| 07:01pm 06/01/2004 | |||
| Okay, I moved to LiveJournal. Search and find, darlings. | |||
| 06:27pm 06/01/2004 | ||||
I was at work yesterday. It seems the evening shift has been planning a night together bowling/carting and then going to a restaurant. O_O With my social skills and easy diet it should be a wonderful night. *grins* I have nothing against my co-workers nor bowling or going to race at the carting place, but I’d rather get an extra day’s pay or something instead of going out. So, I was at my sister’s place some time ago. Burned a pile of amvs among other stuff. And my God, some of them are truly excellent. They have an idea, plot, catchy music and I’m just fanatically listening to them over and over again, which is not good considering my projects. For example Delerium and Sarah McLachlan’s Silence is so beautiful it makes me ache. The melody, lyrics, vocals and everything attached to an excellent video. I’ve been watching it over an over and still haven’t got enough. I know I can be pretty fanatic when it comes to music, but it’s better to be addicted to music than to heroin, don’t you think. Though my frenzy can be a little dangerous for my surroundings. Usually when I hear a good song, I can restrain myself to swaying with the music or maybe humming and dancing but sometimes I start singing and that’s a real pain, foe everyone else. Seems that all my friends are moving to LiveJournal. Maybe I should also pack my stuff and get going. Let's see... |
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confused| Fangirly as ever | ||||
| 02:47pm 02/01/2004 | ||||
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chipper| “There are no dangerous thoughts; thinking itself is dangerous.” | ||||
| 02:36pm 02/01/2004 | ||||
So, again at my sister's place. I'm positively freezing here despite my pullover, two blankets and a pile of pillows. It must be something like +17 here, meaning that I can hardly type. A new year, new tricks. My New Year's Eve was as boring as it has been for years, meaning I read some fanfiction until around 11 pm and then went to bed. Oh the excitement and thrill. ¨_¨ And of course I kept mentally cussing at every single idiot who deared to fire rockets and scare our dogs. Oh, sure rockets are pretty and mosty made by kids in China/Thailand... who risk their lives each and every day at work. *notices she is ranting again and shuts up* But I learned something abouth myself while reading. I noticed that though I like the nice, happy, sweet stories, I can't read too many of them before I start to feel really lonely. They make me wish I had someone to cuddle next to and someone who wouldn't mind warming my frozen fingers. I might appear as heartless/emotionless but that is a far cry from the truth. And so as not to feel so abandoned I mostly like to read the more violent/hurting/insane ones, which means I should get my text documents a password, as well as my gallery. I'm sorry you had to put your journal friends only, Gabby. Okay, I should start wrapping up and go home, 'cause my brother has his birthday today. And I still have plenty to do before school starts. “If I were not an atheist, I would believe in a God who would choose to save people on the basis of the totality of their lives and not the pattern of their words. I think he would prefer an honest and righteous atheist to a TV preacher whose every word is God, God, God, and whose every deed is foul, foul, foul.” -Isaac Asimov |
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cold| 06:00pm 28/12/2003 | ||||
I managed to do something today, (except for watching an outrageous amount of anime, of course) namely to dye my hair. Now it's something a bit mahogany, I suppose. I kinda like it. For a change my hair looks as if I actually took some care of it. ^_^ Day's random quizz. In the honor of my "read-as-many-Weiss-Kreutz-fanfics-as-you-can-before-you-drop -obsession".  You're Brad Crawford! The slightly dysfunctional Weiss Kreuz Quiz brought to you by Quizilla Uptight asshole? WTF. Okay, I know I can be at times but that's still a bit harsh. Quote: I know it's late, I know you're weary I know your plans don't include me Still here we are, both of us lonely Longing for shelter from all that we see Why should we worry, no one will care Look at the stars so far away We've got tonight Who needs tomorrow? We've got tonight Why don't you stay? Tom Jones: We've got Tonight |
