(post) ahhh [14 Jun 2004|02:46am] gawd someone needs to tell me to update this thing more... or just ready my diary at diaryland... i update it a lot more then this one... if anyone wants the pw then email me at right2wrong1417@hotmail.com and i will give you the pw and stuff ... toodles!

(post) update [26 Mar 2004|04:40pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | "thats the way it is" Celine Dion ] ashley mercer is now our senior president... yay *coughsikecough* altho she does wanna go to the international waters so we can drink for our senior trip... kinda trippy but eh *shruggz* coach fisher got fired again for dating 3 girls from our school... sad but true... jason isnt here again today... he's missed the whole week except for monday... he gets all emotional and just doesnt come which drives me crazy but hes got some issues going on right now i guess in his mind... his mom was talkin to him and all of a sudden 5 min later he got in the truck and i went over there and wanted a hug and yeah he gave me a hug and left... he was cryin still and ah i wanted to cry cuz i dont like seeing ppl cry! im thinkin bout going over there during 7th and spending time with him to see if he'll open up to me but if not then i dont know what else to do... ive done everything i can... oh and yesterday his mom called us and was freakin out cuz roy was takin her to work and on the way there their tire blew out... so it took us about 45 min to get to em but we got there and kelly hadda sit in my lap and the twins sat back there with us and we ahead and went to take her to work... jason kept talkin and even if he coughed or sneezed or something he'd get smacked to all hell by kelly... i thought it was funny but *shruggz* i know he didnt... but thats where ive been and ahh this weekend im settling down and takin a break... kelly has been letting this lil 15 year old with no license or permit drive her car and its ah frustrating me... shes missing school and all that stuff... hmmm *thinkz* i found out me and grant are back together... didnt know that... kenet: look... *shows me that grant said we're back together* me: wow i didnt know that kenet: lol news to me... guess you find new stuff out all the time... i love the boi to death tho... just wish he knew that... me: what is it that makes you wanna be with me? him: i dunno grrr i got all down bout that cuz i wanted to know... i mean what girl wouldnt wanna know... and to hear "i dunno" it kinda brings ya down cuz then you feel worthless *sigh* but on the good side... kenet has been able to talk to Andy 2 days this week... shes all happy i know... which im happy for her... and he actually said "love u" back... i was in shock thats for sure! lol but its so sweet! The One When your love that special one you should try everything in life to keep her or him you should listen, help and learn from everything that your relationship friend believes in because one day it will all be gone and you will only have the memories of all the good times. So remember to keep the one and keep her till the very end. ok and these are just quotes that i liked... so its nothing to do with my entry for today... "The love we have, is worth the wait!" Just when I think I’m mad at you, I hear your voice, and the anger goes away. How come what you want to leave won’t go, but what you want really bad, is already taken? You must be the only person that truly holds the key to my heart or i wouldnt be falling so hard... I learn something new everyday. From you I learned life has its good moments. I want to be with you but there are obstacles between us. You dont know how much I care even when your not there. You told me you would do anything to make me smile but would you come a couple of miles just to see me do it. P.S. Someone IM me or something and tell me to update more often or email me at right2wrong1417@hotmail.com Screen name: left2wondering

(1 comment | post) Merry Christmas!! [25 Dec 2003|12:12am] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | "merry christmas, happy holidays" Nsync ] Merry Christmas!! hope everyone is having a great christmas eve so far... i know i am... actually im not even doing anything right now except waiting for my mom to get home i was suppose to go shopping with Manon (jason's mom) today but my uncle doesnt have any ps2's right now so we're gonna go friday or saturday or something prolly... she asked me to go with them for the christmas eve party thingy that they're having tonight... i might go... i dont know yet tho... i dont know if jason wants me going or not... but if he does then he can call me cuz ill be here all day prolly hes suppose to go shoppin tho today with his mom and his brother... hmm that reminds me that i still needa go get Grant's present and get kenet's... grant already knows what imma get him tho cuz he couldnt wait for the surprise so yeah he knows and now i just gotta go pick it up friday... hopefully i can go out there to get it ... but i have no clue what to get kenet! *sigh* i miss kenet already... shes prolly on the road right now to Mexico... but i miss her already... i wanna call her up but she doesnt have a cell phone or anything so *shruggz* but anywayz... imma go find something to do i guess... Merry Christmas

(1 comment | post) i left kristi down the street and drove away [01 Nov 2003|04:06pm] [ mood | giggly ] ok so me, lashai, her lil brother and kristi went to the rich pplz houses for trick-or-tricking but i didnt get out cuz i was driving and well i let them get out and go to the houses and stuff and they got loads of candy! Kristi went as Cat-in-the-Hat and Lashai's lil brother went as a boy scout... it was cute! hes like 5 years old so yeah... and well omg it was hilarious cuz i could have swore kristi was in the car and well she wasnt and all i had in the car was Lashai, and David (her lil brother) and lashai cracked up and goes "NOELLE!!!! *diez laughin* stop the car and go back" i was like "*stayz calm* what? why?" and she couldnt stop laughin long enough to tell me that i had left kristi down the street and omg i stopped and she caught up and well started hittin me and stuff but omg i cant stop laughin *stomach hurts* it hurts so much from laughin cuz im sittin here laughin about it still! i swore she was in the car! i had no idea i had left her down the street! anywayz *triez to calm down* we went down this other street and i was like omg lashai that looks like jonathan! so she goes up there and was like "trick-or-treat" and he gave her a sucker and that was it! lol same with david and kristi and lashai comes back to me and goes "he kinda looks like jonathan and he also has a hott voice" i was like ahhh i wanna go say trick or treat now!!!! lol but of course i didnt do it! and well i had a blast... it was fun... and i was a good driver and all that tonight :) so yeah imma go lay down now cuz i have to get up early to go to work with my mom for a company picnic thing and well yeah maybe i can see that girl that was there last year... she was pretty kool for a girl... we just stopped talkin tho after a few days and well now that i can drive and now that she can drive maybe we can meet up somewhere and go places or whatever to hang out *shruggz* we'll see! anywayz nite ppl!

