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Blurty for Jezzica.
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| Tuesday, October 25th, 2005 |
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well i havent wrote in here for over a year damn.. thats crazy shit huh.. well im gona start writing in here again.. here is the lastest.. today was 3weeks since i last my baby..yesh i was pregnant but i went into labor at 3 months so i lost the baby..but i suppose it happen for a good reason although i refuse to believe that... Im single at the moment but i do talk to someone thats really nice... Jason!!1 lol Um i work at the movies still i go to college now for nursing instead of computters...i love nursing so much better...i go to the academy for schooll..love it i got an amazing friend named danielle..always there through thick and thin...love her so much and her beautiful daughter named hailey...love ya girls.. Alots happen since last year damn...um me and lyndsey dont talk ..i dont party nearly as much..if i party at all.. this year has been one hell of a year.. well thats about it...now im gona post another entry about my day today... xoxo jessica |
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| Sunday, August 15th, 2004 |
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we had a Hurricane we got no power no nothing and im living with my best friend lyndsey right now..and we are out of town at venice..but we go to port charlotte to clean up during the day,..WANNA GET AHOLD OF ME EMAIL ME OR CALL LYNDSEYS CELL..AND LEAVE A MESSAGE IF NO ONE ANSWERS.. LOVE JEZZICA |
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| Monday, August 9th, 2004 |
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well i havent wrote in here in awhile becuz i have no more internet on my computer till like december which really sucks azz.so im at a friends right now chilling..so um ya if ya wanna write me or call me let me email me at Damagedbaby@yahoo.com or Damagedbaby@hotmail.com..and let me know and ill emial ya back my number or address.. ill be on every now and then when i get a chance at my friends house.other then that ya...well im out.. POOTTER.. gota love my home frie.Lyndsey ...we truly hav to much fun together..lol if thats possible..hehe lov Jezzica |
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| Thursday, July 22nd, 2004 |
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Man everybody is droping their fuck buddys and lookin for new ones..Cuz their tired of all their shit..hell i cant even talk to the guy i kinda been fucking cuz of his gay x..so im tired of that shit..Courteney was talking about having a 4 some wit me her martinez and chris.g..but ya not ever happening..Me and eric talked about it..lol he was amazed about me kissin chicks and shit i dont see it as a big deal or wutever..but he is all like we so gota get together some time lol.."ill think about it eric" he was all like ill get u wit a chick who will eat u out for hours im like LOL i dunno if im totally down for that..he is all like what if i start and she finsihes..he is really into it..which i find amusing..but we see.. anyway me and lyndsey talk to joshy pooh last night..me and him mostly talked about old times..god i miss the old days they were so great..just remember havin a joint in one hand and a cup of vodka in the other..thats the life anyway no more joints lol..Lyndsey asked if im gona smoke when we go down i gota think alot about that..and i probly shouldnt..i gota watch out for her..seein she dont know anyone there and or how people work..and i grew up there so i know how it runs ..even knows its been 2 years..but ya..so i think we will just get trashed like no tomorrow..then go party some where else..im gona see chris,D there its gona be pretty interesting seein we havent seen each other since i broke up with him 2 years ago..I been talking to JAnna lately and she might be movin here.."janna is chris.d's step sis" she was there when i lost my virginity to say the least..lol...ummmm tryin to think wut else has been happening...ohh I FUCKING LOVE THE NEW SONG "COLD" FROM CROSSFADE I WANT IT I WANT IT..LOL oh i did my hair yesterday..it looks ok i gota redo it when lyndsey gets here..so it looks perfect..i think she is gona do her's to not sure..speaking of LYNDZEY.she comes home aug 1 and we gona go see joshy pooh..,.. um i havent recieved an email from my baby owen yet..im kinda getin worried..its been like a week i really hope he is ok..well i think thats about it so im outy.. I lov you Lyndzey,Struble Owen,Creque Kerri Janna Josh abele thats about it ..i really love them i got a lil love for other people lol.. LOV JEZZICA |
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| Tuesday, July 20th, 2004 |
