Sunday, August 7th, 2005
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11:58 pm
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er hi.
i'm living with bobby now.. &.. uh.. in ohio.. i'm going to photography college.. im getting my g.e.d
learning how to drive.. got 4 ear holes now.. yup..
nothing new :)
current music: all my love - led zep
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(Go away)
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Thursday, December 18th, 2003
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12:18 am - wow.
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wow ey guys its been a while lol , im back in school and i got a bunch of friends now and lifes going great.. i got a new journal its www.caleida.com/users/drkredduckie and ya
current mood:  calm
current music: garbage - as heaven is wide
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(1Wout go away Go away)
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Wednesday, September 24th, 2003
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3:30 pm - If I were you , I'd hate myself too..
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;\ eh too much drama again. im skiping school again.. my good offline friend is always working so i never hang out with her anymore.. my bf might not meet me offline eh ;\ and i get this feeling that im gonon be alone forever coz i donno.. eh im letting this depression take me over.. well at least in a way.. things arent that bad.. lol.. like this morning my puppy licked my face to wake me up and bobby still wants to be with me. he just doesnt want to come here alone. i donno i havent been going to school coz eh i feel like theres nothing to look forward to ;\ when i wake up i get a feeling that its just gonon be the same thing , no friends , teachers bitching at me , or people picking on me , i dont care when they pick on me its just eh i donno.. mm.. i need to update the journal.. i think after this im gonon go hang out at the clubhouse or ride my bike around and talk to my friend , try to make my day a little better ;\ mm..
current mood:  weird
current music: radio.
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(3Wout go aways Go away)
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Tuesday, September 9th, 2003
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7:57 pm - ...
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;\ i think i need to see a doctor.. ;\ or something eh i keep on getting depressed everyday no matter what ;\ eh and i try to talk to my friend offline but shes usually busy ;\ and doesnt seem ot care much.. and in my classes i just cant make friends eh.. i donno.. i just wish everything would get better and ya.. ; \
current mood: weird
current music: tv..
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(2Wout go aways Go away)
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Wednesday, September 3rd, 2003
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3:23 pm - What good friends some people are :)
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Mmm... well uh I'm back in school yay for me , i still have no friends , my life is still shit :D and right now im pissed off coz people call me a dyke , why the fuck do people think im a guy? i dont even look liike a guy at all! god man im so fucking pissed off. i feel like breaking shit and just threwing shit at the floor and scream and go " FUCKING DIE YOU PIEACE OF SHIT!" ARGG I WANAN FIGHT eh and just now i was talking on palace and everyone just ignores me yayyyy :D. eh today was an annoying day. i got I.S AGAIN yay! and for what? FOR BEING ONE MIN LATE! ONE FUCKING MIN! eh *Screams* bah *Sigh* i wanan do stuff ;\ , go out to a concert or go out and party lol ;\ do something fun today but arg i donno anyone with a ride ;\ and id hang out with my friend who lives arcoss the street but eh i donon i dont want to stay in the house all dya ;\ but eh when in my last hour , this guy was all " see i told u " coz yesutrday he said that i was gono get in trouble if i sleep againa nd then i talked to teacher i didnt get in trouble lol ;\ but then uhh eh coz everyone was lauginh at me so i left all teary eyed and short of breathe and he uh grabed my arm and was all " hey did u get in trouble? " and i was all in a hurry so i said " ya eh " *runs to bus * " loll hes kinda cute ;x but i dont know him good and hes johns friend -.o mm i feel a little better but my back still hurts.. and shit ;\ bah now im wondering if any of my friedns has said anything about me behind my back ;\ coz i donon im always all " noi one ever talks about me im cool " but now im just all " wow ;\ i didnt know people didnt like me that bad "
current mood: weird
current music: the white stripes - the hardest button to button
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(4Wout go aways Go away)
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Tuesday, August 26th, 2003
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8:47 pm - *Sigh* why brother.
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no one cares anyways ;\ , im just an annoying ' girl ' god.. depression sucks.. i cant even sleep that good anymore.. eh well im back in school.. but no friends eh.. i miss jen ;\ eh i need ot cheer up but it hurts so much , and i dont think anyone pretty much cares eh , ah well i might as well leave them alone..
current mood:  depressed
current music: misfits - desending angel
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(1Wout go away Go away)
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Saturday, August 23rd, 2003
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3:26 am
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Tuesday, August 19th, 2003
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1:04 pm
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Tuesday, August 5th, 2003
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2:16 am - mm...
