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Thursday, January 8, 2004
Friday, December 19, 2003
12:42AM - bleh
What is it about news? Information. Why do we crave it? What does it fill inside of us? Some people, such as myself are addicted to it. I can't live without it, when i wake up i get information Bed -> computer...for about 3-4 hours straight on mondays thru thursday, then on friday usually 5 hours. I'd then goto class, i went to most class except genetics, which i got a C in, what a fucking surprise, i bet i would have found it so god damn interesting but now i wasted my parents money, i am done with that shit. afternoon i would fuck around for 3-5 hours a night. I didn't do anything but fuck around on the computer. I hate to say it but it is linux's fault, but i feel as though i have gained enough know how to put it down for a little. i have been obsessing over it. i must have recompiled my kernel 20-30 times in the past two weeks [insert nerdy chuckle], what i would consider graduation. it took me a full semester of working 6-9 hours a day 5 days a week to learn linux to a non-newbie stance. i acheived that and mastry of pH. I Didn't do much of any homework on many weekends and when I did some it was less than 3 days prior to due date before i would start working on it thus saying i'll work on it all day and not working until late as shit. Today I spent a total of 4 hours on my final. If i had done 1 hour the day i got the assignment (2 weeks ago) then 1 hour a week later i would have been finished today but instead i have to wake up and do it tomorrow. a 5 page paper and a 1 page paper. it is due by 3pm. why did i wait so long? i think i don't know how to use my brain chemistry correctly. like the hardware, i am running windows upstairs. i need to sit down and learn how to learn with my hardware. over winter i think i am going to work everyday, how cool would that be? so what am i going to do? pretend like i am going to do work again and wait till the last minute again. i need some type of force to make me work each day, like i need to gain motivation. any ideas? if you have stuck in this long in reading tell me what works for you
Current mood: 
high
Tuesday, December 2, 2003
11:00AM - Grades...meh
I got my Biochem test back today and I got a fucking B. Get the fuck out of here, I know the 10 points I missed so well but just didn't state it clear enough on the test! I am annoyed but whatever I don't mind B's they are just stupid. Anyway can get a B, to get an A takes determination and actual work habbits which I still do not have.
I am eatin' lunch with CD Mote today. I am gonna roll up to Adele's in my nasty sandles, dirty pants and my rag dead shirt and be like, YO! CD, WHAT'S UP FO' SHIZZLE. Psyche, well, maybe a little.
I can't belive the semester is pretty much over. It flew by and I can't wait to be able to goto the same school as teh Der! I have to help her find some houseing first though.
Check out last nights setlist from the Albany Phish show. Be prepared to kill yourself for not going.
Current mood: 
okay
Current music: The Grateful Dead - 1973.06.30 - Sugar Magnolia
Monday, December 1, 2003
9:59AM - Blurty is going out of style...
As for now you can already tell that Blurty is fading out of style for me which means most people won't read this post, but that's fine by me. So let's start off from where I left off. I finished my phil paper and got tickets to philly.
Nothing really happened since then except that I went to see Dark Star two nights last week and Phish two nights this past weekend. It was a great way to get ready for finals but also bad because now I don't want to study. I really don't have a choice though, I need to pass all my classes!
Today starts "buckle down" for finals. I am gonna write out a 3 week plan and hopefully keep to it. I thinking I may just make this plan a procrastinator plan. Like, only pencil in working on like the last days possible this way I'll actually keep to it! God I am crap shit.
Time to make this plan and also to eat. OH! I figured out a really cool feature with AIM which you all probably know and are going to be like "Duh Edd what are you smoking"...pot...you take someones phone number and put a +1 in front of it as the person you are instant messaging then the IM goes to them as a text message. As long as this person can get SMS messages they will automatically get these, and they can reply to your IM windows! I think this was so cool!
eg. +13015555555
Current mood: 
mellow
Current music: Velvet Underground - Rock and Roll
Monday, November 17, 2003
10:49AM - PHISSSSSSSSSSSSSHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
w00t w00t!!! I got tickets this morning to Philly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And I got .htaccess to work!!!
