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Monday, March 31st, 2003
7:20 pm - Drugs are the key to happiness!
Today was fun... I ditched school... stole my mom's car and smoked weed all day. I don't want to go tomorrow either. I wanna drop out. Crystal is being so cool with all of this, I'm glad, kinda surprised... but glad. Oh well, whatever. Sean told me that he never wanted to date me and that he only went out with me b/c JT pressured him into it... DAM IT. Oh well =) I'm calm.

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Sunday, March 30th, 2003
6:53 pm - Fuck...
Today was mostly good. I went to the mall with Emily, I bought a chain, hair dye... I thought i was gonna streak my hair again, lunch, and a key chain. Em and I talked a lot and I really got to know her better. We went back to her house. Things were fun till I got home. My mom flipped out and took the hair dye and squirted it on me and screamed "U FUCKIN MORON! GET OUT MY HOUSE!" So we yelled for a while and I locked myself in my room and went online. I turned up music so I didn't hear her cursing me out. That was a few hours ago, now my brother is getting on my case about being home when I shouldn't be so now my mom just finished yelling at me saying shit like "I refuse to feed u this week!" and "Get the fuck out of my house." I just turned up rock music and tried not to listen. But the worst part of it is now I have to smell their dinner and know that I'm not getting any. Oh the fuck well.

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Saturday, March 29th, 2003
9:57 pm - Cops are dumb and mean...
Today was a big day for me... I did some community service and it was total cake. I jus swept up a little today... DAM THAT FLOOR IS DIRTY! Anyways, I went to the beach with Melissa, *Eddie*, John, Harvey, and Philip. We were just chillin and smokin when some psycho lady came and threatened us and shit. John wouldn't stop mouthing off and the lody called the cops. Me, Melissa, and Eddie were pulled off the boardwalk and frisked and almost arrested. Thank God we weren't. I'm so happy. I talked to Melissa afterwards and she 3-wayed Eddie and asked him about me, and hes like... "Hmmm... I dunno, I need to think about it..." THATS INCREDIBLE. This kid is too fine! He is soooo hot. Every time I see him, hes hotter then the last time. I remember the first time I met him... he was with his gf and they were all over each other... but they broke up, and that brooklyn boy is mine! (he moved down from brooklyn a few months ago) Anyways, I'm totally bored and my head hurts.

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Friday, March 28th, 2003
7:28 pm - Today was good till just now...
I was kicked in the leg today. Crystal looked cute today. Umm... Emily and I are chillin sunday. Sean's at a debate thing... nothing too much really happened, which is good. Nicole's mom came to lunch today... they had sushi, I studied for the PE test. JT called me up just now and asked me if I wanted to go to river walk right now but its already 7:30, my parents would flip if i asked NOW. She knows this so wtf is she asking NOW for. Whatever...

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Thursday, March 27th, 2003
3:11 pm - I made Nicole giggle... it was odd.
I sat by Nicole in the assembly today and we were joking around... and I touched her leg... then her face and said "Oh Nicole! I want u!" and she giggled. Then I laughed because it sounded like an actual sexual giggle. It was funny. Anyways... another day went by... what can I say? I haven't talked to Sean in days... and hes like my main ride to all the cool places of the world... but hes better for more then that (AND I DONT MEAN JUST SEX) lol... anyways. I'm starting to talk to Emily more, shes cool. Um thats basically all that happened today.

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Wednesday, March 26th, 2003
5:23 pm - Depression...
I was so sad today... from last night... I cried so much. Corby was being more of an ass hole than usual. Nicole comforted me though, shes so nice, and such a good friend. She wrote me a loooong note today, it was sweet. Crystal didn't have a clue... as usual. I was crying just inches away from her and she didn't even notice... typical Crystal. I hugged Kaitlin today and said... "WE HAVE PSYCHOTIC MOTHERS!" and she said "AMEN SARAH!" it was funny. I think I'm going to go crawl into a hole and die now.

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Tuesday, March 25th, 2003
8:22 pm - More sadness...
I found out what was bothering Nicole, she fucked her b/f and it was unprotected and she thinks she might be pregnant. I hope she isn't shes so sweet. She says shes only had sex 4 times, that's pretty good considering they've dated for 2 years. That girl never ceases to amaze me though. She's cute too! *shifty eyes* did I just say that?!?!?! *checks voice* Ok, I'm not squeaking so I'm ok. My mom threw stuff at me today, again, she screamed too, she kicked me out of the house. I went to Boston market with my brother. I called Crystal to try to calm myself down... she culdn't hear it... but I was really crying a lot. It always hurts when my mom goes off on me.

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Monday, March 24th, 2003
2:51 pm - Sadness!
My mom threw things at me today. Nicole didn't talk to me at all today, I think theres something wrong she looked sad at school. I hope it's nothing serious. Anyways, Crystal was engulfed into Corby as usual, also as usual he threw things at me and made fun of me, and as usual Crystal laughs and ignores the issue and continues to like him. BAH! I hate the cycle that my life has fallen into. It's very adjitating.

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Sunday, March 23rd, 2003
2:37 pm - My God...
My brother is such an ass whole. He thinks hes so big and bad b/c hes getting his car painted. I talked some with Crystal today, my dad was being an ass too... I hope I get my lap top back soon. I can't stand this computer... AND NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE TELLS U DSL ISNT FASTER THEN 56K! This comp is crap... I can't hack on it. *rawr*.

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Saturday, March 22nd, 2003
6:04 pm - Nicole...
I'm starting to become friends with this girl Nicole, shes really cool. She's one of the last nice/psychotic people left in that school. I can't wait to go to McArthur. I'm sooo looking foward to it. Ugh... today was a boring little day. *yawn* I feel less insane today... whatever...

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Friday, March 21st, 2003
4:20 pm - I'M GONNA KILL SOMETHING
LIFE SUCKS LIKE A MOTHER AND I WANNA KILL SOMETHING! I HATE EVERYTHING!

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Sunday, March 16th, 2003
4:00 pm - Life can kiss my ass...
I went to church this morning, Crystal was there. She sat close to me and so did Sean... between the two of them I was smushed. David played incredible today. I think I'm gonna finally IM him today. On the way homw, Sean and I ate at Shell's, afterwards he almost let me drive his car but didnt... I hate you and I hate everyone. I don't mean to be so blah but I'm just not a happy person. Oh well, anyways... I think I'm going to crawl into a hole now and die. Whatever...

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Saturday, March 15th, 2003
2:16 pm - Blah...
Today I did community service, I worked at the shirt shop place thingy. Those women are so racist, I felt so out of place but whatever, I need hours and they needed help so I figured I would. I talked to Crystal today, shes so much fun to talk to, I love that girl. I'm looking forward to tomorrow, cuz I get to see David. Sean's driving me. Tomorrow is my dad's birthday, and I havent gotten him anything yet, oh well. I'll think of something. Today is going to be really slow, I hate it. I want to do something big and important, not sit around here like a moron. Whatever...

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Friday, March 14th, 2003
3:30 pm - Stabbing is fun.
I feel so violent. I took out my knife today and stabbed lots of things... my life sucks and I want to die. I hate people and people hate me. Aren't I positive? Anyways... I just recently met this really hot guy named David, hes the drummer of a band. Hes incredible, I hope I get the nerve to talk to him. Anyways, my nearest and dearest friend JT is in the hospitol all this weekend and may die. I feel like crap. I'm starting to become closer to Crystal, thats good. But I still hate life. So... whatever.

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