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Um lets see...David finally called me i think it was sunday night..we talked for hours..and man he is a werid fucker...lol no offence to him thou..anyway then yesterday Ian called me like 3 times..sayin he loves talking to me and shit..like all together we talked for like 6 hours..got boring real fast let me tell ya..but anyway what else happen..OHH OHHH i talk to my old home boy josh from HArbour Heights the other day..gona hook him up wit my home girl Lyndzey me and josh talked about all our great times..man we fuckin Ruled..HH when we were all together kinda funny..i miss him and all the grreat days we've had..but ya..ill finally get to see him again..so that bee cool...ohh me lyndzey and Kerri talked to chris.G last night..and while me and kerri were talking to him his x got on at some point and blocked us so we knew it was her..and we annoyed the hell out of her by iming her like a million times on a million sn's..it was interesting i used all my s/n's i know of and so did kerri we ran out of names that didnt get blocked..but then i found one and his X Erika actually talked to me..telin me how he is going to see her in a month and they are geting back together and how she loves him and the reason she blockes everyone is cuz she doesnt want him talking to girls or otherwise he wouldnt be her's..A real nut job..me and kerri think lol..but whatever...not to sound snootty or anything..but she anit the one fucking him..lol..that might sound bad but who cares..OHH OHH i called steven the other day and He lives wit his gf now..so ya then we lost connection so owell...i was wondering where he disappeared too..Well anyway Josh came home yesterday and lyndzey comes back aug1..we made it a plan..that "she is going to stay wit me at my dads cuz its his b-day in harbour heights." But we are really going partying down there wit all my homies..lyndzey was all like u can have chris and ill have josh..im like what chris..she goes UH chris.G the one u been fucking LOL..gota love her...gota be turin into a nympho which can be good if u can fuck someone alot..Anyway owen left for the sea the other day and i havent recieved an email from him yet..im kinda getin worryed..i miss him so much..he's my big baby lol..that hates spider's,,but its ok i hate cock roaches lol....well im done writing my lil life down.. LOv Jezzica |
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| Sunday, July 18th, 2004 |
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Well today is sunday..boring as hell..Chris came over thursday night.my mom woke up but went back to bed..then we fucked..then we talked..nothing really special.I havent talk to him since that night go figure..me and lyndsey talk to his x gf thou..she had some lovely things to say about us LOL...its ok we know the truth,,anyway me want more sex LOL..Eric told lyndsey im scared of his dick LMAO..im like No im scared of u..u kinda look like a rapest or killer..and even owen doesnt agree wit me bein fuck buddys wit him cuz he looks werid..i mean he's hot and shit .just werid lol..me and eric got into a big agurment over me bein scared him ..he is like wtf im harmless.he got really offended over it..kinda funny..um saturday i went shoping got the cutest/shortest skirt ever..Just 4 u owen haha..Speaking of my sexi owen..we talked last night..he might come home in December..told him he could be my x mas present..he is like i put a big red bow on my head for u lol..and i was like i dont think ull fit under my tree hun so u can hide in my room..he goes ill dress up like a tree for u im like NO plz dont lol.he goes fine ill wear x mas lights and a big red bow..im like whatever thats fine..he is so funny.we were talkin about wut we hate/scared of..i hate cock roaches and he hates spiders..so when we move in together..he is gona take care of the cock roaches and ill take care of the spiders lol...i cant wait for him to come home so we can finally be together..i talk to his friend yesterday..when owen was on cam a week ago i saw his friend im like eww ur so much hoter..he laughed and i talk to his friend and his friend was like i hear u call me ugly..and laughed im like Uh sorry i was bein honest..he goes well its ok atleast u are honest..im like ok..i told him to watch out for owen lol.keep him out of trouble...and we talked about how owen's my man to be and shit lol..then me and owen ttalked.he wanted some songs he could download so i made him a list of like 40..believe it or not u was so excited to listen to all 40 of them..lol i was like u owe me big time..he goes lol ok u can get dinner and a hug..lol..he is such a sweetheart..gota love him..well anyway Lyndsey comes home soon..hopfully when she gets home..im gona get on birthcontrol finally..and if she starts havin sex she needs to get on it too..but i cant wait till she comes home ..cuz she is kinda the only friend who has been there for me through bad and good except our lil fight..But she has tryed her hardest to help me and my cuting.and i know it really scares her..that i could die from it and everything..and she doesnt understand that much why i do it..but im happy she stuck by me..cuz i think ive stoped for good..I promise her and owen ill try my hardest to stop..and ive done good so far..even know those scars will always there,they will just be a memory of my past that ive over comed and became stronger..reminds me of people that were in my life..but its all the past and