(post) 500 questions [19 Oct 2003|11:01pm] [ mood | hyper ] [ music | "Soar" Christina Aguilera ] 001. What is your name: noelle 002. Spell your name backwards: elleon 003. Date of birth: 9/2 004. Male or female: female 005. Astrological sign: virgo 006. Nicknames: noe, hoe, stupid, hmmz therez a lot 007. Occupation: student 008. Height: 5'2 010. Hair color: brown 011. Eye color: blue 012. Where were you born: Charloton Methodist 013. Where do you reside now: Lancaster, Texas 014. Age: 16 015. Screen names: PunkGirL051 016. E-mail addy: nowaydood@hotmail.com 017. What does your screen name stand for: *shruggz* 018. What is your UJ name: whats that? 019. What does your UJ name stand for? umm? 020. Pets: 1 cat 021. Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake: 16 i think 022. Piercings: one in each ear 023. Tattoos: nada 024. Shoe size: 8 1/2 025. Righty or lefty: righty 026. Wearing: striped shirt and black pants 027. Hearing: Finch 028. Feeling: wore out and sick 029. Eating/drinking: tea ~Friends Stuff~ Which one of your friends is the.... 030. Craziest: Ashley 031. Loudest: Lashai 032. Nicest: aww i love them all!! 033. Bitchiest: Erika! kidding... prolly Jaleesa 034. Life of the party: i dont know that my friends go to parties 035. Jock: *shruggz* 036. Prep: Erika! 037. Rebel: me? 038. Cutest: me! :) nah umm i dont know 039. Best friend of the same sex: Erika, Ashley, Lashai, Kenet 040. Best friend of the opposite sex: Jonathan, Jason, Alby, Chris 041. Most popular: grant... kidding! whoa im kidding hmm lemme see... i dunno 042. Rudest: we all have our share of being rude 043. Most shy: Kenet 044. Dumbest: Me 045. Smartest: Jonathan and Erika 046. Weirdest: we all are or i wouldnt be freinds with em 047. Has the best hair: Erika... its blonde! 048. Best personality: all of em 049. Most talented? they are all talented 050. Most ghetto: me! 051. Most spoiled: me and erika? 052. Drama queen: *shruggz* 053. Pain in the ass: grant when he wont talk and alby when he acts retarded (all the time) 054. Funniest: dunno... they all crack me up but then again i laugh a lot 055. Best advice giver: prolly kenet 056. Druggie: smoking count? cuz if so then jonathan, jason, and alby 057. Most likely to join a cult: shhh i cant give out that info lol 058. Have you lost touch with a good friend recently: yeah :-\ but i dont remember who 059. Person you've been friends with the longest: kenet then erika 060. How many friends do you have on your buddy list: 145 ~Guys/Love/Kissing/And Other Stuff~ 061. Have you ever been in love: yup 062. How many people have you told "I love you": i tell everyone i love em :) 063. How many people have you been in love with: 2 :-/ 064. How many people have you kissed: hmm... lets skip this question 065. Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex: on the cheek yeah 066. How many people have you dated: i dunno 067. What do you look for in a guy/girl? personality of course and looks are good too but im not too concerned bout that... and someone who makes me smile 068. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex: eyes, hair, and piercings 069. What type of guy/girl do you usually go for: well it was a dropouts but not no more... i usually go for the typcial losers lol kidding! i dont really know 070. Do you have a bf/gf: yeah 071. If so where did you meet them: *lookz at Erika and Ashley* online 072. What do you like most about your bf/gf: hmm *thinkz* 073. Do you have a crush right now: yeah :-/ 074. If so who is it: ill say hes a twin 075. Do you believe in love at first sight?: no not really :-\ 076. Do you remember your first love: yup 077. Who is the first person you kissed: hmm Michael prolly 078. Do you believe in fate: yeah, sure 079. Do you believe in soul mates: yeah 080. If so do you believe you'll ever find yours: maybe if i havent already ~Family Stuff~ 104. How many siblings do you have: 3 105. What are your parents names: Doris and John 106. What are your siblings names: Kristi, Shane and Johnny Lee 107. How many siblings does your mother have: 3 108. How many siblings does your father have: 1 109. Where are your parents from: mom - Dallas... dad - Houston 110. Is your family close: heck no! 111. Does your family get together for holidays: yeah but that might change this year 112. Do you have a drunk uncle: lol no 113. Any medical problems run through your family: yup theres a lot... cancer... and diabetes mostly tho 114. Does someone in your family wear a toupee? lol no 115. Do you have any nieces or nephews: i have 2 116. Are your parents divorced: nope 117. Do you have step parents: yeah the guy i call my dad cuz i dont know my real dad 118. Has your family ever disowned another member of your family: yes in fact i have 119. If so for what: they are retarded! 120. Did some of your family come to America from another country: a LONG time ago yeah... they came from England and Scottland ~Music Stuff~ 121. What song do you swear was written about you or your life: i know one but lemme think bout it a min 122. What's the most embarrasing cd you own: hmm i dont really have that many CD's 123. What's the best cd you own: the Good Charlotte CD's or Saliva 124. What song do you absolutely hate: i dunno 125. Do you sing in the shower: sometimes 126. What song reminds you of that special someone: theres a lot Okay, I Name An Artist And You Give A Lyric From Any One Of Their Songs!~ 127. Pink: trouble 128. Aerosmith: jainies got a gun 129. Madonna: like a virgin touched for the very first time 130. Korn: freak on a leash 131. Backstreet Boys: backstreet's back... ALRIGHT! 132. The Beatles: i live in a yellow submarine!!! 133. Sublime: I want to know right now is there one of you in the crowd are you gonna call 911 and spoil all of my fun 134. J.Lo: love dont cost a thing 135. *Nsync: BYE BYE BYE!! 136. Limp Bizkit: get up my generation are you ready do you know? where you are welcome to the jungle punk? take a look around 137. Britney Spears: hit me baby ONE MORE TIME!! 138. Creed: with arms wide open under the the sunlight.. 139. Enrique Iglesias: cuz i can be your hero baby, I can take away your pain 140. Good Charlotte: hold on if you feel like letting go 141. Christina Aguilera: what a girl wants 142. Eminem: lose yourself 143. New Found Glory: im sick of smiling and so is my jaw 144. Kelly Clarkson: have you ever been low 145. Kelly Osbourne: shut up! 146. Mandy Moore: have a lil faith in me 147. Eve: drop your glasses, shake your asses face screwed up like you having hot flashes.. 148. Aaliyah: rock the boat! 149. Nelly: its getting hott in here, so take off all your clothes 150. Alicia Keys: ..i keep on fallin in and out of love with you.. 151. Incubus: would you choose water over wine, hold the wheel and drive? ~Favorites~ 152. Color: blue 153. Food: friez 154. Song: theres a lot 155. Show: 7th heaven 156. School subject: computer science 157. Band/singer: theres a lot i like 158. Animal: kitty 159. Outfit: baggy jeans and a band shirt 160. Radio station: 102.1 the EDGE 161. Movie: the Crow... what a girl wants 162. Pair of shoes: i love all my shoes 163. Cartoon: pooh 164. Actor: Johnny Depp 165. Actress: Maggie Smith 166. Potato chip: sour cream and onion 167. Drink: tea 168. Alcholic drink: pina colada 169. Holiday: Christmas 170. Perfume/cologne: cool water or calvin klein 171. Pizza topping: extra extra cheese 172. Jello flavor: apple 173. Lunch meat: chicken 174. Board game: monopoly 175. Video game: Kingdom Hearts 176. Website: www.myjellybean.com 177. Book: catcher in the rye 178. Computer game: Asheron's Call 179. Number: 2 180. Cereal: honey nut cheerios 181. Comedian: Adam Sandler 182. Dessert: fudge! 