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[24 Feb 2003|03:08am] |
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You Make Me Wanna: Usher |
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*sighs and stares at the ceiling of Jacobs room*
I don't know what I'm doing. I'm normally this person who does their best to keep everyone else happy. And now *sighs deeply, yanking the covers up over his head* Well now, I'm doing stupid things to mess up something perfect. Like I won't let myself be happy.
He loves me. My boyfriend loves me. Jake said that last night. When he pulled me close and just held me. Being in Jacob's arms *smiles brightly* is perfect. It's like he subconsiously protects you and takes care of you.
And then there's Dan. *runs thumb over his bottom lip* And then there's Dan.
*rolls over onto his side, closes eyes desperate to fall asleep*
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[24 Feb 2003|11:20am] |
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The new Fuel song |
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Fuck.
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[24 Feb 2003|08:00pm] |
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When I Get You Alone: Thicke |
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The sad thing is he did it on purpose *nods* That's the main point I should make. We are both well aware of what we are doing to each other. That's why I make myself mad. Because I let that hurt me. *shrugs and sighs loudly* At least with him gone I can be with my boyfriend COMPLETELY ALONE.
I'm kind of scared of this and anticapating it at the same time. All my inhibitions are tossed aside. This is Jacob. My Jacob. I'm ready. God help me, I'm ready.
*runs his fingers across his heart, closes his eyes and gives her a soft smile she can't see* One last thing. Some people care too much. I think it's called love.
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