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content| Akabane-sama is here | ||||
| 01:24pm 27/12/2003 | ||||
Was yesterday over at my daddy's place. I just love his cooking and his cats are now almost adults meaning they are big, graceful and beautiful. The funny part is that though they were named Hansu and Pirre, they are both males. O_o Been reading a crap load of fanfiction since the weather sucks. Still going through Madamhydra's fics. If you haven't read her Saiyuki fic Addicted to Love, then go. It really made my day. But why doesn't my timer work in blurty? I need to set the time each and every time. *whinewhine* I'm quite cream crackered after messing around with my journal so I wouldn't like to find what is wrong with my windows/blurty/timer to set things right. Quote: Friendship (n.): Having someone who will skip your funeral so they can break into your home and get rid of your porn collection before your family gets back to sort out your belongings. -? |
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devious| and it just keeps on raining inside of me, but nothing shows to the outside | ||||
| 09:27pm 24/12/2003 | ||||
I hate her. *watches the Christmas Spirit choke and die* But what made me laugh today were the boxer briefs my brother got from his godmother. They are covered in these UFO heads that shine in the dark. O_o My mother said they were truly boxers worth wearing. Sorta alarming. Well, they proved that the whole world is truly hentai. |
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weird| Just to wish you everything good | ||||
| 06:06pm 24/12/2003 | ||||
Okay, so the meaning of this update was to wish you all the very best Christmas, but of course I got distracted. Hope you enjoy our holiday. Oh, and please forgive my typos, I'm not in the mood to check them. Christmas is the time for forgiving, ne? Even for those who torture English. |
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| 12:20pm 22/12/2003 | ||||
It's my last day of work before Christmas. Hurray. Tomorrow I'll have to clean up the house and do the groceries, because mom has work and Terhi is sick. After that I won't leave the house (except to take the dogs out) for a week or so (=until work starts again). Watched the whole Infinite Castle arch of Get Backers. It was great fun. A lot of really happy fangirl screaming (Akabane, Ban, Makubex, Juubei, Kadzuki, Kagami,...). Now I just have around 20 chapters left. And the Tenipuri musical and some Avenger and other random stuff. Meaning I'll be sitting in front of the computer way too long if my mother is asked. And finally managed to watch Pirates of the Caribbean. I liked it! It looked nice, the cast was good(looking), some weird humour, a plot (of some sort) and it was so slashable it might keep me going until I get to see the final part of LOTR. Reading a funny book right now. " Isä sanoi hiljaa: "Ei minulla ole suhdetta Anaïsin kanssa. Äidilläsi on."" XD Anaïs is , by the way, daddy's female secretary. Okay, must go now. |
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busy| "'Cause lies weigh more than truth" | ||||
| 12:20pm 14/12/2003 | ||||
So, our fifth dog arrived yesterday. She is still alive, so I think things are pretty well. ^_^ Although she needs a proper diet before I'll call her anyhing else than fatty. Was yesterday to see the play Medeia. It's funny how it just reminded me of my parents divorce, some really ugly arguments they had, it even brought back the same sickening feelings of fear and helplessness I thought I had already gotten over. Fat chance. It was like living everyhing again. All the bad moments of a 12-year-marridge in 80 minutes. God, just thinking about it makes me want to throw up. So I guess it was a rather good play if it could make me feel and rememer all those things. On a more positive side I finally managed to find another good author. The stuff that Madamhydra has in her Obsidian Shadows (GW) is absolutely addictive. I'm so bored of the cliches in the whole fandom but she breaks the most annoying ones, like Duo being some angelic spazz, Quatre being just a whining brat,... And turning tables making Duo, Heero, Trowa, Quatre and Wufei the baddies of the story= a lot of happy screaming. They are all AU, of course, but I've always been more into GW AU fics. And I absolutely love her Duo in The Other Side. ..."He flung up his hands and yelled, "I hate amateurs! I REALLY hate incompetent