183. Disney character: Pooh 184. Clothing store: hot topic or wal-mart 185. Pasttime: i have too many to name 186. Teacher: mr fuller, mr hale 187. Childhood toy: prolly my tellyphone i had... hence why i like phones 188. Carnival game/ride: rollercoasters! 189. Candy bar: 3 musketeers 190. Magazine: Seventeen 191. Salad dressing: ranch 192. Thing to do on the weekend: nothing at all 193. Hot drink: cappucino 194. Season: Fall 195. Sport to watch: i dont like to watch sports 196.Person to talk to online: all my friends ~Your Bedroom/Sleeping Habits~ 197. What color are your sheets: they are grey but with lil flowers on it 198. What color are your bedroom walls: white 199. Do you have posters on your wall: yeah 200. If so of what: lil stuff here and there 201. Do you have a tv in your bedroom: yup 202. How many pillows are on your bed: bout 15 203. What do you normally sleep in: anything that is comfy 204. Describe your favourite pjs: they are pooh! 205. What size bed do you have: full 206. Do you have a waterbed/bunkbed/daybed: nope 207. Do you have your own phone line in your bedroom: nope 208. Do you listen to music while trying to fall asleep: nooooo i cant 209. Describe the last nightmare you had: i dont even wanna talk bout it 210. Do you sleep with stuffed animals: sometimes 211. How many people can comfortably sleep in your bed: bout 2 212. Do you sleep in any unusual positions: all the time 213. Do you have to share your bedroom with a sibling: noooo 214. Do you snore: mhmm!!!! lol 215. How about drool? sometimes lol 216. Do you have an alarm clock in your room: yeah 217. What color is the carpet in your room: brown 218. What's under your bed: dead body? nah im really scared to know whats under there tho ~This or that~ 219. Coke/Pepsi: pepsi 220. Doughnuts/bagels: bagels 221. Day/night: night 222. Wicked witch of the east/wicked witch of the west: east, i live on the east coast dammit! well i wanna 223. Heaven/hell: heaven 224. Make love/have sex: make love 225. Coffee/tea: tea 226. Hamburgers/hotdogs: hot dogs 227. Rap/rock: rock 228. Britney/Christina: Christina 229. Swiss cheese/american cheese: american 230. Real World/Road Rules: neither 231. Backstreet Boys/*Nsync: eh i like em both 232. Silver/gold: silver 233. Nike/Adidas: nike 234. McDonalds/Taco Bell: mickey D's! 235. Sweet/sour: sour 236. Punk/emo: punk! 237. Hot/cold: COLD 238. Winter/summer: winter 239. Spring/fall: fall 240. Operas/plays: plays 241. Read/watch tv: watch tv 242. Cd's/tapes: CDs 243. Dvd's/vhs: dvd's 244. Old/new: new 245. Shorts/skirts: i dont wear either 246. Pink/red: red 247. Colored pictures/black and white photos: colored 248. Meat/vegetables: veggies 249. Mexican food/chinese food: mexican 250. Commercials/infomercials: commercials 251. Scary movies/comedies: scaryyy! 252. Bikinis/one piece bathing suits: none, i dont go swimming cuz of some bad experiences like the sun! 253. Sandals/tennis shoes: sandals 254. Dogs/cats: kittens 255. Unicorns/fairies: fairies 256. Water/land: water 257. Sugar/spice: sugar 258. Black/white: black 259. Ribbons/bows: Ribbons 260. Chicken/beef: chicken 261. Colored christmas lights/regular white christmas lights: colored 262. Cars/trucks: cars 263. Austin Powers/James Bond: Austin Powers 264. Popcorn/pretzels: pretzels 265. Hip-hop/Rock: Rock 266. Passionate kiss/peck: depends 267. WWE wrestling/ real wrestling: wwe.. 268. Back rub/foot massage: back rub 269. Picture frames/photo albums: photo albums 270. Pens/pencils: pens ~What Is Your Opinion Of The Following~ 271. Eminem: wigger!! 272. Virgins: erika! 273. God: i have faith 274. The Osbournes: they are kool 275. Reality TV: it sux 276. J.Lo: she doesnt needa be with ben 277. Religion: i go to church 278. Emo music: greg! 279. Valentine's Day: mushy gushy stuff 280. Christina Aguilera's comeback: did she die or something and come back to life? 281. Homosexuals: i'm not a big fan lol sry 282. Abortion: against it 283. Inter-racial relationships: don't bother me any 284. Murder: bad horrible evil 285. Death: sad 286. Obesity: unhealthy 287. Pre-marital sex: hmmmz 288. Terrorism: DIE TERRORISTS 289. Pornography: f*ing hornballs 290. Fortune tellers: get ur hopes up to much 291. Threesomes: hmm... 292. Prostitution: sick and pathetic 293. Politics: stupid ba$tards 294. Country music: y'all come back now ya heer 295. George W. Bush: president 296. Cloning: depends on who ur cloning 297. Britney's boobs: fake! 298. Gas prices in America: too high ~Name Game~ What Do You Think Of When You Hear These Common Names?... 299. Jack: jack black 300. Tiffany: breakfast at tiffanys 301. Ben: affleck 302. Maria: josie's sister 303. Jennifer: love hewitt 304. Nicole: slater 305. Amy: evanscence 306. Adam: Sandler 307. Richard: simmons!!! haha 308. Justin: timberlake 309. Arnold: Hey Arnold!! 310. Tom: Delonge 311. Melissa: Joan Hart 312. Charlotte: Good Charlotte 313. Harold: this dood i know 314. John: my step-dad 315. Joel: Madden 316. Vanessa: carlton 317. Michelle: obenne 318. Kevin: the liar me and erika go see 319. Brent: school 320. Jake: Less Than Jake 321. Billy: Martin, GOD SAVE ME 322. Sarah: Michelle Gellar 323. Natalie: the girl that gets kicked outta class all the time 324. Christy: my sister cept she doesnt spell it the same way 325. Nick: ahhhh there are so many nicks out there in this world! 326. Linda: i think thats ashleys mom's name 327. Taylor: britney taylor 328. Jordan: jordan was this cute in school 329. Jamie: Kennedy (i gotta P.H.D. a poser hata' degree) 330. Adrian: *shruggz* ~Have You Ever....~ 331. Mooned anyone: lol nah 332. Been on a diet: yeah but they never work for me 333. Been to a foreign country: nope but i wanna! 334. Broken a bone: nope 335. Swallowed a tooth/cap/filling: nope 336. Swear at a teacher: under my breath 337. Talked to an UJ member via e-mails or instant messages: nope 338. Got in a fight: yeah a few 339. Dated a teacher: ooo im not robin hall! 340. Laughed so hard you peed your pants: nope 341. Thought about killing your enemy: im going to burn in hell 342. Gone skinny dipping: only once 343. Met another UJ member in the flesh: nope 344. Told a little white lie: yup 345. Told a secret you swore not to tell: eh! 346 Used a foreign object to masturbate: wtf? no, i dont do that shnit 347. Misused a swear word and it sounded absolutely stupid: yeah 348. Been on tv: have i ever been on tv? 349. Been on the radio: loads of times 350. Been in a mosh pit: actually we have... that was a fun experience 351. Been to a concert: yup 352. Dated one of your best friends: prolly did *shruggz* 353. Loved someone so much it makes you cry: uh yeah 354. Decieved somebody close to you: *shruggz* 355. Broken the law: i hate the law so i do things my way 356. Been to a rodeo: yup 357. Been on a talk show: nope 358. Been on a game show: nope 359. Been on an airplane: nope 360. Got to ride on a firetruck: when i was in kindergarden 361. Came close to dying: yeah, when i was 5 yrs old cuz i stopped eating cuz of a medical mistake 362. Cheated on a bf/gf: didnt get the chance, but i wouldnt anyway 363. Gave someone a piggy back ride: yup yup 364. Terrorized a babysitter: nope, im not that evil. 365. Made a mud pie: yeah whenever i get the chance i do 366. Had a dream that you're falling off a cliff: i do lots of times 367. Snuck out of the house at night: yes and i was caught but oh well 368. Been so drunk you don't remember your name: not that i can remember 369. Had an eating disorder: after that medical thing when i was 5 yeah 370. Felt like you didn't belong: all the time 371. Felt like the 3rd wheel: mmhmm 372. Smoked: i have in the past but never got addicted! 