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Sunday, February 8th, 2004

Subject: wooop Time: 2:23 pm. Mood: indescribable. Music: four stay mary -- pain.

Nickleback // Someday how the hell did we wind up like this? why weren't we able to see the signs that we missed and try to turn the tables? i wish you'd unclench your fists and unpack your suitcase lately there's been too much of this don't think it's too late nothing's wrong just as long as you know that someday i will... someday, somehow i'm gonna make it alright but not right now i know you're wondering when (youre the only one who knows that) someday, somehow i'm gonna make it alright but not right now i know you're wondering when well i hoped that since we're here anyway we could end up saying things we've always needed to say so we could end up saving now the story's played out like this just like a paperback novel let's rewrite an ending that fits instead of a hollywood horror nothing's wrong just as long as you know that someday i will... someday, somehow i'm gonna make it alright but not right now i know you're wondering when (youre the only one who knows that) someday, somehow i'm gonna make it alright but not right now i know you're wondering when how the hell'd we wind up like this? why weren't we able to see the signs that we missed and try to turn the tables? now the story's played out like this just like a paperback novel let's rewrite an ending that fits instead of a hollywood horrow nothing's wrong just as long as you know that someday i will... someday, somehow i'm gonna make it alright but not right now i know you're wondering when (youre the only one who knows that) someday, somehow i'm gonna make it alright but not right now i know you're wondering when...

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Subject: wow... Time: 4:30 pm. Mood: rushed. Music: Lillex_It's About Time.

sorry i havent updated everyone! well, the like--one person who reads this. im really sorry. oops, i guess i forgot about it. leannea reminded me of it when i read hers. sorry about the lack of updates. this year has gone/is going by so fast! i cant believe school is almost over. like, 12 days left! Thats including all the days im taking off, of course. Like, im going to 6 flags next friday. then team day is the wednesday after that, and then that thursday me sam and em are going "shopping". lol, its our code name for going to the beach with the ELLE KAYE! (sisterly unit). well, i have a concert tonight, and i really need to get ready because im sooo not ready at all! :-* bye!

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Subject: *_lavendar skies_* Time: 3:19 pm. Mood: pissed off. Music: Babyface_When Can I See You Again?.

yeah, i made sure i typed the right password and EVERYTHING. this better get it... well, i'll save it anyway, in case it doesnt. I'm actually feeling type-y right now. Maybe it's cause i'm generally pissed off right now. Emily has got something up her ass. She stereotypes freakin' everyone. She went to a Finch concert (this isnt a jealousy entry...not yet anyway!) and shes telling me about this kid who "obviously didnt fit in" and stuff. I asked why, and she put it quite plainly "he was wearing a freaking jersey! That gave it away". Umm, okay, Em. Stereotype much? Argh, she pisses me off, 'cause she always does that. If someone isnt wearing black she instantly labels them, then complains when she thinks teachers do the same thing to her. ^ rant of the day. or week. or year. argh, who knows. it just was bothering me because emily is always in a bad mood, and it only changes when she's with jeff. But...Jeff is usually the one that puts her in the bad mood, yet she refuses to dump him. She always whines about him using her for *stuff*, but doesnt do anything about it. She doesnt realize that Jeff's making her weak, and that pisses me off. She used to be strong, now... she's not. i want her to become strong again. To have strength or something like strength. Maybe she'll change... but she's convinced she's gonna be with Jeff forever. why, i dont know... hmm.. well, i'm out of here. thats all i have to say on that subject, and i feel like a bitch now. :/ -:|:- samantha -:|:-

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Subject: -:|:- freakin' weekend -:|:- Time: 10:09 pm. Mood: horny. Music: Commercials :).

at katlyn grady's right now, spending the fuckin' night here ;) hah, with swilly, too. We (me and swilly) were at adams for like, 3 hours, then we hitched a ride with markus to get here. his mom is tooo nice sometimes, lol. tomorrow samanfa is leaving at freakin' 10 -ish... how crazy is that? mucho crazy, i know. Chris is coming over here tomorrow, hopefully so is Mikell. :D he makes me happy. That is a verrrry good thing. keep it on the d/l ;) so yeah...thats my random entry...that was pretty random. katlyn grady is the goofiest girl i've ever met. I WUB HER SOOOOOO MUCH :) *_samantha_*

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Subject: *_some are all together mine_* Time: 9:22 am. Mood: hopeful. Music: Mariah Carey_Dreamlover.

