| Backup Scholarship Work - Past Accomplishments | ||||
| 01:38pm 28/06/2003 | ||||
Soccer 1991 - Speedy Sweeties – Fullback 1993 – Fireballs 1994 – Red Lightening 1995 – Vacaville Vipers Swim Team 1996 – Vacaville Swim Club 1997 – Vacaville Swim Club 1998 – Vacaville Swim Club 1999 – Vacaville Swim Club Volleyball 1996 Notre Dame School 1997 Notre Dame School 1998 Notre Dame School Basketball 1996 Notre Dame School 1997 Notre Dame School 1998 Notre Dame School Cheerleading 1998 Notre Dame School 1999 Notre Dame School Drill Team 2000-2001 Will C. Wood High School Academic Awards 1992 – PTA Reflections Contest – “Exploring New Beginnings When I’m Five” 1993 – PTA Reflections Contest – “If I Could Give the World a Gift” 1993 – Perfect Speller Award 1994 – Alamo School Writing Award – 3rd Place 1994- Perfect Speller Award 1995 – Alamo School Writing Award –2nd Place 1994 - PTA Reflections Contest – “Dare To Discover” 1995 – Notre Dame Honor Roll – First Honors 1996 – Notre Dame Honor Roll – First Honors 1996 – Notre Dame Honor Roll – First Honors 1996 – Notre Dame Honor Roll – First Honors 1996 – Vacaville Science Fair – Special Achievement Award 1995 – Student of the Month – Notre Dame School 1996 – Notre Dame Honor Roll – Second Honors 1997- Notre Dame Honor Roll – Second Honors 1997 – Notre Dame Honor Roll – Second Honors 1997 – Notre Dame Honor Roll – First Honors 1997 – Participant in 1997 National Geography Bee 1996 – Reporter’s PAL Program – Honorable Mention 1997 – Notre Dame A.C.E Award 1997 – Notre Dame A.C.E. Award 1997 – Notre Dame Honor Roll – Second Honors 1998 – Notre Dame Honor Roll – Second Honors 1998 – Notre Dame Honor Roll – Second Honors 1998 – Safety Patrol Award 1998 – Reporter’s PAL Program – Participant 1998 – Outstanding Achievement in Physical Fitness Test 1998 – Vacaville Science Fair – Special Achievement Award 1999 – Justin-Siena High School Speech Contest Award – Dramatic Interpretation 1999 – Vacaville Science Fair – Special Achievement Award 1999 – Reporter’s PAL Program – Feature Writing – First Place 1999 – Notre Dame Honor Roll – Second Honors 1999 – Notre Dame Honor Roll – Second Honors 1999 – Notre Dame Honor Roll – Second Honors 1999 – Daughters of the American Revolution – American History Essay Contest Award 2000 – Reporter’s PAL Program – Feature Writing – Third Place 2000 – Justin-Siena High School Speech Contest Award – Dramatic Interpretation 2000 – President’s Education Awards Program – Outstanding Academic Achievement 2002 - Vacaville Cultural Diversity Faire – Essay Contest – Grand Prize 2002 - Vacaville Cultural Diversity Faire – Poetry Contest – Honorable Mention 2002 – Voices of Patriots – Poetry Contest – Second Place Community Service 1996-2002 - Altar Server 1998 – Safety Patrol Award 1999 – Marine World Camp – Volunteer Counselor in Training 1999 – S.H.A.R.E Program Volunteer 1999 – S.H.A.R.E Program Volunteer 2000 – Teen Violence Prevention Conference – Representative 2001-2002 - Will C. Wood Cabaret – Fundraiser for music and drama departments at Will C. Wood High School Leadership 1997-1998 – Notre Dame School - 6th Grade Class Representative 1999 – Marine World Camp – Volunteer Counselor in Training 1999-2000 – Notre Dame School - Commissioner of School Spirit 2003-2004 - Co-President of the Sylvan Choir Council – Will C. Wood High School 1997-1998 – Notre Dame School - 6th Grade Class Representative 1999 – Marine World Camp – Volunteer Counselor in Training Musical, Choral, and Theatrical Kids Are Music Christmas 1990 Christmas 1991 Christmas 1992 Christmas 1993 Christmas 1994 Christmas 1995 Christmas 1996 Christmas 1997 Christmas 1998 Christmas 1999 “Rock the Jukebox” “Valley of the Bones” “Disney I” “Disney II” “America Is” 1992 – “Fanta-Sea Christmas Pageant” – Sarah the Seahorse 1994- “Aesops Fables” – The Sun 1997-1999 – Piano 1998-1999 – Voice Lessons 2000-2001 - Cambium Choir – Soprano I and II 2001-2002 - Crescent Choir – Soprano I, Soprano II, Tenor I 2002-2004 - Sylvan Choir – Alto II, Alto III, Soprano I, Soprano II, Tenor I 2002-2004 - Sylvan Singers – Soprano I, Soprano II, Alto II 2000-2001 and 2003-2004 - Felyricani 2003-2004 - Klingenburg Male Chorus – Tenor I and Mascot 1999-2000 – “Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat” – Potiphar’s Wife 2000 – “Issues” – Various Roles 2000 – “Godspell” - Liz 2000-2001 – “Into the Woods” – Rapunzel 2001 – “The Outsiders” – Various Roles 2001 – “Little Women” - Marmee 2001 – ”Little Shop of Horrors” – Various Roles 2001-2002 – “Will C. Wood Cabaret” – Various Roles 2002 – “The Pirates of Penzance” – Pirate/Cop 2002 – “Annie” – Miss Hannigan 2002 – “Once On This Island” - Asaka 2002 – “I Never Saw Another Butterfly” – Irena Synkova 2002 – “Secrets” – Various Roles 2002 – “Antigone” - Ismene 2002 – “Madrigal Dinner” – Various Roles 2002-2003 – Company Performers – Various Roles 2002 – “The Nutcracker: A Magical Christmas Tale” - Claire 2003 – “Les Miserables” – Mme. Thenardier and Brujon 2002 - Vacaville Cultural Diversity Faire – Essay Contest – Grand Prize 2002 - Vacaville Cultural Diversity Faire – Poetry Contest – Honorable Mention 2002 – Voices of Patriots – Poetry Contest – Second Place 2003 – Canadian Tour 2003 - Most Valuable Award – Klingenburg Chorus 2003 – Most Dedicated Award – Klingenburg Chorus Okay. Done with that segment. Have to go to work now. Oh joy. |
