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its better not to say anything, and just move on from everything and everyone..... [25 Jun 2004|12:12pm]
[ mood | sad ]
[ music | Matchbook Romance : Promise ]

i'm listening to music....blasting matchbook romance right now....
i shouldn't have gone to skool today, well...seeing kevin was nice....cept those same feelings of insecurities i had be4 came bak....i told carlos bout this....i haven't been able to tell any1, cept tellin him was like mad easy, he has a lj but don't want me to read it............maybe its better if i don't.... i don't need to know about anymore peoples problems.

well i guess this what i'm gonna do write in here from now on....
ummm.....
i'm listening to....my eyes burn right now....talking to farid on aim....tellin him bout everything pretty much, i guess i trust him, hes never done anything to me be4 not to trust him.

now promise....
another thing that got me annoyed today was that well lindsey was there, all i wanted was a hi...n maybe a hug. grr, she was a good friend.....but then again maybe its good that all i got was a forced hi and then i neglected. i found out shes like a fuckin whore from every1....lindsey alwayz told me she was a virgin, i found out from kevin n kitty that she wasn't....kitty told me alot more....nasty bitch....

::sigh::
i'm goin to pr in less than a week,
today is the day my parents r gonna decide if they want to sell the house or not....
my parents are so fuckin confused, it pisses me off....
i'm still not sure how long i want to stay in pr for...but melissa n carlos got so depressed like half an hour be4 i had to go.....
things got quiet.... ::sigh::
i'm not gonna continue thinking about all of this cuz i'm like psm'in so i'm just gonna blame the bitchy-ness on that n move on, but grr, w/e i'm gonna stop....
but be4 i let it go completly, it kinda like prove my dad wrong him sayin that melissa is a bad influence on me....jeez i don't want anymore depressed friends...people wit issues is one thing but to have friends that are constantly sad is just annoying....its like wtf....grr, i dunno...w/e
i'm not going to call any1 today....
let them call me.
i'm not gonna start any convo's, cept maybe wit kevin.
thats it 4 now.
i'm out.....still sad.....still listening to matchbook romance, cept i noticed that the window was open so i had to lower it, alot......
....i hate being lied to......why??.....whats the fuckin point.....so damn insecure....i need new friends....
no1 is ever gettin the link to this....cept random people who happen to see this, other than that none of my friends basically....

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