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[08 Mar 2003|05:25am] |
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I Drove All Night: Celine Dion |
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*winces as the words echo through his brain* "You're great in bed but you're no longer a conquest."
*sighs deeply, feeling his heart pounding in his chest* It was all a fucking game. He played me for a fool and I lost.
Damn it, this hurts. I sick of getting hurt. I'm sick of it. It's my fault really. I was the one who *stops himself before he says something he'll regret* I was the one.
*looks at the vase of flowers from Dan sitting on the nightstand, picks it up and flings it at the wall, satisfied when the glass shatters everywhere and the flowers fall to the floor* I refuse to clean that up.
*picks up his cellphone, and begins pacing in the middle of the room.*
* dials a familar number and waits for him to answer. When he hears someone say hello he just starts talking*
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It's Erik. Don't hang up... I know I don't deserve it but...I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Look, let me come to the hotel. Please? Seriously? I'll be there in 15 minutes."
*hangs up the phone* I can fix this.
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[08 Mar 2003|11:04pm] |
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Michelle Branch: All You Wanted |
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*runs his fingers over his heart, letting the tears run down his face* If only Britney was here right this second.
I went to make it all okay. To fix this mess. To be with Jacob, and only Jacob, and get over Dan. No *shakes his head violently* No. Jacob, won't do it. He let me kiss him, tell him I'm sorry, and then he told me there's no way we'll be together again and kicked me out.
*pulls the covers over his head to muffle his sobs* Dan left me too. I sacrificed all the things I had with Jacob, all the things I've always wanted for him, and he left me.
*winces remembering the way Dan left, and how Jacob kicked him out* I don't have anything now. Anything at all.
*flings the covers back, gets up and locks the door* If Jacob and Ashley can do it, so can I.
Just stay out of my life.
My number one,there could never be no one like you
How come I feel this way about
My number two,never tried to tell me what to say or do
I'm so in love with two
If I only could decide
But I can't make up my mind
I'm breakin' all my rules because of you
You can tell me it's not right
And it tears me up inside
But the problem is I'm so in love with two
My number one,you're give me everything I need
But some things still are better with
My number two,he's the one that really makes me feel so good
I'm so in love with two
God send me an angel
From the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
'Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes
God help me some how.
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