now its time to move on..U never know if ur friends are true or not till there is a down side in ur life and u actually see how many are by ur side all the way through..so to the people who been by my side no matter what..Specially Lyndsey and Owen..i thank you guys so much..and i love you guys to death and ill never leave ur side..i promise..Ill never leave alot of peoples sides even know they leave mine when ever they please..but thats life i guess...today i went shopping got 2 pair of cute jeans for schooll..fun fun..then wednessday im getin things so i can do my hair like becca use to do it for me..Ohhhhh i forgot..TODAY owen left for the sea..which reallys sucks for me and him..becuz now we can only email each other everyday we cant talk one on one..but he said he wont be out on the sea as long as last time so thats kinda good..hopfully if i get a job im gona save up money and Hopfully go stay in japan for a lil bit..next summer so we can spend time wit each other..... well im out..If anyone wants to talk call me.. 941-764-7659.. lov Jezzica |
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| Thursday, July 15th, 2004 |
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well its 4:25am and im bored..i think owens gona be on soon so im waiting for him..i was talkin 2 my mom about callin him..and since he is all the way in japan she is like its gona cost like 9 bucks a minunte lol..soo that idea is out of the question...anyway im so bored and my head hurts and and im eatin pretzels..i never ate yesterday so this is all ive eatin..besides drinkin alot of water lol....well anit this fun...ohh ohh i wanna get a job at toy's r us i think that job would rule lol..lalala bored. im not doin shit tomorrow..well tomorrow night chrisy pooh is comin over...to entertain me..woohoooo..that should be fun..amazing wut the words fuck me ..do when their said to a horney guy..like him.......well im outy..leave me some love if u plz.. lov Jezzica |
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| Tuesday, July 13th, 2004 |
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well um i played need for speed underground for 9 hours straight im addicted lol..then took a break to talk to the one and only sexy owen...we are a jolly good time talking..we laughed alot like we always do when we talk..im a special cookie let me tell ya lol...i miss ya tons hun..cant wait for u to get home so we can have a awsome time together and kick it off..just think if u didnt leave me on ur list for that extra year how much things would be different now..we would of already known each other for like 2 or 3 years..done fucked and we be together right now and i would of never dated steven or chris...would of saveed me alot of tears and drama.lol..but its ok things are cool the way they are now..each time we talk we get closer...and remember ill come save u if u give me a boat and crew cuz i anit letin that giant jellyfish eat me ..and if it does remember to always carry matches or a liter..so ya can eat urself out of it ..LOL whoever reads this ur gona think im pycho..but if u only knew the conversation behind that story it was the funnest shit i ever heard at 6 in the moring lol...welll anyway lov ya owen...MUAH...hehe..ummm lets see..OHHHHHH i talk to david finally after like 2 or 3 weeks..missed talkin to him bunchs..he has been working alot lately he said so ya..he said he might call today so weeee..and maybe come visit me when he gets his car..woohooo that'll be interesting..we were talkin about masterbating today..cuz well us females do that LOL...long story..but he is all like u did not just put me on hold to go finger urself..im like uh sorry ..he was laughin so hard..and was like its all good i did 2 hours ago LOL>..good Jezzica and david gone Bad haha...i admited to one of my female friends that i masterbate..i forget who..but lol it was funny..owell its natural..anyway yesterday i had a horrible horrible day..and i was rude to chris..so i owe him an apolgy..i cant spell..anyway ya im gona tell him im sorry today for my behavor yesterday and i shouldnt of been rude to him becuz of my bad day...but um..me and sam sam..were talking about our emotions how we care so much about these guys and it seems they could careless and all we really want is to feel cared for and shit...once u hav that feeling ud do some wack shit to get it back if u lose it..DAMN EMOTIONS..ummm lets see..im cooking dinner now its gona take awhile cuz its in that crock pot thingy...but its gona taste awsome cuz i cooked it..Speaking of cooking lol "owen" ill fall for u first then ur cookin haha..i guess he is the bestest chef in my life haha..god good times...cant wait for him to come home its gona be sooooooooooooooooo coool......today i was fuckin wit him but he actually took me serious it was funny im all like i think we should make a baby when u come home and when i turn 18 get married..he is like NO KIDS TILL IM LIKE 28 OR SOMETHING..it was sooo funny..seein i dont want kids till im like 25 it all works out...and im all like wanna get married when im legal too..he is like HMMMM....not sure yet LOL>.im like im