||Silke Bischoff - Marry Me
We've gone through so many trials and tribulations in the past few months. We've also experienced new emotions, grown, refound our innocence, became who we truly are. Our love has grown exponentially. Our bond strengthens with every passing minute.
My feelings for you have been true from the start. Yet, they've grown...breaking barriers in me that I never knew existed. In the time that I've known you I've learned to love, to trust, to hope, and to live. All of these things havee flooded out of me and into my world. I know compassion and selflessness now. I know now that I'm not supposed to do all of this (growing, living, striving for comfortability or success) on my own. Nor am I to do these things with anyone else. You are the only person I'm to find happiness in...and with.
Every minute of every day, I long for your touch. I long for your warmth against me as we lie there on our bed...the feeling of your hand in mine, the softness of your fingers between my fingers. I need to be able to look into your eyes, to feel the rise and fall of your chest as we embrace. I need to feel your heartbeat as we fall asleep. I need to feel you stirring as I wake up in the morning. I need to feel the soft touch of your breath on my neck as you whisper, "I love you." I need to know all of these things. I need you.
I hurt every second you're not here. I can feel my heart crying out for you with each beat. Thinking about you drives me to tears, sometimes...not out of sadness, but out of emotional outpour. I never know what to do or say...without you here I'm lost.
You truly are everything to me.
This letter isn't written to pressure you, nor is it meant to push. It is meant to be an understanding...something for you to read and cherish. This is me...my feelings, my emotions, my thoughts. This isn't meant to upset you or anger you. This is simply a testament of my love for you.
I know one day we'll be together...and 'til then I'll live through each passing day, knowing that you're hear, in my heart.
I want you to know that I'm there with you, too.
I sit in this restroom and I daydream. I dream of coming home to you...your warmth, your embrace. I dream of a life in which we're together completely.
I miss you so damn much right now...
I know that when I get home, you might be online, or you might not be home yet. I also know that, when I get home, my apartment will feel cold, no matter how warm it is. I know that our rom will feel vacant without your presence. I know I'll still miss you, even when we're on the phone. I always miss you.
What it all boils down to is that nothing matters to me anymore except for you. I just want to be with you. I don't care where we are. If you decide you don't want to leave there, then I'll come to you.
You're the most important person in my life. Everyone, and everything, else is circumstantial. Without you, I am nothing. I truly realize this now, and I'll do everything in my power to make sure I never feel that emptiness again. You treat me better than anyone has ever treated me, and I intend to show that back to you. I want to make you the happiest woman on Earth. This is a goal I'll not only accomplish, but will continue to accomplish everyday from now on.
I love you more than life itself, and I find that my patience knows no bounds with you. No matter what, I'll never leave your side.
I am yours, forever and beyond...
I hope that this letter gives you hope, takes away some fears, and helps you to fully understand how I feel.
You truly are the most beautiful being I've ever known.
I love you.
PS - It's approximately 9:20pm. I can feel you with me right now. My left hand is warm...the same feeling I get every time you take my hand in yours. I can feel the warmth climb up my arm, soothing the muscles, taking away my dismay.
I can feel you sitting in my lap...resting your head on my chest, wrapping my arms tighter around you for warmth and support. I can hear you tell me that you love me...your voice calming and pure, washing away my sadness. The time is 9:24pm.
You have no idea how happy you've made me. I smile more now. I laugh. I feel in a meaningful way. My emotions are no longer confined. My reactions are no longer cosmetic, or for a social purpose. I can always feel you in my heart...your spirit combining with mine to create one perfect being that resides in two bodies.
I know I say this a lot, and I can only hope you never tire of hearing it...
I love you...
With all of me...
And beyond the planes in which we reside.
I'll never leave.
I'll never stray.
I'll do anything for you...
And even more beyond that.
All I want to do is be with you.
That's my statement of intent, and the goal I'm trying to acheive.
The when and where is up to you.
I can wait for you.
I have been my whole life.