And I finished my PHIL paper!!!
Everyhting's comming up Milhouse!
Current mood: 
bouncy
Current music: Phish - 94.12.31 - Mike's Song > Buffalo Bill > Mike's Song
6:35AM - Change in me
I realized, again, that i give my two cents too often. I believe that my way of doing things is the best way reguardless. This is a closed minded way of existing and I am changing that as of today. From now on, unless it is life and death, i will not be like "no, this is how you do it". I don't want to be this way, i don't like it, i will stop it.
I finished my phil paper, finally. It feels good. We are so close to being done with the semester! I am looking at my possible grades and this is how it pans out. I am going to get an A in my EDUC388 class and an A in my EDCI428. I have an 83 in PHIL320 so unless I get a 100 on this paper, which is not likely. I hope to get a B but it all depends on this paper. I feel as though I did a good job but you never know. As for BCHM461 I can pull of an A if I get a 95 on this thursdays test and a 95 on the final. Who knows, I find this stuff so interesting and I always take great notes. I will try. As for BSCI222, if I get a 93 on the final I will pull off a B in the class. This is a shame but I just don't want to fail.
So worst case scenario is EDUC388/EDCI428 - A, PHIL320 - C, BCHM461 - B, BSCI222 - C, which is a 2.78.
Best case scenario is A,B,A,B - which would be a 3.0.
I have a feeling i am going to be getting a 2.78 which is bleh. I have a 3.08 right now and have increased my GPA each semester, this will be the first I went below my privious semester. Oh well, I am going to bring it back up before I graduate.
Ok, I have to do work for EDUC. Have a great day out there in internet wonderland.
Also, check out http://www.eddmergency.net - It is new and improved!
Current music: Lynyrd Skynyrd - Tuesday's Gone
Thursday, November 13, 2003
7:46AM - Oh yea
Homer: There are three ways to do something, the right way, the wrong way, and the max power way!
Bart: Isn't the max power way just the wrong way?
Homer: Yes, but FASTER!
7:41AM - Another post
Last night in the DC chat room it was like old times. It is pretty funny how me and my friends are so fucking gross. We talk about things like the Cleveland Cement Truck and the St. Louis Humidifer and things that someone did to Mrs. Farber's ponch. So I started telling people about this stuff and a few of them I could tell were pretty well versed in the shock value comedy. It was great, I was cracking up. I am glad there are at least some people left who know good humor, not the ice cream. THis one guy was getting so offended, it was great!
I am sick of school.
Current mood: 
pleased
Current music: The Grateful Dead - 1979.11.09 - U.S. Blues
Wednesday, November 12, 2003
6:50AM - Drugs
fucking shit...i HATE this website www.anti-drug.com. I don't do drugs anymore and I am glad but you know something? Lying and giving false information will only make kids want to do drugs more. Our fucking government is so fucking wrong about the whole drug war.
"Why don't we tell them drugs lead to violence." If drugs were not illegal there would be no black market -> no violence. SHUT THE FUCK UP! You are the reason drugs are bad, not the drugs themselves, why don't you fucking teach your citizens about the real dangers instead of lying about them.
Fuck you.
Current mood: 
angry
Current music: no music
5:36AM - yea, so
I don't write here anymore. My fault, I have been up to my neck in work and also just really can't bring myself to write here anymore. Maybe this will change, I hope it does, this is fun, but for now do not hold your breathe for posts.
I am up this early so I can finish my phil paper. and...
I'm in love. :)
Current mood: happy
Current music: Pink Floyd - The Grand Vizier's Garden Party Entertainment
Monday, November 3, 2003
8:00PM - Computers, grrrr
I vow I have just fixed my last computer. I will NEVER fix another in my life unless I am dealing with installing linux on something over a 933MHz with 256MB of ram. Ugg, I am glad that I have come to this part of my life, the seperation from me and computer.
