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craig and i went to the montrose public library today and i saw this guy sitting at one of the computers... viewing porn and masturbating. i was too chicken to tell the librarian myself, so craig went downstairs and did it himself. however, he didnt mention that the guy was masturbating. he really should have done so, because can't you get arrested for things like that? i really should have done something instead of just standing in an aisle. uck. and it smelled like stuff also. nasty.
i quit foley's today. i just had to sign a paper and put a short explanation of why i decided to quit. meh.
heh, when i walked into the human resources office, i saw 3 people sitting down with applications in their laps, it was cute.
i also filled out a time off request for urbn for my finals. bleeeh.
so... i'm supposed to call andrew tomorrow and i'm scared. i sort of talked to leonard about it. he said he felt the same way, about not knowing when to call and when not to. oy.
jarrod sent me some frenchy 'eurotrash' songs. Nuit Blanche, Ne Touche Pas, et Je Ne Veux Pas by Vive la Fete.
and i changed my calendar today. i love my calendar sooo much. it's black and white photography of Berlin. it's also about 3x4 feet.. HUGE.
hm.. i got home today at about 3.45 and slept until 6 something. so now it's 3.30am and i am still awake. ..but not for long.
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| aurora goddess sparkle |
[01 Dec 2003|01:25am] |
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i called john today [er.. he later returned my call]. we havent spoken on the phone in a month and a half[?] it was nice.. but left me with a strange feeling. i was in the middle of watching girl, interrupted when he called. he did mention his girlfriend anna and that he sort of felt like he could never be my boyfriend again because of what happened in spring. just to let you know, several minutes before this he told me i was one of his best friends ever. one of two people. sure it makes me feel great that i'm one of his best friends, i still feel a little well, i'm not sure how i feel. .. that he doesn't want to be my boyfriend. not that i want him to, because i don't.
isn't that odd? i don't want to be in a relationship with him, but it still sort of hurts to hear it from him. perhaps it's because we were together for so long and we gave so much to each other [emotionally.] i mean... i have other interests and such and.. well. hm.
i guess i'm feeling a little down right now. i have all this homework shit to do, a group project that's falling apart, i'm spending too much time at urban outfitters, i feel lonely. i know i feel blessed to have food every day and a roof over my head, no war torn areas, but you can't help feeling like this sometimes.
maybe i just need a hug. heh... but not from someone creepy. ...maybe a tall skinny boy with brown hair.. hem.
this should be my mantra: 'all is full of love.' that's just beautiful, isn't it? bjork .. i love her. er... i love her music, i love her lyrics, i love her voice.
i should really get to bed.
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[30 Nov 2003|02:21am] |
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i watched fargo tonight. i'd seen bits and pieces before... but never the whole thing. i HAD wanted to watch rushmore but when i got home and opened the vhs thing, i found the 'curly top' tape instead. so i went back and found out they didnt have any more copies of rushmore. how sad. so i got fargo instead. it's a good movie, yeah, but it makes me sick.. how people can treat each other. uck.
i really want to um steal the kids. they are too cute for their own good. i feel kind of bad because i'm 20 and they're .. younger. but, they are over 18, so it's ok. yes.
speaking of adorable boys.. i'm listening to this radioshow thing of sondre lerche. some friendster kid sent me a link. he is also too cute for his own good.
i bought the most.. yes, adorable shoes today. they're ballet inspired and i love them. i'll post a picture when i have time to do so.
i saw alexis bledel today and her brother eric [at urban outfitters]. when eric passed me, i asked him if he remembered me [he did.] so.. that was about it, until they left. eric waved goodbye to me and his sister had this funny look on her face.. like maybe she was thinking it odd that someone would come up and say hello to her brother, but not her. i was trying to make my coworkers jealous. jade: "he seems like a shy, quiet guy" moi: "well, yeah in school he sort of was, but i hung out with him a little out side of school. you know.." jade: "did you bring him out of his shell?" moi: "haha.. no." i wanted to add "i wish" but i didnt.. oh lordy. jade added this tone to the way she asked her question.. making it sort of an innuendo. it was funny.
i'm never going to finish all of the homework i never did! i work 1-closing tomorrow. it sucks! i better not be stuck in the fitting room again. the past two days, they had me scheduled for nearly the entire shift! its usually just an hour or two. bleh.
le sigh.
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[29 Nov 2003|12:02am] |
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this week, i made plans with both elisabeth and craig to hang out on friday. so i got off work and called both of them and both cancelled. it's understandable.. no hard feelings. however, since i wanted to go out.. i had to find SOMEone to do something with. i called jared and jarrod. neither picked up their phones. i was at home and wondering what to do. and this guy IMs me. he's from north carolina and in town for thanksgiving. he got my screen name from MOC and wanted to know what there was to do in htown. i suggested agora and told him how to get there. ..eventually we made plans to meet there! yeah i know. meeting a boy from the internet. DODGY. well.. he called me later and said he couldn't get the bus there after a certain time.
i was already at borders @ kirby, so i decided to just hang out somewhere, like soundwaves. i get to the parking lot and see this lanky kid get out of a mustang. i thought, 'hmm maybe that's andrew and jared.. no.. it can't be. so i just went on in. i was looking at a bis record when ANDREW came up to me and asked what i was doing there. ah. so.. to make things short, we spent the evening together. that is, andrew, his friend matt, and myself. we went back to borders, then to brasil. it was nice. those kids are so damn adorable! it was nice hanging out with andrew for a change. it's usually just been jared by himself.
rawr. andrew and jared are so cute. ..like buttons! tall skinny buttons. andrew and i exchanged numbers. i have no idea why we've never done this before. i had jared's number but not andrew's. no matter, i have it now. eeeeeee.