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| 04:08pm 15/06/2003 | ||||
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| "Rallies suck...Rallies suck..." | ||||
| 09:17am 14/06/2003 | ||||
The Senior class of 2003 graduated last night. All my friends, gone. It's a devestating event, really. Beautiful, but devestating. They're no longer peers. We'll no longer see eye-to-eye. They'll no longer see me as one of them. Now, I'm just the odd one out. I watched them graduate with honors. These people that I have known forever...some for 14 years, some for 4 years, others for 4 months. I'll miss them all. I'll miss hearing their voices. I'll miss seeing their faces. I'll miss their hugs and their constructive criticism. I'll miss their jokes and their gossip and even their drama. I'll miss the good times, and the bad times. I'll miss all of that. I fear that as time goes by, they'll start procrastinating about answering letters. "Another day," they'll say. And the weeks will turn to months, and the months will turn to years. They'll forget the jokes. They'll forget the laughter and the tears. It will all mesh under two, meaningless, shallow words; high school. They cry because their leaving. I cry because they're leaving and I'll be left behind. It's so selfish. But I know what I will feel 20 years from now. I'll look back on these four years and miss my friends, and my enemies. I'll wish that I had watched him sleep in the corner. I'll wish that I had savoured each word of the songs were sung. I'll wish that I had paid attention to every minute detail of the joy we shared. I'll wish I had gone to that party. I'll wish I had comforted that person. It's not fucking fair! It's not fucking fair that we all have to grow up! That we are forced to leave behind the ones we love to be quote unquote successful! Change is awful. Change not only hurts you, but everyone around you. We are taunted with a few brief years of childhood, just for it to be snatched away from us. We're never warned of any of this! No one ever told me that it would be unacceptable to swing on swings anymore! No one ever told me that I couldn't make sandcastles at recess! I never got the memo stating that I couldn't play house and dress up! I can see where all my problems come from. It all stems from my fear of change. My fear of being alone. I'm still playing house and dress up. The Sims is a "grown up" version of house. That's all it is. Every time I put on a costume for a show, I stand in front of the mirror and twirl around just like when I was three. I can't let it go. I can't grow up. I just can't. Why am I being forced to? Why does this have to happen? It isn't fucking fair! |
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| 08:41am 14/06/2003 | ||||
The silver shines so much brighter than the gold. |
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| "Damn, I wish you was older, girl!" | ||||
| 09:12pm 08/06/2003 | ||||
Media triggering eating disorders isn't anything new, either. How is a woman supposed to feel good about eating when, according the "holy bible", the expulsion of the human race from paradise was caused by a woman eating an apple. I just thought of that. Deep, or pathetic? |
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| "Can we move your couch?" | ||||
| 09:20am 08/06/2003 | ||||
Woke up at 8. Why do I always do stuff like this? I have work in...less than three hours, damn it. I shall not eat for the rest of the day...nor shall I eat tomorrow...maybe not the next day either. Fasting from today till tomorrow shouldn't be too difficult. I work from 12 to 7 with nasty looking food. That sort of kills my appetite. I enjoy having a job. It gets me off my feet. Makes me feel responsible. I actually feel as if I'm worth something. Erin isn't going to be there tonight. She has weekends off. I hope they work me often. I love working. Time goes by pretty quickly too. And it doesn't get busy till around 5. That's only 2 hours of HARD ASS running around blindlessly. Everyone is so big there. I mean, the customers. It's a feeding ground for obesity. Kind of sad, depressing maybe. I miss BROKEN. I mean, the Invision Boards are okay, but it's not the same. It shows you how many members are really active though. At BROKEN we have 400+ members, but it seems as if only 80 or so are actually actively posting. I don't mind. TF is always crowded. It's so inpersonal. I feel at home with BROKEN. I feel like Tanya and Amber and Jolie are my three mommies, and then I have Nicolby and PixieLust and GirlKill as my sisters...it's just such a wonderful feeling. I haven't really been actively posting my weight issues in months, yet they still accept me. They don't judge on that. When I feel lonely and out of place in the outside world, I can just come to BROKEN and talk about bagels or something. It's just love. And no one pressures you to continue suffering from an eating disorder. Sigh. I love BROKEN. I should shower soon. I feel ick. My legs need a good clean shaving. My teeth need a good clean brushing...as does my hair. Despite all this, I often feel my most beautiful as soon as I get out of bed in the morning. Hm. |
