Date:	2004-09-08 22:54
Subject:	New stage
Security:	Public
Mood:	contemplative
Music:	whatever's in windows media player

I guess you could call it that. In any case, I've started college and love it. I made the choir (as a Soprano 1, mind you), and I love all of my classes, even the gen ed requirements. Have a circle of friends frm the beach and up north, and also a few former band instructors.

Today was the first time in nearly six months i was able to listen to "i can only imagine" (artist-mercy me) without bursting into tears. im finally beginning to comprehend. i don't understand why things happen, but i understand that i simply cannot fathom the mind of God and all of his glory.

Am feeling slightly homesick, even though i live at home. Everyone is away, so i can't really pick up the phone and invite someone to an odu film festival! although am slightly spazzing about prospect of jennifer coming home in four weeks and executing mission: pretty girl.

no longer work in fast food (amen). have a real job. in an office.

no longer wish to personalize car with band icense plates but instead with named of car. christened "ruby" by friend ashley, even though the car is silver.

is all for now, will continue to fool around with my functional computer (i love my brand new computer) and mope about being all alone! see you later love you mean it!

Date:	2004-05-07 08:56
Subject:	Flamingo Fair
Security:	Public
Mood:	mischievous
Music:	that spanish stuff in my car

and yes i understand that i cant type and be in my car at the same time. it's just the last thing i listened to. (to which i listened)

Flamingo Fair is the name of my imaginary band that actually exists but will nevr do anything. Laura and Casey and Bibbs and acouple of sarahs and a hailey are in it. we sing barry manilow songs and marching music accompanied by standard band instruments plus kazoo and harmonica.

ap exams are over. yesterday i wore a hibiscus in my hair and everyone told me i looked pretty. i can now just finish my portfolio and be done. with everything. look ot world, here stephanie comes.

josh earns brownie points!!! he asked ME about prom...asked what color my dress is. good job, josh.


"they never give you enough ketchup"

"question!"

"you cant talk and crescendo at the same time"

"shut up"

"you would have eaten him alive"

hehehehehe. and charlie thinks im pretty i feel like a snotty person today.

Date:	2004-03-16 08:23
Subject:	Forever...
Security:	Public
Mood:	giggly
Music:	Laura reading essays about Clamato

...is exactly the amount of time it has been since I sat at a computer and updated any form of online communication. Marching season has been officially over since November (amen), but in a few weeks we're actually doing something worthwhile. We get to play at a big televised gala/benefit thing for the Ronald McDonald house. I'm excited. This means I get to yell at people when they're rude.

I got my prom dress in the mail yesterday! It's beautiful (and of course, I look beautiful in it).

I am super sick of high school. It's vacuous. I don't like teenage girls. They're melodramatic and mean for the sake of it. Oy vay.

That's all for now. I cant wait until everyone comes home : Hailey for Spring Break, Joe for our friends' wedding, Sarah for the summer. And next year, I go to college (5 months...)

That is, assuming someone gives me money to go to college. Otherwise, I will not go to Clearwater, Florida, and be happy. I'll go to Norfolk State on a minority scholarship, because it is predominantly...black. And I am definitely....really white.

Date:	2003-10-03 08:19
Subject:	busy
Security:	Public
Mood:	jubilant
Music:	Evita soundtrack...HELLO buenos aires

Okay so I'm never home anymore, which is why I have not updated in a month...

Band is great, Ms. P. adores me and we have competition tomorrow (yay band).

And we're singing the coolest song ever in Mads.

And my hands are absolutely freezing.

That's all I have time for today...I've been keeping up in anotebook (gasp...it's actually tangible) so I havent completely not been writing. One of these days I'll publish my musings about grocery stores and band and studmuffins in a book called Death by Shako...foreward by Jesica Turner.

Later...I have to go watch 1776 in government class now ( I love that movie)

JOsie and the Pussycats is on tv tonight!

Date:	2003-08-28 09:01
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	blank

so for once im actually at home.

i still have to finish my laundry and do summer assignments, but im home until about 3 30...its a miracle.

and i saw mrs graves yesterday at work...and ms. letts...and ms p and sundy the day before that.

and i dont have anything to say today.

Date:	2003-08-27 14:31
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	bouncy

i just got off work (they called last night to ask me to work)...was walking home when josh saw me and took me the rest of the way.

and now i have to go to band.

and do calculus.

and laundry.

i love being busy, and i feel like an over-wound clock....i'm going to be spazzing all night.

Date:	2003-08-20 21:54
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	cynical

im not even going to vent here because i will on hailey when she calls and jes when i see her tomorrow but i felt like leaving a crazed entry to make the day interesting.

and i dont know who reads these things.

and i just need to talk to someone (don't worry, i wont cry about anything...not that type of ventage)

So I got up and ate breakfast and I'm getting ready to shower and I just felt like writing. Hailita called me last night to let me know she got home from her trip. And I went to Walmart and saw everybody I know. And it was quite funny, because I ran into Eric (not literally) and some girl called him and he said hang on a minute and she hung up on him. I laughed a lot. And then Em was there so that was fun. Everything is either fun or funny today...it was last night too, and I really don't know why.

And i hafta go to work and find my hat, because I left it there on Saturday (who can blame me? I worked a 7 hour shift and didn't leave til after 11).

and then i have more band. i have a sexy outfit!!! black sparkly dress, sparkly headband witha feather/plume thing, choker with a rose, and sexy shoes.

that's all, i hafta go shower.

Date:	2003-08-18 15:39
Subject:	home again
Security:	Public
Mood:	bouncy
Music:	sarah's bday present to me

heehee i really was bouncing around the parking lot at school today.

so i went to band and had my picture taken about 8000 times and mandy said i looked uber sexy and that if she were a guy she'd hit on me. cuz i wore a sexy black dress and a feather boa, lol.

and i hafta go clean up my bedroom some before i go pick up my mother.

so farewell.

Date:	2003-08-18 09:06
Subject:	Way too much band
Security:	Public
Mood:	flirty
Music:	Boyzone, an Irish boy band...about the only pop band I like

See, what happened was...


I stayed up half the night watching an old Doris Day movie called "Move Over, Darling" and I laughed until I cried. At one point she looks at her husband and says "Don't take advantage of me just because I'm a woman!"

I thought it was funny.

Anyway, bad Hailey for getting me hooked on another one of these diaries, but I couldn't resist the little hamster things, lol. And yes, he's still my McDonalds girl.

Your birthday present (and your mother's) will be on the way soon.

And people at work tell me I'm too happy. If only they knew. Hahahahahaha.

"Even though he is a pompous pratboy and I hate him, I think I may love him."

So in a couple of hours I have to call Chad and tell him not to pick me up, because I have a car today. We have band pictures, and I have to make sure my hair is decent because I don't hafta wear those gross uniforms...I get to wear a dress and actually look like a girl.

And yes I feel flirty and no I don't know why. :)