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eh ;\ dodododo.. i hate drama. i hate computers i hate everything. i just wish i could sleep forever snice no one cares ;\ eh today , i was gonon go out and try to have fun but nooo they bitch at me and call me a physcho and tell me to go away , mmm ;\ i dont think im gonon make this a long entry eh whatever.. bye guys.
current mood:  blah
current music: sublime - wrong way
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(2Wout go aways Go away)
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Thursday, July 17th, 2003
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3:09 am - The touch of death is all around us..
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*Sigh* theres somethign wrong with me.. there has to be.. eh I've been getting mad and depressed easily.. im hurting my friends.. ;\ at least i think i am.. *Sigh* i need a job.. i need something to do to get out of here.. i donno.. be actually busy.. ;\ i wish i could do something to my life instead of doing the same thing everyday... ;\ eh i donno.. i wish i could sleep.. Grr.. my sister keeps on poping in the room , i swear i wanan just hurt her sometiems , i cant have any privaty anymore eh ;\ ok yes i REALLY need to go out more.. ;\ but eh the thing is i dont like going to places alone and i donon where to go to eh , and im really shy or anti-socal.. *Sigh* i might as well stop writing in this journal.. before she reads it. mm.. ;\ i miss jen.. i bet shes having fun lol ;\ well.. bye.. eh
current mood:  disappointed
current music: misfits - hunting humans
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(2Wout go aways Go away)
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Sunday, July 13th, 2003
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4:08 am - ;\\
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*Sigh*... eh.. i miss my bf.. i wish he didtn had to work.. ;\ im happy that he has a life.. but im scared of him drifting away with me.. ;\ eh its probly happening already.. he usually gets online tonight and now im worried ;\ coz he didnt come home , his sister said , wait.. i remember hearing her say that he went to his friends house.. maybe my friends right that he could be cheating on me.. naw.. he probly isnt...eh i donno.. at the end of the night , if hes not there i feel all empty and sad before i leave to sleep.. ;\ i donno i guess its those things that when u dont see ur bf for a while u get all sad.. u just feel empty? eh.. ;\ i donno.. maybe ill feel better tomrow..
current mood: depressed
current music: misfits - descending angel
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(Go away)
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Monday, July 7th, 2003
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6:10 pm - quizes
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Thursday, July 3rd, 2003
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12:18 am - bahhh
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bahhh i havent wrote in a while ;\ i got my laptop fixed but my sister took my light >;[ and bah bah bah i dono what tles to say.. i've been looking at old pics oif myself and im all " damn i look goth and werid " ahah
current mood:  indescribable
current music: misfits
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(4Wout go aways Go away)
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Sunday, June 22nd, 2003
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2:26 pm - :D
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I heard you on the wireless back in Fifty Two
Lying awake intent at tuning in on you.
If I was young it didn't stop you coming through.
Oh-a oh
They took the credit for your second symphony.
Rewritten by machine and new technology,
and now I understand the problems you can see.
Oh-a oh
I met your children
Oh-a oh
What did you tell them?
Video killed the radio star.
Video killed the radio star.
Pictures came and broke your heart.
Oh-a-a-a oh
And now we meet in an abandoned studio.
We hear the playback and it seems so long ago.
And you remember the jingles used to go.
Oh-a oh
You were the first one.
Oh-a oh
You were the last one.
Video killed the radio star.
Video killed the radio star.
In my mind and in my car, we can't rewind we've gone to far
Oh-a-aho oh,
Oh-a-aho oh
Video killed the radio star.
Video killed the radio star.
In my mind and in my car, we can't rewind we've gone to far.
Pictures came and broke your heart, put the blame on VTR.
You are a radio star.
You are a radio star.
Video killed the radio star.
Video killed the radio star.
Video killed the radio star.
Video killed the radio star.
Video killed the radio star. (You are a radio star.)
current mood: indescribable
current music: Buggles,The - Video Killed The Radio Star
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(Go away)
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1:27 pm
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current mood:  pissed off
current music: less than jake - teenager in love
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(Go away)
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1:09 pm - Oh my star is fading..
