sad little emo girl. . .'s Blurty

im sorry im such a mess..that i never loved you back..
ohhhhhhh....i wish it was night time oh so bad!!! i wanna go out side.and sit on my roof..and look at the stars or something..or i want to be in the water...i just had this weird feeling come over me..like...i ono..i want to go to space..so bad..or..the ocean...either one..doesnt matter wich..i miss going to the ocean.. i love it there..i havent been in forever..but..oh well..i can maybe convince my parents to go..only for a day or two. well..my day was good..that test we took was the easiest thing i have ever taken in my life..more or less..lol. i cant find my boots..grrr..its like they just..grew brains and stuff..and walked away..after i finished the test..i went to sleep..and i had a dream! okay..i was walking down the hall..and all of a sudden..my legs wouldnt hold me up. it was scary.because i was just getting shorter..and when i finally got back up..i would just go back down..and i had a couple of other little dreams..but..thats the only one i really remember all that much. one of the other ones was about the ocean..and the other one was about the stars and space..i liked em..they were nice. i am in a weird mood..i dont really know how to describe it. i bet i wont sleep AT ALL tonight..i just..i dont know. i just feel like its just not gonna work tonight. but..last night..when i fianlly got to sleep. i had a bad/sad dream. my grandpa died..wich did something to my grandma..then my dad died..it was SOOOO sad... well...i'll write back more later.
-hilary

Current Mood: peaceful
Current Music: dashboard confessioanl (like always :D)