373. Done drugs: does drinkin count?. 374. Stolen money from a poor person begging on the street: lmao no! *lookz at erika and ash* 375. Had your tonsils removed: yup when i was 5 *hence to the medical mistake* 376. Gone to camp: band camp! lol kidding! no i havent 377. Won a bet: yeahhh many times 378. Written a love letter: theyre all still in my closet.... 379. Gone out of your way to be with the one you love: yeah 380. Written a love poem: Yes 381. Kissed in the rain: nope 382. Slow danced with someone you love: nope 383. Participated in cyber sex: noo!! 384. Faked an orgasm: lmfao, OH YES! ALL THE TIME! no!! 385. Stolen a kiss: how do u steal a kiss? 386. Asked a friend for relationship advice? all the time 387. Had a friend steal your bf/gf: eh at the time i thought so but no 388. Watched the sunset/rise with someone you love:*sighz* no, but i wanna 389. Gotten a speeding ticket: not yet atleast 390. Done jail time: no, surprisingly 391. Had to wear a uniform to work: dont work 392. Won a trophy: yes!!! 393. Thrown up in public: no i dont think so 394. Bowled a perfect game: has anyone? 395. Failed/got held back: never got held back but i did fail some classes well one really 396. Got perfect attendance in grade school: i think only 2 years i did 397. Roasted pumpkin seeds: nope 398. Taken ballet lessons: nope 399. Attempted suicide: yes i have 400. Cut yourself: who hasnt? ~Childhood Stuff~ 401. Did you play with Barbies: no i hated em... i would cut their hair and pop their heads off 402. Did you own Treasure Trolls: i used too 403. Did you watch Beverly Hills 90210: never had an interest for that stuff 404. Did you play Simon: i used too 405. Did you watch Fraggle Rock: never heard of it 406. Did you wet the bed: when i was lil i would sometimes 407. Did you believe there were monsters in your closet or under your bed: not that i can remember 408. Did you wear the underwear with the days of the week on them: when i was lil me and my cousin did 409. Were you shy: yes 410. Were you spoiled: yes 411. Were you abused: no 412. Did you go to the circus: a few times 413. Did you go to the zoo: yes 414. Were you in a car accident: nope 415. Did you build snowmen: yup 416. Did you cry when you scraped your knee: most of the time 417. Were your older cousins mean to you: my older cousins were really never around... maybe cuz i only had 3 418. Did you think slinkies were cool: yesssss 419. Did you think the Ninja Turtles really lived in the sewer: yes! 420. Were you afraid of the dark: i was but then i grew outta it 421. Did you have slumber parties: yup! 422. Did you have New Kids On The Block sheets, curtains, sleeping bags, dolls and pajamas: nope 423. Did you tease your hair out like Tiffany: no way! 424. Did you believe in the Easter Bunny/Santa Claus/ and the Tooth Fairy: yes and i still do :) ~Randomness~ 425. Do you believe in aliens: i dont really know bout them... i believe sometimes we do cuz the government would hide em from us but then again i dont know what to believe 426. Name 3 things that are next to your computer: cup, CD, printer 427. Do you have any hidden talents: my hands are double jointed 428. Do you wish MTV would play music videos: MTV kills music 429. If you were to star in a movie, what kind of movie would it be: that lovey dubby stuff 430. What would your movie star name be: Noelle 431. Do you play any sports: not on a team but i play basketball sometimes, softball and tennis sometimes as well 432. What's the scariest movie you've ever seen: i havent really seen a movie that is REALLY scary... so scary that i jump and stuff 433. What is the best movie you've seen in the theater or rented recently: Freaky Friday 434. What is the dumbest movie you've ever seen: house of a 1000 corpses 435. Do you drive: yup 436. What is your dream car: a 2002 honda civic or a beattle bug 437. Do you think you're good looking: *lookz in the mirror and hears a shatter* nah 438. Do others think you are good looking: well according to my bf im pretty and according to my ex im cute 439. Would you ever sky dive: hell yeah! 440. Do you believe in Bigfoot: *lookz at erika* hehe kidding! no i dont 441. How many rooms do you have in your house: bedrooms=3.... rooms all together=11 442. Are you afraid of roller coasters: hell no! 443. Do you believe in God: yes 444. Do you believe in Satan: he scares me 445. Do you believe there is a heaven: yes 446. Do you believe there is a hell: yes 447. Do you own a pooltable: nope 448. Do you have a pool: nope 449. Do you have a dishwasher in your kitchen: yes 450. Do you like chocolate: love it! 451. Who/what is on your 2003 calendar: its pooh! 452. How many U.S. states have you been to: well i went to cali when i was 8 months old and i go to lousiana sometimes but i live in texas so 3? 453. Ever wished on a shooting star: yeah 454. Best Halloween costume you ever wore: my M&M outfit 456. What is your weakness: hmm i got a lot :-/ 457. Name something you can't get enough of: music, friends 458. Describe yourself in 3 adjectives: weird, stupid, ugly 459. How many kids do you want to have: 3 460. Future daughters names: Britney Paige or Saphyre Dawn or Gabriella Dawn 461. Future sons names: Ethan Adam or Ryan Joel or Michael Andrew 462. What is your ideal way to die: in my sleep 463. How do you release stress: sleep or write it down 464. Are you a trendy person: noooo 465. Are you an artistic person: eh kinda 466. Are you a realistic person: sometimesl 467. Do you un-tie your shoes every time you take them off: nope 468. Are you a strong person: not at all 469. Are you a strong willed person: no 470. Who is the last person to e-mail you: Keve 471. Who is the last person to IM you: Erika 472. Do you hate chain e-mails: im starting to hate em 473. Are you a deep sleeper: sometimes 474. Are you a good story teller: not really 475. What do you believe is your best quality: i dont have any 476. What is your greatest accomplishment: ive been able to take college courses while still in school 477. Do you like to burn candles or incense: candles 478. Do you do yoga: nope 479. Do you have your own credit card: nope 480. Let's say you win the lotto. What do you do with all that money: i would get a car and get enough gas money to go see my bf 481. Do you have a check book: nope 482. Do you like your driver's license picture: havent got it in the mail yet 483. Do you tan easily: cant ever tan but i burn really easily 484. What color is your hair naturally: brown 485. How many fillings do you have: none 486. How many cavities did you have at your last dentist visit: 2 but its been awhile since ive been to the dentist 487. Worst feeling in the world: being heartbroken 488. Best feeling in the world: to know the person you love loves you back 489. Is the glass half empty or half full: half empty 490. Last thing you downloaded: the palace 491. Do you catch yourself using online terms in your real life: only all the time 492. What do you think people think of you: some big overweighted loser 493. Are you a likeable person: ask the ppl that stay away from me 494. Do you need therapy: no cuz it sux! 495. Do you take medication for a chemical imbalance: nope 496. What the best way to be proposed to: well when ur in love then i think it would be cute and sweet if ur love proposed to you in front of the whole family 497. What kind of movie would you star in: this is a repeated question. . 498. If Fed Ex and UPS were to merge, would they call it Fed UPS? yep 499. When are you moving: the day i graduate 500. What's your favorite phrase: "you know what... "

