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| 10:46am 07/06/2003 | ||||
sry for not writing yesterday, it was quite hectic..but ill do a double entry, hah cuz im so cool maybe? Friday Alright, well today in school was sooo different than ever before...it was sunny out, and for some reason, i was happy to be at school, for the first time ever this entire year. i felt so free, like a huge wieght was just lifted from my shoulders...clifford was gone...and forever. i wasnt afraid to ask questions, i wasnt afraid to make a mistake, which is actually human believe it or not, contrary to what she may believe. ahh i loved it tho, it was so great, and mrs marchetta is the best...shes doing anything possible to help us bring our grades up to their full potential. props to her for taking on such a huge job and being able to do so much in such a short period of time, i mean finals are in two weeks...and then we're out of school for the summer. but i seriously dont dread going to science anymore, but rather like eager to do whatever possible to bring up my grade. this is definately the highlight of my year. well...i gave in. my parents won. i am now enrolled in the bachelors barge rowing club for 8 weeks of the summer. shit. how the hell did i give in to that?!?! there goes my summer, right out the freaking window. i was soo looking forward to just like having nothing to worry about, because soccer basically ran my summer last year, and that made it seem like it was like cut short having soccer every morning. but this rowing thing i guess is different. because its like supposed to be 5 days a week, 3 hours a day, 8 weeks of the summer...but i can only go to practice 3 days a week, and maybe only about 6 weeks because of finals, and because i go on vacation with my fam. so i guess its not that bad...and plus its from 3:30 to 6 or something, which is the time where nothing really happens...and ill be home in time to go out that night. and then i have tuesdays and thursdays off...cuz i have summer league soccer at night, and then i have the weekend......i guess i should stop complaining, and just wait it out, i mean the whole experience will be good..i guess? i get to meet new people, and stuff like that, and the coaches will see how dedicated i am, and all that good stuff. i mean cuz i am really considering staying with this sport and maybe even continuing through college. but im only a freshman, and that all could change, but it never hurts to think ahead... alright, well my night was bittersweet. i was forcerd to go out to dinner with my family, where i think the panzarotti i ate made me sick. and then i called renee and beth and stuff, but they were at emcofs, and she "couldnt have anymore ppl over" (ill explain the " "'s later..) so i was like, alright, well call me if u guys leave or w/e, but it was nice that they called and stuff, since they said they would...but i was kinda, idk, because friday was my night out with my friends, and well, i didnt really spend it with the ppl that i would have liked to most. i was stuck with you know who, the one who i swore to myself i wouldnt be...and kait, dont get me wrong, i love kait, shes my bff!! but like i would rather her and i not be with them, and be with like with those other ppl and with beth and renee, because renee is my bff too, but we like dont hang out...its wierd...and i dont wanna grow apart from her like i have with kat...and dana, i dont understand how she criticized me for "not balancing my time between my friends and boyfriend" yet doesnt even hang out with me, so how is she really affected by my incompetant balancing skills? w/e.. so anyway, i got back from dinner, called kt, cuz i knew i couldnt go to em's, and she was with julia, emily r, and martha...sooo i met up with them, we all stood around for like 15 mins, and then emrob and julia and martha left for emilys...i thought she coulndt have anymore ppl over??? and they just left, like them three, and i know that it was cuz "she" was there, and em didnt wanna have to deal with that, but how come i wasnt allowed to come earlier...does she not like me like she doesnt like her?? :( im sick of this, and im starting to think that the reason i dont hang out with those ppl is cuz they dont like me like they dont like her....before i thought that they didnt want kt to come, and if i was with her, i couldnt come either..but now i think that list of ppl they dont like includes me too...i mean what else could it be? ive run out of excuses. alright, so me, kt, rachel, and kait were like alirghty then, what should we do? we walked around and stuff, playing phone tag with the guys, and we were gonna meet up with them, but that never happened, so we went to rachels, and layed on the trampline just talking, kt left at like 930, so that was cool. but rach's was surprisingly fun, just me kat and rach, talking about stuff...i like times like that...even though it wasnt like eventful, it was still fun, and i cant say i regret going there....but im going for a run in the rain with renee (hahahahh 3 r's!) ...<3 *9 days til dixie chicks* unitl tomorrow, ~andrea |
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