It hit me again today that I don't have to take another chemistry class...ever...again...droooool. I never thought this day would come. I remember sitting in high school chem with "rockshpal" and being like, I never want to take chem again. Stupid jared droped the class. We def. got drunk as shit on a monday night with my parents home instead of studying for a chem test we had the next morning, HA! Those days.
I am sitting here finishing my classes that I need to take. I am pretty much done. I know exactly what I need to take and it is not hard. This year is my last hard year, my senior year will be fun. I am taking virology, microbial genetics, origin of life in the universe and some sport class such as badmiton or racquetball.
Ok, time to make din din and, yea, do something i guess. Later
Current mood: satisfied
Current music: Bela Fleck and the Flecktones [02.06.06] Sherpa
7:50AM - Sorry folks...
Yea, so, I have been crap shit with this blurty stuff because I just don't care anymore. Hey, bite me, at least I'm being honest.
So, where to start, this weekend was cool, up at Frostburg for halloween. I am signing up for junior english over winterbreak up there and getting excited for it.
I register for classes on wendesday and can't wait for it! I actually get to take cool stuff after this semester.
I have my genetics test today which is gonna be rough, but whatever, i am going to do my best. I just wished my teacher was less of a cock sucker.
I downloaded like 20 live Bela Fleck shows off eTree.org. Come on, if you like music listen to the Flecktones, you won't be disapointed.
Darkstar Orchestra and Phish in a few weeks! I am gettin' a little excited. Also, today is day 63 of no tobacco. I have not smoked a jack or even taken a drag in 63 fucking days! w00t w00t
I lifted this quote from an old friends profile, I thought it was clever:
"here's to my college buds who'll do crazy shit with me everyday...and here's to my high school crew who made me that way"
Ok, i'm out, hopefull eddmergency will be up for real tonight but i cannot make any promises. later people.
Current mood: calm
Current music: Bela Fleck and the Flecktones [03.02.11] Puffy is Free
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
7:17AM - It's an Eddmergency!!!
Looks like the website is comming around! You can check it out at www.eddmergency.net and I am sorry for how long this took. Pictures will be added soon.
This coming weekend is going to be the shit! Halloween up at FSU with the Der and the guys. I will make sure to take pictures for you all out there in the internet wonderland.
Have a great day everybody and I will probably post tonight about the antics that my day contained.
Current mood: 
horny
Current music: Phish - 2000.07.08, Alpine Valley - My Soul
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
10:33PM - Should be sleeping...
So as you can tell I should be asleep but I just wanted to put a few things here. First being I hvae my big biochem test tomrorow which is gonna be tough but I am well studyed for it.
I also wanted to say something about race. Look, if you think I don't like you because of your race, fine, i don't like you because of your race. This is what i have realized makes me not like someone who is different from me. If they dislike me because they think this way, fine, fuck them. Why can't people just be cool?
I am going camping out in west virginia this weekend, I am oh so very excited. It is going to be sweet, it is me greyson steve and luke. The frostburg crew, I can't wait to be at FSU for intersession. Oh, that reminds me I bet the intersession booklet is out. I'll have to check it out some other time because I am beat and have to wake up early. Peace you all.
Also, I get to spend the night in frederick before leaving for frostburg friday afternoon. w00t!1! I am soooo excited to see monkey! Ok, for real, I am out.
Current mood: 
sleepy
Current music: Phish - Fee
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
11:30AM - Ok, ok, ok
FINE! I will write here today. But I have been busy and feeling like poo today. I just wanted to say that my life is coming together right now and I am getting a kick out of it. Who thought that this oversized p*****d would start to enjoy exercise, eating healthy, lose the inclination for putting chemicals into my body, and have a wonderful girlfriend! Well, I am just going with the flow and I am loving it. Thinks are becoming clearer and clearer everyday.