fuckin wit u i cant believe u took me serious then he is alll like would u marry me when u turn 18 im like give me 6 months or more after we are together and ill let u know >HAHA< we talk about the weridest things some times..but it amuses us...omg he made the joke today about me liking things fast..cuz i was talkin about my obesstion to the fuckin race car games..and how i cant drive a real car becuz i dont understand the words SLOW>.lol.he was laughing at me he is like do u like to go fast or go crazy im like shhh i anit crazy i like to think of it as fast..he goes then u should of liked steven LOL>he is such a meany...owell gota love him....well thats enough im tired as fuck but hyper if that makes any since...well im outy i send my love to all my sexy homies.. >Kisses< lov Jezzica |
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| Monday, July 12th, 2004 |
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ive been working on this poem for like a month or so now ..and i completed it tonight.. its called "The truth lies behind the tears" by me of course Your simple words and actions mean more then you think they do they sometimes cause me pain and tears but they also cause me laugher and joy all the things you ever did made me believe u cared but i guess i believe wrong all along i fell for you hard and fast and now all im left with is my love for you you want to be friends i think even know it hurts to even talk about you my friends say give our friendship a chance but i know if we become friends ill start to love you more i wanna talk to you so bad and see u even more sometimes i wish i never met you but other times im glad i did so i could experence the feeling u gave me nights i dreamt of being yours again but then i think how i was always sad and crying unless i was in your arms but even then i thought about all the ways i could lose you,becuz im not like ur x who gave u all u could want except her lies but in my mind i care more about the inner u then outer i want to be close to you even know u may not let me i thought you'd see that becuz i thought u were different but i guess u cant see past the sexual relation and so you left me without seeing the way i love and admired you which i found shady and shallow i know the things you said about me thats why i believe u left becuz of the lack of sexual attention somestimes i wonder if u really meant all u said deep down i hope you didnt and that you still care about me but then i realize that will never happen we're friends now and i told u every emotion i have for you i even told u about my cutting you said you were worried and wanted to help me when you said that i got my hopes up that u still cared but then i think im crazy to think that the more i talk to you the more i love you i told you i cut over u, i told u everything i ever thought about u even the part about thinking u left me over me not being like ur x you told me that wasnt it and i know now it wasnt we hang out from time to time and you seem to still hold and kiss me like you mean it everytime i look into your dark but beautiful eyes i see all the reasons i love you every now and then you get angry at me and stop talking to me i let you break me down and control my every emotion when your mad at me i hurt more then ever i depend on u for my happyness and i realize ive become a burden on you so im ending this,i wont be a problem to u any longer becuz the more i want u as a friend,as a lover its just more pain and tears so im leting u go seeing i realized you dont want me and never will and im just bring u down as myself.. it kinda sucks i know..but its over a months worth of time of my emotions on him well let me know wut u think lov Jezzica |
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well hummm..this morning i got into a fight wit my mom..which is nothing new we always fight..but then the air man came...and man was he mean...he was telling i dont know how to read and work our air and everything and im not even the one who fucks wit that shit my mom is..and all he was doing is screaming at me and tellin me im stupid and shit..he was scary..and his shit was pulling me over the edge..i just wanted to run and cry..everyone is just being really mean today...so i just went to bed..so i got up at 9 thinking oh chris might be on lets talk to him and cheer up and wutever..cuz i know i can go to him to talk..but i know wrong..he was bein werid and like i was joking wit him by askin if he wanted to help me beat up guy jamie..and he was all like No he is my redneck friend or whatever..and im all like wanna go swimming and he was all like No..im like uh why not he is all like Becuz..and shit..i have no idea what i did..but he blocked me so owell..now ill i have is owen that talks to me..which he is going through a really bad time and plus is hardly ever on..so its shitty..i feell alll blah and alone..i just want to run in a corner and cry..people may not mean to hurt u or make u sad or whatever..but wit the littlest things they say and do..they can cause a million tears...well im gona run off to my room now..before i flip and lose control... thanks for the comment kerri aka Talena hehe.. lov Jezzica |
