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Wednesday, November 19th, 2003
| Time |
Event |
| 1:17a |
tunneling towards the center of the universe.....
well i'm not really sure what the subject really means. should one take it as a literal idea, where one is actually tunneling towards the center of this blind belief of the universe? can you actuallly physcially tunnel through an enigma? or should one actually think of this as a metaphor for some amazingly basic notion? well i think it's a li'l bit of both. for example, love. or even lust for that matter, can be such a crazy thing in life. we are each instilled with our subjective opinions on these abstract ideas, which makes it SEEM so basic. when we think we are in love/lust the exact definition is glaring at us and we are happy to accept our subjective ideas. yet when something happens, an argument for example, causes one to lose focus on what was directly in front of their eyes. everything goes to the shits, or at least for moments at a time. i think i'd rather live my life behind this John Rawls-ian (he's this one famous philosopher, i just learned about him in my philosophy class, somewhat of an interesting read, but i have learned that philosophers are longwinded and mostly confuse me when they speak, so i try my hardest to catch up, with no avail sometimes) type of notion, where we live behind this "veil of ignorance", but my conception would be a little different. my "veil", would be this life of where one can understand the anomoly which confuses and troubles them the most. therefore i could understand the what hell love/lust is about/for. i'm stumped, at the moment i have no clue nor could any of my convictions come anywhere near a "decent" attempt at the definition, much less a "good" attempt at the definition. i also think that love/lust can leave someone feeling like they are, "tunneling towards the center of the universe". left with nothing in their hands despite the extraneous efforts wasted trying to define this definition-less concept. i guess what i'm trying to say is that i think i'mma give up on a love for a while. love is for the birds.
music: radiohead - "high and dry" & "fake plastic trees" | | 2:46p |
the countdown....
well as i sit here at moffitt library and watch the minutes slowly tick away, i realize that i am nowhere being prepared for this economics midterm. i do not understand how to do anything, ok well actually i do understand some of the concepts but there is just too much to know, and i have no clue what's gonna be one the test. man this sucks! so i'm left here studying random econ. problems, trying to understand planned aggregate expenditures, trying to figure out how aggregate demand shifts in and out, and wondering about market self-correction. see these are concepts i know, but there is too much about them....AHHHHHH! i'm screwed. econ. 1, you have ruined my life!
and oh man am i tired, did you guys see the time on that last entry, i was up late last nite. but i'm actually doing better today, despite the midterm. oh man it's 2:51 now, that means i've wasted 5 minutes of studying time! ahhh, i'm starting ot count the grey hairs slowly appearing on my head....=( <--sad guy = me.
oh ya and hil, thank you for listening to me rant on and on about the evil and tyranny of the female species. i really needed that! you're like frosted flakes..."grrrreeeaat!" even though i said i was gonna start being an "a-hole" to girls, i think i'll just stick with the nice guy approach. being a jerk to girls just isn't my style, even though some people...*ahem..my ex-girlfriend....*ahem...might beg to differ. but anyways, i guess i'll bury my head back into this economics book and stack of notes.
F--- STANFURD! GO BEARS!!! (you'll prolly hear me saying this a lot this week, being that it is big game week and all. and for those living on the moon, the big game is the game between CAL and pathetic stanfurd)
music: dashboard confessional (unplugged) - all songs |
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