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| "I had pizza. Cheese. I went into the freezer. Saw the dishwasher. Big. That was all." | ||||
| 09:11pm 05/06/2003 | ||||
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| "It's like 'RED ASPHALT' for your local Hometown Buffet!" | ||||
| 08:00pm 04/06/2003 | ||||
TO-DO LIST - Enroll in online Algebra II class - Pay Matt for "Aida" tickets - Buy new computer - Buy Sims Superstar - Buy Sims Delux - Lose 20 + pounds *no more excuses!* - Eat dinner at Hometown (salad/fruit only) - Play Sims and be happy once more! |
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| "Lesbian whale? What?" | ||||
| 08:08am 02/06/2003 | ||||
And...I lost 5 lbs. in water weight...in less than 24 hours. Odd day. I'm sleepy. |
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| "All those limes...and perfectly desolated..." | |||
| 07:36am 29/05/2003 | |||
| Sitting in my bathtub, depressed...when suddenly I realize I can recite all of the movie "Little Women" by memory. That's pretty pathetic. | |||
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| "It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood..." | ||||
| 08:11am 28/05/2003 | ||||
And there's pizza in my stomach. It feels gross. I want to exercise. |
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| "This little boy found an old edema bag and put rocks in it and went around hitting people with it." | |||
| 10:34am 27/05/2003 | |||
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| "Luuucy, you have some 'splainin to dooo!" | ||||
| 08:01am 22/05/2003 | ||||
Lucy was 5'7 and 129 lbs. Whoah. I'm so out of it and depressed. I painted a huge heart last night for an hour...but the edges curled. That upset me greatly. I have to get some new white paint, I guess. I miss Broken. Sigh. |
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| 10:01am 20/05/2003 | |||
| I suck. Worthless. Fucking. Ah. | |||
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| 10:02pm 15/05/2003 | |||
| UGLY FUCKING FAT GIRL! | |||
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| Stephanie's Rant... | |||
| 09:33pm 14/05/2003 | |||
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so Becca needs tampons and I bought the ones that I have with my own money, and I have very few left, so my mom's all, "Give her your tampons!" and I was like, "Fuck no!" And my mom goes, "Do it now or I wil kill you!" And she comes over to me and pulls my hair and starts threatening me. and so then my mom and my dad both left the house in a quest for "regular or super, I don't care" tampons for my sister. |
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| "I Love Lucy and She Loves Me..." | ||||
| 03:03pm 14/05/2003 | ||||
Co-President that is. I'm sharing...lol. |
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| 08:17am 03/05/2003 | ||||
Nervous? Yes. I had my nails done and my eyebrows waxed yesterday. The nails are making it very difficult to type. My hair appointment is at 11:30, still another three hours away. I should pick up the flower-thingie around 10. Take a shower at 9. I don't have to be at Caleb's till 6! How crazy is that? Pretty damn crazy. What am I supposed to do for those 5 hours? Sit and be pretty? Geez Louise! I'm not eating till I get to prom. I'll be eating a lot there, anyway. Hm. |
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I hope people at BROKEN don't hate me. What ligea said about accepting that not everyone will accept you makes sense. I just don't understand why people wouldn't give someone a chance because of a little label. It just doesn't make sense to me. I think everyone deserves a chance. When people don't like me, I have this crazy urge to fix what they don't like about me. There's nothing I can do about my age, though. I can change the date of my conception or birth. That's out of my control. I'm so...sad. I love BROKEN. It was the first place where I didn't feel stupid about not weighing 95 lbs. or suffering from binge-eating disorder. It was the first place where people just let loose and have fun instead of constantly saying "Oh God no! I've gained a half pound!" or flaming each other non-stop. I was so happy to find BROKEN. I didn't even lie about my age, as I had for TF and the other forums, because I wasn't afraid of the discrimination I had seen elsewhere. Everyone who wasn't of age would get flamed up the ass. At BROKEN, no one seemed to care. I guess not many people do care. I dunno. I'm so paranoid. I need to stop. Just breathe. ...so...."Rosemary's Baby" is a good movie. |
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