(post) what ya gotta say now? [06 Oct 2003|11:22pm] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | "the quiet things that no one knows" Brand New ] ya know your granny can talk about me and erika and you not say anything... and then i complain about it because i think tis crap how you can let someone bad mouth your BEST friends but god forbid someone say something about JJ or Jeff or someone like that... i thought you said online relationships sucked and all that mess and then you go out with someone thats online... wth! i hope your not just doing this to get over greg or anything cuz its not gonna work... it was totally uncalled for to put that in your diary... i mean yeah you coulda kept that from us cuz i would have been better off without knowing that piece of information... one thing i wanna know is why arent you open with your friends? you never talk bout stuff that bugs you... you write it down in ur diary hoping we wont care or even read it and well i do let some stuff slip cuz im forgiving but that just bugged me too much and i couldnt let it go so i hadda say something bout it... anything you wanna say now?

(2 comments | post) Certain stuff [23 Aug 2003|02:06am] [ mood | amused ] [ music | "say you will" wakefield ] ok ive been wanting to do this for a while and i will update it too but it will be its own page so if ur interested then just check back at it every once in a while but let me tell you this now, this is my opinion about stuff and i dont really care what ppl think about it, its my outlook on stuff so here goes: ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Cinderella ok yeah her life was just a fantasy... a good fantasy yeah but girls now days actually look up to stuff like that and think that one day a special event will come up and they will fall in love and live happily ever after! its not like that! and if anyone seen the 2nd Cinderella then well she was miserable cuz everyone was tellin her she couldnt do this and that, would you really wanna live like that? Wheelchairs and Nursing Homes ive been in a nursing home well not admitted but went to see loved ones and even some past ones well ya know i think they get in wheelchairs and race up and down the halls at night... and the nursing home itself well its creepy... i dont mind being visiting ppl but its like a mental house, you cant really go outside that much so ppl just stick around the windows and daydream in the clouds, i would rather die at home then have to deal with that when i get old Girls if anyone has read any of my past entries then you might find it sayin something like "ugh i hate girls" or "girls are stupid" well im a girl myself and i dont like it at all however i act like one just to be funny and see how long i can last... heres my prob with em tho, they wear too much makeup i mean cmon this is not clown class, they go to school lookin all dressy just to get some attention from someone (a guy) then when they DO get the attention they tell the guyz to back off cuz they dont want em... i mean cmon wth! and they are so annoying, they talk bout gettin their nails done and going shoppin and stuff (im not the shoppin type of person cuz im cheap and dont like to spend money) and i guess im just such a tomboy cuz i dont like the way they are so girly and crap its ugh! rich people they needa learn how to share what they have with some poor folks like me! lol Britney Spears i heard shes coming out with a rap CD... yeah umm Britney, you lost justin so stop tryin to everything to win him back, ever heard the phrase, "once you go black you never go back?" well look at him and you'll understand why i said that School the first day of school is always boring but it aggravates me that the teachers ask "well did everyone have a great summer?" and "is everyone glad to be back at school?" i can answer that "hell no cuz youll start giving us work and makin us stressful again and teaching us useless stuff! (well some classes are just pointless) Long Distance for all you people out there dealing with long distance relationships, then yeah i feel ya... it sux! i wanna be with my boyfriend, yet i cant cuz hes 6 hrs away, sucks eh? if anyone needs to ever talk about it then just IM me :) well those are just some for now, ill update later or when i think of something else that i dont like about certain stuff... hope no one was offended, if so let me know!

