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Oh blurty how I have forgotten thee. hehe well so I am back at school. My computer is apparently the antichrist of Gut. I had some virus problem it took technicians a sum of more than 3 hours of actual time working on my comp before they had any clue. But in other news I will soon be learning to operate TV news equipment. This means Michael will be able to film things with the heavy duty cameras. this really concept is really feeding the creative ideas for me. As some of you know I am fixated on the idea of writing a screenplay and actually making it at some point. I know I know stupid and probably predictable goal but hey its something. So Caitlin and I have been together for over a month now but it seems like so much longer. That is for several reasons but one may be how we saw each other just about every day of the summer. SO to end this update everything seems well in Michaelville. feel free to post everyone
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| To all My readers... |
[22 Aug 2003|03:05am] |
Well I have not posted here in a while though I really have been wanting to. So I have so much to say so I better start from a fw days ago. This Monday I once again had to wake up and take my aunt to her Dr appointments in seattle int he very early morning. Well Normally that would be a bother but after I dropped her off I was able to go over to see Caitlin. So I had a great time seeing a sleepy Caitlin. So Monday turned out to be one of the best days so far this summer, though every day I ahve been spending wih her has been great. When you spend and entire day with someone you either get frustrated with them or get closer to them. Suprise suprise it was the latter for us (well hehe at least for me). Also a note for hot summer nights: If it is already hot out you should know that you are going to pass out in a hot tub. But knowing that I still couldn't pass it up since we were unable to go in there before cause people are not fond of the water (josiah).
And yesterday or really two days ago since its freaking 3 in the morning was my last day with Caitlin here. And though it was a very sad thing to have happen I had a great time. I went out to dinner with Caitlin and her parents It was an all around good time. However I am super sad that she is gone now/ =o(
I better stop this post cause some point during it i fell asleep not good things hehe Night all
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| How the heck am I going to do it. |
[14 Aug 2003|04:18am] |
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Well I realized that next year is gonna be a shockk to my system. I didn't see Caitlin today and well... it really bugged me. I mean yes I know I am open to being attacked cause we haven't been going out that long, but it feels like longer. so when i have to go weeks without seeing her I am not gonna be a happy camper. Its just when I am arounder her I am a generally happier person. I dunno I know i am probbalby being a goof but It has been really working me up today. Why do schools have to be so far away from eachother and breaks not long enough to make trips. well maybe i will try to win the lottery so that I can fly nonstop. well its 430 so i better sleep.
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| The good, the bad, the bitchy. |
[08 Aug 2003|12:47am] |
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Well lets start with the good. Well incase you have not been reading i was smitten with someone and was afraid to tell her. Well lucky me, I did tell her and it actually worked out. So this past week has been incredible. I pretty much have been on a emotional high the whole time. Well then to the bad. we were out at the Cheesecake factory and I thought I had saw my ex. Yea it was wierd turns out it wasn't her. Because i respect people i decided to tell her what had happened. well so i do and the next thing i know she is magically transformed into super mega bitch. Today she ims me and demands the sword i was given. I refused because it is not some emotional link to her and she still has my track shirt (plus my sword rocks) so when I tell her to toughen up she starts making small talk for the purpose of harassing me so i just sign off that name. WEll in the long run i am amazed with how big of a bitch she became. I don't think she realizes she has nothing to jerk me around with anymore. I don't have anyfeelings towards her now and am really happy with The Beauty I am with. And so of course to make her life complete she wants to ruin that. Tough luck missy I am gonna be happy or try at least
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| WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOhooooooooooooooo |
[01 Aug 2003|12:48am] |
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Short note/ I am very happy.
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| Ok I have had enough |
[28 Jul 2003|10:57pm] |
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Today after thinking about her for a while I decided that I have to tell her.
Its just that I know this can turn out all wrong. I am mature enough to just
take it and move on if she doesn't feel the same way but will she still be fine
hanging out with me. I mean I admit it will be weird cause i can't just shut
feelings off but I can still just hang out like before. Then I am also
wondering two big things one obviously is if she likes me also but the other is
if she already knows that I like her. It is quite possible since I have been
spending about every free moment with her. So Soon she will know and you will
have another update.
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[28 Jul 2003|01:36am] |
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coward. the end
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[27 Jul 2003|01:02am] |
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I was going to post and just write coward as in reguards to myself but then i got to thinking. I am not a coward I am just really thinking things through. I mean If A occurs then it may damage B. But the question I have to really decide if I can handle only B right now. I mean i really have been also thinking maybe i should just forget it but then i also figured out that I can't. Its like i think we are great friends but something has been flourishing (at least on my part) and I can't ignore that while remaining true to who i am. Some may worry that i am doing this on a rebound impulse but I am certain it is not. How do I know? Well i cna't say that there is any reason but that I follow my gut.
What I am a coward about is when I make a decision to do something but don't do it. Like when I say I am going to hug her goodnight but I don't even try. I honestly think that even as friends she would be oh ok cool. But nope I can't do that. I mean I also want to ask her things like "do you think a friend can let another know they have a crush on them and still maintaina friendship" but that is just like saying hey I like you. Arg Life.
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[24 Jul 2003|05:15pm] |
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I have helped spread the good word of HP. Hehe. I am such a dork. so anyways onto something else. I am on the realization that I will be alone next summer in the sense that most of my friensds won't be here. Why do people want to go on exchange or get internships places besides here. Well thats at least a little too far to be in my worries. What is in sight though is the fact that I am going to be back at school soon. This is summer has went way too fast for me. I mean I need like an extra month in there. I mean At first this summer i was worried it was going to be too long cause of the fiasco at the end of the year. However this summer has been amazing. First I was able to put alot behind me realizing that things that happened were for the best. Then I had a few other epiphanies that make me wish for more time. YARR
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| Am I crazy? |
[21 Jul 2003|09:32pm] |
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Am I crazy?
The short answer is very obvious if you know me. But I think I am cause I want something that it maybe will jeopardize what I have. Oh boy I am I one crazy MOFO.
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| A post hello |
[21 Jul 2003|02:31am] |
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Hi I am me and I am not saying who I am cause this is a sprt of secret journal with ugly colors.
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