Uses for Lenin's dead preserved body.
Blah. My internet is back working now. So I'm using it until it burns out again. In other words. No sleep... Since that's all I did when my interweb was down. Kinda sad how little life I have minus this fake connection to the outside world, and that other world...
Today I randomly went out with gio to celebrate his braces being taken off... or something. I don't really know why, or care really. I just left my house and went to Jersey City on some 8:30 train. Eh. I guess that's just how I am. Desperate. I wonder if Gio would do the same for me if he could. I'm doubting it. Whatever. I'm so mean.
So I just strolled over to Jersey City after taking the train to hoboken and the tubes (Path for all you youngins) to exchange place. Ate food at Flamengo, good ol' bacon and eggs, will never let me down. Met Gio Pat and Nick walking down about 10 minutes later. Hung out with them, saw sweeny along the way, watch those three do their stuff.... yeah.
Went to Tower records, watch gio take a path trip. Watch gio buy tickets for this My Chemical Romance thingy. Watch gio find a girl just randomly willing to talk to him. I swear, if only I had half as much charm as he does... sigh. watch gio buy 2 hot dogs and a papya drink at gray's papya. Went back to hoboken, gio actually payed for himself this time. Which, thinking it over, is pretty dumb, he could have payed back Pat with that money.
Met Erin, watched helen and his gansta boyfriend (My bitterness index is a 4 out of 5. I'm not sure why). Erin was happy today, weird enough, to see gio. I was expecting something different.... whatever. It's not my buisness anyway, and I have no real knowledge of emotions either way. Got some money back. Somehow I didn't really care either way, Jessicas boyfriend (name escapes me) still owes me, blah. Went to barnes and noble, started picking out any book that had anything weird on it, just laughing around. Met this hyper cynical kid named Donald, who hung out with us only because he hated the world and really was just lonely and insecure and fucking desperate (Yes. Maybe 4 out of 5 is kinda stretching it).
Went to Hoboken station, watched weird small kid hug Erin, which at first made me saw awwww.... then... HELP US GOD... We kinda walked away after that. Cynical kid donald left 5 minutes later, thank god. I went to the diner to eat a burger and fries, Erin had a milkshake, Gio had... uh... sugar water. Eating conversation.... Gio says how much he's trying to transform his love for Christina into hate. He's doing actually somewhat good in it. He'd make a convincing domestic violence happy husband. Erin stayed quiet when Gio asked if she thought he was using her. Aww. Aww. I don't really remember/care what I said. Probably more gay jokes and stupid crap.
Went home to notice that my internet is working. Yay. NOW I CAN GET MY SOUL STOLEN BY MY COMPUTER. Checked to notice that ecchi-attack is still not updating. Talked to Gio, Erin, and Dana, cause they were on and I was bored. I'm going to this haunted house thingy on friday with gio dana and tara. Woooo. It's going suck soo much. That's probably what makes it great.
Dana still is deciding to be completely cut off in the ways of love and relationships. I wonder if I could blame her, nah. She got shocked to notice that all of her friends who are guys.... like... uh... guys (Somehow I shouldn't be saying this. Yeah.). She claims that I'm one of her only completely straight guy friends, woooo. Bergen County must be fagoriffic or something. Bet you that neither of us (for different reasons) remain compltely out of that circle (relationships... duh) for the rest of our high school.
Mood swings were high today. 1 in the morning, one after tower records, and one starting now. Yeah. Wooo. Go kemikalz. Whatever, I can hide it, or make people just ignore me, so blah. Gio's somewhat catching on though. Maybe it's because... blah. Whatever. I'm not going to say it. I think I'm writing this too objectively. It needs more... feeling. Blah. Yeah. I still have a shitload of homework to do. God I hate it.
For your viewing pleasure:
I AM: Named after an Angel. Ironic.
I WANT: Something... magical... I dunno
I WISH: My brother was alive
I HATE: Myself and most pieces of work that I make. Minus the cat with the shotgun I did for Java, cause that kicked ass.
I MISS: My brother... uh... Good cartoons on TV.
I FEAR: People. In general.
I HEAR: The monotone humming of my CPU
I SEARCH: The seven seas....
I WONDER: If there's any happy people in this world. Preferrably ones that I like.
I REGRET: Being alive.
I LOVE: Escaping
I ACHE: Randomly
I ALWAYS: Never do my homework.
I AM NOT: Very interesting, contrary to popular belief
I DANCE: No. No I don't.
I SING: When bored.
I CRY: Not very often, though I should probably do it more
I AM NOT ALWAYS: Humorous, also contrary to popular belief.
I WRITE: When Fr. Deebie Doobie tells me to. Also when I'm bored.
I WIN: The grand prize. Wait. No. Same as Gio on this thing. Sigh.