In the class that I teach here the guy I teach with uses AIM, he is about 30, and that is how we discuss the class and generally any other questions. I am going to say this now, when my generation gets into the business world AIM at the workplace will become HUGE.
Anyway, I need to start studying for Biochem and yadda. I am going camping this weekend HOLLER. And I get to see the der thursday night! w00t. Ok, I'm out, I'll get back into the swing of things here soon enough. PEACE
Current mood: optimistic
Current music: The Beatles - Martha My Dear
Wednesday, October 15, 2003
7:28AM - Yippie
I have to start my genetics homework soon so this post can't be too long.
I installed FreeBSD on my webserver last night and I must say I am very impressed with the brevity of the install. It is so clean and concise it just makes me all goofy inside. I am going to get apache installed today and _maybe_ by tonight get eddmergency back up! That would be H O T
I downloaded the lemonwheel, both nights, yesturday in SHN and let me tell you, the setlist is a little thick. Ok, I have to get to work! But before I leave I wanted to say that I miss you.
Current mood: excited
Current music: Phish - Lemonwheel - Beauty of My Dreams
Tuesday, October 14, 2003
8:06AM - Paintball
I used to love to play paintball and in a way I miss it. But I have a fear that has only gotten worse over the years. I have a fear of anything that is pressurized past a few hundred psi. Most people don't even thing about it with a blow off disk on the tank and whatnot. But if someone fucked with it or something you could really hurt someone with a 4500psi nitro tank. Yipes! I get the heebie jeebies just thinking about that high of a psi. When I got my first nitro tank filled and I heard them fill it up I honestly turned my body around incase it blew up! I wouldn't mind using a gun with CO2 but I just don't want to be dealing with the whole thing right now.
I am selling my whole paintball setup on ebay right now. I hope I get get some money for it since. I am selling my Jensen 500 Watt amp and it is going for a pretty penny right now which is a nice surprise.
Current mood: 
anxious
Current music: The Beatles - Fool on the Hill
Monday, October 13, 2003
7:48AM - Dreams
So, for the first time in my life I have remembered a dream in which I flew. It was amazing! I was flying over a lake that was crystal clear. It felt so real and so good.
I am up this early to finish my phil paper. I hate the situation I have put myself in. Starting this week, like I said in blog prior, the computer goes off. This I belive will help me get work done like I know I can do it.
I hate being away from you.
Current mood: sleepy
Current music: Talking Heads - Crosseyed and Painless
Sunday, October 12, 2003
11:58AM - Life, my world, and how to get through it in one piece...
I realized a few things about myself on friday of last week. I have a serious addiction. This addiction has been harder to kick than any chemical I have used, more than any food I used to eat, more than any laziness I used to have.
The addiction is the internet.
I am serious, I have a real serious problem. I will sit around for _hours_ checking away messages, chatting on DC, reading slashdot, checking email. I really can't stop. I don't know what to do and it is this addiction that is killing my grades. I quit everything other addiction 6 weeks ago and havn't looked back. What I am realizing is that those didn't keep me from school only my computer and the internet do.
I need some serious help. I am going to try on my own this week. If I can't get away from this shit I am going to take my fucking computer home. I need a drastic change if I am to make it through college in one piece.
Current mood: 
disappointed
Current music: The Grateful Dead-[73.12.02, Boston, MA]-Playin' in the Band
Friday, October 10, 2003
8:13AM - Productivity
Today is productivity city! I have to crank out a lot of my phil paper, study and take my genetics exam at 3pm, eat, AND shower! gosh, sometimes life asks too much of me.
I sold my WD1600JBRTL this morning! w00t w00t I am going to sell all my paintball equipment very soon. I hope to get at least 250- for it.
I think breakfast will entail penut butter in some fasion...anyway, i gotta get started! oh, btw, when a girl says "i want to look at computers" i get very VERY excited! hah, see yas.
Current mood: 
nerdy
Current music: Benny Goodman - Careless Love
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