(post) i am bisexual! [22 Aug 2003|10:07pm] [ mood | impressed ] [ music | "cinderella" the cheetahs ] I'll be damned. You ARE bisexual AFTER all! You sees "31 Flavors" as the ideal place to work. You can get unequivocally turned on by eating Cheese 'n Crackers - taking the little sticks from the wrapper and sliding them into the cheese. You are definitely a sexual glutton, taking as much as you can ;) Are *You* Bisexual? Click Here to Find Out! More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva

(post) For Jaleesa [06 Jul 2003|09:33pm] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | "nothing gonna stop us now" ] hmm well i have a lot to say so this might take up some space but oh well imma tell whatever i have on my mind... and im not gonna care a "rats ass" what anyone says... i made a disclaimer so if you feel something is wrong with what i say then read that first before you start complaining to me bout something well i wasnt gonna say who this was too or whatever BUT if anyone is wondering why i have this entry in here and why im so pissed off right now its well a dear friend of mine, Jaleesa. I thought she was a friend, i really did but i guess i was wrong. I didnt know friends went around behind your back sayin all kinds of stuff but i guess they can... she turned her back against all of us (me, erika and ash) i bet the only reason why we dont see her on anymore is because she wants to get away from the computer mainly for greg which is bs... she says shes over him and all that crap BUT she talks bout him in every entry and im like ok cmon you done said bout 5 entries ago that you didnt wanna talk bout him and didnt want nothing to do with him anymore and that you were moving on, so if your moving on then DO IT!...do like Nike says and JUST DO IT do you (ja) have anything to say bout us... oh wait i know you do of course you do its all in your diary everywhere... but i just wanna know do you have anything positive to say... you know we are gonna have to get over this somehow cuz in a month we will be back at school and in the newspaper staff together and i dont want all this fighting and arguing to go on and stuff because mr hale already promised we would be working together enough with that for now... and ya know that is sad that you go cryin to your granny bout stuff and you always used to tell us that she never understood you and that you would never talk to her bout stuff because she wouldnt understand and blah blah blah... and you being anti-social well ya know we were here for you and all you hadda do was call or something but no you never even made the effort... you dont make an effort to call me then i dont make an effort to call you.... "I just had a lovely brawl w/noelle about the whole journal link. I don't give a rats ass if we're close or not. I feel as though that since there was basically no effort made & we dont talk since she spends her summer w/erika then what's the deal? why read when u can always call since u seem to call erika all the time." -jaleesa ok someone tell me what is wrong with askin for a diary link... im going outta town and plus when i am in town im busy and stuff and dont have time to call ppl on the phone... if i ever am on the phone then whoever it is called me first and if its an emergency... erika always calls me and if i get there to the phone late then i call her back but thats the only exception... i spend my time with erika cuz i wanna get away from here and plus i dont get to see her during school because she is home schooled... i seen you more than i did her in a week and shes like my sister and i said id never talk to you again if you gave greg the journal link cuz you did that last time when i thought we were your true friends but obviously he was better then us... i wasnt informed bout what happened with you and greg and to tell ya the truth im finally glad to see this all happening... me and erika and i think ash have all discussed this once before like long time ago and we all said back then that he wasnt coming because everything just wasnt addin up and we knew something would come along like crystal or something other girl but no you wouldnt listen to us you didnt wanna know the truth you just wanted to see what you wanted to happen and it didnt happen so now your all depressed about it and tryin to put it off on someone else another thing is you said something bout how bittersweet perfection was your name and how it was a meaning for something... well we asked you if you wanted us to change it and you said no that we could keep it so thats what we did so drop the whole case drop all the stuff your sayin bout how it will never get anywhere and how you came up with the band and you started it because ashley and erika were thinkin bout it before you even said anything bout it... you chose to leave so your not in no more and no one said that you werent our friend anymore its just we never see you online anymore and i dont like callin or anything cuz ur granny does not like me and that goes for coming over too i dont wanna just show up and ur not there and plus she doesnt like me who's fault is it now? its no ones! you also said that we sound pop'ish or good charlottey and how we are tryin to be like them... and for that matter go to your bittersweet blog its http://www.gobanana.diaryland.com... there you will see what we had on our mind when we read that... cuz that was just some bs that you had there... i know im forgettin some stuff but this is all i wanna say for now... i think i leave this up for a day or 2 just so i can make sure ppl read it... if anyone has a say on this then tag me or leave a note for me cuz im sure to read em Truly me, ~*Noelle*~ P.S. You can say you dont care but i know you do so go ahead and email me what you wanna say... you know who you are.