morons! AND I HATE INCOMPETENT AMATEUR MORONS MOST OF ALL!!!" ... The blond chuckled and said, "Duo, you can be such an utter bastard at times." Duo's grin widened. With a wink, he said, "Of course I am! After all, I was designed that way!" ... *hearts* She has written a lot of other stuff and fandoms too, but I haven't still managed to read anything else. *pout* Okay, today's worklist: 1 finish Math homework 2 Check all your homework (Though I think I'll skip this one) 3 Christmascards 4 If dear granny calls, yell at her enough to make her close the phone. If she calls again, make her cry. 5 Continue your projects 6 Levyraati Okay, the girl I mentioned some time ago (who had started cutting again), her journal has disappeared. It made me scared. I tried to look for her but couldn't find anything. I just hope she was taken to a hospital or something or that she just didn't want to keep that journal anymore. I really hope she hasn't done anything permanent. It just annoys that I can't get any reliable info before I find her friends journals or something. Quote:"“If Jesus came today, Catholic schoolgirls would be wearing little electric chairs around their necks." -?" |
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indescribable| 04:45pm 10/12/2003 | |||
| So, next weekend we'll get our fifth dog. A poodle. A very old, spoiled poodle. *headdesk* I might consider crying now but I'm at work. Okay, 'cause ageing finally caught my greataunt (born 1921), she can no longer take care of her dog and so we get the bitch. *oh dear Lord, why me* To be totally honest one more dog isn't that much more work but still. Our neighbours already think we're strange, soon they'll call Kupittaa. | |||
| 04:49pm 09/12/2003 | |||
| Yes! I just got my paycheck. *glow* I made money over our "safety net", meaning my boss is happy, I'm happy and everyone is happy. Except that now I should go earn a bit more selling a product I can't market too well. And I need to sell better than some boys to win a competition were having. And they have some real experience to help them whereas I'm new in this profession. Okay, gotta go. | |||
| 08:42pm 06/12/2003 | ||||
So after sleeping 5 ½ hours, I woke up at 5:50 am and started cleaning up our house. That’s what I’ve been doing ever since. And now I’m just watching the Independence Day Celebration/ President’s Ball. And downloading updates. And generally fighting with my computer. OMG Tarja Turunen and her avec! Stunning. Some random ficrec: I love this piece of fanfiction: Insanity. It’s beautiful, angsty, deep and the characters are complex and well written. And it includes ncs, insanity, cussing, violence, abuse, OC, OOC, some random bashing, drugs,… you get the point. I should write my project about life in our solar system, but I’m just too lazy. Big surprise. And to be totally honest, the fact that I need to see my creepy Astrology teacher in the Physics storage next week is making me want to flee. I don’t want to talk about my project with him! He is intelligent and pretty decent but I have a lot of trouble trusting ´strangers´. Weird, my hands are now so cold I can’t feel them anymore. Maybe a cup of tea would warm me a bit. Nah, I’m too lazy to walk to the kitchen. Quote:Your grammar is atrocious. Your characterization is not only unbelievable, but wildly inconsistant, and your fic is riddled with plot holes the size of a quidditch pitch. It was also unbelievably hot. Please write more. -The Pandora Complex, Nimori PS I must admit that sometimes I can read a fic with no plot/idea/imagination/anything good at all just for the sake of some decent lemon or a good pairing. Lame, I know. |
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| 05:56pm 29/11/2003 | ||||
Was in Citymarket with my Mom and sis yesterday. There was a sale of somesort on mascaras and haircolours and Mom and sis were all excited and all I could think was 'when do I get to the hifi, CD, PS2 -game area?' And so my Mom kept on cracking a joke about our dog being more at home with cosmetics than I am. Hah hah, very funny. Though I must say that compairing eyeliners or pondering the advantages of different mascara brushes isn't really my poison of choice. Na ja.  