| please don't say i love you |
[12 Feb 2004|09:04pm] |
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not much going on, i've been very happy lately :-)!! i'm just using this entry to put a couple of recent poems up, enjoy fuck wads...
this first one is untitled about a girl in my art class who is pregnant..she is actually happy about it, i think, even though she is only 15..wait a minute...that's old to still be in 8th grade! any way, here it goes... it's from her perspective but it's how i would feel if i were pregnant..
I can feel your dirty nails
penetrating my skin
leaking blood onto dirty, cheap sheets.
I can feel your pleasure throbbing inside of me,
penetrating my used body.
Is this what you wanted?
Did you want a child
did you expect this from me, so young?
Well I hope you're happy now,
this is your child
growing inside of me.
For 9 months I'll wait while you decide
if you're going to run from this.
Do I look pregnant?
the next one is fairly self explanitory, also untitled, read and figure it out...
I will not be tempted by unclean thoughts.
I will not give into the wrong ways of living.
I will live by your guidence,
I'll be normal, I swear.
I can only beg that you'll see past my
disgusting ways of love.
You were right when you called me a sick fag.
When you kicked my teeth
all the way down into my stomach.
You made the right choice to slam me against a brick wall
and whip your dick out and fuck me
Right...there.
But you were wrong when you said
I couldn't love her, and she shouldn't love me.
You were nothing but wrong.
Just overwhelmed by the fact that
what you called your own didn't want the title anymore.
I think you were wrong when you beat
me half to death, begging for breath
so you could step
over my broken body and try to kiss her.
And I smile every time I replay your face in my head when she
pushed you away and came to me.
I will not give into your lifestyle
that you adore when I'm happy with the way I am.
I will not let you intimidate me.
I will not cry over festering wounds
left on my body for days as they heal
as I run from you.
Because I'm so much more
then just some sick fag.
i think that's all I want to write here for now, i might put up some of my older ones later, if you're reading "thanks" for all your wonderful support! haha.....nerds
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