(post) stuffz! [30 Jun 2003|07:48pm] [ mood | stressed ] [ music | "Promise" by Eve6 ] well yesterday was a fun and exciting day... i went to the hospital to see Erika's g-pa with her and her g-ma and her aunt and ashley... well they went outside for a lil while and theres this big hill there well erika was like lets go up there and roll down and well me and ashley didnt and she did and all of a sudden i look over to see her stupid self rolling down the hill and all you can see was BLUE! it was bright blue cuz it was her undiez! i was laughin so hard that i was almost in tears... her g-pa was out there and saw it and his mouth was open like omg lol it was hilarious... she was embarrassed the whole day which made it even better! lol anywayz tho... lately ive had some stuff on my mind... last night i dreamed that i went to this house and grant was there... well he walked out and was tellin me i had no right to be there so i was like umm i didnt come to see you anywayz so let go of my arm i wanna go... and hes like get back in your car and leave cuz you have no right to be here... again i was like ok i didnt come to see you and hes like riiiiight now leave... thats when i woke up... it was weird! the thing thats on my mind the most is... well i love grant and all right i mean i dont care if it makes ppl gag or whatever but i do... but the thought of going to see him is weird... not weird i mean cuz i love the idea... if i had a car and a job for the money i would definetly be there on the weekends to see him and stuff but the thing thats in my head is when he sees me will he run or will he be like eh ur nice and then the next day when im back home we dont ever talk again ya know... i talked to mom and she said that if im really thinkin that then maybe i should start eating better foods and working out everyday and not just when i feel like it and if he doesnt like the outside as much as he likes me on the inside then he can go somewhere else... which is true but ahhh i dont know how to describe it another thing is ive got where ppl are tellin me they arent reading my diary entries cuz its all mushy gushy stuff and well it might be all mushy and stuff but its whats on my mind and if you dont wanna read it then dont its not gonna make me stop writing what i wanna write about... most ppl dont care what i write about which is what i intend on my journal to be! its my thoughts and what goes on my head not what you wanna hear or what you wanna see or whatever...*sigh* ya know i know grant well enough and hes not like that so yeah just let me be happy cuz i am with him... he hasnt hurt me mentally or physically... well of course not because we havent met IRL yet... mentally im happy so let me be... Grant isnt like that so i know ill be better off instead of with all the other losers that ive been with in the past ugh *thinks of grant'ness* i found out that one of my friends ja well she has this other journal and even tho greg says he doesnt know it i bet he does... yeah me and ja dont really hang out and dont really talk that much so i would like to see a journal or something and read it to know whats going on in her life but no she wont let no one have the link to it which is crap... if i find out that greg has it then i swear i wont talk to neither one of em for the longest... if anyone knows me well enough then they know that when i get mad at someone then i usually give the silent treatment long enough for them to finally give in and be like ok talk to me or something like that ya know... one of my friends was hit by a car... he is kool and all i mean we talk and we are kool with each other... he helps me write songs well he writes em and i show the band... none of em have actually been used but i think they should but eh *shruggz* he lives in boston so its far away and thats why ive never got the chance to meet him... he doesnt believe in God which he should but he doesnt... nothing can convince him that there is a God... i wish i could convince him but i cant... anyone who reads this then pray for him plz cuz i want him to be ok and not in critical condition with drs all around sayin hes not gonna make it *sigh* anywayz im going to go read Harry Potter... yes i got the 5th book well my dad did and im happy :) yay! Noelle

(post) *sigh* [17 Jun 2003|05:00pm] [ mood | determined ] [ music | "Heaven" Live ] well its almost 4 in the morning and i just got off the phone with ash, erika and joseph on the phone... when it was just me and ash i called grant to see if his phone was on but of course it wasnt... the other night he called me at erikas cuz i asked him too and it just felt so different... not in a bad way but i didnt wanna hang up but unfortunatly erika's phone was going dead so i hadda hang up... ya know lately im even tryin to get this interesting game that he plays just so i can be closer to him and i call him whenever i can or he calls me whenever he wants or when i ask him too... hes sweet and everything... gawd!! am i fallin for him again? i talked to keneth about it and shes like aww yeah you are girl and go for it... im like i cant cuz he has to ask me back out if he ever wanted to get back with me but i dont see him doing that anytime soon... here was some of the convo before he went to bed tonight... Grant: ok baby Grant: good night Grant: I love you Me: i love you too Me: nite i just feel really weird and all i can think about is him... i mean what is going on with me... am i really in love?

(post) weird [30 May 2003|04:32pm] [ mood | weird ] [ music | "its about time" Lillex ] im here at the house being bored today and i was cleaning my room and doing my laundry and i hadda take a break cuz i was all sweaty and stuff so i came on here and saw that Nick was on so i sat down and chatted with him and i was listening to "its about time" by lillex and i just started to cry and all i could think of was nick... i dont know if i really loved the boy or not i mean hes with another girl and plus hes far away and prolly would never be able to see one another but still im confused and i dont know what to do... he says he still likes me and i tell him the same but hes miles away and his gf and him are off and on so im just stuck here... im not happy right now with myself for some odd reason.... i feel like im screamin on the inside... imma go and do the rest of my laundry now so ill talk later and tell bout the rest of my day.... laterz!

(post) nick [30 May 2003|03:11am] [ mood | confused ] [ music | "its about time" Lillex ] well yeah its 3 in the morning and im talkin to joseph on the phone and i was talkin to nicky online on yahoo :) i miss him everytime i miss him its like ah why did we stop talkin cuz i miss you so much! i really think i was in love with that boy i mean cuz we were actually together like what 2-3 times or something *shruggz* anywayz he fractured his ankle and yeah he hadda leave so the swelling would go down... sounds really painful... well imma go to bed cuz its kinda 3 in the morning so yeah im tired... so yeah ill talk tomorrow P.S. I kinda wish i had a relationship like Ja and Greg do *sigh*

(post) Randall [20 May 2003|07:20am] [ mood | weird ] well its morning time now and i wanted to write in my journal before my dream last night slipped away... ok well i was at school walkin towards the east campus with RANDALL and he was like yeah i hated you before but now ur not that bad and i was like yeah everyone hates me before they get to know me for some weird reason and hes like oh well im sorry *huggz*... i was like umm yeah ok... but i walked with him all the way over to the other campus and then hugged him and walked back... and that was my dream... i hadda share cuz it was skurry well more like weird lol... anywayz im off to school now... later!

(post) NFG [19 May 2003|11:06pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | "Hit or Miss"NFG ] umm yeah?