I LOSE: I dunno. My pants?
I CONFUSE: Mostly everyone now.
I NEED: Somebody to love" -The Beatles
I SHOULD: Go outside. Goddamnit.
Yes Or No...
x. You keep a diary: No
x. You like to cook: No
x. You have a secret you have not shared with anyone: Yes, wait. Maybe no
x. You believe in love: Sure. Why not.
The weirdest person you know: Dan Jamison
The Loudest Person you Know: Uh... myself?
The Sexiest Person you Know: Hmm... uh... Wait, I don't know her, only as that picture that's saved on my computer.... damn.
The Cutest Person you Know: Jason Chan! With his stereotypical chubby asian cheeks!
Your closest friend: Gio, well, not really. My brother, but I guess that also doesn't really count.
The People that Know the Most about you: My brother, uh... gio again. And that other guy...
Your most overused phrase on IM: Yeah
The last image/thought you go to sleep with: Why do I have to wake up tommorrow?
Inside joke: And if I'm bad they'd have to jam a needle up my ass and put me in the quiet room.
Have a(any) crush(es): Sure, never acted on them though.
want to get married: Why not.
Get Emotion Sickness: And it's actually diagnosed!
Think you're a health freak: no.
Get along with your parents: Dad: Maybe. Mom: no. Stepmom: Blah.
Like thunderstorms: And running around in them.
NATURAL HAIR COLOR: dark brown/black
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: dark brown/black
EYE COLOR: brown.
COLOR: Blue, grey (My sister forced me into liking it).
DAY: Yesterday. The day before that. Just not today.
MONTH: December/January. SNOW!
SONG: Muzzle - Smashing Pumpkins
FOOD: Japanese Udon Soup.
SPORT: Killing people. I mean... uh... baseball?
DRINK: Coke, Hot chocolate, milkshakes, root beer.
( PREFERENCES )
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT? Well, I never made out. So I'm kinda biased towards that one.
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE? Hot chocolate
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE? Milk
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE? Vanilla
( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... )
HELPED SOMEONE? Yes
BOUGHT SOMETHING? Yes.
GOTTEN SICK? Not... really...
GONE TO THE MOVIES? No.
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? No.
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? Nope. Haven't said it yet either.
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? Nope.
TALKED TO AN EX? Don't have one.
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? I guess this counts....
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? I can't draw the line between "serious"
MISSED SOMEONE? Yeah. Why not.
HUGGED SOMEONE? Yep. As a joke. Then someone hugged me.
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? Nope.
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? Friend?
Name 5 bands you listen to: Minibosses, Radiohead, Smashing pumpkins, Run DMC, PuffyAmiYumi (Like I'd really know this...)
Name 7 things you hate:
Crowds of people, cleaning up after kids movies, being me, being forced to sleep early, homework, caring too much, feeling like crap.
Would You Ever~
1. Eat a bug? nah
2. Bungee jump? nah
3. Hang glide? why not.
4. Kill someone? Nah. (Yeah. We all know you were thinking I'd say yes)
6. Kiss someone of the same sex? For money... anything.
7. Have sex with someone of the same sex? ^^^
8. Parachute from a plane? I'd probably not want to rip the cord.... and then get the damn plane company in alot of shit. Blah.
9. Walk on hot coals? Why not.
10. Go out with someone for their looks? I can't stand alot of people... Even if they're... pretty.
11. For their reputation? Eww.
12. Be a vegetarian? Fuck no. Meat forever.
13. Wear plaid with stripes? Uh.. is that a bad thing?
14. IM a stranger: Nope.
15. Sing karaoke? I'm asian. Let's leave it to that.
16. Get drunk off your ass? Of course.
17. Shoplift? Why not.
18. Run a red light? Probably will anyway.
19. Star in a porn video? YES!
20. Dye your hair blue? Why not?
21. Be on Survivor? Ewwwwww.
22. Wear makeup in public? Nah... Well, if it was a dare
23. NOT wear makeup in public? That's everyday.
24. Cheat on a test? Of course!
25. Make someone cry? Probably wouldn't want to....
26. Call your math teacher a motherfucker? YES!
27. Kick a baby? Define baby. Then tell me if it's alive or not.
28. Date someone more than ten years older than you? Dating....? (Confused stare)
29. Cuss out a priest? Sure!
30. Take a job as a janitor? I'm pretty damned close right now.
32. Stay up all through the night? And watch the stars and the sunrise... awwwwwwww.
33. Drink straight espresso? Is that a bad thing? (Dunno, why not)
P.S. I can't seem to find the letter in my mail that lets me validate this blurty thingy. So if this dies in a week.... oh well. Current Mood: blahCurrent Music: Particle man - They Might be Giants (blame pnut and erin.)