Which Historical Lunatic Are You? From the fecund loins of Rum and Monkey. You are Ludwig II, the Swan King of Bavaria! Born with the name of Otto, you became Ludwig at the request of your grandfather, King Ludwig I, because you were born on his birthday. You became Crown Prince at the tender age of 3, and soon after stole a purse from a shop on the basis that everything in Bavaria belonged to you. Tragedy struck when your pet tortoise was taken away; relatives thought the six-year-old prince was too attached to it. Your childhood was lonely and formal. Once, you were prevented from beheading your younger brother by the timeous arrival of a court official. From the age of 14 you suffered from hallucinations. Despite striking an imposing figure with your great height and good looks, your speeches were pompous to the point of incomprehensibility. You became even more of a recluse, often spending hours reading poetry in a seashell-shaped boat in your electrically-illuminated underground grotto. You are most famous for building three fairytale castles - Linderhof, Neuschwanstein and Herrenchiemsee - at tremendous public expense. Declared insane and confined to your bedroom by concerned (and embarrassed) subjects, you escaped on 13 June 1886, but were later found drowned with your physician in Lake Stamberg in mysterious circumstances. I've always felt kinda sorry about his death, because he really had an eye for beautiful things and architecture. So being compaired to Ludwig isn't really that bad. |
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| 04:20pm 26/11/2003 | ||||
Okay, had my German test in the morning, will retake it. Went home, took dogs out and came back for my Astronomy lessons and now I'm waiting for work to be over so I could finally go home and get something to eat and then get some sleep. Weekend, please arrive soon! I have a pile of books/anime/random stuff to do just waiting for me. And a test. I knew you were waiting for it (Get back this instant and look what this tells about me. And no, you can't pay me to stop taking these things, sorry.)  How evil are you? I just glanced at my next term timetable. It royally bites ass. 30 hours at school + 12 at work + at least 5 in the bus + 5-10 h on homework /week. When do I have time for stuff like sleeping, reading and things like that? Na ja, gotta go. |
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blah| It's just life. First it will toy with you and then it will kill you. | ||||
| 08:57pm 22/11/2003 | ||||
I arrived just before midnight yesterday. The bus smelled of cheap red wine and it made me nauseous. Fuck I hate those retarded idiots who say "drinking is your own busines". I get mentally and physicly sick everytime I pass someone who even smells of alcohol. And then I woke up before 8 am, meaning that I'm tired. Big surprise. Well, I managed to burn a lot of stuff, but it seems like two of the CD-Rs don't work. *rage* And they were the ones including sweet stuff like Gackt's PVs and so on. *RAGE* Nah, I just need to shift my ass to an ADSL (=my sister's PC) and load and burn everything again. Should be studying History, but Full Metal Alchemist was a lot more tempting. It was hilarious and sad and angsty and just perfect. Being an otaku has its moments. My sis gave me her old prom dress (Old's Dance sounds so lame, so I pretend prom is acceptable). It's black satin and really pretty and fits me perfectly (okay, it's a bit loose, but you get the point) and I love black. But I'm not going to the prom! So if anyone needs a prom dress, I could borrow it. It's made for someone over 170 cm and size is 36, I suppose, or 38, dunno. It has this funky (OMG I just wrote /funky/) sorta low/broad neckline but other than that it's pretty simple. In a good way. One of my online friends has started cutting again. Somehow that just made my day. She is just, what 15. And she was doing well for a good year but then things took the U-turn to hell and she is hiding knives in her room. Again. Her mother just yells she will miss school if she keeps this going on, her real life friends think she is a wimp and pills don't seem to work. And she hates her shrink. This world just breaks me sometimes. Maybe that is why I look for places like this http://www.rathergood.com/swearotron.html. Deep in the cradle of the moon You rock to sleep beneath the sky Way up high, where the wind tumbles Don't be afraid, nothing will harm you Spread your arms; here, I'll hold you Let the kiss of starlight enfold you And so... Good night, my secret little star I will watch over you All through the night All through the night. http://www.livejournal.com/users/kodalai/ Can't manage html anymore. Just so lazy and stuff.  You are a true Dear. Are you a true Gackt fan? brought to you by Quizilla Me? A dear?? Wishful thinking. I'm so cold and tired. Guess I should go to bed. Quote:“With increased knowledge comes an increased capacity for pain. So if ignorance is bliss, enlightenment must be pure hell.” -Darien Fawkes, The Invisible Man |