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| Sunday, July 11th, 2004 |
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| Last night was going ok..till i asked owen if he was mad at me and he answered yes..then all hell broke loose. well anyway i asked if he was mad at me cuz he wasnt talking to me and he said yes so i asked him why and he was really bitchy about it..and if i ever lost his friendship i dont even know what i do..owen's like my best and closest friend..he has always been there for me..when im sad always can make me smile..he is just awsome and i never wanna loose him as a friend..and last night i came close to losing him..a few days ago i made a joke and he toook me a lil to seriously and over something i thought was stupid meant alot to him and i hurt his feelings ..and i feel horrible we got into a big fight about it,,and the thought of losing him came over me and i fliped out and lost control and did the worst thing.i ran to the razor..im so angry at myself..at the time it felt good but this morning when i woke up looking at my wrist and then myself i was so angry that i did it..cuz i know i want to stop and its bad..owen found out i cut over it and fliped out on me..and sam fliped out on him..and called him a dick and shit..and he kept telling me how sorry he was for hurting me and breaking my heart and everything and was puting him self down for me and everything..and i felt so bad..i felt worrse..and he told me he was gona leave me life so he never hurts me again..and thank god he didnt and we are ok now after a very long talk..well im out ill write later | ||||||
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Well i havent wrote in here in awhile so lets update this shit...anyway i had my childhood friend come over from wednessday till tooday she left this morning i thought it be funn it was maybe for like 10 minutes then it was fuckin hell..im so glad she left..she eats none stop and im serious about it,,and she told me what to do and everything she was the worst guest in the world she was callin all my friends and flirting wit my x boyfriend's and everything so annoying..so i was bored so i let her meet martinez and my x Chris.g and well she thought my x was hot as hell and when he was leaving she smacked his azz lol..and well i asked chris to come back over last night..and he put his arm around me and jessica was like u guy just kiss already and i was like why do i gota kiss him why cant he kiss me so he was like if u will shut up ill kiss her..so he kissed me then whispered in my ear lets make her think we were doin something so i got on top of him and started making out and shit..GOd i miss bein wit him so much..kissing him again was awsome...after he left Jessica was like i thought he was gona ask u back out..im like nope he didnt..i asked him if it freak him out if i showed him my cuts..he said no..so i showed him and i guess Jessica said when he looked at them he looked sad or looked like he was gona cry..but i didnt see any of it so owell..but ya..i miss bein wit him but what can ya do..well thats prettty much all im gona keep typing about so im gona shut up now.. LOv Jezzica |
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| Thursday, July 1st, 2004 |
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welll umm...i think me and lyndsey are gona plan go makin a trip up to orlando some day lol we got our friends marshall and david up there...marshall invited me to stay the night there so maybe we will stay up there for the niht if we go who knows we havent talked about it much...anyway me and my x chris have been talking alot at first i thought well its better then him hating me which i thought he did but i dont know...i told him about my cutting and he said he was worried and wanted to help..i kinda think thats the only reason he is bein friends wit me is becuz of that..but when he said he was worried and everything i got my hopes up thinking he still cares me about even know deep down my heart knows he doesnt...and its hard being friends wit him becuz i still love him alot...and that love is geting in the way of alot and making things alot harder then normally..and im not sure if i should say something to him or not..i want him as a friend cuz he is a good trust worthy friend but i dont know if my heart could deal wit it..even know i have too..I mean if i get my act together and get over him i can have someone who is sweet kind caring and pretty much everything i want..and he is sexy too lol..speaking of owen..lol i went to bed last night and he got on 20 minutes after i was in bed ..i was soo pissed cuz he was on cam and everything so i emailed him today..hopfully he gets on tonight...i pray he does..i wanna talk to him so abd he makes me happy..and right now i need to get happy before i start my shit again...i wish i could like disappear for like a week or weekend or something..but i got no where to go lol...well im out ill write later..if u got comments leave them.. Lov Jezzica |
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| Tuesday, June 29th, 2004 |
