Below are the 4 most recent journal entries recorded in norma's Blurty:

Saturday, September 13th, 2003
7:03 pm	sorry havent had time to updaye im at pennys now all alone supposedly doing homework i just finished reading my girlfriends entrees they dont sound good so far i think shes listening to people to much she thinks i dont love her but i do im just really bad on showing it. scince schools started its been really hard to get sleep im getting pulled every where i always have somewhere to go . my day is go to school go to latebird then either go with ashley the band, my friends or go home and clean its been really stress full cuz my school scheduale sucks, my girlfriend is fading away, the band is hetting pissed cuz we havent been able to practice, my friends always hang out when i cant and if i do hang out with them everyone else gets pissed and lately everysingle time my parents get home all they do is fight so something always goes wrong. school is no longer fun life its self is complicated.right now theres nothing i look forward to anymore everything in my life has something bad. a while ago i took some caffiene pills they got me in a really sucidal deppresing mood but also made me realize alot of shit. my head feels like its going to bust im so confused and lost more than the ordinary but the worst part is that no one can help me not even penny.the only thing i really appreciate is the kind of life ive had so far i have a good one with a family who actually cares. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: manson and slipknot(it takes me away like a pill) (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 29th, 2003
2:47 pm	relieved and scared more and more people have been told about me and ashley thats cool i dont like to hide what i feel even if i wanted to the times we spend are preciouse so i have no time to waste on thinking about others critisisme(dont know how to spell)the fact that all these guys all of a sudden like me and out of all of them i choose a girl is pretty funny but its worth it cuz no one loves me like she does sergio was telling me that he was jelouse and that he was asking ashley what she did to get me thats fuckin funny. i never imagend that from meeting this girl it would lead to this .its hella cool that my x is cool with all this i wish i could just walk around holding hands with her but that might lead to things like my parents knowing but when ever i can i will i love being with her and i love freaking people out i cant waite till my parents go back to work so we can spend time together damm i need a fuckin job i have no money to buy me new materials for new outfits for next year. hopefully things get better around the house and my parents get money to spare. fuck yeah baby i got a ticket to go see manson fuck i love sergio to bad for him he cant have me as more than a friend. but im happy with my girlfriend.i feel bad cuz i havent told penny but i will today. right now im just having fun and livin life. Current Mood: groovy Current Music: dont know the name but its cool (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 19th, 2003
2:07 am	im rethinking about trying coke (snif snif)because cristian told me his not very good expirience with it ill probably just buy the cheap kind to get a feel of it i think its funny the way that when the tatu girls got together they both had boyfriends they make such a more interesting and cuter couple together i wonder how many girls theyve got to turn lesbo or at least be open about it i dont think people need to say what they are i think people just need to pay more attention and figure it out themselves but some are just to fuckin stupid to understand it fuckin stuborn to live with it or just fuckin sycho i finally know what it fells to be loved even though its some what of a secret i dont mine cuz i fell the same Current Mood: awake Current Music: "all the things she said" t.a.t.u. (Comment on this)
1:28 am	hell and confused im happy about coming back to L.A cuz of penny but i miss ashley shes cool i had no friends now i have like three best friends its pretty dam confusing the love that i fell for each one of them but im not afraid to lose them bacause it wold be nothing new to be alone but its hella cool to have them i went to the mall today to take some pictures with penny but i didint like any of them while they were developing i walked around with cristian hes my cousins/best friends boyfriends cousin (wierd) hes pretty cool ive liked him scince i was in eight grade but never got the guts to do anything about it i never though he would like me but his cusin told my cousin that he finally came out with it and told him that hes liked me scince the second time he saw me thats fuckin cool even though its a little fuckin late he even finally got the courage to ask me for my # i cant belive hes going to actually call me all the way to vegas thats a little to much but thats ok ive known alot of people thru out my life with crazy sad lifes but ive learnd so much about cristian thru out these past days and his life beats everyone ive ever known in sadness, stupidity, crazyness and hatred i fell bad for him and hope that i can help him in some way my cuz and her boyfriend want me to get with him but im not sure bacause i like him and all but i also like someone else but im not sure in exactly what way sometimes i wish that there was more of me so i could help everyone and save them from there twisted lives but theres not so ill try my best i was perfectly happy over here except for my missing secret until my parents came over and brought there bicthy disapointed hating anything related to me attitude along with them fuck its funny but i stil fell stupid about ending up in the hospital over drinking i dont feel bad just stupid for getting cought in one of the most stupidest ways possible but i dont regeret it it was some what fun (sorry for the inconvinience to some) heelll yeah manson is on its the new video from his new single fuck hes so god damm hot id go down with him anytime this whole grounded shet sucks i pretty much fucket up my life in vegas for the summer and ill probably fuck it up even more cuz im planning to sneak out for the manson show thanks to cristians advice i mightest well got ahead and have fun (Comment on this)