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well laughter pours from under doors.
in this house i dont understand
that sound no more.
it seems artificial, like a tv set.
today sucks, a lot.
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[01 Apr 2005|11:15am] |
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i decided to ressurect my blurty, i miss it. i dont have ANY friends tho =\ haha so anyone can add me if theyd like. this isnt a real update, ill make one later
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[27 Aug 2004|03:14pm] |
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im baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack =)
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| im not unaffected. . . |
[12 May 2004|10:14pm] |
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hey guys, thought i'd let you know i've moved to livejournal =) so if you've got a journal there - feel free to add me !!
_falter
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| im not unaffected. . . |
[12 May 2004|10:14pm] |
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hey guys, thought i'd let you know i've moved to livejournal =) so if you've got a journal there - feel free to add me !!
_falter
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| hellO six pack of confidence. . . |
[07 Feb 2004|02:57pm] |
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AHH - planning on killing my mother !>!(*&$@ grrrrrr - i cant take her anymore. wow. but anyways went to mikes last night + watched forrest gump =) lol good times ;] oh and eric ( had biggest crush ever in middle school ) emailed me like : i got ur s/n after i saw u on thurs - me and trasso were walkin to get food past NAHS - and just wanted to see whats up .. na na na im me IF you wanna talk { lol so i did, and he wants to hang out =)
ive come to the conclusion that i am mad at the world. im just such a angry person and idk why. like ugh. i just hate everyone. im miserable - in school at home at basketball. the only time it seems like im not is when im with my friends. but even then its like i put on this show. i feel so fake - every laugh - every smile - everything ! i dont get it but oh well ...
" gotta try gotta try for tomorrow, when you cant see through today "
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| i tried so fcuking hard, but i cant fit your mold |
[04 Feb 2004|05:57pm] |
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ugh. what a bad day. didnt go to school - so you'd think it was good. naaaahh. cant start in my game tomorrow now because i didnt go to school. bc of some "rule" , but ive done it BEFORE ! f*^% that man. its ridgefield park too, big game. my coach can suck mine.. wow i cant deal with her and her games . she makes me just want to quit. and i have never even considered not playing basketball EVER, up untill this year. like bball was my life, i never got sick of it - nothing. i could be in a gym all day.. but now its like YES only 40 minutes left and that sucks. so yeah that put me in a greaaaat mood. people suck [ boys especially ! >:[
keep talking down to me.. loosing what was almost meant to be
- made me think of matt =\ dunnO why, gr i was supposed to be over him lol
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| we'll make the same mistakes.. ill take the fall for you |
[29 Jan 2004|09:17pm] |
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hey guys.. wOw !!
BUTTERFLY EFFECT = awesome. recommended to anyone who likes movies that like make you think + stuff. but i liked it so much, and didnt think ashton could pull off the whole " serious " thing, but wow did he - and he looked hot at the same time. [ even with the whole non-shaved look lol ]
so anyway - won our game tonight. did ok i suppose, not my best game but oh well. bball used to be my life. i mean hardcore everyday! live, eat, sleep, BASKETBALL. and its not like that anymore so that sucks! whatever mann . counties vs. RAMAPO saturday. theyre supposed to be good.
* manny was there tonight. but he has a g/f now? what the ?! lol - oh well boys are gay. mike just called and wanted me to go over but im like - im all sweaty? lol oh well .. i def. dont want a boyfriend, but i want someone whos there + that i know is.. does that make sense? oh well - OFFICIALLY over matt -- saw him and silwia kiss today ..im actually glad hes happy =) gO me!!
im done - leave me some lovin
- guess its too bad
that everything we
had is taken away
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| look into my eyes im jaded now, whatever that means |
[28 Jan 2004|07:04pm] |
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snOw day -- whoo hOo .. about to go & see ' butterfly effect ' with trasso. so ill let ya know how it was n if ashton can pull off the whole serious thing . lol ) what a boring day tho, shoveld - watched finding nemo + bonded with the brother of mine. =) game vs. fort lee tomorrow. should win ! oh mann.. grew some balls and called manny last night ! aw, he was about to go to sleep tho cause he was tired from wrestling. him sammy + kuhrt are comin to the game tomorrow tho.. so we`ll see. gO me tho ( i have no balls when it comes to guys, lol only when its not in person tho ) normally im my amazing pimp self.. haha i swear. wow what a weird mood. im going tho so ill be updating tomorrow loves, comment + such !
<3 kait
waking up to this nightmare.. hows your
life whats it like there? is it all that you
wanted to be - does it hurt when you
think about me and how broken my <3 is.......
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[27 Jan 2004|05:29pm] |
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ahh.. ive decided to start writing in this thing again.. non-friends only. ( i have no friends anyway lol ) life isnt really all that bad. guys are pretty good ; no one in particular. proms coming up. did pretty good on my report card. bballs not too bad - frustrating. um friends are good i suppose. home life could be better - but isnt horrible. comment if you wanna be added =)
how can y0u ask for me to stay when all you ever dO is go?