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Im a cutter.....Im stoping..i told my dad today he fliped out and started bitching at me soo bad i tryed not to cry and i held it in until he left..hearing him bitch at me like that hurt soo bad i wanted to just grab the razor blade and cut my arm..but i stoped myself and walked away and instead of making more cuts i cleaned them and wraped it up so no one can see..i go to get blood work done tomorrow so im gona say i twisted my wrist so they leave me wrist alone..but anyway..owen was on when i got up but didnt talk to me and he signed off..tear tear..i hope everything is ok..i miss him so much..i wish he was here wit me i wouldnt be cutting i know that for sure..cuz whenever i talk to him he makes me smile,laugh and just plain old happy..just like chris use too..but thats the past and i need to stop thinking about it...becuz it only gona hurt me..so anyway..today is a new day im never cutting again im never leting myself look at the past..im not gona be depressed even know shit may go down hill..im gona be the best person i can be and get my life together..I hope..i just gota take it slow... well im down ill write when something happens.. Jezzica |
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| Sunday, June 27th, 2004 |
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today we had a really badd storm and we had no lights or anything for hours so i had alot of time to think...about myself my life..my future..and my emotions...the words.."i think ur shady for hurting me and then leaving so you dont have to see the pain you caused.".seem to fit the situation going on.....U never know how much u truly love somebody till their gone..I never thought u could love someone so much and also hurt so much cuz of that love..Love might be good while u have it but its a bitch when u break from it..what can i say..LOve is more of a chance of getin hurt then bein happy....but anyway..i talkk to owen for 3 or more hours last night..i miss him dearly...we talked about everything and anything and we always do..he knows about everything thats going on in my life..and always will becuz im never scared to talk to him..whenever im sad he makes me laugh and smile..and i appericate that..he's a true friend...we been talking about what we are gona do wit the rest of our lives..its funny..we wanna do the same thing in the end..and talk about the way we wanna live..he seems so perfect..never fights or agures with me..always listens and gives me the best advice..never leaves me when i need him..always surprizing me wit his lil jokes...he truly makes me smile a mile wide..as much as i wanna be with him..i still think from time to time about the one i fell for..Makes me cry my eyes out.And the fact to hear him talk about how he found someone he clicks wit hurts like fuckin hell even know i dont show that to him i dont want him to know how much its hurting me not like it would matter to him but i dont wanna come off as a cry baby and some weak stupid girl u know....i was talking to rus about it and his exact words were "rus: well you sound like u are really in love with him rus: but he doesnt feel the same".....U have no idea how much it hurt to say no he doesnt care about me at all..i thought i was never gona stop crying..i dont know how to much on ive tryed my way and ive tryed my friends way..im just about to give up and swallow my love..and i dont even know what im talking about so im gona just stop.. Lov Jezzica |
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| Friday, June 25th, 2004 |
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for the first time in awhile..i talk to chris...He was bein nice and everything i felt a bit werid and i kinda feel werid now talking to him..a piece of me wants to talk to him and be friends and everything and i miss talkin to him but a piece of me is like no dont get close to him or anything ull get hurt..so i dont know..but anyway i talk to david last night..he has been working his azz off lately and his mom through her back out and is outa work again..but he is helpin her and shit soo i think its gona be ok..OHHH either tonight or tomorrow im going to "my secrets" house and hang out and shit..cant wait it shall be interesting..lol....anyway ummm i been playing the sims i got sooo good at it then we didnt have a memory card and i lost it..i was like bitch..then my mom started a fight wit me at 3 in the morning last night..and she went through my computer lookin for something..i duno what..but she didnt find shit cuz i got it HIdden HAHA bitch..i havent talked to owen in awhile...i miss him ....he is like my closest friend thats a guy..we talk about everything and anything i cant wait for him to come home so we can hang together and see if things wil go any farther...he is like the perfect guy......of course owen and "my secret" are total nympho....but thats ok..wit "my secret" ill be one soon enough LOL....anyway monday will be 2 weeks wit Jezika LOL..what a joke...she's my girl thou...well anyway me and kasey are gona throw a party some day and we picked some guys to steal and bring to it..lol lil druggies..but their lil cutie's...but we either find someone wit our liquor supply or get some money and get my secret to buy us some ....so we should have a party before august then in august then owen is havin a couple when he comes home..which will be very very interestiing.. well i just wanna say i love you to all my homies..and thank you for listening to my bitchin and what not..i hope we alll have the time of our life this year..its gona be a great year..well the rest of it atleast lol...WHEN IM A SENIOR IS GONA BE EVEN BETTER cuz ill be moving out this shit hole soon as i graduate.. ok im done writing.... Love you all... Jezzica |