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[26 Nov 2003|01:21am] |
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i NEED a new hair style. i've been trolling madradhair.com for help. but i've only gotten a little further along. i'm thinking i might want little barely bangs. or the sweepy ones. ugh.
i work 3- closing tomorrow. it sucks.
i was really bitchy to stuart today because he was annoying me. we were supposed to be working on our project and whenever i tried to make some headway, he'd ask me a dumb question or say something stupid. "Do you think that guy's gay?" i can't even remember what else he said. and he didn't trust that the website i found about the International Narcotics Control Board was important or reliable.. just because he had never heard of it. NEVER do projects with stoners. it's bad news, i swear.
anyhoo, so i was bitchy towards him and said i wanted to go upstairs and sleep before i went to work. the dumb boy followed me up and sat next to me. i couldnt wait for him to leave, but it took him a freaking hour to do so. why did he stay up there? He really bothers me sometimes. i can only handle so much stuart.
there's a new boy at work. i was in the parking garage putting on some lipstick when he pulled in near me, hit the truck in front of him and then proceded to back out and park elsewhere [next to me.] i gave him a look.. haha. i had a feeling that he worked at urban and i was right. he's cute you know.. but meh.
i HAVE to do something grand this weekend! yes yes yes.
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| i wanna tear you apart |
[23 Nov 2003|01:07am] |
today's shift went by so quickly! i suppose because the place was hella busy. i saw craig's sister and this kid brandon. in addition to stthomas kids.
i'm scheduled to work 34 hours this week! that's almost a full time load. yikes. at least my first pay check should be EXCELLENT. as of today, before taxes i've made $105. including next week, before taxes: $343. yowza. i'm banking. my mother is concerned that it will interfere with my school work. i think it will just interfere with my naptime. heh..
i really want to make a hot hot dance tape with le tigre, mates of state, the rapture, and maybe even jet on it. we'll see. i started making it a while ago but i never finished. now i know some more songs to add, so its exciting.
all today i was thinking about piercings. i want a libret [close to my lip so i could put a lip ring in if i wanted] and an industrial. industrial is where the bar goes across your ear. there's a picture at the end of this post. i was looking on this body mod website and i started feeling sqeamish about it all. i mean.. i nearly pass out when i have blood drawn. and i passed out when my mom was repiercing my ear hole in 8th grade. [it had pretty much closed up] mind you, all i did was slump down. i was only out for a second. but i got all clammy beforehand and it did not feel good.
anyhoo, so i am scared that my body will go into minishock like it does sometimes. i guess if i do get stuff done, i will have to have a lot of caffeine and sugar beforehand, since that seems to help a lot.
( the earrrr )
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[22 Nov 2003|02:25pm] |
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Skullening and Sondre Lerche [at the same time!] |
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i went to the shadwell wake last night. stuart called and asked if i could pick him up, so i did. i felt kind of weird around stuart. i am NOT wanting him to like me. uck. craig was talking to michaela and heather the whole time so i hung around with stuart, mars, her friend ike, and this girl kelly. craig didn't even participate in the procession around the mall.. and this was the thing he was 'hyping' for the past two weeks. whatever. we had spoken earlier in the day about going somewhere after the wake, but he didnt even talk to me during the thing. loser.
so, afterwards, stuart, mars, ike and myself went to SuperHappyFunLand and listened to jazzy jammy cover songs. it was like one long song.. it had covers of Outkast, Zelda, Sesame Street, Nirvana, Electric Avenue?, Justin Timberlake's Cry me a river.. It was crazy. What sucked was that it was 12am, we were sitting on a church pew, there was this hypnotizing light on the wall.. and we were all dozing off. Avant-Jazz stuff always makes me fall asleep. HYPNOSIS!
OH, and i wonder how Craig got home last night. I think I was supposed to be his ride.. but I guess he was too busy being cool or something.
I go to work in an hour. I think yesterday was my last at Foley's. alls i have to do now is quit. I need cooler threads to work at Urban.. i think.
I'm making a mix cd [mostly because i have no blank tapes?]. I was going to give it to Craig but... I don't know. I guess I will. He still has part2 of my birthday present to give me. hm.
John really wants me to visit him. I can't around thanksgiving. I guess I'll go in December. I hope he's staying in San Antonio during that time.. and perhaps I can make a road trip out of it? If I could, then whoever I go with.. we could visit Leonard also. That would be hot. ok... Gotta resume getting dressed.
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[21 Nov 2003|01:54am] |
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ok.. i've been wanting to cut up a shirt for a long time. i finally decided to do it. i like the results and i tried to take pictures of it. however, ive had too much caffeine tonight, so i'm a bit shaky and thus the pictures are blurry. here are the better ones.
( the other one... )
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[21 Nov 2003|12:11am] |
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so. today i am twenty years of age. i accidentally slept in again and missed my only class of the day. however i went to school because stuart and rachel and i had to discuss our international studies project. [we're doing it on drug trafficking.]
craig gave me a mixtape and a page from rolling stone that has an article written by karen O about BJORK and MISSY. the picture of bjork is soo hot. stuart also gave me a mixtape and a card with a fake dollar bill in it. this was one of the dollar bills they were passing out at the CAFTA protest. it's a really good graphic.
i've listened to stuart's tape most of the way and i'm currently listening to craig's tape. craig said that he had more to give me, but it wasn't ready yet. i am intrigued.. and i talked to adam today; he said he drop a present by my house on saturday. awww. i told him he didn't have to give me anything..
stuart and craig put the same yyys song on their tapes. the song which happens to be my favorite: art star.
shadwell wake tomorrow! seems like it will be fun: carrying a coffin around the academic mall and reciting bad poetry. and i finally dropped the dcfc/yyys photos off at the wallyverts. we hopes they are NICEEE. i want to see katie's photosss.
wheeeee.
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