ya know, over the course of the last couple days, i've come to blurty.com to update several times. but each time, i get distracted by those "newly made" journals, cos i like to look at them. lol, so sorry. wellll... last night i went to Katlyn Grady's. Some people had more fun that others. Everyone had more fun than me. That seriously might have been a waste of my time. Everyone was paired off- the only people left were me, mark, nick, chris and jeff. But Jeff was too busy crying over Courtney, becos shes going to dump him, and i decided that nick and chris are gay, and mark... i dunno. he's wicked cute, and nice, and tall. but i dunno, i dont think he likes me. but...its wicked hard to find a guy taller than me, and i looove a tall boy, so... *goes weak in the knees*. maybe i'll get him to like me, you never know. anyway. i slept for most of the night anyway. i just crawled away and no one noticed i was gone. i collapsed on katlyn's bed, and just slept. my dreams were much better than reality...go figure. well... i have MICCA (a band competition thingy) today, at like...12:30. thats fun, yesiree. Nah, i'm just kidding, i'd rather kill myself. i used to like band competitions- they get me outta the house. but now, my mom has gone all "parental involvement" on me, and became head chaperone, so she follows me everywhere. Ack. i really want to go get my motorcycle helmet sometime this weekend, but knowing my dad... *sighs*. i wish he could be like a normal parent. you know, one of those ones that cares and is understanding and stuff. but no.. well, i'm outta here, going to my dads right now. ttyl.

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Subject: *_close your eyes, make a wish_* Time: 8:20 pm. Mood: hopeful. Music: Gary Jules_Mad World.

sorry, but this entry won't be that long. i just wanted you to know i'm un-dead. i'm very much alive. last night i slept over beth's with amber and ashley for her birthday party, it was uber-fun. today we were all chilling above the garage with andrew now, cause we were supposed to work on our English commercial for Pepsi (its extra credit), but we really didnt get anywhere. We just couldnt get any ideas, so we just screwed it and hung out. We'll probably all regret it when we fail our next report card and stuff, but still. i had fun just hanging out. lol, andrew took my skort and put it on like, over his pants and then over just his boxers and we filmed him..it was SO funny. well, now i'm home alone..with lindsay and mitch and my dad. But my dad lives on the other side, lindsay and mitch are upstairs, and i'd consider it a blessing if they left, because theyre so incredibly disgusting together. *gags* well, i told you this wasnt gonna be long OR good (or long AND good), so here it is. love it or leave it, i suppose. Well, enjoy... :D *_samantha_*

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Subject: *bows* Time: 9:00 pm. Mood: pissed off. Music: I Know What You Want_Busta Rhymes and Mariah Carey.

wow, a lot has happened. well, not really. last weekend was fun. On friday i went to the mall, then to brittneys then to katlyn's, then on saturday i slept over emilys, and i slept over sunday, too, because [oops, i by accidently hit enter...sorry, you got a half entry] well, monday was a professional development day for teachers, then on sunday i went to mikes and chilled with katlyn and chris, then they left and it was mike and i for a while. he's such a cool kid. hes my best friend, i can tell him ANYTHING. and the coolest thing, is that he like, agrees with me. we have the same views. does that spell best friend or what?? well, i was dating adam for like, a week, but now i'm not. I've wasted too many kisses on him, and too many tears. Why bother?? shame on me for kissing him with my eyes closed so tightly. (i forget the rest of the quote, but its from the movie "That Thing You Do" and liv tyler says it and its such a good quote.) well... tonight was the Southbridge exchange concert, and Southbridge came here (we go there April 1) and they were talking MAD shit about us. i was like...wtf? thats soo gay. ANd then their band director defended them and sayin' that they only acted like that because their school and town is poor. Dude, have you SEEN blackstone? It SUCKS. and if their school sucks so bad, they have no right to be talking shit about OURS. me and malyna decided that when we go there, we're just gonna be all nice and classy, and not talk any shit. we're gonna be perfectly polite, and thats that. We've got class, and they dont. Sucks to be them. well, thats it for now. Everyone is now in love with adam. Jesus Christ, they all moved in on him only like, in a matter of hours after he dumped me. I think thats pretty rude..i mean, they didnt even give a fuck how i felt. Man, i thought they were pretty friendly with me. In fact...best friendly. But, i guess not. Well...it sucks to be me, once again. Dammit, that is stupid. -:|:- samantha -:|:- me and my girls, we got class- you mess with us, we'll kick your ass. to all ya'll haters who think you're *it*, compared to us, you ain't got SHIT.

