||Meet You There: Simple Plan
because if I didn't... I'd go crazy. Yesterday was absolutely horrible. This game of life is gonna kill me before I'm legally allowed to drink. Sue and I got into a fight, I guess you could say. She's mad at me. I guess my joke wasn't so funny. Well, I brushed that off for a while and worked on some school crap for next year and my dad decides that he's not going to help me financially for next year. Yeah... that hit hard. Then he responded with, "I have more important things to do." Ouch. Big dagger to the heart... let me tell you. I got up, punched my dresser and made quite a nice dent, got my shit together and peaced the hell out. I drove around looking for jobs so I could make some quick money on the weekends to be able to afford my tuition, 'cuz I'm not stupid yanno... I know I won't make it out there without an education, but there aren't many jobs around here except fast food, so I debated on driving to Lowell, for obvious reasons, and then went to Barnes and Noble to do some reading. I read three books. I got back to the dorms after 11pm, low and behold when I get service back on my cell, it starts ringing off the hook... how many times do you have to tell someone that you just don't want to talk about it before they get the hint. Needless to say, no one got the hint and I got bitched out by Jo in a voicemail, which my roommate and I could both hear without having it up to our ears.
I didn't want to be near anyone last night, didn't want to talk to anyone... well, there are about two people that I would've talked to, had I gathered balls and decided to call them. Why subject them to the stuff going on in my life? Those people don't need it, yanno? I've been independent for a long time, dealt with a lot of shit by myself, and I'm learning to handle it all... and I don't need a roadmap to tell me where I'm going. I just want someone to hug me and tell me these things are going to pass over, things will get easier and that I'll be okay because sometimes i'm just not so sure.
Its been a long hard road without you by my side...
why weren't you there all the nights that we cried?
You broke my momma's heart, you broke your children for life.
It's not okay, but we're all right.
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes..
but those are just a long lost memory of mine
I've spent so many times thinkin' how to survive...