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| i hope youre as happy as youre pretending.. |
[15 Nov 2003|09:09pm] |
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wOah .. havent updated in FOREVER. but i decided that im baaaaack =) i have no friends tho sO comment & you`ll be added.. i dont really have any rules except that you comment + make me feel special lol.. so what's new with me ?
me : still your average unmotivated 16 year old catholic school girl. i will forever be in trouble about my grades from my psycho path mother.. she doesnt understand.
sports : soccer just ended ( 16-6 ) i was voted on for captain for next year.. and thank the lord that basketball starts in TWO WEEKS. if you cant tell basketball is my sanctuary. it takes up so much of my life that i have no time to worry about anything or deal with people's shit - which is wonderful
friends : i really am alone in this world. lol sounds corny but true. there isnt one person that i can sit an really just talk to about anything. no one knows the real me - which is so different than the exterior me - i mean i have my close friends.. and then A LOT of aquaintences but idk . . .
boys : trying to get over matt. a boy who had liked me for as long as i can remember.. and i finally started liking him before the summer. things were great.. then summer he goes down the shore.. so we did whatever. he came back + things were the same. then DRAMA ! ahh to make a long story short i screwed things up and didnt realize untill too late how much i really cared about him. he has a new g/f but everyone swears he still likes me and it just hurts. bcuz of the way he looks at me and jus things he says and stuff idk.. its depressing
thats all there really is to say i guess ! so ill be updating soon
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[03 Oct 2003|07:11pm] |
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def havent updated in sO long.. i guess cause no one comments and i dont feel loved.. um comment if you want me tO stay!! lol <3 a lot has been goin on.. ill update later on
-> kaitlyn
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| So how does it feel, how does it feel cause its tearing me apart.... |
[11 Aug 2003|08:37pm] |
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wildwood is tomorrow.. =] yay .. im such a bad packer tho! lol i have 1 small suitcase + one small like gym bag but still its for like 4/5 days ! oh well. yesterday was supposed to be this big fun crazy day for amandas birthday, but everyone [ EVERYONE ] all her friends decided they had more important things . like people who have been her friends since grammer school went to some club instead of going out with amanda for her birthday. wow i got so mad. like this girl has so many family guy friend problems + is always depressed and im the only one who actually went out with her. it sucks. so i took her to bella rosa bcuz me and the guy who owns it go way back. lol no jk i just <3 their food. it was fun we ate and sammy [ owner ] gave us cheesecake ;) which i love. and amanda is a deprived child and never saw good movies at all. so i made her watch pretty in pink =) i was in a sappy mood. lol and i wrote her an email today. shes going for her surgery on her calves tomorrow + shell be in a wheelchair for a good two weeks. so i was the last one to take her out. which is another reason her other friends should have been there. BLAH . so for her seventeenth i bought her $25 to blockbuster [ she lives like a block away ] and twizzlers + jellybellys + all this good candy stuff. and we just chilled at my house it was nice and i <3 her. lol so i wont be commenting on ur journals for a couple days! but leave me comments so i dont feel depressed when i come home and i have none =0 lol i love u guys <33
Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
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there arent really any rules ; i just
want people to comment ! <33333
KAiTLYN
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| diamonds are a girls best friend.. |
[26 Mar 2003|05:55pm] |
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ELEVEN days till my birthday guys! =) lol.. *sweet 16* .. yay.. anyways i cant take people who assume things. they should be shot! haha honestly tho - dont talk about shit that you have no clue about [ rite steph ] school is boring nowadays.. everything is war war war.. and yea i have my opinions and stuff but i hate reiterating them over and over again. its annoying yano? and the whole war subject is jus sometimes sad. bcuz like i kno this boy + his uncle is that POW thats from jersey.. so its sad.anyways.. this weekend should be boring since i have a bball tourny the whole time.. so thats that.. =) oh and if anyone knows the code to put up a pic in my journal please let me kno bcuz i wanna make it friends only thankss
<33 kait
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| today is just another break up day ... |
[24 Mar 2003|04:34pm] |
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heyy guys long time no long update.. well this weekend was good. stephs party was a lot of fun. i hope she had as much fun as i did. i kno she did. her lil candle almost made me cry lol- i think i need to kill mike adams for bruising my legs!! he always pinches me - it hurts soo bad lol .. the party was a lot of fun tho and everyone got along like there was no drama - wOw thats a first lol. sunday we had a game 4 cyclones [ we won of course ] lol yea so i have practice today blah i feel really crappy. ummm 2 weeks till my party/birthday - my mom wanted me to start goind tanning becuz im so white haha she think it`ll look better so there you go .. *cancer in a box* hah pray that i dont get cancer ;) jkjk - uhm i guess thats all i <3ya guys.. comment + leave me some love
kaitlyn
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[22 Mar 2003|09:15am] |
HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPH!! sweet 16 today -- tons of fun.. talk 2 u all later and fill ya in on the latest drama =) lol hope alls well w/ you guys!
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[20 Mar 2003|08:44pm] |
" this is highschool - what exactly is a friend? "
-- jawbreaker
steph + erin ---> i LOVE yous
thanks to the other true ones xO
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PEOPLE FCUKING SUCK! =) HAVE A NICE DAY!
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| -->i have a story of a bitter anthem 4 everyone 2 hear about |
[19 Mar 2003|09:33pm] |
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heyy guys .. whats up? wed. now -- not too much going on. boredom can kill yano! had bball mon + wed fun times fun times. ughh monday was ok nothin special . tuesday emilys birthday chilled w/ people after school that was the highlight lol.. today i studied w/ caroline and ashley [ thanks guys - victoria NUN + nicky dipple forever ] for algebra <-- wat a bitch. but i get it so its all good. steph wasnt in - whore . her party is in THREE days! cant wait.. lol i have a bball game the next day can you say kill me? haha its all good. talked to erin today about getting ATARIS CONCERT TICKETS!!! omg i HOPE to god i can!!!! pleaaaaasseee get them! ::prays:: haha well i guess thats all for now
<3you all
kait
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