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sad| 05:44pm 21/11/2003 | ||||
Oh and I found the place where the Fullmetal Alchemist screencaps were. (http://www.livejournal.com/users/entropygirl/180789.html#cutid1) I fluked my English essay but I suppose the rest went ok. Now I only need to pass my History and German tests. |
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crazy| mukandou mukanshin kiri ga nai ne Apathy, indifference...It's so endless | ||||
| 01:11pm 15/11/2003 | ||||
omoi ga kage e to utsusarete In English: The moonlit night is so cold.. Shining upon my heart.. My thoughts appear in shadows Feeling kinda weird, again. Damn girl hormones! And damn flu. I’m so detached, cold, numb and bored. My nightmares are back with revenge and I’m sleepy all the time. I was hungry and I just watched tv and didn’t even bother to walk to the fridge and eat something. It would be funny, if it weren’t so spooky. I can’t bring myself to study, meaning test week will eat me alive. I’ve just went through the English CD, but my Math and History books are just waiting, untouched. Blah, this whining is so boring, change of subject. I watched Air Master and Avenger today. Avenger was terrific. I love its beauty and angst. Layla was just so *is at loss for words* stunning. Hmm that word doesn’t do justice for her. Air Master was very amusing. Because I like the concept of street fighters, it was great fun. I’m going tomorrow to my sister’s place, to babysit her kids. And to play with her ADSL, naturally. Going to get some music and scanlations and stuff. ( I'm a complete sucker for Get Backers ) I guess I should go have my next nightmare, urm, I mean go sleep. I'm so tired even waking up a couple of hours from now screaming sounds a great idea. |
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| Just me whining | ||||
| 04:16pm 12/11/2003 | ||||
Another endless day of school and work. A weird day, also. Things go so fast when the testweek aproaches. I'm sure there is something wrong with my spelling. I just can't seem to figure what it is. Oh, my sister got her test results. Nothing wrong, so she was given some medication to kill infections (antibiotics, if I'm right). But if they don't work, she'll go to a doctor specialized in rheumatism. For crying out loud she is just 15 and they are considering rheumatism! Why isn't it enough that were allergic and have bad eyes? Enough bitching, I need to get myself together before work starts. Quote: Treize: Are there any synonyms for finished that AREN'T euphemisms for orgasm? Teena: ...Not that I know of. Treize: It says something about our use of the English language, I think. Duo: Says the entire human race is hentai. -MST of Duo and the Dolls, Teena |
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numb| “Nothing is as far away as one minute ago.” | ||||
| 02:56pm 08/11/2003 | ||||
Yesterday was great. Well, after the German lesson ended, that is. Talking, eating, watching a good movie, snuggling on the sofa, great friends... And just when things looked good for a change, bam and down you go that slippery slope. This morning I woke up 5.58 from my nightmares and couldn't fall back asleep, even though I was exhausted as hell. I've been having nightmares every friggin' night for over a week now, and it's really bringing me down. I'm feeling really empty right now. Terhi is on a camp, Reetta and Harri at our father's place. I came from there a couple of hours ago. It was okay, or would have been, if I'd been able to feel something. But I just walked and brushed the cats and talked a couple of words without feeling anything at all. Hmm I bet I can't even feel any physical pain right now. Wait, let's test, no, I can see the scar and feel the pressure but it doesn't hurt. Kinda weird. ( Literally 3.30am ) I'll go to bed now. Must do schoolwork tomorrow. Quote:“Write what disturbs you, what you fear, what you have not been willing to speak about. Be willing to be split open.” -Natalie Goldberg |
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