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| Wednesday, June 23rd, 2004 |
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well shit changed..NO MORE BF....dumped him this after noon.. david fliped on me when i told him i had one..and wow..so im single once again..and well i got a BIG secret HEHEHEHE..and wow is it a awsome secret........Well i cant wait to see owen..and my sexy david...hope to see u both soon..kisses to u both... Jezzica |
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| Tuesday, June 22nd, 2004 |
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Well umm lots changed...dunno where to start first..Me and Jezika have been dating for a week LOL..woohooo..lol..anyway um me and ashley arent talking i guess she is either to good for me now or some shit i dont even know..i hardly even care..she doesnt wanna be friends then fine...umm...I talk to my daddy about a couple things the other day..i kinda miss seeing him : / but what can ya do..uhhh i made a few new friends ..they are good people..i miss talkin to my sexy owen HEHE..lol havent talk to him in a few days..cant wait to see him when he comes home....me and david kinda had our first fight in our werid friendship we have..he said something and i kinda took it the wrong way and it made me upset..but we talked about it and everything is cool..he works late nights almost all week which sucks cuz i dont get to talk to him...in a month he might come see me >>>:)<<< which i cant wait to finally see him...um my girl lyndzey is comin home in august..seems like forever away..lol...um my x came over last night and we went swimming...and we are giving things another shot right now i guess...we will see..<"if u wanna know how i feel personally on that ask me" but most of u already know soo...well im kinda tired..well im really tired..so im out..Later dont be scared to comment lol.... I send my love to all my homies lol.. Jezzica |
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Well umm lots changed...dunno where to start first..Me and Jezika have been dating for a week LOL..woohooo..lol..anyway um me and ashley arent talking i guess she is either to good for me now or some shit i dont even know..i hardly even care..she doesnt wanna be friends then fine...umm...I talk to my daddy about a couple things the other day..i kinda miss seeing him : / but what can ya do..uhhh i made a few new friends ..they are good people..i miss talkin to my sexy owen HEHE..lol havent talk to him in a few days..cant wait to see him when he comes home....me and david kinda had our first fight in our werid friendship we have..he said something and i kinda took it the wrong way and it made me upset..but we talked about it and everything is cool..he works late nights almost all week which sucks cuz i dont get to talk to him...in a month he might come see me >>>:)<<< which i cant wait to finally see him...um my girl lyndzey is comin home in august..seems like forever away..lol...um my x came over last night and we went swimming...and we are giving things another shot right now i guess...we will see..<"if u wanna know how i feel personally on that ask me" but most of u already know soo...well im kinda tired..well im really tired..so im out..Later dont be scared to comment lol.... I send my love to all my homies lol.. Jezzica |
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| Friday, June 18th, 2004 |
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im at my girls house for the night..she wanted to go out and have some fun..she got her licenses today..But she fell asleep on me..so im bored and got on here to talk to david..my sexy david lol...well um steven was gona come over tonight and maybe stay the night but i think he scared!!!! of my mom lol.owell shit happens..i guess.. welll hummm..i think martinez has a problem wit me..he kinda acts like he dont want me and ashley to be friends but im not sure..he never talks to me anymore...i think its cuz chris grant "the dude i dated" hates me and martinez is always wit him..but i have no idea..well amy said sorry to me and ashley did too ..so i dunno but me and ashley are ok now but amy and me i never said anything to her... well laterz I love you Sweetie aka Jezika lol my gf.... I send my love to my friends hopfully ill have a bf soon too.. Outy lov's Jezzica |
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crappy.
bored.
excited.
calm.
blank.
bouncy.
angry.
drained.
naughty.