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god ;\ my heart hurts from this dream i had - my family was there and we were talking aobut jackass and i was all " i wanan see the movie " and my dads all " NO U'RE NOT!" coz i wante to go to my friends house and then we start fighting and then i go " WELL U CANT HEAR SHIT!!" and then he gets a pen and sticks it up my chest i think , as hard as he can and i could feel it.. and then he starts yelling at my face and then i left to my room and im trying to go online and trying to talk to my friends and he coems in my room yelling " UR FUFCKING FRIEND CALLED!!" and my heart.. was beating soo hard , not in the dream outside the dream , it was beating so hard ;\ - it... felt so real ;\ and my heart hurt so much ;[ it still hurts i cant breathe that much eh ;\ now im trying to calm myself down.. and im gonon ask my parents to take me to uh a sports store to get chucks ;] or or or uh *thinks* random stores ;] lol
current mood:  scared
current music: less than jake - teenager in love
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(Go away)
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Friday, June 20th, 2003
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12:19 pm - argggggggg *bangs head to desk nonstop*
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i think im gonon get a job , so i could go outside and get money i hate staying home esp with my sisters annoying friends calling here nonstop whining.. mm help me find a job? ;\ comment
current mood: blah
current music: random music
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(5Wout go aways Go away)
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Wednesday, June 18th, 2003
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3:26 pm - Somethings out there..
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wow.. eh.. dont u guys HATE it when ur sister and their friends make fun of u nonstop? and then u just go crazy.. well.. mm today they were making fun of me and i tried to let it not get to me but i went insane.. when they went to the rooom i was in , they were reading my convs and wouldnt leave me alone so i went insane and riped my sisters hair out and pushed her and then they yelled at me and told me to never talk to them again.. mm i dont care about that ;\ and then earlier i was talking to this guy who was my friend who lived near me and i wanted to hang out with him but he kept on going " lets be more then friends " and he has a girlfriend.. i mean wth? i kept on telling him i just wanan be friends and that i want a friend whos gonon be here for me and hug me and hold me.. and cheer me up and do crazy things.. i mean i remember what my other freidn said... shes all " why dont u have ur own friends?" and that got me thinking at this point i have no friends offline i mean.. i mean i just sit at this computer on my fat ass and stare at the screen all day.. im tired.. of staying home.. i tried to go out and asked my friends or peopl,e to go with me but.. their too fucking busy or tired.. like one day i was actualy willing to go to the movies and walk there but my friend was too lazy and didnt want to walk.. mm.. ;\ u know whats werid tho? i meet people near me but they always ALWAYS catch me at a bad time ;\ or i make the wrong inpression ( cant spell ) and it sucks ;\ maybe itd be easier if i didnt know they llived near me at 1st and then id act like myself.. ;\ i need to get a life ;\ , this girl imed me going " i swear im gonon kill u if u hurt mel again " ( mel - my sister ) *sigh* do u think i need help? ;\ im sure all my other friends are all " u're being sad too much ;\ " or ignoring me ;\ *Shurg* ah well... i just need to keep my mouth shut more... much more.. ;\
current mood:  sick
current music: less than jake - look what happedn
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(8Wout go aways Go away)
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Saturday, June 14th, 2003
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9:12 pm - Wow :DD today was.. sooo funnnnnn :D!
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!!! :DD wow man today was soooo funnn! , we kept on singing on the karkie machiness and laughing ahahaha , i laughed so hard when they were singing like a virgin ahahaha and we all sang! :D ahahahha it was soo funn i felt so free :D ahahahhaha :D i wanan do that again! ahaha and and uh *thinks* i just came back now , coz they were gonno watch the ring , im not scared of that movie but damn just image being with people around the room and their all " AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!" hahahha u know id be all scared sahah and and! i found my old book!!! :D i felt a little out of place in the party tho ;\ coz they were all 14/13 but my sisters friends were there so ya i didnt felt out of place :D man... i wanan do that again! :D , know whats werid? im starting to go away from the net but my other friends are drifting away from me ;\ , i mean i feel a little left out coz they get on cam with each other and i get all " uh whats going on? " it sucks a little ;\ mm well im gonon go on palace , or make a icon byee<33 :D
current mood:  exhausted
current music: afi - i forgot the name of this song ;\
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(6Wout go aways Go away)
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3:20 pm - more quizes
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Raido - Safe travel, movement, obtaining justice in an issue, used to keep a situation from stagnating.
Mannaz - Cooperation, teamwork, collaboration, help and aid from others, beginning new projects, especially with others.
Othel - Material possessions and protection of those possessions, inheritance (can be genetic traits inherited from elders).
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