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Subject: :) Time: 6:28 pm. Mood: full. Music: Gary Jules_Mad World.

sorry i havent updated you in a while. today was pretty boring, actually. (haha, as if you couldnt believe that..) History first period, i feel asleep for the third day in a row. How can he blame me?? I mean, he makes us watch a boring video... of course, we can never finish it because i think he keeps hitting the pause button and making dumb comments on the mill villages in Massachusetts. Blah blah blah, Lowell girls, blah blah blah, Blackstone River. has anyone ELSE learned that yet? if you have, i'm sure you know JUST how boring it is. its pretttty boring. In spanish, we took a quiz. it was all on the vocabulary on the rooms in your house, and what you can do around there (chores and such). From "limpiar el bano" to "el dormitorio". blah. i got a 95 on it (i was supposed to get a 90, but Jeff's an idiot). So yeah, that class was pretty boring. i forgot how much everyone sucks. During english we just goofed off. Kyle came about mid-way into class, and told us he got 5 days major suspension. thats 11 am to 4 pm, so he gets no contact with ANYONE. Mr. Staples is such a dick. But the reason WHY he got it..now that's just funny. Cassie O'Connell is my friend..sometimes.. but other times, she pisses me off to no end. So apparently in gym class, she was wearing REALLY short shorts, and Kyle told her to "tuck her balls in". LMAO! So cassie had to go and make a big case of it and tell mr. staples. what a bitch thing to do? She couldnt just laugh it off... i should've told kyle to make a big deal of it. He should've told mr. staples that the point of the dress code is to not have any distractions from the educational process, and cassie wearing wicked short shorts (which were against the dress code) caused kyleto make fun of her.. He should've made cassie the bad person in that situation. Instead, he's stuck sitting up there in the in-house room, jacking off for five days. thats definitely not fair. i mean- a senior got 5 days major suspension for stealing computer parts from the school and selling them on Ebay. How does what kyle said compare to that? it doesnt, so he shouldn't have gotten the same punishment. ERGH. mr. staples should die. i had algebra for block, and i finished my test... BORING. it was so easy, too. then we did some shit with calculators. We went to lunch, came back, did some stuff on the Pythagorean Theorem, which we learned in what? third grade? argh, yes. then i had gym and band, which are the easiest classes ever...well, there was more to my day, but kristen needs to use the computer- talk to you guys later. -:|:- samantha -:|:-

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Subject: scurvy doo, or something like that. Time: 7:39 pm. Mood: lazy. Music: American Idol.

hey hey hey...whAt is going on here? -- mr. belding, sAved by the bell. ^ whAt A greAt show. not such A greAt quote, but A greAt show nonetheless. it kicked Ass. All of the episodes Are still....greAt. mmhmm, definitely. well, not much hAs been hAppening here. check out my pic page-- My aLbum yup yup, go there and look at gLorious pictures of ME. mwAh hAh hAh, just whAt you wAnted to see. uck, my teachers have been piling on the homework second semester. I have history, spanish, science and math. yuck. i wouldnt be upset if it was easy homework or something..but this homework is hard, and it SUCKS. blah, school sucks, too. i quit :/ the talent show is on Thursday, and afterwards i think ashley, amber, mary, dyanna, beth and maybe sofia are coming over. probably sleeping over, i mean..my mom doesnt care anyway. should be fun :/ we dont have no school on fridat, so fun-ness. and mary just bought The Ring. i havent heard it...but i heard it was scary. someone wanna lemme know if it is or not? Because if it is...yikes. i watched Feardotcom the other night with all those girls and WOW was i scared. beth and i were absolutely terrified! well, i have to go do that pile of homework that's waiting for me upstairs. yuck. well, talk to you later *_samAntha_*

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Subject: hm... Time: 11:16 am. Mood: crappy. Music: b2k_bump bump bump.

well, it is official, mike IS over his last girlfriend. now he and my best friend are going out. gee, what are friends for? she knew i liked him, and didnt care... roar, im mad. but hey...he doesnt like me, what can i do? yeah..that doesnt make her going out with him the day after she told me she wouldnt all right. nope, not at all. grr times like, 1000. i hate people, and i hate myself.

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Subject: hmm.. Time: 5:26 pm. Mood: sleepy. Music: Fiona Apple_Across the Universe.

confusion. boys are all confusion. once you get past the confusion, its okay, but until then... confusion. why do they have to be so fucking confusing? it gets lame after a while, the whole 'guess what i'm thinking' gig. like i'm supposed to know exactly who/what he wants and be there for him? argh. confusion. but enough about boys (which is apparently all i ever talk about... ^_^ ) on a more happier note... there IS no happier note. but hey, maybe thats the good thing about being a teenager- room to change. i'm so sleepy ALL THE TIME. i think i have mono, :P or bronchitis. (thanks mikell...) mike had a mild case of bronchitis, and if i get that, we are gonna have a RUMBLE. mostly cause i dont wanna be sick and i think my immune system would come crashing down if that were to happen. blah. sleep. my shoulders hurt..i need a massage. i cant remember the last time i got a good massage...well, yes i can. it was last friday, by mike. yeah, i like mike. (hah hah, funny rhymes...).. but he had a girlfriend. i think they broke up today (they werent gonna last long, you could tell) but still...i wonder if hes over her. she was such a ho. yuck yuck yuck. I have spanish for block tomorrow. im contemplating shooting myself, as to not experience the pain that is spanish tomorrow. bye for now-- *_samAntha_*

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