally accepted my fathers death and accepted the things that have happened and just learned from them
Last year, I:
1. fell in love with the most wonderful guy in the fucking world
2. stopped trusting people
3. let the most wonderful guy in the world turn me into something…let him mold me
4. accepted myself
5. crumbled to pieces
Yesterday, I:
1. spent the day with Sarah
2. talked to aaron
3. got a pimp shirt
4. realized I had a missing sister
5. Cried with Sarah and my mom
Today, I:
1. had a nice easter
2. Ate like a pig… usual thing
3. realized how much I truly miss aaron
4. fell in love with cigs again
5. realized how much i missed seeing Sarah all the time and how much i love her as a sister
Tomorrow, I:
1. will cover my scars like ive done since Thursday
2. will think about aaron…a lot
3. will miss sarah
4. will try to call aaron and tell him I love him
5. will try to come to terms with whats happening and start with the healing process
3 Bad Habits I Have:
1. i pretend everythings ok
2. speak my mind too often
3. care too much
Interests at the moment:
1. internet
2. getting my friends back
3. becoming danie again…finding myself
4. friends
5. eh, ive pretty much lost interest in almost everything
5 Places I've Lived:
1. Vancouver, bc
2. cobb county ga
3.cedartown ga
4. Cartersville ga
5.
My Top 5 Biggest Worries at the Moment:
1. losing aaron for good
2. what ive become
3. school
4. losing my best friend (aaron)
5. being forgotten by aaron
My Top 5 Biggest Joys at the Moment:
1. Being able to see Sarah again
2. The thought of Aaron wanting to get back with me and things working out
3. cigs
4. have a really cool new friend (Andrew)
5. marcs back to normal still
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[08 Apr 2004|08:14am] |
aaron just left me.
i love you guys.
always there for me<3
you all know who im talking to.
<3<3<3
danie
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[31 Jan 2004|03:53pm] |
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eh, nothing interesting. woo. talked to aaron for a while last night, thats about it. woo...hoo....
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[30 Jan 2004|05:24pm] |
woo...i didnt go to school today. ahahaha. my head hurts X(
uh, well, i talked to roxanne and marc and kim (?) for a while last night, and then i went to bed and like, i didnt wake up when aaron called, yet he didnt even try to call me back or anything. wtf? i ghope he tries to call me today, and he better call tonight, cuz i took new pics for him (ill post em later) and yeah. big loser. gr. im going to delete the pics so he cant see them
ahahaha. anywho.
hm...i slep alllll day, and then i went to bar h in my pjs with my mom...i bought a pink cowboy hat. its pretty cute. im going to take a pic so everyone can see it....its my pimp hat. yay. im trying to get marc to talk to lexi cuz that would just be cool. and xtina is supposed to be engaged and shes tellin marc she likes him..girls are so dumb. i hate em all. ack.
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[29 Jan 2004|07:52pm] |
so um...today was alright. aaron and i got into an argument this morning kinda, it was my fault. i really made him feel bad, and im so sorry. i think he forgives me though. i hope so, i hate it when hes mad at me. i can never stay mad at him. i love him so much.
yeah...so i went to school...nothing interesting, lots of make up work. almost got into a fight with a kid named bo...why would you name your kid 'bo'? wtf? eh, hes a pretty cool cat, just...annoying. anyway...um...so yeah, that was about it. i drew some pretty stuff that says Danielle loves Aaron and all kinds of stuff, they were really cool actually. hes so great. uhm...so yeah, i came home and i talked to marc and carolyn and then i talked to ashley and lexy, and then i talked to aaron. then i talked to loo,then i got off the phone with aaron and i talked to brandon. then i went and ate dinner...thats pretty much it. no words of wisdom, no inspiration, no pictures. just blah.
i was actually going to take some new pictures of me today, but i decided i wouldnt torture you guys too badly...id rather do it on a friday. heh. well. if anyone wants to chat, IM me, ixiscarlingixi. im really bored, and aaron is at work. im all alone.X,(
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[28 Jan 2004|11:47pm] |
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next month carolyn, nathan, marc and i are going to the mxpx concert. i never listen to them really, butyeah, a concert is a concert. and my mom is sending me off to some form of christian ozzfest the next weekend...so wtf? im going to be alone on valentines day anyway...as always. so why not spend my v-day with good friends that i love anyway? right? because aaron will probably be gone with friends after work or too busy anyway. nothing special. i dont think he even knows what v-day is. i dont care. i dont celebrate anyway. the show is at the tabernacle if anyone is interested!
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[28 Jan 2004|11:14pm] |
so, i had a funeral at lj for my blurty because it seems to be dead and most of my friends too. hm, well, im content with my new layout. i have some new pictures. i probably wont post them for quite a while though. not like theres anyone here to see them! i feel like im talking to myself when i use blurty! haha.
im eating the sucker carolyn bought me and i cut my tongue. it really hurts. i cut it about 4 times. owy.
well, if anyones bored, IM me, ixiscarlingixi
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[28 Jan 2004|03:51pm] |
k...lots of changing are going to be made to blurty.
-friends cut...actually, im not going to cut everyone, just the people that really never update or
have moved to lj
-new layout
-no more friends only, i give up, fuck that
-going to find new friends, and actually make friends with them, because thats the whole fucking point
of having people on that list and reading about their life...to become their FRIEND...not to have someone of that shitty little list that no one pays any attention to whatsoever.
yup, i guess thats about it. i think im done now. im going to be working on my new layout, then im going to do the friends cut....i barely know any of the people on my list, and yall barely know me...so i guess if you want to stay, just comment and i wont take you off...and i dont mean to offend anyone, i just dont understand why i added all of you and you all added me if you didnt want to become friends...so yeah, if you want to be friends, comment, and uh, well i guess if you dont want to stay...bye!
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[14 Dec 2003|06:40pm] |
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if we stop consuming we are expendable, our value is in our ability to make others wealthy. no. stop. shouting. control is fear and fear is consumption. insurance is safety and safety is freedom to consume. god, if you were alive, you'd know this.world.is.killing.me.
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[27 Nov 2003|05:22pm] |
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