(post) NFG [19 May 2003|11:05pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | "Hit or Miss"NFG ] i be noelle'ness cake

(post) EDGEFEST was awesome!!! [18 May 2003|08:36pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | "Bloody Valentine" GC ] hey well last night was the most koolest night ever! i went to edgefest that was held here in dallas and it was awesome! im just gonna say what happened after the show cuz thats the most intersting! well after the show we were pretty much kicked out so we were walkin around and found the guy from evanescence and he gave us an autograph and stuff... it was awesome! but the best part was that i waited for 2 hrs to get joel (Good Charlotte), Ian and jordan and steve (NFG), and chris from the all-american rejects.... yes they signed my ticket i was like omg this is so kool! and since erika wasnt able to make it i got joel to sign my ticket sayin "2 Erika love Joel" and she almost died when i showed her that today when i went to see her... but anywayz yeah it was awesome and he was even talkin to us like he knew us which was really awesome! but now erika loves me :) ohh i almost forgot what happened... well chad from NFG was runnin around the crowd and he ran to where i was and well of course the crowd went over there where i was and he had the mic in his hand and he was sweaty so he was fallin and i grabbed his arm and pulled him back up and he got my arm and pinched it... not on purpose of course but still i have a bruise from it now lol i cant believe i was that close to him and yeah i could add so many details to what happened but i think ppl would be sick of it lol but yeah i met evanescence, NFG, GC, and the all-american rejects :) yes now you may be jealous of me... but for now i must go and dream of my bands that i seen last night :) nite pplz!

(post) music fest was awesome! [15 May 2003|10:37pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | "Blessed" Christina Aguilera ] well i got my yearbook today and its really awesome lookin but anywayz on to what happened tonight... i went to see max before 7 i just told my mom i was gonna go meet JJ and hang with him till it started at 7 and that i would be home around 10 or so which i was... me and max watched a movie cuz i was there for about 2 hrs... then i didnt wanna say goodbye altho i did finally and went ahead and walked to the town square for music fest :)... well i waited for Ja and JJ but JJ never showed up and all of a sudden i see max walkin and im like what is he doing here so i walk to meet him and im like thought you werent coming and he was like well i did...and believe it or not he actually stayed the whole entire time too....the only thing that got me was how he kept walkin off somewhere else or something or when i would try to get close to him he would back off so finally i just grabbed onto his arm and was pretty much hangin on him but then jamie gore brought her kitten by and i was all hangin onto it and babysittin it and callin it my baby and stuff... i got a lot of attention tonight which i loved i felt i was one of em cuz they actually spoke to me :) then later on the night it was so hilarious! a guy named TJ (max's friend) well i was chillin with him and max and following them around and so was jaleesa... well TJ kept giving ppl lap dances and the last lap dance was Jaleesa! she was all laughin and it was funny i mean i would have laughed too if they did that to me but they didnt do that to me *lookz in dissapointment* oh wellers theres always next thursday night :) oh yeah i wanted to say that randall the guy that i told liked me cuz he liked me or so he said well he was all holding on to leslie glover and cassie wade so i was like max hold on to me when you see him and hes like ok ill do that and i looked at TJ and TJ did the same so yeah i made him feel really jealous cuz he couldnt even come near me without makin a face or having some kind of anger in him you could tell... it was funny and i was proud of myself :) it was an awesome night im lookin forward to next thursday night and this saturday in fact cuz im going to edgefest yay! anywayz tho its been an exciting night and i think im going to go ahead and go to bed cuz im exhausted from all the fun i had tonight! c-ya!

(post) Joseph [13 May 2003|09:55pm] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | Fighter by Christina Aguilera ] well ive been talkin to a guy and hes really sweet and from around here well garland or plano, its one of those just cant remember to be so exact right now... he has a disorder but i dont hold that against him cuz its not his fault... he makes me laugh and loves to talk which i like to listen and he seems to like me back... we are planning to hang out sometime which will be exciting too ... i cant wait till we can chill and stuff... when one of us has probs we are always there for one another to help each other out best as possible... hes one of my best friends now :) and i wrote this entry for him so he knows how much hes loved :)

(post) a depressing day! [21 Apr 2003|05:05pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | black balloon by Goo Goo Dolls ] me and ja have been have some guy issues... like the ones she wants to be with she cant and im the same way... i think our conclusion is we want a bf cuz we miss the affection terribly! well the guy ive liked for a while now kinda shut me out.... heres what happened today i was in class and i sat next to him today instead of one seat behind where i was sitting today... anywayz i was with him like talkin and stuff and i kinda just stopped talkin and i looked at him and looked like i was in tears almost i can tell cuz i know how i am... well i said i have something to tell you... he was like ok sure whats up? i was like ooops you didnt hear that cuz i dont have nothing to say *lookz down and messes with my nails* he goes no tell me cuz i can see it in ur pretty blue eyes that its important.... i was like hmm *deep breath and looks back at him* I like you!... in my mind i was like there i said it now plz dont say nothing cuz im embarrased kinda now.... but then he just starred at me and like got my hand and was holding it and i just looked down and hes like i like you too and was afraid something like this would happen... all i could say was mhmm *nodz*.... he then told me he was like im leaving this summer tho so it couldnt possibly work between us... i was like alright i understand *nodz*... then we went back to our work but things were different cuz then i couldnt tell him how nothing or even look at him cuz i was pretty much heartbroken! YES heartbroken.... i didnt know what to do but i was there after class to go home cuz i was waitin for someone and he walked by and took about 2 steps and walked back and was in front of me lookin down at me and was like i care about you dont get me wrong cuz i do... ya never know what might happen... i was like *nodz* and he kissed me on the cheek and hugged me... his hug felt like it was a forever hug i didnt wanna let him go but i did of course and he walked outside and i went the other way to my old locker and walked down the stairs and home i went... gosh i think im cursed or something... every since my relationship with mike well since he went on to be my guardian angel i have NOT been able to find anyone around me that likes me or could actually have a relationship with... oh well i mean i know mike knows whats best for me so he'll want me happy and hes makin sure i meet the right person or something *shruggz* but anywayz... why is that almost every girl goes through the same thing as a teenager? i mean can anyone out there answer that for me? if so fill me in so ill understand... but yeah imma go for now i have some hw to do i just hadda get that off of me before i cried bout it or something which ill still prolly do lol oh wellerz... peace pplz! ~*Noelle*~

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